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I Have Carved Words In My Skin

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    I've carved hate into my thigh

    and help into my other one.
    anonymousgirl74 anonymousgirl74 16-17, F 4 Responses May 31

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    A Long Time Ago

    I carved the words I Hate You into my skin, I thought it didn't scar, because I had done it very lightly. But a few months ago, I was applying lotion to my skin and somehow I saw those words, very very hard to be seen because it is the same tone as my skin color. I was shocked to...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26, 2010

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    I've done this once, last year.

    I carved my EX's name into my arm because I was having an emotional breakdown.
    niko031 niko031 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Her Name!!

    I carved my girl friend's name on my hand 5 year back, in fact i wrote her name with a hot needle, that time i suffered from heavy fever for a week because of pain.. i din't felt pain that time because i loved her madly... now when i see her name on my hand i feel unbearable pain...
    ammi17 ammi17 16-17, M 10 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    And I Don't Talk About It

    Because it makes all those thoughts come rushing back in. But since you people understand...I have carved fat, selfish, weak, worthless, worthless, worthless, hope into my skin. And the words aren't there anymore, but I can't forget about them.
    poeticprose poeticprose 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 3, 2013

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    I'm A Carver

    For the passed four years I have been a cutter.Not only a cutter, but what most people call a "carver." I frequently carve words into my arm; more often than regular cuts. Just last night I carved the word "UNWANTED" into my left forearm because that's how I feel lately. I always...
    LoveMeXoXHateMe LoveMeXoXHateMe 13-15 2 Responses Dec 9, 2011

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    Alphabinge

    I write what I feel and I don't feel much unless I cut. I once got into a mood and wrote exactly what I felt into my thighs. One side read 'I hate you' and 'you're worthless' and the other said 'alone. ' It bled and bled for what seemed like forever then I pressed my leg to a...
    ibizzy ibizzy 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2012

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    I was 19 at the time,

    I carved the name of my ex-girlfriend. I was missing her so much.
    voslung voslung 36-40, M Apr 20

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    Who Dare Win

    Started to cut that in when I was 16.... I refresh it every year or 2... Im 44 now    SCARES ARE THE TATTOOS OF THE BRAVE!
    TEMPOLTON TEMPOLTON 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    It hurts so much to know

    that I couldn't make you happy, even though I had so long... I know I'm not fit, I know I'm ugly, I know I'm a waste of time and I know that I deserve all this pain. But you don't have to put salt in the wound like this...
    EvilElmoBoy EvilElmoBoy 13-15, M Jun 5

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    I have fat on both my thighs

    and hate on my left arm
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Apr 20

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    ...i Hate Myself For This

    My first boyfriend was very abusive, mentaly and physicaly. After two years of being with him, I fianly left, but he constantly hanted me. He would call me in the middle of the night and say how ugly and fat I am. He would go to my school early in the morning and post up flyers...
    deathbyblades16 deathbyblades16 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 3, 2012

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    She Loved Too Little, I Love Too Much...

    She means the world to me but.... I guess I don't really mean anything to her... She hurt me, now the wounds are visible... Now her name is written in flesh and blood...
    ImSoBrOkEn16 ImSoBrOkEn16 16-17 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    So around two days ago I carved words into my

    skin for the first time in a long time. I know have alone and failure on my left thigh. The whole thing triggered me into wanting more. I know I should be stopping, kind of want to, but I just can't. I just can't.
    FOBIsPerfection FOBIsPerfection 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    Help..

    I have ´help´ carved on my arm..
    Suicide16 Suicide16 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    Long Forgotten...

    I actually forgot about the many many words I'd sliced into my skin, because I never went over them enough to leave a scar (although now it seems every scratch I get scars, it used to be almost impossible for me to get a scar) and also I haven't cut myself since the beginning of...
    laquera laquera 18-21, F Mar 31, 2013

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    Burn Carved Words

    I don't cut words in my skin, I burn my skin with a knife and write 'help' or 'die' with the burned knife.
    Suicide16 Suicide16 16-17, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    I've done it a few times.

    .. Now it's deep.. I look and I see exactly how I feel.. What words can't express my blood can.. I look at it.. Trying to catch all the streams running down my leg... One word.. That's all I needed.. ALONE! That's all I feel... I am in so much pain trying to imagine...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I Carved The Word Hate On My Arms

    Because this is how i feel inside toward the world and toward myself. Full of hatred and anger toward myself and toward the world.I am very disappointed and angry at myself. I just so full of this intense anger inside me.
    StephanieloveJenniferBeals StephanieloveJenniferBeals 26-30, F Nov 30, 2013

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    I Carve

    I carved love hate and **** u into my right thigh my thigh and arm are covered in cuts and i can't seem to stop :( iv wrote my story and iv gone over it over and over again but I can't seem to post it im scared people will judge me :/
    666Abi666 666Abi666 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2012

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    Perfect

    As cliched as it seems, I have carved the word 'perfect' into my arms, legs and stomach. Just to remind myself if I miss a meal or purge one more time I'll be that one step closer to being perfect. I know there is no such thing as perfect. But in my mind there is no harm in...
    mrsbiersack mrsbiersack 16-17, F Jan 3, 2013

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    Non Sense

    I have been cutting for about 2 years now. I've done a lot of line cutting , then it was words. Fail and end were the words. I'm currently having an obcession over some one so I carved his name on me. Didn't help much. Gosh my skin hurts and my soul hurts. Will I get better one...
    insanaty insanaty 31-35, F Sep 18, 2013

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    my dad said my opinion meant nothing- I carved

    nothing really big into my arm it covers my whole forearm
    charlottepreston1999 charlottepreston1999 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Not My Proudest Moments..

    I have carved words into my skin before. I carved the word "Fat" into my stomach....I have done it before, because its how I really feel. I have carved words into my body, and into my skin more than once.......It was not my proudest moments in the past. I have some pretty nasty...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 6, 2012

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    "Attention Seeker"

    Too many people think cuts are for attention seeking... I spend too much time hiding the cuts and words on my skin from society. Though ironically, these people are what caused the scars in the first place.
    Heartloveeeee Heartloveeeee 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    LOVE

    I've had problems with depression off and on since sometime around 4th or 5th grade, and I started cutting in 8th grade. I hadn't cut in months, but some stuff happened and I started cutting again. Recently I carved the word love into my wrist, and everytime it starts to heal I...
    XxXSkyXxX XxXSkyXxX 18-21 Jul 7, 2013

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    Carver

    I carved IDM (I don't matter) on my arm, Emo on my leg but I did a terrible job, Fat on my leg and I carved am M on my leg too I can't read or remember what else I did it was a long time ago, a month free from cutting :D
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 8, 2013

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    Trigger warning!!! I did words today

    for the first time. I wasn't really thinking while I did it. It just kind of happened. They hurt like hell but atleast now I'm marked by how I am.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M Jul 17

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    Trigger Warning I like carving words

    because to me it hurts more. I am not making random slashes across my legs. It's a different kind of pain that I have found myself become addicted to. I have pathetic, help me, and kill me carved in my left thigh. I also have ugly and ****-up carved in my right thigh. I don't...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F Aug 7

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    And Now That I'm Better, I'm Dealing With The Scars -.-

    I carved a big FAT ***** on my tummy a while ago. It's been months. I mean a LONG time ago. And I still have the scar. It reminds me of a time and place I don't want to go back to. And it makes me feel self conscious too, even if I get healthier and get the body "I want" I'm...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 9, 2011

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    I Carved Her Name

    i love to cut myself so one day i write her name by a piece of glass 1st i took the water glass put it on the wall while holding it but there is only one cut on my hand then i plan to write her name with one piece but its heal soon and then i plan to do it with a blade i do it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    Forget And Live

    So, I'm a cutter, and I have suicidal tendencies. Everyone use to, and still do, tell me to forget the past and what had happened and just live. One day during math this year, someone told me my life was terrible and I should just die, because nobody wanted me. (Touches on stuff...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 17, 2013

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    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F Jun 1

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    One Step Closer To Happiness...

    It all started in 7th grade. I discovered my friends wanted to use me more than they wanted my friendship. Next came seeking friends in online chat rooms. Now I won't say this is true for every guy but, you can only imagine what most of the guys I encountered wanted. So now...
    AstersMomma AstersMomma 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2013

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    Endorphins

    I started this year, and I don't remember why I started. I have carved 'fat', 'help', and just last night I made a cut on my stomach. I have an Instagram account aside from my regular one where I vent and show what I've done. People tell me it's for attention, and that mine don't...
    azurite24 azurite24 13-15 2 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    Just A Loser

    Well.. My story's not any different from everyone else's. Yeah, I cut. It all started when was looking in the mirror. I was so angry at what I saw, that I punched the mirror. I scratched my arm while doing so. I felt so frustrated that I grabbed a shard of glass and cut my arm...
    jojotheuseless jojotheuseless 16-17 3 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Just Because!

    just because we cut doesnt mean we're suicidal! we have our reasons but 9 times out of ten,that reason is NOT death!
    emokidd254 emokidd254 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 25, 2012

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    Recently....

    Just recently, I carved the word "Fat" into my stomach....I have done it before, because its how I really feel. I have carved words into my body, and into my skin more than once....
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2010

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    For some reason, I can go a couple of months

    with pure happiness, but it doesn't last. It's as if all the negativity is pushed back until it's over filled, then for a couple of days, I go through pure hell as I fake my smile while come home to tears and hunger. Today I carved the word "smile" onto my ankles. It was so...
    obsessedwiffyou obsessedwiffyou 13-15, F Jan 20

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    Pants On Fire...

    I carved the word "LIAR" on my right foot. I meticulously went over each letter with the razor blade, watching the blood pool on the blade, watching it roll over to the bathroom floor. I was going through a very difficult time in my life, and i felt like i was lying to myself...
    weather52 weather52 22-25 1 Response May 16, 2010

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    I have been doing this

    since I stopped cutting. It lets me feel something. I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all.
    BeautyInBlack BeautyInBlack 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 24

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    Because I Thought I Deserved It.

    Last year I was away at college and my girlfriend remained in my hometown. Things had gotten complicated to say the least, she cheated on me and then I ended up cheating on her. Long story short it was not an entirely healthy or smooth relationship. After I told her that I had...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 18-21, F Mar 22, 2013

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    It's ****** to have fat carved in.

    It's like a reminder! It sucks especially when you're trying to recover from an eating disorder but your thigh is constantly calling you fat
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Jun 25

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    Only Numbers

    Like others I have carved 'FAT' into my thigh. But then I also carved numbers, like how much I was supossed to eat that day. I guess I did it as a reminder to work harder and that I could get through the pain.
    Abandonedheart Abandonedheart 13-15, F Aug 6, 2012

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    "fat" And "**** It"

    I have carved, not just lines into my skin, but from time to time, I have put words on my skin as well. Kinda like giving myself a tatoo. I have carved the words fat into my stomach many times, and I have craved **** It, into my breast at one time.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 10, 2010

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    "worthless"

    is the word i have carved into my skin. every letter is now a full scar and will always be a perment rmeinder as to what i truly am. i am worthless and i always will be
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 28, 2010

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    I Was A Carver

    I have carved many things into my arms, my legs, my stomach in the past. The worst i ever did was when i carved the word worthless into my upper thigh . The word is still there and its been there for a while a good half a year it still has not gone away. Every day I look at it...
    becca95 becca95 16-17, F Oct 10, 2012

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    I Need To Stop But I Don't Want To

    Failure. Alone. Hopeless. My fault, fat, stupid, worthless, looser, lame, ugly, piece of s**t, . These are all the words my skin has acquired over the past 2 weeks. 278 lines. I need to stop. I need help. I don't want to stop. I don't want help.
    Kevasaur Kevasaur 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    No Surrender

    I have been struggling with my own happiness and hope for a long time and I guess I always will. But if I'm sure of one thing, it's that I won't give up. I am stronger than my issues and problems and the way they make me feel. As I cut I decided to crave "no surrender" into my...
    xNovemberRainx xNovemberRainx 18-21, F Jul 20, 2013

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    Using a ice cube has the same feeling

    as cutting. Now you don't have any excuses.
    TheStillmanator TheStillmanator 13-15, M Aug 7

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    i have been cutting for almost a year now. a year from the 25th of september. i was okay, not cutting for a little while. but i started again. i stopped because my doctor found out and checked my body ever two weeks. but i've carved FAT into my stomach and thighs sooo sooo many...
    naomitheninja naomitheninja 13-15, F Sep 11, 2013

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