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I Have Dermatillomania

Or in laymen's terms, Obsessive Self-Injurious Skin Picking 1,869 People

    Dermatillomania is something

    that I can t control.I want to tell my friend tomorrow but I m feeling very,very scared.Thank you for your support.
    dermatillom12 dermatillom12 16-17 Jan 24

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    Endorphins And Dermatillomania

    I was watching YouTube videos on strange addictions when I came across one for a woman who picks her skin. And a psychologist stated a point that: 'When a person first picks, they feel pain so the brains way of dealing with this is to release endorphins and the person can become...
    TheLongHaul TheLongHaul 13-15 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    Tips On Stopping The Picking

    Hey guys, Now I know everyone is different and we all have our own methodologies and routines. I happen to pick at my face excessively, my back less often (because I can't see my back) and very mildly my chest area. My back and my chest I am not too worried about because it...
    filful filful 18-21, F 28 Responses Jun 14, 2010

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    It started when I was about 10,

    I got a splinter in my toe and I picked it out with a needle. Most people stop after the splinter is out but for some reason my brain found it fascinating. Ten years later and my poor feet are all scarred up especially my big toe. I've graduated from just the bottoms of my toes...
    irongirl135 irongirl135 18-21, F Nov 19, 2014

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    Alone, Ashamed, Flawed

    It wasn't until a few months ago I even realized I had a problem. For some reason I thought what I did was normal - that other people probably scratch and pick at their skin sometimes. I guess when I started noticing just how often I was doing it, and the amount time...
    BehindAMask BehindAMask 22-25, F 7 Responses Feb 21, 2009

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    I never knew until today

    that there was a name for what I have. I read a book by Margaret Atwood called Cat's Eye in which the main character reacted to stress by peeling the skin off her feet. I used to do this - I was too shy to tell anyone, but I used to walk around in agony. I wanted to write to...
    olagram olagram 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I Wish I Knew A Few Of You.

    I have been picking my skin since I was fifteen years old. I won't ever forget the first time someone noticed it. My doctor put me through a slew of tests, thinking that it was a skin disease or something of the kind. The whole time I was sitting on that table in her office I was...
    DjunaB DjunaB 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    morning, I think I have the picking under

    control at the moment, good luck to everyone.
    chezasmile chezasmile 41-45, F Jan 28

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    I just recently discovered

    that I'm not alone with this terrible disease. I couldn't tell you how long I have been picking exactly but it's enough to have layers upon layers of scars covering my back, my shoulders, my legs, my arms, my face and anywhere else you can think of. I've noticed recently that...
    swaydear swaydear 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    Yep.

    I only found out there was a name for it recently. I've been doing it ever since my preteen years. Got a nice collection of scars and puckers now, particularly concentrated in my shoulders, upper arms, and breast areas. When I'm stressed I just do it automatically, and then come...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 15 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    I Think I Know How To Stop

    I noticed something about my breathing while I was picking. We've been doing a lot of breathing and meditation exercises in DBT, so I was paying more attention to my breathing than normal. When I detected a spot that I felt warranted picking, I reflexively emptied my lungs of...
    wishmeluck wishmeluck 26-30 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    I eat my puss, blackheads

    and scabs. Yeah. I just said that. After I pick, I eat. I recently joined this group and was looking through posts, but i didn't notice anything about the eating. I just wanted to put it out there so others know that your'e not alone. I think for me, thats the grossest and...
    Starchan Starchan 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    It's so awful. It makes you look ugly,

    it makes you feel bad. Have you ever heard someone say "you'd be so pretty if you didn't pick your face all the time" ... have you ever felt so terrible that you didn't want to leave your house? I've put on more make-up than a member of Cirque Du Soleil just to go get some...
    aslarter838 aslarter838 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    I'm going to beat dermatillomania!

    ! Who's with me? I know it will take a long time, I know there will be ups&downs (especially downs) but I won't give up! I'm going to be happy again. Dermatillomania will not control my life :)
    juuull juuull 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2014

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    I Think I'm On To Something~!

    June 26th, 2010, today and yesterday, I HAVE GONE PICK FREE. almost. I have been experimenting with different off-the-wall treatments, and something is working! I'm so excited and proud.. I wanted to share this with you, and maybe this will work too, or it will give you other...
    vampgrl93 vampgrl93 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2010

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    Hello, I am new to this entire website,

    but I need somewhere discreet where I can post and vent about this particular subject;I have Kerotisis Pilaris, when I was younger I would pick scabs from getting hurt, so now (Seventeen) I'm covered in scars from simple scraps that I couldn't stop picking as a child.Now with KP...
    JoeyGratata JoeyGratata 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    Trying To Stop? Maybe I Can Help.

    Hi girls, I have been picking since before I can remember. I have scars all up and down my arms and legs. I'm twenty and still haven't managed to stop. I have, however, learned some tricks that do and do not work for stopping, so I thought I'd share what I've got. 1. Stopping is...
    boochang93 boochang93 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    So, my butterflies faded (see first post about

    Dermotillamania if not sure what I'm talking about). I picked tonight and now I want to cry. I have the bumps up and down my arms and legs. And yet, I have to socialize tomorrow and my arms will have to be showing. Grr. I might find band-aids and put them on my arms and say my...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I've had it for most of my life.

    When I was little I did it when my parents fought and stuff, and it only got worse. I do it when I'm nervous. Mostly I just pick my nails, lips, and scalp a LOT and they bleed often but it's been getting to the point that I've been picking on my chest, arms, legs, and face. I...
    polyglotparrot polyglotparrot 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    I can't stop picking at my scalp,

    the dry skin around my nose or my fingernails. I've picked till I've bled and had soreness and redness...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    So i recently self diagnosed myself with this.

    I really hate doing this to myself and the scars that i make on my face. My parents are constantly yelling at me for it to. I just need a bit of encouragement, I havn't picked for almost 2 weeks but my parents are constantly nagging at me and joking about the part of myself that...
    skinpicking skinpicking 16-17 2 Responses Jan 1

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    increase and EmotionalTension Realease when you are in baja california!!!
    carloslara7 carloslara7 31-35, M Nov 29, 2014

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    A little update: My picking hasn't really

    gotten all that much worse, and everything's starting to heal. I find that I carry a pen with me to fidget with, so I don't feel the need to pick, though I'm making sure that my skin is as clean as I can get it when I shower. I find that loofah's help, as they make your skin...
    KristalC KristalC 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    I'm a 17 year old female with Dermatillomania.

    I've tried everything to stop. I have over 108 scars from my head,arms,legs,neck,head,and chest. I can't look at people directly in their eyes without feeling ashamed or sad. I want to stop, I feel like I'm alone, People I tell this to think in disgusting or crazy, They don't...
    Fall4Autumn Fall4Autumn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2014

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    I have Dermatillomania.

    I always find myself drawn to my mirror after the shower when I have clean skin. Sometimes I think about papering it up so I can't see my skin but.. It's massive. It's a huge double sliding mirror cupboard. Probably over a decade I've had some form of this, I'm surprised my...
    frenchcherry frenchcherry 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Hi everyone! Today is the first time I

    discovered that there is a name to what I have suffered in silence from. I'm 24 years old, my name is Alyx, and for more than half of my young life, my own skin has been a prison. I have lied to everyone and told them that the lesions that cover one entire side of my face and my...
    EnigmaticDogma EnigmaticDogma 22-25, F Jan 22

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    revl revl 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    Hi. I think I have dermatillomania,

    but I'm not sure. Having read other stories, mine is not very severe, but still... It doesn't let me be happy. I'm 22 now. When I was a child, I used to pick all my small wounds that I used to get, and scratch my legs and arms. Then it stopped for a few years, and when I was 14...
    drama3 drama3 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    Hi guys, just wanted to share

    that I also suffer from this and it has now taken over my life. I am working on overcoming it and as sad as it is that this exists it brings some comfort knowing others are experiencing the same thing and have or will overcome it. Wishing you all the best in overcoming this x
    chelseybrooke chelseybrooke 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2014

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    I Need a Quit Buddy!

    I desperately need to quit picking my skin. It has taken over and ruined my life and I would love to have support and provide support or just share in the experience with others who suffer from it. Anyways, let me know!
    hamiltonme hamiltonme 18-21 3 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    i started becoming obsessed with my skin

    when I grew up to realize I have a pretty face. Whilst I always had anxiety and suffered on and off with depression this new obsessive habit of staring at imperfections for hours became life consuming. At first I found myself skipping a few days of school to days where i would...
    bornblue bornblue 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I told someone for the first time,

    yesterday. It felt like a huge relief, like I was finally letting go of some of the shame.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    Last time I met with my counselor,

    she told me to think of a small goal that I could work towards to stop picking. So I went home and I decided that I wasn't going to pick in the bathroom anymore for the next week. If I could do that, I was going to try another week and so on. It turns out, I was able to do it...
    Starchan Starchan 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    16 And Destroyed

    I started picking at my skin when I was about 8 years old. It has taken over my life since then. I loved doing gymnastics and I had to quit because i was so embarrassed about my asking and people always asking "whats that on your arms." They would look at me like i had some kind...
    keepfighting22 keepfighting22 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I have been picking my skin ever

    since I was a little girl. When I was young i had eczema so i used to pick at it all the time. I have never been able to stop. It was never that bad until about two years ago. I used to just pick at little things...no big deal right? Well now its uncontrollable and i have scars...
    Gir583 Gir583 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I find it very hard to control

    picking/mutilation since it's something I do absentmindedly when stressed. Usually I don't even notice I'm doing it. I recently had somebody I didn't know scold me in public for picking at my skin. It took me by surprise because I hadn't realized I was doing it. I had to leave...
    birdy037 birdy037 18-21, F Nov 11, 2014

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    Well, I'm noticing some improvement with my

    skin :) Although it would be nice to wear a tank top without constantly checking out my shoulders and chest
    navygirl00 navygirl00 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    So I've had dermatillomania

    for two years, it started because my girlfriend at that time break up with me, I got depressed, I was really devastated so I started picking my face, now I pick my face, neck and chest as well. 28 days ago I decided to stop and started a 30 days challenge as a first step for my...
    esteban211 esteban211 22-25, M Jan 3

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    i pick my face, my back,

    and the places where i self harm. thats why my cuts never heal ;—;
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I just found out that I have Dermatillomania.

    Or at least something similar. I am always picking at my arm and it leaves red marks. Sometimes it'll bleed. I'm trying to stop picking, but it is so hard. I started in, maybe, sixth grade. I stopped for a while in seventh grade, but it started back up the beginning of this...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Well, I'm 25 years old

    and I have been picking my skin for 15 years at least. It really bothers me because I feel shame to be in social situations after a skin picking episode... I believe that this problem has damaged me to meet people and become close friends, because several times I avoid going out...
    carolinagarcia carolinagarcia 26-30, F Aug 21, 2014

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    Well I Used To...

    but i found out about what i was doing, and now i can consciously watch out for my triggers, and not let myself get started.. I've healed up pretty well..
    Vox Vox 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    Hi, I'm 21 m I had to learn to control my

    urges with trial and error. Error mostly, but hey.. I want to see that light at the end of the tunnel so badly. What effectively works for me is: 1. Avoid touching your face. 2.Maintenance picking should be controlled.(Set an alarm or ask someone to do it for you) 3.When you...
    Viansalot Viansalot 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 7, 2014

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    I beat the urge to pick.

    I understand I can relapse, but the urge is gone for now. I hope someone reads this and is inspired. You need to start somewhere. Stop wallowing in the sadness. I say that with tough love. I've BEEN there. Why me? Why can't I stop? I can and I did. I am bipolar type 1. I...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2014

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    Pop, Peel and Heal and a Topical Healing Remedy

    I have picked and popped the skin on my shoulders, arms, back and now legs for nearly 20 years. I've been diagnosed with anxiety/depression and have been prescribed Zoloft (excellent during highest crisis time around my early 30s) and low doses of anti-psychotics. The anti...
    Redbuttercup Redbuttercup 36-40 30 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    Hi, I'm Josh.

    Hello everyone, I'm Josh, 17 years old and I have Dermatillomania. I've had it for about 4 years, since freshmen year. It was nowhere near as bad freshmen year as it is today. I've dealt with traumatic events in my family, such as I was exorcised for being gay, and I went through...
    JoshRado JoshRado 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    Two days ago I went completely overboard

    picking my face, neck, ears, and chest. I have 5 different spots on my face now that are completely scanned over, with the largest one being a full two inches long and half an inch wide. It hurts to move my face now, which means talking, eating, smiling. I hate this so much and...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Hi peeps. I'm a 26 year old woman & i have

    suffered with dermatillomania since i was about 13. Looking back on that...it's such a long time! I'm not proud of it! I am from Australia & i wasn't aware of what this illness was until about 3-4 years ago!! I was so relieved to find out it had a name like so many...
    flyingblossom flyingblossom 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    I Just Want To Stop Picking!!!

    I don't know when exactly I started picking but it has gradually gotten worse over the past years.I mostly pick my face but will also pick my shoulders, back and chest.Most of time I don't even realize doing it..I will be reading a book or watching tv and just start picking away...
    dani115 dani115 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    and its destroying my life

    and my doctor seems unwilling to help. I was recently diagnoised with personality disorder the emoional kind. Which doesnt sound good and apparently dr's want the name changed its due to the fact i was abused from the age of 9 to 12 and another side effect of this is ocd...
    rachroo2015 rachroo2015 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I think I need plastic surgery again.

    .. This will be the third time... All on my face... I'm scared bs miserable. Help me!!!!
    Thiseffingsux Thiseffingsux 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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