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I Have Dissociative Identity Disorder

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    I think I may have a new alter I've had four

    alters for a while but today I had slightly dual consciousness for a bit and was someone new. Different voice, different drives, different attitude. Does this mean I'm getting worse or better?
    Thingsunseen Thingsunseen 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Does anyone else live in,

    or has ever lived in an environment that doesn't support their illness? I'm trying my best to keep everything under control around my family but it's not working. I just keep getting more depressed and less functional. I don't know how to communicate with them in an effective...
    annabanana1907 annabanana1907 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

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    I really hate it! I have borderline

    and DID and my boyfriend dumped me because of it. OF COURSE I know it's hard sometimes but I've been in therapy and everything and it's very difficult for me to trust people but I just don't know why it is so hard to accept me the way I am.
    Lerione Lerione 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Is it possible for a person with DID to be

    happily married?I'm having difficulties to remain married. It felt like my husband doesn't understand me and i just want out.
    Shabee74 Shabee74 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Weekend weekend I love the weekend!

    I get to have so much fun! Do you like the weekend? Of course you do it's the weekend ^_^ ~Theta
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M Jan 24

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    Did-nos-wtf

    Apparently I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified....The kids in my head are all like "We TOLD you so!" Well, they were right. ...I was reminded we may not have found everyone yet... That's a little ominous. Maybe that's where the intrusive thoughts come...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    How to communicate with my alters?

    Anyone willing to share a technique to communicate with our own alters?
    Shabee74 Shabee74 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    well once again things have gone a bit overly

    complicated for me. I went to the hospital on the 24th of December got stitches in my arm the cut was really deep again. didn't get out till the 25th I walked home in the dark alone and then got back to the house. I'm in a new house again by the way. I don't know why I can't...
    tallestshadow tallestshadow 22-25, T 2 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    One of my alters just killed herself.

    I'm ******* broken. I must sleep to go to school in 3 hours but I definitely won't. I'm speechless. I never had any contact with that alter but this just really broke me. I want her to come back. I'm done
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    About Me: Medi

    This is the first in a series of writings everybody in this body will participate in (assuming they go on EP at all). Its intent is to allow the reader to get to know each person in this body better, with information about the writer coming directly from the writer, thus avoiding...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 26, 2013

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    My old therapist moved out of state.

    She really understood me and my alters and had spoken to most of them at least once. My new therapist? hes a skeptic. Joy. He insists that I'm delusional and a malingerer (someone who makes things up to get medical attention) now i really have nobody to talk to about it on a...
    dianadra dianadra 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    We are a family here.

    And we keep the host protected and alive. The littles help a lot too. And the guys protect fiercely. It's great actually. :)
    krystalkool84 krystalkool84 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I've had DID all my life,

    but disscovvered this last year through therapy. I have at least 8 alters but only know 6 of their names. I fully understand now why my life has Never normal. I am very glad to finally know and accept them. I do however need much support. Because I could not continue therapy...
    JanaMG JanaMG 61-65, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    I have a whole playlist of songs

    that make me feel understood, these are the ones that focus on my DID... "Animal I have Become" Three Days Grace "Monster" Skillet "I am an Illusion" Rob Thomas "All These Years" Adema "Let Me Be Myself" 3 Doors Down "One X" Three Days Grace "Chameleon Boy" Blue October "Ugly...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 1, 2014

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    My Experience of a D.i.d (multilpe) Life

       I'm a 40 year old woman (but really I feel like a lot of much younger on inside) . Ive been aware of my system for 12 years .. I am poly multiple which means I keep splitting.  I have family groups within me but countless alters .I have Some (12 )well...
    thruthelookinglass thruthelookinglass 36-40, F 4 Responses May 17, 2009

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    anyone have experience,

    maybe through therapy, working with alters that come from your ID EGO??
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    I mean, I guuuuuuuuuuuess I'll be host

    for a little while~ I won't like it though.
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 5 days ago

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    Jaqueline's Story

     My name is Jaqueline. I am around 16 years old and havebeen for a very long time.  I am one of the vast manyin the system that goes here by Truth_Speaks.Recently, in emails, a very good friend of ours here onEP has been talking about feeling like things were herfault...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 7 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    dont know where the host has gone,

    its like our system is collapsing on itself now and all i can hear is mika saying stuff like, "i told you so! i told you so!" euggh i dont even know what to do anymore cause this wasnt even my fault to begin with
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Feb 18

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    Hi, I'm new on here. Things have been

    overwhelming, real overwhelming. I told someone close to me I have DID and everything is chaotic. I question my diagnosis when certain ppl in my life only know one part of me, how is that possible? I have a lot of parts, but each one can be out for certain things so it's...
    roaminglostsoul roaminglostsoul 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Healthy Multiplicity

    I have a case of what I like to call extremely mild DID. Others call it "Healthy Multiplicity". Basically, it's a form of DID that isn't considered to be a disorder, but just a condition. It doesn't cause any problems for me, and I am actually really glad I have it. I just wish I...
    saltyshelley saltyshelley 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    The room isn't right,

    I don't remember being here, or falling asleep. My other half keeps talking me through it to calm me down. His voice in my head isn't doing me any justice. I know this is my house but it doesn't look right, it's all off. We're both lost, and I'm flipping through my journal...
    Edg3Runn3r Edg3Runn3r 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 16

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    Hm, May As Well Make A Post.

    Well, I figured I'd post something to get to know other people who live under similar-ish circumstances, and possibly make friends with them (well, I suppose that's a no brainer). I guess I'll tell you guys about, uh, my body's life? (I think that's the most appropriate way of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 9, 2013

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    Our system is going down.

    Queen needs more recruits to hopefully keep her line down. It's ******* hell here now. So many panic attacks and death in our realm that it's making her into someone I don't recognize. We've even developed a painful stress node which hurts like hell when I touch it. ~Stone
    DarkHappiness DarkHappiness 13-15, F Feb 9

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    Is this a common symptom of disassociative

    related stuff? : Sometimes I remember something my alters or myself did in the past. Some memories are from what brought me to this point and their creation. However these memories hold as much meaning to me as a fact in a history book. They feel true, but distant like they...
    Thingsunseen Thingsunseen 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    My Headmates

    I have DID. I have had this ever since I was eleven, and I don't know how to really explain them all, so I'll make a list (much like my alter egos. The sad thing about my alter egos is that they receded into their world [Yes, I have a world in my head. It's much like Wonderland...
    ManicAttack ManicAttack 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Sometimes I Feel Possessed

    There are many times the people in my head are talking to me and in the middle of their sentence their words would continue out my mouth without me knowing what they were going to say. I know this sounds completely weird. I have lost all my outside friends because of this problem...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 11, 2013

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    Not Doing Well...8/6/13

    The part of me/us that thinks "She just needs to not exist," is active again. It's scary. This part wants me dead, because I'm the problem. I'm also fighting not to self-injure. This is all a very familiarly unpleasant place, but I thought we were doing better, here.
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 12 Responses Aug 6, 2013

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    celes is usually fronting

    while i'm just co-fronting but it's switched! it's a little too real for me
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 3 Responses Jan 4

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    Shabee74 Shabee74 41-45, F Feb 1

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    We're Doing WHAT????

    Katherine, who appears to be my internal self helper? She wants us to integrate. She doesn't care how much chaos this causes, because she wants us to "shine."I asked her how long this will take, she said two years...... 8[ ...That's fast. Really fast.Basically...to de...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 9 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    My Inners/Alters Whatever...

    I am currently up to 6. My therapist says I am not DID, this p1ssed the kids off, so they made me forget appointments for a month. ...They basically thought she was saying they aren't real... ...I LIKE my "kids", whatever they are. They helped me survive.  They STILL help me...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 5 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    So there's a new alter all of a sudden.

    .. He appeared a couple of hours after a fight with the only person who knows about them (everything's okay now :)) and he's... Weird... He has made no outward appearance, or inner verbal. But he stands in our inner house and stares at one wall, he's been there six days...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    woke up today and noticed someone did something

    to the body..i cant even recognize it
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Feb 21

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    Anybody As Full As I Am? Lol

    Hello i am living with 19 alters...some good...some bad...and i really would like to talk to somebody else who has them...its really awkward for me to talk about this but i figure if im going to this is the best place to do so
    MissRabbit MissRabbit 22-25, F 13 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    We've been DID for as long

    as we can remember, though we didn't really know what it was until we were around fifteen. When it all started, there were only seven of us. Then as time went on and more abuse took place, more showed up and now we're 200+... The few of us that are most dominant in the...
    imal0serbabyx imal0serbabyx 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Dating Someone With Dissociative Identity Disorder

      I am currently seeing someone with DID.The man I am seeing is wonderful!Lets call him Gavin.Gavin is happy-go-lucky, easy to talk to, understanding, optimistic, and so many more things…We have an amazing bond, unlike any I have ever shared with another human being...
    Neenie907 Neenie907 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    DID

    For years speaking about my disorder has been taboo but know its time to make a stand. I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) i have a system of 7 functioning personalities with their own thought process likes dislikes etc. Together we map out on how to get through one day...
    Pablo89 Pablo89 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Feb 4

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    Ok, so I haven't been officially diagnosed with

    DID but this is the most active place for dissociative issues and I need some input. Hope I don't offend anyone. Thanks. Here goes: I've been drinking A LOT lately. Smoked weed, a lot of it. It was really good, but I did feel guilty at the same time only because I'm a nurse...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    Bad Day

    we are really struggling not to hurt ourself right now.we want to soooo badly. we won't.  we can't.  it's notallowed.  the protectors have a rule.  noone can harmthemselves, each other, or the body.  when the protectorsset a rule we all have to follow it whether we want to...
    TruthSpeaks71 TruthSpeaks71 41-45 3 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    I have an alter, Shelia,

    who is a true rebel!!!!! free spirit, runs wild, wants her independence, holds anger toward herself and her past. I am the hardest on her and she feels put down and frowned upon. I am supposed to be moving me and my three boys into my fiances house soon but Shelia is determined...
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Hey everyone if you would like I have this

    Korean drama people should watch that might help or might remind you of things. It's called hyde jekyll me and once you watch the show you'll understand what I'll mean, I'm super obsessed with the show.
    DarkHappiness DarkHappiness 13-15, F Feb 12

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    I'm back! For awhile at least.

    It's been awhile since I last updated or posted anything. So far if some of you remember my problem about this girl I met during childhood and how I wanted to ask her out but also tell her about alters and asked for your advice, we're dating and she's so accepting and caring for...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    ill miss you but changes happen

    for a reason ill just have to hope its for the better(why is a system shift so upsetting?)
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 1 Response Feb 7

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    Two Peas In A Pod

    For a long time in my life, I knew I shared my mind with someone else. It wasn't until my late teens that I was determined to actually be co-conscious. My experience with this 'disorder' has been so incredibly positive, I've gained a friend and a new outlook on life. In my mind...
    TheDreamQueen TheDreamQueen 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    Don't Even Know Who I Am

    That is right, I don't even know who I am. Am I the host of this body or not? What is going on inside makes no sense to me. Our supposed host doesn't even know who she is so how are we supposed to know who we are or why? Nothing makes much sense no more. Confused and alone
    Rachel4now Rachel4now 31-35, F 21 Responses Feb 16, 2008