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I Have Cried Myself to Sleep More Than Once

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    I have cried on this pillow,

    wept tears of pain of heartache and of joy. I have laughed with it, using it to hold my insides from falling out. It has acted as a sound barrier, a light blocker and the sole item to make my mornings retreat back to night for 5 more minutes. I have cried so many songs to it...
    fireyes fireyes 22-25, F Apr 24

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    ~I have been very good in the past about

    holding it all in. I guess you could say I became numb. However recently there was someone who had revived my heart and I allowed myself to feel again. I think I have cried more the last six months than I have in the last five years. Sometimes I'm in the car and a certain song...
    MyMissingPiece7790 MyMissingPiece7790 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Get Up!

    What do you do when you get so far down that you feel like you can't get back up? Get back up. It's what I was taught. Actually I was taught to crawl to a safe spot and get up and run away. The wonderful life lessons of my father. Live beyond your means then split leaving the...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 7 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    Is It Worth It?

    For so many years I have cried myself to sleep and most of the time I think its not worth it at the end of the day. Some people say its ok every now and then I got so tired of it. Doing it made me feel so depress up to the point of having suicidal thoughts. But never had the guts...
    gordiskuiz gordiskuiz 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    I feel like I'm just existing

    and not living..😔
    4evershattered 4evershattered 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Certainly Have....

       On quite a few occasions actually. Probably the first time that I can remember was my 14 birthday....sharing it alone, as mum was hooked on drugs....that was quite devestating actually...    On the night that my daughter was (mover than likely) concieved...
    Samm199294 Samm199294 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    It's like a daily routine now.

    And I actually feel good after crying. I cry because I feel lonely. It sucks. My best friend and I are not in touch anymore, like,we are. But not the way we used to be. And I'm not a people person. I am socially awkward. I can't talk much to people. So anybody who tries talking...
    TheQueen2809 TheQueen2809 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 22

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    I lay crying, looking at the roof,

    begging sleep to take over my body. The only thoughts that come to mind are those of loneliness and terrible luck with love. I wonder why love runs away from me every time I try to catch it, and why it never seeks me when I don't. After hours of uncontrollable sadness, I finally...
    foreveralone25 foreveralone25 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    Sometimes at night I would cry without having

    any reason and just falls asleep in my tears.
    SkyllarDallas SkyllarDallas 13-15, F 1 Response May 21

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    Sleeping Is Sort Of A Relief.

    My only relief is to sleep. When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad. I'm not angry. I'm not lonely. I'm nothing. I love sleeping because it seems my life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake.
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 16-17, F Mar 27, 2013

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    I don't cry tears anymore,

    I've been conditioned by my so called friends and family to believe that shedding a year is weakness, so I sit and torture myself mentally until I fall asleep, I fear that every night I lose more of my humanity each night, a actual situation proved that. At my place of...
    Darkness1994 Darkness1994 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    Only When The Kids Are Sleeping

    I was dumped when my daughter was 3 months old and I found out I was pregnant with out second child. I slept every night in the same bed we slept in together remembering when he would hold me and tell me much he loved me. I cried every night of my second pregnancy for hours at I...
    gratefullearner gratefullearner 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Nights That Have Finally Passed

    Sky blue eyes above open slowly, lids fluttering and velvet eye lashes quivering. The stillness all around seeps over her, causing her to feel restless, but she is unable to move. Breathing in gently she let's the weight of the world wash over her, the source of its heaviness...
    invisiblyreal invisiblyreal 18-21, F May 19, 2012

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    DanBurnett DanBurnett 16-17, M 6 Responses Apr 28

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    Firstly there are loads of people worse of

    than me. I have a fun job that pays a fortune. I am married with a little boy. However I sometimes find myself so down I end up in tears with a physical ache in my chest. This is almost ridiculous as I am a pretty bubbly, witty , upbeat person who has always thought depression...
    pmax2000 pmax2000 31-35, M Feb 12

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    I Can Remember Most..

     1. The night my dad left. 2. One night when I came home after a bad night and my mom went off on me, calling me every name in the book. 3. The night I came home after breaking up with my boyfriend for hitting me, and then my mom went off on me calling me weak, saying I...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 15 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    I should be the happiest man I know.

    When I am with her I am the happiest man I know, but the moment we part and I leave to go home to my house it's like I left part if me behind. I love this woman with all my heart and we can't live together till her divorce is final. And then there is a 30 day waiting period...
    GoodGuy40 GoodGuy40 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    And I am going to do it again tonight.

    . Letting it all out.. Hopefully I'll have a good night sleep.. then feel better by morning 😉
    TearfulNights22 TearfulNights22 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Most people usually think about their thoughts,

    while going to sleep. I think about all my thoughts, and all the things I've done. I sometimes feel ashamed of myself, or I'm missing someone. I go through my sad thoughts, and cry myself to sleep....
    CSCE720 CSCE720 13-15, F Feb 4

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    I do this most days, i think of how my life is

    going to be: lonely. Was crying yesterday night thinking about valentines.
    AchingSoul AchingSoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Once agin, I'm crying,

    and not that anyone cares but I feel so depressed right now, I just want to leave for good, but I don't know how to actually 'end' my life. I don't want my parents too know, that the only reason I haven't done it yet
    WhoEverCares WhoEverCares 13-15, F Jun 22

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    Many

    I have many times with various things running through my head. and then i wake up with mascara running down my face.
    gentlyyours gentlyyours 18-21, F Apr 18, 2012

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    Funny In A Strange Way

    I got home late last night. Talked to my son and sister. Called him. Talked for a few minutes. I ate my dinner, such as it was and watched television for a few minutes before crawling off to bed. It was hot and stuffy as I got dressed for bed and so I turned on the air...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2010

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    Yes I Have Cried To Sleep More Than Once..

    Lately I have been doing that and i wish i could say that there is a good reason...but I am starting to think maybe it is because I am so angry at being alone again.
    stargurllynx stargurllynx 18-21, F Jun 29, 2012

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    Almost every other night all my thoughts crawls

    into my mind about how sad I am and how ashamed I feel for letting myself get molested by a boy not very much older then myself and then getting myself kidnapped. All the pain and misery I felt floods my mind without end. I feel like no one really cares about me and I am just an...
    Cleverbot Cleverbot 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 4

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    The Bed In Which I Cry

    Laying in my bed at night....I think to myself how large it is. It's too big for me now. It's a king size bed. I remember when we bought it. I smile at the memory. Our three little ones all crammed in one double bed with him and I. He ended up in the livingroom on the couch. I...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 20 Responses Nov 23, 2009

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    When I was in middle school I use to cry myself

    to sleep because I was being bullied I didn't want to go back.
    AwesomeWeirdo AwesomeWeirdo 16-17, F Jan 30

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    It may seem silly as most my life is

    so good, but I still have many times, though it's not always when I'm going to bed, more often than not I'm ok then, it's often when I wake up in the middle of the night crying.. and continue to until I fall asleep again...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 7

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    I've done it many times

    when I can't sleep. And when I can't sleep it means I think so many things. So many things about the future, the present, my mistakes. And then, I just cry. I can't release my bottled emotions any other way, but even crying isn't that effective either. I worry about so many...
    Kitzami Kitzami 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    Ten nights in a row..

    . It's been a bad week.
    SensitiveSelf SensitiveSelf 13-15 2 Responses Jun 21

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    My grade in Spanish class is the reason I cry

    myself to sleep... Also my extreme loneliness and awful personality but of course, those don't matter as much.
    Girlinthefloweredskirt Girlinthefloweredskirt 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I was in seventh grade

    when it happened. This was the worst year of my life. I don't know why they thought this, but I walked into the computer lab and at my computer were the these words written on my pass code screen, "you are gay and bisexual". It hurt really bad.
    EnglandsPiratePrincess EnglandsPiratePrincess 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Funny How They Could Do This

    She's cried so many times she doesn't even keep count anymore. Sometimes its quiet other times she breaks out in sobs because life has fallen apart again. They never seem to think about how their decisions affect her. She knows they care but yet they don't see what they're doing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 28, 2011

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    Tears On My Pillow

    There have been many times that I've cry myself to sleep. I'll say goodnight to my husband who chooses to watch a movie and I'll lay myself down and the tears will start to roll. Whether its because I'm tired or I have something on my mind, I will cry myself to sleep. Happens...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    Until I cry myself into a headache.

    Read eyes, and a even redder face.
    BrowningBrownie BrowningBrownie 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    My best friend was ignoring me

    and not wanting to talk me. I was thinking about how much I just wanted to hang out with her agian and talk to her. I started crying thinking about it. I cried my self to sleep.
    mischifmaker mischifmaker 13-15, F Jun 22

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    Funny Odd

    The funny thing about it is, once I cry myself to sleep, I dream sad dreams. And when I wake up, I cry again. Like the hours between were never there....
    BloodRedShadow BloodRedShadow 18-21 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    Almost everyday now..

    .. I really haven't gone more than a day without crying since November
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 8

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    Maybe I'm Just A Little Lost.. (Family)

    Like other people, I too cry myself to sleep. But what If there was a good reason to it? Is it love? Is it friendship? Is it family? Was there something wrong with me? Maybe I'm just a little lost. I grew up with a piece of my heart torn inside, or a torn family. My mom and dad...
    lostinlife21 lostinlife21 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2013

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    Here We Go Again....

    How is it possible to be surrounded by others and feel so totally alone? Crying into my pillow at night is never an intention but as I lay there with my back to my sadness I feel cold fingers on my shoulder reminding me of my sorrow, not letting me up for a moment. The tears...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    When my nan passed away unfortunately.

    RIP nan I know you'd be very proud of me xxxxxxxxxx
    lishylou123 lishylou123 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Tonight Is Just Another One Of Those Nights

    I've cried myself to sleep several times just within the last several weeks. Ever since my best friend has stopped coming to school, I've been really emotional all the time and I cry a lot. She is my best friend in the entire world and we've been friends for going on 5 years now...
    skyhook2612 skyhook2612 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2013

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    I sometimes cry myself to sleep.

    When I think about something sad I cry. I cry and the tears roll down my face and on my pillow. My pillow gets soaked with the tears. I feel like the toxins in my body come out with the tears and I relax. I fall asleep without knowing. I seems to be relaxing in a way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jan 21

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    Because I think too much it gives me bad

    headaches and at this moment now it's happening, I feel so angry for no reason and just want someone to talk to now because everyone else is asleep.
    Emmy18 Emmy18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    A bad habit. It had been two weeks

    since I cried myself to sleep, as soon as I lie in bed and rest my head on my pillow I think of him and remember the moments we spent together, sudden tears are falling down my face as I remember the breakup moment, the tears that I was holding them back throughout the day...
    Allurance Allurance 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    it only happens on certain days.

    As corny as it sounds its normally because of a missing my tbdl mom in one way or another or b wanting a real tbdl life not just online. u other tbdls understand right
    jaxianrhyder jaxianrhyder 18-21, T Apr 1

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    Yeah currently actually.

    Going to sleep bc I'm not going back to 0 days clean & crying is exhausting . So shoutout to my "best friend", who just told me that I'm "an attention whhore and obviously faking my OCD and General Anxiety and if I'm so f***ing depressed why don't I just kill myself?" Maybe I...
    orderwithaprefix orderwithaprefix 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    When people started licking on me

    for being a femboy and all my friends left me and the only one I had to talk to was my kitty luna
    HikariOkaga HikariOkaga 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 30

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    Time for a lil sad story

    for once Things have been hard lately, my past seems to be haunting me again. I used to be okay with it because I had others to distract me but lately... no one is ever home or if they are, I be as well invisible. My dads drinking more, I think he comes home from work drunk...
    TearsBecomeSnow TearsBecomeSnow 16-17, F Jan 30

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    Back when I was still traumatized of the cruel

    act that my parent's friend's son did to me, I cried myself to sleep so much. I didn't even eat that much, and all I ever thought of was how my virginity was ******** away forcibly by someone whom I used to trust...it was painful. It is so hard for me to even explain this. I...
    LolitaChrisbell LolitaChrisbell 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    And it looks like I'll be doing it again. I can't believe this. I hate my life. So much.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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