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I Have Derealization

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    All these unanswerable questions we ask to

    ourselves like what is life? what is existence? what is anything? what the f#ck is going on? are questions that you are not going to find the answer too, not in this life. you can waste your whole life wondering about them and die unsatisfied and empty. while i thought about...
    rorygallagher97 rorygallagher97 18-21, M May 6

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    Manageable

    Hi yall. It has been a while since I said my derealisation was unbearable. I indeed felt inhuman. I still feel derealised but I think it is manageable now. I know I lost my faith in God because of this but sometimes that is all I have even if I have to force it. It is so obvious...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 7, 2013

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    Being Dead While You Are Alive..

     i suffer from derealization.                                                                      ...
    gabriel420 gabriel420 16-17, M 17 Responses Jan 22, 2009

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    I Don't Want To Live Like This Anymore

    Everyday is another day I wish I wasn't alive. The people around me, the home I live in, all of my belongings are so unfamiliar. Mentally, I know my name, birthday my home address but when I look around me I don't recognize anything. Its almost as if I was placed somewhere I...
    ghostlys ghostlys 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    Scary Thinking

    Hi guys. I told you guys I had derealisation and that it was getting better but each time I wake up in the morning I feel like I am in another life where I don't know how to do anything. I always think about how I bend my will to cause movements and speech. It is so scary that...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M May 10, 2013

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    How God Pulled Me Out Of Realization. (Not Bs)

    A lot of people don't believe in God, and may think this sounds dumb or juvenile. That's fine. But the fact is, he pulled me out of my derealization. What he did was so amazing that even though I am a college kid with finals in the morning, I am taking time off of studying to...
    kg643 kg643 22-25 May 5, 2013

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    I'm Just Not There.

    "I'm just not there." That's the phrase I use to describe the mind state I'm in whenever I have derealization. I watch you, I watch your mouth as you talk to me. And then I watch your eyes, your pupils, they are moving side to side. Oh, and the way...
    favitra favitra 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Why Am I Like This?

    I guess it started when I was at class. I raised my hand, and I knew the answer, but I didn't want to raise my hand. I felt really frustrated and scared, and felt like I wasn't in control of myself. It felt like a dream, a realy wierd one. The teacher called me, and I spoke, but...
    AngelOfDeath123 AngelOfDeath123 13-15 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    Who Are You And Who Am I Are You Real Or Are You A Lie

    What is this feeling this strange feeling I just want to be normal this is chilling this is frightening I cant feel anything everything is blurred im so numb my body isnt here anymore it left me is the food stale why cant i taste is my tongue dead whats wrong my eyes why do...
    iluvdiks iluvdiks 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    Hi,after a month ,while i was studying,

    one thought came on my mind...that i imagined all my life and that nothing is real around me.That happend again when I went to bed ,but this time i got panic,I thought I am losing my mind,that I am going crazy,my heart started to beat strong ,...since that I have this feeling...
    magdaa magdaa 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Srsly.. All Try This! :)

    Hello! :) I am suffering from this idiotical illness for almost 2 years now and I have found a method, that helps me get through the panic attack, when it comes. I haven't beaten the Derealization/Anxiety fully yet, but still this is such a progress for me. :) Hope this helps to...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F Apr 1, 2013

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    My life changed my junior year in high school.

    It started out like every other year. I went to school everyday and did my work like everyone else. Two weeks after school started I wanted to satisfy my curiously to try cocaine. I was always falling asleep in class so I wanted something to pick me up and I also wanted to feel...
    powerfulsentences powerfulsentences 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Jun 13

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    I Suffer From Derealization. Help

    Starting this year in 2012, I began to smoke excessively. As well as that, I began to suffer from depression after a bad break up. Everything began to feel unreal and blurry. I began to feel scared. At first I thought I still had drugs in my body, but it wouldn't go away. It's...
    fafafancy fafafancy 13-15, F Mar 31, 2012

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    When Things Don'T Seem Real

    I've been dealing with this for a few years. The first time it ever happened was in the supermarket. I just felt like I wasn't really there and that my surroundings weren't real. I thought I was getting sick or something, and it was one of the worst feelings in the world. It was...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F May 14, 2013

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    Do You Ever Feel Like This

    Spontaneously and briefly I'll feel detached from the reality of what I'm perceiving in random moments of day to day life. I'll either be doing something or seeing something, then something in my perception will switch and I will see and think everything very unusually, very...
    myunstablemind myunstablemind 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    My first experience with it was

    when I was 3. Yes, you read that right. 3. YEARS. OLD. And it just never went away after that.
    ChortlesOfDoom ChortlesOfDoom 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    Derealization Is Making Me Not Live My Life.

    Hello Everybody my name is Randy Rodriguez and i know it might say that I'm 23 years old but I'm really 14 i joined this group because I'm so anxious to know the answer to how to treat Derealization I have told alot of people that this all feels like a dream but they don't...
    Randy1O Randy1O 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    I Hopefully Found A Cure. (my Story)

    I have been having derealization for 1 year and 11 months now.. I know why it started - because I suddently fell down, my eyes became blurry and head spinned.. The next moment I remember - I was in ambulance car, they were taking me to hospital. My head hurted sooo damn bad, i...
    Catwomann Catwomann 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2012

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    This Journey.

    We've all traveled the long road full of questions, that seems like they'll never be answered. It really brings fear concerning what's on the horizon. All these contradictory philosophies when all you want is a straight fact. I got lost looking for it, started to hate my own...
    eyeopening eyeopening 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    It's subsided for now with the help of my

    doctors and therapist and family it's an ugly feeling to have .... Even scary to look back at . I remember wanting to drive my car into incoming traffic because nothing felt real and you can't die in a dream . My heart goes out to everyone dealing with this .
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 21

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    Suffering For Years, But Can't Pinpoint When It All Begun.

    I didn't even know there was something out there that would define what has been going on with me. I have known that I suffer from anxiety, and I have been taking zoloft which does help with my depression but my anxiety is still the same. I feel like I am in a bubble, I've tried...
    owlalwaysbe owlalwaysbe 22-25 2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    My Theory On Derealization

    I experience derealization often, but only recently learned what it is called and why people get it. But I have my own theory on it. I mostly experience it when i get real depressed, and then it lasts long, sometimes a couple of days. But when I get out of my rut, things go back...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    Super Derealisation

    I was an ordinary boy through my primary school years. Liked relaxing hot sundays after church, thought I knew what life was, had strong faith in God and always got angry at my mom when she didn't get me what I wanted. My highschool years were not going to be so great. It all...
    Pentecos674 Pentecos674 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1, 2013

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    Unreality and reality are connected.

    Why must I feel the unreality? When I feel reality it's only in fleeting moments. Had the pain I felt dissociate me this much? I do not remember such a pain though. Physical abuse as a child leads to dissociation. Physical abuse disturbs the mind of a child. A disturbed mind as...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Related Experiences

    I wish I had a sex drive. I have somehow recovered from depersonalization/ derealization disorder and feel really good, except I still don't seem to have a sex drive. I want to...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F Sep 2

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    Hey everyone. I hope my experience can help people just as much as so many of your experiences have helped me. Im 26 and have had HS for 9 years (i think) thats how long i can...
    Meganvan Meganvan 26-30, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I have had this feeling all of my life just simple things to start with such as I just knew that a car was coming around the corner (living in the mountains of Kentucky on one-lane...
    Danni1982 Danni1982 31-35, F 11 hrs ago

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    Here's something for you guys. Ok, if anyone is interested, I am a man and I can have multiple orgas.ms. Yes, it's possible for males also. Actually, there is a slight difference...
    Vrime Vrime 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    oh my goodness.He is the most charming, sexy, smart , admirable man I have ever met. Like seriously I don't think I have ever met anyone as sweet and nice as him. Woah he makes me...
    Angelina1992 Angelina1992 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Im 23 years old i have a half sister from my father samuel bracey. All i know about my sister is her name is Heather she is 6months younger then i am so she would have been born in...
    jessicawilliamson jessicawilliamson 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    I can't be sure and I don't want to be sure. But I have a feeling that its true. It's a very strange story I have only told 1 person and I think they judge me because of it. I...
    whatevernobody whatevernobody 31-35, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I have depression and ive had it for about a year but im clean with no cuts. Although ive had suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts everyday so my mom decided to put me in...
    KaylaBiskup KaylaBiskup 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    i had an appointment with my hairdresser that was a rather spur-of-the-moment decision, and I only had about 20 minutes to get to the salon, which is 15 minutes away. So, I got...
    fishsweeper fishsweeper 51-55, F 1 Response 37 mins ago

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    Im 14 years old and I have had maladaptive dreaming for a while although I only just found out, I don't even remember when it started. I usually start dreaming whenever I have...
    Shadow0173 Shadow0173 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    This awful disease makes me think terrible things that I really don't want to think about then it makes me want to confess them to someone, especially if the thoughts involve them...
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    i have worn lipstick lots of times when i have privacy, i just love the way it looks on my lips. my favourite colors of lipstick are red, hot pink and black, was thinking of trying...
    girlsrule2015 girlsrule2015 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    It's so difficult.. I am a graduate student, and I've always done well academically. But sometimes I get so consumed in self-doubt and anxiety that I have forgotten something or...
    BeautifulinElevation BeautifulinElevation 22-25, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    It affects my life far too much. Even in 'relaxed' situations such as going for a drink, my legs feel jelly, breathing is sometimes laboured, I'm hypervigilant and want to be near...
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    This actually still scares me when I think about it so maybe it's good to get it out. Two of my closest female friends knew this guy. I never really knew much about him besides...
    Bewail Bewail 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I fell from the stairs at school about one story high and knocked myself out 😓 and by the time I woke up (just now) I find my big brother going through my phone (Bruno I'm so...
    johannesc4 johannesc4 13-15, M 5 hrs ago

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    Ive had friends I've talked to on the phone and thru video chat saying i have a calm voice haha i just simply talk and try not to be boring Thanks for reading!
    goofysk8 goofysk8 22-25 2 hrs ago

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    once somebody asked me, what did i want and i told him that i want everything..... the issue is, that we are always thinking about what we dont hae and never pay attention to what...
    mrnut mrnut 36-40, M 2 hrs ago

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    I thought i had multiple personalities to the highest severity, thought I was bipolar 2 ultra rapid cycling, thought i had a tumor in my brain, thought i was developing multiple...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 51 mins ago

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    I have one again, hopefully this goes better than all those others, even the after effects. Wish me luck.
    LilRedFoxTail LilRedFoxTail 18-21, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Mortal kombat, street fighter I want those games at this moment would have been a nice mind blowing distraction it's so much fun
    xomariposaxo xomariposaxo 26-30, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    There have been a few that had their friends tell me in the past, but I always wondered who else had a crush on me.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    I have a pretty decent size penis. It's thick, veiny, brown, heavy and it's long. My gf loves it :)
    youguyssuck69 youguyssuck69 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    My toes are long and bony. "Finger toes" is what everyone who looks at them says! I have had more than one man look at me feet and say "Well, I knew there had to be a flaw...
    greeneyedlifenewb greeneyedlifenewb 26-30, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I lived in Tennessee for a few years then moved into the city so my accent faded but I have an accent on some words and my friends figured out the words and always find ways to get...
    ooprincess27oo ooprincess27oo 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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