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I Have Dissociative Identity Disorder

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    Healthy Multiplicity

    I have a case of what I like to call extremely mild DID. Others call it "Healthy Multiplicity". Basically, it's a form of DID that isn't considered to be a disorder, but just a condition. It doesn't cause any problems for me, and I am actually really glad I have it. I just wish I...
    saltyshelley saltyshelley 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    so i'm really curious about this,

    how does your system handle relationships? do you let alters date or does the host only date/whatever else???
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 3 Responses Dec 6

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    Have any of you ever had an alter start to

    remove other alters, or kill them to make themselves more prominent? To try to make it just the two of you? So they have more control...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 6 Responses Oct 28

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    People keep telling me to write about my life.

    But its hard when you're only present 1/6th of the time.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    Not Doing Well...8/6/13

    The part of me/us that thinks "She just needs to not exist," is active again. It's scary. This part wants me dead, because I'm the problem. I'm also fighting not to self-injure. This is all a very familiarly unpleasant place, but I thought we were doing better, here.
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 13 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    So, I've been doing research on DID

    and have come across some interesting things that made me think, like common names in alters. So I wanted to ask everyone who is willing to respond...who has alters named Jesse, Jessica or any derivative of those names.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 8 Responses Nov 11

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    My Headmates

    I have DID. I have had this ever since I was eleven, and I don't know how to really explain them all, so I'll make a list (much like my alter egos. The sad thing about my alter egos is that they receded into their world [Yes, I have a world in my head. It's much like Wonderland...
    ManicAttack ManicAttack 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    My old therapist moved out of state.

    She really understood me and my alters and had spoken to most of them at least once. My new therapist? hes a skeptic. Joy. He insists that I'm delusional and a malingerer (someone who makes things up to get medical attention) now i really have nobody to talk to about it on a...
    dianadra dianadra 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    Anybody As Full As I Am? Lol

    Hello i am living with 19 alters...some good...some bad...and i really would like to talk to somebody else who has them...its really awkward for me to talk about this but i figure if im going to this is the best place to do so
    MissRabbit MissRabbit 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    My host husband asked me to have sex with him

    despite knowing it's me and not his wife. I felt disgusted!
    Shabee74 Shabee74 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    has an alter in your system ever fallen in love

    with someone who they are...how should I word this correctly hmmm...unsuited for?
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 2 Responses Nov 21

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    I've not been well. I wish I could explain to

    my boyfriend to get him to understand. Sometimes he makes things worse but I know I am hurting him so bad. When I SI it hurts him and when I talk about SUI it hurts him. I act like a spoiled brat and a little child because I never really learned how to be an adult. I just don't...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Dec 10

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    Did-nos-wtf

    Apparently I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified....The kids in my head are all like "We TOLD you so!" Well, they were right. ...I was reminded we may not have found everyone yet... That's a little ominous. Maybe that's where the intrusive thoughts come...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Dec 1

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    I'm questioning whether I have DID

    or not. Are there any other disorders that have separate personalities? I had two- Leah and Alan. Leah first openly appeared to me when I was 14, although I think she's been around a bit longer than that. Alan appeared around 16ish. He was an ***, he was horrible to both Leah...
    spreadsothin spreadsothin 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    we have changed! the system is

    so different now! i wasn't even apart of this before! is this normal? i feel nervous honestly
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 2 Responses Nov 13

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    well once again things have gone a bit overly

    complicated for me. I went to the hospital on the 24th of December got stitches in my arm the cut was really deep again. didn't get out till the 25th I walked home in the dark alone and then got back to the house. I'm in a new house again by the way. I don't know why I can't...
    tallestshadow tallestshadow 22-25, T 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Jaqueline's Story

     My name is Jaqueline. I am around 16 years old and havebeen for a very long time.  I am one of the vast manyin the system that goes here by Truth_Speaks.Recently, in emails, a very good friend of ours here onEP has been talking about feeling like things were herfault...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 7 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    Afraid Of Losing Someone...

    This has always been a fear of mine and my alters. I lost my parents at a young age. My father died in a fire and my mother died of a brain hemmorage. My grandpa passed away at a young age and my grandma just died recently. I am always afraid of someone I love dying, especially...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    So just curious, what are all the names of

    different peopls personalities? what are their corresponding ages? Mine are: Danica - 5 Riot - 19 Anna - 22 Aya - 23 Fox - 28 Tora - 32 Nyx - 38
    aya962 aya962 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 5

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    Sometimes I Feel Possessed

    There are many times the people in my head are talking to me and in the middle of their sentence their words would continue out my mouth without me knowing what they were going to say. I know this sounds completely weird. I have lost all my outside friends because of this problem...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 11, 2013

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    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Dec 10

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    Does anyone else live in,

    or has ever lived in an environment that doesn't support their illness? I'm trying my best to keep everything under control around my family but it's not working. I just keep getting more depressed and less functional. I don't know how to communicate with them in an effective...
    annabanana1907 annabanana1907 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    Being DID and BiPolar feels like this to me.

    ..(I'm probably going to switch half-way through writing this, so bear with me) I live in this physical world that's just so-so and nothing fantastic ever happens, nothing exciting, everything just feels flat. I have my manic days or weeks where I feel ok and then ultra...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 2

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    I am just frustrated today!

    ! I am usually pretty good with accepting all the struggles that go with being a multiple but, today, I just feel like I am at the end of my rope!! I am under a lot of stress right now. I have been struggling with some pretty major health issues, Christmas is coming (major...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    um hi! I'm Lou Lou! I'm 8 years old

    and a little from the Hotel system. I just wanted to say Hi and ask how everyone is and try and make some friends ^^
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 6

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    being cc is such a weird feeling its like two

    other people are seeing what im doin right now weird
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Nov 28

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    Has anyone had any parts integrate before?

    I've had a few minor parts merge with me or another part. Now 4 of my main parts are ready to integrate. It's wonderful but also very scary. I don't know if I am strong enough to go through with it.
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 20

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    A question that I've always wanted to ask.

    Does anyone have an alter by the name of Hyde? I've always wondered...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M Oct 25

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    So my host's boyfriend messed up really badly

    one night and now she is gone (we communicate with each other when it helps us) has anyone else had this experience? if so what did you do? he keeps trying to stay in contact with me but i really don't like him at all and just want him to leave me alone but he wants to be here...
    aya962 aya962 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    So I have a problem. One of my alters,

    Lara, is suicidal and cuts herself. When she does this she harms the whole system and if she dies, we all do. Her depression is really bad. I know because I've lived it. I cannot control anymore and I'm scared she might do something drastic. Please advise
    Lisawellsliveson Lisawellsliveson 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    We're Doing WHAT????

    Katherine, who appears to be my internal self helper? She wants us to integrate. She doesn't care how much chaos this causes, because she wants us to "shine."I asked her how long this will take, she said two years...... 8[ ...That's fast. Really fast.Basically...to de...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 9 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    Two Peas In A Pod

    For a long time in my life, I knew I shared my mind with someone else. It wasn't until my late teens that I was determined to actually be co-conscious. My experience with this 'disorder' has been so incredibly positive, I've gained a friend and a new outlook on life. In my mind...
    TheDreamQueen TheDreamQueen 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    Hm, May As Well Make A Post.

    Well, I figured I'd post something to get to know other people who live under similar-ish circumstances, and possibly make friends with them (well, I suppose that's a no brainer). I guess I'll tell you guys about, uh, my body's life? (I think that's the most appropriate way of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 9, 2013

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    SO Since I Last Posted We Have Got A New Host.

    ... Which Is Good Cause Mike Was Getting Fed Up Playing Host So Now We Got Me - Mist :D And Im Still Learning Lots Of Things But Its Alright....But Its Hard Getting Used To The Other All Yelling Things Out... Some Of The Things The Younger Ones Say Are Soo Funny Mist~
    LoonyBinOffical LoonyBinOffical 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    For over seven months,

    I've been in a relationship with someone, problem is I have a very sexual alter who is getting jealous of mine and his relationship... Is it bad of me to say I'd rather have her sleep with him than someone else, even though he wouldn't because it's not me... She's super...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I have a whole playlist of songs

    that make me feel understood, these are the ones that focus on my DID... "Animal I have Become" Three Days Grace "Monster" Skillet "I am an Illusion" Rob Thomas "All These Years" Adema "Let Me Be Myself" 3 Doors Down "One X" Three Days Grace "Chameleon Boy" Blue October "Ugly...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 1

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    Ok, so I haven't been officially diagnosed with

    DID but this is the most active place for dissociative issues and I need some input. Hope I don't offend anyone. Thanks. Here goes: I've been drinking A LOT lately. Smoked weed, a lot of it. It was really good, but I did feel guilty at the same time only because I'm a nurse...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    And my alters have decided

    that they have found us the one. I'm just wondering if anyone else has alters like mine. Because of my alters all being me, and the fact that I have no sense of romantic attraction to anyone at all I'm pretty much asexual. But onto my alters they all have their own ideas of the...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    From what I can tell this disorder,

    disease, adventure, experience (whatever you want to call it) is highly personalized. Everyone who is diagnosed has a very different experience. I think that really contributes to the confusion that most of the people with DID already live with. I'm just coming to realize that...
    annabanana1907 annabanana1907 18-21, F Feb 8

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    Don't Even Know Who I Am

    That is right, I don't even know who I am. Am I the host of this body or not? What is going on inside makes no sense to me. Our supposed host doesn't even know who she is so how are we supposed to know who we are or why? Nothing makes much sense no more. Confused and alone
    Rachel4now Rachel4now 31-35, F 20 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    About Me: Medi

    This is the first in a series of writings everybody in this body will participate in (assuming they go on EP at all). Its intent is to allow the reader to get to know each person in this body better, with information about the writer coming directly from the writer, thus avoiding...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 26, 2013

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    I've had DID all my life,

    but disscovvered this last year through therapy. I have at least 8 alters but only know 6 of their names. I fully understand now why my life has Never normal. I am very glad to finally know and accept them. I do however need much support. Because I could not continue therapy...
    JanaMG JanaMG 61-65, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    being a male alter in a female body is very

    confusing, but i've been rolling with it for so long that it stops being that way!! i'm now starting to consider myself as agender since i can't really put myself in the gender binary anymore? i'm so confused @____@
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 6 days ago

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    New... I Am A Hotel-Head who just spent 2 hours retype what we accidentially deleted the first time!! LOL

    Hello to the Group! I'm "M", and I am a "Hotel-Head". This is a term the kids came up with to describe the number of people in here and the chaos that follows them. Some of ours "check out" (deal with the "real" world), while some seem to have "do not disturb" signs wielded to...
    MoriBlue MoriBlue 46-50 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    do people not understand

    when im fronting that its just me fronting? dont ask to talk to anyone else cause thats not how it ******* works! i cant just make others front on a whim! appreciate me while im fronting!
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Nov 15

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    Dating Someone With Dissociative Identity Disorder

      I am currently seeing someone with DID.The man I am seeing is wonderful!Lets call him Gavin.Gavin is happy-go-lucky, easy to talk to, understanding, optimistic, and so many more things…We have an amazing bond, unlike any I have ever shared with another human being...
    Neenie907 Neenie907 22-25, F 10 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    I can guarantee I will be crying during this

    movie. Inside Out http://m.imdb.com/title/tt2096673/
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Nov 27

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    I don't know which of my alters are alters.

    I mean, if I had to count them, they're smth like 50. But I feel like there's two kinds of people in the system: - The lost souls, that seem to be some people who got here, idk how. They're not me, they're just people who lives there in the system. They have different ages...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I hate how blown up DID is in the media.

    I have it, it is no walk in the park... It's not easy... And no one should EVER wish to have it... But I am far from crazy. I just can't deal with things.
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 5

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