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I Have Dissociative Identity Disorder

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    Yes I do and I'm not ashamed of it!

    When I'm emotional or tired or just insecure I can switch without me wanting it. I have 4 known alters and a few I don't know yet. The 4 who show themselves the most are the ones I like the less (does that make sense?) Some are really draining, when they are in the back again I...
    Celasta Celasta 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    Im sitting here and Boy is screaming at the top

    of his lungs BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD NOOOO NOOO NOO BAD BAD and kicking and hitting anyone that try to touch him and get him to calm down....my head is killing me
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M Mar 20

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    New... I Am A Hotel-Head who just spent 2 hours retype what we accidentially deleted the first time!! LOL

    Hello to the Group! I'm "M", and I am a "Hotel-Head". This is a term the kids came up with to describe the number of people in here and the chaos that follows them. Some of ours "check out" (deal with the "real" world), while some seem to have "do not disturb" signs wielded to...
    MoriBlue MoriBlue 46-50 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    My Inners/Alters Whatever...

    I am currently up to 6. My therapist says I am not DID, this p1ssed the kids off, so they made me forget appointments for a month. ...They basically thought she was saying they aren't real... ...I LIKE my "kids", whatever they are. They helped me survive.  They STILL help me...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 5 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    So Ash has gone back to the inside world he

    been "host" for like 3 weeks now all of us have been just staying in the inside world often but we realize he need a break so he just staying inside for now on so Ice will be playing host, an Ash will be coming out every so often to do something or if u ask for him. James~
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    My Experience of a D.i.d (multilpe) Life

       I'm a 40 year old woman (but really I feel like a lot of much younger on inside) . Ive been aware of my system for 12 years .. I am poly multiple which means I keep splitting.  I have family groups within me but countless alters .I have Some (12 )well...
    thruthelookinglass thruthelookinglass 36-40, F 4 Responses May 17, 2009

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    hi my name is georgie i am 32 f

    and i have DID also. i am here to help other ppl out with their DID. if u and everyone there want to talk about any thing at all u all can talk to me about any thing at all. i am not a DID dr or a T that everyone go to. but i am here when everyone do not go to their Ts
    helpingmpdout8387 helpingmpdout8387 31-35, F 1 Response May 9

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    Two Peas In A Pod

    For a long time in my life, I knew I shared my mind with someone else. It wasn't until my late teens that I was determined to actually be co-conscious. My experience with this 'disorder' has been so incredibly positive, I've gained a friend and a new outlook on life. In my mind...
    TheDreamQueen TheDreamQueen 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    WeSleepToMuch WeSleepToMuch 18-21 Apr 5

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    DarkHappiness DarkHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I'm just so sad :( ..

    ............
    Celasta Celasta 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I switched for the first time in quite a

    while while out at a concert with my girl friend. L came out to dance and was shut down immediately and told to go back by my gf, and he listened right away. I'm proud of him for listening, but now L is feeling sad that he didn't get to dance. I can feel the walls melting away...
    owletsoutlet owletsoutlet 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 21

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    We're Doing WHAT????

    Katherine, who appears to be my internal self helper? She wants us to integrate. She doesn't care how much chaos this causes, because she wants us to "shine."I asked her how long this will take, she said two years...... 8[ ...That's fast. Really fast.Basically...to de...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 9 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I want to share my entire experience with this

    disorder, as I have mostly had it for my entire life. I want to reflect, because most don't understand it. I am 28 now, and I have had symptoms of this disorder since I was 6 or 7, my name is Bill. Growing up, I lost my father when I was six years old, I was often in the...
    Edg3Runn3r Edg3Runn3r 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So yesterday during lunch at my high school,

    a freshman was acting all tough and ****, I ******* hate the freshmens this year, can't believe Alpha has to put up with this ****. Anyways, Alpha got his food from the lunch line and then the kid walked up to Alpha and started calling him weak and fat and a freak, (our secret...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    Bad Day

    we are really struggling not to hurt ourself right now.we want to soooo badly. we won't.  we can't.  it's notallowed.  the protectors have a rule.  noone can harmthemselves, each other, or the body.  when the protectorsset a rule we all have to follow it whether we want to...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 3 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    There is me, Chantel (I'm always here)

    and then there is: C.C.- She is pink in color. She is single digits but is an age-slider (can be very young or mid-child). She is the most concrete. She is a playful and loving child. But she is also very wounded. MotherMii - She is green. She is the motherly, nurturing part...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Afraid Of Losing Someone...

    This has always been a fear of mine and my alters. I lost my parents at a young age. My father died in a fire and my mother died of a brain hemmorage. My grandpa passed away at a young age and my grandma just died recently. I am always afraid of someone I love dying, especially...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    I posted the intro to my DID over in the MPD

    page. But I just came across an eighth "alter" as you all call them. I introduce you all to Lilly (also known as Tiger Lilly to our boyfriend). She's a strong soul, but filled with overall negativity. She's afraid of most things and breaks out in serious spouts of depression...
    Venialia Venialia 18-21, F May 22

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    In the beginning, there was just me.

    The one born in the body as a baby. Then, there was "Niemo" (codename for use on this site). And then Y, V, T, Danny, Crave, Aeli, B, Zakk, Barry, Liza, Tony, Mommy, Daddy, Tomi, Billa, Kehl Rabenstein, Puppet Master, Lucifer, Tobi, Jack, Andres, Flyboys (group), Lilith, Gabriel...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 6 days ago

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    My Headmates

    I have DID. I have had this ever since I was eleven, and I don't know how to really explain them all, so I'll make a list (much like my alter egos. The sad thing about my alter egos is that they receded into their world [Yes, I have a world in my head. It's much like Wonderland...
    ManicAttack ManicAttack 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Hm, May As Well Make A Post.

    Well, I figured I'd post something to get to know other people who live under similar-ish circumstances, and possibly make friends with them (well, I suppose that's a no brainer). I guess I'll tell you guys about, uh, my body's life? (I think that's the most appropriate way of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 9, 2013

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    Did you ever got drunk?

    If so, did it affected your system? How?
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    What a day to be back

    after being in a coma. Tomorrow that kid who pushed Alpha down is going to pay, the hard way. I'm back baby! - Sigma
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    Hello there. I am a alter,

    I came on here because I have been feeling quite lonely lately. I don't have many people to talk to, even though it is a big system. They are all afraid of me because of how I was a long time ago. Although I have memories of a past life, I realise that they were not real. It...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses a week ago

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    It was hard for me to admit

    and talk to the others I share my mind with, but we all manage to get along now. Mostly. Our biggest struggle now is trying to figure how all seven of us can agree on one future. Not to mention one communicating what happened during the others' blackouts, living with someone who...
    Venialia Venialia 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I do not know how others do it,

    I mean,survive have lives and routines, my life is an apocalyptic mess, I do not remember where I lived before, I think on the west coast but then I moved multiple times and now I am not in America any more, I live in the Middle East, I can hear gun fire in the distance, I ask...
    Dyzan7 Dyzan7 41-45 May 5

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    Don't Even Know Who I Am

    That is right, I don't even know who I am. Am I the host of this body or not? What is going on inside makes no sense to me. Our supposed host doesn't even know who she is so how are we supposed to know who we are or why? Nothing makes much sense no more. Confused and alone
    Rachel4now Rachel4now 31-35, F 21 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    hi domi here I'm not the host,

    but I was wondering if you guy s call your alters anything else than alters. My host calls us for example: players or voices.
    Domi16 Domi16 18-21, T 4 Responses Apr 10

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    Being DID and BiPolar feels like this to me.

    ..(I'm probably going to switch half-way through writing this, so bear with me) I live in this physical world that's just so-so and nothing fantastic ever happens, nothing exciting, everything just feels flat. I have my manic days or weeks where I feel ok and then ultra...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 2, 2014

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    Did-nos-wtf

    Apparently I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified....The kids in my head are all like "We TOLD you so!" Well, they were right. ...I was reminded we may not have found everyone yet... That's a little ominous. Maybe that's where the intrusive thoughts come...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    Ok, so I haven't been officially diagnosed with

    DID but this is the most active place for dissociative issues and I need some input. Hope I don't offend anyone. Thanks. Here goes: I've been drinking A LOT lately. Smoked weed, a lot of it. It was really good, but I did feel guilty at the same time only because I'm a nurse...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    Hey guys, my name is Felix,

    and I believe I am the core personality. We've been searching for a place to easily talk to others with D.I.D. and perhaps obtain advice or reassurance. There's a whole mess of us in here and it's been becoming progressively difficult to feel comfortable without a community...
    Toxins Toxins 18-21 1 Response May 19

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    I hate how blown up DID is in the media.

    I have it, it is no walk in the park... It's not easy... And no one should EVER wish to have it... But I am far from crazy. I just can't deal with things.
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    I NEED HELP ASAP PLEASE.

    ....I JUST BASICALLY GOT DIAGNOSED. Although it takes years to figure out, I know of basically 3 other alters but I don't know how to speak to them and I really need to talk to someone. PLEASE.
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 18-21, F 4 Responses May 12

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    Hey im wanting to talk to people around my age

    who also have DID please please add me on skype or google+ hangouts so we can chat :D SnowAngelFrostPup
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    We are a family here.

    And we keep the host protected and alive. The littles help a lot too. And the guys protect fiercely. It's great actually. :)
    krystalkool84 krystalkool84 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Dating Someone With Dissociative Identity Disorder

      I am currently seeing someone with DID.The man I am seeing is wonderful!Lets call him Gavin.Gavin is happy-go-lucky, easy to talk to, understanding, optimistic, and so many more things…We have an amazing bond, unlike any I have ever shared with another human being...
    Neenie907 Neenie907 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    Anybody As Full As I Am? Lol

    Hello i am living with 19 alters...some good...some bad...and i really would like to talk to somebody else who has them...its really awkward for me to talk about this but i figure if im going to this is the best place to do so
    MissRabbit MissRabbit 22-25, F 13 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    Healthy Multiplicity

    I have a case of what I like to call extremely mild DID. Others call it "Healthy Multiplicity". Basically, it's a form of DID that isn't considered to be a disorder, but just a condition. It doesn't cause any problems for me, and I am actually really glad I have it. I just wish I...
    saltyshelley saltyshelley 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Not Doing Well...8/6/13

    The part of me/us that thinks "She just needs to not exist," is active again. It's scary. This part wants me dead, because I'm the problem. I'm also fighting not to self-injure. This is all a very familiarly unpleasant place, but I thought we were doing better, here.
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 12 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    I've had DID all my life,

    but disscovvered this last year through therapy. I have at least 8 alters but only know 6 of their names. I fully understand now why my life has Never normal. I am very glad to finally know and accept them. I do however need much support. Because I could not continue therapy...
    JanaMG JanaMG 61-65, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    I am not some made up person

    for this weakling's coping mechanisms, despite what this fool has already stated. I am me. I exist. I existed in Kiel, Schlesswig-Holstein, Deuschland in my real, physical body, as me. I was born in 1993 to a woman named Jaime. My hair was black, and my eyes were crystal ice...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 9

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    I've been gone for...

    I don't even know how long, honestly... All I remember is this kid in my school trying to pick a fight with me and then he pushed me and caused me to fall and hit my head. It's been quite in my head for awhile but I don't what happened after I hit my head.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M Apr 5

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    My different personalities

    and their ages. Remi (female) - 5000+ Kevin (male) - 16 Ian (male) - 16 Kaitlyn (Can change at will) - 16 Bell (female) - 12 Burnt (unknown) - 60 Toastenhall (male) - 60 Tettenhall (Unknown) - (Unknown) Joshua (male) (inner world only) - Unknown Enoch (male) (inner world only...
    WeSleepToMuch WeSleepToMuch 18-21 2 Responses Mar 31

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    okay so this is just a random question,

    but can a host and alter date eachother when they are aware of eachother their presence?
    Domi16 Domi16 18-21, T 2 Responses May 2

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