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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    The pills help the anxiety,

    but the depression stays. i need something new and exiting.
    suddensouthmess suddensouthmess 18-21, M 2 Responses May 3, 2015

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    I don't know how to handle my anxiety

    and depression anymore. I feel so lost and different. I have so much going on in my mind lately I just don't know what to do. I just want all these bad feelings to disappear. My mind just goes on and on and on. Non stop. I have nights, many nights where I cant sleep because im...
    ashmuisc ashmuisc 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24, 2015

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    Harley4260 Harley4260 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    Every day is war to me,

    A struggle to obtain reality. A shower, my breakfast, putting on my shoes. It's hard to see the point some days, And no one has a clue. I have been deemed so many things, by those who wouldn't know. High maintenance, a worrier, A girl putting on a show. I've been trained...
    QueenAqua QueenAqua 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 25, 2015

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    I hate anxiety so much it stops me from

    everything, meeting new people, talking in class, going to family outings, even coming out to my parents UGH IT SUCKS
    tonythetaurus tonythetaurus 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    So um hi. I'm kinda new to this.

    .. I've never heard about it before but uh I guess I'm going to use this account for venting. So I've been battling depression since 7th grade and a few weeks ago they took me off my medication because my dad read something about it and said he didn't want me taking it. So I...
    ana10120 ana10120 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2015

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    Ive loat the plot i carnr tell my reality from

    non ffs kill me please or luck after me please xx
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2015

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    Just when you think you're coming close to

    saying 'i'm okay', something always pulls you back down. Then it makes you query whether you were actually going to be 'okay' or whether it was your mind playing tricks on you because it knows that all you want is to be 'okay'. What is 'okay'? Does anyone really know what it's...
    JJSapphire JJSapphire 18-21, F 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    Losing someone you love to the inner thoughts

    of there own mind. You know when you love a person so much and they think about the problems and not the relationship,they always say that it's better to wait. But if u know why it happened you can try again and this time u know what not to do.
    sasukeguns sasukeguns 16-17, F Jul 23, 2015

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    I'll be the one to put the bullet in your brain.

    I'll be the one to cause your fate, and in the end I'll be the to blame but when it's done I'll be your worst mistake.
    scars13 scars13 18-21, F Jan 26

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    night is the worst part of the day the feelings

    I'm trying to hide come out and I cry I cry till I'm weak and there's tears on my bed the pain I hide comes out at night and it scares me the pain I want to get rid of and hide
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2015

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    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    I hate when people as me

    if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    Killingmesoftly78 Killingmesoftly78 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    I have been binge eating all afternoon

    because my mom would rather work than be with me.
    secretchey secretchey 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    People don't understand

    that I can't just "be happy". I can't just "stop worrying". I trust very few people and hate life, even though I'm afraid of death and no one really enjoys talking to me...
    blacksnowflakeromance blacksnowflakeromance 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2015

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    shauna571 shauna571 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2015

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    I Don't Really Have A Title. :)

    I've always been kind of a loner. I never really had any friends, because I used to be extremely shy and I panicked whenever someone spoke to me. I still kind of have those issues.. Any who, I've always been anti-social and thought of as different. Grades third through eighth, I...
    Jofrow Jofrow 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    i dont have any ****** emotions i have no

    friends i have nothing to do any day because i have no one this is my life same thing day after day just drowning in my own depression and tears does anything really matter anymore my life is a rerun never stopping this emotional pain and suffering how long do i have to be...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 3, 2015

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    This Story Is Why I Have Depression, Anxiety, And Self-abuse Issues

    When I was in elementary school i remember I had some friends but I never felt like i was close to them, i never felt like they accepted me, or wanted to be my friend. On the first day of sixth grade in middle school, i felt some hope that my social life would improve; my mom let...
    JessicaC777 JessicaC777 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I just got into a fight with a friend

    and he stopped talking to me and I was really sad. And I used to do this thing where I would shove sharp objects between my gums whenever I got sad.. Because it felt good and also painful. I did it again so they're bleeding bad but ugh am I weird does anyone else do this?
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

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    I wanna let go now...

    I'm so sick of everything and I'm ready to give up and die. I just can't take it anymore.
    SarahLynn712 SarahLynn712 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

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    Nobody knows about it either.

    My friends, my family...or probably they do know but just shrugs it off and don't give a s-hit.
    Wren14 Wren14 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    I never know how I'm going to feel.

    when I feel my depression lifting some days I feel like things are genuinely going to get better but I always end up back here. Nobody understands my anxiety, I literally have no support system. I told my friend I felt really paranoid and anxious when we went out somewhere and...
    melissasweetheart melissasweetheart 18-21, F Feb 1

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 7 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    It's been several months

    since the last time I cut. But recently my depression has been getting worse and I don't know what to do. For the past week my urges to cut again have gotten stronger and it's on my mind constantly like it used to be. I don't know what to do anymore...
    MrMobos MrMobos 18-21, M 2 Responses May 26, 2015

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    I'm getting better :) I used to cut pretty often

    and I had it mostly stopped. I say mostly because whenever life got tough I started it again. Which just made me even more upset that I was doing it again after saying I wouldnt. But a year ago I met some really beautiful people that have made me feel so much better. I'm still...
    ShivaCrazy ShivaCrazy 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    I self harm my mom saw the cuts on my wrist

    and she cussed me out and said if I ever cut again she'll beat me so I cut where she wouldn't be able to see it. I have depression and anxiety and I'm just a total ******* mess I can't help it she said she don't get me she thinks I'm crazy but I'm not I'm just a ****** up mess...
    marie2020 marie2020 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2015

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    being let down makes me sad

    which in turn makes me want to cut/burn I don't want to fight it anymore I want my sweet release
    curioustiff curioustiff 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 4, 2015

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    And ,just because of all of that,

    don't expect me to be a cold hearted, dark, unloving, soulless person.
    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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    sunuii sunuii 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2015

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    i am only two days clean

    and i've been trying so hard to overcome this but i can't. it's so difficult and i'm so weak..
    holygoth holygoth 18-21, F Sep 20, 2015

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    For any one of you is having a moment

    where you just cannot handle it anymore, play the song "Nocturne 20 in C-Sharp Minor" on repeat. It is extremely relaxing and is helping me get through so many serious issues. I love you all. Stay safe.
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M Oct 12, 2014

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    I feel like I'm getting worse.

    I was better for about 4 months. It feels like I'm drowning in my thoughts. I've started cutting more frequently... It scares me. I just want someone to talk to that understands and doesn't judge me for what I'm going through.
    ltw1016 ltw1016 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    Hush little baby Don't you cry Don't cut your

    arm Don't say goodbye Put down the razor Put down the knife It may be hard But you'll win this fight <3
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Feb 23, 2015

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Tired of being alive.

    .. I wanna give up so bad...
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F Aug 12, 2015

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    I don't want to move back in with my family.

    But I have to because "I'm a danger to myself and others." The thought is unbearable.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 4, 2015

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    I'm so severely depressed.

    I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I just got done crying my eyes out because someone told me I'm nothing but an attention seeking confused girl/boy and that I'm not...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15, 2015

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