I Have Cut Myself Before

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    I've cut myself before

    and even though it's been a while I'm very tempted.
    chipconyurson chipconyurson
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 17

    oh god I can't take it anymore I'm a dead man

    oh god oh god oh god dead man dead man dead man
    anthonylol anthonylol
    13-15, M
    Apr 11

    I hate when people act like you can "just stop.

    " Self-injury is an addiction, you can't "just stop." Can people just up and decide to stop smoking or overdosing on drugs? No. It's a serious problem. If it's for attention, then why do we try so hardly to hide it? People who are talking about "those emo freaks that cut...
    orderwithaprefix orderwithaprefix
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2014
    Bryanisflyinglol Bryanisflyinglol
    16-17, M
    Jan 25

    Does anyone know of any alternatives

    that lessen the urge to cut. i have been for a few month now, being able to go a week or two inbetween sometimes, and other times multiple times in the same day. I cut on my fingers mostly(no scars), and on my legs a few times. But I want to stop, I have tried drawing on myself...
    ghostmachine ghostmachine
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    because because i'm worthless because you say

    you'll help but then u don't because it's the only way to cope because no one loves me because everyone forgets me because the nightmare are real because waking up is a disappointment because i don't deserve to live.
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Mar 25
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 25
    leahxlife leahxlife
    13-15, F
    Feb 7

    It all started when I was 11.

    I was being bullied. Yelled at by my dad. I had undiagnosed bipolar depression and anxiety. I used a safety pin, I shed the tiniest amount of blood. It's funny, almost laughable to me now, that I morphed from safety pins to butcher knives. I have a severe scar on my upper...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 11

    "Self infliction is a dragon

    that lives inside our soul, bearing it's fangs when it knows we are weak."
    Brothergoro Brothergoro
    18-21
    2 Responses Mar 5

    I used to cut myself

    when ever I was bullied and Lately I've been Getting bullied and I just Wanna cut again to let the pain out
    animegurl3085 animegurl3085
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 21

    "We cut and kill flowers

    because we think they are beautiful, but we cut and kill ourselves because we think we are not." (Sorry I don't know who this is by but I did not write it myself!!)
    hellafries hellafries
    13-15, F
    Jan 22

    It started when I was 12

    and then it went on till I was 16 I'm recoving from self harm I still have days where I really want to and it's hard not to but at lest I'm getting better
    KaylaDem33 KaylaDem33
    18-21, F
    May 4, 2015

    When a blade hurts less

    than the pain you feel inside, some fall to their conscience. It does not mean we are weak.. but rather, deep down, we are fearful that nobody will listen. . that we can hide our tears with blood, and our pain with a smile. While we try to stay strong, we don't quite realize...
    Brothergoro Brothergoro
    18-21
    Mar 4

    He tells me he cut himself i freak out

    and tell him not to do it again but when i cut myself he doesnt give a **** he ignores it he doesn't ask if i'm okay he doesn't care why does no one care?!?!?!?!? i just want someone to care about me like i care about them!!!! whenever i cut myself its "just because u cut...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Mar 25

    I used to cut, I still want to every single day,

    but I find better ways to cope, like playing cello and lighting things on fire.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 7

    I just want someone to see.

    .. I am not seeking attention I hate it but I just want someone to see and not judge
    kimaouad kimaouad
    16-17, F
    Dec 27, 2015

    I just wanted to remember to myself

    that I am a bad bad person....
    subviolet subviolet
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2015

    I just couldn't stop myself anymore.

    . I've been fighting these past few months and I finally gave in today... I knew I would regret it after but I just couldn't stop.. Once I grabbed my razor it was like my subconscious took over..
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    I've been cutting since 6th grade,

    I'm not trying to kill myself, I'm trying not to kill other people. hahah I don't care about the attention, I actually hate it. I'm in college now and I had stopped for a few months until my work got over whelming and I was having some money problems. didn't hurt, I just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 6

    My best friend slapped me

    when he found out, he was scared and confused by what I do to myself, he kept asking why. My only response was that I felt better after I did it, the physical pain distracted me from the emotional pain I feel. He felt betrayed that I could hide it from him for so long, I...
    BrokenTomBoy BrokenTomBoy
    31-35, F
    Jan 2

    I used to do it a lot.

    I stopped and remained clean for a few months. Then started, then stopped. It's been on and off. The past week or so, I've started back. More so in the last few days. Im in no way bragging; I just needed to tell someone. This website is for confessions and such, correct? I hate...
    gummball gummball
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2015

    i started when i was 12

    and if felt good
    Jamal1986 Jamal1986
    26-30, M
    Feb 6

    I started when I was about 9.

    . I was diagnosed with major depression and it made me feel like I was a complete waste, and that since I have a problem that I shouldn't be alive... But I had this friend and his name was dexten... he saved me he met everything to me, we made a promise to each other that we...
    Smile6781 Smile6781
    13-15, F
    Apr 22, 2015

    *This is basically my life story.

    So it's pretty long. :P It may be triggering. Read at your own discretion.* My childhood was great. I had a fun childhood. I had way too many toys than I needed and a family that loved me. I was spoiled but had been taught very good manners by my mom. I did well in school...
    smartypants151998 smartypants151998
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    It's been Almost 3 years

    since I started cutting myself I have been clean for a Month already and the Reason I started is cause people said that I deserved the Pain and Suffering that I go through and I Rrmember this One Person asking me why do I do it and I told her I deserve the Pain because I'm a Bad...
    LovelessMind LovelessMind
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 22, 2015
    DixieLandDiva101 DixieLandDiva101
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    I'm starting to cut again,

    I never wanted to again, but now I've gotten in so much I'm doingit again!
    Cory1996 Cory1996
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    For all those people

    who are cutting at the moment please stop I'm saying this because I care about all of you I know what it's like to feel like it's the only thing that can make you feel better but think about it.. what does that stuff lead you too? For me? an almost suicide and drinking and...
    Naniebananie Naniebananie
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    I have been doing this

    for about 3 years now. I started when I was about 13 and now I'm 16 and do it a lot. At first it was every once in a while and even then it'd only be scratches, nothing deep. Then it became daily. I would almost freak out if I went a day without it. They got deeper. My parents...
    CharlotteRay CharlotteRay
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

    I still do. I always wear long sleeves to hide

    the scars, but I slipped up and someone saw them while I was changing out for gym.
    TheEmoAngel TheEmoAngel
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Mar 15

    Soooo many memories of me dragging those

    scissors or the knife into my upper thigh, my designated cutting spot. Blood flowing down my leg, me struggling to clean it before it stains the carpet. I cut pretty deep. And all the while, tears pour down my face. I don't cut as much anymore but sometimes I'll feel the need to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 11

    I hate going down this hole.

    ..but I'm falling and I'm starting again
    cutekittycat cutekittycat
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 20

    I came back to EP with the thought of not

    relapsing again into the things I thought I left behind me. Somehow I would rather not share this story but I also feel like I need to be open with myself and just write how I feel. I guess a lot of people wouldn't understand why people would cut. To me, it's just about not...
    Kimmy159 Kimmy159
    22-25, F
    Feb 13
    lillyross lillyross
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Aug 29, 2015

    was in a mental hospital

    for it and got a therapist (pretty stupid one) i was clean for 2 months, started again 2 days ago
    deaddreamergirl deaddreamergirl
    18-21, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    I always blame it on the cat

    and everyone always believes me
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

    obviously its not good

    that I'm cutting myself, but there's something I like about this pic
    Idontwanttosendyouapic Idontwanttosendyouapic
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    I haven't cut myself

    for three months but I can still see my scars, it triggers me sometimes but I know I shouldn't cut, but whenever I tell someone that they're like, stop cutting it isn't good for you just stop being depressed. Telling someone to stop being depressed isn't gonna help, if anything...
    drunkpunker drunkpunker
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    But not on purpose. Usually

    when I am building something and I am tired. A slip of the knife or tool. I bleed pretty good.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 1, 2015

    It's really scaring me how much I've been

    cutting lately. I've never been this addicted. I just always want to do it. The sting from it, the blood, looking at each cut lined up. God I need it.
    graciouslove graciouslove
    18-21, F
    Dec 8, 2015

    it was a period in my life

    that I'm so glad is over and has made me such a strong person. at the time, i couldn't see a way out and you don't think there is one. i was so consumed in my own depression that it felt like chaos in my head. it's not as easy as stopping! it's a very hard, a very individual...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    I was doing pretty good like 78 days

    and then I relapsed and now I have to start all over again
    steal11 steal11
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 6, 2015
    xotwod31 xotwod31
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    Today I actually talked to the boy

    that I liked all year (although not anymore, for obvious reasons)... The one I knew since a couple weeks before my depression. The one who triggered the depression because I was stupid enough to get close to a person who is not only close minded, but also would never be able of...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    I cut because it's the only thing i have

    control over. Cutting allows me to control my pain, if I'm sad or feeling down i don't really have any control.
    StahpCopyingMyName StahpCopyingMyName
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 6

    Yesterday was a horrible day,

    lots of sh*t went down and I fell back to this old habit.. One could even call it addiction. I was so angry, hurt, I just wanted to.. Well, at first, defuse the anger and when it was gone I kept cutting to relief the mental pain I was feeling and to punish myself. It's been over...
    JacobtheJunkie JacobtheJunkie
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 15
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