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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    My experience to all these is

    because of bullying and deaths in my family people constantly put down on me I haven't self harms in months though because I made a promise to myself that I always feel like breaking.
    suicidal432 suicidal432 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    Sometimes I just run out of rooms

    and find a nice corner to have an anxiety or panic attack.
    Ritabird Ritabird 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Its So Addicting

    I started cutting myself around 5 months ago. They started as just small little scratches, but the more I do it the deeper they become. Now the cuts bleed. I try so hard not to do it.. but it just becomes more addicting every time I do, then afterwords I feel ashamed of myself...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 6 Responses May 6, 2013

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    And ,just because of all of that,

    don't expect me to be a cold hearted, dark, unloving, soulless person.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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    I have been dealing with all of this

    since I was 10 I never have and never will be good enough
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I find it hard to even find the energy to get

    out of bed in the mornings, knowing all that awaits me is another day of the same bullshit that drove me to want to kill myself the day before. I don't cry, I'm too dry inside for that, I can't open up because I'm too cold inside for that. Fact is that this existence, my...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I was diagnosed with mild aspergers 2 years

    ago with anxiety and depression caused by it besides being clumsy it makes it really hard to talk with people and causes me really severe anxiety
    remingtonrocks71 remingtonrocks71 31-35 Feb 16

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    I hate when people as me

    if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    I'm already broken and

    now I feel as though I'm crumbling. I want to disappear until the hurting is gone.
    curioustiff curioustiff 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 7 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    My name is Jamie. I am 17 years old,

    and I have had trouble with depression, anxiety, self harm for a long long while now. Does anyone else have these issues? I feel like I'm alone with these issues.
    bruhitsjamie bruhitsjamie 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    For any one of you is having a moment

    where you just cannot handle it anymore, play the song "Nocturne 20 in C-Sharp Minor" on repeat. It is extremely relaxing and is helping me get through so many serious issues. I love you all. Stay safe.
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M Oct 12, 2014

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    I'm so severely depressed.

    I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I just got done crying my eyes out because someone told me I'm nothing but an attention seeking confused girl/boy and that I'm not...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Bleeding Inside

    This group kind of sums up my problems. I have been depressed for almost 2 years, i suffer from severe anxiety, and i self-harm. i have had a lot of crap happen in my life and i just can't find a way to deal with it. i always blame myself for things that go wrong, and i always...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    Chloegirlx Chloegirlx 13-15, F Feb 16

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    Why can't I cut any deeper.

    ****** little pocket knife. why can't I be a man and just do it??? :'(
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Harley4260 Harley4260 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    Agian..

    I cut agian. i did it last night, and about fifteen mintues ago. Last night because of the things my dad was saying, and tonight because of the things i heard and did during the day. if i get sad, or someone makes me sad, or says someting mean, its almost like i keep an inventory...
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I don't want to move back in with my family.

    But I have to because "I'm a danger to myself and others." The thought is unbearable.
    CatsSuckBalls CatsSuckBalls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 4

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    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm 15 and been fighting against depression

    and anxiety since I was 8 years old. I started hating myself when I stared going to school when I was 7 years old.
    buggalue00 buggalue00 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Yea...

    I've had depression and anxiety problems for a long time since around 5th grade i think and my freshman year in High school I started cutting myself because a lot of stuff and I still do it today sadly but it helps too much to quit :/
    Lexiebear18 Lexiebear18 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    No one likes me. I have indeed let them down.

    The question is now, "Do I leave while they drown?" If I am already dead should I save the living? I am never not afraid. I am always not okay. I am constantly re watching my death. I attended my funeral. Sometimes when I see it over again I say now what? What do you do for...
    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F Jan 1

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    I'm a popular girl friends with everyone at

    school . " You're so pretty , You're so gorgeous" is all I hear but when I look in the mirror I see different all I can do is cry I see a ugly little girl in that reflection. weigh about 135 but when I look at my self I see a girl who weighs 350 pounds I won't eat for days just...
    dasiy456 dasiy456 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    Just when you think you're coming close to

    saying 'i'm okay', something always pulls you back down. Then it makes you query whether you were actually going to be 'okay' or whether it was your mind playing tricks on you because it knows that all you want is to be 'okay'. What is 'okay'? Does anyone really know what it's...
    JJSapphire JJSapphire 18-21, F 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    If you had have asked me a year ago what

    depression was, I would have given you that same old answer about how it just seems to be a thrown around term for people who "get a bit upset sometimes". I may have even have gone on to talk about those who get depression and seem to use it as an excuse to get out of ordinary...
    Georgiana72 Georgiana72 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I dont feel anything.

    If anything, worthlessness. I cant do anything. No one wants me or loves me and I'm not worth anyone's time.
    needtotellnow needtotellnow 16-17, F Mar 29

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    Uncover Depressions

    whenever you feel low; think of something which makes you feel happy example roses or your favourite actor and smile and thank god that you still have the power to know that you are depressed
    giftafamily giftafamily 41-45 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    GraceyD GraceyD 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    Beauty In Blood Drops

    Swallowed by pain, drowning in a sea of lonliness. The cuts from the blade captivate me and once again, i become of prisoner of my own mistakes. The blood it blows down my hand, almost as if the pain were draining out of me with each ruby red droplet. A feeling of rebirth...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    I just recently lost my father

    and the love of my life is away at Army boot camp, I keep trying to push on, but I can feel myself falling back into my depression, and it's getting really hard to keep fighting it.
    AshAshyAshley AshAshyAshley 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    Can someone give me a good link to a speech of

    someone talking about anxiety please?
    eleanorxx eleanorxx 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2014

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    I try to stop, but every time I'm sad I want

    the only thing I know I shouldn't trust.
    losttay losttay 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    about people who are horny and **** Go to talk life it's better It's a app I recommend it For people like us
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Apr 3

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    being let down makes me sad

    which in turn makes me want to cut/burn I don't want to fight it anymore I want my sweet release
    curioustiff curioustiff 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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