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I Have Depersonalization Disorder

A Depersonalization Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Depersonalization Disorder. You're not alone. 547 People

    Does anyone know of a support group in

    chicagoland area for depersonalization disorder?
    shanmom shanmom 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    I'm 16 and I've been suffering from a severe

    depersonalization disorder for just over a year now. At first I pushed it away as being tired, but when it never got better, we went to the doctor (many doctors I might add) and I was diagnosed. It makes me feel like I'm going insane, and it actually got so bad that in January...
    xxChloeMxx xxChloeMxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    Living the Dream, Literally.

    All of the stories posted before me are basically the same, and I don't blame anyone who has written before me, because i feel exactly the same way.  I just want to ask a question and would really appreciate if someone could reply to it: are there groups for...
    HisNameisFrank HisNameisFrank 18-21, M 13 Responses Feb 14, 2009

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    Welcome to My So Called Reality

    I suffer from depersonalization . I basicaly feel detached from the world, its kind of a dream like feeling that comes and goes, but seems to come more often rather than goes. Anyway if anyone knows what i mean let me know
    deftone deftone 26-30, M 39 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    Nothing seems real anymore.

    I havent slept in 3 nights and before that i dont know how many. I just want to wake up. I know i feel like this and i know its wrong but what if its not wrong? What if i really am just dreaming? This all started i think a year and a half ago when i was kidnapped. I used to live...
    Insomniac77 Insomniac77 16-17, M 3 Responses May 22

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    I have depersonalization disorder we believe to

    be the result of complex post traumatic stress disorder. I have a very rare and life threatening disease and my near death experiences and lack of appriopriate care at times have lead me to disassociate. When things get particularly stressful, I disengage and start convincing...
    saltloveandlight saltloveandlight 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    So I'm currently battling with this disorder

    and I noticed that nowadays it's getting better. I'm socializing with people and it makes the world more "real" for me. It's like I'm getting back to normal. I read about people that they still have depersonalization even after 7 years and this worries me. Mine started on August...
    AnimeShugosha AnimeShugosha 18-21, F May 13

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    I wish I had a sex drive.

    I have somehow recovered from depersonalization/ derealization disorder and feel really good, except I still don't seem to have a sex drive. I want to have sex, I like how it feels, and I love my boyfriend, but physically there is no spark. I think my boyfriend is really...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Sep 2

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    I had another episode the other day.

    I had to go all day freaking out that people could tell I "wasn't there". It felt like I was in a movie. I could touch something but not feel it. My face was disappearing in the mirror. I was walking on air. I had so many panic attacks. It's gone now, but I hate when it comes...
    saviscool saviscool 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    In A Daze..

    I'm in a daze, no idea what I'm looking at, just looking. Nothing makes much sense and the world around me is completely alien. I look at my hands and see they're not my hands. My face doesn't belong to me. I think it's familiar, but it's not mine. It's as if everything is...
    CleverName94 CleverName94 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2012

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    Hello everyone with DPD.

    I used to have DPD constantly. I have been living free of it for 7 years now ( excluding a specific sexual act ) with the help of a medication called neurontin. Not an advertisement just thought I'd share incase someone else could benifit.
    cj911 cj911 26-30 Aug 1

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    I feel so confused most days,

    I just don't feel like im really here, I feel like Im in a movie watching myself or something. I don't know it's weird, I feel disconnected from my body. it's like my mind and my body are separate. when I look in a mirror I don't recognise myself. like I know it's me but it...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm honestly so tired of feeling this way.

    When I try to explain to people how being depersonalized feels I often use the phrase " Almost like you're high but not" and I usually get a "Lucky" or an "Thats awesome" but it's really not. It sucks so badly. I don't like this and I would do almost anything to have this feel...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F Sep 9

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    I Used To Have No Identity Until...

    I invited the PERSON of Jesus Resurrected to Come and Live inside of me and take over this body... And He Did! A Marriage occured! Two becoming One. He is now the Head of this body. I felt dead before, and now I am Alive Forever! It is what I was designed for from the beginning...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    To People Who Are Wondering.."am I Crazy?"

    I completely understand how you must be feeling right now.  I also wonder the same thing now and then.  In fact, I've been wondering it now more often than not.  But this is what we all need to know, and remember:  depersonalization, and derealization can be caused by a...
    TheLadyMissKatie TheLadyMissKatie 16-17 2 Responses Apr 17, 2012

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    Time Flies...

    Every night around 12 I go outside to smoke. I look around me and I get a feel of what life should be. So calm and peaceful..but just as fast as my cigarette burns, so does life. An hour feels like seconds. A day, minutes. And I'm wondering if our disorder is just our bodies...
    speckle456 speckle456 16-17, F Aug 23, 2013

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    My Story

    I was recently diagnosed with DPD. I feel like my life is a movie and constantly stare into space and feel detached from my surroundings. I thought joining this forum would help me so I can hear from other people with DPD and their stories and advice.
    Serenitysmiles Serenitysmiles 16-17 1 Response Dec 6, 2008

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    Just had my biggest fear come true I completely

    lost control of myself and went crazy.. All I remember is I was laying on the bathroom floor cause I was feeling a bit nauseous then I got really anxious and starting having an episode then all of a sudden I'm in my room balling my eyes out on my bed and my dad is screaming at...
    Mayleehawkeye Mayleehawkeye 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I knew something was up with me!

    I kept having a change in perception after exercising or times I was relaxed and it felt so good. It was like seeing for real the first time. I started practicing kundalini breathing to deal with all my anxiety and cleansed my body of all the stress and pressure. It was like...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I don't have it, but it interests me.

    I am here to talk to anybody who wants to talk about what it's like, or even just to chat. I've never experienced it, but I know of and a bit about it. Basically, just anyone who needs to chat, message me.
    Profclouseau Profclouseau 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I used to love freedom.

    The exciting possibilities. Now I'm at a crossroads in my life and had so much motivation to change but wasted it because I don't know what I want? How can you be motivated when you don't know what you like. You don't feel anything. Months go by like days. Those occasional...
    buddhajay buddhajay 18-21, M 1 Response May 19

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    I have had this come

    and go through life, I remember being about 8/9 years of age. I was standing in a shop and I was looking at of the door window and suddenly it was like I was detached from the world like I wasn't really there in a sense. As I got older It happened a lot and when I had my first...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I've been battling this thing

    for two years now. I've come from medication, to meditation, to pointless therapy sessions with no results. I can't say it's been easy to cope with depersonalization. However, I can tell you that it's definitely possible to still enjoy life. Move on. Don't feel like you're...
    phoenixrisen25 phoenixrisen25 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 3

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    Synesthesia. I think

    that 'depersonalization' and synesthesia are related. It occurred to me though that I never specifically inquired about other peoples experience on this particular board. Does anyone else have both? I have mild grapheme and mirror-touch (or, kind of like a combo of motion-touch...
    AerinK AerinK 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Just discovered I have this

    when I went back into therapy. It's very hard to deal with the question of Who Am I? I feel like I'm going to hurt my loved ones because it's hard to care about anything anymore, especially when I don't feel real.
    bripolar bripolar 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    I haven't actually been diagnosed,

    so maybe it's premature. I've never found anything that I have identified with more in my life. My husband agreed fully, which is also a first for what is exactly going on with me. For long as I can remember, I have been this way. I feel like I am essentially in two parts...
    Eadie916 Eadie916 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I've had this for a long time,

    but up until this year I never knew what it was, or whether or not other people experienced it. I remember being quite young, probably 7, when I first got it. I can make it come on command, but it doesn't go away for a while. Usually it only lasts a few minutes, but it comes and...
    LeavesOfSunshine LeavesOfSunshine 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    New Thoughts

    I dont expect anyone to believe in me or to even agree with me and i dont really care for that matter. maybe someone will read this and maybe it will help them in dealing with what i went through or maybe it'll make it that much worse for them, who knows..but i'll keep on writing...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 33 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    Summer Of Dreams

    My experience with depersonalization, and derealization as well, began when I was six years old. At that time of course, and up until the past couple of years, I didn't know that's what I was experiencing. Any kind or symptom of dissosication disorders can be TERRIFYING, at any...
    twentyhundredheartbeats twentyhundredheartbeats 18-21 3 Responses Jun 22, 2011

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    Anyone Who Has Dp...please Read!!!

    I developed my anxiety/panic/ DP/DR after smoking a joint when I was 13...It was like the movie "NUMB" (which if you guys haven't seen you should) It is all about this...It stars...OMG..ummm Chandler from friends and it is about a guy who smokes too much pot one night and then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2011

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    I'm not sure where to start,

    but I guess I'll start off by saying I'm positive I have Depersonalization Disorder, but I am not officially diagnosed. I would like to share my reasoning and get some educated and experienced opinions back. When I was 12 years old I smoked my first joint. I didn't enjoy it at...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    My Story....

    i had a really bad childhood. for me personally i find it hard to deal with and i am not peapred to write it down just yet out in the open. but i believe that my bad childhood, is the root of my problem. it started when i was 13. one night after watching a movie. i fetl suddenly...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 18 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    Just A Tidbit For People Newly Going Through This Disorder....

    I, too, have depersonalization/derealization disorder. I used to have it constantly, then it became intermittent, and like you, I was terrified of what happened, when and if it would happen again, and I spent my days in fear, fear of the event itself, and fear of the return...
    Mytherapystsayz Mytherapystsayz 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    Cured And A Better Person Now

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    The Pure Truth.

    I'm not letting anything behind this time. This is me. I have been feeling like this for about year and a half. It is part of what I think might be Depersonalization Disorder. And if it isn't, it's damn close. The thing is that I only feel half-aware of what I do, like I can...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    I'm only 14 years old

    and it started about 4 months ago but it wasn't serious then it started to progress it's making me fail school not do any of my work and it ruined my trip to nc and my Christmas I only told one person and it was my mom about 2 days ago and she was worried every time I'm at the...
    jayyr jayyr 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 29

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    This Is The Stuff I Think About

    So this perceptual experience generally makes it easy for me to recognize that everything I see/hear/feel is actually just some passive part of my mind reacting to 'outside' things (not a solipsistic argument at all, rather that 'outside' is real, but can only be experienced and...
    AerinK AerinK 36-40, F Sep 19, 2013

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    I feel detached from my self.

    like I watch myself do things like an outside observer and it borders me.
    havilah havilah 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I think I have PD but I'm not entirely sure.

    I tried to explain it to my family/friends but they don't seem to get it. I'm frustrated half the time and it seems to get worse with stress, lack of sleep and coffee. I feel like I'm so aware of my existence that I'm barely living. It sucks, and am really terrified I'm losing...
    hani91 hani91 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    ibd always had this. I've always felt detached

    from everything and everyone since I was a little girl. always been different. it's been a sad and scary joinery
    motherearth227 motherearth227 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Or at least I think I do,

    and I wouldn't be surprised if I did. I have been diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression a while ago, maybe 5 or 6 years ago. I always feel out of it and feel almost out of my body at times. I'll be walking in the hallways in school and feel disconnected, and often times I am...
    Vahzify Vahzify 13-15, M Feb 24

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    It's to the point where I can put myself in

    this state. People say that most cases of depersonalization disorder are the result of traumatic events. I'm not sure I believe that it's most of the time. And I especially don't think anything so traumatic happened to me. When I'm in this state, I don't want to talk to anyone...
    VoiceofRain VoiceofRain 16-17, F May 27

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    Does anyone have control issues?

    I walk around my house or life in general and just don't feel in control... Like I feel like I'm a robot or something? Not the out of body experience, just the feeling of not being in control at all... And I have existence issues like what does it really mean to "be" and what is...
    Rusty2324 Rusty2324 18-21, M Aug 27

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    My depersonalization disorder was revealed to

    me by a hefty dose of MDMA and magic mushrooms. I realized during the experience that as a child, I repressed my true self to fit in with the rest of society. I'm gay, and used to be very flamboyant. I was a victim of bullying and instead of fighting back, I let them all win...
    wewanderers wewanderers 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 13

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    Um hi. So. I actually haven't been diagnosed

    with this (because I won't see my therapist and yeah) but I have talked about it before to my doctor and therapist and they told me I could possibly have it. It's something that comes and goes. I can be like this for 4 or 5 months and I snap out of it for awhile. But I don't...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    Is the worst thing ever

    and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone
    Rusty2324 Rusty2324 18-21, M Sep 1

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    These last two school years are the years I

    cannot ever forget. Why it happened to me of all people, i will never know, but what i do know is that it was a life changing experience and it strengthened me and changed me in every possible way. It was the summer of 2012, and i was under a lot of stress over multiple...
    yildiz96 yildiz96 16-17 1 Response Jun 19

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    Recoverd Depersonalization

    I just want to let everyone know there is hope to get over dp and dr. i had it for over two years and the recovery process took like 6 mos or so. i will be blogging about before recovery, what i went through during recovery, and now :)
    kendra198907 kendra198907 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2012

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    Read This.

    You've heard a lot about perception I'm guessing. But probably more along the lines of "oh that's what you think, that's your perception", as if it's solely about opinions. Turns out treating your problems as a label, calling it a disorder, or whatever that's victimizing you, is...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I have had this disorder

    for a little over 11 months now. It's taken over me, taken who I used to be, the happy young girl. Sociable, empathetic and caring, all gone. What is left is this empty shell working on its own accord, everything on autopilot. And then I look at my hands. These strangers hands...
    Stemperence Stemperence 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    A Living Hell: My Depersonalization Story

    I'm gonna tell you about this kid who's life had been traumatized by negative events, how his ego had been crushed, how his confidence had simply diminished into thin air, and how his strive for life itself completely stopped. Then I'm gonna tell you how he came out of all of...
    ThatOneGuy57 ThatOneGuy57 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19, 2013

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    Related Experiences

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    bluestocking18 bluestocking18 18-21, F Aug 19

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    I suffer from anxiety disorder from my teens and the doctors told me that i had anxiety depression years and years i was taking drugs for depression in the end my brain analyse...
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F Sep 10

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