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I Have Depression, I Think

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    I just always hate myself i cry to much

    and on multiple occasions have tried to kill my self. And i still am. I know the person i like will never like a person like me, and that makes it worse. Moreover my family is having money issues.i literally cant even deal with my life anymore! I just want someone to help me!
    eevee191 eevee191 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    The Never Ending Tunnel

    It's there again. The dark tunnel. I can feel it. Just like you can see something out of the corner of your eye, i can feel it in the corner of my mind. Its dark, and empty and sad and angry and illogical. I hate it. But its always there. And it's getting closer. Because i just...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    My doctor said I most likely have depression,

    and it runs in my family, so there's a good chance. Let's hope I never let it get to me.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F Sep 10, 2014

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    I Don't Know If It's Depression

    but since I have doubts, I prefer to post. I know there're different ways to react when depressed, even if most commomly people cry or are apathetic. I'm none, am able to work, to enjoy, or relax. What makes me doubt is I don't do many things I usually like to do. I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31, 2008

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    So I found this "game" through a website of

    mine. Its http://www.depressionquest.com/. It's kind of like one of those choose your own adventure books. And can you say trigger? Holy ****. I feel like I could have written the dialogue. Now I'm sitting here, crying, with my heart pounding, because I know EXACTLY what they...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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    I Often Feel Like Gollum - Soul Of The Shade

    Gollum moods, utter uncomfortable seasons like spring & summer (I call depression often 'black dogs' too and these seasons seem to intensify it...I even can't stand the heat, sweat like horse), too much lonelyness...Trauma & childhood abuse background, Ptsd...Low self esteem too...
    mcdreamero mcdreamero 36-40 Oct 4, 2012

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    Who Knows Really

    i don't know how long I've been sad for. It has been a really long time though. I've thought of killing myself before. I cut myself. Just over time, it kinda goes up and down of how i feel. Sometimes i feel like dying, other times I'm just not very energetic. I've looked at...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2007

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    Genetics

    Is it possible for someone to inherit depression from a parent? I feel like that may be my case. I know I have chronic migraines because of my father (he's had them from 5 years old until he was 40). The first migraine I had was when I was at my kindergarten graduation and I...
    bubbleskrh bubbleskrh 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    I have had zero energy ever since Christmas ended. All I want to do is sleep. The only thing I can think that triggered my depression was lack of sleep. But I'm going to use this...
    tlee5001 tlee5001 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    No one likes me. I have indeed let them down. The question is now, "Do I leave while they drown?" If I am already dead should I save the living? I am never not afraid. I am always...
    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F Jan 1

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    This is a question but I'm posting it as an experience because it's long . I've had bipolar depression & I'm a very troubled teen . I have mild BDD and I've been getting over...
    laquilamarie laquilamarie 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 20

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    I was diagnosed with depression after my best friend died in a car crash that I was suppose to be in. It's hard for me to admit I have depression because it makes me think I'm...
    Tristag8 Tristag8 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I have depression and I don't think it's selfish. I mean why is it selfish? I didn't ask for it! it comes and hits me and that **** feels like the whole world is crashing down on...
    sadmistak3 sadmistak3 18-21, F Jan 4

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    So I've been self harm free for 4 months now. That's the longest I've been since I started when I was 17. I would strangle myself with belts, scarves, cords, or whatever I could...
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Guilt is bullsh*t. You may not do what you ideally would like to do in a daily basis. You may set your goals too high regarding the state you're in. It can help motivate you or it...
    aloneforlong aloneforlong 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I battle depression. Everyone thinks I'm so happy but guess what, I'm not. I just wished I had someone to talk to. So I wouldn't feel so alone.
    PleaseeHelpMee PleaseeHelpMee 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I met a girl at the concert I recently attended. Well, I didn't actually meet her there, I met her on Instagram the day afterwards. We've talked pretty much non-stop since we met...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Two of the girls here on my trip were freaked about this scar I have. I told them a fake story and they believed it and we joked about it, so they don't know that I actually carved...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    The time is nearing for me to do this. After passing my seventeenth birthday the adult life and demands are seeping in, and life is becoming even more cruel. I always fight to get...
    maurylight maurylight 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I basically think about sex from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed. I think what happens is, if you don't have sex you think about it more. The lack of sex blows...
    beensolong115 beensolong115 46-50, M Jan 17

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    you know how people say. "don't say something unless you mean it"? well, for me, the same goes for, "don't say sorry unless you mean it" like... so many people say sorry for...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    How do you stop thinking of someone that's under your skin?Someone you can't have ?Someone you think you want ? How do i Stop I have been trying everything...
    peachy115 peachy115 51-55, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    There is no sexual identity page. Maybe anyone here can recognize my confusion and help? I am a 19 year old girl. I have only ever liked guys, but have recently been thinking that...
    ThinkingCat ThinkingCat 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am dying inside. I know it's dumb and kind of a very little thing but my best friend is going to the hospidal. She is in bad condition the hospidal said she has three months to...
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    When mother is pregnant with me, she and my father would always fight each other. My father is a drunkard and has a lot of issues of his own and my mother is a perfectionist. Even...
    ItGirl111 ItGirl111 26-30, F 4 Responses 53 mins ago

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    Ive been sitting here wasting my time over first world problems. I think its time to grow up and chase my dreams and goals. I cant be like this forever. I will change for the...
    Savagez Savagez 13-15, M 5 hrs ago

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    I keep ignoring texts from the one friend I know in person who bothers to text me. I can't seem to help it. It's not her, I like talking to her. It's just too much effort maybe, or...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    i promise to my self that i will be what i want , i will be what i wanna be and i will make my self proud of my self , i will make me smile because of me, the problem is "WILL...
    onikaa onikaa 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    The road to my diagnosis was a long and rocky journey. I've had problems with depression since I was a teenager. My parents just wrote it off as me being a moody kid. During my...
    Imagine20 Imagine20 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Lately I've been struggling with my depression, it's been getting to a point where my suicidal tho have kicked back into high gear. I've never felt quite as hopeless and useless a...
    EpicChick22 EpicChick22 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I haven't figure out if this is bipolar or depression. It's so hard to figure out because I was raised in a depressed, negative, abusive environment, and I was bullied a lot -- so...
    ChellyRocker ChellyRocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I do a lot a thinking... Mostly constructive or reflection on past events which allows me to learn and grow from past mistakes... But I've got a strange way of doing.. I usually...
    h4n5dj22 h4n5dj22 26-30, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    A time before I was truly depressed, I was worried about depression. I thought I was happy, bubbly, I liked living. Those moments where I would stare in the bathroom mirror with an...
    BridieNM BridieNM 13-15, F Jan 1

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    I share this in hopes that it will help at least one person. No matter what you're going through just know that there are more people than expected who can relate. Hopefully this...
    stargazerxo stargazerxo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    I need to somewhat write a rant or write down my feelings, I decided to do it on here, idk why though since nobody even gives a ****. It'll probably be long.. anyways. I feel hurt...
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 4

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    One of the worst things someone ever said to me was, "how can you be depressed when you have everything". We're told we're selfish because they believe we don't appreciate what we...
    willibemissed willibemissed 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I am holding back tears. I'm so happy. So many good things happening for me. Lost 15 pounds. Decided to weigh myself yesterday and im 15 pounds lighter from my last weigh in...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    The Demons At My Door. I have another doctors appointment today and I don't want to go. Fighting the need and the want to go. I am trying to lay in my bed and get all the demons...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I feel as if my mind works differently. I am suffering, hard; from depression. I can't help but think such negative things. I lay awake at night thinking there's someone out to get...
    undeadsuperhero undeadsuperhero 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    So I’m going through a depressive and negative stage at the moment. I can’t say it’s the worst type you can or that I experience. I yet had the moment to truly cry and say...
    BogdanBolinski BogdanBolinski 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    Wow! Violated doesn't even begin to describe how I feel right now!! I was catfished by a girl by the name of "plunkedd" on okcupid! She was using pictures of a Russian model and I...
    idciloveit idciloveit 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I have been in depression once when I was 5. I know its a young age but I actually had to take pills. But no I'm have never been in depression again. But I always hear people say...
    AlexV0707 AlexV0707 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I'm never completely over my depression. It's always there and some nights it hits me worse than before. Tonight is one of those nights. I've thought about how I don't want to live...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    False. Depression and selfishness go hand in hand. Withdrawing from the world hurts the people we love. What is more selfish than wallowing in self-pity? Most of us want to...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 3

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    I have been hiding out for a couple of days. Some friends came to visit. Actually I will call them acquaintances not friends, because I don't like them at all. I know hate is a...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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