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I Have Derealization

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    My first experience with it was

    when I was 3. Yes, you read that right. 3. YEARS. OLD. And it just never went away after that.
    ChortlesOfDoom ChortlesOfDoom 13-15 2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    Hi,after a month ,while i was studying,

    one thought came on my mind...that i imagined all my life and that nothing is real around me.That happend again when I went to bed ,but this time i got panic,I thought I am losing my mind,that I am going crazy,my heart started to beat strong ,...since that I have this feeling...
    magdaa magdaa 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Srsly.. All Try This! :)

    Hello! :) I am suffering from this idiotical illness for almost 2 years now and I have found a method, that helps me get through the panic attack, when it comes. I haven't beaten the Derealization/Anxiety fully yet, but still this is such a progress for me. :) Hope this helps to...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    My life changed my junior year in high school.

    It started out like every other year. I went to school everyday and did my work like everyone else. Two weeks after school started I wanted to satisfy my curiously to try cocaine. I was always falling asleep in class so I wanted something to pick me up and I also wanted to feel...
    powerfulsentences powerfulsentences 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2014

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    How God Pulled Me Out Of Realization. (Not Bs)

    A lot of people don't believe in God, and may think this sounds dumb or juvenile. That's fine. But the fact is, he pulled me out of my derealization. What he did was so amazing that even though I am a college kid with finals in the morning, I am taking time off of studying to...
    kg643 kg643 22-25 May 5, 2013

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    When Things Don'T Seem Real

    I've been dealing with this for a few years. The first time it ever happened was in the supermarket. I just felt like I wasn't really there and that my surroundings weren't real. I thought I was getting sick or something, and it was one of the worst feelings in the world. It was...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F May 14, 2013

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    it's not all bad i guess there are times

    when i feel that everything is calm and unreal but it doesn't bother me just as there are times when i wish to be able to to understand and feel sometimes i avoid things that are to real for me like loud noises or voices and people almost for fear that they will break my fragile...
    thatgothgirluknow thatgothgirluknow 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    Do You Ever Feel Like This

    Spontaneously and briefly I'll feel detached from the reality of what I'm perceiving in random moments of day to day life. I'll either be doing something or seeing something, then something in my perception will switch and I will see and think everything very unusually, very...
    myunstablemind myunstablemind 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    Who Are You And Who Am I Are You Real Or Are You A Lie

    What is this feeling this strange feeling I just want to be normal this is chilling this is frightening I cant feel anything everything is blurred im so numb my body isnt here anymore it left me is the food stale why cant i taste is my tongue dead whats wrong my eyes why do...
    iluvdiks iluvdiks 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    I haven't been diagnosed with derealization

    but I fear that it's just a matter of time. the first episode happened after a terrible crash on adderall. I've always suffered with depression but its been better the past few years, but after the big crash on adderall I experience derealization almost everyday. it's just a...
    derealizationofthemind derealizationofthemind 16-17, F Jun 3

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    How long ago did I die?

    Is it even possible for me to ever enjoy feeling like this? I want to feel a connection with somebody, but I can't even feel a connection with my mother, my dear mother. Is this truly my fate? A living carcass, incapable of of connecting to people, even the world? Or are people...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    does anyone else here get the feeling

    that somehow tv and movies and stuff like that are more real than reality? i get that a lot. when everything feels distant and weird and not right, fiction is so much more real to me. stuff fits to music and the plot is coherent and the camera angles are better. i get the...
    debaeca debaeca 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    This Journey.

    We've all traveled the long road full of questions, that seems like they'll never be answered. It really brings fear concerning what's on the horizon. All these contradictory philosophies when all you want is a straight fact. I got lost looking for it, started to hate my own...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    hey everyone it's just a normal a day here in

    my movie but im dealing with it as best i can ive had problems with derealization since i was little but it got to its worst point when i was thirteen when i started cutting to deal with it recently it started to get back to that point although i was never officially diagnosed...
    thatgothgirluknow thatgothgirluknow 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

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    I experienced my first derealization panic

    attack at 10 years old. I always had anxiety over one thing or another, at times to the point of sheer panic. One day, laying in my bed, I experienced a feeling I couldn't even put into words. My body was not my body, my walls were not my walls, and the world around me wasn't...
    Arekaycee Arekaycee 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 16 and I have been suffering with

    Derealisation due to a panic attack triggered by marajuana. I've had this for about 2 months, I'm starting to accept the feeling and I'm overcoming the panic but it still feels horrible. It would be nice to talk to other people going through the same thing, although the people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 15

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    Manageable

    Hi yall. It has been a while since I said my derealisation was unbearable. I indeed felt inhuman. I still feel derealised but I think it is manageable now. I know I lost my faith in God because of this but sometimes that is all I have even if I have to force it. It is so obvious...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 7, 2013

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    I started suffering from derealization

    when I was ten. I would feel detached from surroundings and felt like I was out of my body. I first thought it was dizziness. Then eventually a few years later, I was diagnosed with anxiety. I still didn't really know how to explain how I was feeling. It was about four years...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    I am distracted from the unreality I used to

    see. There are moments when I realize it again... Or is it realizw that I notice?
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Jun 23

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    Super Derealisation

    I was an ordinary boy through my primary school years. Liked relaxing hot sundays after church, thought I knew what life was, had strong faith in God and always got angry at my mom when she didn't get me what I wanted. My highschool years were not going to be so great. It all...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1, 2013

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    Why Am I Like This?

    I guess it started when I was at class. I raised my hand, and I knew the answer, but I didn't want to raise my hand. I felt really frustrated and scared, and felt like I wasn't in control of myself. It felt like a dream, a realy wierd one. The teacher called me, and I spoke, but...
    AngelOfDeath123 AngelOfDeath123 16-17 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    It goes away!!!! I have had derealization

    for as long as I can remember. It's very scary! I remember a time when I thought it wouldn't go away, I felt trapped. I had no sense of time, very little emotion, almost zombie like. I learned something that helped me one day, derealization is just ANXIETY! That's it! Just...
    jake2893 jake2893 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    Nothing is making sense.

    I can't believe what my reality has become. I can't believe what I am right now, even though I've always felt inside that I deserved better. I've been a high-school dropout for four years now. I constantly live under deep emotional distress because of my inconsiderate...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M Apr 3

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    I Suffer From Derealization. Help

    Starting this year in 2012, I began to smoke excessively. As well as that, I began to suffer from depression after a bad break up. Everything began to feel unreal and blurry. I began to feel scared. At first I thought I still had drugs in my body, but it wouldn't go away. It's...
    fafafancy fafafancy 13-15, F Mar 31, 2012

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    Derealization Is Making Me Not Live My Life.

    Hello Everybody my name is Randy Rodriguez and i know it might say that I'm 23 years old but I'm really 14 i joined this group because I'm so anxious to know the answer to how to treat Derealization I have told alot of people that this all feels like a dream but they don't...
    Randy1O Randy1O 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2013

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    Why dos the world look weird every day?

    How can the world physically be lacking reality? Dissociation is so strange, its a whole other world People can't comprehend this... feeling? So confused... why is everyone so far away, yet so close? Where is the outlet? Is reality even real or did I just imagine it?
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    Scary Thinking

    Hi guys. I told you guys I had derealisation and that it was getting better but each time I wake up in the morning I feel like I am in another life where I don't know how to do anything. I always think about how I bend my will to cause movements and speech. It is so scary that...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 10, 2013

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    I'm Just Not There.

    "I'm just not there." That's the phrase I use to describe the mind state I'm in whenever I have derealization. I watch you, I watch your mouth as you talk to me. And then I watch your eyes, your pupils, they are moving side to side. Oh, and the way...
    favitra favitra 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    My Theory On Derealization

    I experience derealization often, but only recently learned what it is called and why people get it. But I have my own theory on it. I mostly experience it when i get real depressed, and then it lasts long, sometimes a couple of days. But when I get out of my rut, things go back...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I Hopefully Found A Cure. (my Story)

    I have been having derealization for 1 year and 11 months now.. I know why it started - because I suddently fell down, my eyes became blurry and head spinned.. The next moment I remember - I was in ambulance car, they were taking me to hospital. My head hurted sooo damn bad, i...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    All these unanswerable questions we ask to

    ourselves like what is life? what is existence? what is anything? what the f#ck is going on? are questions that you are not going to find the answer too, not in this life. you can waste your whole life wondering about them and die unsatisfied and empty. while i thought about...
    rorygallagher97 rorygallagher97 18-21, M May 6, 2014

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    Being Dead While You Are Alive..

     i suffer from derealization.                                                                      ...
    gabriel420 gabriel420 16-17, M 18 Responses Jan 22, 2009

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    Suffering For Years, But Can't Pinpoint When It All Begun.

    I didn't even know there was something out there that would define what has been going on with me. I have known that I suffer from anxiety, and I have been taking zoloft which does help with my depression but my anxiety is still the same. I feel like I am in a bubble, I've tried...
    owlalwaysbe owlalwaysbe 22-25 2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    It's subsided for now with the help of my

    doctors and therapist and family it's an ugly feeling to have .... Even scary to look back at . I remember wanting to drive my car into incoming traffic because nothing felt real and you can't die in a dream . My heart goes out to everyone dealing with this .
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 3 Responses Jul 27, 2014

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    I Don't Want To Live Like This Anymore

    Everyday is another day I wish I wasn't alive. The people around me, the home I live in, all of my belongings are so unfamiliar. Mentally, I know my name, birthday my home address but when I look around me I don't recognize anything. Its almost as if I was placed somewhere I...
    ghostlys ghostlys 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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