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I Have Cut Myself Before

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    leahxlife leahxlife 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    So here's my story.  My name is Rob, I'm 19, and the last time I cut myself was about a month ago.  It was after I had felt like I had failed at trying to save a friendship that I had with my friend Ashley.  However after I cut myself she then came down to my dorm room to...
    SpeakOutMediaGroup SpeakOutMediaGroup 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 6, 2015

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    "We cut and kill flowers

    because we think they are beautiful, but we cut and kill ourselves because we think we are not." (Sorry I don't know who this is by but I did not write it myself!!)
    hellafries hellafries 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    It's been Almost 3 years

    since I started cutting myself I have been clean for a Month already and the Reason I started is cause people said that I deserved the Pain and Suffering that I go through and I Rrmember this One Person asking me why do I do it and I told her I deserve the Pain because I'm a Bad...
    LovelessMind LovelessMind 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2015

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    Today I actually talked to the boy

    that I liked all year (although not anymore, for obvious reasons)... The one I knew since a couple weeks before my depression. The one who triggered the depression because I was stupid enough to get close to a person who is not only close minded, but also would never be able of...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6 16-17, F 1 Response May 13, 2015

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    I really miss the times

    when my arms were clean with no trace of scars. To be honest it feels so good but so bad at the same time. I miss who I used to be. Now I'm just some stupid girl who has no friends.
    HiddenPain18 HiddenPain18 16-17, F Apr 27, 2014

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    so .... I did it again.

    why am I so weak? something about the rush of blood that rush of pain. something about it gives me a sense of peace. or the closest I can get to it. why am I so weak. I'm trying so hard to fight it but fighting just seems useless.
    losthope17 losthope17 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2015

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    My best friend slapped me

    when he found out, he was scared and confused by what I do to myself, he kept asking why. My only response was that I felt better after I did it, the physical pain distracted me from the emotional pain I feel. He felt betrayed that I could hide it from him for so long, I...
    BrokenTomBoy BrokenTomBoy 31-35, F Jan 2

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    Bryanisflyinglol Bryanisflyinglol 16-17, M Jan 25

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    I am now two months clean

    since i last cut. its been hard but its going to be ok
    TealMarie TealMarie 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    First time I ever attempted to cut my self was

    with a pair of sissers all because I was so mad that my grandma wouldn't let me spend the night. It didn't hurt because I didn't break the skin so I kept doing it, showed my parents and my dad says that messed up people do that. I did it later on but with a knife. I don't k ow...
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I always blame it on the cat

    and everyone always believes me
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

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    you know why people cut?

    Because its a distraction. For one moment you dont feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is that razor going into your skin, the blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You dont think about how alone you are. You dont think about how your family is foghting or...
    deaddreamergirl deaddreamergirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    People at school saw my cuts

    and I'm scared for judge mental people
    torritaco torritaco 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 20, 2015

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    I just want someone to see.

    .. I am not seeking attention I hate it but I just want someone to see and not judge
    kimaouad kimaouad 16-17, F Dec 27, 2015

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    DixieLandDiva101 DixieLandDiva101 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2015

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    It all started when I was 11.

    I was being bullied. Yelled at by my dad. I had undiagnosed bipolar depression and anxiety. I used a safety pin, I shed the tiniest amount of blood. It's funny, almost laughable to me now, that I morphed from safety pins to butcher knives. I have a severe scar on my upper...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 11

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    Soooo many memories of me dragging those

    scissors or the knife into my upper thigh, my designated cutting spot. Blood flowing down my leg, me struggling to clean it before it stains the carpet. I cut pretty deep. And all the while, tears pour down my face. I don't cut as much anymore but sometimes I'll feel the need to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 11

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    It temporarily numbs the pain of life.

    Soon enough if will completely end it!!
    Mollythebunnie Mollythebunnie 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    I hate when people act like you can "just stop.

    " Self-injury is an addiction, you can't "just stop." Can people just up and decide to stop smoking or overdosing on drugs? No. It's a serious problem. If it's for attention, then why do we try so hardly to hide it? People who are talking about "those emo freaks that cut...
    orderwithaprefix orderwithaprefix 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    I haven't cut myself

    for three months but I can still see my scars, it triggers me sometimes but I know I shouldn't cut, but whenever I tell someone that they're like, stop cutting it isn't good for you just stop being depressed. Telling someone to stop being depressed isn't gonna help, if anything...
    drunkpunker drunkpunker 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2015

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    I just couldn't stop myself anymore.

    . I've been fighting these past few months and I finally gave in today... I knew I would regret it after but I just couldn't stop.. Once I grabbed my razor it was like my subconscious took over..
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    Does anyone know of any alternatives

    that lessen the urge to cut. i have been for a few month now, being able to go a week or two inbetween sometimes, and other times multiple times in the same day. I cut on my fingers mostly(no scars), and on my legs a few times. But I want to stop, I have tried drawing on myself...
    ghostmachine ghostmachine 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    obviously its not good

    that I'm cutting myself, but there's something I like about this pic
    Idontwanttosendyouapic Idontwanttosendyouapic 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    I'm over 2 years clean.

    I used to do it to punish myself because I thought I deserved the pain for his stupid I was. But then I joined a sports team. Not only did I not have time to cut, but I put my body through so much punishment through the sport that I channeled all my self hate there. I ended up...
    Floridagirlfaith Floridagirlfaith 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    I've cut before. But I'm going to stop.

    I've always known it would do nothing but hurt me more, no matter how good it felt. Even though I've always known I should stop, I've had a hard time letting go. But now I have resolved to never allow cutting to be an option. I will break free from it entirely and never go back...
    DarkandDesolate DarkandDesolate 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 21, 2015

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    I just wanted to remember to myself

    that I am a bad bad person....
    subviolet subviolet 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2015

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    so many cuts.... only

    so much jackets and jeans can hide. what am I doing? why am I making this worse. I'm pregnant I can't be harming myself. yet I find that the only time I wear a relaxed face is when I have that blade at my wrist. otherwise I am thrown into this depression. a darkness that I will...
    losthope17 losthope17 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    was in a mental hospital

    for it and got a therapist (pretty stupid one) i was clean for 2 months, started again 2 days ago
    deaddreamergirl deaddreamergirl 18-21, F Apr 21, 2015

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    I used to cut myself

    when ever I was bullied and Lately I've been Getting bullied and I just Wanna cut again to let the pain out
    animegurl3085 animegurl3085 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    It started when I was 12

    and then it went on till I was 16 I'm recoving from self harm I still have days where I really want to and it's hard not to but at lest I'm getting better
    KaylaDem33 KaylaDem33 18-21, F May 4, 2015

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    I was and am depressed

    whether i am diagnosed or not. I have cut because that helped me feel... alive. Cutting helped me feel something more than just emptiness. I am not encouraging cutting but I am not judging anyone if they cut or have before.
    cgram cgram 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    For all those people

    who are cutting at the moment please stop I'm saying this because I care about all of you I know what it's like to feel like it's the only thing that can make you feel better but think about it.. what does that stuff lead you too? For me? an almost suicide and drinking and...
    Naniebananie Naniebananie 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2015

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    I was doing pretty good like 78 days

    and then I relapsed and now I have to start all over again
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F Dec 2, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 25

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    When I cant feel anything else I cut myself.

    I have heard that its a control thing, for me.... I feel like I bled out the bad. When the blood starts running a calmness sweeps over me. For a few seconds I feel, I can breath and I create the illusion that I will be ok until my next cutting
    Bibi13 Bibi13 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2015

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    *This is basically my life story.

    So it's pretty long. :P It may be triggering. Read at your own discretion.* My childhood was great. I had a fun childhood. I had way too many toys than I needed and a family that loved me. I was spoiled but had been taught very good manners by my mom. I did well in school...
    smartypants151998 smartypants151998 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    it was a period in my life

    that I'm so glad is over and has made me such a strong person. at the time, i couldn't see a way out and you don't think there is one. i was so consumed in my own depression that it felt like chaos in my head. it's not as easy as stopping! it's a very hard, a very individual...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 19, 2015

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    Tbh Like I cut a couple times.

    .... not a lot but then I found an outlet u know like for me it is friends and music... I'm kinda determined to help other ppl to find there outlet and stopping them from committing suicide and stuff so if u need to talk to me I'll try and b here
    invisiblegirlz invisiblegirlz 13-15, F Dec 15, 2014

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    But not on purpose. Usually

    when I am building something and I am tired. A slip of the knife or tool. I bleed pretty good.
    belliston belliston 46-50, M Dec 1, 2015

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    I have been doing this

    for about 3 years now. I started when I was about 13 and now I'm 16 and do it a lot. At first it was every once in a while and even then it'd only be scratches, nothing deep. Then it became daily. I would almost freak out if I went a day without it. They got deeper. My parents...
    CharlotteRay CharlotteRay 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    Issima Issima 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2015

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    Yesterday was a horrible day,

    lots of sh*t went down and I fell back to this old habit.. One could even call it addiction. I was so angry, hurt, I just wanted to.. Well, at first, defuse the anger and when it was gone I kept cutting to relief the mental pain I was feeling and to punish myself. It's been over...
    JacobtheJunkie JacobtheJunkie 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Its been two years now.

    Two years of inner pain, making me hate who I became so much I started psychically harming myself. Just days ago, I broke my 200 day clean streak. Now I'm only 2 days clean. But it's a start. I will get better one day.
    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F 7 Responses Oct 28, 2015

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