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I Have Depersonalization Disorder

A Depersonalization Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Depersonalization Disorder. You're not alone. 665 People

    Just A Tidbit For People Newly Going Through This Disorder....

    I, too, have depersonalization/derealization disorder. I used to have it constantly, then it became intermittent, and like you, I was terrified of what happened, when and if it would happen again, and I spent my days in fear, fear of the event itself, and fear of the return...
    Mytherapystsayz Mytherapystsayz 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    A Living Hell: My Depersonalization Story

    I'm gonna tell you about this kid who's life had been traumatized by negative events, how his ego had been crushed, how his confidence had simply diminished into thin air, and how his strive for life itself completely stopped. Then I'm gonna tell you how he came out of all of...
    ThatOneGuy57 ThatOneGuy57 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    I decided to say my story about my

    Depersonalization Disorder. I began to be really depressed when i moved away from my family and really good friends. I got into this horrible depression and wanted to die so bad. So, my parents decided to move to another state which btw im in right know and my depression has...
    Arlenev Arlenev 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2014

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    Read This.

    You've heard a lot about perception I'm guessing. But probably more along the lines of "oh that's what you think, that's your perception", as if it's solely about opinions. Turns out treating your problems as a label, calling it a disorder, or whatever that's victimizing you, is...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I've been this way for a

    while now, but only received a diagnosis a couple of weeks ago. It's as if you're a pair of eyes sat inside a body, watching yourself move and watching life go by. My senses are affected by it: while I can feel pain, it feels detached from me, if that makes sense. It acts up...
    reversi reversi 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I'm not sure I "have" this,

    but I'll just describe my experiences and hope that someone gives me advice. When I was a kid, I'd have these episodes. I felt like I was as small as the microscopic pinpoint of a needle, but if you looked a little closer suddenly I ballooned into a gigantic, boundless...
    foreveriscomposedofNows foreveriscomposedofNows 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    Even though I am recovered,

    I believe DP caused some damages in my neurons or nerual connections, affecting certain cognitive functions such working memory. Currently, I am using Noopept - Nootropics - hoping to fix the damages and enhance neurogenesis.
    newlife888 newlife888 36-40, M Jul 29

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    I have had this disorder

    for a little over 11 months now. It's taken over me, taken who I used to be, the happy young girl. Sociable, empathetic and caring, all gone. What is left is this empty shell working on its own accord, everything on autopilot. And then I look at my hands. These strangers hands...
    Stemperence Stemperence 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I don't have it, but it interests me.

    I am here to talk to anybody who wants to talk about what it's like, or even just to chat. I've never experienced it, but I know of and a bit about it. Basically, just anyone who needs to chat, message me.
    Profclouseau Profclouseau 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    My Story....

    i had a really bad childhood. for me personally i find it hard to deal with and i am not peapred to write it down just yet out in the open. but i believe that my bad childhood, is the root of my problem. it started when i was 13. one night after watching a movie. i fetl suddenly...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 22-25, M 18 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    it's getting Worse. every morning I wake up

    panicking about who I Am.. I can't look in the mirror sometimes without getting panicky and feeling disconnected from the person staring back at me... is that really me? I freak out if I'm alone for too long by myself with no distractions.. can anyone else relate? I'm scared...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 10

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    I Used To Have No Identity Until...

    I invited the PERSON of Jesus Resurrected to Come and Live inside of me and take over this body... And He Did! A Marriage occured! Two becoming One. He is now the Head of this body. I felt dead before, and now I am Alive Forever! It is what I was designed for from the beginning...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 13, 2013

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    Living the Dream, Literally.

    All of the stories posted before me are basically the same, and I don't blame anyone who has written before me, because i feel exactly the same way.  I just want to ask a question and would really appreciate if someone could reply to it: are there groups for...
    HisNameisFrank HisNameisFrank 18-21, M 15 Responses Feb 14, 2009

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    I failed an exam, went to sleep,

    woke up, watched a movie and then walked around aimlessly for awhile in the middle of the night. It was almost cold. I was wearing shorts, but see, I didn't particularly care. Even as I write this inside a warm room, nothing really seems to matter at all anymore. I feel...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 61-65, M 1 Response Apr 22

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    Does anyone have control issues?

    I walk around my house or life in general and just don't feel in control... Like I feel like I'm a robot or something? Not the out of body experience, just the feeling of not being in control at all... And I have existence issues like what does it really mean to "be" and what is...
    Rusty2324 Rusty2324 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2014

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    So I got to talk with a psychiatrist today

    about depersonalization disorder he said that it is part of a defense mechanism that your body uses when a great amount of stress is put on you or anxiety. It kind of helps you not get to the breaking point. Kind of hard to explain what he explained to me. But it is kind of cool...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F Jul 29

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    Hello everyone, I was told about 5 years ago

    that I suffered from depersonalization. Then life happened, well... it seems like I've watched it happen. I'm not writing to complain about this, I'm actually looking to see if anyone would want to chat with my about their experiences. with love p
    tryingtofigureitout95 tryingtofigureitout95 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I'm 16 and I've been suffering from a severe

    depersonalization disorder for just over a year now. At first I pushed it away as being tired, but when it never got better, we went to the doctor (many doctors I might add) and I was diagnosed. It makes me feel like I'm going insane, and it actually got so bad that in January...
    xxChloeMxx xxChloeMxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I feel so confused most days,

    I just don't feel like im really here, I feel like Im in a movie watching myself or something. I don't know it's weird, I feel disconnected from my body. it's like my mind and my body are separate. when I look in a mirror I don't recognise myself. like I know it's me but it...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I think it all started cause my dad has anger

    management issues. He never hit anyone but he would yell and throw things. I grew up terrified he was gonna snap and start beating us one day. My teachers always said I daydreamed too much, but it wasn't too bad growing up. I started to really disconnect when I smoked pot. The...
    ilostmysanity13 ilostmysanity13 22-25, F Jun 3

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    I had another episode the other day.

    I had to go all day freaking out that people could tell I "wasn't there". It felt like I was in a movie. I could touch something but not feel it. My face was disappearing in the mirror. I was walking on air. I had so many panic attacks. It's gone now, but I hate when it comes...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Attention to anyone with DPD/DRD

    that wants their sex drive back! I started taking an herbal supplement from GNC called steel libido and it totally helps. I was hesitant at first but I did research and nothing in it is harmful. I take 4 before my boyfriend and I hook up and it totally does the trick. Takes a...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Sep 21, 2014

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    I'm worried about my son

    who has depersonalization disorder but hasn't been formally diagnosed and won't go get treatment. He is antisocial and is uncomfortable talking to strangers. He isn't getting better and is depressed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Is there such a thing

    as an off day with dpd? Is there a day where you don't notice it, but then you have an off day where it just hits you? The stress of not trying to have another panic attack, and the stress of the anxiety not rising? Is it just me? It seems stress is common with dpd.
    Flylikeabutterfly Flylikeabutterfly 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I've had a few episodes,

    mostly during nighttime. Others here must have it worse, just wanted to say good luck I guess.
    aeinhardt aeinhardt 18-21, M Jul 4

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    Cured And A Better Person Now

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    I have never felt particularly connected to the

    world, it had always been like I was floating slightly above it, not really feeling, not really seeing, not really living. But it is getting better. I used to look at myself in the mirror and my mind would start to panic about the stranger looking back at me, even though I...
    acealien acealien 16-17, F Aug 11

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    Recoverd Depersonalization

    I just want to let everyone know there is hope to get over dp and dr. i had it for over two years and the recovery process took like 6 mos or so. i will be blogging about before recovery, what i went through during recovery, and now :)
    kendra198907 kendra198907 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2012

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    ive run away from my home any times in the past

    for several reasons including abuse but today i feel like i need to leave just to feel normal like maybe somehow it will make me feel better
    thatgothgirluknow thatgothgirluknow 16-17, F Jul 8

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    During my senior year of high school was the

    first time I experienced my depersonalization disorder. I'm now 24 years old and still can say I'm suffering from this never ending disease. I currently only focus on feeling detached and wondering why I constantly feel this way, everyday is a daily struggle of not being able to...
    katejen2 katejen2 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 10

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    Does anyone else feel completely removed from

    your body? Basically like a lifeless shell? This happened after a breakup in January. For 7 months I have had no relief where I feel like I am in my body. This is hell.
    acstanz acstanz 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I'm 17, and I've been suffering with this

    for a little over a year. It has been the worst thing to ever happen to me. This is the scariest mental illness I have ever experienced, and I'm hoping through this site to gain a little hope. Right now, it feels like it's never going to get better. I'm going to college next...
    AFSVC AFSVC 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Over the past year or two,

    I've been finding it more and more difficult to distinguish between when I'm dreaming and when I'm conscious. My dreams feel more vivid than real life. Kind of like an alternate reality. When I look in the mirror, I rarely recognize that it's me, and I often have to remind...
    Surreal657 Surreal657 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hey everyone. I've been struggling with

    depersonalization since I was 12. I am 27 now. I just want you guys to know that it CAN get better. When it first started happening I would take naps constantly, hoping when I'd wake up I'd feel normal again. or i would watch TV. .somehow it helped and took my mind off...
    theprincessteph theprincessteph 26-30, F Jun 21

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    I honestly wake up every day wondering

    if everything around me is even real. It just looks so fake, artificial, like a simulation. I get out of bed, not feeling like I'm controlling my own movements. I feel stuck inside a body that I don't have any control over. People, they seem so lifeless, as unreal as the...
    ScheeleXx ScheeleXx 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 12

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    I am recovered from DP this year

    after 3 years' struggle. It was an extremely challenging period where I almos lost the functions of speaking and writing and even listening comprehenshion. What a remarkable achievement by coming back from the freaking Hell. What an achievement...
    newlife888 newlife888 36-40, M Jul 29

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    I'm honestly so tired of feeling this way.

    When I try to explain to people how being depersonalized feels I often use the phrase " Almost like you're high but not" and I usually get a "Lucky" or an "Thats awesome" but it's really not. It sucks so badly. I don't like this and I would do almost anything to have this feel...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    New Thoughts

    I dont expect anyone to believe in me or to even agree with me and i dont really care for that matter. maybe someone will read this and maybe it will help them in dealing with what i went through or maybe it'll make it that much worse for them, who knows..but i'll keep on writing...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 22-25, M 32 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    The Pure Truth.

    I'm not letting anything behind this time. This is me. I have been feeling like this for about year and a half. It is part of what I think might be Depersonalization Disorder. And if it isn't, it's damn close. The thing is that I only feel half-aware of what I do, like I can...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    fryelo fryelo 13-15, T Jun 19

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    I posted an essay on my blog today outlining

    some of my thoughts on DP, enlightenment, and a few words of advice for anyone interested: https://ideasworthrememberingblog.wordpress.com/enlightenment-vs-depersonalization/
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Jul 28

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    Listen to me please, you reading this right

    now I know you're going through a very very hard time but you will get better you will get through this, you're growing as a person I had this "disorder" for 5 years I smoked pot had a very bad experience and that's when it all started probably like many of you reading this, it...
    Itsgoingtobeokayipromise Itsgoingtobeokayipromise 18-21, M Aug 1

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    It's been getting a lot worse,

    I can barely go outside anymore. Too much space, everything is 2D pressed up against my eyes
    ScheeleXx ScheeleXx 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Um hi. So. I actually haven't been diagnosed

    with this (because I won't see my therapist and yeah) but I have talked about it before to my doctor and therapist and they told me I could possibly have it. It's something that comes and goes. I can be like this for 4 or 5 months and I snap out of it for awhile. But I don't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    So I wrote on here about a little over a month

    ago. I have suffered through depersonalization since I was 18. I took this disorder as something I would never be able to overcome but there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I have been on lexapro 10 mg since November of 2014 and didn't notice really much of a difference...
    katejen2 katejen2 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I haven't been diagnosed

    or anything, because apparently it's really hard to get psychiatric help if you're not suicidal, but I've slowly come to the realization that I may or may not have been dealing with depersonalization and dissociation for most of my life. I'm 22, and the earliest I remember...
    thekittyjew