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I Have Cut Myself Before

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    Earlier this year, I became depressed.

    Well, I thought I was, because I thought my life sucked. I'll explain later. But I had learned my brother cut in seventh grade, and for some reason, I felt like it would help me. So I took a sharpener, and used a screwdriver to unscrew the blade off and used that. I never cut...
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F Jun 7

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    I Hate It When...

    I ask seriously for help with my issues and people treat me like I'm stupid or make them into a joke or give me smart butt answers.
    Mkay2013 Mkay2013 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    My Story

    So here's my story.  My name is Rob, I'm 19, and the last time I cut myself was about a month ago.  It was after I had felt like I had failed at trying to save a friendship that I had with my friend Ashley.  However after I cut myself she then came down to my dorm room to...
    SpeakOutMediaGroup SpeakOutMediaGroup 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2012

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    It started with one cut.

    Then it became more. Then the razor wasn't good enough. Then it wasn't deep enough. Then there wasn't enough blood. Eventually it got to the point where I realized I was in a vicious cycle that didn't help me at all and I stopped. Now I'm 3 months clean.
    Xander8905 Xander8905 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I really miss the times

    when my arms were clean with no trace of scars. To be honest it feels so good but so bad at the same time. I miss who I used to be. Now I'm just some stupid girl who has no friends.
    HiddenPain18 HiddenPain18 16-17, F Apr 27

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    I was addicted. I started

    when he was arrested. But by the time he got out, it was too late.
    unhealthyvibes unhealthyvibes 13-15, F Feb 28

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    *This is basically my life story.

    So it's pretty long. :P It may be triggering. Read at your own discretion.* My childhood was great. I had a fun childhood. I had way too many toys than I needed and a family that loved me. I was spoiled but had been taught very good manners by my mom. I did well in school...
    smartypants151998 smartypants151998 16-17, F Jun 4

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    shibabe1996 shibabe1996 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    This isn't something I'm proud of.

    But I don't regret it. It helped me get through hard times. I haven't cut for over a mouth. And I can't cut again. I'm not addicted. I started cause I wanted to help someone. But it's not their problem. It's mine. And so yeah, I have cut myself before so I know what it's like...
    skylerGrace skylerGrace 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I  did it again.

    :(. Why am I so useless?
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    Briefly, But It Scarred

    I was very shocked when I picked up the knife. I've only done it briefly a few times, and I'd like to say never again - but who knows? It was all because of my uncle who's an alcoholic. He had tried to commit suicide again, and I felt a lot of pain inside. I thought of the pain...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples 16-17, F Feb 12, 2013

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    Yes, I Have Cut Myself

    I cut myself for the first time when I was really depressed. I later found out I had depression, but that's another story. I used a razor and cut myself on my upper arm about 3 times until it bled. I know it sounds weird, but it felt really good. All the pain I had went to my arm...
    BieberMammoth BieberMammoth 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I have done it my teen yrs & went through a lot

    with my mom & my high school bf then! A lot of drama that I couldn't take! I don't do that bc I have my kids to think about & to live for! To me not worth it to end my life now!
    ncsweetfem ncsweetfem 36-40, F Oct 15

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    Me Too.

    I cut myself. But I'm such a coward. Once I picked up the razor, I just went to town. My thighs and wrists are now bloody and hurting. It felt good. Great, actually. I can confess that I'm going to do it again.
    notproud0 notproud0 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2013

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    I was walking in my house

    and then I step on a knife that cut my foot and heel and could not get to the phone so I had to stretch to get my phone and when did fainted then woke up with the cast on
    painfulwedgiegirl painfulwedgiegirl 13-15, F Mar 2

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    It Helps Me Pretend The Rest Of My Life Is Normal.

    As I'm typing now, I'm concious of the scars on my legs and the wounds on my arm. It started last year, little scratches with my key, then scratched that scabbed with sewing needles. Finally I switched to the disposable razors sitting looking harmless in a cup in my bathroom. I'm...
    pearleegirl pearleegirl 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2011

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    So its been about a year of little on nd off

    cutting. So my cuts weren't deep they never have been Cos I can't get deep so its never to serious but now I'm doing it again is it wrong that I enjoy it? Last time it screwed over my life in year 10. Now I'm at college nd tbh it helps if I'm stressed or angry or anything really...
    forgottenluna forgottenluna 18-21, M Feb 16

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    I just did it again. I haven't done it since

    before December, and now I got my dads razor blade and took out the blades. And I learned my friend used to cut, and then went to the guidance councilor and now her parents and her brother and one other friend and I know about. I think that sent me into a relapse. Damn it...
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    New Developments..

    so i recently found out that my ex's parents are supporting him through this trialas i suspected.but his father is well aware of how abusive he can be,he hit his father while drunk one night and has been crazy drunk around him numerous times,it is such a tough spot to be in since...
    younggirllost younggirllost 18-21, F Feb 15, 2012

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    Yeah not much but I have.

    The first time it was more of an accident. I had found my dad's secret stash of pocket knives. I took one and was playing with it and accidentally cut myself. I was in a relationship at the time btw. Anyways the second time and first time it was intentional I pressed it to the...
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 22-25, F May 7

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    Fascinating

    I love it and I hate it. It reminds me I am here but it also reminds me that no one see's me. I see the blade in my hand fascinated by the edge, its shape, and its gleam.I see the look in my eyes as I stare myself down in the mirror. They scream back at me with hatred and sadness...
    babydoll73 babydoll73 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 21, 2012

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    I'm so sick of being up

    and down every day and wanting to hurt myself or end my life
    Shestrying Shestrying 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    For some reason, the physical pain is more

    comforting than emotional pain.
    deathismysoulmate deathismysoulmate 18-21 Apr 13

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    Only once. It was only on my thighs.

    I hope to never again
    catsarecoolio catsarecoolio 13-15, F Apr 27

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    I Didn't Even Cry

    I remember the first time I cut. It wasn't deep it didn't bleed a lot and I wasn't really strong enough to go through with it. It still felt stupidly good though. The second time I was a bit braver, then I realized scissors weren't the best option. I changed tactics and used a...
    sophiehastings sophiehastings 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2012

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    Summer is coming and I was the kind of nudist

    person who loves expressions of body and openness and swimming and it looks like im going to have some stories to make up
    frozenkisses21 frozenkisses21 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    It has been three years

    since i cut myself and I'm proud i stopped
    somewhereinwonderland somewhereinwonderland 18-21, F Feb 5

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    No one in my life knows I have cut myself.

    I don't think any of them realize I am that depressed. It's too hard for me to tell them because of the look they get in their eyes that I have betrayed them. It is so hard living with this depression I have that no one knows about because I can't bring myself to tell them...
    Mercury4006 Mercury4006 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    I started last year because of a friend got me

    mad, and I also wanted to escape my past too.
    Theharmony111 Theharmony111 13-15, F 2 Responses May 25

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    The pic shows scars. scars from previous cutting

    and hurting of myself. i used to have the thoughts that if i hurt myself, its like i felt the pain of hurting others or people hurting me(like a satisfaction when i saw bloods). " its stupid" "you're stupid" is often thrown at me. looking back, it is stupid :P now its all in...
    LoveHate22 LoveHate22 22-25, F May 22

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    So I did something last night

    that I'm very proud of . I threw away all of my blades . I got to thinking,"Do I really want scars all over my body? No I don't. It's time to stop this." After that I threw them away . I just hope it lasts ....
    PerfectionDoesntExist PerfectionDoesntExist 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    I hate when people act like you can "just stop.

    " Self-injury is an addiction, you can't "just stop." Can people just up and decide to stop smoking or overdosing on drugs? No. It's a serious problem. If it's for attention, then why do we try so hardly to hide it? People who are talking about "those emo freaks that cut...
    orderwithaprefix orderwithaprefix 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 25

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    I do cut myself and I can admit it

    but I need some advice. I don't wanna be lectured and told not to cut, only people who cut will understand so please don't tell me not to!!! I cut myself on my thighs and forearms but I'm a dancer and I need to know where I can cut so that other people don't see? Please help!
    emi37y emi37y 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I cut myself before cause I can't stand living

    here on earth like, I wanna kill myself cause I'm a mess. I'm depressed and I even decided to be dropped-out of school and then my family got disappointed but they aren't mad at me. Now, even though I'm still depressed I don't wanna cut myself anymore.. I'll just kill myself...
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was in class today

    and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    unicornsydney unicornsydney 13-15, F a week ago

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    I am now two months clean

    since i last cut. its been hard but its going to be ok
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 2

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    I first cut myself at the age of 16.

    Few times at age of 17. Then again when i was 20. And the latest was 3 months ago as 21. All to ease the pain in my heart. Trying to stay clean now.
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 16

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    I Dunn Why

    no matter whats going on i always seem to want to do it , but i started noticing all the scars left behind and relized one day that i never wanted to do it again, have made it half a year now and hopefully that was the last time
    bnana666 bnana666 18-21 Jan 18, 2013

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    A couple months ago I was going through a

    really bad time. I felt nothing at all and I was so sick of being numb. I decided that after a long night of fighting between me and my parents that I wanted to cut. I took an eyebrow razor thing and cut on my wrist. It wasn't very sharp but it did leave marks. The rest of the...
    mynameislindsey mynameislindsey 13-15, F Apr 27

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    For some reason whenever I cut I take pictures.

    I don't know if it helps me or makes me want to stop I just have. The worst time I cut, I had cut 52 times on one arm. I didn't take a picture.
    thalassinia thalassinia 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Insight; It Made So Much Sense...

    I only did it once. It was actually about 4 months ago. Up until I actually did it myself, I never really could fully understand why anyone could do this to themselves. I mean, I knew some were doing it for attention, but I knew there had to be something more to their story...
    themidnightblue18 themidnightblue18 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2010

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    Ok so. I haven't told anyone

    that I cut but I don't do it a lot. Maybe once a mouth but I've never told anyone. And I don't think that any one knows. But I just really have to get it off my chest. The last time I cut was a couple of days ago and it was because of so much drama at school and I just couldn't...
    Awkward0Turtle Awkward0Turtle 13-15 Apr 8

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    I'm trying to stop. It's

    so hard though. I'm freaking two days clean and I'm dying like how the hell am I supposed to do this for the rest of my life! I am trying to stop because my best friend and I guess now lover (refer to 'I am confused' experience post) asked me to. He's being really sincere about...
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 22-25, F Jun 2

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    I don't cut myself because I'm sad, angry or depressed. I cut because I like the pain. I love putting alcohol on the cut and feeling it sting and burn. It makes me feel alive. I...
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    I wanted to cut myself. To make me feel. I wanted to start small. A "paper cut" on my finger. So I found a knife I kept on my desk and ran my finger over it time and time again. It...
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    I cut myself I do it as a calming method or else I'll go crazy I'm highly addicted to it been doing it 8 years & I'm not really proud of it I've slowly been trying to reduce the...
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