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I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 171 People

    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    I hate how depression shapes my reality

    and controls my emotions. Sometimes, I'm not sure who I am anymore.
    Sunbae Sunbae 18-21, F Aug 9

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

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    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    I haven't been on in a very long time.

    But I had no where to go, so I'm here just to vent. I have no I friends. I'm very lonely. I just realized how fat I have gotten. I don't know where m life's going. My birthday is coming up next week, and it's kinda a big one 21. I have no friends to even spend it with...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    Went to the dr a few days ago I got blood work

    done and also had my medication increased ...again but the biggest thing I found out was that I've been diagnosed with chronic depression :( dose anyone else have chronic depression and if so what should I know about it and do I have to be on medication forever with it or is it...
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 16

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I don't know what's going on. I don't feel right. I've always had those brief moments of wanting to give up (not wanting to get better) and just sulk in my misery giving up my...
    MatchedWithBlack MatchedWithBlack 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I live in my pyjamas. I feel like the energy Is better spent baking peanut cookies for my toddler then getting dressed.
    joyofabluesky joyofabluesky 31-35, F 12 hrs ago

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    I haven't been tested to see if I truly have PTSD, but I just might have it. These flashbacks I have of the horrible things I've gone through shock and terrify me all over again. I...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Hello I don't know if anyone will read this, I just need someone to tell me it's ok, I recently found I am positive for chronic hepatitis, I have no idea how long j have had it for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

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    hey ,,anyone does know member profile named jamlec ?? anyone who.has chated with him or know any details on him ?? please .
    prgya prgya 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I can never forget the time i had an attack. When I was 6 or 7 years old, me and my brother were at church with my mom and dad. We sat in the rows and listened to the preacher...
    Gavin788 Gavin788 13-15, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have battled depression my whole life. I remember coming home from first grade and crying because everyone hated me. I started taking antidepressents at age 15 and have taken...
    Marseymo Marseymo 46-50, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    13 facts must be known if you love someone who fights depression 1. Depression is not a choice. Depression is one of the most helpless and frustrating experiences a person can...
    Fo2los Fo2los 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    .....and I'm battling it again.
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 2 days ago

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    The invisible pain. No one believes the level of pain this chronic disease causes.. I hate it so much.. being in pain on and off since 20 after acute pancreatitis I spent 7months...
    stefx85 stefx85 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    The worst thing is when pain isn't being taken seriously. I have chronic pancreatitis and it was on and off for 9y that I I had a c.t scan and discovered that I had calcifications...
    stefx85 stefx85 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I was diagnosed when I was 13. And I've gotten worse and worse. It's so exhausting even getting to the toilet. Headaches every day, noise just goes right through me. My muscles...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have had depression for quite some years thoughts of feeling no good. And like I'm worthless but now I have support and love within myself b
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Me too. Oh wait, I am that person in chronic pain that I am living with. So much fun being born with a crooked back.
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    Attn: Dark Cloud You move when I move and hover when I stop At times I've tried to walk, roll, fly away from you But no mattter where I go, how far I fly away you always catch...
    lostthoughtz lostthoughtz 22-25 5 days ago

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    My depression has always been with me, unfortunately its been one of the few things that have never changed in my life. Sometimes its a bit muted so more tolerable, but never gone...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Living with a person who has chronic pain means that for the rest of my marriage my pain never counts. I don't count, and I find this incredibly lonely. I am my only sounding...
    Suffocating1 Suffocating1 41-45 6 days ago

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    For all my friends, whether close or casual, just because. This is one of the longest posts I will ever make, and one of the most real too. Everyone will go through some hard...
    fuwhat fuwhat 18-21, M a week ago

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    I have a chronic illness it's hard to work through it.
    bradytales8530 bradytales8530 26-30, F a week ago

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