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I Have Changed

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    I used to feel so excited to go to church.

    That was my family. A place where I fit in. Now, I don't know where I'm at. Part of me wants to go to church later today just for a sense of community. But will I feel like I'm really still a part of them?
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    Wow has it been a lone time I got on here

    when I was 15 and now I'm 20! 0.0 5 years it's been and sense then my life has gotten amazing! I met the man of my dreams and even have the job of my dreams (even tho it isn't going very well yet but I have hope!) It's amazing how those 5 years have changed me and how happy I am...
    RachelEmily RachelEmily 18-21, F Jun 12

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    Well you know last year

    and the years before that I was always a good girl, but now? Now I'm not so good anymore. I'm doing everything I said I would NEVER do. I'm having sex before marriage, smoking but not a lot, cussing, and just do bad things. I think what made me change is the fact that I hated...
    NaNaJene NaNaJene 16-17, F Jul 11

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    Alot of ppl keep banging in my ears

    that i have no manners and im disrespectful all sort of shittt well guess wat that didnt happen over nite how i am or how im getting u guys are the main cause life just sucks EVERY MAN FOR THEM-SELF NAH
    misslovely16 misslovely16 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I was fighting.. trying to figure it out Wat

    actually happened.. I'm not the person I used to be. Always had an anger an attitude.. the fire..really liked to hangout with my friends.. buy branded clothes and gadgets. Now.. These things seems artificial to me.. I've no appetite for them.. I'm contended with Wat I have.. I...
    avatar1990 avatar1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Change :

    I change something about me daily. I do it by default and not by purpose. But a major change that has happend is my realizations after a mini break from EP changed something too- I realized EP is like a drug- it activats my brain to all the experiences I have had in life...
    tenderfoot1 tenderfoot1 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    Have I lost my way? Am I a lost sheep?

    I don't think so. I just don't believe as I used to. Still, sometimes I wonder. Does God still love me? I hope so.
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F Jul 30

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    I miss loving socialising.

    But I wouldn't exchange my solitude for the crowd. I'm too attached to it now.
    AnotherAvailableUsername AnotherAvailableUsername 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I used to be the devil himself

    but I've changed. Even though I've changed I'm not no where near the person I want to be. I've hurt people emotionally and physically. I knew at times I hurt people to the point they had to walk out of my life for the better, and that hurts me knowing I did that to some people...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    When i look back on my life i see how much i

    have changed but the drastic change happened the day i lost my mum. Nothing can prepare you for something like that, i use to think to myself that when it did happen i would be able to handle it but i just couldn't. A few days after the funeral after i thought i had felt the...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29

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    I have. A lot. Especially

    since the last time I was on this stupid website. I've change physically, emotionally, every which way possible. I've become a lot more positive and happy with my appearance, my hair has grown, I have gotten more piercings, I've become more attractive. I've grown into a young...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 3 Responses May 31

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    I've recently become very aggressive in my

    written language... I really don't mean to be. I think it's because of all the fights I had over text with my ex. I should really try to stop telling people they're "dumbf*cks" and "dipsh*ts" LOL
    Chrissaysyourock Chrissaysyourock 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    A Lot

    I have changed like a lot recently! In fact, I have become another person, something happened and it totally changed me.We change all the time, but the problem is that in real life, there are no records of things you say, thoughts you have and ideas you believe in, but on here...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 14 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Completely.

    I am a completely different person. My priorities have changed. What wasn't so important to me a couple years ago is everything to me now. Knowing that these specific things are so important and fundamental to my happiness makes all my efforts worthwhile. I feel more independent...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2010

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    Since joining EP about a year ago

    so much has changed in my life. I left my miserable little town and went on into bigger and better things. Now reading these experiences like "I'm lonely" or "I battle depression" I know your pain. I want all you beautiful souls to realize it is NOT YOU but your environment! So...
    whocares16 whocares16 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I Got Stronger..

    I really feel like I overcame depression. I'm fighting hard against it whenever it tries to show up, I'm talking myself into not being so shy.. And the last 2 weeks were the best ones I had in years.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 23, 2008

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    it's scary to see how much ive changed.

    I look in the mirror and I see a completely different person. it's been a long time since I've seen my family and talked to my friends..I still wonder if they ever worry about me. I've made the wrong choices in life for way too long and now im paying the price. If I could give...
    oaklandman oaklandman 16-17, M Jun 1

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    Dance Of A Lifetime

    You wanted a story. Here it is. But I have no idea what you're expecting or what you want. I don't understand any of this. I guess I'll just explain what's been going on with me. When you sent me that message two months ago from someone else's phone saying I could not contact...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    I Am Living My Life!

    I was suffering from borderline personality disorder and depression before I turned to God and my life has been totally changed ever since. I believed and asked God to heal me and within two weeks I was off my meds and doing great. I haven't experienced ANY symptoms...
    Anna08 Anna08 22-25, F 4 Responses May 23, 2009

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    For three years EP was the one thing

    that helped me through the hard times, being able to relate to others was what i really needed. Though leaving for a few months was good for me, to learn on my own, and to just relate to myself i suppose. I'm glad to say that i am back. Hopefully this time for good. A lot in my...
    Bluetoxicity Bluetoxicity 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I am 20 years old now.

    I spend my days working, dreaming, and loving. A few years ago, I was very different. My heart was full of unrecognized pain. There was a terrible ache that I carried around waiting for someone else to fix. It is very clear, even from reading previous posts, that I felt sorry...
    blissfullyaware blissfullyaware 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    I Worry About You

    Seeing you in pain makes me die a bit inside. It's such a helpless feeling to know there isn't really anything I can do to help. The sadness you let slip about how much you hate what's happened to you. In so many ways you're no longer the person I fell in love with but there's...
    CrowdOfOne CrowdOfOne 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2013

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    It's an unusual feeling to be able to "see" a

    change in yourself. It's so evident when I look back on my posts, here and elsewhere. I didn't try either it just happened, and I guess I'm better off...? Happier, at least and that's all that really matters!
    neveragoodusername neveragoodusername 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I feel like I haven't changed

    but grown up and really started to understand the person that I am and the person who I want to be.
    Kathryn2093 Kathryn2093 18-21, F Sep 9

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    I recently found out how inpatient I am And

    now I'm learning things to keep me calm. You can't change the Environment just adapt to it. ;)
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    Different..

    Even though I have finally found myself, it feels that I've also lost myself. Somehow, I have everything going for me..my motivation (somewhat, not all), my goal is clear in sight, and my happiness. But...I'm not really myself any more. The old me before I got better was a much...
    Obsidiann Obsidiann 18-21 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    I Was So Full of Pain

    I had so many abuses and carried so much pain with me that I had no quality of life - every day was survival - barely - and i was barely any o myself - too trapped in fear.   But yay! lOTS OF HEALING, COUNSELING, FIGHTING, ALANON, RECOVERY & work -- and I'm much better...
    kylae77 kylae77 31-35, F 1 Response May 3, 2009

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    So I took a break from this website to figure

    things out on my own and to thinks things through I have grown a lot since the last time I have been on this website. I would like to say I'm back and I would love to help other because I am happier since last time somethings still hurt and somethings still bother me but I have...
    GoodbyesandHellos GoodbyesandHellos 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    One Year Later...

    Today marks a year of a promise I made to myself. And I actually kept it. I promised myself that I would abstain from intimate relations for a full year before I considered trying to be with anyone. The reason for implemating this is due to the cycle that I was seeing being...
    Lostsoul22 Lostsoul22 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    My world is black. I'm numb.

    I have horrible thoughts and mental images. Every single day, I go through mental and emotional hell. Not many people know and I'm so closed up I just don't talk about any of this. I'm to ashamed. I don't know what's become of me...I feel disgusting.
    Pain1sR3al Pain1sR3al 18-21, F May 22

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    Recluse

    About 6 months ago. I was nothing. I was a walking corpse. I never went out, didn't shower the love of my life with the affection he deserved. Neglected my friends, and embarked on a passionate love affair with the seductress that is Alcohol. All the time, I would just drink, not...
    PhoenixFoges PhoenixFoges 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    Time Have Changed And So Have I

    Times have changed This is our hope, this is our dream What a wonderful life, what a wonderful thing Times have changed Seasons come and seasons go Morning, noon and night It all seems right Times have changed Child, teen, adult Seed, tree, fruit We know the process Times have...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    In an attempt to learn about myself,

    I have spent many years studying spirituality. And while I have learned much about the esoteric, I don't think I learned all that much about myself. I think that's the problem with seeking outsiders for knowledge and asking other people for things that should be a very personal...
    Crownite Crownite 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21

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    When I was younger, I was terrible.

    I was rude, stuck up, flirted, bullied, and dressed like a 8 year old ********. But I've changed ever since my Dad almost died... It was rough but it completely changed my character. After all of that, I changed schools (And wardrobe!!) for a new high school. *Fact, I may have...
    Cheesepls Cheesepls 13-15 6 hrs ago

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    I miss loving socialising.

    But I wouldn't exchange my solitude for the for the crowd. I'm too attached to it now.
    AnotherAvailableUsername AnotherAvailableUsername 22-25, F Jun 22

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    Haha I was looking through my experiences

    and some of the change that happens from now to the beginning is jut me getting more comfortable on this website and some is just a real change. Like I went from being single to in the best relationship ever! And my music taste has grown a little but it does that when ever I...
    Stormymusic599 Stormymusic599 13-15, F Apr 26

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    When did I become so weak

    and powerless. I used to be a fighter. I had so much passion and motivation; now accepting defeat is all I do. Who is this sorry pathetic girl who has taken over my life? When did she get here? All I can think about is the people who have believed in me throughout the years and...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    One year ago I was the worst person you could

    think of. My family walked out of my life, my friends walked away, I did things I am ashamed of. The fire department told me to grow up, I had a lot of bad repetition there. I had a boyfriend but I told him to get out of my life. I wasn't a very good role model for the baby. Now...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    After two years my employer has added in

    coverage for the needed surgeries. My BA is done, going from 42B to 42D has been a delightful event in my journey. My Plans are all set for my SRS in July, everything is done and I am now just waiting for the date to arrive. I have been absent from Experience Project due to...
    Alasandra Alasandra 51-55, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    When I was 17 I was a very bad person.

    I talked back to my parents, I was very disobedient and I had 5 piercings in my ear without parental permission, I didn't care what my parents told me, I used to call them names and resulting me getting punished but I acted as if nothing happened, I even started to smoke . Then...
    1993george 1993george 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 2 Responses Mar 23

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    You get older and your perception on the entire

    world changes. Aspirations for brighter possibilities become traded for the cinematic memories of moments long since passed. Time becomes a scarce commodity once taken completely for granted now disappearing like sand within a tall spiraling hourglass. We watch idly as the...
    lifethroughbalance lifethroughbalance 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    That's What People Do.

    They grow. They change. They live. :D  
    Elwing Elwing 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2008

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    I used to be the person

    that sat in class with his head down. Reading a book. Even my friends at lunch irritated me, I couldnt stand people. But then I changed to my new school, and everything changed. I went from having 2 people I enjoyed talking to to having 2 people I don't like. I talk to everyone...
    ssjwesker ssjwesker 18-21, M Jun 2

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    Ode to My Children, Oh How They Change You

        I'm sitting here thinking..............I am not the same person I used to be. I used to draw. I could draw faces. I loved to draw peoples faces. I could make them look life like and identical to the model. I can't find my inspiration. I used to sing. I...
    FireNice FireNice 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2007

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    The time I have spent on Experience Project has

    been the most valuable time I have ever spent anywhere. I have written almost everyday. I have ben here since 2009 under another name of sofican I changed it and began to write under MsOracle, it was a fun name or so I thought until I realized it was me, I owned up t being...
    MsOracle MsOracle 66-70, F Apr 10

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    There's a time when I used to care about a lot

    of things. When I used to take into account other people's feelings. When I used to think twice about whether or not something I say will hurt someone. There's a time when I included a lot of people in my hopes and aspirations for the future. Now, I've come to realize who people...
    AcousticAnne AcousticAnne 26-30, F 9 Responses May 17

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    Change For The Better

    I recently had a lot of events happen in my life that made me change into a completely different person. (From what I believe) Before these changes occured, I was a Marine Corps recruiter and my life was simple. I would drink every night, go to the gym, party, curse, be selfish...
    ceevans4 ceevans4 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    I cut my hair short (but it's growing back

    already) my mother told me to never cut it again... My dad never liked the idea of cutting my hair in the first place. I fixed my grammar a little I spell almost everything out now. My closet and outfits have been cleared out.(no more guy clothes goodbye tomboy) sneakers are...
    MerpR MerpR 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    I'm not your average girl.

    I've always been a tomboy & have never really liked feminine clothing. For a while I struggled with my identity, as anyone does, but eventually I became comfortable with myself and developed my own look. Then, about two months ago, this guy I'm really attracted to commented...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    And Not In A Good Way....

    Yes...I have changed....from a sweet, nurturing girl into a ranting, raging *****.  The catalyst for this change?  My darling stb hubby AT.  He has taught me one thing, though...I can write.  In fact, I write so well, I can make things up out of whole cloth...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F Oct 31, 2010

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    I can say without a doubt,

    that 2014 has been the most significant for me in terms of growth. Looking back on the person i was last year, i can unequivocally say that i have changed. But is it a good change? That is what i am unsure of.
    Ally95xx Ally95xx 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 10

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    I knew my life seemed different

    but I have felt like a completely different person since school started. I feel like I was different just 2 weeks ago. Its amazing but sometimes people can't handle that. I can't help that. But I'm happy with life now.
    katd1234 katd1234 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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