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I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 155 People

    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Dennyd58 Dennyd58 56-60, M Apr 11

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    Diagnosed properly five years ago in New York by a woman doctor that took the time to research my issues and ordered the correct tests. Came back to my home in Utah and the...
    Andreacurtis01 Andreacurtis01 46-50, F Apr 17

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    When I was four years old, I developed depression issues due to the fact that I was treated like my life meant nothing and because I was physically abused. Then, when I was 11, I...
    TheKatAttack TheKatAttack 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I have this but I have periods of denial which mess me up mentally because admitting to having such a disabling disease is so difficult. I go to college because my parents forced...
    fallenstar23 fallenstar23 22-25, F Apr 16

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    I don't suffer from depression, but I met somebody on ep last year who does, and whose life has been dominated by it since early childhood. We conversed for around nine months...
    KitFornay KitFornay 51-55, M 5 days ago

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    Depression to me I like being trapped in a cage. Full of spikes. That is slowly closing in on you by the second. Having anxiety is like seeing people and then you speak but...
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I've been fighting depression since I can remember, I was beaten by my father, bullied, hated and laughed at called names because im bisexual. I've danced with death and it has...
    TheMadHatteri TheMadHatteri 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I can't stop myself,I have to tell someone.I was bullied a lot.By girls.They were so mean,laughing at me,mocking me,telling hurtfull words.But I was really good herarted child.Even...
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I accidentally forgot my meds two days in a row... Im not feeling too good. I remember being told coming off of them could sometimes be worse than the original depression. But...
    RebeccaJane00 RebeccaJane00 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of being so alone. I left home to see if it was my situation. It isn't. I cry a lot. I am very unsure of myself socially. I don't feel close to anyone. I do not go...
    TheAfter TheAfter 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I've been dealing with this off and on, but I realized something. If I am on my death bed and I look back on my life only spent being sad, by choice, it was not used well. I have a...
    SelfSurgery SelfSurgery 13-15, F Apr 12

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    sometimes its just too much and its at those times everyone turns their backs on you
    illgetoveriteventually illgetoveriteventually 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Tonight turned into a night full of screaming and crying, and I probably just lost my best friend. I don't think I can do it anymore.
    Erinn2 Erinn2 16-17, F Apr 11

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    It doesn't matter how painful life is at the moment, I always put others before myself. Nobody is there when I need support most, though.
    oodleskaboodles oodleskaboodles 16-17, F Apr 14

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    ...and I want others to understand it at least a little. Typically, people don't even recognize the word. Well, for those people: Anhedonia is defined by the loss of ability to...
    DepressedDemigod DepressedDemigod 22-25, F Apr 6

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    I've had chronic depression for over a year now and I hate everything I am. I've been dating a girl for over three years and I can't talk to her often. I feel alone. Like this...
    DownInOut DownInOut 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 31

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    i have severe chronic depression, im not exactly sure for how long i have had it, i sort of slowly slid into it rather than one day being depressed. i've been bullied since since...
    lilhunters lilhunters 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    "Just saying 'No' prevents teenage pregnancy the way 'Have a nice day!' cures chronic depression."
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I have just been told I have chronic bronchitis / COPD. I'm a little scared. I don't know what to think.
    jaytee66 jaytee66 46-50, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have battled depression my entire life. Along with depression, I have PTSD, Schotzophrenia, GED, OCD, DMD and piles of nonsense diagnosis.
    koditrust koditrust 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I have manic depression. I haven't had a low this bad in a long time. Thoughts of death and suicide come easily when I feel this way. Life is a struggle.
    lmjw1990 lmjw1990 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 14

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    Approval I think I have had depression longer than I realised .I was always seeking approval from my parents as I was the blacksheep of the family .My dad and I never got on really...
    nakednudist nakednudist 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 15

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