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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    I honestly don't really know

    if it's official or not, and I don't want to go to a doctor. I think I'm fine managing by myself. I started to have bad anxiety/depression since last year, when the guy I liked used to do things that made me utterly insecure. I stayed up late at night crying to myself, and I...
    AwfullyRad AwfullyRad 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I honestly don't know

    where to start. I've been through so much these past few years and I only recently have got some help from a professional. If you want to know the whole story then message me.
    Hissa79 Hissa79 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    That's all that needs to be said.

    You want my full story? Message me.
    hs199 hs199 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    My counseling has been helping me some.

    My counselor told me to write down positive affirmations and put the paper somewhere I'll read it daily. So I wrote down lots of positive sayings like "I can make it through this" "I matter" "I love myself" "people love and care about me" and tons related to being assertive...
    SweetCyanide SweetCyanide 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Skpitt Skpitt 31-35, F Aug 11

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    I'm gonna go cut. Just know you aren't alone

    everyone.. Cuz I can't stop it
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17

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    Yea...

    I've had depression and anxiety problems for a long time since around 5th grade i think and my freshman year in High school I started cutting myself because a lot of stuff and I still do it today sadly but it helps too much to quit :/
    Lexiebear18 Lexiebear18 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    I tried to OD on the 16th.

    I only remember taking the first few pills. Then I guess I ended up taking 1 bottle of Motrin pm 1 bottle of Tylenol pm and two bottles of Benadryl. I guess I called the hospital. I was in the parking lot there anyway. So, they said they called the police and ambulance and stuff...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F Jan 1

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    Some times I do when I have nothing else to do,

    almost like an addiction...? Please don't judge me...
    justsmiles justsmiles 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    I remember the first time i cut myself.

    It felt right but in reality it was so wrong. A lot of people say that people cut themselves for attention but for some cases that is not what it's about at all. I didn't cut myself on my wrists, I cut myself on my stomach and on my thighs. Depression made me do it. I didn't...
    stinkyroony stinkyroony 13-15, F Jan 22

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    and here's why, this is not easy

    and only a handful of people know this but since I know no1 on here I can share this with relative ease.( still not easy tho) I am a bisexual evangelical conservative Christian, and a nudist, some quite contradictory things there I know, I have not shared these things within...
    Hippydude Hippydude 22-25, M Oct 23

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    So i joined here a few months ago

    but had a lot of male attention i didnt want or need. But im very low again atm and i need help, so i thought i would give this another go and hopefully find people who will help me out of this never ending black hole im in
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F Nov 8

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    So i thought i would post on here

    because i don't have anyone to talk to. So basically i'm 16, i have a lot of problems.. I am deeply depressed, i have bad anxiety/social anxiety, Insomnia, and i self harm. I'm just ****** up. So i try to keep these things to myself in the fear that people will judge me or look...
    FellInReverse FellInReverse 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I'm getting better but it still hurts a lot.

    I've been battling it for almost 2 years now...
    suicidalprincesss suicidalprincesss 13-15, F Aug 9

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    A Work In Progress

    As a kid, I was the one who used to stick his fingers into electrical appliances to get electrical shocks. I would crash my bicycle on purpose. I pulled out my own stitches the day after my appendix surgery. At school, I would staple my skin. I would dip fingers into boiling...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I've always been a gentle

    and quite person. I rarely got angry... I was just sad. I read about people who were always angry because of their depression. I never understood till now. I want to get into fights. I want to hit people and have them hit me back. I'm always biting my lip till it bleeds followed...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    My experience to all these is

    because of bullying and deaths in my family people constantly put down on me I haven't self harms in months though because I made a promise to myself that I always feel like breaking.
    suicidal432 suicidal432 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 22

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    I hate when people as me

    if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 5

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    Just when you think you're coming close to

    saying 'i'm okay', something always pulls you back down. Then it makes you query whether you were actually going to be 'okay' or whether it was your mind playing tricks on you because it knows that all you want is to be 'okay'. What is 'okay'? Does anyone really know what it's...
    JJSapphire JJSapphire 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    So I went to see my college counsellor today.

    Told him about how all the self mutilation and how I do everything to try and be happy (exercise, anti depressants, etc) and yet when it comes around to night time I just have to hurt myself. Even when I'm not upset for a particular reason. He just generalized me as if I'm like...
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 15

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    Does anyone wanna chat

    and listen to some of my favourite sad songs and just cry with me? As pathetic as that sounds it's better than grabbing the razor..
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M Nov 15

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    For any one of you is having a moment

    where you just cannot handle it anymore, play the song "Nocturne 20 in C-Sharp Minor" on repeat. It is extremely relaxing and is helping me get through so many serious issues. I love you all. Stay safe.
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M Oct 12

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    no matter how much or how many times people

    or really /a/ person really says they love me and want to make me happy and will protect me... I can't help but feel that they actually hate me and really don't want to be anywhere near me... and this feeling is killing me
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I have depression and ive had it

    for about a year but im clean with no cuts. Although ive had suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts everyday so my mom decided to put me in counselling and all the girl does is ask me not so important questions like: "Bring in your drawing book" Like seriously I get that you...
    KaylaBiskup KaylaBiskup 18-21, F Sep 16

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    I've tried my hardest to stop,

    to stay clean even for some days; but I can't...Everything hit me at once, my cutting and eating disorders are peaking up again, worst than ever. I know I should tell someone but...will they even try to understand? I told and I was betrayed, abandoned. I cried out for help and...
    RozzebellConta RozzebellConta 18-21, F Nov 14

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    Umm I'm just not happy

    where I am now. but I believe thing it will get better when it comes right time. Since I have my med Zoloft for treat with anti-depression and have an anixety. I hope so this med would help me with through this. I know thing pain comes in my life right now and it will makes me...
    xoshorty21 xoshorty21 22-25, F Aug 19

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    Honestly idk how long I can take this.

    Everything hurts,I'm a mess,I'm always suicidal and it feels like I can't bear to lose someone else or get hurt again. I can't deal with the pain any longer. Idk how long I'll be alive.i promise I'm not asking for attention,I just feel like venting out,cause it helps me to vent...
    audriluvsall audriluvsall 16-17, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    it's like i cant breath without a blade near me

    at all times over the last few day's iv'e been really close to cutting again here's a question for any other cutters out there do you ever get jealous of other cutters scars? i get that alot and it drives me to do it more i feel like i don't cut enough and i feel like my scars...
    BenjaminChapman BenjaminChapman 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 7

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    Bleeding Inside

    This group kind of sums up my problems. I have been depressed for almost 2 years, i suffer from severe anxiety, and i self-harm. i have had a lot of crap happen in my life and i just can't find a way to deal with it. i always blame myself for things that go wrong, and i always...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    Uncover Depressions

    whenever you feel low; think of something which makes you feel happy example roses or your favourite actor and smile and thank god that you still have the power to know that you are depressed
    giftafamily giftafamily 41-45 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    I've been hurting myself a lot lately.

    I really need to stop but it's getting so hard not to. Nothing takes away the pain of emptiness better than cutting..
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 13

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    I can't take it anymore.

    Relapsing so hard.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    And ,just because of all of that,

    don't expect me to be a cold hearted, dark, unloving, soulless person.
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F Oct 23

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    Its So Addicting

    I started cutting myself around 5 months ago. They started as just small little scratches, but the more I do it the deeper they become. Now the cuts bleed. I try so hard not to do it.. but it just becomes more addicting every time I do, then afterwords I feel ashamed of myself...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 6 Responses May 6, 2013

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    Never Ending Cycle

    Here I am four years sense my very first self inflicted cut, and no surpise my legs are slashed up. I've been in love with the same guy for three years, and the funny part it? He can't stand me. He just thought he liked me, flirted a few months and got me to open up to him. Now I...
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    I don't even care that I'm doing this again.

    I don't have any intention of stoping. I never tried stoping before.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    Agian..

    I cut agian. i did it last night, and about fifteen mintues ago. Last night because of the things my dad was saying, and tonight because of the things i heard and did during the day. if i get sad, or someone makes me sad, or says someting mean, its almost like i keep an inventory...
    depressedandanxious depressedandanxious 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 29

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    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 17

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 28

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    I find myself thinking more often

    than I should that it would be great to just sleep forever. I like sleep, it's death without the commitment.
    Anjura Anjura 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    GraceyD GraceyD 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    From when i was born to the age I was 9 I was

    the happiest kid on earth until everyone around me started dying. First a great aunt, then a cousin, then my great grandmother, then my teacher, then the one that hit me hard, was my grandpa. I always knew my father had drinking problems, but my grandpa was the one who always...
    laurenk2001 laurenk2001 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 9

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