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I Have Chronic Depression

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    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

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    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M Jan 30, 2013

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    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

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    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 16-17, F 2 Responses May 4

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    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

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    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

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    confusedHepB confusedHepB 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    So since i was little i have had depression problems,i didn't actually noticed until it got really bad in high school.I can't tell anyone in my family cause they won't actually get...
    flproblems flproblems 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I am pain. I feel useless. Worthless. I feel like my bright potential was unrealized and is forever gone. My chances are all used up. My troubles have become a mountain. Why am I...
    ToughEddie ToughEddie 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    Energy drinks bring me to another level. It's as if I'm on this high without being high. Nothing matters and I can be "happy" for a little while. I used to drink them like they...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I've had chronic back pain for years.Had all tests doctors tell me nothing they can do.I like to know ways of managing my pain.
    mikeud mikeud 51-55, M Aug 31

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    Since age 10, I have been diagnosed with a deceptively painful chronic condition know as Interstitial cystitis. The pain since that day has steadily increased with age. I am at a...
    CJPain CJPain 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    I have been dealing with depression for a long while and anxiety all my life. I have my good days and my bad days but today was a mix. I was having a good day until I started...
    MysticallyForbidden MysticallyForbidden 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I have depression and anxiety but my family doesn't believe that taking medicine is right (they are Christians and believes that medicine is bad) I also believe in God, and I do...
    shigari shigari 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I'm pretty sure I have Lyme Disease... And after reading everyone's experiences, I am almost positive. I pulled a tick off of me about three years ago and developed the signature...
    Efmatthe9 Efmatthe9 22-25, F a week ago

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F a week ago

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    I cannot get a hold of my emotions. I feel trapped and vulnerable. My friends hate me, my family hates me. I hate myself. I have panic attacks often and I think I am crazy. I wish...
    emilyclaire85 emilyclaire85 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    the sad part is the people who are "blessed" wouldnt understand because they dont have to go through the same things you have to go through.
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F Aug 25

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    I have always been depressed sence I could remember I always act ok and never let on how I truly feel I don't take meds for it though I probably should but I just find the fact...
    Toyx Toyx 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I feel empty, lonely, worthless, in pain I have personified my feelings into a person that I think about and right about sometimes, tonight is an especially bad night. I saw my bf...
    Zezebabe Zezebabe 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    The day is ending and what can I say? I don't feel much better, honestly. I'm still fearful, sad and feeling the injustice over my family. I'm still trying to understand God wishes...
    Fernandotavares Fernandotavares 22-25, M Sep 4

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    I spend most of my time sitting on the internet and not leaving my house, or attending parties people invite me to. Some days I can't even dress myself. I can't leave the house...
    battykodaa battykodaa 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Everytime I have an episode, I either cut myself up down my legs and sides of my stomach and along the long vein that travels up the inner side of my left arm.. or i scream into my...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today was really rough for me. I am a mother of 3 who decided to finish her degree, I have done pretty well thus far maintaining grants, scholarships, and financial aid to get me...
    PhoenixLF PhoenixLF 26-30, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    The change of weather really gives me intense flare ups & muscle spasms. I am hoping tomorrow is better day
    zelda14 zelda14 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 5

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    I will never sleep again. This pain is too great.
    SorrowofHeart SorrowofHeart 51-55, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    Any thoughts of my new dr cocktail Effexor xr Abilify Ambien cr Anyone on this combo how do u feel
    ap05 ap05 26-30, F Aug 21

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    I'm afraid of the future and suffering more. I've been through a lot. One thing after another.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I always smile and laugh too much so that I don't make people feel bad but then when I'm alone... I feel like my heart turns black and there's no shred of happinnes...
    helloworldsecretunicorn helloworldsecretunicorn 13-15 Aug 29

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    I wish I could stop feeling alone. Even when I'm surrounded with people I feel detached and misunderstood. My friends just seem like they've given up on me. I just don't know what...
    SilentRider SilentRider 18-21, F Aug 31

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    And. If i analyze it. I am more lucky than some.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Sep 1

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    "when there is no sparkle in your eyes, you're nothing but a vessel of a human being"- something I was told today. Thought I would share
    whatisasociallife whatisasociallife 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    "So familiarize what having to swallow this pill is like It happens all the time, they take your heart and steal your life And it's as though you feel you've died because you've...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 16-17, F Sep 7

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    The trifecta of worry, I call it.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10

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    My name is Karly and I am 25 years old. My family of 6 has a history of Depression, Anxiety, ADD/ADHD and sleeping disorders. My father, sister and I suffer from all the above...
    kcmac311 kcmac311 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I've battling chronic depression, anxiety and some phobias for years already, without any kind of professional, medical, moral help nor support. At this point of my life i don't...
    schmetterlingmx schmetterlingmx 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I can feel it. Struggling with domestic issues at home and at work, and I think depending too much on someone socially is not healthy. I always knew that but when you're swimming...
    BronzeEspada BronzeEspada 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Trigger Warning: Depression, Self-Injury, Drug Use I have suffered depression on and off for the last 6 years. For the last year, I have also intermittently had urges to become...
    voodoojoey voodoojoey 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 8

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