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I Have Chronic Depression

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M Jan 30, 2013

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Alemiir Alemiir 18-21, F Oct 15

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    Hi, to be honest this is the first time I've posted about this or looked for chat rooms or anything really however I have CRPS. I am 28yrs old, Almost five years ago I was in a car...
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    I am 54 and have a strong family history of pancreatic cancer. My GI is a very well-known pancreatic cancer specialist who emphasizes screening and early detection, so he suggested...
    MP1960 MP1960 51-55, F Oct 16

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    So I'm not sure if this is a side effect of Chronic Migraines but I've been experiencing some pretty debilitating dizziness for the past week. So I'd like some incite from other...
    WynonnaMarye WynonnaMarye 18-21, F Oct 18

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    Since I was teen I have suffered chronic back pain. I have herniation's on my L1 to L4 discs and my sciatic nerve is pinched. The pain can be extreme on my worst days, I have been...
    Adelitasmile Adelitasmile 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    I honestly don't know to feel right now. I've battled with depression nearly all my life. Even as a young child I excluded myself from others and kept very quiet. I was always so...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    Hi all, been awhile since I have been on here. I have been suffering with CP since 2/2012. There have been some months in there where I was okay but for the most part not a day...
    Dani521 Dani521 31-35, F Oct 2

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    I have had severe depression since I was a little girl. I was diagnosed at age 5. And started taking meds for it at age 8. If anyone needs to talk to someone about their depression...
    broadwaygirl3583 broadwaygirl3583 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 7

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    Every Wednesday into Thursday without fail: I have a migraine.
    lalaloopsytrollpony lalaloopsytrollpony 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16

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    I have become depressed due to pain. I feel like I cannot enjoy life or have the desire to go outside. My take on it is, if I am not feeling 100%, then I find no enjoyment in...
    jrason jrason 26-30 1 Response Oct 18

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    I broke down and just had to refill my prescription for oxycodone. I had hoped that I wouldn't have to do that. The drug kind of scares me. I feel good for a little while, and then...
    gmeza98 gmeza98 51-55, M 3 days ago

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    I've been suffering with varying degrees of intensity for seven years. I've tried everything except medication. Sometimes I don't sleep for days on end, sometimes I sleep between a...
    ruralroyal ruralroyal 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I've battled depression since I was 9.. And now it became a part of my personality .depressed. I'm hoping for that day when I'll go to the shrink and then he'll tell me that I don...
    meunfortunately meunfortunately 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety when I was 17 years old. I have been taking medicine ever since. When I was twenty something happened that I will not broadcast in a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 21

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    Sometimes, I will feel as if it is better to hide away from the world. I feel ashamed of myself, even when I'm in my room alone, its as if everyone can see me. I turn the lights...
    dogsareCute16 dogsareCute16 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My dad has been talking about sending me to a residential treatment center to get help for trauma/PTSD that hasn't been dealt with for the past few years. I used to live with an...
    experiences683 experiences683 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    my dad passed away in november 2013 and I have always thought till this day with every thing that goes on everything is my fault i made a bad mistake and im scarred for life and i...
    bonifaced bonifaced 13-15, F Oct 13

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    Missing out on so much school baffled my parents. They did not know what was making me so sick until my diagnosis. Battling the pain and exhaustion has been difficult due to the...
    chlo3ann3 chlo3ann3 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I passed out yesterday and hit my head. It's like I can get a little better to the point where I can stand for a max of two minutes, but then it goes down hill. I just can't do...
    december789 december789 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    One of those nights where I wanna throw in the towel and call it quits.
    Ashleyjoan Ashleyjoan 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 5

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    I don't even know why I'm here. I'm such a mistake. I just don't deserve to live anymore.
    justw0rthless justw0rthless 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    Got up went to school and classes actually paid attention to them passed the quiz :)
    ladyyukihime ladyyukihime 18-21, F Oct 21

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    I'd like to point out there are some people in this world that find depression easy to fake. I'll admit, that before I was told I have chronic depression by my doctor, I used to...
    piercethetaco000 piercethetaco000 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 17

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    I've had depression and anxiety for 9 years now almost, I've dealt with a lot of close friends who have had depression as well. Several things I've come to terms with over the...
    CDXX4 CDXX4 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 14

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    I am 16 years old, and I know I have clinical depression. I believe I have bipolar disorder, because of occasional mixed or manic episodes i deal with. It's really hard, feeling...
    kaitlynnicole98 kaitlynnicole98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Well, it has been roughly 10 days since I last had a thought about killing myself. This has to be a sign. I have had depression for probably a year, and at one point I sunk into a...
    goldenlord52 goldenlord52 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    everyday I fight depression and loneliness every day. I can be surrounded by amazing friends but yet I'll still feel so damn lonely. I hate it. and despite my anti depressants I...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 8

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    I am basically so sick of fighting off my depression on a daily basis. Some days it is way easier to do but I still fight. I am tired of people telling me to snap it out of it...
    letiduran letiduran 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    I have suffered depression all of my life and I do believe that its something you have and live with or never have. I know I will never be cured, there are just too many reasons...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 17

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    I am with the best person I could ever wish for. But I still feel lonely, its not a neglectful loneliness its a feeling of being isolated and its because I keep people away, even...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 17

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    My boyfriend is the only one who keeps me sane. Him being a jr boy and me being a sophomore everyone always says that things will last a maximum of a year or so. His ex...
    lydiathethingy lydiathethingy 13-15, F Oct 21

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    I have battled depression since I was a toddler. Every day is a struggle, but also an experience
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1 13-15, T Oct 1

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    I think I might have seasonal depression. Which sucks because I love snow
    SeanNation SeanNation 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 13

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    My entire 8th grade year I rebelled. For the first time ever I rebelled. But only because I was depressed, I was overweight and I had NO friends 6th and 7th grade. I made friends...
    Lorrn Lorrn 18-21, F