I Have Cut Myself

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    It's happened again. 4 on each wrist.

    Oy vey. I was doing so well. I hadn't cut for like 5 months or so. And now I've done it again. At least i don't feel the urge to anymore. Maybe it's slowly but surley going away. I hope so.
    Snow1353 Snow1353
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2015

    I have been clean of cutting

    for probably a few months now, and this is when I had pocket knives and all in the house. I gave them to my boyfriend to hold onto. I can't really describe why I did it except that it was just a release. A way of pain that numbed me, and comforted me. We all have that one sick...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2015

    My life is not great

    and I have found it comforting to cut my wrists. The problem is that I have to hide it from everyone and I wonder if it is worth the struggle to hide it. Only one other person IRL knows what I do...
    Mokuba Mokuba
    13-15, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    I Thought I Knew Before, But Now I Know All Too Well.

    I now truly know how a cutter feels. I used to rake my hands--sometimes gently, sometimes roughly--across the concrete walls at the high school. The pain helped me feel...okay. I knew how the pain helped. When a friend that I had a long time ago started to cut, I allowed it, only...
    Snow1353 Snow1353
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2013

    Feeling Better, I Think.

    Okay, so, as of today, I have promised my best friend that I shall no longer cut, as she has promised the same. Of course, we didn't want to in the first place...it kind of just...well...happened. But, hopefully, it is over with now. I am feeling a lot better now, anyway, I think...
    Snow1353 Snow1353
    18-21, F
    Jul 26, 2013

    Not Only

     cant i remeber why i started, i cant stop. I did it for the first time at the begging of the year. I didnt cut deep. I was much to scared. My friend who cut her self said it was nothing and that i should stop posing. I did.   About 5 months later I started again. I...
    dontrememberthisday dontrememberthisday
    May 20, 2008

    I only want to cut very rarely

    when my day has been awful and I just think the physical pain will balance out everything. But I don't do it. But today has been trying. Like idk what to do with the way I've been feeling lately. I don't know what the **** to do.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 29, 2015

    Idk y I just did I'm sooooo sick of everything

    now. I'm sorry to everyone I hurt its nothing personal just business.
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

    I haven't cut in about a month,

    and every time I get really depressed or pissed my wrists start tingling, and I get the urge to cut. People don't understand that its an addiction, just as alcoholism is. They see your scars and deem you 'emo' and I hate it, so when I get the urge I just read a book and silently...
    SafeHavens SafeHavens
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2015

    I caved today and cut again

    after two months of not. It felt great at first and know I just feel worse.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    I cut myself on two different occasions.

    I wanted to feel that feeling that others said they felt. The relief of it all afterwards. And I also just genuinely wanted to feel physical pain to match the emotional stuff I was going through. It didn't have a deep effect on me and that's why I only did it twice. The sense of...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 15, 2015

    I don't know how you all do it.

    I can't go for more than two days without cutting. I guess i'm not strong enough i just need someone to understand, someone to talk to ugh
    xXannabethXx xXannabethXx
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 7, 2015

    The urge to cut is strong,

    the thought of a big kitchen knife piercing my skin and bright red blood dripping down my arms, that would feel nice and lovely :) :P
    brownzugar brownzugar
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 11, 2015

    I'm so disappointed in myself.

    .. I can't wear short sleeves now.... I have to worry about hiding it.. Every time it happens i regret it..
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Nov 1, 2015

    Well I cut my thigh so

    now what I'm obviously not getting better what do I do now?
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2015

    I know I have a good boyfriend

    and he is amazing but. I don't know if I can live anymore. I'm always depressed and I don't want him to be around that. I cut my self from my waist to my ankle all the way down my leg. but I don't want him to know. my band director said he is here for me and his wife said the...
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 3, 2015

    Mom: See you've stopped cutting it wasn't

    that hard!!! Me: mhmm. (I just stoped cutting where you can see it. )
    TealMarie TealMarie
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    my leg is killing me i haven't cut myself like

    that in awhile an i.....didn't wanna stop i wanted to keep going deeper an deeper.... but i didn't want anyone to find out so i stopped an cleaned up i always clean up fast as i can... then smile...
    PrincessMarshmellow PrincessMarshmellow
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2015

    So i decided to cut my tummy instead of my arms

    and legs because my friend keeps seeing them I think im getting better, im starting to cut less
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2014

    I want to break down

    and slash my wrist and watch the blood hit the ground. I think to myself, what urges this on? Why am I so depressed, so angry, confused, upset. I just wanna run and hide from this cruel world. I wanna grow up leave and never look back, because i'm scared of everything. I admit...
    fade77 fade77
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2015

    I cut my stomach again

    but I did this so I wouldn't cut my leg. I have a problem. Someone help me.
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 10, 2015

    I am a month and a half clean!

    I gotta keep going.
    TealMarie TealMarie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2015

    I still do. I tell myself I'm not doing it

    again but, I can't take it.
    laurenplus laurenplus
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 11

    I just did again cutting has become

    so addicting especially when I'm depressed it makes me wanna do it more sorry to disappoint u Alexa
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2015

    Today is 7 months since I last cut my wrist.

    I'm pretty cool bout it but I still want to.
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

    It Happened...Again...

    I was afraid of this. Four cuts in total. Two on each arm. I did all of them last night. Honestly? I don't know exactly why i did it. It's probably because of pent up frustration and sadness and all the other emotions i can't dare to express. I feel better, now, though, for the...
    Snow1353 Snow1353
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2013

    I have depression and I cut my arms in the bath

    when it's bad but I don't do it to really harm myself - I like the way the blood flows, plz only comment if u feel similar
    Lookingishard Lookingishard
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    I have cut my wrist since I was twelve.

    Not often were they deep enough to be fatal. I used to think I could stop. I couldn't without help. I liked the pain. I was astonished that I felt it. I had gone numb to all emotional feeling so I inflicted physical pain. Finally my cousin saw all my cuts. He asked my why I was...
    fearfulsoul fearfulsoul
    26-30, F
    May 27, 2014

    No. Why again? Why? I've been clean

    for a while. How long? I'm not sure. In between when i last posted that i cut, i cut one cut on my left wrist. Tonight, i have one cut on my left wrist, and one cut on my right wrist...I kind of want to make more. But I'm trying to be careful about how many i make, so people can...
    Snow1353 Snow1353
    18-21, F
    May 12, 2014

    I did it Monday just gone I felt awful

    and felt I deserved it as I hurt someone
    deleted deleted
    Mar 1, 2015

    I cut my shoulder. Pretty deep too.

    It's pretty bad. Bled for a couple of hours. There's now a long giant hole in my shoulder.
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    Apr 2, 2015
    chuckzares chuckzares
    31-35, M
    1 Response Sep 19, 2014

    (Kyle= my 4 year old little brother.

    ) Kyle: Sissy why do you have those marks on your arm? Me: Well Bubs....um, I have these little mean monsters who hurt me on the inside, but the marks from the mean nails show on the outside. Kyle: Tell it to go away and stop hurting my sissy. Me: I wish I could, but its not...
    TealMarie TealMarie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2014

    I'm a little worried.

    ... I used to cut myself when I was around 18 or so , I accidentally cut myself and I liked the feeling. I began cutting because I liked the feeling and was very depressed and it seemed like it helped me feel. I liked to fill the bathtub up with hot water and then get in with a...
    Honee86 Honee86
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2014
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 16, 2014

    I cut. Just the insides of my wrist.

    Not deep enough to die, But deep enough to bleed. I don't have a problem with cutting... It think it's cool. It makes me feel like I am in control. To them I am nothing, Nothing but a fool. Thank you fam, for not believing in me. Thank you 'friends', You helped me.... You...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    This is the reason I joined the sight.

    I think I should start at the beginning. I'm fifteen and I have a good life. (I have a feeling im going to be judged horribly here) (yes i am aware that people have far worse lives than i do and that i shouldn't be doing it. I've had enough of that! People tell me all the time...
    CheshireCat15 CheshireCat15
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 15, 2013

    so I cut myself all the way from the middle of

    my torso to my ankle. but now I'm really dissapointed in my self
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    May 2, 2015

    yeah.....and honestly I'm ashamed.

    ..I'm so weak....I can't deal with anything... I ruin everything...I'm just ******* useless. and don't try to tell me I'm not.
    Inara24 Inara24
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 9, 2015

    I have since I was in 6th grade.

    I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in so many directions since then and I always find another reason to hurt myself. I never have people when I really need them, but I'm...
    BornBroken BornBroken
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    I'm dying here. I feel like I really need to

    cut. He said he only wants to be friends. Now I'm trying everything and I'm fighting to win him back. He says he loves me but I'm never sure if it's enough to make him stay. I asked him this morning if he still wanted to move in with me which he was positive he couldn't wait to...
    SparkledRed SparkledRed
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2015
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