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I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 171 People

    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2015

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    I haven't been on in a very long time.

    But I had no where to go, so I'm here just to vent. I have no I friends. I'm very lonely. I just realized how fat I have gotten. I don't know where m life's going. My birthday is coming up next week, and it's kinda a big one 21. I have no friends to even spend it with...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20, 2015

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Went to the dr a few days ago I got blood work

    done and also had my medication increased ...again but the biggest thing I found out was that I've been diagnosed with chronic depression :( dose anyone else have chronic depression and if so what should I know about it and do I have to be on medication forever with it or is it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 16, 2015

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    I hate how depression shapes my reality

    and controls my emotions. Sometimes, I'm not sure who I am anymore.
    Sunbae Sunbae 18-21, F Aug 9, 2015

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    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2015

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Both my parents have worked in mental health

    all their careers but don't accept that I have depression. They keep wanting me to get out of the house but it just isn't that simple. I don't know what to do.
    littlemissstaystrong littlemissstaystrong 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2015

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F Oct 4, 2014

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    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2015

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    I feel great today, but sadly to me it's not a good thing. It just shows me that this is how I'd be without depression, without anger.. Normal. Normal me can get **** done and be...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 34 mins ago

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    I met someone a few months back who understands depression. Though, He is known to be a prideful, bossy man who would loose patience once in a while. But being around him. Not a...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Whenever I have a breakdown in school they're pretty bad. Sometimes I'm not able to speak and I keep trembling and there are other times when I just can't stop crying. My teacher...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    This is always the part of the cycle I hate. The tired part. It's the tired that sleep does not repair. I imagine if my brain was a mechanical organ made up of wheels, springs...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I was actually professionally diagnosed with depression about a week or two ago after a rough patch in my life started to get the better of me. The NHS service in the UK is free...
    longdarkhair longdarkhair 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Its eye candy And has calmed me Since family And depression And resulting rage Made me fight to stay law biding
    OddButResilient OddButResilient 46-50, M 4 hrs ago

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    There is a worldwide drought, not of substance but of consciousness. The masses of first world countries have been put to sleep by becoming fat and happy. Being fed processed...
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    when i tell people i have bad anxiety and stress, they always ask what ive got to be stressed about.. no one has any understanding or empathy. i envy people who go about their...
    Madz121285 Madz121285 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My grades dropped in the subjects I'm not interested in, my attention span is very limited. There are circles under my tired eyes, my pace is sluggish. I get it, I'm supposed to be...
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    I destroy everything I touch, it's not wonder I can never have what I truly want. It's not wonder I'm always alone, because the moment someone does come to be my friend, is the...
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    You know you've hit depression when: - you know deep down inside you will be ok but you still feel awful. - you know people love you but it doesn't feel like they do. - you know...
    AngelicHalo AngelicHalo 36-40, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    My psychiatrist just gave me Ibuprofen for depression.
    sievert sievert 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I have wondered bout people hiding behind humor as self medication for somethin else and this seems to think so . "What do Ellen DeGeneres, Rodney Dangerfield, Sarah Silverman...
    Blasse Blasse 36-40, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I know but.. Its like.. My heart and soul are locked to a certain place and certain person and certain life that im yet to have, IF i was set to have. Not a specific place, but...
    Valencia Valencia 18-21, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    An 18 year old should be loving life and have no problems. I absolutely hate mine, everything comes crashing down I've got back up so many times and tried but it still goes wrong...
    SSJx SSJx 18-21, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    1. Im bein evaluated today with my social worker! It's a 3 hour test/ evaluation on how deep my depression is. It's NOT a grade, NO pressure, it's NOT timed, there is NO wrong...
    CreepypastaFan2016 CreepypastaFan2016 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    Last night I took a hot shower while silently crying. Knowing that my tears blend in with water. I remember the feeling I felt in that moment. It was all but heartache pain...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo 18-21, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    For three years I've been wishing I was dead every day of my life. For three years I've woken up every morning disappointed to be alive. For three years I've changed so much, that...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have finally accepted I'm going to kill myself. Now it's just a matter of when.
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 8 Responses 18 hrs ago

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