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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    Never Ending Cycle

    Here I am four years sense my very first self inflicted cut, and no surpise my legs are slashed up. I've been in love with the same guy for three years, and the funny part it? He can't stand me. He just thought he liked me, flirted a few months and got me to open up to him. Now I...
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    I'm getting better but it still hurts a lot.

    I've been battling it for almost 2 years now...
    suicidalprincesss suicidalprincesss 13-15, F Aug 9

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    So yesterday I was in a fight with my cousin

    about how I need to stop cutting and I need to go to therapy and get some sort of antidepressant and I didn't want to but I decided to go get help from my aunt. She's trained to help people with issues like this. She asked me some questions then she said I had moderate-severe...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F May 11

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    I've always been a gentle

    and quite person. I rarely got angry... I was just sad. I read about people who were always angry because of their depression. I never understood till now. I want to get into fights. I want to hit people and have them hit me back. I'm always biting my lip till it bleeds followed...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 29

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    I have barely been able to get up in the morning

    for the past 6 months. I have had bad depression, anxiety, and self harm issues for a long time but after what I went through a little while ago I really have just lost hope. My friends were rarely ever really there for me and basically liked me because I could buy things and I...
    iwantmywingsback iwantmywingsback 16-17, T 1 Response Apr 28

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    Umm I'm just not happy

    where I am now. but I believe thing it will get better when it comes right time. Since I have my med Zoloft for treat with anti-depression and have an anixety. I hope so this med would help me with through this. I know thing pain comes in my life right now and it will makes me...
    xoshorty21 xoshorty21 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Some times I do when I have nothing else to do,

    almost like an addiction...? Please don't judge me...
    justsmiles justsmiles 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    I remember the first time i cut myself.

    It felt right but in reality it was so wrong. A lot of people say that people cut themselves for attention but for some cases that is not what it's about at all. I didn't cut myself on my wrists, I cut myself on my stomach and on my thighs. Depression made me do it. I didn't...
    stinkyroony stinkyroony 13-15, F Jan 22

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    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I always thought I knew what depression was.

    Then one day, it turned my life upside down. A therapist once told me she believed I’ve suffered from a mild-grade depression since I was a young child. I don’t know about that, but I don’t disagree with her. I self harmed. Razorblades & cigarette burns were my thing, and...
    Brokenpiecesthatsmile Brokenpiecesthatsmile 16-17, F 1 Response May 9

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    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    it's like i cant breath without a blade near me

    at all times over the last few day's iv'e been really close to cutting again here's a question for any other cutters out there do you ever get jealous of other cutters scars? i get that alot and it drives me to do it more i feel like i don't cut enough and i feel like my scars...
    BenjaminChapman BenjaminChapman 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7

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    Honestly idk how long I can take this.

    Everything hurts,I'm a mess,I'm always suicidal and it feels like I can't bear to lose someone else or get hurt again. I can't deal with the pain any longer. Idk how long I'll be alive.i promise I'm not asking for attention,I just feel like venting out,cause it helps me to vent...
    audriluvsall audriluvsall 16-17, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    I have social anxiety

    and it bothers me a lot....
    roother123 roother123 13-15, M Jun 15

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    I tried to OD on the 16th.

    I only remember taking the first few pills. Then I guess I ended up taking 1 bottle of Motrin pm 1 bottle of Tylenol pm and two bottles of Benadryl. I guess I called the hospital. I was in the parking lot there anyway. So, they said they called the police and ambulance and stuff...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F Jan 1

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    I hate when people as me

    if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    sydniedeannaa sydniedeannaa 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    Uncover Depressions

    whenever you feel low; think of something which makes you feel happy example roses or your favourite actor and smile and thank god that you still have the power to know that you are depressed
    giftafamily giftafamily 41-45 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    my diagnosis remains unclear to me cause ive

    been diagnosed with so many things.But i do suffer from depression.I do cut and burn myself. And my anxiety though ive never been diagnosed is relatively bad. Its crazy knowing that i can say that so simple and yet these three things have ruined my life along with psychosis...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    Agian..

    I cut agian. i did it last night, and about fifteen mintues ago. Last night because of the things my dad was saying, and tonight because of the things i heard and did during the day. if i get sad, or someone makes me sad, or says someting mean, its almost like i keep an inventory...
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    I've been getting angry

    and depressed again lately, because my so-called "mother" keeps babying this little foundling she took in, saying she has depression. And I've been feeling so hurt because she sees the tiny amount of depression *she* has, but when I was ready to kill myself and hurting myself...
    luna1912 luna1912 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    A Work In Progress

    As a kid, I was the one who used to stick his fingers into electrical appliances to get electrical shocks. I would crash my bicycle on purpose. I pulled out my own stitches the day after my appendix surgery. At school, I would staple my skin. I would dip fingers into boiling...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 4

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    Skpitt Skpitt 31-35, F Aug 11

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    Just when you think you're coming close to

    saying 'i'm okay', something always pulls you back down. Then it makes you query whether you were actually going to be 'okay' or whether it was your mind playing tricks on you because it knows that all you want is to be 'okay'. What is 'okay'? Does anyone really know what it's...
    JJSapphire JJSapphire 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Depression. It's a hole.

    It's a never ending hole. It's one of those things you can't get rid of. It's like a nasty addiction. It's always gonna be there. It will never go away. No matter how hard you or others try. There's always going to be a little voice in the back of your head that's saying you...
    urbanangel99 urbanangel99 13-15, M Mar 25

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 8 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    Right now I'm at that point

    where I just want to kill myself whenever I have a sad thought or bad urge to hate myself,I just wanna block out any sad feelings and get rid of them,it seems easier to die instead of fighting year after year.im tired and feel like it's been so long dealing with myself.and all...
    audriluvsall audriluvsall 16-17, F Jul 28

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    My experience to all these is

    because of bullying and deaths in my family people constantly put down on me I haven't self harms in months though because I made a promise to myself that I always feel like breaking.
    suicidal432 suicidal432 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 22

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    Sometimes people just never understand we don't

    do self harm because it is cool, because it is the new trend. We just can't ******* help it, I ******* hate myself, I do not want to see myself in the mirror. It surprises me that I am still alive no matter how many attempt I have made. My parents are oblivious, my "best friend...
    fragilityelegance fragilityelegance 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Its So Addicting

    I started cutting myself around 5 months ago. They started as just small little scratches, but the more I do it the deeper they become. Now the cuts bleed. I try so hard not to do it.. but it just becomes more addicting every time I do, then afterwords I feel ashamed of myself...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 6 Responses May 6, 2013

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    I'm here to help you,

    do not be afraid, I can save you from this path. I have been down it and found my way out. Do not fear. Message me if you need somebody to talk to.
    AnguishX AnguishX 16-17, M May 9

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    I'm really struggling right now.

    I saw that in the mail there's a Pepco termination pending. I just can't help the worrying. My mom says it's not my issue, but clearly it is when I live in this house and she's arguing with my dad. Clearly it's my issue. I just can't deal with it and I don't know what to do...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    Yea...

    I've had depression and anxiety problems for a long time since around 5th grade i think and my freshman year in High school I started cutting myself because a lot of stuff and I still do it today sadly but it helps too much to quit :/
    Lexiebear18 Lexiebear18 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    no matter how much or how many times people

    or really /a/ person really says they love me and want to make me happy and will protect me... I can't help but feel that they actually hate me and really don't want to be anywhere near me... and this feeling is killing me
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Bleeding Inside

    This group kind of sums up my problems. I have been depressed for almost 2 years, i suffer from severe anxiety, and i self-harm. i have had a lot of crap happen in my life and i just can't find a way to deal with it. i always blame myself for things that go wrong, and i always...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    I have struggled with depression ever

    since I was a preteen. When I entered into high school I thought I had finally beat depression. I was happy all the time and never felt that way. After high school I started dating this guy. I moved to new mexico but I missed him so much I moved home. We had to move into a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 25

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    Today im done. I dunno anymore.

    People dong see that their words hurt
    kenziezoee kenziezoee 16-17, F 1 Response May 15

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    I have depression. I need anyone under 18

    preferably a girl to talk to me I have cut myself multiple times due to depression I feel so alone no one talks to me my girlfriend I love but we live 3 gourde apart and my ***** *** parents won't take me there I'm only 14 so it's hard to earn a lot of money at my age if you...
    LGKolor LGKolor 18-21, M Jul 20

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    My story can be quite a long one, but to sum it up semi-quickly I had started cutting myself on my 16th birthday. I truly can't remember what had caused me to start, I just know...
    LostInALife LostInALife 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Through the vail of anonymity that is "The Internet", I am -as I press the letter keys in real time- apprehensive to share this part of me. I am alone in a bedroom full up with...
    homesickalien87 homesickalien87 26-30, M Aug 7

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    I suppose I was a little young to be feeling depressed, and that's why my parents never noticed. I mean, I was 14! What teenager has so many problems that they start to feel...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 26-30 4 Responses Aug 11

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    Yes, many people suffer serious mental issues such as depression, self harm, anxiety, bipolar disroder, etc. I am one of them. But what angers me the most is when people - mainly...
    MikBlack13 MikBlack13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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