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I Have Derealization

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    does anyone else here get the feeling

    that somehow tv and movies and stuff like that are more real than reality? i get that a lot. when everything feels distant and weird and not right, fiction is so much more real to me. stuff fits to music and the plot is coherent and the camera angles are better. i get the...
    debaeca debaeca 16-17, F Nov 9

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    Srsly.. All Try This! :)

    Hello! :) I am suffering from this idiotical illness for almost 2 years now and I have found a method, that helps me get through the panic attack, when it comes. I haven't beaten the Derealization/Anxiety fully yet, but still this is such a progress for me. :) Hope this helps to...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F Apr 1, 2013

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    Manageable

    Hi yall. It has been a while since I said my derealisation was unbearable. I indeed felt inhuman. I still feel derealised but I think it is manageable now. I know I lost my faith in God because of this but sometimes that is all I have even if I have to force it. It is so obvious...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 7, 2013

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    All these unanswerable questions we ask to

    ourselves like what is life? what is existence? what is anything? what the f#ck is going on? are questions that you are not going to find the answer too, not in this life. you can waste your whole life wondering about them and die unsatisfied and empty. while i thought about...
    rorygallagher97 rorygallagher97 18-21, M May 6

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    My life changed my junior year in high school.

    It started out like every other year. I went to school everyday and did my work like everyone else. Two weeks after school started I wanted to satisfy my curiously to try cocaine. I was always falling asleep in class so I wanted something to pick me up and I also wanted to feel...
    powerfulsentences powerfulsentences 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    I'm Just Not There.

    "I'm just not there." That's the phrase I use to describe the mind state I'm in whenever I have derealization. I watch you, I watch your mouth as you talk to me. And then I watch your eyes, your pupils, they are moving side to side. Oh, and the way...
    favitra favitra 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    This Journey.

    We've all traveled the long road full of questions, that seems like they'll never be answered. It really brings fear concerning what's on the horizon. All these contradictory philosophies when all you want is a straight fact. I got lost looking for it, started to hate my own...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    Who Are You And Who Am I Are You Real Or Are You A Lie

    What is this feeling this strange feeling I just want to be normal this is chilling this is frightening I cant feel anything everything is blurred im so numb my body isnt here anymore it left me is the food stale why cant i taste is my tongue dead whats wrong my eyes why do...
    iluvdiks iluvdiks 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    Hi,after a month ,while i was studying,

    one thought came on my mind...that i imagined all my life and that nothing is real around me.That happend again when I went to bed ,but this time i got panic,I thought I am losing my mind,that I am going crazy,my heart started to beat strong ,...since that I have this feeling...
    magdaa magdaa 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    When Things Don'T Seem Real

    I've been dealing with this for a few years. The first time it ever happened was in the supermarket. I just felt like I wasn't really there and that my surroundings weren't real. I thought I was getting sick or something, and it was one of the worst feelings in the world. It was...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F May 14, 2013

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    Why dos the world look weird every day?

    How can the world physically be lacking reality? Dissociation is so strange, its a whole other world People can't comprehend this... feeling? So confused... why is everyone so far away, yet so close? Where is the outlet? Is reality even real or did I just imagine it?
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 Sep 20

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    My first experience with it was

    when I was 3. Yes, you read that right. 3. YEARS. OLD. And it just never went away after that.
    ChortlesOfDoom ChortlesOfDoom 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    How long ago did I die?

    Is it even possible for me to ever enjoy feeling like this? I want to feel a connection with somebody, but I can't even feel a connection with my mother, my dear mother. Is this truly my fate? A living carcass, incapable of of connecting to people, even the world? Or are people...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Sep 20

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    I Don't Want To Live Like This Anymore

    Everyday is another day I wish I wasn't alive. The people around me, the home I live in, all of my belongings are so unfamiliar. Mentally, I know my name, birthday my home address but when I look around me I don't recognize anything. Its almost as if I was placed somewhere I...
    ghostlys ghostlys 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    It's subsided for now with the help of my

    doctors and therapist and family it's an ugly feeling to have .... Even scary to look back at . I remember wanting to drive my car into incoming traffic because nothing felt real and you can't die in a dream . My heart goes out to everyone dealing with this .
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 21

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    How God Pulled Me Out Of Realization. (Not Bs)

    A lot of people don't believe in God, and may think this sounds dumb or juvenile. That's fine. But the fact is, he pulled me out of my derealization. What he did was so amazing that even though I am a college kid with finals in the morning, I am taking time off of studying to...
    kg643 kg643 22-25 May 5, 2013

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    My Theory On Derealization

    I experience derealization often, but only recently learned what it is called and why people get it. But I have my own theory on it. I mostly experience it when i get real depressed, and then it lasts long, sometimes a couple of days. But when I get out of my rut, things go back...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I Suffer From Derealization. Help

    Starting this year in 2012, I began to smoke excessively. As well as that, I began to suffer from depression after a bad break up. Everything began to feel unreal and blurry. I began to feel scared. At first I thought I still had drugs in my body, but it wouldn't go away. It's...
    fafafancy fafafancy 13-15, F Mar 31, 2012

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    I started suffering from derealization

    when I was ten. I would feel detached from surroundings and felt like I was out of my body. I first thought it was dizziness. Then eventually a few years later, I was diagnosed with anxiety. I still didn't really know how to explain how I was feeling. It was about four years...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    It goes away!!!! I have had derealization

    for as long as I can remember. It's very scary! I remember a time when I thought it wouldn't go away, I felt trapped. I had no sense of time, very little emotion, almost zombie like. I learned something that helped me one day, derealization is just ANXIETY! That's it! Just...
    jake2893 jake2893 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    Why Am I Like This?

    I guess it started when I was at class. I raised my hand, and I knew the answer, but I didn't want to raise my hand. I felt really frustrated and scared, and felt like I wasn't in control of myself. It felt like a dream, a realy wierd one. The teacher called me, and I spoke, but...
    AngelOfDeath123 AngelOfDeath123 13-15 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    Scary Thinking

    Hi guys. I told you guys I had derealisation and that it was getting better but each time I wake up in the morning I feel like I am in another life where I don't know how to do anything. I always think about how I bend my will to cause movements and speech. It is so scary that...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 10, 2013

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    Super Derealisation

    I was an ordinary boy through my primary school years. Liked relaxing hot sundays after church, thought I knew what life was, had strong faith in God and always got angry at my mom when she didn't get me what I wanted. My highschool years were not going to be so great. It all...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1, 2013

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    Do You Ever Feel Like This

    Spontaneously and briefly I'll feel detached from the reality of what I'm perceiving in random moments of day to day life. I'll either be doing something or seeing something, then something in my perception will switch and I will see and think everything very unusually, very...
    myunstablemind myunstablemind 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Suffering For Years, But Can't Pinpoint When It All Begun.

    I didn't even know there was something out there that would define what has been going on with me. I have known that I suffer from anxiety, and I have been taking zoloft which does help with my depression but my anxiety is still the same. I feel like I am in a bubble, I've tried...
    owlalwaysbe owlalwaysbe 22-25 2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 Jun 13

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    Derealization Is Making Me Not Live My Life.

    Hello Everybody my name is Randy Rodriguez and i know it might say that I'm 23 years old but I'm really 14 i joined this group because I'm so anxious to know the answer to how to treat Derealization I have told alot of people that this all feels like a dream but they don't...
    Randy1O Randy1O 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2013

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    I Hopefully Found A Cure. (my Story)

    I have been having derealization for 1 year and 11 months now.. I know why it started - because I suddently fell down, my eyes became blurry and head spinned.. The next moment I remember - I was in ambulance car, they were taking me to hospital. My head hurted sooo damn bad, i...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2012

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    Being Dead While You Are Alive..

     i suffer from derealization.                                                                      ...
    gabriel420 gabriel420 16-17, M 18 Responses Jan 22, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I posted this already on year 2013, but then this group wasn't as active as it is now. And it's FREE, so, please, for your own good, give it a try! So I am posting this again in...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17

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    I was watching a documentary on domestic violence a week ago. They spoke of abuser traits and it dawned on me how much my dad fits that profile. He has always been so hard to deal...
    JasmineRoses JasmineRoses 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    YES, I WANT YOUR OPINION. ;) ...It seems to me that by the time most people get here, we are at the point of ranting...or, at least, to the peak of frustration. Today, right now...
    ImnessAntiess ImnessAntiess 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    I said that I'd write PART 2 ;) So, there it is. About the breaks... I am virtually relentless in doing whatever I can to make what he wants happen, especially in light of what...
    ImnessAntiess ImnessAntiess 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I hate when my girls don't act as well behaved as they can be. I have a 5 and 7 year old. We had friends over and they were over excited. Being boisterous. Not responding to my...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F 4 hrs ago

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    There can be no arguing. It's normal in any relationship to have an argument every now and then. I'll even take some bickering instead of real arguing. However, in my relationship...
    Remotay88 Remotay88 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Okay, so my boyfriend is very good to me when I am good to him(not accusing him, not being jealous and making him stressed out) he's great,caring, likes me hanging out with his mom...
    MissLizy MissLizy 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I have gone just over 2months barely pulling. I pull the odd lash now and again but have managed to fight the urge. It has been really had, especially on rough days when I'm...
    0justme0 0justme0 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    A Life-LessonThere! little girl; don't cry!They have broken your doll, I know;And your tea-set blue,And your play-house, too,Are things of the long ago;But childish troubles will...
    bluefirelady bluefirelady 41-45, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I hoped to hide my affair from my H. Didn't want him to think that my wanting to leave him had anything to do with the affair. But my H found out somehow and he's hurting bad. I...
    nolasanchez30 nolasanchez30 31-35, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    It all started off when I went to the Doctors for some routine blood work and a PSA test....she noticed some unusual things and investigated further. Well it turned out that I...
    Bikerdude777 Bikerdude777 51-55, M 12 hrs ago

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    I might not be the best looking or most intelligent women. I may not have loads of money. BUT I have friends that love me, a family that loves me. I have a kind heart and an...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    Bad dreams...the same one just varied. One where I am out of control of my own life. Where others, normally my mom steps in and tells lies to the authorities and I wake up or find...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I found out on Christmas i have glitter known as herps. I prefer to call it glitter. Im going through a process of accepting that i gotten this. I'm a pretty girl and now i have...
    bakeoflove bakeoflove 26-30 9 hrs ago

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    -Get a job/financial aid so I can be on my own and pay for my studies. -Get a workout schedule/diet plan so i can finally drop those extra pounds that like to stick around -Get an...
    aFuzzyBlouw aFuzzyBlouw 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    This is the first Christmas I haven't enjoyed since I was a kid when my Pop passed away on Christmas Day. I have been so emotionally and upset and so much going on with family and...
    onlytrusthim onlytrusthim 36-40, M 8 hrs ago

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    What am i to you , i mean look at my name on ep . I often wonder why i don't have anyone close to me . For a long period of time, i have been rejected by people. I tend to have a...
    whatdoyousee whatdoyousee 18-21, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Im 20 years old and I have had SM my whole life. I only got medication when I was around 10, and since then I have never gotten treatment. I keep all my thoughts inside, and how I...
    sm994 sm994 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    What happens if I am wrong - in the future you find all my ideas are hogwash - you have the same sum of monies in a offshore account. Easy access, you've lost nothing.Seem for...
    Darronbanki1 Darronbanki1 31-35, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago