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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    He Is Going To Leave Me When I Move

    I love my boyfriend, he makes me want to have a future. A future with him. But in 2 years I'll be moving from my little town in Ontario to a even smaller town in PEI. He always says lets think about now and be happy now. So I do. He made me see that always thinking about the...
    evermore47 evermore47 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2013

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    1 Week Strong..But Not For Long

    About a week ago, i carved a small heart in the back of my thumb. My Boo saw it and asked about it... i can't tell him anymore. i can't tell anyone what these things mean. these shapes i carve into myself. whether it be hearts or words, i can't tell him. i love him to bits and we...
    fallingthro fallingthro 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2013

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Stop!

    I'm trapped inside my own head! And I'm scared. Can someone care for once? My family isn't enough I'm so broken. I can't sleep because I'm scared of the nightmares! My family cares but I can't always rely on them I put them threw so much in the past couple of months and I feel...
    Rosie1227 Rosie1227 16-17, F Sep 7, 2013

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    I Cut Myself

    My name is Sariah. I started cutting myself when I was a freshman in high school so I was about 14 years old. At the time, my father had forced me to stop seeing my only friend which was my best friend since 5th grade and I had lost my first love which looking back at the love...
    SixLittleButtons SixLittleButtons 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    This Story Is Why I Have Depression, Anxiety, And Self-abuse Issues

    When I was in elementary school i remember I had some friends but I never felt like i was close to them, i never felt like they accepted me, or wanted to be my friend. On the first day of sixth grade in middle school, i felt some hope that my social life would improve; my mom let...
    JessicaC777 JessicaC777 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    Did you know that anxiety disorder is a

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    gusdeli gusdeli 61-65, M Dec 18, 2013

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    Its So Addicting

    I started cutting myself around 5 months ago. They started as just small little scratches, but the more I do it the deeper they become. Now the cuts bleed. I try so hard not to do it.. but it just becomes more addicting every time I do, then afterwords I feel ashamed of myself...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 6 Responses May 6, 2013

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    The Blades Gone!

    i have major depression, which causes me too cut, this week one of my friends seen i had my blade on me at school, he didn't say anything, until he saw the cuts on my left wrist, he asked me questions about them and i told him the answers, it was good to talk to someone and i...
    chelseamiaa chelseamiaa 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2013

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    Destructive

    I have a great husband, who I know I'm losing because of my ways. I am a depresive person, I have self esteem issues. I suffocate him, I think he cheats on me. I accuse him even though I've never found any evidence. He's starting not to care. Since...
    Nahima Nahima 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2009

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    Low Times ! I Wanna Rip My Skin Out Sometimes

    I suffer from this so bady , i get really depressed . And i dont feel good in my skin , i want to just rip it out . I can get really compulsive sometimes , or i wont do something cause i always think something bad is going to happen .    I DONT FEEL RIGHT IN MY...
    lucylost lucylost 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 8, 2010

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    I Love Myself

    i am special because i love you but not me. not to mention, i could kick your ***. although i am very nice , almost always. so i am sorry, please forgive me okay
    dstorr dstorr 41-45 Jun 13, 2013

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    Self

    I'm starting to isolate myself from my friends and I've started to selfharm again ... With each cut I want to go deeper , Im having thoughts
    Luvn Luvn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

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    Depression. It's a hole.

    It's a never ending hole. It's one of those things you can't get rid of. It's like a nasty addiction. It's always gonna be there. It will never go away. No matter how hard you or others try. There's always going to be a little voice in the back of your head that's saying you...
    urbanangel99 urbanangel99 13-15, M Mar 25

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    Being Shipped Off

    I'm being shipped off for two weeks to live with my Godzilla Granny. Super. *sarcasm*. Two weeks of her overbearingness. (not sure if thats a word, if not idgaf.) Two weeks of hell basically. No wifi. Which kinda sucks. No Pinterest or EP, except for at school. God this is gonna...
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 13-15, F Nov 30, 2013

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    Yea...

    I've had depression and anxiety problems for a long time since around 5th grade i think and my freshman year in High school I started cutting myself because a lot of stuff and I still do it today sadly but it helps too much to quit :/
    Lexiebear18 Lexiebear18 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    Depression Is Like Dying In The Most Painful Way And Being Reborn Everyday

    everyday that i wake up depressed and i have that feeling in my chest ,and my face droops  .people notice and they ask me wats wrong and alot of the time there so many things running thru my brain that  i cant explain it so i...
    theaceofspades theaceofspades 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    Another Night Of Depression And Anxiety

    Once again I'm scared of going to sleep, but the real fear and anxiety is about waking up in the morning and facing yet another day. I foolishly let myself stay awake today... I regret it. Usually I go to school, and then go to bed Immediately and force myself to sleep until the...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    Beauty In Blood Drops

    Swallowed by pain, drowning in a sea of lonliness. The cuts from the blade captivate me and once again, i become of prisoner of my own mistakes. The blood it blows down my hand, almost as if the pain were draining out of me with each ruby red droplet. A feeling of rebirth...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    The First Step

    She has arrived. Arrived home. The gentle sould led her to what would be her final destination. The girl said that she was nervous and scared to be going into a place where she would be in the hands of someone else. The girl walked through the halls of forever. The air smelt of...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F Jun 7, 2013

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Hating Life

    If it's not one thing its another. Right now it's one of my bosses and like every guy in the world. Like, I am just tired of having a broken heart. I've given up on mending it because I know it will just get broken again and I can't handle the pain. I have gone emotionally numb...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2013

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    A Work In Progress

    As a kid, I was the one who used to stick his fingers into electrical appliances to get electrical shocks. I would crash my bicycle on purpose. I pulled out my own stitches the day after my appendix surgery. At school, I would staple my skin. I would dip fingers into boiling...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    My experience to all these is

    because of bullying and deaths in my family people constantly put down on me I haven't self harms in months though because I made a promise to myself that I always feel like breaking.
    suicidal432 suicidal432 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 22

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 8 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    Uncover Depressions

    whenever you feel low; think of something which makes you feel happy example roses or your favourite actor and smile and thank god that you still have the power to know that you are depressed
    giftafamily giftafamily 41-45 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    Depression And Struggle - My Life Story Part 9

    The one thing that made it easier for me to live with my dad was for the fact that my dad already had a girlfriend and she was already living with him. And the reason why it made it easier was because before I was seeing my dad every other weekend and we weren’t that close so I...
    cremecreme cremecreme 18-21, F Aug 2, 2013

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    Did.

    Not anymore though.When I was around the age of 12 I became deeply depressed because of how things were going at home. It's kind of interesting how I began "hurting" myself, I remembered watching a movie with my uncle when I was really young about a girl who would cut herself...
    CuteInChaos CuteInChaos 18-21, F Apr 22, 2011

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    Help Me.

    I am a rose, complete with thorns. I can only harm, never aid another with my beauty. They have made my petals wilt, and fall away. How much longer can this flower bloom?
    imsosmall imsosmall 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

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    Addiction To Pain

    I have had depression and anxiety since I was 16.  I first started cutting when I was 17. It has been a true addiction. I tried and tried to stop. I have read books, etc, but nothing has helped. When I first started cutting it was to relieve my depression. I wanted to have...
    morethanskindeep morethanskindeep 31-35, M 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    Just Me.

    I have suffered from anxiety and depression for years and have been self harming since i was 13. Last summer i was at an all time low, i never told anyone about it until then. I tried to get help, but it just made things worse. But im really confused because a month ago i felt...
    kimtara kimtara 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

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    I remember the first time i cut myself.

    It felt right but in reality it was so wrong. A lot of people say that people cut themselves for attention but for some cases that is not what it's about at all. I didn't cut myself on my wrists, I cut myself on my stomach and on my thighs. Depression made me do it. I didn't...
    stinkyroony stinkyroony 13-15, F Jan 22

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    UnknownAngel1967 UnknownAngel1967 18-21, F Jan 30

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    I tried to OD on the 16th.

    I only remember taking the first few pills. Then I guess I ended up taking 1 bottle of Motrin pm 1 bottle of Tylenol pm and two bottles of Benadryl. I guess I called the hospital. I was in the parking lot there anyway. So, they said they called the police and ambulance and stuff...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F Jan 1

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    Never Ending Cycle

    Here I am four years sense my very first self inflicted cut, and no surpise my legs are slashed up. I've been in love with the same guy for three years, and the funny part it? He can't stand me. He just thought he liked me, flirted a few months and got me to open up to him. Now I...
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    Agian..

    I cut agian. i did it last night, and about fifteen mintues ago. Last night because of the things my dad was saying, and tonight because of the things i heard and did during the day. if i get sad, or someone makes me sad, or says someting mean, its almost like i keep an inventory...
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Here I Am This Is Me

    hi everybody my name is Melanie and i am 22 years old about to be 23 and i have been cutting myself for 16 years.  i was born in tennessee at vanderbilt hopital 3 pound 8 ounces and a little bit smaller than a toy poodle. I was in teh hopial for almost 3 monthes after i...
    acutter4sixteenyrs acutter4sixteenyrs 22-25 4 Responses Jul 2, 2009

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    Bad Day Today

    I'be been feeling very depressed lately. I thought I would be able to finish the school year without too much difficulty. I was wrong. I also thought that the upcoming concert I'm going to would keep me stable for a while. I don't know what triggered it this time but I feel like...
    BrokenMirrors BrokenMirrors 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12, 2013

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    Growing up my mother always had mental

    breakdowns. Last year she actually came into my room and said "they never loved you. They never will. There just a family of druggies who gave you up." She was talking about my biological family. This caused a severe issue for me. That sentence still plays In my head. In...
    kaylakat182 kaylakat182 13-15, F Jan 26

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    sydniedeannaa sydniedeannaa 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm

    Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)! Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in...
    PERL2009 PERL2009 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2010

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    If I Don'T Understand Myself Than How Do Others Understand Me

    I have been depressed for two years. I suffer from anxiety, depression, self harm, insomnia, schizophrenia, and bipolar disorder. I have reached the point in my depression where I no longer want to get better. Earlier I was so happy but now... I feel nothing. The worst feeling is...
    lizzie66 lizzie66 13-15, F 3 Responses May 10, 2013

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    So...Seeing as I do deal with depression,

    anxiety and self-mutilation, I have a hard time dealing with people as nearly none of the people I hang out with would understand me. I mean, I don't even have to ask them, you can tell by the way they talk about the topic concerning other people that they are far from...
    Jeanellaisha Jeanellaisha 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Bleeding Inside

    This group kind of sums up my problems. I have been depressed for almost 2 years, i suffer from severe anxiety, and i self-harm. i have had a lot of crap happen in my life and i just can't find a way to deal with it. i always blame myself for things that go wrong, and i always...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    Her Worst Enemy

    She found him. Found the monster. She took one look in the mirror and her reflection said it all. She looked into her eyes and saw the monster. He made his way into her soul. Became part of life. She melted into him and stuck to him like glue. She wasn't consumed in him anymore...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response May 21, 2013

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    The Girl I Used To Know

    i used to be a little girl whom everyone in town knew.okay not really. i move around a lot so nobody really knows me. my father passed away about half a year ago. i miss my family more than ever. my mother and two little brothers dont even call me. it all started when i was about...
    CHEDDY1 CHEDDY1 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Don't know how to deal with it anymore. I've got depression, anxiety, self mutilation issues, suicidal thoughts and I'm schizophrenic. It ****** me off so much and makes me just...
    PazzaMillie PazzaMillie 13-15, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I have scars on my wrists, arms, upper arms, chest, and thighs. Everyone I know has only seen the ones on my wrists. A lot of my friends were shocked to find these there. "But you...
    flinm flinm 13-15, M Apr 2

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    I have never received treatment despite diagnosis from a psychiatrist; however through treatment and medication for anxiety, depression and insomnia, as well as a general...
    fromlighttodarkness fromlighttodarkness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I am literally trapped in my depression. I always felt something was missing in my life so at the age of 23 i joined the army hoping to fill that emptiness but i truly did want to...
    robboom robboom 22-25, M Apr 6

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    Spring time is always so hard for me. Not as bad this year as others - thankfully - but this time of year I get very quiet, sullen and all I want to do is disappear. I start to...
    salacioustoastlicker salacioustoastlicker 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    Hi. I am having reoccurrence of anxiety issues that I had a few years ago. I thought I'd beaten it, but circumstances at work have changed and I think this has triggered my inner...
    bobblejocks bobblejocks 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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