I Have Changed

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    After two years my employer has added in

    coverage for the needed surgeries. My BA is done, going from 42B to 42D has been a delightful event in my journey. My Plans are all set for my SRS in July, everything is done and I am now just waiting for the date to arrive. I have been absent from Experience Project due to...
    Alasandra Alasandra
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2014

    Well I remember it was a time I came up here

    all the time complaining or venting about my life. I can't ever say I will be ok about what I have been through. I have learned to except what I can't change. I hope that I feel this good for the rest of my life. I stopped all my medications. Now I can sleep at night on my own...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady
    31-35, F
    Feb 24, 2016

    A Lot

    I have changed like a lot recently! In fact, I have become another person, something happened and it totally changed me.We change all the time, but the problem is that in real life, there are no records of things you say, thoughts you have and ideas you believe in, but on here...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    26-30, F
    12 Responses Oct 7, 2013

    I felt like such a moron today.

    I reverted to my old style of dress because it's what I felt I had available to wear, & I just felt... I don't know what the word is... uncomfortable? Like the clothes didn't fit me? Not in a physical sense, but... I like to express myself through what I wear, and I felt like it...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    Change For The Better

    I recently had a lot of events happen in my life that made me change into a completely different person. (From what I believe) Before these changes occured, I was a Marine Corps recruiter and my life was simple. I would drink every night, go to the gym, party, curse, be selfish...
    ChesterPalmer ChesterPalmer
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 7, 2013

    I have. A lot. Especially

    since the last time I was on this stupid website. I've change physically, emotionally, every which way possible. I've become a lot more positive and happy with my appearance, my hair has grown, I have gotten more piercings, I've become more attractive. I've grown into a young...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 31, 2014

    I can't keep making excuses.

    It's time to let go of the past and move on.
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    Jan 13, 2016

    It's weird how much I've changed in less

    than a year I've cut almost all of my hair I have more of a idgaf attitude which is crazy because looking at this I was really looking for people to like me and I've been in a relationship with this beautiful girl for like a year and we're in love which is crazy cause i was so...
    PapiChocolate PapiChocolate
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

    I used to be hella gross.

    But I think I look a lot better now lol.
    LiveLoveCoffee LiveLoveCoffee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    I've changed a lot. I still am.

    First, I was a pretty decent guy, then I just became nicer, now I'm not as nice and am starting to hate the human race, LOL!
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Dec 21, 2014

    I used to be that kid

    that would beg to be in a swim team or something, I just loved water so much! I always loved to go swimming in very deep areas of a lake or pool, whatever I could swim in. Ever since I started my periods, around 9 years of age, I just lost interest. I mean, if I'm alone I won't...
    Jaylaska Jaylaska
    16-17, F
    Nov 3, 2015

    I am Not the person I was 2 years ago.

    .. I've changed so much and in so many ways. I'm not the girl who was always quite and never stood up for herself. I am no longer the one who only cared about what her parents wanted for her. I am not the girl whom at some point was so depressed she was thinking about suicide. I...
    MissImaginaryy MissImaginaryy
    18-21, F
    Mar 13, 2015

    I'm slowly getting over being the victim of a

    physically abusive relationship. I've cycled through so many emotions since then, it's hard to even be sure of who I am anymore. Lately I've been angry and sad, fearful, depressed, anxious, pensive, hopeless... hopeful. And all of these emotions can happen over the course of one...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2015

    One year ago I was the worst person you could

    think of. My family walked out of my life, my friends walked away, I did things I am ashamed of. The fire department told me to grow up, I had a lot of bad repetition there. I had a boyfriend but I told him to get out of my life. I wasn't a very good role model for the baby. Now...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt
    18-21, F
    Jul 6, 2014

    ... my username. from ZenaMarie to a much

    cooler name. I apologize for any confusion.
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Feb 9, 2016

    I've been sober for a year.

    I love the person I'm stepping up to become...for myself, for my children. Unfortunately, my husband is using alcohol more and more often to disconnect from our life. I'm so angry! Sometimes. Other times I honestly just want out. I've changed, and he refuses to see that our...
    andrewstoyou andrewstoyou
    31-35, F
    Aug 21, 2015

    I used to be super sad

    and annoying and depressed when I started on EP awhile ago. I was getting bad grades and struggling to stay social. Now I'm still a quieter person (because that's who I am) but I'm happier now and nobody has been able to change that. I'm getting SUPER good grades and eating...
    haydenkate haydenkate
    18-21, F
    Sep 15, 2015

    Before I go to bed I just wanna say thanks to

    the man in the big house lol you know who i mean the Lord. I just wanna say thanks for the life I have I know that my life is a blessing in disguise why because I've been through a lot. In life you have 2 choices change yourself for the good or the bad I've always been a happy...
    mowerben mowerben
    22-25, M
    Jul 30, 2015

    I haven't been on here

    for a while due to many things. I had an operation and that element is still awaiting news but this new year has made me feel like a new me. I am doing what I love to doing, im working out, eating better and just feel good in general. I have learnt over the years that things...
    MissMay97 MissMay97
    18-21, F
    Jan 8, 2016

    Once upon a time I had a sense of morals,

    a sense of good and bad, a conscience. Then I stepped into the real world. Now I am the person I used to despise. I am dishonest to the world. I'm dishonest to the person who gave me the most happiness. I am dishonest to myself. I am also a hypocrite. I please the people I...
    Demonizer Demonizer
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

    I'm at a transitional period in my life

    and I don't know what to say or how I fully feel. I think I feel something building that wants to erupt but I don't know when or how it will manifest.
    wingedjaguar wingedjaguar
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Nov 20, 2014
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    1 Response Mar 18, 2015

    This world isn't for the soft people,

    you have to fight every day for your existence. Existence, yea which people tend to forget unless you are popular, good looking and most importantly rich. there is no place for a good heart.In my way long I made friends, competitors and enemies for sure. still no one to talk to...
    shaundskr shaundskr
    18-21, F
    Feb 12, 2016

    My life has been changing

    so much so fast. I have been writing a sentence every now and then the past few months of new feelings and things that has happened. Here's what I have since last April. Decided I want to do something Made a decision to jump and fall Joined the marine corps Have friends and...
    abirdiiie abirdiiie
    22-25, M
    Nov 1, 2015

    I changed a lot since I left EP.

    Nice to see how everything can change within a year. I guess at some point you just realise that some changes are inevitable and life has a lot more good in it than we often judge. I'm no longer depressed, seems like now I reject everything related to depression. Don't know why...
    Rainatmidnight97 Rainatmidnight97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015
    londonbr1dge londonbr1dge
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2015

    I first joined EP- I think- four years ago.

    I was a lonely and miserable girl stuck in the house all the time, afraid to step outside. I had all these fears and ghosts from the past that haunted me and gave me a gloomy and terrifying perspective of the outside world. I couldn't go to college. I didn't have any money. I...
    Demonizer Demonizer
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    I saw on my own profile

    that I have been a member of EP since October 29, 2011. I clearly remember what a bad place I was in. Four years later I am in the best place I have ever been.
    OMGitsRiley OMGitsRiley
    26-30, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    I have changed a lot

    since joining EP. A lot of my older experiences and stories are no longer relevant to me. I still have social anxiety, but nowhere near as bad. Because of a medication. I now know why I am the way I am. Autism. It's no longer just a thought in the back of my head. I was fully...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015

    To all my friends who keeps telling me every

    second that I've changed, please try to agree to the fact that I've changed.. I know I wasn't like this before.. you may call it as weirdness, rude, strange whatever.. If you feel that I've changed, obviously you'd have done something in the past for me to behave that way now...
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2015

    As a little kid I thought

    that respecting our parents and education didn't really matter. I wouldn't care and it didn't bother me at all. But then one day I suddenly realised that isn't wasn't right and things started to change, I started to respect my parents, and still trying! And I'm excelling in...
    ShaneelNeedsFriends ShaneelNeedsFriends
    18-21, M
    Feb 17, 2016

    To all the kids out there

    who self harm, I've been in your shoes, I know how it feels, but believe me it does get better. You may not believe me now but one day you'll realize you don't need those blades! You are perfect as you! Be beautiful, be free, and please put away the razor.
    HannahB15 HannahB15
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    I just had someone ask about my childhood abuse,

    it's made me think another thought, from another day another time. I was contacted by a paedophile on here earlier in the year - they openly told me of what they had done. It was someone looking for solace from what they'd done to a young cousin of theirs. They I think wanted...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    Transformation from 9th grade,

    10th, and now 11th 😎 haha.
    samuelkinslow samuelkinslow
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I haven't posted in like a year

    and I honestly believe I am a completely different person. Some previous memories were brought back up an I thought why not. My interest of werewolves have never stopped but they are less obsessive, I've become a huge romantic and appreciate the small things. I started this...
    YoungPup101 YoungPup101
    16-17, F
    Apr 21, 2016

    I was fighting.. trying to figure it out Wat

    actually happened.. I'm not the person I used to be. Always had an anger an attitude.. the fire..really liked to hangout with my friends.. buy branded clothes and gadgets. Now.. These things seems artificial to me.. I've no appetite for them.. I'm contended with Wat I have.. I...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 14, 2014

    When I was 17 I was a very bad person.

    I talked back to my parents, I was very disobedient and I had 5 piercings in my ear without parental permission, I didn't care what my parents told me, I used to call them names and resulting me getting punished but I acted as if nothing happened, I even started to smoke . Then...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 6, 2014

    Hi there. When I was younger I was weak,

    scared, and I let people pick on me. I used to think that I'd always be that way.. But I've changed. I am now very strong and I protect the ones I love. I have friend who's very sweet and she can't stand up for herself. I'm.there to help her and stand by her side. I want to let...
    CandyHeart123 CandyHeart123
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2016

    I have changed I believe.

    I use to be very shy, scared all the time, afraid of everything, apologetic for everything, not very lively, and always sad. Now I lock away my feelings, I try not to let any of them show besides the ones people want to see. They want to see someone happy and funny so I let...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015

    I have not only changed

    but I have a double personality. one day I can be mean and defending myself if i feel threatened and another day I can be nice and don't defend myself to the point where If someone hurt me I would have an anexiety attack. I use to be a nice and sweet little girl till I moved...
    100BlackRoses 100BlackRoses
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2015

    More on what exactly happened five months ago

    that flipped my world upside down: Someone noticed me, & it brought forth this life out of me that had been sleeping for years, maybe for forever. (Because I have NEVER had a high sex drive until the past five months!) And now I can't help but want to fully step out into that...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    31-35, F
    Apr 25, 2015

    I read once that, from year to year,

    you remain the same but for the books you read and the people you meet. Sometimes you meet someone that has such an impact on your life, that you notice their invisible touches on nearly everything. Food tastes better, laughing is deeper, the sky is brighter and even the...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    For better or worse? I'm not sure.

    .. Knowing EP is going soon, I think I need to let go of some stuff that I am not courageous enough to let go of in reality... Last year me is a complete contrast of me know, and yet is totally the same. I've felt so lost spiritually for a long time now, I need that part of life...
    SirLarryOfLawrenceville SirLarryOfLawrenceville
    18-21, M
    Mar 23, 2016

    I'm gonna really miss ep.

    It’s helped me a lot and I wouldn’t have transformed into who I am today if I hadn’t found this site. I was in a toxic, emotionally abusive friendship when I found ep a lil over two years ago, and it somehow empowered me and gave me the strength I needed to get out of it...
    tarara0414 tarara0414
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2016

    So, since Ep's closing soon,

    perhaps forever, might as well get stuff off my chest and disappear into the abyss of the future. As I child I wasn't very sure how to manage my emotions, not even close. I would always snap at people, I hated making 'friends' because I got tired of people. After moving from my...
    Jaylaska Jaylaska
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    I was reading all the experience

    and stuff i posted and i realized that through the course of about 10 months i have changed completely. Its shocking actually because i used to be confident and have an upbeat attitude and text in short ways and not type full words. but now im like completely different my...
    LiLJunie LiLJunie
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2016

    No longer a blonde gone back to been the

    natural brunette that I was:)
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    I've always believed

    that people should be treated equally. Specifically when it comes to sexuality and gender. In recent years there's been a lot of talk about the whole bathroom ordeal. Should a transgender individual be able to use the bathroom they identify with? I use to say no. Had my reasons...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting
    18-21, F
    Mar 16, 2016

    I recently found out how inpatient I am And

    now I'm learning things to keep me calm. You can't change the Environment just adapt to it. ;)
    cutie7710 cutie7710
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2014

    I was an excellent student in primary school,

    until I turned 14 that is. I stopped listening to adults, I tried to connect with my peers more. It was a fail because I'm not a social person. My depression started before my 14th birthday and yeah it was a mess. Anyway, since then I've been worrying too much about what my...
    weirdcharlie weirdcharlie
    18-21, T
    Aug 29, 2015

    Reading my previous experiences here in EP,

    I just noticed how I change, but I could say it's a good change. :-)
    gwenllian gwenllian
    26-30, F
    Aug 28, 2015
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