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I Have Chronic Depression

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    littlebikiechick littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M Jan 30, 2013

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    i have chronic back pain. After using many painkiller and gel then heat and ice that never worked, i looked online how to treat it because it was awful. I learned that caffeine can...
    voslung voslung 36-40, M Mar 24

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    I am 26 years old and I have chronic pancreatitis with a surgery coming up. My story started 2.5 years ago when I had a snowboarding accident. When I fell I hit my abdomen pretty...
    christine921 christine921 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I've been depressed since I was 14 years old. I'm 21 now, and it's been a tough 7 years. Initially, my depression co-incided with anorexia and purging tendencies - including over...
    AngelicLore AngelicLore 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I have mild depression. I've been feeling sad on and off since September. It happens every few days or so, then it stops for a couple days. I've lived with it and I just talked to...
    lilykitten1998 lilykitten1998 13-15, F Mar 25

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    i have had depression since high school cause i use to get bullied and i take everything at heart all the time no matter what people say to me i let it get to me, i have had help...
    westlife213 westlife213 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I was diagnosed last year with a chronic pain condition that formed from me passing 4-8 kidney stones a year. Since I keep passing the stones I will always be in agony and when I...
    dirkablaze dirkablaze 26-30, M Mar 30

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    Chronic pain is like having your own personal vampire that sucks the life blood from you. You can do things you enjoy but will pay the price of awful pain later or the next day...
    micmer micmer 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I had chronic nausea in High school. Waking up every morning was really difficult, ending up in puking 65% of the time. I'm in college now and it came back.. except this time...
    adorablesarah adorablesarah 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    i was diagnosed of hep b in 2009 while i was in the university.. i constantly felt sick in the year 2006, when and how i had it i dont know. since 2011 i have been having series of...
    nanacquah nanacquah 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember. From before I even knew what to call it. I am thankful that my darker periods are less frequent and don’t...
    AnonymousEP77 AnonymousEP77 41-45, M Apr 5

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    I was diagnosed with depression at eight years old and have lived with it in such a way that it has crippled nearly every aspect of my life. I have never been on medication to help...
    Scorpio018 Scorpio018 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    I have came to complete acceptance that depression will likely always be apart of me., a piece of me I carry through my days here as an earthling . This is not me saying, hey I...
    Allissaxxx Allissaxxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Migraines have been plaguing my life for two years now. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and they soon started after that. I have ice pick headaches which have been bigger in...
    LouiseLondon LouiseLondon 31-35, F Mar 26

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    I personally don't have CFS but my mother has it and it's been one of the most difficult things to deal with on a daily basis. I have determined that my mothers stress levels...
    IamLerato IamLerato 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    oh the battle with the body has been a living nightmare from hell as you all know so well. I have so many physical problems, I just get that look from the doctors. urggg So I have...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F 1 day ago

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    I have a brain tumour & epilepsy.
    sassyfrazz sassyfrazz 31-35, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Sitting here reading these stories brings me to tears. I am 33 years old and truly feel like my body hates me. I am always in pain and in tears anymore. I didn't quite know what...
    queenknight queenknight 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I've struggled with depression for 15 years-and I'm only 22! It gets worse every year. I've lost track of all the different medications I've been on. I've been hospitalized...
    Jamlec Jamlec 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    Earlier today, I was feeling really sad. This has been going on for a while now, but I'm not really worried about it. I know I should be though. I don't want this to get any worse...
    lilykitten1998 lilykitten1998 13-15, F Mar 28

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    I've been completely lying to everyone and I want to stop, so I am. I'm not a psychopath, but I have the same beliefs. I have the similar beliefs because I'm severely depressed and...
    TommiAdkins TommiAdkins 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    It's like a void where there had to be actual feelings. I s suffered and still suffer alone, far from home, trying to find myself a way in my life. So, basically, the only persons...
    suns3ta suns3ta 18-21, F Mar 22

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    Running late for work this morning. Heard hubby on the phone..switching between two calls, talking back and forth for two people. When he was finally done I could hear him yelling...
    Catsoutdabag Catsoutdabag 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 3

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    So after all that has happened I thought it was all turning round. Turns out I was wrong. My exams are coming up in a few weeks and my anxiety is giving me trouble, which is making...
    tomb33 tomb33 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Doctors Can't Figure Out What Is Wrong With Me.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Every month, two weeks before my period I become extremely depressed. I cry uncontrollably and feel hopeless, I feel like everyone would be happier if I were gone and I start...
    Andy6768 Andy6768 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    As a child I suffered from Exploding Head Syndrome.
    needlessthings needlessthings 31-35, M Mar 28

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    Today my anxiety has reached in and crushed my heart. I was visiting my daughter and she usually brings calm and peace to me but today it wasn't there I felt like how I feel around...
    CaptPetemoss CaptPetemoss 41-45, M 4 days ago

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    I can deal with my emotions but right now PTSD is rearing it's head back into my life. I hate looking at the exit signs in a building or having to sleep next to a window. I decided...
    thelost87 thelost87 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I have been in chronic, constant pain for over 15 years now. I have seen a multitude of doctors, had several surgeries, many exploratory and even a spinal fusion of my L4-L5 disc...
    Mahala71 Mahala71 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I have suffered depression since the age of 16 and I was always ashamed to admit it. People generally didn't understand my emotions and to be honest i didn't understand it myself...
    Robuk1991 Robuk1991 22-25, M 6 Responses Mar 27

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    I have battled depression since I was a teenager. Mine comes and goes in waves, and it varies how severe. I usually will encounter at least one episode every year, sometimes...
    thatspecialsomeone thatspecialsomeone 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have chronic pain problems, and people treat me like dirt because they assume that I am have mental issues, not realizing how stressful it is to feel this way all the time. I...
    stphnmclrn46 stphnmclrn46 22-25 Mar 29

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    I'm almost 51 and have no friends. I'm not involved in any activities, don't go to the bar anymore and have chronic pain so I don't work. I do crafts and household things. This is...
    natjk natjk 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    The past year I have been attacked by my anxiety it is now the only constant I have. My depression was under control when this round of anxiety started doc said I need to get my...
    CaptPetemoss CaptPetemoss 41-45, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I always feel so empty and think I'm worthless because I can't do anything right. I have had depression for 2 years and it keeps getting worse and worse. I just don't want to be...
    lee521 lee521 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have battled depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. (I'm no stranger to all the benzos) I've been taking celexa for a couple months and it has seemed to help...
    adam0h adam0h 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I have battled depression all of my life. As I get older it just gets worse. I have tried so many medications and even a therapist for a few years. Every once in a while there...
    boiluver boiluver 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 30

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    Truthfully, I am never mad. The only emotion I seem to feel other than happiness and love is sadness. For some reason, I have gotten a lot more callous and sad all the same. I...
    Kawiicatnipotaku Kawiicatnipotaku 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I just learned that I have mild depression a couple of months ago; I don't self-harm or have suicidal thoughts, but I have little self confidence and self esteem. I am always tired...
    soulbeing soulbeing 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I met my boyfriend in 2012 at work. We will call him R. We are both CNA's. I met him through my little sister who also worked there. But the timing was never right for us when I...
    ksm888 ksm888 22-25, F Mar 26

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    I feel like my depression is getting worse and I don't know why. Life just seems harder for me. I feel trapped in this hole I can't get out of..
    Beau4u12 Beau4u12 26-30, F 6 Responses 4 hrs ago