I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 174 People

    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

    I haven't been on in a very long time.

    But I had no where to go, so I'm here just to vent. I have no I friends. I'm very lonely. I just realized how fat I have gotten. I don't know where m life's going. My birthday is coming up next week, and it's kinda a big one 21. I have no friends to even spend it with...
    battlewounds battlewounds
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jan 30, 2013

    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45
    22-25
    Nov 14, 2012

    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45
    22-25
    Nov 15, 2012

    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2015

    I hate how depression shapes my reality

    and controls my emotions. Sometimes, I'm not sure who I am anymore.
    Sunbae Sunbae
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe
    41-45, M
    6 Responses May 28, 2008

    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2015

    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983
    31-35, F
    Jun 26, 2014

    Both my parents have worked in mental health

    all their careers but don't accept that I have depression. They keep wanting me to get out of the house but it just isn't that simple. I don't know what to do.
    littlemissstaystrong littlemissstaystrong
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015

    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl
    51-55
    2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh
    16-17, F
    Jan 20, 2015
    WWB82 WWB82
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2015

    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2014

    Went to the dr a few days ago I got blood work

    done and also had my medication increased ...again but the biggest thing I found out was that I've been diagnosed with chronic depression :( dose anyone else have chronic depression and if so what should I know about it and do I have to be on medication forever with it or is it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 16, 2015

    It's the worst feeling ever feeling guilty

    having done nothing all day. I just felt in pain to move or feel motivated to do anything I wanted to do. I felt just really alone and defeated all day. I need to learn how to deal instead of cope. Now I'm stressed out with things to clean and **** to do.
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 20

    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn
    16-17, F
    Oct 4, 2014

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