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I Have Depression, Anxiety, and Self-mutilation Issues

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    The End Too Near

    A mask of a smile. The stories they tell. Laughter unreal. Lies of hope. Dreams of a child, sunken away Gasping for air. Screams of help. Silenced cries. Feeling as though, there is nothing more. But life goes on, Is what they say. Yet the past is forever, the future too near...
    GraceyD GraceyD 18-21, F Jul 30, 2013

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    I Hate You More Than I Hate Myself

    this poem was inspired by the immediate reaction i have in my brain whenever i look at a razorblade..its a deep, haunting ache.. i see you i ignore you but its too late   hold my breath hold very still pretend i havent gone rigid   fear in my...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    I have been dealing with all of this

    since I was 10 I never have and never will be good enough
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    Ghosts and demons live inside us

    and sometimes they win. 😞 #depression#suicidal#self#harm
    depressedgirl2244 depressedgirl2244 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    And ,just because of all of that,

    don't expect me to be a cold hearted, dark, unloving, soulless person.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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    Idk how to even start this this is my first

    post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there but can't lend a ear for five minutes to hear my problems...where do I start...I'm going through a divorce from an abusive husband. I have...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Kinda getting sick of this app It's just all

    about people who are horny and **** Go to talk life it's better It's a app I recommend it For people like us
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Apr 3

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    I don't know how to handle my anxiety

    and depression anymore. I feel so lost and different. I have so much going on in my mind lately I just don't know what to do. I just want all these bad feelings to disappear. My mind just goes on and on and on. Non stop. I have nights, many nights where I cant sleep because im...
    ashmuisc ashmuisc 18-21, F a week ago

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    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    You Know You're Depressed,

    When you cry for no reason, when you talk to yourself, or even, when you think too Much..! =(
    Diana172 Diana172 13-15, F Mar 3

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    For any one of you is having a moment

    where you just cannot handle it anymore, play the song "Nocturne 20 in C-Sharp Minor" on repeat. It is extremely relaxing and is helping me get through so many serious issues. I love you all. Stay safe.
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M Oct 12, 2014

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    I need to stay strong.

    ....I can't let the little things get to me...I promised him I would try and I don't break promises.....So why do I keep ******* up
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Mar 3

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    I'm a popular girl friends with everyone at

    school . " You're so pretty , You're so gorgeous" is all I hear but when I look in the mirror I see different all I can do is cry I see a ugly little girl in that reflection. weigh about 135 but when I look at my self I see a girl who weighs 350 pounds I won't eat for days just...
    dasiy456 dasiy456 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile. But I don't like to cry in front of people. A week ago, I was told that I'm bipolar and could be a threat to anyone around me since I have really bad anger issues. It feels like everyone looks at me as if I'm a creep. I cant look in the mirror...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Uncover Depressions

    whenever you feel low; think of something which makes you feel happy example roses or your favourite actor and smile and thank god that you still have the power to know that you are depressed
    giftafamily giftafamily 41-45 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    My mother is an emotional-manipulator

    and my father.. well he isnt a good person.. he did things to me.. when I was little up until I was 12. Im 14 now, and I realize now that those things were bad. And Im so terrified. Im afraid to confess about this on this site, but I guess I just did, Im just afraid that this...
    ShiningSkies ShiningSkies 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Living For Today Is So Hard..

    i see people smile and laugh, they burst out with so much joy and excitement, but are they really happy? is anyone ever truly happy? what is happiness? well, i know it to be when im all alone and its silent. happiness! being alone. depression? yes. sighh.. i wish i cud be likie...
    kevinalex kevinalex 16-17, M 7 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    whole world around me has been crumbled.

    .. it feels lyk i m facing a doomsday....depressed very much:(
    mannankaur3 mannankaur3 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17

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    being let down makes me sad

    which in turn makes me want to cut/burn I don't want to fight it anymore I want my sweet release
    curioustiff curioustiff 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    I'm.finally getting help

    for my mental illnesses and this week has been a crazy roller coaster I haven't went to school because I honestly can't handle it right now Im finally working on fixing myself its going to be a long journey and there will be ups and downs but I have people I care about...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F May 13

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    Beauty In Blood Drops

    Swallowed by pain, drowning in a sea of lonliness. The cuts from the blade captivate me and once again, i become of prisoner of my own mistakes. The blood it blows down my hand, almost as if the pain were draining out of me with each ruby red droplet. A feeling of rebirth...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    Chloegirlx Chloegirlx 13-15, F Feb 16

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    Hush little baby Don't you cry Don't cut your

    arm Don't say goodbye Put down the razor Put down the knife It may be hard But you'll win this fight <3
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Feb 23

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    night is the worst part of the day the feelings

    I'm trying to hide come out and I cry I cry till I'm weak and there's tears on my bed the pain I hide comes out at night and it scares me the pain I want to get rid of and hide
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I don't want to move back in with my family.

    But I have to because "I'm a danger to myself and others." The thought is unbearable.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Just when you think you're coming close to

    saying 'i'm okay', something always pulls you back down. Then it makes you query whether you were actually going to be 'okay' or whether it was your mind playing tricks on you because it knows that all you want is to be 'okay'. What is 'okay'? Does anyone really know what it's...
    JJSapphire JJSapphire 18-21, F 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    The pills help the anxiety,

    but the depression stays. i need something new and exiting.
    suddensouthmess suddensouthmess 18-21, M 2 Responses May 3

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    I find it hard to even find the energy to get

    out of bed in the mornings, knowing all that awaits me is another day of the same bullshit that drove me to want to kill myself the day before. I don't cry, I'm too dry inside for that, I can't open up because I'm too cold inside for that. Fact is that this existence, my...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I'm so severely depressed.

    I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I just got done crying my eyes out because someone told me I'm nothing but an attention seeking confused girl/boy and that I'm not...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15

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    Harley4260 Harley4260 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    A Work In Progress

    As a kid, I was the one who used to stick his fingers into electrical appliances to get electrical shocks. I would crash my bicycle on purpose. I pulled out my own stitches the day after my appendix surgery. At school, I would staple my skin. I would dip fingers into boiling...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    I was diagnosed with mild aspergers 2 years

    ago with anxiety and depression caused by it besides being clumsy it makes it really hard to talk with people and causes me really severe anxiety
    remingtonrocks71 remingtonrocks71 31-35 Feb 16

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    Yea...

    I've had depression and anxiety problems for a long time since around 5th grade i think and my freshman year in High school I started cutting myself because a lot of stuff and I still do it today sadly but it helps too much to quit :/
    Lexiebear18 Lexiebear18 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    Its So Addicting

    I started cutting myself around 5 months ago. They started as just small little scratches, but the more I do it the deeper they become. Now the cuts bleed. I try so hard not to do it.. but it just becomes more addicting every time I do, then afterwords I feel ashamed of myself...
    TheOneNobodyEverKnew TheOneNobodyEverKnew 16-17, F 6 Responses May 6, 2013

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    It's been several months

    since the last time I cut. But recently my depression has been getting worse and I don't know what to do. For the past week my urges to cut again have gotten stronger and it's on my mind constantly like it used to be. I don't know what to do anymore...
    MrMobos MrMobos 16-17, M 1 Response May 26

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    Ill Beat It

    I have always been that kind of person who is always happy, had a lot of friends, and didnt care about a thing in the world. Last august i started to notice a change in that though. i had lost a lot of my friends, i had felt alone very often, and i was never happy. nor did i have...
    AllieAnn12 AllieAnn12 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Every day is war to me,

    A struggle to obtain reality. A shower, my breakfast, putting on my shoes. It's hard to see the point some days, And no one has a clue. I have been deemed so many things, by those who wouldn't know. High maintenance, a worrier, A girl putting on a show. I've been trained...
    BashfulBlue BashfulBlue 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate when people as me

    if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    I'm really struggling today.

    .... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too much!! It's so loud. I can't think. I'm shaking and I feel like I'm about to explode. I want to cut to make it go away...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Bleeding Inside

    This group kind of sums up my problems. I have been depressed for almost 2 years, i suffer from severe anxiety, and i self-harm. i have had a lot of crap happen in my life and i just can't find a way to deal with it. i always blame myself for things that go wrong, and i always...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I used to look at my double edged razor

    and see my best friend. I still would, I suppose, if I wasn't on a blood thinner for my heart. I have a wonderful supportive family and the greatest boyfriend but somehow, at night I still feel so alone. I'm afraid I'm pushing those closest to me away, I cry all the time and...
    BionicCarole1985 BionicCarole1985 26-30, F May 24

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    I go through enough of this stuff to understand

    that everyone needs someone to talk to you. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
    elinorm elinorm 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    I dont feel anything.

    If anything, worthlessness. I cant do anything. No one wants me or loves me and I'm not worth anyone's time.
    needtotellnow needtotellnow 16-17, F Mar 29

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    I Thought I Had Beaten All Of This

    All of this started when I was 13 and I kept it hidden that I was depressed and self harming. I was later diagnosed with high anxiety as well and after moving to a different school (a much better school in my opinion) I thought it was all over. I stopped cutting for two years...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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