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I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 155 People

    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt 22-25, F Feb 9

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    Dear CFS: **** you! I hate not being able to think clearly. I hate not being able to play with my kids Saturday *and* Sunday. Instead, I have to pick one day and then use the...
    LookingForIt987 LookingForIt987 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I was diagnosed in 2010 just before my father was diagnosed with Liver Cancer. My doctor kept telling me that no educated gay man should ever have an STD. My last visit with him I...
    randyh0808 randyh0808 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 14

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    Have any of you kept up with news recently? Apparently, there are studies now that show this is a disease and the medical community will start treating it as a disease. Looks like...
    awesomesauce2 awesomesauce2 22-25, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    my story PART 1: (its a LONGGGGG book so be prepared) I don't remember a lot of when I was really little just bits and pieces. my mom and dad divorced when I was 3. we lived in...
    HisLove2010 HisLove2010 22-25, F Feb 6

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    Who's that knock, knock, knocking at the door? - It's that old devious devil and his dark dog returning to stay a while. What fascinates me (and worries me deeply) about depression...
    LowRise LowRise 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    Depression is something I have always felt but never knew the name of. I was suicidal ar the age of 7 because I was being abused verbally, physically, and sexually by both of my...
    Mewl Mewl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I pretty much had no reason to be alive as a kid. That's something I'm starting to work on now. Is that depression ?? I don't know.
    consistentshift consistentshift 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 12

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    I have extreme anxiety and I finally told my mom, and she's getting me to a therapist and stuff, but the way she looked at me and the underhanded comments made me realize she...
    thescruffofamoose thescruffofamoose 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I am currently getting help for PTSD depression and anxiety have become a way of life for 10 years I lost 2 of my friends they were both murdered and then I lost my mom to cancer 2...
    gevee20 gevee20 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    My Story Part 3: Anyways, my husband had an accident 4 months after we married and 4 days before deployment and injured himself pretty bad, he's VERY lucky to be alive. About a...
    HisLove2010 HisLove2010 22-25, F Feb 6

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    There are times like these where I'm just waiting for the storm to pass and I don't feel like trying. I don't want to do anything but cry. This emptiness in my heart is getting...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Feb 10

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    I feel so hopeless and I'm fu3kin tired of life. I ask people for help and no one listens. I feel like I have nothing to live for and I feel my life is over. I am such a good...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 18-21, M Feb 21

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    I have not been officially diagnosed but I have just about all the symptoms . I have been extremely miserable since I was a kid. I was mercilessly bullied and sexually harassed for...
    ajrestless ajrestless 22-25, F Feb 12

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    Constant stomach and back pains are great. Couldn't imagine my life without em'. Please note the sarcasm.
    AnaSofiaa AnaSofiaa 16-17, F Feb 18

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    my story PART 2: After the incident on my 18th birthday, I was always afraid if I seen anything that resembled his truck or any vehicles I'd seen him in, I'd hate seeing his name...
    HisLove2010 HisLove2010 22-25, F Feb 6

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    I realize that people can't read minds,eventough u show them expression,they won't be able to understand till u speak it up to them.they are there to help.speak up ppl!
    weejian weejian 18-21, M Feb 7

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    I talked to my therapist tonight and she's referred me to a psychoanalyst to get me officially diagnosed. I also decided after a long and hard fight to get myself on meds. It'll be...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Feb 10

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    "You're strong, and I admire you." Words I want so desperately to be said to me.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 10 Responses Feb 12

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    but I'm tired of crappy therapists and people's pity, so no one in my new town knows.
    cycffuff cycffuff 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    in the middle of killing myself on alcohol. bye *******.
    Moweb95 Moweb95 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    So, I'm going to vent something I told my mother about 6 months ago that I'm depressed (after years of hiding it) but she doesn't really believe me. She tells me that everyone...
    justnobody1272 justnobody1272 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    I was told I had IBS about severn years go, my Dad may he RIP, paid for me to have private tests and hey presto, really sorry you have Chronic UC, also may have undertimined Crohns...
    theenglishrose theenglishrose 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am 44 and have battled depression and anxiety since the age of 12 my father new I had problems but never got me help, I did not see a doctor until I was in my 20's. I started...
    Thumpkins Thumpkins 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 9