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I Have Depression, I Think

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    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero 36-40 Oct 4, 2012

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F Sep 10, 2014

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    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2015

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    Who Knows Really

    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

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    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31, 2008

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    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191 13-15, F Apr 25, 2014

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    Waking up in the middle of the night and being unable to sleep. What was it, 3 am? Many nights I will wake up spontaneously during. But typically if the lights are on I just fall...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    For at my lowest of low, I found my humanity. From the pits of my hell, I saw the world from a fresh perspective. Though I may wonder what might've been, I'll be forever grateful...
    RogueLogic2 RogueLogic2 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I knew her for five years, we got to know each other after she got hired where I worked. She was twenty years younger than me. She was pretty and smart, I had a tiny crush on her...
    andyreed andyreed 51-55, M 2 hrs ago

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    I mean, I have. But I think It's not a relationship. it took only about a month or less. And it's on and off kind of commitment. No proper yes' and no's, thank you's and goodbye's...
    cjg1289 cjg1289 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    While four-year-old Alfie loves ­dinosaurs, fire engines and cars, Logan prefers sparkly dresses, wands and Frozen’s Princess Elsa.But what makes their differences all...
    janecool janecool 16-17, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Part of the reason I have been able to overcome this recent battle with depression is being on here, seeing that I am not alone, resisting the urge to isolate, seeing so many...
    NatalieR13 NatalieR13 31-35, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I feel like depression is slowly becoming a trend in society, where teenagers think it's cool. It's almost like everybody just EXPECTS teens to be depressed, like its normal...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    It's really dirty and, frankly, quite depraved secret of mine... During the sleepless nights, under the blanket, in the atmosphere of absolute secrecy... oh, I just can't afford...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 5 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Date Night is one of my favorite movies. I can see how the title might be misleading and have judgmental others think it is a mega-romantic movie when it isn't that at all. The...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I started taking medication for my depression about 8 years ago, though I suffered from it for at least 10 years prior to that. I would try a medicine, slowly have it upped and...
    Ikid Ikid 22-25 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I battled depression. My best friend, however, battles depression. I'll start at the beginning of the story, when I was 12/13. I met this boy who would turn out to be my best...
    Plouton3600 Plouton3600 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Obviously I am afraid of more than three things, but these three are huge ones. First there is my fear of heights. I always say I want to die with my feet planted firmly on the...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    This is straight from my dream journal this morning. I forgot some details before I remembered to write it down........ Me and Lorde had a competition. Sonja put plastic bags in...
    CandySlayerrsMainHo CandySlayerrsMainHo 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Isn't it peculiar... when you already know or rather have a tiny sampler of the afterlife, if you had NDE... and still thinking of suicide. After 15 years of suicidal depression I...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I really think the exercising is making a huge difference in my mood, and I am finally overcoming my seasonal depression this year! The image above shows a spreadsheet summarizing...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    In 2009, my father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and was given a 3% survival chance of longer than a year. My world was crushed, I couldn't lose my daddy. He went through...
    kmhitz kmhitz 22-25, F 10 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression from a broken heart is one of the common depression, and what makes it interesting is that it's not easy to notice when that person is sad and people would feel very...
    Tagstar2000 Tagstar2000 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    Is it a mystery why "I Battle Depression" is like the most popular thing on here? For my fellow Depressees... I hope this can be a light in your dark tunnel... Or maybe this is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I find in my own depression over time there were roughly three or four distinct stages of depression, and different things worked or did not work depending on which stage I was in...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I see so many people in deep depression close to suicidal or suicidal in this group. And it breaks my heart, and I wish to help if I can. So here is what worked for me when I was...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    I feel like my good grades show how well and fast i have learned to cram information. Teachers seem to focus more on getting things done rather than teaching the information in a...
    Lacrimosadies Lacrimosadies 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I wonder if EP will have an export option for all the experience I have written. I think I've written enough and I won't be happy they get lost with EP when they stop the service.
    katsuobushi katsuobushi 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 30

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    My husband and I have had a terribly rocky last three years together. He's cycled, going from adoring me to blaming me; he's begged me to stay and he's insisted I leave. He's...
    FakeIsTheNewReal FakeIsTheNewReal 31-35, F Jan 29

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    I thought I'd grow out of it by now, but I've gotten better at controlling it. I can get away through a good movie, relatable music, art, going out, etc. depression is for me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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    I HAVE MADE IT! I was feeling depressed lately because of my health and not being able to do anything for myself anymore. I can't even get in and out of the bathtub to get a bath...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses Jan 28

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    People think Depression is sadness and crying but people are wrong Depression is the constant feeling of being numb being numb to emotions being numb to life you wake up in the...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    I would never act on it but I can't help but feel like I want to die. I feel so stressed all the time because of school and money. I just can't bring myself out of this. All I do...
    dancinglawn dancinglawn 22-25, F Jan 28

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    I get really worried that i post in this group too much but i don't know where else to go most of the time Anyway i just posted about this topic in the Anxiety group but this is...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    Depression sucks, right now I'm wading through a bought of depression/anxiety. Literally one moment I feel fine, the next moment my chest is wrenching with anxiety. I know the...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 Jan 27

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    "Tell me this," my bff said, taking a sip of wine and chasing it down with a gulp of cappuccino, "what does happiness mean?" What does happiness mean?, I thought for a flash of...
    Solegne Solegne 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I grew up with out a dad (Another black kid without a dad isn't that something). When I was a child I lost my dad to a horrific incident. Sometimes I feel like I'm just like my dad...
    WillieCaesar WillieCaesar 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Ugh, i dont even know anymore, somedays ill be fine, the next ill be back to square one and feel horrible, random panic attacks like today, with no apparent provocation. Im...
    Ashley318 Ashley318 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 25

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