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I Have Cut Myself Before

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    I Didn't Even Cry

    I remember the first time I cut. It wasn't deep it didn't bleed a lot and I wasn't really strong enough to go through with it. It still felt stupidly good though. The second time I was a bit braver, then I realized scissors weren't the best option. I changed tactics and used a...
    sophiehastings sophiehastings 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2012

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    I haven't cut in a year

    and a half. My scars are massive and they'll never go away. I wish they would. At the time I was cutting I didn't care about the scars it would leave. I wasn't planning on living very much longer. But now I want them to go away. I still want to cut but I don't want permanent...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    When I was 4 yrs. old,

    closing my grandpas pocket knife, to the bone. Damn that hurt later!!! What nut case does it on purpose? These are weird answers here!
    PaulBeach4 PaulBeach4 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I thought I didn't have anything else to do.

    I grabbed the blade and cut my thighs my wrists and anywhere else I could think of. I started and I couldn't stop. It's like something inside of me just came out and wanted me to hurt myself! I think it's better this way
    ErIng9971 ErIng9971 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 12

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    Yeah not much but I have.

    The first time it was more of an accident. I had found my dad's secret stash of pocket knives. I took one and was playing with it and accidentally cut myself. I was in a relationship at the time btw. Anyways the second time and first time it was intentional I pressed it to the...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16 22-25, F May 7, 2014

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    as a teenager...nothing special.

    though like every other teen, i was convinced no one else had felt what i felt.. i was in love but it was not returned. i didn't know how to face that. the one i cared and had been loyal too for quite some time had rejected me. i didn't know how to just move on. this built...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    My Story

    So here's my story.  My name is Rob, I'm 19, and the last time I cut myself was about a month ago.  It was after I had felt like I had failed at trying to save a friendship that I had with my friend Ashley.  However after I cut myself she then came down to my dorm room to...
    SpeakOutMediaGroup SpeakOutMediaGroup 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    I was going through a very difficult time with

    my best friend. She was having issues with self-hatred and suicidal thoughts and attempts that I was there to see or hear about. I also hate myself and the fact I am antisocial and don't accept myself at all as a person. Cutting just seemed like the outlet to go to and I cute my...
    sociallyxawk sociallyxawk 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I  did it again.

    :(. Why am I so useless?
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    carlosgalindo1130 carlosgalindo1130 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 11

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    My father and I got in to a fight

    and I felt so angry that I picked a piece of a razor blade and sliced my wrist. Not to kill my self( maybe).
    gorgeusgirlSky3 gorgeusgirlSky3 13-15 Mar 22

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    Today i cut myself for the first time i

    even have photos but i wish i died you know ICANT take it anymore . My parents dont give a **** about me rather care about their reputation among their peers
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    I really miss the times

    when my arms were clean with no trace of scars. To be honest it feels so good but so bad at the same time. I miss who I used to be. Now I'm just some stupid girl who has no friends.
    HiddenPain18 HiddenPain18 16-17, F Apr 27, 2014

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    Tbh Like I cut a couple times.

    .... not a lot but then I found an outlet u know like for me it is friends and music... I'm kinda determined to help other ppl to find there outlet and stopping them from committing suicide and stuff so if u need to talk to me I'll try and b here
    invisiblegirlz invisiblegirlz 13-15, F Dec 15, 2014

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    Earlier this year, I became depressed.

    Well, I thought I was, because I thought my life sucked. I'll explain later. But I had learned my brother cut in seventh grade, and for some reason, I felt like it would help me. So I took a sharpener, and used a screwdriver to unscrew the blade off and used that. I never cut...
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 13-15, F Jun 7, 2014

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    I hate when people act like you can "just stop.

    " Self-injury is an addiction, you can't "just stop." Can people just up and decide to stop smoking or overdosing on drugs? No. It's a serious problem. If it's for attention, then why do we try so hardly to hide it? People who are talking about "those emo freaks that cut...
    orderwithaprefix orderwithaprefix 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2014

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    So I did something last night

    that I'm very proud of . I threw away all of my blades . I got to thinking,"Do I really want scars all over my body? No I don't. It's time to stop this." After that I threw them away . I just hope it lasts ....
    PerfectionDoesntExist PerfectionDoesntExist 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    For some reason whenever I cut I take pictures.

    I don't know if it helps me or makes me want to stop I just have. The worst time I cut, I had cut 52 times on one arm. I didn't take a picture.
    thalassinia thalassinia 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2014

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    I used to do it a lot.

    I stopped and remained clean for a few months. Then started, then stopped. It's been on and off. The past week or so, I've started back. More so in the last few days. Im in no way bragging; I just needed to tell someone. This website is for confessions and such, correct? I hate...
    gummball gummball 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I started last year because of a friend got me

    mad, and I also wanted to escape my past too.
    Theharmony111 Theharmony111 13-15, F 2 Responses May 25, 2014

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    So its been about a year of little on nd off

    cutting. So my cuts weren't deep they never have been Cos I can't get deep so its never to serious but now I'm doing it again is it wrong that I enjoy it? Last time it screwed over my life in year 10. Now I'm at college nd tbh it helps if I'm stressed or angry or anything really...
    forgottenluna forgottenluna 18-21, M Feb 16, 2014

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    This isn't something I'm proud of.

    But I don't regret it. It helped me get through hard times. I haven't cut for over a mouth. And I can't cut again. I'm not addicted. I started cause I wanted to help someone. But it's not their problem. It's mine. And so yeah, I have cut myself before so I know what it's like...
    skylerGrace skylerGrace 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2014

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    I am now two months clean

    since i last cut. its been hard but its going to be ok
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    I'm so sick of being up

    and down every day and wanting to hurt myself or end my life
    Shestrying Shestrying 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2014

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    I've cut before. But I'm going to stop.

    I've always known it would do nothing but hurt me more, no matter how good it felt. Even though I've always known I should stop, I've had a hard time letting go. But now I have resolved to never allow cutting to be an option. I will break free from it entirely and never go back...
    Darkanddesolate Darkanddesolate 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I do cut myself and I can admit it

    but I need some advice. I don't wanna be lectured and told not to cut, only people who cut will understand so please don't tell me not to!!! I cut myself on my thighs and forearms but I'm a dancer and I need to know where I can cut so that other people don't see? Please help!
    emi37y emi37y 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2014

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    I haven't cut for years

    and I still have scars but you have to look carefully at them to see them
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    It was all I knew for a long time.

    It was my only way to make it through rough times. The pain of dealing with what my best friend did. It wasn't easy, but it's possible to make it out of the pain. I deal with it differently now and all I have to deal with are the scars it's left behind. If anyone ever wants to...
    Monwell Monwell 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    I am both the victim

    and the abuser. they say blades are dangerous, my thoughts have hurt me more than blades ever could. I cut to feel, I to live, to breathe, to survive this awful world. I'm not hurting myself, I am trying to survive
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    It started with one cut.

    Then it became more. Then the razor wasn't good enough. Then it wasn't deep enough. Then there wasn't enough blood. Eventually it got to the point where I realized I was in a vicious cycle that didn't help me at all and I stopped. Now I'm 3 months clean.
    dMajorb dMajorb 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Vandium Vandium 13-15, F Feb 22

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    I was in class today

    and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    Unicornsydney Unicornsydney 13-15, F Nov 19, 2014

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    my scars are disappearing

    and its killing me
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I was clean from cutting

    for a year and a bit but then last week I went through a really bad fight and I cut again. Not deep at all. But in every day after that I craved cutting again. Even though we made up and everything's better. I can't stop seriously craving that feeling.
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Briefly, But It Scarred

    I was very shocked when I picked up the knife. I've only done it briefly a few times, and I'd like to say never again - but who knows? It was all because of my uncle who's an alcoholic. He had tried to commit suicide again, and I felt a lot of pain inside. I thought of the pain...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    I have done it my teen yrs & went through a lot

    with my mom & my high school bf then! A lot of drama that I couldn't take! I don't do that bc I have my kids to think about & to live for! To me not worth it to end my life now!
    ncsweetfem ncsweetfem 36-40, F Oct 15, 2014

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    I first cut myself at the age of 16.

    Few times at age of 17. Then again when i was 20. And the latest was 3 months ago as 21. All to ease the pain in my heart. Trying to stay clean now.
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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    shibabe1996 shibabe1996 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    I have done this numerous times.

    Always by accident.
    Gumba1000 Gumba1000 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I just started cutting

    and to be honest I find the pain addicting and it is such a great pain reliever. What is the best thing to cut with?
    macygracey macygracey 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    It has been three years

    since i cut myself and I'm proud i stopped
    somewhereinwonderland somewhereinwonderland 18-21, F Feb 5, 2014

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    Yes, I Have Cut Myself

    I cut myself for the first time when I was really depressed. I later found out I had depression, but that's another story. I used a razor and cut myself on my upper arm about 3 times until it bled. I know it sounds weird, but it felt really good. All the pain I had went to my arm...
    BieberMammoth BieberMammoth 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    *This is basically my life story.

    So it's pretty long. :P It may be triggering. Read at your own discretion.* My childhood was great. I had a fun childhood. I had way too many toys than I needed and a family that loved me. I was spoiled but had been taught very good manners by my mom. I did well in school...
    smartypants151998 smartypants151998 16-17, F Jun 4, 2014

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    I am an artist in art school.

    With that comes figure drawing class (drawing nude models) it's one of my favorites. But today was so Uncomfortable for the first time. I had to draw a model with so many harsh scars in the same places I have cut myself. It was hard to even look at her with out imagining my own...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F Mar 26

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    I have cut myself before

    and i felt good. I am not proud but this is the truth. I am not a masochist. Deep inside of me there is a huge pain. When i cut myself i forget 'the' pain.
    michaniel michaniel 16-17, T Mar 22

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    I just did it again. I haven't done it since

    before December, and now I got my dads razor blade and took out the blades. And I learned my friend used to cut, and then went to the guidance councilor and now her parents and her brother and one other friend and I know about. I think that sent me into a relapse. Damn it...
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2014

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