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I Have Depression, I Think

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    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero 36-40 Oct 4, 2012

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    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F Sep 10

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    Who Knows Really

    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

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    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31, 2008

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    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    Related Experiences

    I know that I definitely have depression and I suffer desperately from suicidal thoughts, but I shouldn't! I have a generally loving family, I am doing well for someone who is...
    PinkWink PinkWink 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Judging by the title, I think I have depression. Depression follows 99% of my family. I have days where I don't give a damn about anything in the world and just want to lay down...
    PokewithasideofTurkey PokewithasideofTurkey 13-15, M Nov 5

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    So i believe that I have depression and anxiety(its been for a couple years now and I've researched both a LOT) and it's contributing to my self-harm problem. I used to self-harm...
    killeyj killeyj 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    So i thought i would post on here because i don't have anyone to talk to. So basically i'm 16, i have a lot of problems.. I am deeply depressed, i have bad anxiety/social anxiety...
    FellInReverse FellInReverse 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I tend to stare at my wall for hours on end.. Thinking about everything that iv done wrong all the bad decisions all the reasons why I'm not good enough
    lexiesempathy lexiesempathy 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I find myself thinking more often than I should that it would be great to just sleep forever. I like sleep, it's death without the commitment.
    Anjura Anjura 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    Yeah it's break down , melt down time, I don't know what I was thinking .... Anguish caused is anguish earned. Anyway I'm going to snuggle, get my paci, and cry myself to sleep...
    Hellokittybbgrl Hellokittybbgrl 31-35, F 18 hrs ago

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    I suffer depression bad...so hard to talk about to someone else as its awekward..well im posting this up...I have depression I think its almost severe..i pretend to be happy but im...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M Nov 14

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    I over-analyze depression. As we know when depressed we tend to over-analyze things and think too much. As you may or may not realize I have been overanalyzing depression during...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    Potential advantages of a mind prone to depression. Now I am not claiming that being depressed is good. Being depressed sucks big time. However, I am beginning to wonder whether...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 6

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    Bye Bye Halloween, Hello Depression. I think I have to give up going on... dare I say it ...on Halloween (MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR) to say inside and try and handle my emotions...
    RandomDudeFriend RandomDudeFriend 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 29

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No matter how bad i try to deny it or hide it...I still, no matter how bad ive tried fight it, have depression after all these years. Its like a dark cloud that just never goes...
    TheKingWizard TheKingWizard 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy. I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy. I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Am I...starting to feel NORMAL? Okay for those who don't know, I battle depression since childhood and got medical help because I had a chemical imbalance in my head. So they gave...
    RandomDudeFriend RandomDudeFriend 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    I've finally forced myself to take that drug lexapro for my depression per doctors advise. Doctor said it was to boost my confidence and help with my anxiety. After day five, I'd...
    feint30 feint30 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 9

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    I had depression in 11th grade but eventually it simmered down that year. I went to the doctor today and it turns out I have depression again. FML. I don't have time for...
    indosavior indosavior 18-21, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    you know yeah I have depression! yeah there I said it... is it full blow no... I still think you need to keep moving on there is a light blue sky around the bend. Don't give up I...
    dailyguyboyjr dailyguyboyjr 22-25, M Nov 10

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    Really bad anxiety, maybe not depression I think that's pushing it. I've got some really great friends who know about my issues but it comes down to the fact that no one can help...
    leah089 leah089 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate it when people say they're depressed, or they think they have depression, because their partner split with them, or they have extra homework. Just because you get a problem...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    I look at the experiences in this section today, and I feel overwhelmed. I want to help. I am reading the Dalai Lama's book "The Art of Happiness" in which he stresses compassion...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 28

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    I'm so lonely I think I have depression and I don't know what to do because I don't want my parents to find out because they will be upset. I'm trying to make friends at my new skl...
    ddiiaannaa1998 ddiiaannaa1998 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 19

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    I haven't been able to sleep in a long while now. It's becoming frustrating and I've sought treatment options. None of it worked. My doctor pointed out it could be linked to...
    NeoxExor NeoxExor 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I have random tremors that occur especially when I talk to my friends or hang out with them I have mini tremors that feel like they're inside my abdomen. I feel like my speech is...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    Okay so when I was first born my mom had thought she rushed the relationship because three years earlier my mom got pregnant unexpectedly anyway when I was seven my dad married the...
    whysaybye whysaybye 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    I was first diagnosed with transverse myelopathy in 1999 and my neurologist at the time gave me gabapentin and told me it would eventually go away and never come back. Well, it...
    manypenguins manypenguins 56-60, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    When I hear that I say - NO. I DO NOT ACCEPT THAT. DO. NOT. And this goes to EVERYONE who feels this way. I do too. I'm not that idiot who thinks they know what they are taking...
    Masqurade Masqurade 13-15, F a week ago

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    Ever since primary, no one cared about my feelings, no one cares even if I was sick in school, no one cared about my statuses like this one. Technically, I don't have depression...
    deejayweishan deejayweishan 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I honestly hate my mom so much she has nothing ever good to say about ANYTHING. She's incredibly judgemental and a total hypocrite. Overall she's the definition of nasty, I have...
    sadcuzofmom sadcuzofmom 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    When I lie in bed I think a lot. Thinking leads to worries of the future. And will I have nightmares today? Thinking in process...
    Rianxax Rianxax 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 6

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    I'm so thrilled to say I'm actually gaining some self-esteem without feeling guilty about it. Man, this is such a freeing thing. Usually when I feel like asserting myself I think...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F Nov 10

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    It sucks how my best friend is. All he worries about is finding his next boyfriend and he goes threw them faster than he changes socks and says the same thing about all of them" oh...
    Sparkles4Soul Sparkles4Soul 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    When you told me you loved me, I knew you were just kidding around. You must know what love is, before you say it. Loving someone doesn't mean you get to hurt them like they don...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Seeing how many people are so deadset against legalization and marijuana in general really irks me. I am not going to post a big rant, but marijuana and industrial hemp both can...
    ranchlife14 ranchlife14 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    me too!!! but I have to keep thinking it will pay off in the long run!
    butterflykisses1 butterflykisses1 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I have an insane crush on a boy at school, but I know I will never have him. I think about this constantly, in fact, I torture myself over it.
    RyderSebastian RyderSebastian 16-17, M 1 day ago

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