Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Have Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 157 People

    The Curse

    This haunting is unbearable Years later and it still remains The sounds get louder, the steps get closer, I can't get away. Every time I move, It follows. Every time I run, It becomes faster. Will I ever be free? These demons chase me into my lightest days and bring their...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 15, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My greatest fear is there is no bottom.

    When I think I've hit bottom, that wasn't really bottom. Chronic depressed is eating me alive.
    Stephnobody Stephnobody 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Can't Be Saved

    I have been depressed since my early teens. It has never gone away, in fact it gets progressively worse each year I live on this earth. I am now 23, soon to be 24 and I can't help but feel broken and empty when I think about a lifetime I have spent depressed. Well, maybe not a...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sleep I want you forever!

    I never want to wake up again!
    Littlebikiechick Littlebikiechick 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    October 2002

    I was sitting out in the woods where I most loved to be, in my new truck which I had ust bought in July,with a gun I had just bought a couple of days earlier stuck in my mouth......I had "camped out" there for three days wanting so desperately to end it all and hoping...
    IndyJoe IndyJoe 41-45, M 6 Responses May 28, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Each day gets harder

    and harder, coming into work, having no motivation, feeling like I am moving in really slow motion. I see everyone around me being successful yet I feel like such a failure. It seems all the effort I put in to advance in my life it just doesn't matter it is never enough. I can't...
    NiteOwlet NiteOwlet 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Fighting the Black Dog

    About sixteen years ago I sat in the bathroom sobbing. I had meds out to take and the only thing that stopped me was the fact that my husband was out of town for the night, and my kids were only 6,5, and 1. and I didn't want them to be left without an adult in the house. If my...
    kelleah kelleah 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 25, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Down and Out

    I have alot of ups and downs. I am now finally getting a handle on my chronic depression. I am finally on the right meds that make me feel like a human again. Plus I have the right doctor to talk to and to evaluate me. I still have good days and bad days. But not like they used...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 3, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm a 17 year old girl

    and even if i'm young i feel empty and dead. My dad was an alcoholic and he died when i was nine. My mother devorced from him because he was beeing mean to my sister all the time and she couldn't take it any more. She hated me because our dad was good to me but not to her...
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have Chronic Depressiion

    Hi, I'm at the point in my history with anxiety/depression that I can see the benefit of accepting that I have chronic depression. Most of my life has been a struggle. It is quite interesting to read the available research regarding how many people do not recover or are...
    Resilience Resilience 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Lost, Trapped, Faded.

    I'm feeling cool and even rather calm, I feel almost nothing, a few hits of gloom, I'm like an ocean with lots of waves. A rough ride indeed, from calm to rocky, Stuck in the middle of the ocean, with no way out, Not sure if I will ever find the shore. I am lost. Then suddenly...
    Canadian45 Canadian45 22-25 Nov 14, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have depression. I can be short with people.

    Sometimes I want to lay in bed all day. I can't get excited about anything. I am not good at having a conversation. I don't have motivation and it effects my work. I get bored
    gypsy1983 gypsy1983 31-35, F Jun 26, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm sixteen years old,

    and my depression is overwhelming. It interferes with my daily life, and I don't know how to control it. Most days feel hopeless. And I'm stuck this way for the rest of my life.
    Kenliye Kenliye 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Still Undiagnosed

    Hearing your stories is valuable for me, so I thought I would share mine just in case it hits a nerve with someone else. I just turned 42 and by all accounts, I have what some would call a "pretty good" life. I've checked off many of those "boxes" you are supposed to by the time...
    TMichael1220 TMichael1220 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm not going to try

    and write down how I feel because It's hard to explain what's going on in your head to someone when you don't even know your self. I was diagnosed with depression last may although I could have gotten tablets to help me along the road to recovery I didn't take them I wanted it...
    whatevestbh whatevestbh 16-17, F Jan 20

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i am so sick of being numb.

    i cant connect with others anymore. i cant feel happiness. holidays are horrible for me because everyone is so cheerful and happy and here i am being lame and numb. i am sick of living. i just want to die honestly. it never goes away. i plan ways to die all the time. ive been...
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Alone. Afraid And Wondering

    I have been depressed most, if not all my life, terrible mental illness on both sides of the family and it appears that I have inherited traits from each group. To say that life has been a struggle is an understatement. Since about a year ago I have had some major disruption in...
    Excitablegirl Excitablegirl 51-55 2 Responses Sep 13, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    There are so many mornings

    that I'm disappointed that I woke up again.
    WWB82 WWB82 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 23

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I'm 21, it's been just over a year now that I've had chronic back pain. It's stopped me from developing a promising basketball career. But today I've been allowed by my physios to...
    TallThing TallThing 18-21, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sometimes I hated to be me All the neg thoughts are like a freight train rushing past us by Time is an of essence but we loose them by sleeping or just while away the hours...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't been diagnosed yet. my Dr is trying to eliminate anything else it could be, but I am suffering. I'm having a hard time going to work everyday cuz i can't get out of...
    kareenmarie kareenmarie 36-40, F Apr 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am 17 years old. I have danced (ballet, tap & freestyle) since I was 3, I also do other sports activities. I work in an office so am sat down a lot of the time. I will admit I am...
    AHelpfulLover AHelpfulLover 16-17, F May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hiya. Ive just found out I have hepatitis c, and as well as feeling quite unwell, im really scared, because my son has had a liver transplant for a different liver disease, and I...
    Propsta84 Propsta84 26-30, M 2 Responses May 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm only 21 and I've been suffering from back and neck pain for nearly 2 years now. i was in a bad car accident last june that had made my back pain even worse ( i had already...
    darnswell13 darnswell13 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi I wanted to post that I am with a company in the US for all natural products for various medical conditions, one product that helps inflammatory issues, another product that...
    carolgem carolgem 46-50, F 19 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well i was certain of the severe depression and now lets add social anxiety to the ******* list... Sigh.. Can someone just shoot me in the head to end my ******* misery?! This is...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M May 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I accidentally forgot my meds two days in a row... Im not feeling too good. I remember being told coming off of them could sometimes be worse than the original depression. But...
    RebeccaJane00 RebeccaJane00 18-21, F Apr 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    For me, it is waves. Big waves, little waves- no discrimination in size, cause or timing. It can feel so random. Or it can feel as if it was triggered. It can last hours, days...
    fromthegirlonthewall fromthegirlonthewall 18-21, F May 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i have honestly been suffering from depression and anxiety since i was 4. horrible i know. i grew up at 7, i was forced. i never got to be kid. i was discussing budgets and bills...
    butterflykisses11 butterflykisses11 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm tired of not experiencing life. I want to know what its like to go out with friends. I'd always wondered what it would be like to go bowling with people who actually want to be...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M May 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been on Zoloft 50mg for 3 months. I take it around 8pm every day. If I take it the same time I'm ok, but as soon as I have a date, late night at work, or anything but normal...
    lettingitallbleedout lettingitallbleedout 22-25 1 Response May 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have major exams and I cant focus due to flashbacks,Im doing my best but its not enough
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had told myself I would make more clay starfish and draw again but I haven't. I still haven't eaten yet today. I told my husband the other day that I haven't seen a need to...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Forgotten veterans.Beat by mother as a child for rich father abandoning us. I looked and sounded like father so I paid the price for it.Step father a good man and is why I am not a...
    sswehiii sswehiii 51-55, M 1 Response May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I've had CFS for many years. I go out when I'm feeling ok but on the whole I'd prefer to be able to speak to people online. I'm happy and upbeat. CFS doesn't mean all we...
    LizardW13 LizardW13 46-50, F 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is it just me? Cuz Facebook depresses the **** outta me seeing people my age and that I know having parties and chilling with friends and significant others and I'm just sitting...
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 1 Response May 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    my Dr is trying to eliminate stuff before he diagnosis me with cfs. he recently did a mono test and drug test (which was my psychiatrist idea). I wonder what he'll try next...
    kareenmarie kareenmarie 36-40, F 1 Response May 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm a bit hesitant to add this to my experiences as I don't know for sure if I suffer from it, but due to my habit of checking the internet whenever something is not right...
    RealLifePerson RealLifePerson 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was diagnosed in 2011 in my late 40's. When I researched this I found: - they don't know what causes it - there is no cure - they don't bother treating it until you are in bad...
    MarriedGuy244 MarriedGuy244 51-55, M 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate my life. I can't get over all the bad mistakes I've made and I feel like I'm worthless and going nowhere.
    Paratrooper94 Paratrooper94 18-21, M 2 Responses May 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I wish I can act normal like everybody else without having flashbacks,Im trying hard ti study but I cant focus especially when Im dealing with difficult subjects
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I cant get over my first public meltdown how embarrassing it is
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 8

    Your Response

    Cancel