I Have Depression and Bpd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 126 People

    A Poem That Pretty Much Explains How I Feel

    my thoughts are racing too fast for me to know what it is I'm feeling I wish they would flow one minute I'm happy smiling ear to ear and then I get angry and people start to fear because after anger is violence someone always gets the brunt and then comes the remorse...
    Brownigrl2009 Brownigrl2009
    22-25, F
    Oct 20, 2009

    Time for some positive thinking today.

    :) it's been a rubbish week but I will make it better today :)))
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    May 21, 2015

    I have suffered with depression

    for a very long time. I was diagnosed with bpd a few years back and I am fighting it as hard as I can. Looking for others in similar situations. I feel all alone in this.
    44SingleFemaleSouthEdm 44SingleFemaleSouthEdm
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    But I'm feeling better!

    ! My life still sucks but I'm functioning every day like a normal person. Big step.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    May 20, 2015

    Today was better. Some days can be good.

    Although rather unimpressed with my new mental health worker. Ho hum.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 22, 2015

    I am new here & not quite sure how all of this

    works. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder although I still don't know as much as I'd like about it because my counselor changed jobs shortly after giving me the diagnosis. I am fixing to start therapy again soon & hopefully this time I can actually make...
    mandy32893 mandy32893
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 24, 2015

    Although I'm a lot better

    than I was a few months ago, I still have very bad days. Today is one of them. I'm just failing to see the point in my life and feeling let down by friends. I go to work. I spend most of my day running to the toilets to cry. I come home and I sit in bed. I have spent all of this...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2015
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    May 24, 2015

    I have had depression

    for years and i haven't been able to tell my parents and sister. Then a few weeks ago I found out that I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and ever since then it has been eating away at me to tell my parents but, I don't know how! Could I have some advice pls?
    KittyLoverForever KittyLoverForever
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 1

    I Am Having Trouble With My Emotions And Working

    I have been diagnosed with BPD since May this year. I am having trouble with my emotions. I am angry or sad and low all the time. I hate working! I don't want to go to work. I just want to shut up in my room and hide from everyone but my family and friends doesn't understand. I...
    bpdstruggles2012 bpdstruggles2012
    4 Responses Aug 9, 2013

    I just feel terrible.

    I can't think of anything that would make me happy and I can't work out why I feel sad. How can I beat this when I don't know how to be happy again?
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    Life can be such a struggle & there isn't

    enough support out there for BPD sufferers. It IS suffering. I didn't choose this life. I wish people would stop implying that I choose to suffer like this.
    Littlepigisabitlow Littlepigisabitlow
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    I'm 16 years old almost 17.

    I have the symptoms of BPD witch is ruining all of my relationships. I don't know what made me become what I call a monster. I know I caused all of the problems in my relationships. I just can't shake that empty feeling. I need to feel something, so I seek attention to fill me...
    xxcaylaxx xxcaylaxx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    It isn't nice when your former shrink tells you,

    there is nothing wrong with you when clearly, everything else inside you points to the contrary. I've had mental spasms of violent outbursts, controllable somewhat but damaging personally. Like a long thin reed with my moods, bending wherever the wind blows, when it hits hard...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 18

    It's Annoying

    My depression started when I was 16, and it got so bad I didn't do anything other than go to school and do my homework. I didn't even have friends. I just remember being sad all the time and occasionally getting angry for no reason-nothing set me off, I'd be in the middle of a...
    oh163ocean oh163ocean
    Jul 11, 2008

    Bpd And The Monthly

    I was diagnosed with bpd almost 4 yrs ago. I have always had a problem controling my emotions. I cant help it and it drives me nuts, im a strong woman that has delt with a lot of things in life, but this bpd thing really sucks especially when its getting close to that time of the...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Dec 30, 2011

    I have Depression, BPD,

    and oh yeah, anxiety. It's ruined many great experiences and chances in my life. It had closed many doors. I hit rock bottom again and again. In less than 2 months (last year) I was fired from three jobs and quit two. I attempted college (for the 4th time) and had to withdraw...
    Vyper9 Vyper9
    31-35, F
    Feb 9, 2015

    i dont know what to do i cant cry

    and its really dark i feel i need another group i need to vent i used on another group i wont open up to anyone i find everyday is hell i dont have fanily or no one to even talk to pain is so deep anyone relate to this
    hannahabbie hannahabbie
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 12, 2014

    My family is in denial about my illness

    which only makes things worse. I feel so alone. They say "Snap out of it!"...I totally would if I could. It's not like it's fun...ever. I can't help but feel like I wouldn't feel so hopeless if some love/support was within reach... When I try to reach out for help they just...
    KellzMc KellzMc
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2014

    Am really struggling to put it mildly.

    Mental health services in my area consider they have helped me with dbt 4 yrs ago n yrs of anti-depressants for treatment resistant depression. Wish I knew what to do next. Friendships are a foreign language, means I haven't got anyone I can be myself with which is not always...
    kiwiwoman kiwiwoman
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

    I have had zero energy ever

    since Christmas ended. All I want to do is sleep. The only thing I can think that triggered my depression was lack of sleep. But I'm going to use this post to gain clarity. I hope. I realized when things are good, I get sad and brace myself for yin and yang to do their jobs...
    tlee5001 tlee5001
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2015
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2014

    I just met with my new therapist.

    She did some research on my past history. She softly went over the issues i have. I got to face a lot in that session. She let me go into detail on my molestations. (YES OUR FIRST SESSION!) She did not judge me at all. She encouraged me to keep exploring l what went on back then...
    tlee5001 tlee5001
    26-30, F
    Jan 6, 2015
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    Jan 27, 2015

    I have anxiety, MDD,

    and BPD. I'm too scared, too sad, and too unstable. I'm still in the early process of trying to cope and grasping for support. I'm really hoping I'll find some friends on here because I really can't keep living like this
    crassnsass crassnsass
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 12, 2014


    Have started struggling as my doctor has cut down my meds. She thinks they may be causing my liver to produce harmful enzymes so has suggested I try cutting them down with a view to trying something elseĀ if I'm finding it hard, well I am. My mood has been all over the place for...
    Eggyegg Eggyegg
    46-50, F
    May 7, 2012
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