I Have Complex Ptsd

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    Complex........Ya More Like Complicated

    I am going through therapy. I attend group meetings and whoa lets talk about severe flashbacks happening.  I am almost afraid of spending time alone with myself.  I need constant distractions to keep my thoughts occupied.  Now even that is not working.  Poof ....just like...
    flodials flodials
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 18, 2013

    I'm new to this forum

    but I recently realized that I have C-PTSD. Does anyone else struggle with self-sabotage and fear of success? If so, how do you get through it in the day-to-day and long-term decisions? I thought I had made my way out of most of this garbage, but it has crept back in...
    PurplePaisley PurplePaisley
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2014

    I developed Complex PTSD caused by 25+ years of

    aggressive Hostile Work Environment working for Salt Lake City Corporation Department of Public Utilities. I brought to the attention how bad things were numerous times and was told to "Lead by example". I was the last person hired, who was I to be leading anyone? I was struck...
    Kassarole Kassarole
    51-55, F
    Dec 6, 2014

    A Simple Yes Or No Will Suffice...

    It was just a theory that my therapist recently had: that I was suffering from PTSD from a drug that I had taken in October 2012. Believe me, since October, my mind has been going insane with trying to figure out what is the matter with me. Constant panic attacks, constantly...
    lookingforsafety lookingforsafety
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2013

    Am I Crazy?

    I've always considered myself to be a rational person who despite a traumatic childhood still was pretty sane. However, over the past ten years I found myself experiencing cracks in the armour so to speak. Every month I would have a reoccurring phase/episode which I entitled...
    Katrina888 Katrina888
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    It strikes again... I hear my name called

    and I begin to mentally prepare myself. My anxiety was relatively low as I stood up, but with each step I took down those seemingly endless stairs I could feel it bubbling. I turn and face the audience and I take a bow as I try to tell myself I'm not afraid. As I try to announce...
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Mar 15

    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD

    but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing but I'm totally 'new' to mental health illness. So I would very much appretiate if any of you guys could help me help him. SO, he's a...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    I don't think it's uncommon

    for people to zone out while watching television. My mind wanders, always has. What I found peculiar was that in going back to the last part of the show I remember, I would zone out again. Three or four times I would 'suddenly' be past the part I was trying to watch. I came to...
    adianoeta adianoeta
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2014

    Not Much Known About Cptsd

    I hate that cptsd cannot be officially diagnosed yet but soon it should be in the book the shrinks use to diagnose people. My therapist said he couldn't officially diagnose me but when it is available as a diagnosis he will change my current one. I'm a victim of childhood...
    ginger1776 ginger1776
    18-21, F
    8 Responses May 21, 2012

    Nothing New, But It's Still A Struggle

    I was diagnosed with CPTSD when I was 16 years old after a very turbulent childhood. I witnessed my father attempt to murder my mother on more than one occasion and we went into hiding after running out of the house. My father had also been near-fatally stabbed by a man and quite...
    ShadowMonster ShadowMonster
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 10, 2012

    Hello, I am new to the forum

    and I deal with C-PTSD. It's caused me to become a hermit who lives by herself and has no friends. I try to meet people and I'm friendly enough, I just have a hard time turning acquaintances into friends. I recently met a man who is like a dream: intelligent, sensitive, gentle...
    CanadianKestrel CanadianKestrel
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Dec 24, 2014

    Hi, I am new to this forum.

    I am trying to work on my CPTSD and I want to meet people that been through what I been through.
    N8ivecutie84 N8ivecutie84
    31-35, F
    Feb 28, 2015

    I came to this earth

    as avery sensitive child . And my upbringing was of a constant hostile nature . My parents didnt get along at all . Father from finland adopted when he was 4 years ( must have been terribly hard ) and a martyr mother who did her best , but couldnt stand her situation . So she...
    ithunderhart ithunderhart
    46-50, M
    Aug 25, 2014

    New To Chat Rooms

    This is my first posting in any chat room. I have been in therapy for almost 6 months now, and attend one hour long sessions twice a week. I have been diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder as well as Complex PTSD. Although I truly do love my parents, I have learned that our...
    ceejaye ceejaye
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2011

    Feeling It May Be Easier To Battle My Problems Alone

    I have been told time and time again that I cannot work through all of my issues alone. the fact behind that is, trying to battle it alone has gotten me into the hole im currently in today. Having a husband who trys to understand but just never fully gets my moods and episodes is...
    divisionbell divisionbell
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    I've just gone through the CPT therapy program.

    .. and it has been extended. I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm not having extreme, mind-numbing flashbacks anymore, but I still don't feel "ok". I've started cutting again, something I haven't done in over 10 years. I'm a 30 year old, stay-at-home mother of two. I...
    smrt02 smrt02
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jan 23, 2014

    I have watched perks of being a wallflower

    maybe 20 times in the past year. Every time it's on I watch it and love it no matter where I join in on the story. I finally decided to read the book. Wow. I haven't cried while reading a book in a long time, but there are things that Charlie says that hit home with my C-PTSD...
    kodemore kodemore
    31-35, M
    1 Response Feb 14, 2014

    20 minutes....This moment is perfect

    while meds works... please don't go away stay here and keep making me feel better i know you can do it more and more
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 15, 2015

    Never Joined A Support Forum

    I have Complex PTSD. However, I am hesitant to share my story because I don't want to just obsess over my past. I think it is dangerous indulgent behavior for me. I accept that the things that happened occurred but I worry about discussing details because in the past in group...
    bitealemon bitealemon
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Mar 1, 2013

    Dealing with Complex PTSD on a daily basis is

    so difficult. At age 53, I'm still working to overcome the triggers and emotional paralysis.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    It happened tonight. He was making a speech

    about the need to get ADT in the home here. I had taken notes for him during a phone consult while he was at work. He had just gotten home. He was so intent on calling the representative back, that he forgot to give me a hug when he got home, he shushed me away when I put the...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

    Venting My Life

    Hi everyone, I just feel like getting all these thoughts out of my head. My problems started when I was 5 and my god brother molested me... He abused me form 5-7 years old. I repressed these memories until I was about 16. I had been cutting since I was about 12 but didn't know...
    TangledLife TangledLife
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2013

    No one seems to understand what CPTSD is,

    so here, Educate yourselves. Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is typically the result of exposure to repeated or prolonged instances and multiple forms of interpersonal trauma, often occurring under circumstances where escape is not possible due to physical...
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 25

    Its my first time to have a meltdown in public,

    its a situation that triggered flashback,With this age I have I almost cried like a baby,my heart was beating so fast,I felt like I was being suffocated,worst I almost puke,I am so embarassed and thinking about that situation is making me feel depressed and stupid,I dont know how...
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978
    31-35, F
    May 8, 2015

    Icu Ptsd? Is This Real?

    I relayed this story in the asthma section, but I think I may need to be here...I'm not sure. I had an asthma attack (the mother of all asthma attacks) on 9/29/10...As for the day it happened, I have only a vague memory of struggling to breathe, then no memory of this event...
    JulesInBmore JulesInBmore
    51-55, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2012

    Since I'Ve Been To Therapy

    Hi to everyone, I've started therapy one and a half years ago. I started therapy because of chronic anxiety, Panic Attacks and insomnia plus periods of depression. What I didn't know back then was that I had PTSD. And since the wounds I had inside of me were childhood wounds...
    julie295 julie295
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    Years Of Misdiagnosis Finally Lead Me To The Real Issue Of Complex Ptsd, And The Healing Begins

    I grew up in an abusive and neglectful environment. There was alot of emotional abuse as well. When i was 14 or so i called a crisis line and my parents enevitably took me. In retrospect i think they took me because they were afraid the authorities would find out what they where...
    acoumbe acoumbe
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Apr 12, 2012

    I am tired. I'm tired of being tired.

    Of feeling like I'm crazy, of getting painful emotional and somatic flashbacks. Of every kind of flashback. I'm tired of feeling like something's coming for me, that something horrible is just waiting for me to take a step forward. Like its going to take away everything I care...
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    Mar 13

    Part 1 I witnessed physical

    and verbal abuse between my parents since I can remember, memories from as long back as when I was 3. I was physically and verbally abused by both of them. Neither of them loved me or expressed any sort of affection towards me. When my younger brother was born, they neglected...
    inabetterplace inabetterplace
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2014

    Seems like a different lifetime ago

    but for about 10 months I was put in a institution for individuals with severe physiological difficulties. I had developed some severe headaches that would cause me to have seizures that where do to a concoction of vaccines that I had some for of allergic reaction to? Oh did I...
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs
    36-40, M
    Nov 21, 2015

    I finally got officially diagnosed.

    To me, this wasn't such a bad thing. For me, this was actually good, because it was closure to me, especially since I was self-diagnosing for so long. Nobody took me seriously when I self-diagnosed, but now that I've been officially diagnosed, hopefully I can get help for it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 15

    my behavior from this disorder lately has been

    causing me the worst chaos ever to occur in my life. mentally i am pretty much unstable, marked to the man of my dreams and my true soul mate. i have become to admit i can not read some emotions on other people. i do not pick up on social cues very well. no matter how many...
    LITVET LITVET
    41-45, F
    Feb 15

    I Don'T Even Know Where To Begin...

    It's been an ongoing on/off nightmare for as long as I've lived, but as of late, my situation has become even worse. I'm already in the process of foreclosure on my house, with a sale date set for the 8th of April; this is likewise the date of my court subpoena as a testifying...
    cabraverde cabraverde
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2013

    I was bullied relentlessly in the town I grew

    up in. When I went to college I discovered that I actually could make friends with people and that I wasn't an ugly loser or unlikeable. I had major difficulties academically though and ended up having to withdraw from the course I was in. I'm back in my hometown living with my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 18, 2015

    I Am Not Crazy

    My PTSD is complex indeed. Its hard to be normal when so many abnormal things happen to you. I have been abused so many different ways before I really had a chance to live. Theres was no closure. Everyone has a logical reason as to why they hurt you or abandoned you. I just...
    loudsilence1 loudsilence1
    26-30, F
    Jan 28, 2013

    After confronting and conquering PTSD (or

    so I thought) stemming from 13 years of sexual abuse, I wound up in a physically abusive relationship during which I had a son that is now 10 months old. After what I just went through tonight, I've had no choice but to acknowledge the fact that my PTSD has come back (or it has...
    reynaa reynaa
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2015

    I've had Complex PTSD

    for over 15 years now and the more I understand myself,the more I feel detached from others. Being so self aware makes it hard to be present in the moment and enjoy life. I feel like I can only enjoy myself once I trust and that takes too long. I think now I'm not suffering from...
    purplesoc purplesoc
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2014

    My Childhood Ruined Me

    My step-brother sexually abused me, my mom neglected me, my step-dad used to be a drunk and beat us. My sister killed herself but I still suffer and live in hell every day. I'm 39 and incapable of being in a relationship, trusting men, trusting people in general. I crave love but...
    MissTarya MissTarya
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

    Differentiating Ptsd From C-ptsd

    I gathered this information to help out the people that want to know what the difference is between PTSD and C-PTSD.Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) is a psychological injury that results from protracted exposure to prolonged social and/or interpersonal trauma in...
    1greywolf 1greywolf
    46-50
    6 Responses Oct 9, 2012

    last night i thought i was going to die.

    ..i thought i was having a stroke. i got dizzy and i already had a migraine. i laid down on the kitchen floor praying to God that i would be ok. that's when you know you are metaphorically in a foxhole instead of a rabbit hole. my husband came to my rescue and was able to get me...
    LITVET LITVET
    41-45, F
    Mar 29

    Hi Everyone, I would like to start a peer

    support group in Oxford and/or ONLINE. Would anyone be interested? I suffered severe neglect since I was 2 months old, I was physically abused by a family member at the age of 5 - 6, being suicidal since 5 year-old. I was passed around between different relatives and my family...
    Etherscape Etherscape
    36-40
    Feb 9
    Samcoyou Samcoyou
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Mar 5, 2014

    C-ptsd ... What?

    Hi everyone, Last night I was officially diagnosed as having C-PTSD which I have only a basic understanding of, because well, my brain doesn't like to process new information at present. I have intense mood swings, from being happy and full of energy, to crashing down for days...
    ashleigh3160 ashleigh3160
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2013
    Owlmaid Owlmaid
    26-30, F
    May 22, 2014

    When I read the websites online about C-PTSD,

    I was sure I had it. Now, after reading your stories, I'm not sure. I would love for anyone to read through this and tell me your thoughts. When I was about five, my parents physically abused each other. I remember seeing it happen. They separated a year later, and I lived...
    Devinologist Devinologist
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 14, 2015

    i hate that i can't communicate effectively.

    i know that my husband gets frustrated to the point of disgust. i just assume not talk to anyone. i have chronic pain and fatigue to the point where i experienced sudden fatigue for the first time. i literally "crumpled and folded". i was petrified. i thought i was having a...
    LITVET LITVET
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 5

    Part 2 When I entered 6th grade,

    my brother joined preschool. Our mother had already kept him at home a year and a half longer than other kids his age and it wasn't even because he had any developmental delays, but because she didn't want to deal with the responsibilities of both children in school yet. Sadly...
    inabetterplace inabetterplace
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2014

    Hey there, My partner is struggling with

    complex ptsd. He's been in therapy and has found somatic work to be helpful temporarily, but is finding therapy to be unaffordable and that the process in general has in some ways decreased his functionality. It seems like that is a common part of the process for many people. Is...
    salixmatsudana salixmatsudana
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 2

    Unfortunatley Unique

    I feel somewhat like a poser becausee my ptsd is not from a war or any battle like most cases. My story is of no significance when compared to those who served for our country but I really wanted to see if anyone could relate to me. My dad was abusive. He was very aggressive and...
    WhatNoOneKnows WhatNoOneKnows
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Oct 22, 2012
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