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I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 164 People

    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Went to the dr a few days ago I got blood work

    done and also had my medication increased ...again but the biggest thing I found out was that I've been diagnosed with chronic depression :( dose anyone else have chronic depression and if so what should I know about it and do I have to be on medication forever with it or is it...
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    I graduated in 2009, I have nothing to show for it. I'm still going to a community college, I make 3 bucks over minimum wage and can't seem to progress anywhere positive. Pity...
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    I have never really ever thought of my self, as beautiful, hell I have never even thought of my self, as even average. I just always feel like, I am the ugliest person in the world...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    I have PCOS. I was told, about three years ago, that I had PCOS, its one of the main reasons why I came to Ep to beging with, other than my Depression. When I joined, the woman in...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    Its A Disease Depression Sadness Isolation Hurt Alone Scared Tired Self-hate Self-harm Self-sabotage. You say its a phase You say she wants attention You say she has it so easy...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 10 hrs ago

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    Hi my name is Destiny, i just recently got diagnosed with chronic pancreatitis. ive been suffering with pain since feb. and im recently getting out of one of the worst attacks ive...
    dest2 dest2 26-30, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I have got through it, though. Yay! It was a horrible way to live. The worse thing is my parents (who were actually the reason I was depressed in the first place) didn't do...
    bowsandarrows bowsandarrows 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Sometimes when I face the world I feel even more ****. People can be horrible. I'm too sensitive and it's my fault for letting myself be affected by the way people think and talk...
    Heyyo1 Heyyo1 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I have chronic insomnia I haven't slept in 16 days now
    photographyismylife photographyismylife 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I know that I already have major depression, but I feel like I may be bipolar too
    KidNova45 KidNova45 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I've suffered with chronic depression and anxiety everyday for the last 22 years. It's a horrible illness that anyone who goes through the same I really feel for. It's a...
    ReubyOneKenobi ReubyOneKenobi 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    as though having and dealing with PTSD every day wasn't bad enough someone has stolen a large sum of money from me. I think I know how, last year one of the yeoman took hundreds...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I have all 3 pleasurable diseases of OCD, Chronic Depression, and Anxiety. All eating away at my soul. I am in therapy..and it does work. However no one really understands the way...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I have a chronic illness and feel very lonely. I want to be a wife and share my life but how???
    loveroflife44 loveroflife44 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    10 Tips to Quickly End Your Partner's Chronic Pain Here (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4342) The only thing worse than struggling with chronic pain is watching your partner...
    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M 4 days ago

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    As I'm writing I am sat in my car in the lot outside work having just walked out of the office. My demons have become too big again. I can't carry on like this. No human should be...
    drowen1 drowen1 26-30, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    The truth is I'm not comfortable talking about where it all comes from. But it stems from years of being with an alcoholic emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive father.
    justbnatural justbnatural 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm so tired of people treating depression like it is some made up thing for attention. Depression is a real thing people struggle with and no one would make up something like this...
    steph0807 steph0807 18-21, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am going to an online college and I don't have a job. I am at home all of the time. I am constantly lonely. I don't know any other girls my age and I have no friends at all. I...
    princessSadness princessSadness 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    One sunny November morning I awoke to a strange pain in 3 far spaced teeth in my lower left jaw, it was a nagging pain that almost felt more like a pressure so deep it bored...
    itwouldntbemakebelieve itwouldntbemakebelieve 22-25 a week ago

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    I've been experiencing ptsd over the past 2 years and its left my life in pieces: my whole world came crashing down after I was tortured not once but twice by men of the law the...
    luckbealadytonight luckbealadytonight 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I wrote this in three minutes at 2am when I was crying myself to sleep. It's like all my feelings just fell on the page.
    BriBel BriBel 16-17, F Jun 26

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    I have had depression for as long as I can remember. It's on different scales. Some days are worse. Some days are a bit better. But you can always feel it. Eating away at your...
    toni701 toni701 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 23

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    so depressed . I'm so tired to feeling this way. why can't it be happiness instead of sadness
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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