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I Have Dermatillomania

Or in laymen's terms, Obsessive Self-Injurious Skin Picking 1,913 People

    Dermatillomania is a condition characterized by

    compulsively picking at your skin, often until it bleeds. The problem is poorly understood by most people, and I can tell. Since the age of seventeen, I started to have allergies and eczema again. My skin was often dry and itchy, and when something itches, you can't help but...
    MissMojo MissMojo 22-25, F 1 Response May 21

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    The Abusive Mistress: Dermatillomania

    From a distance my footprints look normal.  Up close it’s a different story.  They are about as normal and regular as my fingerprints.  I am missing layers and layers of skin from my hands and feet.  I chew my lips and cheek relentlessly.  The only thing that can stop the...
    AbusiveMistress AbusiveMistress 18-21 2 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    Well, I'm 25 years old

    and I have been picking my skin for 15 years at least. It really bothers me because I feel shame to be in social situations after a skin picking episode... I believe that this problem has damaged me to meet people and become close friends, because several times I avoid going out...
    carolinagarcia carolinagarcia 26-30, F Aug 21, 2014

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    I have been picking for 2 years,

    and my feet are just raw skin. I want to stop, I just don't know how too!
    kamrideley kamrideley 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 11

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    I just recently discovered

    that I'm not alone with this terrible disease. I couldn't tell you how long I have been picking exactly but it's enough to have layers upon layers of scars covering my back, my shoulders, my legs, my arms, my face and anywhere else you can think of. I've noticed recently that...
    swaydear swaydear 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    Alone, Ashamed, Flawed

    It wasn't until a few months ago I even realized I had a problem. For some reason I thought what I did was normal - that other people probably scratch and pick at their skin sometimes. I guess when I started noticing just how often I was doing it, and the amount time...
    BehindAMask BehindAMask 22-25, F 7 Responses Feb 21, 2009

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    I haven't been officially diagnosed

    but I think I have this. I pick my scalp the most. My mom always yells at me and says I have sores. I pick until I bleed and I pick off huge chunks of skin. Then I also started picking the bottoms of my feet as well and sometimes get to a point where it hurts to walk. I also...
    PrincessNem PrincessNem 18-21, F May 2

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    I just had a new idea to help deter me from

    picking! I share a bathroom with my sister, so it isn't practical to cover up my mirror. However, we use the room at different times, so I'm going to try using another sensory cue: tonight, I'm going to try playing a high-pitched tone on my phone the entire time I'm in the...
    Rollstep Rollstep 18-21, F Jun 14

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    Well I Used To...

    but i found out about what i was doing, and now i can consciously watch out for my triggers, and not let myself get started.. I've healed up pretty well..
    Vox Vox 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    I can't stop picking at my scalp,

    the dry skin around my nose or my fingernails. I've picked till I've bled and had soreness and redness...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I have been picking my skin ever

    since I was a little girl. When I was young i had eczema so i used to pick at it all the time. I have never been able to stop. It was never that bad until about two years ago. I used to just pick at little things...no big deal right? Well now its uncontrollable and i have scars...
    Gir583 Gir583 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    beccuh beccuh 16-17, F Jun 23

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    I have Dermatillomania.

    I always find myself drawn to my mirror after the shower when I have clean skin. Sometimes I think about papering it up so I can't see my skin but.. It's massive. It's a huge double sliding mirror cupboard. Probably over a decade I've had some form of this, I'm surprised my...
    frenchcherry frenchcherry 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Endorphins And Dermatillomania

    I was watching YouTube videos on strange addictions when I came across one for a woman who picks her skin. And a psychologist stated a point that: 'When a person first picks, they feel pain so the brains way of dealing with this is to release endorphins and the person can become...
    TheLongHaul TheLongHaul 13-15 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    Aloe vera is actually the greatest thing ever

    that I can put on my skin; mostly because it smells good and it makes my skin soft, and I don't get the urge to pick when I pamper myself a bit. And besides, a lot of my scars are hidden under a wicked sunburn. :P
    KristalC KristalC 16-17, F May 22

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    and its destroying my life

    and my doctor seems unwilling to help. I was recently diagnoised with personality disorder the emoional kind. Which doesnt sound good and apparently dr's want the name changed its due to the fact i was abused from the age of 9 to 12 and another side effect of this is ocd...
    rachroo2015 rachroo2015 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    kemc2010 kemc2010 31-35, F 1 Response May 29

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    I realised I somehow had the urge to pick

    without knowing, only when I turned around and I was baffled by the fact the mirror I was heading for wasn't there. Within 10 seconds I had removed the mirror from the wall, turned around, forgot that I took down the mirror, turned back to grab something from the sink and...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I Wish I Knew A Few Of You.

    I have been picking my skin since I was fifteen years old. I won't ever forget the first time someone noticed it. My doctor put me through a slew of tests, thinking that it was a skin disease or something of the kind. The whole time I was sitting on that table in her office I was...
    DjunaB DjunaB 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I'm a 17 year old female with Dermatillomania.

    I've tried everything to stop. I have over 108 scars from my head,arms,legs,neck,head,and chest. I can't look at people directly in their eyes without feeling ashamed or sad. I want to stop, I feel like I'm alone, People I tell this to think in disgusting or crazy, They don't...
    Fall4Autumn Fall4Autumn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

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    My name is anna. I've had dermatillomania

    since I was 10. I still remember the first time I started picking 6 years ago. When I was younger, I had the perfect skin. But after getting 1 single pimple, everything changed. I wake up every morning with my mind on my skin. And it's tiring. Recently my grandmother gave me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 26

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    morning, I think I have the picking under

    control at the moment, good luck to everyone.
    chezasmile chezasmile 41-45, F Jan 28

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    I beat the urge to pick.

    I understand I can relapse, but the urge is gone for now. I hope someone reads this and is inspired. You need to start somewhere. Stop wallowing in the sadness. I say that with tough love. I've BEEN there. Why me? Why can't I stop? I can and I did. I am bipolar type 1. I...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2014

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    I have been obsessively picking to the point of

    bleeding, scabbing, and intense pain since the age of 12. I am now 28 and so relieved to know that I don't suffer alone. The urge to pick is something I've lost the ability to control, but I'm ready to change. To be honest, giving a name to this disorder has provided me with...
    adrienneeileen adrienneeileen 26-30, F 1 Response May 23

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    I'm going to beat dermatillomania!

    ! Who's with me? I know it will take a long time, I know there will be ups&downs (especially downs) but I won't give up! I'm going to be happy again. Dermatillomania will not control my life :)
    juuull juuull 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2014

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    This is an issue iv had

    for most of my life, that now my fingers and lips are scared and I don't think will ever be the same again. What people don't understand is you can't just not pick at your fingers or anything else you pick at, so saying "just stop, it's not good for you!" Isn't really doing...
    nicoledemersx nicoledemersx 16-17, F Mar 23

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    I feel disgusting from all the picking,

    like its a never ending cycle from feeling anxiety to then actually having the symptoms of eczema. The picking has gone from one form to another throughout my entire life and it sucks to not have "grown out of it" like my parents and doctors had hoped when I was younger...
    ap1124 ap1124 18-21, F Mar 26

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    Trying To Stop? Maybe I Can Help.

    Hi girls, I have been picking since before I can remember. I have scars all up and down my arms and legs. I'm twenty and still haven't managed to stop. I have, however, learned some tricks that do and do not work for stopping, so I thought I'd share what I've got. 1. Stopping is...
    boochang93 boochang93 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    Hi guys, just wanted to share

    that I also suffer from this and it has now taken over my life. I am working on overcoming it and as sad as it is that this exists it brings some comfort knowing others are experiencing the same thing and have or will overcome it. Wishing you all the best in overcoming this x
    chelseybrooke chelseybrooke 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2014

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    My Dermatillomania: A Battle Cry, And A Cry For Help

    It's been only about a year, maybe a year and a half tops, since I realized that what I was doing to myself was far from normal; its been only a few weeks since I discovered that the "enemy" I have been facing all my life actually has a name and may be treatable. Currently, I am...
    Aliuka Aliuka 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    Well, I'm noticing some improvement with my

    skin :) Although it would be nice to wear a tank top without constantly checking out my shoulders and chest
    navygirl00 navygirl00 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    I've been picking at this one spot on my

    hairline for over an hour now and I just can't seem to stop.
    luisvaughan luisvaughan 18-21, T Jan 29

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    I Need a Quit Buddy!

    I desperately need to quit picking my skin. It has taken over and ruined my life and I would love to have support and provide support or just share in the experience with others who suffer from it. Anyways, let me know!
    hamiltonme hamiltonme 18-21 3 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    I Think I'm On To Something~!

    June 26th, 2010, today and yesterday, I HAVE GONE PICK FREE. almost. I have been experimenting with different off-the-wall treatments, and something is working! I'm so excited and proud.. I wanted to share this with you, and maybe this will work too, or it will give you other...
    vampgrl93 vampgrl93 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2010

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    I obsessively pick my face.

    In fact, I pick at everything. I have sores/red marks all over. I know that it's gonna make it worse if I keep picking but I just can't stop. It just keeps happening. I have scars everywhere. It's the most embarrassing thing and I absolutely hate it but I just can't stop. Does...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    Dermatillomania is something

    that I can t control.I want to tell my friend tomorrow but I m feeling very,very scared.Thank you for your support.
    dermatillom12 dermatillom12 16-17 1 Response Jan 24

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    okay so I've been doing this new thing.

    I keep both benzioly peroxide and clindamyacin on my bathroom sink. when I'm leaning in to the mirror, I can look and inspect but I can't pick. then I pick up both antibiotics and inspect for places to apply it! I apply the antibiotics tigt from the tube and I never touch it...
    beccuh beccuh 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I started wearing gloves

    when I go to sleep so I won't pick my skin while I'm asleep or right after I wake up. I've been picking my skin for about 16 years, and this is the most comforting thing I've had in a long time. Why didn't I think of this sooner?
    littlequints littlequints 26-30, F May 27

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    Bleh, I hate having the urge to pick

    while peeling from sunburn. >.< But I've been doing well, I have a pocketwatch that I can wind up and fidget. I tend to get lost in the ticking, and find that it distracts me from the urge.
    KristalC KristalC 16-17, F May 21

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    It's so awful. It makes you look ugly,

    it makes you feel bad. Have you ever heard someone say "you'd be so pretty if you didn't pick your face all the time" ... have you ever felt so terrible that you didn't want to leave your house? I've put on more make-up than a member of Cirque Du Soleil just to go get some...
    aslarter838 aslarter838 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    Hi, I'm Josh.

    Hello everyone, I'm Josh, 17 years old and I have Dermatillomania. I've had it for about 4 years, since freshmen year. It was nowhere near as bad freshmen year as it is today. I've dealt with traumatic events in my family, such as I was exorcised for being gay, and I went through...
    JoshRado JoshRado 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    I eat my puss, blackheads

    and scabs. Yeah. I just said that. After I pick, I eat. I recently joined this group and was looking through posts, but i didn't notice anything about the eating. I just wanted to put it out there so others know that your'e not alone. I think for me, thats the grossest and...
    Starchan Starchan 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    So, my butterflies faded (see first post about

    Dermotillamania if not sure what I'm talking about). I picked tonight and now I want to cry. I have the bumps up and down my arms and legs. And yet, I have to socialize tomorrow and my arms will have to be showing. Grr. I might find band-aids and put them on my arms and say my...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    it's gotten worse. I'm at school atm,

    and when no one is looking, I take off my shoe&my sock, sharpen my pencil to be angled and pointy, and then dig the pencil into my foot and pick the skin off. someone help.
    kamrideley kamrideley 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    16 And Destroyed

    I started picking at my skin when I was about 8 years old. It has taken over my life since then. I loved doing gymnastics and I had to quit because i was so embarrassed about my asking and people always asking "whats that on your arms." They would look at me like i had some kind...
    keepfighting22 keepfighting22 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    Pop, Peel and Heal and a Topical Healing Remedy

    I have picked and popped the skin on my shoulders, arms, back and now legs for nearly 20 years. I've been diagnosed with anxiety/depression and have been prescribed Zoloft (excellent during highest crisis time around my early 30s) and low doses of anti-psychotics. The anti...
    Redbuttercup Redbuttercup 36-40 31 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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