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I Have Depression, I Think

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    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

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    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31, 2008

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    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F Sep 10, 2014

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    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191 13-15, F Apr 25, 2014

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    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero 36-40 Oct 4, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    NOTE: I already wrote this and posted it a while ago but I wanted to edit it, and EP's edit feature is bunk right now, so I deleted and posted againOk, y'all ready for another rant...
    BlueMetalChick BlueMetalChick 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I really do. See I'm noticing a pattern with my Last couple of partners. 1. Kendall - Absent Father. Overbearing mother. 2. Tara - Super close to her Father, Abusive Mother. 3. My...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    ILLEGAL IMMIGRATION. Take the time to look at what is happening in Calais France... This is for those that called me Racist...I wont forgive them as you probably can tel by my...
    LorenzoITALIA LorenzoITALIA 46-50, M 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Just spent 1hr talking on the phone with my friend cause she called me and she was depress and she was having bad thoughts and she said she was afraid of hurting herself so she...
    ImTheQueenFYM ImTheQueenFYM 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    I think people often underestimate what depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 17 hrs ago

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    I've always been told, "Ignorance is bliss." I certainly believe the opposite to be true. Intelligence, at least for me, has led to depression. I suffer from depression for a...
    ProfessorPhoton ProfessorPhoton 26-30, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I really want to see a therapist. I want someone to talk to and I feel like this is eating me alive. BUT I have two issues that is keeping me from seeking help, myself and my...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm a 34m, with serious depression. I have aspbergers autism and I make social mistakes all the time. I've worked very hard and with my parents support got my Bachelors degree in...
    solitas777 solitas777 26-30 1 day ago

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    I AM STRONG I am strong, If dad hits mom, I'll step in the middle, I'll stop it as much as I can, I am strong, If mom have depression, Said she's Mary, mother of Jesus, I'll just...
    jalybry423 jalybry423 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hi I would like to vent a bit.I was going to put I have husband who thinks he knows everything.But also my in laws think they know everything too.It bothers me a lot.Here is...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 3 days ago

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    I realise now I have had 3 mild TGA experiences that seem to have got stronger each time spread over a period of 5 years and I'm only 40 years old. All have been after using the...
    Foodngrooves Foodngrooves 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I have severe depression and I am self conscious.I cry every night and I've attempted suicide 2 times.Im not Comfortable in my own skin.I don't like my face I think I'm too fat.I...
    BrandonDay BrandonDay 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    What! You mean it's as easy as thinking positive thoughts ... Gee, l never knew. .that's where I've been going wrong! I'm getting rather tired of the assumptions that postive...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 10 Responses 4 days ago

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    I think it's been a bit over 5 years, but that depends on when I should count that it started. It esentially started with a semi-trauma. Maybe a bit before that but holy damn did...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've seen this question before... What is depression like? Now, it may not be the same for everyone. Depression varies in intensity, in length, in type. For some, like me, it's a...
    bluerose2218 bluerose2218 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Feed up with people thinking they've got depression just cause daddy won't buy them something or they don't get paid enough for the work they do!!, depression isn't about money or...
    ncfctom94 ncfctom94 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm not blaming anybody but myself for where I am and the circumstances I have to face in my life. It's not my parent's fault, nor is it my friend's fault. It's my fault. I own it...
    Noregrets5 Noregrets5 41-45, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do you ever wish that something would happen to you, like an accident or a sickness or something that would just end it all for you so you didn't have to.. I think about it a lot
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 12 Responses 6 days ago

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    Losing someone you love to the inner thoughts of there own mind. You know when you love a person so much and they think about the problems and not the relationship,they always say...
    sasukeguns sasukeguns 16-17, F a week ago

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    This statement for me is not yet true but that doesn't mean it never will be. There are times when I think to my self "Amber, stop kidding your-self, you have been depressed for...
    amberblueford15 amberblueford15 13-15, F Jul 22

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    My daughter has been diagnosed with PMDD, I always knew she had problems since she started her periods. She is now 32 and 3 years ago she had an ectopic pregnancy which resulted...
    Jpbkf1957 Jpbkf1957 56-60, F Jul 22

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    The first time i was hospitalized for depression was when i was 18 yo. I was "formed" or put in against my will. You are "formed" when you are either a danger to yourself or a...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    Im in love with some i cant have. But i think she may like me. How do i know? What do i say?
    abbywalls20 abbywalls20 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    I haven't been thinking about anyone so much for such a long time. Every day, literally every minute of it. I want it to stop. But I really love her. I don't care so much whether...
    asami13 asami13 16-17, F Jul 20

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    I've written an experience in this group before, but things have changed somewhat since then. My wife goes back and forth with her support of my polyamorous desires, most of...
    virignis virignis 26-30, M Jul 19

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    I think when my depression first started a couple of years ago is when my faith began to diminish. People with a strong sense of faith handle depression a lot better I think. They...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F Jul 19

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    I come here a lot since I am disabled and have tons of my own problems. It does a lot of good reading and replying to the posts here. I sometimes just give younger people an off...
    boldtimer boldtimer 66-70, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    and it is just a normal human emotion. So is depression, mood swings, and stress. We are so programmed to want to be "normal," and "okay." But the truth is, human emotions are...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I'm studying to be an art teacher and want to teach in a high school. But how can I be a teacher when I have my own problems? I want to be the kind of teacher that not only gives...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    You can conquer depression. I chose the experience above as I want this story to be posted on the search string. I want people to know that when you are depressed it may feel like...
    riseandshine18 riseandshine18 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    Oh my god this is actually so bad I'm freaking out right now and I wanted to talk to somebody until I realized that I had absolutely no one to talk to even on the Internet and I...
    LopsidedLollipop LopsidedLollipop 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Why aren't some people more actively involved in helping others? I'm not saying that one should dedicate every second of every day to others. But, why is it even a question in most...
    Mfudgie Mfudgie 31-35, F Jul 16

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    When I was young and dumb, I once drove a VW off the side of the road , coming to rest between two trees about fifteen feet off the ground. I was drunk and lived in a small...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16

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