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I Have Depression, I Think

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    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F Sep 10

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    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31, 2008

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    Who Knows Really

    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

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    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero 36-40 Oct 4, 2012

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    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    I know that I definitely have depression and I suffer desperately from suicidal thoughts, but I shouldn't! I have a generally loving family, I am doing well for someone who is...
    PinkWink PinkWink 18-21, F Nov 24

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    If you had have asked me a year ago what depression was, I would have given you that same old answer about how it just seems to be a thrown around term for people who "get a bit...
    Georgiana72 Georgiana72 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I took an online test after feeling depressed and having anxiety and seeing a couple different therapists over a year's span of time and the results are in the cover image. I've...
    lstill lstill 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Yeah it's break down , melt down time, I don't know what I was thinking .... Anguish caused is anguish earned. Anyway I'm going to snuggle, get my paci, and cry myself to sleep...
    Hellokittybbgrl Hellokittybbgrl 31-35, F Nov 26

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    I am about to open my heart completely in here. Today I am living one of the worst days of my life and yes. It's depression, this ghost that has been haunting my life for a long...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    So I wanted to start writing about my story because I just feel like if there was one person out there who understood what I was going through it would be easier. I can't tell you...
    JaneEbony JaneEbony 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy. I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses Nov 22

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy. I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I suffered from depression and severe anxiety from the time I was eight years old. A lot of it had to do with my dad, I was also bullied, antisocial, had a lack of friends, and...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    12.2.14 Sometimes i wonder. Wonder if anyone really cares. Cares like i do. I wonder if they ever lie there at 2:00 in the morning thinking like i do. Im not trying to make...
    celiiaa celiiaa 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Really bad anxiety, maybe not depression I think that's pushing it. I've got some really great friends who know about my issues but it comes down to the fact that no one can help...
    leah089 leah089 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 22

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    I'm so lonely I think I have depression and I don't know what to do because I don't want my parents to find out because they will be upset. I'm trying to make friends at my new skl...
    ddiiaannaa1998 ddiiaannaa1998 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 19

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    it's hard to move on, when everyone knows your past, my dirty secrets. I wish it remained a secret. I wish, I could just smile to people and not carry around a sign I have...
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    From the time that I was 7 years old, I have been medicated. I have been on 30+ drugs my entire life. First was Ritalin, that made me a walking zombie. From then on anti...
    sicknfaith83 sicknfaith83 31-35, F Dec 2

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    Trying so hard to reach out for help, but every person I reach out to is writing me off and making me feel even worse. I don't know if it's these pregnancy hormones that have me...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    When I hear that I say - NO. I DO NOT ACCEPT THAT. DO. NOT. And this goes to EVERYONE who feels this way. I do too. I'm not that idiot who thinks they know what they are taking...
    Masqurade Masqurade 13-15, F Nov 20

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    Ever since primary, no one cared about my feelings, no one cares even if I was sick in school, no one cared about my statuses like this one. Technically, I don't have depression...
    FriendlyDragon FriendlyDragon 13-15, F Nov 22

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    I honestly hate my mom so much she has nothing ever good to say about ANYTHING. She's incredibly judgemental and a total hypocrite. Overall she's the definition of nasty, I have...
    sadcuzofmom sadcuzofmom 13-15, F Nov 25

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    I have been struggling with thoughts of divorce. I am currently 23 and have been married about two years. I have recently started thinking about divorce. I have also been...
    GoldenAbyss GoldenAbyss 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10

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    When you told me you loved me, I knew you were just kidding around. You must know what love is, before you say it. Loving someone doesn't mean you get to hurt them like they don...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    I have a few actually. The two I use most are ceramic pieces from Korea that have matching steepers/strainers for loose leaf. Has anyone heard of Kintsugi? Some of the other tea...
    LOMD LOMD 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    I haven't stopped thinking about him since I saw him earlier this month. I wasn't going to go to the event because I knew he'd be there, but at the last moment I changed my mind. I...
    SukYoung SukYoung 26-30, F Nov 29

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    A few years ago, I moved from the east coast of the United States to the southwest to go back to university after taking a year long break from school, and I didn't know a single...
    uglyhands uglyhands 22-25, F Dec 4

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    So I have a very specific problem that I can't go a day without thinking about. I have this disorder called episodic ataxia type 2, and if you haven't heard of it (which is likely...
    theskyisarainbow theskyisarainbow 16-17, M a week ago

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    me too!!! but I have to keep thinking it will pay off in the long run!
    butterflykisses1 butterflykisses1 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I have an insane crush on a boy at school, but I know I will never have him. I think about this constantly, in fact, I torture myself over it.
    RyderSebastian RyderSebastian 16-17, M Nov 25

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    I have been reading a lot of your guys comments and I don't come here that often being the one needing to discuss this particular topic. Right now I'm having issues that I might...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Damn! I am so lucky that I haven't. You think I'd start wearing condoms!
    jbc62 jbc62 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have struggled with depression for upwards of 5 years now. It comes and goes, sometimes I can go for weeks without feeling especially down, but once it starts again, it doesn't...
    meandthemoon13 meandthemoon13 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I’m not crazy. I’m not dumb. I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t need to be taught a...
    FadingStar17 FadingStar17 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    Everyday in my mind is an endless battle. think of it as the 300 spartans, they never gave up but in the end they didnt win the battle. I'm slowly losing my battle with depression...
    Palavo88 Palavo88 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    This past week has been really depressing again. I don’t even know where to start. I don’t really want anyone to read or comment on this, I just need to write it off my chest...
    Rebelgian Rebelgian 22-25, F Dec 1

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    I've just come to the realization that I don't believe in chronic depression...? Given my family's alleged history with "chronic depression" it seems odd but... I just don't. Part...
    mlynnikens mlynnikens 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I am in my 50's, and I've had questions all my life about my very early childhood. Considering I've had these questions in some form for as long as I can remember, I can't help...
    CatloverDG CatloverDG 56-60, F Nov 29

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    I think everything is connected - especially when I am stressed. I tend to think things connect that have no relationship to each other.
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 hr ago

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    Some of you men may be able to somehow relate to my story headline, so you probably know how much it sucks when you've had the worst luck with women. As a man in my 30s, I have...
    dude2278 dude2278 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 20