I Have Changed

The camp I attended last week was not an ordinary camp.

No bonfire, no tents..

It was called Holy Week Camp.

Holy Week-- the time the prophecy of our salvation took place.

It rebuilt the bridge between Jesus and me.

I have...

They grow.
They change.
They live. :D
 

You wanted a story. Here it is. But I have no idea what you're expecting or what you want. I don't understand any of this. I guess I'll just explain what's been going on with me.
When you sent me that message two months ago from...

when the net was so slow.. and the loading was so long... I got frustrated... made me want to open more tabs..

but now

I just wait... just wait LOLz

About 6 months ago. I was nothing. I was a walking corpse.
I never went out, didn't shower the love of my life with the
affection he deserved. Neglected my friends, and embarked
on a passionate love affair with the seductress that is...

I really feel like I overcame depression.
I'm fighting hard against it whenever it tries to show up, I'm talking myself into not being so shy..
And the last 2 weeks were the best ones I had in years.

I've changed and I am not proud of the person I have become. I was taught to never speak up, to ignore my feelings, to agree with anything and everything to avoid arguments and fights, to avoid being hit by my ex husband..... I also...

 
I'm sitting here thinking..............I am not the same person I used to be.
I used to draw. I could draw faces. I loved to draw peoples faces. I could make them look life like and identical to the model.
I can't...

I was suffering from borderline personality disorder and depression before I turned to God and my life has been totally changed ever since. I believed and asked God to heal me and within two weeks I was off my meds and doing...

I believe that no matter how badly people treat me. I always be me, I always be kind, helpfull, & honest! This is because I rather be true to myself then act like a child and mimic behaviour I don't agree with. Check out my blog on...

We've all been hurt. Some more, some less. I have been hurt numerous times previous & since due to many different circumstances...
You know what was worse than the hurt the fact that I was so disillusioned. I went into my marriage and...

I am a completely different person. My priorities have changed. What wasn't so important to me a couple years ago is everything to me now. Knowing that these specific things are so important and fundamental to my happiness makes all my...

Yes...I have changed....from a sweet, nurturing girl into a ranting, raging bitch.  The catalyst for this change?  My darling stb hubby AT.  He has taught me one thing, though...I can write.  In fact, I write so well...

I'm so different these days.
Trying to be more of who I am rather than who I want to be.
I know who I want to be, but I really don't know who I am and what others see me as.

I have no clue what has been happening in the world for almost 5 years now.
I do not listen to or watch news, I do not buy papers or magazines.
I do not have a television nor watch movies.
And you know what!? I still revel in this fact...

I change something about me daily. I do it by default and not by purpose.
But a major change that has happend is my realizations after a mini break from EP changed something too-
I realized EP is like a drug- it activats my brain...

Since starting High school last year, the positive person that I was always glad to be, and was more or less the true me, has completely disappeared from this world, this universe entirely. Since starting high school, I have become a...

I suppose technically I still am someone, but I don't think this someone is really worth being.
I used to sing. I used to sing every day. I sang for thirty years. I loved it. I don't sing anymore. Once in a while I start, just to try...

I had so many abuses and carried so much pain with me that I had no quality of life - every day was survival - barely - and i was barely any o myself - too trapped in fear.
 
But yay! lOTS OF HEALING, COUNSELING, FIGHTING, ALANON...

I have changed because He found me again..