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I Have Depersonalization Disorder

A Depersonalization Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Depersonalization Disorder. You're not alone. 701 People

    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    Cured And A Better Person Now

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    Feeling Fleeting To my embarrassment,

    it was only recently that I discovered depersonalization-derealization is classified as its own disorder. I've spent many years falling into episodes of complete removal from my body and surroundings; I would wake up, look in the mirror, and fail entirely to make the connection...
    SourPennies SourPennies 22-25, F Feb 3

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    I think it's gone... It's been 4 years.

    I got high on anti anxiety and anti depression medication and as I'm coming down I feel normal again...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    New Thoughts

    I dont expect anyone to believe in me or to even agree with me and i dont really care for that matter. maybe someone will read this and maybe it will help them in dealing with what i went through or maybe it'll make it that much worse for them, who knows..but i'll keep on writing...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 22-25, M 32 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    I had another episode the other day.

    I had to go all day freaking out that people could tell I "wasn't there". It felt like I was in a movie. I could touch something but not feel it. My face was disappearing in the mirror. I was walking on air. I had so many panic attacks. It's gone now, but I hate when it comes...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Welcome to My So Called Reality

    I suffer from depersonalization . I basicaly feel detached from the world, its kind of a dream like feeling that comes and goes, but seems to come more often rather than goes. Anyway if anyone knows what i mean let me know
    deftone deftone 26-30, M 39 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    The psychiatrist that I spoke with today also

    said that doctors who would have to do autopsies on people that they knew back in the day and they would have to depersonalize theirselves to be able to operate on these people. Because they wouldn't be able to do it without depersonalizing themselves. So found that interesting...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2015

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    Just had my biggest fear come true I completely

    lost control of myself and went crazy.. All I remember is I was laying on the bathroom floor cause I was feeling a bit nauseous then I got really anxious and starting having an episode then all of a sudden I'm in my room balling my eyes out on my bed and my dad is screaming at...
    Mayleehawkeye Mayleehawkeye 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2014

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    Living the Dream, Literally.

    All of the stories posted before me are basically the same, and I don't blame anyone who has written before me, because i feel exactly the same way.  I just want to ask a question and would really appreciate if someone could reply to it: are there groups for...
    HisNameisFrank HisNameisFrank 18-21, M 15 Responses Feb 14, 2009

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    I have depersonalization disorder we believe to

    be the result of complex post traumatic stress disorder. I have a very rare and life threatening disease and my near death experiences and lack of appriopriate care at times have lead me to disassociate. When things get particularly stressful, I disengage and start convincing...
    saltloveandlight saltloveandlight 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    Well here goes.....This is my story/life with

    Bpd/depersonalisation etc.Windmenschen, is the german word for depersonalisation, and it means "People of the wind" or "People made of wind."I guess I have had it most of my life, feeling spaced out, not connected to my body,...i would look at 'my' hands and they feel & look...
    cakejumper cakejumper 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 21, 2015

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    I have never felt particularly connected to the

    world, it had always been like I was floating slightly above it, not really feeling, not really seeing, not really living. But it is getting better. I used to look at myself in the mirror and my mind would start to panic about the stranger looking back at me, even though I...
    acealien acealien 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2015

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    Um hi. So. I actually haven't been diagnosed

    with this (because I won't see my therapist and yeah) but I have talked about it before to my doctor and therapist and they told me I could possibly have it. It's something that comes and goes. I can be like this for 4 or 5 months and I snap out of it for awhile. But I don't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    I have had this disorder

    for a little over 11 months now. It's taken over me, taken who I used to be, the happy young girl. Sociable, empathetic and caring, all gone. What is left is this empty shell working on its own accord, everything on autopilot. And then I look at my hands. These strangers hands...
    Stemperence Stemperence 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    * not sure if I do * Last summer my friend

    Danielle & I decided to go by our friend Jasie's house and hang out with her. When we got there Jasie asked us if we wanted to pitch in and get some weed. It was a while since Dani & I had smoked so we said sure. About an hour later we were chilling on the couch smoking...
    kaynic26 kaynic26 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2015

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    I went to my first therapist appointment today

    and I think it went okay. All that I could keep thinking though was that she wasn't going to be able to help me and this horrible feeling would never go away. I've read before that this is a common feeling during dp/dr so I'm not too worried. But then I came home from the...
    tubbycat1234 tubbycat1234 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Hello everyone, I was told about 5 years ago

    that I suffered from depersonalization. Then life happened, well... it seems like I've watched it happen. I'm not writing to complain about this, I'm actually looking to see if anyone would want to chat with my about their experiences. with love p
    tryingtofigureitout95 tryingtofigureitout95 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23, 2015

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    I've been dealing with depersonalization

    for about 4 months. It hit me totally random one night, I was standing there and all of the sudden my vision changed and I felt like I wasn't a real person and as if life wasn't real. I wasn't in my body and everything was fake. Sometimes things will get blurry and move back and...
    graciouslove graciouslove 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I've been this way for a

    while now, but only received a diagnosis a couple of weeks ago. It's as if you're a pair of eyes sat inside a body, watching yourself move and watching life go by. My senses are affected by it: while I can feel pain, it feels detached from me, if that makes sense. It acts up...
    reversi reversi 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I'm 17, and I've been suffering with this

    for a little over a year. It has been the worst thing to ever happen to me. This is the scariest mental illness I have ever experienced, and I'm hoping through this site to gain a little hope. Right now, it feels like it's never going to get better. I'm going to college next...
    AFSVC AFSVC 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F Nov 12, 2015

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    I am and 18 year old female.

    I guess my depersonalization set in after I smoked weed this one time. It was pretty "loud" you could say but anyways I smoked and felt fine and ever since even after the high was gone I havent felt the same. I feel like i am just floating inside my body a lot of the time and...
    hateraidwontmakemefaid hateraidwontmakemefaid 18-21, F Feb 3

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    I have been struggling with dp/dr my entire

    life. Ive struggled every day but the dp/dr lasts no more than 10 hours. I just recovered from a 5 day 'episode.' I am now using my knowledge of this disorder to talk to others. Please feel free to ask questions and share your story. I would love to talk
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 15, 2015

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    Attention to anyone with DPD/DRD

    that wants their sex drive back! I started taking an herbal supplement from GNC called steel libido and it totally helps. I was hesitant at first but I did research and nothing in it is harmful. I take 4 before my boyfriend and I hook up and it totally does the trick. Takes a...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Sep 21, 2014

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    I hope someone on here

    that has gotten rid of this horrible feeling can help me be rid of it also. I remember the first time I ever experienced it. I was about seven years old standing in my aunts kitchen after just moving to a different place, but I didn't really know much I was upset because I was...
    katieruddy katieruddy 18-21, F Dec 29, 2015

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    I guess I'll try this website again with hope

    that someone might answer me. can someone please just help me. reading some stories on here really made me feel hopeless. I know there's an answer out there somewhere that doesn't involve medication & I will not give up until I find it. it's only been about two weeks, but 6 days...
    katieruddy katieruddy 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    I decided to say my story about my

    Depersonalization Disorder. I began to be really depressed when i moved away from my family and really good friends. I got into this horrible depression and wanted to die so bad. So, my parents decided to move to another state which btw im in right know and my depression has...
    Arlenev Arlenev 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2014

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    When depersonalizing,

    am I the only one who questions their body parts? To me, when it happens I feel like I'm inside a movie, sort of. And I'll look at my hand and it doesn't feel like mine, and it looks strange to me. And say if I get up to walk, I'll be like "are these REALLY my legs? How am I...
    n0ceur n0ceur 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 10, 2015

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    The Pure Truth.

    I'm not letting anything behind this time. This is me. I have been feeling like this for about year and a half. It is part of what I think might be Depersonalization Disorder. And if it isn't, it's damn close. The thing is that I only feel half-aware of what I do, like I can...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    I hate it. I developed depersonalization

    disorder when I was 13 yrs old, I've always had bad anxiety and mild depression, then when I was 13 I developed this disorder. At first it was just a few episodes here and there, but then it progressed so I have it 24/7. I remember being so scared, I was worried I was going...
    Cheshiregrin116 Cheshiregrin116 18-21, F Oct 15, 2015

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    Anyone Who Has Dp...please Read!!!

    I developed my anxiety/panic/ DP/DR after smoking a joint when I was 13...It was like the movie "NUMB" (which if you guys haven't seen you should) It is all about this...It stars...OMG..ummm Chandler from friends and it is about a guy who smokes too much pot one night and then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2011

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    I was 16, angry alone

    and suicidal. I went to my neighbors place to smoke some weed in his garage. the smoke session got cut short by me ending up phasing in and out of consciousness while standing. I don't know what death feels like but it certainly felt like i didnt exist one moment, and the next...
    Phrozzen Phrozzen 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    A Living Hell: My Depersonalization Story

    I'm gonna tell you about this kid who's life had been traumatized by negative events, how his ego had been crushed, how his confidence had simply diminished into thin air, and how his strive for life itself completely stopped. Then I'm gonna tell you how he came out of all of...
    ThatOneGuy57 ThatOneGuy57 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    Even though I am recovered,

    I believe DP caused some damages in my neurons or nerual connections, affecting certain cognitive functions such working memory. Currently, I am using Noopept - Nootropics - hoping to fix the damages and enhance neurogenesis.
    newlife888 newlife888 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 29, 2015

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    I am 50 years old and I have had DPD

    since I was 14. I just found out yesterday that DPD exists and that I am not the only one on the planet that has this condition. I suffered from anxiety/panic attacks ever since I can remember (pre-kindergarten), they called it being "shy" it got unbearable in my pre-teens and...
    arleneat50 arleneat50 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    My boyfriend is in the military

    and we are currently long distance and I know I love him, but my head keeps distancing me from him. I'm loosing emotions for him like missing him and all that jazz. But I know in my heart and when we talk and when I really try hard to think about him that I do love him. I just...
    semperfigirlfriendxo semperfigirlfriendxo 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2015

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    Just A Tidbit For People Newly Going Through This Disorder....

    I, too, have depersonalization/derealization disorder. I used to have it constantly, then it became intermittent, and like you, I was terrified of what happened, when and if it would happen again, and I spent my days in fear, fear of the event itself, and fear of the return...
    Mytherapystsayz Mytherapystsayz 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    So I got to talk with a psychiatrist today

    about depersonalization disorder he said that it is part of a defense mechanism that your body uses when a great amount of stress is put on you or anxiety. It kind of helps you not get to the breaking point. Kind of hard to explain what he explained to me. But it is kind of cool...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2015

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    I remember experiencing it during classes,

    and I'd think and be tempted of doing something highly inappropriate and illogical just so I can feel something (guilt, fear embarrassment..), to get myself out of the ghost state. It was like all the emotions and ideas are floating behind some imaginary wall. That I can't...
    Puresadness Puresadness 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2015

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    When you feel like nothing is real.

    When you have no sort of emotion at all... you can't feel happy or sad , mad , you feel like you are just there .. and you completely lost yourself . You dont know who you are.. or anyone else.. not your family your bf.. your Co workers.. you are stuck in time ... not knowing...
    adrihurs adrihurs 18-21, F Dec 3, 2015

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    So I'm currently battling with this disorder

    and I noticed that nowadays it's getting better. I'm socializing with people and it makes the world more "real" for me. It's like I'm getting back to normal. I read about people that they still have depersonalization even after 7 years and this worries me. Mine started on August...
    AnimeShugosha AnimeShugosha 18-21, F May 13, 2014

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    I honestly thought something this could happen

    to me. I'm a 17 year old male and this really sucks. So I'll start from the beginning. I was probably the healthiest I've ever been in my whole life physically and mentally. After 10th grade I lost about 45 lbs Bc of wrestling and I honestly felt great. My life was pretty much...
    Jeffaking Jeffaking 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    I'm honestly so tired of feeling this way.

    When I try to explain to people how being depersonalized feels I often use the phrase " Almost like you're high but not" and I usually get a "Lucky" or an "Thats awesome" but it's really not. It sucks so badly. I don't like this and I would do almost anything to have this feel...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    It all started with a panic attack a year ago.

    But I've started suffering from DP and DR for about 8 months now. Sometimes I look at my parents and don't even know who they are or I look at myself and don't even know who I am. Its gotten a lot better but sometimes I still can't shake the feeling of it all. Am I real? Is this...
    Helensworld Helensworld 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2015

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