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I Have Dermatillomania

Or in laymen's terms, Obsessive Self-Injurious Skin Picking 1,969 People

    Well I Used To...

    but i found out about what i was doing, and now i can consciously watch out for my triggers, and not let myself get started.. I've healed up pretty well..
    Vox Vox 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    My skin is beginning to clear up

    but it still makes me panic-what will I do if I can't find anything to pick at? If I'm brutally honest, I'll stop washing my hands and face (except in the shower or before food preparation, I'm not completely lost) to increase the likelihood of more sores or blocked pores. Plus...
    thelastflower thelastflower 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2015

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    I always pick at the blemishes on my face.

    I always tug at the skin around my nose. And tear the bumps around my eyes. I always scrape the scabs of my latest endeavor. I don't know how to resist the urge and I feel ashamed at the gratification The scarring and the insecurity that comes along is no longer worth it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 23, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 31, 2015

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    I'm a 15 year old girl

    who has dermatillomania..I just really need someone who's close to my age to talk too who suffers with this disease like I do. My parents don't get it and I'm too ashamed to tell my friends. Everyone just tells me to stop, like its so simple. If I could stop picking my lips...
    sadiegracee sadiegracee 13-15 1 Response Aug 27, 2015

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    it tears me down and makes me want to cry.

    everyone in my school has perfect clear legs and i have craters in my legs from digging, no one gets it..
    baileyhires baileyhires 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 13, 2015

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    I eat my puss, blackheads

    and scabs. Yeah. I just said that. After I pick, I eat. I recently joined this group and was looking through posts, but i didn't notice anything about the eating. I just wanted to put it out there so others know that your'e not alone. I think for me, thats the grossest and...
    Starchan Starchan 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    I just recently discovered

    that I'm not alone with this terrible disease. I couldn't tell you how long I have been picking exactly but it's enough to have layers upon layers of scars covering my back, my shoulders, my legs, my arms, my face and anywhere else you can think of. I've noticed recently that...
    swaydear swaydear 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    I have Dermatillomania.

    I always find myself drawn to my mirror after the shower when I have clean skin. Sometimes I think about papering it up so I can't see my skin but.. It's massive. It's a huge double sliding mirror cupboard. Probably over a decade I've had some form of this, I'm surprised my...
    frenchcherry frenchcherry 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 5, 2015

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    For me, I don't pick my face like others

    usually do. I pick my hands, feet, legs, and lips. The hands are the easiest for me to pick without looking like a weirdo (lips is second) so those two get torn up really bad and bleed a lot. I've even started picking the skin on my palm as well. I've had it ever since I can...
    Fuukoa Fuukoa 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I've been doing this

    for most of my life. My earliest memory of it is seventh grade, which was during the early 2000s. It's hard to stop, especially if there is loose skin anywhere on my body. People are always telling me, "Stop picking!" A lot of people don't understand it, but they do worry about...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2015

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    How many times have you heard someone tell you

    to stop picking? I hear it every day, at least five times. They must seriously think I peel my skin off because I have nothing better to do. Before I die, my one wish is that someone will pick up a book and learn about something related to mental illness. Although picking my...
    TheQuirkyQuasar TheQuirkyQuasar 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 14, 2015

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    FerysT FerysT 13-15, F Jan 19

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    I don't feel like I deserve any support.

    I'm stuck with the consequences of my own actions in a world that assures me it's "not my fault." I don't know what happened to me and I don't care at this point. I know I'm always at odds with society and no one is trustworthy. I know I bring it on myself, but I'm suspicious of...
    thelastflower thelastflower 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2015

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    I'm going to beat dermatillomania!

    ! Who's with me? I know it will take a long time, I know there will be ups&downs (especially downs) but I won't give up! I'm going to be happy again. Dermatillomania will not control my life :)
    juuull juuull 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2014

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    Tips On Stopping The Picking

    Hey guys, Now I know everyone is different and we all have our own methodologies and routines. I happen to pick at my face excessively, my back less often (because I can't see my back) and very mildly my chest area. My back and my chest I am not too worried about because it...
    filful filful 18-21, F 29 Responses Jun 14, 2010

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    It's not that bad for me yet

    but I didn't know it was a disorder til just recently when I decided to look up YouTube videos of hair plucking and let me tell u I had a mind ****** !!! Then was curious to read the comments and sure enough I related to everyone there .
    ev23 ev23 31-35, F Nov 23, 2015

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    Hi everyone! Today is the first time I

    discovered that there is a name to what I have suffered in silence from. I'm 24 years old, my name is Alyx, and for more than half of my young life, my own skin has been a prison. I have lied to everyone and told them that the lesions that cover one entire side of my face and my...
    EnigmaticDogma EnigmaticDogma 22-25, F Jan 22, 2015

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    do it for the confidence you always wanted!

    do it for all the scars and blood and damage! WE CAN BEAT THIS
    Alycat05 Alycat05 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2015

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    I Think I'm On To Something~!

    June 26th, 2010, today and yesterday, I HAVE GONE PICK FREE. almost. I have been experimenting with different off-the-wall treatments, and something is working! I'm so excited and proud.. I wanted to share this with you, and maybe this will work too, or it will give you other...
    vampgrl93 vampgrl93 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2010

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    dear Derma I know while I age

    and grow you’re everywhere I go with every step, in every place while we embrace with your hand, on my face I can hardly bear the tingles everywhere feeling your longing stare but Derma, we do not belong together because I matter and it’s for the better let’s be honest...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F Dec 4, 2015

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    I Wish I Knew A Few Of You.

    I have been picking my skin since I was fifteen years old. I won't ever forget the first time someone noticed it. My doctor put me through a slew of tests, thinking that it was a skin disease or something of the kind. The whole time I was sitting on that table in her office I was...
    DjunaB DjunaB 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    Alone, Ashamed, Flawed

    It wasn't until a few months ago I even realized I had a problem. For some reason I thought what I did was normal - that other people probably scratch and pick at their skin sometimes. I guess when I started noticing just how often I was doing it, and the amount time...
    BehindAMask BehindAMask 22-25, F 7 Responses Feb 21, 2009

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    Well, I'm 25 years old

    and I have been picking my skin for 15 years at least. It really bothers me because I feel shame to be in social situations after a skin picking episode... I believe that this problem has damaged me to meet people and become close friends, because several times I avoid going out...
    carolinagarcia carolinagarcia 26-30, F Aug 21, 2014

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    5 Years ago I moved. Nothing drastic,

    my new home was only 5-10 minutes away from my old home. At that point I had been picking for about 2 years. I somewhat hoped that I could start over. A new environment might break the habit of skin picking, so I thought. It didn't. A year ago I started university. I moved out...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F Jul 20, 2015

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    I always pick at my face

    before going out. Always choosing the best moments...-_-
    Fan94 Fan94 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2015

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    Endorphins And Dermatillomania

    I was watching YouTube videos on strange addictions when I came across one for a woman who picks her skin. And a psychologist stated a point that: 'When a person first picks, they feel pain so the brains way of dealing with this is to release endorphins and the person can become...
    TheLongHaul TheLongHaul 16-17 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I have picked every inch of un-smooth skin since

    before I could properly walk or talk.My picking occurs every single day in different stages and areas. In early elementary school it was my thumbs, fingers, chewing thew inside of my cheeks and I would pick at every mosquito bite I could find along my body. I would pick and chew...
    dermahawk dermahawk 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

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    It wasn't until recently

    that I found out about this. I never knew there was a name for it, but as soon as I did, it clicked. I've been biting my nails since I was a kid. Not like normal biting. Like.. Picking the skin off until it bleeds. I've always hated my zits just like everyone else but I never...
    verifiedsalemwitch verifiedsalemwitch 22-25, F Nov 27, 2015

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    beccuh beccuh 16-17, F Jun 23, 2015

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    I can't stop picking at scabs

    and acne, especially on my scalp and inside my ears. It's so embarrassing when I can't stop worrying over a spot in class because I know everyone else can see me sticking my finger in my ear and sometimes I have to leave class to wash blood off my hands. I wish I could stop.
    emgetsby emgetsby 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I have tried a few thing over the past couple

    of years. Since nothing really worked I didn't quite feel the need to share it. I recently tried one method that seemed to work. Although I have fallen back recently, I still feel like this might be the way out. Therefore, I figured I'd share this and the other things I tried...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F Jan 11

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    I feel so mad when I see people saying they

    have dermatillomania and barely have a spot. I can't stop and it makes me cry everyday. And the worst is that I can hide it so well novody knows I am going wrong. It's so hard for people without any addiction to understand it. It's extremely powerful. I get spams and almost seem...
    Fan94 Fan94 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2015

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    Can't Stop Skin Picking

    how can I stop skin picking? been doing it over 15 years. I've never been seen for any mental disorders. But this dam skin picking is taking over my body.  I can't attend certain social settings because of my skin, I wear long sleeves year round, Its over 100 degrees here in...
    whiskers5555 whiskers5555 31-35 18 Responses Jun 2, 2009

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    I have been obsessively picking to the point of

    bleeding, scabbing, and intense pain since the age of 12. I am now 28 and so relieved to know that I don't suffer alone. The urge to pick is something I've lost the ability to control, but I'm ready to change. To be honest, giving a name to this disorder has provided me with...
    adrienneeileen adrienneeileen 26-30, F 1 Response May 23, 2015

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    I don't even know where to begin.

    This all started when i was about 10-11. Puberty was just kicking in and i had developed some blemishes on my face like all teens do. My mom would be the one to pop them since i didn't know what to do but once i understood i would pop them myself. I don't really know when this...
    xxleahx xxleahx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I have been picking my skin ever

    since I was a little girl. When I was young i had eczema so i used to pick at it all the time. I have never been able to stop. It was never that bad until about two years ago. I used to just pick at little things...no big deal right? Well now its uncontrollable and i have scars...
    Gir583 Gir583 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    At least I think I have.

    I don't know. Right now, I need to go brush my teeth before going to bed, but I'm putting off doing that because I know I'll have to be in the bathroom with mirrors. And if I stop by a mirror long enough to see my face, I'll start squeezing every pore and pimple on my face, I...
    4lle 4lle 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2015

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    I'm a 17 year old female with Dermatillomania.

    I've tried everything to stop. I have over 108 scars from my head,arms,legs,neck,head,and chest. I can't look at people directly in their eyes without feeling ashamed or sad. I want to stop, I feel like I'm alone, People I tell this to think in disgusting or crazy, They don't...
    Fall4Autumn Fall4Autumn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

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    I have battled with dermatillomania

    and dermatophagia for 17 years. It started when I was about 7 years old with nibbling around my fingernails and cuticles but has progressed to the point that it is a constant problem in my life. Even after long searches through the Internet I have yet to come across...
    Facethedemons Facethedemons 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    It's so awful. It makes you look ugly,

    it makes you feel bad. Have you ever heard someone say "you'd be so pretty if you didn't pick your face all the time" ... have you ever felt so terrible that you didn't want to leave your house? I've put on more make-up than a member of Cirque Du Soleil just to go get some...
    aslarter838 aslarter838 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    Skin Picking Disorder.

    I never ever thought that I would have this. ahah. but I do. Sometimes I wonder, why can't I just STOP? Each time after I pick, I'll go look in the mirror, see my bloody scabs and bumps swelling up, and cringe, thinking, "Wow. How could I do this to myself. I look...
    Starchan Starchan 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    Well, I'm noticing some improvement with my

    skin :) Although it would be nice to wear a tank top without constantly checking out my shoulders and chest
    navygirl00 navygirl00 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    I think the day I started picking is the day I

    stopped chewing. For years I chewed my fingers to the point of infection. I had no nails, I completely chewed them off. It wasn't just a habit, it was a condition: dermatophagia. Eventually I stopped chewing my fingers and started chewing my cheeks, not that spitting blood and...
    howamisupposedtodothis howamisupposedtodothis 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I beat the urge to pick.

    I understand I can relapse, but the urge is gone for now. I hope someone reads this and is inspired. You need to start somewhere. Stop wallowing in the sadness. I say that with tough love. I've BEEN there. Why me? Why can't I stop? I can and I did. I am bipolar type 1. I...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2014

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