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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    I'm so severely depressed.

    I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I just got done crying my eyes out because someone told me I'm nothing but an attention seeking confused girl/boy and that I'm not...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15

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    I'm already broken and

    now I feel as though I'm crumbling. I want to disappear until the hurting is gone.
    curioustiff curioustiff 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    I just recently lost my father

    and the love of my life is away at Army boot camp, I keep trying to push on, but I can feel myself falling back into my depression, and it's getting really hard to keep fighting it.
    AshAshyAshley AshAshyAshley 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Kinda getting sick of this app It's just all

    about people who are horny and **** Go to talk life it's better It's a app I recommend it For people like us
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Apr 3

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Jun 8

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    And ,just because of all of that,

    don't expect me to be a cold hearted, dark, unloving, soulless person.
    Elly2020 Elly2020 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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    I just got into a fight with a friend

    and he stopped talking to me and I was really sad. And I used to do this thing where I would shove sharp objects between my gums whenever I got sad.. Because it felt good and also painful. I did it again so they're bleeding bad but ugh am I weird does anyone else do this?
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I dont feel anything.

    If anything, worthlessness. I cant do anything. No one wants me or loves me and I'm not worth anyone's time.
    needtotellnow needtotellnow 16-17, F Mar 29

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    i dont have any ****** emotions i have no

    friends i have nothing to do any day because i have no one this is my life same thing day after day just drowning in my own depression and tears does anything really matter anymore my life is a rerun never stopping this emotional pain and suffering how long do i have to be...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Losing someone you love to the inner thoughts

    of there own mind. You know when you love a person so much and they think about the problems and not the relationship,they always say that it's better to wait. But if u know why it happened you can try again and this time u know what not to do.
    sasukeguns sasukeguns 16-17, F Jul 23

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    Tired of being alive.

    .. I wanna give up so bad...
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    GraceyD GraceyD 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    Harley4260 Harley4260 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    sunuii sunuii 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    night is the worst part of the day the feelings

    I'm trying to hide come out and I cry I cry till I'm weak and there's tears on my bed the pain I hide comes out at night and it scares me the pain I want to get rid of and hide
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I feel alone.Ive had loads of stress lately.

    Projects to turn in and stuff.Its weird. Last year was the worst time of my life. Bottom of the class and I had no friends.This year I am popular in my new school,I am 6th in my class and i have an amazing boyfriend but I feel almost as bad as I did then. Ive got my life on...
    PYazmin PYazmin 13-15, F May 3

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    I have been binge eating all afternoon

    because my mom would rather work than be with me.
    secretchey secretchey 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 7 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    Chloegirlx Chloegirlx 13-15, F Feb 16

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I don't know how to handle my anxiety

    and depression anymore. I feel so lost and different. I have so much going on in my mind lately I just don't know what to do. I just want all these bad feelings to disappear. My mind just goes on and on and on. Non stop. I have nights, many nights where I cant sleep because im...
    ashmuisc ashmuisc 18-21, F Jun 24

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    I self harm my mom saw the cuts on my wrist

    and she cussed me out and said if I ever cut again she'll beat me so I cut where she wouldn't be able to see it. I have depression and anxiety and I'm just a total ******* mess I can't help it she said she don't get me she thinks I'm crazy but I'm not I'm just a ****** up mess...
    marie2020 marie2020 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    It's been several months

    since the last time I cut. But recently my depression has been getting worse and I don't know what to do. For the past week my urges to cut again have gotten stronger and it's on my mind constantly like it used to be. I don't know what to do anymore...
    MrMobos MrMobos 16-17, M 2 Responses May 26

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    Cut my wrists and hope to die Pain fills me

    as I cry Swallow pills Until the end
    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    A Work In Progress

    As a kid, I was the one who used to stick his fingers into electrical appliances to get electrical shocks. I would crash my bicycle on purpose. I pulled out my own stitches the day after my appendix surgery. At school, I would staple my skin. I would dip fingers into boiling...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    I don't want to move back in with my family.

    But I have to because "I'm a danger to myself and others." The thought is unbearable.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Hush little baby Don't you cry Don't cut your

    arm Don't say goodbye Put down the razor Put down the knife It may be hard But you'll win this fight <3
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Feb 23

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I'm.finally getting help

    for my mental illnesses and this week has been a crazy roller coaster I haven't went to school because I honestly can't handle it right now Im finally working on fixing myself its going to be a long journey and there will be ups and downs but I have people I care about...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F May 13

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    Have you ever felt abandoned by your own family?

    Left out? Like its not even worth it? I feel like that every single day mostly. I can be happy but it doesn't last long. I'll try to drown in happiness but sadness sinks into me somehow. I'm not blaming anyone.. But i used to. I remember about a year ago, my cousins family moved...
    AngelOfDarknessAndLight AngelOfDarknessAndLight 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    shauna571 shauna571 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 12

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    Every day is war to me,

    A struggle to obtain reality. A shower, my breakfast, putting on my shoes. It's hard to see the point some days, And no one has a clue. I have been deemed so many things, by those who wouldn't know. High maintenance, a worrier, A girl putting on a show. I've been trained...
    AquamarineLove AquamarineLove 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 25

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    So um hi. I'm kinda new to this.

    .. I've never heard about it before but uh I guess I'm going to use this account for venting. So I've been battling depression since 7th grade and a few weeks ago they took me off my medication because my dad read something about it and said he didn't want me taking it. So I...
    ana10120 ana10120 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I used to look at my double edged razor

    and see my best friend. I still would, I suppose, if I wasn't on a blood thinner for my heart. I have a wonderful supportive family and the greatest boyfriend but somehow, at night I still feel so alone. I'm afraid I'm pushing those closest to me away, I cry all the time and...
    BionicCarole1985 BionicCarole1985 26-30, F May 24

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    Beauty In Blood Drops

    Swallowed by pain, drowning in a sea of lonliness. The cuts from the blade captivate me and once again, i become of prisoner of my own mistakes. The blood it blows down my hand, almost as if the pain were draining out of me with each ruby red droplet. A feeling of rebirth...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses