I Have Depression, I Think

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 20, 2008

    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 31, 2008

    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191
    13-15, F
    Apr 25, 2014
    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2015

    Who Knows Really

    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222
    16-17, F
    Sep 10, 2014

    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh
    18-21
    1 Response Oct 14, 2010

    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero
    36-40
    Oct 4, 2012

    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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