I Have Carved Words In My Skin

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    I lose the strength to keep my head up above

    the waters surface I desperately want to rest but in the back of my head I am not only waiting for death but I am waiting for something to save me. The last attempt no one did. I would like to think its God. The tall man who barely keeps me alive to enjoy my suffering. I...
    RachelDare RachelDare
    16-17
    Mar 16

    Only Numbers

    Like others I have carved 'FAT' into my thigh. But then I also carved numbers, like how much I was supossed to eat that day. I guess I did it as a reminder to work harder and that I could get through the pain.
    Abandonedheart Abandonedheart
    13-15, F
    Aug 6, 2012

    I've done this once, last year.

    I carved my EX's name into my arm because I was having an emotional breakdown.
    niko031 niko031
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2014

    I was 19 at the time,

    I carved the name of my ex-girlfriend. I was missing her so much.
    voslung voslung
    36-40, M
    Apr 20, 2014

    I have fat on both my thighs

    and hate on my left arm
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount
    16-17, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    She Loved Too Little, I Love Too Much...

    She means the world to me but.... I guess I don't really mean anything to her... She hurt me, now the wounds are visible... Now her name is written in flesh and blood...
    ImSoBrOkEn16 ImSoBrOkEn16
    16-17
    1 Response Apr 11, 2012

    I Carved Her Name

    i love to cut myself so one day i write her name by a piece of glass 1st i took the water glass put it on the wall while holding it but there is only one cut on my hand then i plan to write her name with one piece but its heal soon and then i plan to do it with a blade i do it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 10, 2010

    I carved freak.... ..

    ...…………
    TieTheNoose TieTheNoose
    70+, F
    8 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    Trigger Warning I like carving words

    because to me it hurts more. I am not making random slashes across my legs. It's a different kind of pain that I have found myself become addicted to. I have pathetic, help me, and kill me carved in my left thigh. I also have ugly and ****-up carved in my right thigh. I don't...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2014

    I have been doing this

    since I stopped cutting. It lets me feel something. I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    It's ****** to have fat carved in.

    It's like a reminder! It sucks especially when you're trying to recover from an eating disorder but your thigh is constantly calling you fat
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount
    16-17, F
    Jun 25, 2014

    It hurts so much to know

    that I couldn't make you happy, even though I had so long... I know I'm not fit, I know I'm ugly, I know I'm a waste of time and I know that I deserve all this pain. But you don't have to put salt in the wound like this...
    EvilElmoBoy EvilElmoBoy
    16-17, M
    Jun 5, 2014

    Forget And Live

    So, I'm a cutter, and I have suicidal tendencies. Everyone use to, and still do, tell me to forget the past and what had happened and just live. One day during math this year, someone told me my life was terrible and I should just die, because nobody wanted me. (Touches on stuff...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 17, 2013

    Not My Proudest Moments..

    I have carved words into my skin before. I carved the word "Fat" into my stomach....I have done it before, because its how I really feel. I have carved words into my body, and into my skin more than once.......It was not my proudest moments in the past. I have some pretty nasty...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 6, 2012

    So around two days ago I carved words into my

    skin for the first time in a long time. I know have alone and failure on my left thigh. The whole thing triggered me into wanting more. I know I should be stopping, kind of want to, but I just can't. I just can't.
    akaJessicaJones akaJessicaJones
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2014

    Trigger warning!!! I did words today

    for the first time. I wasn't really thinking while I did it. It just kind of happened. They hurt like hell but atleast now I'm marked by how I am.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 17, 2014

    I Carved The Word Hate On My Arms

    Because this is how i feel inside toward the world and toward myself. Full of hatred and anger toward myself and toward the world.I am very disappointed and angry at myself. I just so full of this intense anger inside me.
    StephanieloveJenniferBeals StephanieloveJenniferBeals
    26-30, F
    Nov 30, 2013

    Pants On Fire...

    I carved the word "LIAR" on my right foot. I meticulously went over each letter with the razor blade, watching the blood pool on the blade, watching it roll over to the bathroom floor. I was going through a very difficult time in my life, and i felt like i was lying to myself...
    weather52 weather52
    22-25
    1 Response May 16, 2010

    And Now That I'm Better, I'm Dealing With The Scars -.-

    I carved a big FAT ***** on my tummy a while ago. It's been months. I mean a LONG time ago. And I still have the scar. It reminds me of a time and place I don't want to go back to. And it makes me feel self conscious too, even if I get healthier and get the body "I want" I'm...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    10 Responses Dec 9, 2011

    I've done it a few times.

    .. Now it's deep.. I look and I see exactly how I feel.. What words can't express my blood can.. I look at it.. Trying to catch all the streams running down my leg... One word.. That's all I needed.. ALONE! That's all I feel... I am in so much pain trying to imagine...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2014

    I've carved hate into my thigh

    and help into my other one.
    anonymousgirl74 anonymousgirl74
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 31, 2014

    I carves the work fat on my wrist

    and its still there I also carved the infinity symbol into my right thigh next to the word fat to let myself no that I will always be fat I put 14 on my upper left thigh for that day I started cutting I feels good to cut myself it feels like an accomplishment
    TheDarkLostSoul TheDarkLostSoul
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 13, 2015

    ...i Hate Myself For This

    My first boyfriend was very abusive, mentaly and physicaly. After two years of being with him, I fianly left, but he constantly hanted me. He would call me in the middle of the night and say how ugly and fat I am. He would go to my school early in the morning and post up flyers...
    deathbyblades16 deathbyblades16
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 3, 2012

    Right at this very moment I am trying to stop

    her (my other self?) from carving WORTHLESS on my stomach... I already have 'I hate you' and 'Pathetic' on my stomach. And '**** you' on the tops of my thighs... Last week I came to.. an i was standing in front of the mirror with a pair of scissors in my hand. I physically...
    myfriendpain myfriendpain
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    "Attention Seeker"

    Too many people think cuts are for attention seeking... I spend too much time hiding the cuts and words on my skin from society. Though ironically, these people are what caused the scars in the first place.
    Heartloveeeee Heartloveeeee
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 10, 2013

    For some reason, I can go a couple of months

    with pure happiness, but it doesn't last. It's as if all the negativity is pushed back until it's over filled, then for a couple of days, I go through pure hell as I fake my smile while come home to tears and hunger. Today I carved the word "smile" onto my ankles. It was so...
    obsessedwiffyou obsessedwiffyou
    13-15, F
    Jan 20, 2014

    I have rage problems

    so back in the day when I got into a lot of fights I used to cut myself when I get home it relaxed me somehow
    yairdjudas999 yairdjudas999
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 21, 2015

    FAT on my tummy, STARVE on my left leg,

    ***** on my right leg, SORRY on my left upper arm
    deaddreamergirl deaddreamergirl
    18-21, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    my dad said my opinion meant nothing- I carved

    nothing really big into my arm it covers my whole forearm
    charlottepreston1999 charlottepreston1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    In chorus, I'll get into a mood

    and I'll carve the words in with a pencil. "Ugly" "*****" And then my friends yell at me and take my pencil away
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 24, 2015

    Recently....

    Just recently, I carved the word "Fat" into my stomach....I have done it before, because its how I really feel. I have carved words into my body, and into my skin more than once....
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 16, 2010

    when I was in high school I cut

    and I carved my gf's name into my upper forearm. when my mother found out I thought she would hate me but she just loved me more
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 20, 2015

    I have been depressed since

    before I can remember
    meeaaa meeaaa
    13-15, M
    May 20, 2015

    I've cut myself for a long time ever

    since I was a small child, and as I grew up, to this day I still do, I've carved my girlfriends name into my thighs more times than I can remember to the point where her name is sacred into my leg.
    NotReallyGinger NotReallyGinger
    18-21, M
    Aug 31, 2015

    A Long Time Ago

    I carved the words I Hate You into my skin, I thought it didn't scar, because I had done it very lightly. But a few months ago, I was applying lotion to my skin and somehow I saw those words, very very hard to be seen because it is the same tone as my skin color. I was shocked to...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 26, 2010

    It wasn't hard enough to break the skin,

    but back in that one night when I side-affected from a pill and I thought I was insane because my thought processes were so weird and fuzzy and scary and self-destructive, I think I wrote "help" on my arm. I can't remember exactly though, and I don't know if there was more or...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 4, 2015

    In 7th grade, the school wide craze was

    "tattooing yourself". My classmates would carve what they wanted into their skin and write over it in Sharpie ink, hoping that it would be permanent. It didn't, so everyone stopped. I tried it one day. I carved "LOVE" into my hand. I'm not stupid; I knew it wouldn't create a...
    leggyshay leggyshay
    18-21, F
    Jun 16, 2015

    Just A Loser

    Well.. My story's not any different from everyone else's. Yeah, I cut. It all started when was looking in the mirror. I was so angry at what I saw, that I punched the mirror. I scratched my arm while doing so. I felt so frustrated that I grabbed a shard of glass and cut my arm...
    jojotheuseless jojotheuseless
    16-17
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    About 5 yeara ago, I carved "love" in my upper

    arm once in a low drunken moment. Two years later I went over it again. I now have it tattooed. I like it.
    Kaiririri Kaiririri
    22-25, F
    Apr 20, 2015

    Using a ice cube has the same feeling

    as cutting. Now you don't have any excuses.
    TheStillmanator TheStillmanator
    13-15, M
    Aug 7, 2014

    I go through phases of self harm,

    and one time in particular i was just feeling horrible and my normal scratching escalated to carving the word "LOSER" into my hand. After it had healed I started to carve the word Freak in the same spot but i stopped myself.
    dandycat123 dandycat123
    18-21, F
    Aug 16, 2015
    cristina44 cristina44
    22-25, F
    Jun 1, 2014

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