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I Have Committed Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 12 People

    The Scar Will Always Remains

    My ex bf constant infidelity had on few occasions drives me to the edge of wanting to simply end my life, that was more than a year ago and i did what i thought was the most necessary thing to do at that moment which was to cut myself with a penknife on my wrist and let it just...
    Mazes Mazes 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2011

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    Wrist

    I ever cut my wrist in office.. and its bleeding a little bit.. It was all because of my ex-boyfriend, who said he don't want me anymore... then i just take a pocket knife and go to toilet, and cut my wrist.. but then he come and said sorry and stopped me to continue my suicide...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I first started to self harm when I was 13. My parents went through a divorce. It was a rough time especially with an alcoholic father. I had stopped self harming when I turned 14...
    EveMarieJones EveMarieJones 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    When I was 13 years old my friend John was about to commit suicide because another friend of his committed suicide. I was on the phone with him and another mutual friend and we...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jun 30

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    I used to have all this sympathy for people who commit suicide, but after yesterday, that's greatly lessened; I know now, without a doubt, that is the most selfish act a human can...
    GoldButterfly GoldButterfly 18-21, F Jul 4

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    It's been almost 3 years since my step dad/best friend committed suicide in our garage. I love him and I miss him so much. I wish he knew the pain my mom and I go through just by...
    Algophobia Algophobia 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    My own brother committed suicide. it really sucks that he felt that was his only way out. He didn't realize the kind of damage it would leave on the people who loved him. It really...
    eeeosborne eeeosborne 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I was molested and raped by my step grandfather when I was 5 years old to 7 years old. I live with PTSD and have horrible dreams and flashbacks. He never got what he deserved...
    ngutman22 ngutman22 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    My older sister Nancy committed suicide last year she was struggling a lot with her studies she wanted to be a doctor sometime I feel really sad I miss her a lot I can't accept...
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My father committed suicide when I was eleven. I used to think that this was the most traumatic experience of my life. I'm 29 now and things are slowly getting better.
    SmokingChrome SmokingChrome 26-30, M Jun 30

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    I lost my parents four years ago last June. My father was murdered, and my mother committed suicide after we heard he'd died. That was awful. I was only 15 at the time, and I was...
    ILovetheOcean20 ILovetheOcean20 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I'm a waitress at a high end restaurant and today this couple came in, they were about my parents age. It wasn't my section to wait on but I begged the other waitress to let me...
    kay5262 kay5262 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 4

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    SteeredAxe SteeredAxe 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Hi, I'm 33 with two children and have come from a very dysfunctional back ground.. I grew up in children's homes. Because my nan didn't want me and my two brothers we were all...
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    I have tried for many reason.! Where do I start.? My life is horrible.! I have this girl I care about, she is the only one keeping me alive.! Literally, because she said if I...
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    For any of you who have considered suicide, here is something you should read: but yesterday I was crying my eyes out and today I can't stop smiling. Life is funny that way, one...
    kayceebby kayceebby 18-21, F Jul 9

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    I am a 45 years ago I attempted suicide. To this day I regret doing it. The way I did was painful when It happened and painful every time somebody looks at me that knows my story...
    Upforit45 Upforit45 51-55, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    sometimes i have the feeling of doing so and i have really been feeling to do so, i need a doctor. i need someone to help get out of suicide thoughts, and thoughts of death to...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 20 hrs ago

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    I want to leave my partner, but he's threatening to commit suicide if I do
    mw2405 mw2405 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I wanna fly into your sun Need fear to make me numb Live like a teenage Christ I'm a saint got a date with suicide Oh Mary, Mary, to be this young is oh so scary Mary, Mary, to be...
    dazedreamer dazedreamer 18-21, F 37 mins ago

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    So, my best friend is suicidal, but, I don't feel bad. I know I should, but it's her choice, should u pity those who choose to take their own lives cuz there not strong enough to...
    abercrombie99 abercrombie99 13-15, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I know there is a lot of pain in this world which causes people to do some horrific things... Some hurt themselves, some hurt others, while some do a combination of both and kill...
    SirCabbage SirCabbage 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I have been suicidal in my life and also attempted it in my past. It was no cry for help or any desperate act to receive attention. I am grateful I did not succeed at the attempt...
    Auntieloco Auntieloco 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    June 2002 - my cousin, who I grew up with and was close to, was suddenly shot one time in the chest at 4 AM... He was 26 and it was labeled suicide... He had spoke to his aunt that...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 14

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    When I was little, my mom and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 11

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    Suicide has killed many people even someone I knew, it's not a thing to mess around with. I understand why people want to do it because they're at their lowest point in life. But...
    faithmonyai faithmonyai 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    It's not easy living with my family. A passive aggressive mother with massive expectations, a psychotic brother who often cracks and goes on rampaged, and a father living at...
    SCLegacy SCLegacy 70+, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    Starting at the 7th grade and lasting until the late 9th grade yearly 10th grade I suffered with depression and several suicide attempts. I thought I was alone..because you know...
    MacKenzie31113 MacKenzie31113 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Once upon a time I was on whisper ( an app that let's you tell secrets with out people knowing who you are)and I was looking up posts about suicide .One was of a girl/boy who was...
    rachelmu22 rachelmu22 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I get really ******* **** off when people make fun of suicide. Because I was like that. People say it's a joke unlit the person commits suicide.
    dominick5 dominick5 13-15, M Jul 18

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    I've made several posts with this heading, and I'm aware that this might make it hard to follow if looking at multiple posts. However, this is my current focus and all of these...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    i think the worst part about losing friends to suicide- there anniversary days. im scared for my friends 1 month in a week. i miss him so much, its going to suck. ugh i hate guilt...
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    This suicide is of my own. Sometimes i just want to just get everything over with, take the quick exit. Life's problem can be so overwhelming. The pressure, the stress and the...
    s3gur0 s3gur0 22-25, M Jul 8

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    Pretty sure I'm about to lose someone to suicide and no matter what I say or do its not changin their mind. :/
    SpilledTea SpilledTea 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    Suicide doesnt just mean killing yourself, it also means ending the chances of life ever getting better for yourself. People out there care about you, whether theyre right next to...
    MeeeKazz MeeeKazz 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I lost a good friend on Friday. I found out as I was walking into work. It was one of those moments when time stopped. Everything just stood still. And it hasn't started back up...
    loveandlight29 loveandlight29 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was 15 when I lost my best friend to suicide. She was in Foster Care because her dad beat her numerous times and her mother just didn't want to be a mother. About every other day...
    Skinnylove99 Skinnylove99 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just recently lost a friend to suicide and I'm still not over it. I'm not sure how to cope :/
    Raelyn13 Raelyn13 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was so excited to get home to write to all of you following my story. Not excited given my situation, but excited for the chance to maybe help some of you going through what I am...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    In high school my friend witnessed his uncle, whom he was very close with, commit suicide by shooting himself in the head with a shotgun. He saw everything, when he came back to...
    Anderson087 Anderson087 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    I lost my friend in 2005 to suicide We were supposed to go on what would have been our first cruise He took his life on the train tracks He was only 23 Iwas devastated and...
    Stanray Stanray 61-65, M 6 Responses Jul 7

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    It's honestly not funny. If I ever see or hear someone make a joke out of suicide, depression, self harm I automatically have no respect for them.
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F Jul 18

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