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I Have Depersonalization Disorder

A Depersonalization Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Depersonalization Disorder. You're not alone. 599 People

    During my senior year of high school was the

    first time I experienced my depersonalization disorder. I'm now 24 years old and still can say I'm suffering from this never ending disease. I currently only focus on feeling detached and wondering why I constantly feel this way, everyday is a daily struggle of not being able to...
    katejen2 katejen2 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I have had this disorder

    for a little over 11 months now. It's taken over me, taken who I used to be, the happy young girl. Sociable, empathetic and caring, all gone. What is left is this empty shell working on its own accord, everything on autopilot. And then I look at my hands. These strangers hands...
    Stemperence Stemperence 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    Recoverd Depersonalization

    I just want to let everyone know there is hope to get over dp and dr. i had it for over two years and the recovery process took like 6 mos or so. i will be blogging about before recovery, what i went through during recovery, and now :)
    kendra198907 kendra198907 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2012

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    I've been this way for a

    while now, but only received a diagnosis a couple of weeks ago. It's as if you're a pair of eyes sat inside a body, watching yourself move and watching life go by. My senses are affected by it: while I can feel pain, it feels detached from me, if that makes sense. It acts up...
    reversi reversi 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I'm honestly so tired of feeling this way.

    When I try to explain to people how being depersonalized feels I often use the phrase " Almost like you're high but not" and I usually get a "Lucky" or an "Thats awesome" but it's really not. It sucks so badly. I don't like this and I would do almost anything to have this feel...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F Sep 9, 2014

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    Does anyone have control issues?

    I walk around my house or life in general and just don't feel in control... Like I feel like I'm a robot or something? Not the out of body experience, just the feeling of not being in control at all... And I have existence issues like what does it really mean to "be" and what is...
    Rusty2324 Rusty2324 18-21, M Aug 27, 2014

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    I wish I had a sex drive.

    I have somehow recovered from depersonalization/ derealization disorder and feel really good, except I still don't seem to have a sex drive. I want to have sex, I like how it feels, and I love my boyfriend, but physically there is no spark. I think my boyfriend is really...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2014

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    So I wrote on here about a little over a month

    ago. I have suffered through depersonalization since I was 18. I took this disorder as something I would never be able to overcome but there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I have been on lexapro 10 mg since November of 2014 and didn't notice really much of a difference...
    katejen2 katejen2 22-25, F Mar 25

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    I had another episode the other day.

    I had to go all day freaking out that people could tell I "wasn't there". It felt like I was in a movie. I could touch something but not feel it. My face was disappearing in the mirror. I was walking on air. I had so many panic attacks. It's gone now, but I hate when it comes...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Living the Dream, Literally.

    All of the stories posted before me are basically the same, and I don't blame anyone who has written before me, because i feel exactly the same way.  I just want to ask a question and would really appreciate if someone could reply to it: are there groups for...
    HisNameisFrank HisNameisFrank 18-21, M 14 Responses Feb 14, 2009

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    Attention to anyone with DPD/DRD

    that wants their sex drive back! I started taking an herbal supplement from GNC called steel libido and it totally helps. I was hesitant at first but I did research and nothing in it is harmful. I take 4 before my boyfriend and I hook up and it totally does the trick. Takes a...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Sep 21, 2014

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    I'm not sure I "have" this,

    but I'll just describe my experiences and hope that someone gives me advice. When I was a kid, I'd have these episodes. I felt like I was as small as the microscopic pinpoint of a needle, but if you looked a little closer suddenly I ballooned into a gigantic, boundless...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I failed an exam, went to sleep,

    woke up, watched a movie and then walked around aimlessly for awhile in the middle of the night. It was almost cold. I was wearing shorts, but see, I didn't particularly care. Even as I write this inside a warm room, nothing really seems to matter at all anymore. I feel...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Just had my biggest fear come true I completely

    lost control of myself and went crazy.. All I remember is I was laying on the bathroom floor cause I was feeling a bit nauseous then I got really anxious and starting having an episode then all of a sudden I'm in my room balling my eyes out on my bed and my dad is screaming at...
    Mayleehawkeye Mayleehawkeye 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2014

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    I have depersonalization disorder we believe to

    be the result of complex post traumatic stress disorder. I have a very rare and life threatening disease and my near death experiences and lack of appriopriate care at times have lead me to disassociate. When things get particularly stressful, I disengage and start convincing...
    saltloveandlight saltloveandlight 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    A Living Hell: My Depersonalization Story

    I'm gonna tell you about this kid who's life had been traumatized by negative events, how his ego had been crushed, how his confidence had simply diminished into thin air, and how his strive for life itself completely stopped. Then I'm gonna tell you how he came out of all of...
    ThatOneGuy57 ThatOneGuy57 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    ok so where do I start.

    ..... I feel as tho when I look back on something I have done during the day or anything in the past its like it's not me that was there? like I was in overdrive trying to ignore my problems or just not me.. it's hard to explain but like when I wake up in the morning I...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    My Story....

    i had a really bad childhood. for me personally i find it hard to deal with and i am not peapred to write it down just yet out in the open. but i believe that my bad childhood, is the root of my problem. it started when i was 13. one night after watching a movie. i fetl suddenly...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 18 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    I decided to say my story about my

    Depersonalization Disorder. I began to be really depressed when i moved away from my family and really good friends. I got into this horrible depression and wanted to die so bad. So, my parents decided to move to another state which btw im in right know and my depression has...
    blv76 blv76 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2014

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    I'm not sure where to start,

    but I guess I'll start off by saying I'm positive I have Depersonalization Disorder, but I am not officially diagnosed. I would like to share my reasoning and get some educated and experienced opinions back. When I was 12 years old I smoked my first joint. I didn't enjoy it at...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    Cured And A Better Person Now

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    I haven't been diagnosed

    or anything, because apparently it's really hard to get psychiatric help if you're not suicidal, but I've slowly come to the realization that I may or may not have been dealing with depersonalization and dissociation for most of my life. I'm 22, and the earliest I remember...
    thekittyjew thekittyjew 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    So I'm currently battling with this disorder

    and I noticed that nowadays it's getting better. I'm socializing with people and it makes the world more "real" for me. It's like I'm getting back to normal. I read about people that they still have depersonalization even after 7 years and this worries me. Mine started on August...
    AnimeShugosha AnimeShugosha 18-21, F May 13, 2014

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    ibd always had this. I've always felt detached

    from everything and everyone since I was a little girl. always been different. it's been a sad and scary joinery
    motherearth227 motherearth227 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    Welcome to My So Called Reality

    I suffer from depersonalization . I basicaly feel detached from the world, its kind of a dream like feeling that comes and goes, but seems to come more often rather than goes. Anyway if anyone knows what i mean let me know
    deftone deftone 26-30, M 39 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    I Used To Have No Identity Until...

    I invited the PERSON of Jesus Resurrected to Come and Live inside of me and take over this body... And He Did! A Marriage occured! Two becoming One. He is now the Head of this body. I felt dead before, and now I am Alive Forever! It is what I was designed for from the beginning...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    Read This.

    You've heard a lot about perception I'm guessing. But probably more along the lines of "oh that's what you think, that's your perception", as if it's solely about opinions. Turns out treating your problems as a label, calling it a disorder, or whatever that's victimizing you, is...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    The Pure Truth.

    I'm not letting anything behind this time. This is me. I have been feeling like this for about year and a half. It is part of what I think might be Depersonalization Disorder. And if it isn't, it's damn close. The thing is that I only feel half-aware of what I do, like I can...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    When depersonalizing,

    am I the only one who questions their body parts? To me, when it happens I feel like I'm inside a movie, sort of. And I'll look at my hand and it doesn't feel like mine, and it looks strange to me. And say if I get up to walk, I'll be like "are these REALLY my legs? How am I...
    n0ceur n0ceur 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    I don't have it, but it interests me.

    I am here to talk to anybody who wants to talk about what it's like, or even just to chat. I've never experienced it, but I know of and a bit about it. Basically, just anyone who needs to chat, message me.
    Profclouseau Profclouseau 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    I have had this come

    and go through life, I remember being about 8/9 years of age. I was standing in a shop and I was looking at of the door window and suddenly it was like I was detached from the world like I wasn't really there in a sense. As I got older It happened a lot and when I had my first...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    Hello everyone with DPD.

    I used to have DPD constantly. I have been living free of it for 7 years now ( excluding a specific sexual act ) with the help of a medication called neurontin. Not an advertisement just thought I'd share incase someone else could benifit.
    cj911 cj911 26-30 Aug 1, 2014

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    I'm 17, and I've been suffering with this

    for a little over a year. It has been the worst thing to ever happen to me. This is the scariest mental illness I have ever experienced, and I'm hoping through this site to gain a little hope. Right now, it feels like it's never going to get better. I'm going to college next...
    AFSVC AFSVC 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Hello. The DP is visiting.

    I am stuck in rumination about my sense if self. I am finding it hard to do anything because my mind is telling me that if I do it and it makes me feel better therefore I need it and therefore proving there is some dysfunction in my personality. It is driving me mad. Yes no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    Is the worst thing ever

    and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone
    Rusty2324 Rusty2324 18-21, M Sep 1, 2014

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    I have Depersonalization Disorder

    for almost a year now.It never stops, I dont feel anything, my thoughts are racing In my head and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in a plane.I was going to Italy and when we landed I started feeling weird. I thought it was the different climate or the air pressure...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Anyone Who Has Dp...please Read!!!

    I developed my anxiety/panic/ DP/DR after smoking a joint when I was 13...It was like the movie "NUMB" (which if you guys haven't seen you should) It is all about this...It stars...OMG..ummm Chandler from friends and it is about a guy who smokes too much pot one night and then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2011

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    Just A Tidbit For People Newly Going Through This Disorder....

    I, too, have depersonalization/derealization disorder. I used to have it constantly, then it became intermittent, and like you, I was terrified of what happened, when and if it would happen again, and I spent my days in fear, fear of the event itself, and fear of the return...
    Mytherapystsayz Mytherapystsayz 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    it's getting Worse. every morning I wake up

    panicking about who I Am.. I can't look in the mirror sometimes without getting panicky and feeling disconnected from the person staring back at me... is that really me? I freak out if I'm alone for too long by myself with no distractions.. can anyone else relate? I'm scared...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 10

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    Um hi. So. I actually haven't been diagnosed

    with this (because I won't see my therapist and yeah) but I have talked about it before to my doctor and therapist and they told me I could possibly have it. It's something that comes and goes. I can be like this for 4 or 5 months and I snap out of it for awhile. But I don't...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    I feel so confused most days,

    I just don't feel like im really here, I feel like Im in a movie watching myself or something. I don't know it's weird, I feel disconnected from my body. it's like my mind and my body are separate. when I look in a mirror I don't recognise myself. like I know it's me but it...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I'm 16 and I've been suffering from a severe

    depersonalization disorder for just over a year now. At first I pushed it away as being tired, but when it never got better, we went to the doctor (many doctors I might add) and I was diagnosed. It makes me feel like I'm going insane, and it actually got so bad that in January...
    xxChloeMxx xxChloeMxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    Okay, so I don't have a diagnosis,

    my doctor thinks it's a side effect of depression but I've only been depressed for a year and a half. My depersonalization has been going on since I was 14, and I'm 18 now. Ever since my freshman year of high school my memories don't feel like my own. It's like I'm watching them...
    SuperLogan SuperLogan 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    New Thoughts

    I dont expect anyone to believe in me or to even agree with me and i dont really care for that matter. maybe someone will read this and maybe it will help them in dealing with what i went through or maybe it'll make it that much worse for them, who knows..but i'll keep on writing...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 32 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    I have been struggling

    since I was 12 years old and I am 18. I have went to so many doctors and they all tell my its just anxiety. I know I have anxiety but it's not that. I know the world around me is real but I feel numb like my emotions are suppressed and that physically my body is a little numb...
    Rozie996 Rozie996 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Related Experiences

    I was thinking to get a job at Starbucks to gain experience (because i never do any work before) but i have panic disorder with agoraphobia. I am feeling a little bit scared and...
    qijae qijae 18-21, F Apr 20

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