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I Have Chronic Depression

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M Jan 30, 2013

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 20

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    mynameisjeff28 mynameisjeff28 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    I just got diagnosed with CP and my doctor told me that right now there is nothing he can do. I asked him if I need to stay on a low fat diet and he said "eat whatever you want...
    GunnDawg GunnDawg 41-45, F Dec 2

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    I'm having a bad f-u-cking day. Saying my back hurts is an understatement. I have to study for my exams so no pain-killers or muscular relaxants. Bad dayyyyy. I just feel like...
    Sybilla89 Sybilla89 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have had a socialphobia and I don't have any friends last year I got one and she just changed this year she is always so negative and hatefull and this is making my Depression...
    yoyo526 yoyo526 16-17, F Nov 23

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    My story isn't as bad as others yet but I fear it may end up that way.i had my first attack in October 2013 thought I was going to die from all the pain .Well the believe that mine...
    anythingelse anythingelse 41-45, F Nov 29

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    Ive had this all my life. I cant remember a day where I have not felt unwell. I am very paranoid about everyone, but i have to override this with a positive way of thinking. Its my...
    DDcups DDcups 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 7

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    has anyone done NeuroStar Therapy Treatment for depression? here? if so. has it worked?. im on an anti depressant called Brintellix. it is not working anymore. at first it did...
    Jacqueline779 Jacqueline779 26-30, F Dec 7

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    Hey there. There is no such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    PTSD since I was 9 too. The worst part is when people tell you that depression is not real, you're imagining the sadness, or if you just get of your butt and do the things that...
    youmeatsiix youmeatsiix 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I have been this way since I was 12 Yrs old, due to my parents divorcing and me having to live in 2 other towns at different times. I became suicidal at age 15 and that lasted up...
    psychologicallydamaged psychologicallydamaged 41-45, F Nov 21

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    Short version: I was groomed for abuse by my father, who is a con artist and not a part of my life anymore. He kidnapped my sibling and I when we were little and we were missing...
    iamowl iamowl 31-35, F Nov 24

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    I have many disorders because of my childhood and the way I grew up.
    KensleyRenee KensleyRenee 16-17, F Nov 24

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    My gf is concerned I take too many meds and about drug interactions. I hate being dependent on meds but when I tried to cut back it was really bad. I am upset because I was on...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 25

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    I think my sister is starting to hate me. I don't know what I did wrong and now I want to escape. She has been pointing out things that hurt me and I can't tell if she's just...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Dec 1

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    Feeling like cutting myself again. I don't know where it comes from. It's just something that screams out from my soul. I wonder if it's practice for suicide or if I just like the...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Dec 1

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    I'm 40 years old, I was a firefighter for over 12 years. I had a call that involved a mother and her kids. It was a murder/suicide, I knew the mother, dad and the children. I...
    ndirishfan ndirishfan 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F Dec 11

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    F*** life, f*** me. I am done with it all... I have a knife in reach, and drugs in the kitchen to OD with... Parents locked away the guns. Im going to write good bye letters first...
    tig1991 tig1991 22-25, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Considering checking myself into the hospital willingly for the first time. Recurring depressive thoughts. Not suicidal though which is nice. I just feel trapped in a box. Am I the...
    TheLonelyStoner95 TheLonelyStoner95 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands. I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being...
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F Dec 6

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    I struggled a lot and thanks to God he helped me
    Ditzle Ditzle 18-21, M Dec 9

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    http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Lonely/5249647 Please read this
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I am a 47 yr old man. I respond to posts that people as young as 13-15 post. I do this because I have raised a son, 19, and daughter, 21. I have my psychology degree, have been...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've just come to the realization that I don't believe in chronic depression...? Given my family's alleged history with "chronic depression" it seems odd but... I just don't. Part...
    mlynnikens mlynnikens 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I am in the process of recovering from chronic depression, severe anxiety, and anorexia nervosa. I've attempted suicide more than 30 times but am no longer suicidal. I've been...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I have OCD, AvPD, PAPD, and chronic depression
    amaui1 amaui1 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    It started out as red eyes, muscle weakness in the legs then a emergency blood transfusion, then told i have chronic kidney disease stage 3, then told im otherwise healthy but...
    shoshoneone shoshoneone 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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