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I Have Dissociative Identity Disorder

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    Sometimes I Feel Possessed

    There are many times the people in my head are talking to me and in the middle of their sentence their words would continue out my mouth without me knowing what they were going to say. I know this sounds completely weird. I have lost all my outside friends because of this problem...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 11, 2013

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    I have recently been diagnosed with DID,

    however when I looked it up to learn more about it, it didn't really seem to fit what my host and I fall into. Rather than blacking out or having lost moments when we switch, it's more like we just take turns taking the back seat. We are aware of each other at nearly all times...
    Calem545 Calem545 22-25, T 3 Responses May 25

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    So yesterday during lunch at my high school,

    a freshman was acting all tough and ****, I ******* hate the freshmens this year, can't believe Alpha has to put up with this ****. Anyways, Alpha got his food from the lunch line and then the kid walked up to Alpha and started calling him weak and fat and a freak, (our secret...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    My Inners/Alters Whatever...

    I am currently up to 6. My therapist says I am not DID, this p1ssed the kids off, so they made me forget appointments for a month. ...They basically thought she was saying they aren't real... ...I LIKE my "kids", whatever they are. They helped me survive.  They STILL help me...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 5 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    Hm, May As Well Make A Post.

    Well, I figured I'd post something to get to know other people who live under similar-ish circumstances, and possibly make friends with them (well, I suppose that's a no brainer). I guess I'll tell you guys about, uh, my body's life? (I think that's the most appropriate way of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 9, 2013

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    We're Doing WHAT????

    Katherine, who appears to be my internal self helper? She wants us to integrate. She doesn't care how much chaos this causes, because she wants us to "shine."I asked her how long this will take, she said two years...... 8[ ...That's fast. Really fast.Basically...to de...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 9 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    started to see a therapist again,

    but every time they hint towards a disassociation, I panic and change the subject. I have never been properly diagnosed but the others aren't ready for me to expose them yet
    Thingsunseen Thingsunseen 22-25, F 18 hrs ago

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    I do not know how others do it,

    I mean,survive have lives and routines, my life is an apocalyptic mess, I do not remember where I lived before, I think on the west coast but then I moved multiple times and now I am not in America any more, I live in the Middle East, I can hear gun fire in the distance, I ask...
    Dyzan7 Dyzan7 41-45 May 5

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    It was hard for me to admit

    and talk to the others I share my mind with, but we all manage to get along now. Mostly. Our biggest struggle now is trying to figure how all seven of us can agree on one future. Not to mention one communicating what happened during the others' blackouts, living with someone who...
    Venialia Venialia 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    WeSleepToMuch WeSleepToMuch 18-21 Apr 5

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    DID

    For years speaking about my disorder has been taboo but know its time to make a stand. I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) i have a system of 7 functioning personalities with their own thought process likes dislikes etc. Together we map out on how to get through one day...
    Pablo89 Pablo89 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I posted the intro to my DID over in the MPD

    page. But I just came across an eighth "alter" as you all call them. I introduce you all to Lilly (also known as Tiger Lilly to our boyfriend). She's a strong soul, but filled with overall negativity. She's afraid of most things and breaks out in serious spouts of depression...
    Venialia Venialia 18-21, F May 22

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    hi my name is georgie i am 32 f

    and i have DID also. i am here to help other ppl out with their DID. if u and everyone there want to talk about any thing at all u all can talk to me about any thing at all. i am not a DID dr or a T that everyone go to. but i am here when everyone do not go to their Ts
    helpingmpdout8387 helpingmpdout8387 31-35, F 1 Response May 9

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    Has anyone had any parts integrate before?

    I've had a few minor parts merge with me or another part. Now 4 of my main parts are ready to integrate. It's wonderful but also very scary. I don't know if I am strong enough to go through with it.
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Being DID and BiPolar feels like this to me.

    ..(I'm probably going to switch half-way through writing this, so bear with me) I live in this physical world that's just so-so and nothing fantastic ever happens, nothing exciting, everything just feels flat. I have my manic days or weeks where I feel ok and then ultra...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 2, 2014

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    I've been gone for...

    I don't even know how long, honestly... All I remember is this kid in my school trying to pick a fight with me and then he pushed me and caused me to fall and hit my head. It's been quite in my head for awhile but I don't what happened after I hit my head.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M Apr 5

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    I switched for the first time in quite a

    while while out at a concert with my girl friend. L came out to dance and was shut down immediately and told to go back by my gf, and he listened right away. I'm proud of him for listening, but now L is feeling sad that he didn't get to dance. I can feel the walls melting away...
    owletsoutlet owletsoutlet 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 21

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    Not Doing Well...8/6/13

    The part of me/us that thinks "She just needs to not exist," is active again. It's scary. This part wants me dead, because I'm the problem. I'm also fighting not to self-injure. This is all a very familiarly unpleasant place, but I thought we were doing better, here.
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 12 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    Yes I do and I'm not ashamed of it!

    When I'm emotional or tired or just insecure I can switch without me wanting it. I have 4 known alters and a few I don't know yet. The 4 who show themselves the most are the ones I like the less (does that make sense?) Some are really draining, when they are in the back again I...
    Celasta Celasta 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    Anybody As Full As I Am? Lol

    Hello i am living with 19 alters...some good...some bad...and i really would like to talk to somebody else who has them...its really awkward for me to talk about this but i figure if im going to this is the best place to do so
    MissRabbit MissRabbit 22-25, F 13 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    Hey guys, my name is Felix,

    and I believe I am the core personality. We've been searching for a place to easily talk to others with D.I.D. and perhaps obtain advice or reassurance. There's a whole mess of us in here and it's been becoming progressively difficult to feel comfortable without a community...
    Toxins Toxins 18-21 2 Responses May 19

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    Does anyone else live in,

    or has ever lived in an environment that doesn't support their illness? I'm trying my best to keep everything under control around my family but it's not working. I just keep getting more depressed and less functional. I don't know how to communicate with them in an effective...
    annabanana1907 annabanana1907 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

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    Did you ever got drunk?

    If so, did it affected your system? How?
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I have a whole playlist of songs

    that make me feel understood, these are the ones that focus on my DID... "Animal I have Become" Three Days Grace "Monster" Skillet "I am an Illusion" Rob Thomas "All These Years" Adema "Let Me Be Myself" 3 Doors Down "One X" Three Days Grace "Chameleon Boy" Blue October "Ugly...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 1, 2014

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    Healthy Multiplicity

    I have a case of what I like to call extremely mild DID. Others call it "Healthy Multiplicity". Basically, it's a form of DID that isn't considered to be a disorder, but just a condition. It doesn't cause any problems for me, and I am actually really glad I have it. I just wish I...
    saltyshelley saltyshelley 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    I just recently found out I have DID

    which would explain a lot of things happening to me lately. I'm not sure if I should feel sorry for myself or embrace it yet honestly. Right now I'm just going with the flow of things.
    brookledsome brookledsome 16-17, F Jun 17

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    Bad Day

    we are really struggling not to hurt ourself right now.we want to soooo badly. we won't.  we can't.  it's notallowed.  the protectors have a rule.  noone can harmthemselves, each other, or the body.  when the protectorsset a rule we all have to follow it whether we want to...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 3 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    i feel like ill /never/ figure out how to

    explain to people that they really werent talking to who they thought they were. well i used to enjoy pretending to be our old host up until now since our current host isnt someone i can mimic as easy or am comfortable with doing since they would get really mad at me >____<...
    lonqu lonqu 16-17 1 Response Jun 15

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    In the beginning, there was just me.

    The one born in the body as a baby. Then, there was "Niemo" (codename for use on this site). And then Y, V, T, Danny, Crave, Aeli, B, Zakk, Barry, Liza, Tony, Mommy, Daddy, Tomi, Billa, Kehl Rabenstein, Puppet Master, Lucifer, Tobi, Jack, Andres, Flyboys (group), Lilith, Gabriel...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 28

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    can I connect with my alter through meditation?

    because I don't know how to communicate with her yet
    himenoko143 himenoko143 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am not some made up person

    for this weakling's coping mechanisms, despite what this fool has already stated. I am me. I exist. I existed in Kiel, Schlesswig-Holstein, Deuschland in my real, physical body, as me. I was born in 1993 to a woman named Jaime. My hair was black, and my eyes were crystal ice...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 9

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    okay so this is just a random question,

    but can a host and alter date eachother when they are aware of eachother their presence?
    Domi16 Domi16 18-21, T 2 Responses May 2

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    What a day to be back

    after being in a coma. Tomorrow that kid who pushed Alpha down is going to pay, the hard way. I'm back baby! - Sigma
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    My Headmates

    I have DID. I have had this ever since I was eleven, and I don't know how to really explain them all, so I'll make a list (much like my alter egos. The sad thing about my alter egos is that they receded into their world [Yes, I have a world in my head. It's much like Wonderland...
    ManicAttack ManicAttack 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Dating Someone With Dissociative Identity Disorder

      I am currently seeing someone with DID.The man I am seeing is wonderful!Lets call him Gavin.Gavin is happy-go-lucky, easy to talk to, understanding, optimistic, and so many more things…We have an amazing bond, unlike any I have ever shared with another human being...
    Neenie907 Neenie907 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    the walls are getting bigger!

    it's scaring me really cause all i have is kaito to tell me what's going on and i can hardly remember anything anymore! i mean it was quiet bad before but now it's just getting worse! therapy later today too 😄🔫
    lonqu lonqu 16-17 1 Response Jun 10

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    I want to share my entire experience with this

    disorder, as I have mostly had it for my entire life. I want to reflect, because most don't understand it. I am 28 now, and I have had symptoms of this disorder since I was 6 or 7, my name is Bill. Growing up, I lost my father when I was six years old, I was often in the...
    Edg3Runn3r Edg3Runn3r 26-30, M 1 Response May 28

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    Afraid Of Losing Someone...

    This has always been a fear of mine and my alters. I lost my parents at a young age. My father died in a fire and my mother died of a brain hemmorage. My grandpa passed away at a young age and my grandma just died recently. I am always afraid of someone I love dying, especially...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    I have been told and shown by an alter

    that I was molested by my brother, but I cannot accept it. I cannot come to terms. He says this is why he came around. To protect me from my brother. How do you even begin to fathom that the boy who protected you from bullies and other pain is the source of your insanity?
    Scaciana Scaciana 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    hi domi here I'm not the host,

    but I was wondering if you guy s call your alters anything else than alters. My host calls us for example: players or voices.
    Domi16 Domi16 18-21, T 4 Responses Apr 10

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    Did-nos-wtf

    Apparently I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified....The kids in my head are all like "We TOLD you so!" Well, they were right. ...I was reminded we may not have found everyone yet... That's a little ominous. Maybe that's where the intrusive thoughts come...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    I hate how blown up DID is in the media.

    I have it, it is no walk in the park... It's not easy... And no one should EVER wish to have it... But I am far from crazy. I just can't deal with things.
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Hello there. I am a alter,

    I came on here because I have been feeling quite lonely lately. I don't have many people to talk to, even though it is a big system. They are all afraid of me because of how I was a long time ago. Although I have memories of a past life, I realise that they were not real. It...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 26

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    I'm just a woman who's always been intrigued

    and interested in DID and talking and maybe even helping them. Anyone want to chat? Please message me if you are.
    Psawyer1 Psawyer1 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Hello. Rather new to this website

    but I believe that it should hopefully let be socialise with people more in a controlled environment. Looking around, i'm surprised to see young teenagers here. I struggled to get diganosed at my age, mainly because they kept thinking it was something else and I had no idea...
    WeSleepToMuch WeSleepToMuch 18-21 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I NEED HELP ASAP PLEASE.

    ....I JUST BASICALLY GOT DIAGNOSED. Although it takes years to figure out, I know of basically 3 other alters but I don't know how to speak to them and I really need to talk to someone. PLEASE.
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 18-21, F 5 Responses May 12

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