I Have Dark Periods In My Life

I Feel the Darkness Swarming Closer 401 People

    I am a bubbly, happy go lucky girl.

    Very optimistic, always smiling, living for others. What people don't know is that I have a gaping black hole in my soul and lots of dark feelings are lurking out if it. Usually I manage to hide it under being busy, doing a lot of things like work, cooking, painting, playing...
    kat8507 kat8507
    31-35
    1 Response Feb 8, 2015

    Life

    With all of my history i have many dark periods in my life. In my childhood my mother was bipolar and would run away with my lil brother and me when we were younger. She would go off and live in a garage with us for months at a time and would basically sell herself to get...
    Tayuya Tayuya
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 4, 2009
    Kingdarkroom Kingdarkroom
    26-30, M
    Oct 24, 2014

    it just makes me fight

    and motivated to overcome these dark times
    Chang94 Chang94
    18-21, M
    Jun 10, 2015

    Another Struggle

    The more I reveal intimate details about my life to the people I care about, the more they realize that I cannot be helped when I enter dark periods in my life. They try to help and I love them for the effort, but sometimes I need to go through some of these times alone. There...
    philosophicmyth philosophicmyth
    26-30, F
    Nov 4, 2010

    Oh my god sonobuoy help me I'm slowly losing my

    mind. UGHHHH I'm so d*mn uncomfortable & my lower abdomen f*cking hurts IT BURNS!!!! Oh my god!!!! I f*cking punch somebody & rip my f*cking hair out. SH!T I'm twitching I hate it when I start twitching god now I'm itchy whyyyyyyy meeeee. I F*CKING HATE PERIODS!!!!!!!!
    ThaQueen2 ThaQueen2
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    My Dark Moments

    When I go back and reread my journals from my teenage years, there are three books that even now give me a cold chill when I read them. I don't remember what I was going through at that period of my life, but it was dark and painful. I don't even remember writing some of those...
    NaturesSeed NaturesSeed
    22-25, F
    Dec 9, 2009

    And How!

    They don't happen often... but they do happen! With my tragic background of my life, to expect anything different would be kind of cruel. It's like asking me to not be human, imho. =p My childhood was not a happy one. My father was an abusive crack-addict, for one. We were a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jun 3, 2009

    Right Now......like most times I have this

    point in my life where I focus on myself listen to some really sexual music or depressing either way, to make myself feel better. Make myself look pretty and what not and then I find quotes and reflect them on my life and it's like repeated awakenings. For example my main artist...
    CurvyFrance CurvyFrance
    13-15, F
    Jan 3, 2015
    adianoeta adianoeta
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2014

    Daddy Issues

    Someone asked a question recently about if people are abused as children which direction do they usually take as adults. I read alot of the answers and they were good but there was no ONE correct answers because EVERYONE has their own experiential world. I take a positive and a...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2010

    I just got this picc line surgically implanted

    in my chest & though it's great so I don't have to get poked for blood or meds, it's not making me feel so pretty during this lonely valentines evening in the hospital, alone to ponder my "shoulda coulda woulda's". *sighhhhhhhh* .....and then Ghost comes on😪 I need some...
    ExoticCaribbeanGirl ExoticCaribbeanGirl
    26-30, F
    Feb 14, 2015

    My Whole Life Has Been A Dark Period...

    i was tortured and molested by my father and uncle til i was 8, i was on my own my whole life because my mother is a self centered *****, i was working 80 hour weeks for almost no money from 18 to 21 till i got falsely arrested and lost my job. now i'm living on my ***** mother's...
    mosinman mosinman
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2011

    Darkness In The Light

    I fall into a darkened state of mind every single month. Consciously, I recognize that these dark times precede my period...my cycle, yet I'm powerless to stop these feelings from commandeering my thoughts, my mood, my emotions, and my behavior. What's strange is that all these...
    LG76 LG76
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2012

    Demise

           I was 5 years old and I knew that I hated it here on Earth. I had intense desire to leave then, because on some deep level I knew that my life was going to suuuuck. I was right and all my life experiences have been traumatic. I feel that...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    I forget how intelligent I can be.

    It's always when I write on paper that it shows. I feel that I adjust to my idiotic surroundings to much and recently it's put me in a dark place
    KristyGoesRoar KristyGoesRoar
    22-25, F
    Oct 13, 2014

    I'm tired...My parents only care about my grades

    and I'm not a robot and yet they still treat me like one,I wish I could just sink down into the darkness where no one will find me,In my grades everyone treats me like a tool they come when they need me and left when they don't,I can't stand it!I cried on my own I faked my smile...
    EvansuSena EvansuSena
    13-15, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    If I Were The Sky

    If I were the sky I’d always be high But the world would drown in rain And every day it’d begin again If I were the ocean I couldn’t drown The sinking feeling wouldn’t stay around If I were a mountain I could stand tall At the edge of it all I wouldn’t fall If I...
    Geestarr Geestarr
    18-21, F
    Feb 11, 2013
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 29

    Trauma

    I read an article recently by Sigmund Freud. It was about a female who was sick with no medical proof of an existing ailment. She also became phobic of drinking water and she dove in and out of consciousness. Freud used Hypnosis and Talk Therapy to find the source of ...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 13, 2010

    Yea every month. Liek

    if y cri evry tiem :(((
    NormalTeenGirl NormalTeenGirl
    13-15, F
    Oct 14, 2014

    My Personal Demons

    A warm wave flows through my body , a QUICK flood of warmth, from my toes up to my face. My pulse is racing, I'm sweaty and hot, yet cold chills are running up my spine. Butterflies in my stomach. Thoughts are racing through my head. Your a worthless drug addict, no wonder your...
    libra604 libra604
    26-30, M
    Feb 1, 2012

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    I love music like Nox Arcana, it soothes me when I need to unplug from daily life.
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    Ugh! Can I just have one once a year? Do I really only just get two weeks of normalcy, God? This seems really unfair and unjust to me.
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    I’m posting this hoping for feedback from a third party. I’ve been told by friends that my boyfriend is abusing me emotionally. - He only supports what I do if he likes it...
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    # 17. Hope. What a small word, yet the world spins around it. Every person lives with it. And me, I'm surely one of them. Here I am stuck with poor grades. Stuck with the...
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    stilllearning20 stilllearning20
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    When u were in the dark you saw the light now you in the light now running back to the dark
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