I Have Dermatillomania

Or in laymen's terms, Obsessive Self-Injurious Skin Picking 1,964 People

    I always pick at the blemishes on my face.

    I always tug at the skin around my nose. And tear the bumps around my eyes. I always scrape the scabs of my latest endeavor. I don't know how to resist the urge and I feel ashamed at the gratification The scarring and the insecurity that comes along is no longer worth it...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 23, 2015

    I beat the urge to pick.

    I understand I can relapse, but the urge is gone for now. I hope someone reads this and is inspired. You need to start somewhere. Stop wallowing in the sadness. I say that with tough love. I've BEEN there. Why me? Why can't I stop? I can and I did. I am bipolar type 1. I...
    saviscool saviscool
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2014

    I'm a 17 year old female with Dermatillomania.

    I've tried everything to stop. I have over 108 scars from my head,arms,legs,neck,head,and chest. I can't look at people directly in their eyes without feeling ashamed or sad. I want to stop, I feel like I'm alone, People I tell this to think in disgusting or crazy, They don't...
    Fall4Autumn Fall4Autumn
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

    I told someone for the first time,

    yesterday. It felt like a huge relief, like I was finally letting go of some of the shame.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    dear Derma I know while I age

    and grow you’re everywhere I go with every step, in every place while we embrace with your hand, on my face I can hardly bear the tingles everywhere feeling your longing stare but Derma, we do not belong together because I matter and it’s for the better let’s be honest...
    Annelina Annelina
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2015

    I eat my puss, blackheads

    and scabs. Yeah. I just said that. After I pick, I eat. I recently joined this group and was looking through posts, but i didn't notice anything about the eating. I just wanted to put it out there so others know that your'e not alone. I think for me, thats the grossest and...
    Starchan Starchan
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 18, 2014

    since I was 12 or 13 (in think),

    I had been scratching and picking at my back. I'm 16 now and the summer was the last time I had it real bad (I didn't know what it was or that I had it until then.) I have since gotten a lot better. I still sometimes find my self picking at my back at night but overall, I have...
    teletubbysun teletubbysun
    18-21, F
    Dec 17, 2015

    I am 16 years old and have been dealing with

    this disorder for as long as i can remember. You can find pictures of me when i was really young with band aids on my fingers because I could not stop picking at my cuticles as well as on any blemishes on the rest of my body like mosquito bites I had scratched open. As I grew up...
    renmichelle renmichelle
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 15, 2016

    I began to search the internet

    after a really bad pick session and came upon this website. It's nice to have a place where I can relate with all you guys. I'm 32 and have been picking my face since teen years. I suffer from mild acne but make it so much worse from picking. I have developed cellulose and...
    Jdski Jdski
    31-35, F
    Apr 15, 2016

    I have been obsessively picking to the point of

    bleeding, scabbing, and intense pain since the age of 12. I am now 28 and so relieved to know that I don't suffer alone. The urge to pick is something I've lost the ability to control, but I'm ready to change. To be honest, giving a name to this disorder has provided me with...
    adrienneeileen adrienneeileen
    26-30, F
    May 23, 2015

    I haven't been able to stop picking

    for years. I can't figure out what triggers me to pick. Some days it's stress, and others it's just boredom. Every single time my face gets close to being clear I start to pick again. It keeps me from leaving my house, hanging out with friends. My mom just tells "your face...
    SamBT SamBT
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2016

    Well I Used To...

    but i found out about what i was doing, and now i can consciously watch out for my triggers, and not let myself get started.. I've healed up pretty well..
    Vox Vox
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Oct 23, 2007

    I just recently discovered

    that I'm not alone with this terrible disease. I couldn't tell you how long I have been picking exactly but it's enough to have layers upon layers of scars covering my back, my shoulders, my legs, my arms, my face and anywhere else you can think of. I've noticed recently that...
    swaydear swaydear
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 22, 2014
    FerysT FerysT
    16-17, F
    Jan 19, 2016

    I don't even know where to begin.

    This all started when i was about 10-11. Puberty was just kicking in and i had developed some blemishes on my face like all teens do. My mom would be the one to pop them since i didn't know what to do but once i understood i would pop them myself. I don't really know when this...
    xxleahx xxleahx
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016


    I only found out there was a name for it recently. I've been doing it ever since my preteen years. Got a nice collection of scars and puckers now, particularly concentrated in my shoulders, upper arms, and breast areas. When I'm stressed I just do it automatically, and then come...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter
    26-30, F
    16 Responses Oct 22, 2007

    Endorphins And Dermatillomania

    I was watching YouTube videos on strange addictions when I came across one for a woman who picks her skin. And a psychologist stated a point that: 'When a person first picks, they feel pain so the brains way of dealing with this is to release endorphins and the person can become...
    TheLongHaul TheLongHaul
    6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

    16 And Destroyed

    I started picking at my skin when I was about 8 years old. It has taken over my life since then. I loved doing gymnastics and I had to quit because i was so embarrassed about my asking and people always asking "whats that on your arms." They would look at me like i had some kind...
    keepfighting22 keepfighting22
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

    I am a male 43 years old living in the UK

    and have managed to scratch my thumbnail with my teeth and now it is scratched and i look at it every day & question myself. I find myself looking at other peoples nails to see if they have anything wrong with their's and I have bitten the skin around my fingers since school, i...
    bigadee bigadee
    41-45, M
    Mar 9, 2016
    beccuh beccuh
    18-21, F
    Jun 23, 2015

    Hi guys, just wanted to share

    that I also suffer from this and it has now taken over my life. I am working on overcoming it and as sad as it is that this exists it brings some comfort knowing others are experiencing the same thing and have or will overcome it. Wishing you all the best in overcoming this x
    chelseybrooke chelseybrooke
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    At least I think I have.

    I don't know. Right now, I need to go brush my teeth before going to bed, but I'm putting off doing that because I know I'll have to be in the bathroom with mirrors. And if I stop by a mirror long enough to see my face, I'll start squeezing every pore and pimple on my face, I...
    4lle 4lle
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    Well, I'm noticing some improvement with my

    skin :) Although it would be nice to wear a tank top without constantly checking out my shoulders and chest
    navygirl00 navygirl00
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    I'm going to beat dermatillomania!

    ! Who's with me? I know it will take a long time, I know there will be ups&downs (especially downs) but I won't give up! I'm going to be happy again. Dermatillomania will not control my life :)
    juuull juuull
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 25, 2014

    I have been picking my skin ever

    since I was a little girl. When I was young i had eczema so i used to pick at it all the time. I have never been able to stop. It was never that bad until about two years ago. I used to just pick at little things...no big deal right? Well now its uncontrollable and i have scars...
    Gir583 Gir583
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2014

    Can't Stop Skin Picking

    how can I stop skin picking? been doing it over 15 years. I've never been seen for any mental disorders. But this dam skin picking is taking over my body.  I can't attend certain social settings because of my skin, I wear long sleeves year round, Its over 100 degrees here in...
    whiskers5555 whiskers5555
    18 Responses Jun 2, 2009

    It's so awful. It makes you look ugly,

    it makes you feel bad. Have you ever heard someone say "you'd be so pretty if you didn't pick your face all the time" ... have you ever felt so terrible that you didn't want to leave your house? I've put on more make-up than a member of Cirque Du Soleil just to go get some...
    aslarter838 aslarter838
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 4, 2014

    For me, I don't pick my face like others

    usually do. I pick my hands, feet, legs, and lips. The hands are the easiest for me to pick without looking like a weirdo (lips is second) so those two get torn up really bad and bleed a lot. I've even started picking the skin on my palm as well. I've had it ever since I can...
    Fuukoa Fuukoa
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    Skin Picking Disorder.

    I never ever thought that I would have this. ahah. but I do. Sometimes I wonder, why can't I just STOP? Each time after I pick, I'll go look in the mirror, see my bloody scabs and bumps swelling up, and cringe, thinking, "Wow. How could I do this to myself. I look...
    Starchan Starchan
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    I started going to a picking therapy group

    and I cannot respect the other ladies (four others, I like small groups!) enough! I am amazed that four other people exist in my town with this same problem. At first, I felt like I was clearly the worst one in the room because I pick at my face everyday and have scabs that can...
    thelastflower thelastflower
    31-35, F
    Sep 25, 2015

    Pop, Peel and Heal and a Topical Healing Remedy

    I have picked and popped the skin on my shoulders, arms, back and now legs for nearly 20 years. I've been diagnosed with anxiety/depression and have been prescribed Zoloft (excellent during highest crisis time around my early 30s) and low doses of anti-psychotics. The anti...
    Redbuttercup Redbuttercup
    31 Responses Apr 7, 2008

    I can't stop picking at scabs

    and acne, especially on my scalp and inside my ears. It's so embarrassing when I can't stop worrying over a spot in class because I know everyone else can see me sticking my finger in my ear and sometimes I have to leave class to wash blood off my hands. I wish I could stop.
    emgetsby emgetsby
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2016

    I have always suffered from this condition,

    but it became so so much worse after my assault nearly two years ago. The skin on my face is thin and discolored, and I'm often ashamed to leave the house. This OCD-related disorder is heavily impacting my everyday life and all I want is to feel beautiful again. Starting today...
    erinluna erinluna
    18-21, F
    Feb 25, 2016

    I think the day I started picking is the day I

    stopped chewing. For years I chewed my fingers to the point of infection. I had no nails, I completely chewed them off. It wasn't just a habit, it was a condition: dermatophagia. Eventually I stopped chewing my fingers and started chewing my cheeks, not that spitting blood and...
    howamisupposedtodothis howamisupposedtodothis
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    ...And I don't know what to do about it.

    I don't know how to get better, and I don't know how to talk to my friends, family, or doctor about it. I feel like they just won't get it. But because dermatillomania is so misunderstood, I think it's important to share my story. Maybe someone out there is going through the...
    onemoreusername onemoreusername
    22-25, F
    Mar 30, 2016

    I've been doing this

    for most of my life. My earliest memory of it is seventh grade, which was during the early 2000s. It's hard to stop, especially if there is loose skin anywhere on my body. People are always telling me, "Stop picking!" A lot of people don't understand it, but they do worry about...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 1, 2015

    When I was in middle/high school,

    my friends moms face was really scarred and pockmarked. She noticed I had a habit of picking at my acne and told me if I didn't stop my face would end up like hers. I try not to do it, but I'm starting to get scarring on my face (and other places like my back for example...
    texile texile
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

    I Wish I Knew A Few Of You.

    I have been picking my skin since I was fifteen years old. I won't ever forget the first time someone noticed it. My doctor put me through a slew of tests, thinking that it was a skin disease or something of the kind. The whole time I was sitting on that table in her office I was...
    DjunaB DjunaB
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2012

    Jeese. Ive been picking

    for years on end. Its a terrible fixation. And i can lose myself in picking for hours without realizing how much time has gone by. I love it when i do it; it's satisfying, which is why i cant stop. But, the aftermath isnt worth it. The guilt, the shame, regret, the reopened...
    goutte goutte
    26-30, F
    Feb 22, 2016

    I feel so mad when I see people saying they

    have dermatillomania and barely have a spot. I can't stop and it makes me cry everyday. And the worst is that I can hide it so well novody knows I am going wrong. It's so hard for people without any addiction to understand it. It's extremely powerful. I get spams and almost seem...
    Fan94 Fan94
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2015

    Hi everyone! Today is the first time I

    discovered that there is a name to what I have suffered in silence from. I'm 24 years old, my name is Alyx, and for more than half of my young life, my own skin has been a prison. I have lied to everyone and told them that the lesions that cover one entire side of my face and my...
    EnigmaticDogma EnigmaticDogma
    26-30, F
    Jan 22, 2015

    I have Dermatillomania.

    I always find myself drawn to my mirror after the shower when I have clean skin. Sometimes I think about papering it up so I can't see my skin but.. It's massive. It's a huge double sliding mirror cupboard. Probably over a decade I've had some form of this, I'm surprised my...
    frenchcherry frenchcherry
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2015

    Remember: it's the little victories

    that count. Today, I used the restroom without picking at any of the scabs on exposed lower half!! We can all get through this. Sending you my love, -Rin
    erinluna erinluna
    18-21, F
    Feb 25, 2016

    Well, I'm 25 years old

    and I have been picking my skin for 15 years at least. It really bothers me because I feel shame to be in social situations after a skin picking episode... I believe that this problem has damaged me to meet people and become close friends, because several times I avoid going out...
    carolinagarcia carolinagarcia
    26-30, F
    Aug 21, 2014

    do it for the confidence you always wanted!

    do it for all the scars and blood and damage! WE CAN BEAT THIS
    Alycat05 Alycat05
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    EVERY single clothing item I have

    now had some sort of blood stain on it. This is getting ridiculous. I'd laugh if I didn't feel like crying.
    FerysT FerysT
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016

    I've been tearing my skin off

    since I was about 12 or so. It's incredibly difficult to stop. Everyone I live with hates it, and I understand why. It's disgusting, and they worry about me. Given my previous job, it's amazing I haven't had a blood infection. "Stop picking!" I hear that a lot. The worst of it...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 28, 2016

    I have tried a few thing over the past couple

    of years. Since nothing really worked I didn't quite feel the need to share it. I recently tried one method that seemed to work. Although I have fallen back recently, I still feel like this might be the way out. Therefore, I figured I'd share this and the other things I tried...
    Annelina Annelina
    18-21, F
    Jan 11, 2016

    Trying To Stop? Maybe I Can Help.

    Hi girls, I have been picking since before I can remember. I have scars all up and down my arms and legs. I'm twenty and still haven't managed to stop. I have, however, learned some tricks that do and do not work for stopping, so I thought I'd share what I've got. 1. Stopping is...
    boochang93 boochang93
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2011

    I have picked every inch of un-smooth skin since

    before I could properly walk or talk.My picking occurs every single day in different stages and areas. In early elementary school it was my thumbs, fingers, chewing thew inside of my cheeks and I would pick at every mosquito bite I could find along my body. I would pick and chew...
    dermahawk dermahawk
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    it tears me down and makes me want to cry.

    everyone in my school has perfect clear legs and i have craters in my legs from digging, no one gets it..
    baileyhires baileyhires
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    I Think I'm On To Something~!

    June 26th, 2010, today and yesterday, I HAVE GONE PICK FREE. almost. I have been experimenting with different off-the-wall treatments, and something is working! I'm so excited and proud.. I wanted to share this with you, and maybe this will work too, or it will give you other...
    vampgrl93 vampgrl93
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 26, 2010

    Hi, I'm Josh.

    Hello everyone, I'm Josh, 17 years old and I have Dermatillomania. I've had it for about 4 years, since freshmen year. It was nowhere near as bad freshmen year as it is today. I've dealt with traumatic events in my family, such as I was exorcised for being gay, and I went through...
    JoshRado JoshRado
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Oct 6, 2012

    It wasn't until recently

    that I found out about this. I never knew there was a name for it, but as soon as I did, it clicked. I've been biting my nails since I was a kid. Not like normal biting. Like.. Picking the skin off until it bleeds. I've always hated my zits just like everyone else but I never...
    verifiedsalemwitch verifiedsalemwitch
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 27, 2015

    I always pick at my face

    before going out. Always choosing the best moments...-_-
    Fan94 Fan94
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 31, 2015

    It's not that bad for me yet

    but I didn't know it was a disorder til just recently when I decided to look up YouTube videos of hair plucking and let me tell u I had a mind ****** !!! Then was curious to read the comments and sure enough I related to everyone there .
    deleted deleted
    Nov 23, 2015

    Alone, Ashamed, Flawed

    It wasn't until a few months ago I even realized I had a problem. For some reason I thought what I did was normal - that other people probably scratch and pick at their skin sometimes. I guess when I started noticing just how often I was doing it, and the amount time...
    BehindAMask BehindAMask
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Feb 21, 2009
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