I Have Done Things I Am Not Proud of

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    I am so lost. I unfortunately don't have any

    real friends I can turn to. I am in a situation of potential life destruction. Not sure how to hang in there anymore.
    samgirl1029 samgirl1029
    46-50, F
    41 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    Like have sex with a guy I just met

    and then he stops talking to me afterwards :) The best
    ambamx3 ambamx3
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Jan 20, 2016

    Ok. Time for confession,

    honesty, and truths. I'm feeling very alone, upset, and need advice/guidance from others who might have gone through this. I lived in Florida last year and I picked up a bad drug addiction. I lost almost everything...my main job, lots of money, and the home I was staying at. I...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Oct 28, 2015

    I used to be a happy,

    incredibly optimistic person. In 7th grade I started having suicidal thoughts & thoughts of self-harm. I switched from public school to online school & that's the first time I cut. I used a box-cutter, which had previously been used for duct tape crafts haha.. I freaked out...
    143irama 143irama
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    -sent n*des.. -yelled at my mom -lied to my

    mom -accidentally broke my brother's tooth -procrastinated -being lazy -the fact that I used to be a p*rn addict - not doing anything about being bullied -being a terrible person -living - picking my eyelashes for so many years -so many other things that I can't say I am just...
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    I've done so many things

    that made me feel so unwanted so .. Lonely .. And so nasty. I'm having way too many problems with my family, specially my mother. It's so hard, today I was crying in the car begging myself to stop crying telling myself I was gonna be alright but I didn't work ..
    unperfectchild unperfectchild
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2016
    creezyah creezyah
    22-25, F
    15 Responses Mar 8, 2015

    I pushed away one of my closest friends several

    years ago. I didn't talk to him for at least two years before getting in contact again. He forgave me, accepted me and my mistakes and I couldn't wish for more. But because of my parents I felt the need to break the contact again. I've hurt him and he deserved a better friend...
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    2 Responses Mar 27, 2016
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    6 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    I recently started to drink again.

    I began to drunk when I was in high school but quit because I didn't want to become a drunk or get the way my dad used to when he drank. I am under so much stress right now that even running doesn't do much maybe so because I am overweight. I am starting to like drinking every...
    Claura Claura
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 22, 2016
    NewRomantics NewRomantics
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Nov 30, 2015

    well it was kind of funny.

    my mother was walking out to the car and slipped on ice by grandpa's truck. as she was going down she grabbed the sideview mirror. the mirror came off and she slipped under the truck. she got so tickled about her own facial expressions during the fall, she saw them in the mirror...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    I have smoked for years

    and yesterday I stopped. I've always hated smoking but loved and craved it also but enough is enough... Wish me luck!
    LolaGracesSecret LolaGracesSecret
    31-35, F
    18 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I have showed a married woman my man part a few

    times. There has been some times she knows what I am doing, and she still hasn't told her husband what I have done.
    jotoher jotoher
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2016

    When I was 12 years old I met a guy through a

    online game. Let's say his name was Eric. Eric was 17 years old, programmer and he was very nice to me. By time we got closer and closer friends. One day he asked me if I had snapchat, snapchat wasn't that popular in this time so I told him I didn't have it. He told me to...
    CoyFaceMaster CoyFaceMaster
    16-17, F
    12 Responses Feb 20, 2014

    I used to hurt people

    that were trying to befriend me and i push them back... I have acquire a lot of things in a "machiavellian" point of view... but it hurts more, when you hurt so much the only person you love with all your heart...
    Dominii Dominii
    18-21, M
    Mar 1, 2016

    I was abused as a child by my biological parents

    and their partners growing up. My parents were 15 when I was born and life was dysfunctional and flat out awful growing up! Some of the abuse was sexual from my dads best friend and random family members. I use to interact with kids in my mums friend circle who had also been...
    KellyKameleon KellyKameleon
    31-35, F
    13 Responses May 5, 2015

    02/04/2016 - Everyone has done things they're

    not proud of. I've hurt people I would never have ever imagined I would have hurt. I've done things I have sometimes wished I hadn't done. I've fallen or fell for people I probably shouldn't have. I've made poor decisions and choices when it comes to friends. All of these...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2016

    I used to self harm. Not

    for attention. Not because I'm emo. It gets your mind off the emotional pain. I would've rather felt physical pain than emotional. My legs are ruined now, if you are hurting yourself... You will regret it when you get older. Everyone hurts sometimes, someone always has it worse...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    I've always been the girl

    who does it well at school and gets along with everyone. I've been with my boyfriend for 1 year and 3 months, I love him so much and I always miss him. But I have this other friend who is also a boy, he's a year older and from the palestines. I've always been against cheating, I...
    imsuchamess imsuchamess
    22-25, F
    20 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    Like my ex boyfriend.

    But it's ok. I ctrl/alt/deleted him and now everything is great!
    TheSkyISee TheSkyISee
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    Not so much about what I've done

    but what other people do to interfere with what I want. Those farmers aren't getting away with this over there in Scotland. I'll be back as soon as I'm president to settle this matter. Count your sheep on that one. I don't even like Scotland. Dirty and everybody smells like mold...
    TrumfflesTheWonderPig TrumfflesTheWonderPig
    70+, M
    Feb 19, 2016

    Despite doing things I'm not proud of I can't

    say that I regret doing them because these things made me a better and stronger person because I don't believe that you are learning if you don't make mistakes :)
    greenlilacs greenlilacs
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 10, 2013

    I have self harm scars from cutting.

    People always look at me like I'm crazy when they see my scars, but that's because they don't understand the hurt and pain that led me to cut in the first place.
    deleted deleted
    12 Responses May 11, 2015
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 26, 2016

    Apart from stray sex,

    hitting people my parents. Even God can't forgive me, till I fully repent over my sinful behaviour and damage caused, especially to my parents. I wish something happens that they forgive me. Amen.
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2016

    Drugs. Drink. Sex. Harming.

    Even stopping contact with everyone. Just being a bad guy in general because nice guys finish last. I'm not sure if this is an illness or a high anymore.
    LonelyWolf1 LonelyWolf1
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 1, 2016

    So... I met this EPer days ago.

    She was a girl of age 20. We chatted for hours and even shared some experiences. She sent me pics of herself and family. She was very friendly and open to any discussion. Yesterday, while checking my PM box, I see a 'deleted member' instead of the EPer's username. I clicked on...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Mar 22, 2016

    I am making the first steps to overcoming a

    long term addiction (the first step admitting my problem). Any help?
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    hurt people around me (not physically

    but emotionally) Became a better man but I am still not proud of the things I have done. still feel guilt and pain about it till this day.
    Joshisthename Joshisthename
    22-25, M
    Mar 22, 2016

    I'm a huge hugeeeeeeeee liar.

    . I lie to basically anything that makes my life easier... And i can't stop.. since it's so easy.. Doesnt matter if i lie to my loved ones..my friends..or strangers.. same thing.. It's my way of going forward.. it's how i've survived.. through school... work.. life.. I don't...
    CharlesVanee CharlesVanee
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    I have done things that I wish I could erase.

    I've hurt some people, and some of them still refuse to speak to me. All I can do is focus on the future and not make the same mistakes. Life is too short to focus on the past.
    Jononymous Jononymous
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2016
    swaged104 swaged104
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    I woke up this morning with the hazy

    recollection of me having too much to drink and kissing a guy I know my friend is dating. I'd feel terrible if I'd hurt her. She has every right to be furious with me, I hope we can still be friends. I can't believe I got out of control and did something this stupid in front of...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Mar 20, 2016

    I'm a sexual assault survivor of many years ago

    it has now beginning to bother me why did I let him do it to me ?
    Marion203 Marion203
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Apr 18, 2016

    So many things... and I keep doing them.

    . The random sex, the random hookups, meeting guys I barely know.. doing things men tell me, even men that I don't meet.. ones that just tell me to dress up and go out to a party on my own, why can't I just be the person I want to be all the time.. Yes it is the majority of my...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Jan 19, 2014

    Jealousy is one hell of a thing.

    My cousin and I haven't spoke to each other for YEARS and we used to be the tightly knitted ones. One evening, she texted me telling me she got into this fancy school and I was just covered in jealousy, I texted something rather harsh to her and I couldn't delete the text...
    lunamcmxcix lunamcmxcix
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2016

    Last year my parents had a New Years Eve party

    at the house. There was a lot of friends and family there. I had a friend over and we were hanging out in my bedroom where we had smuggled some alcohol to so we could drink too. It was around 11:30 pm and one of my dads coworkers snuck off and walked into my bedroom. He came on...
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    7 Responses Jan 10, 2016
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    2 Responses Aug 4, 2015

    I remember that day like it was just yesterday!

    I was 16 and went to Victoria BC to improve my English. I stayed with a host family for five weeks. She was the sweetest host mom ever! She had four students in her house, including me and we were all girls. It was an 'only girls' host family. Why? No idea. Anyway, I had...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 16, 2016

    Although Im ashamed, embarrassed,

    and full of regret, it made me who I am now. And I know thats like super cheesy but its true. I cried an ocean then, to save the tears now. And I'm proud of the lesson I learned early in life.
    Blondequestioner Blondequestioner
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    don't let my profile fool you.

    I am a lot of fun and a good friend.
    3rdday 3rdday
    56-60, M
    Mar 21, 2016

    Anyone ever done something that

    after they did it they felt a little dirty or ashamed
    Stephhpets Stephhpets
    22-25, F
    39 Responses Nov 17, 2014

    So yesterday i receive a Facebook message from

    a beautiful 21 year old young lady. She stated that I am probably her biological father. The time frame fits as I had a "friends with benefits" relationship with her mom. I was married at the time. My wife has since passed away but I have 4 children from our marriage. Needless...
    johndoe1962 johndoe1962
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Mar 7, 2016

    2 years ago i got hrn in a club

    and i let someone made me feel good, i was crying for a week, i felt awful but that time i just wanted someone to fingered me... MY BOYFRIEND IS A HERO BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT AND HE LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM
    Merily Merily
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    I am a faithful person,

    never cheated in a relationship and I have a good gentle husband. Because he is very religious I don't talk about my desire to be whipped although this would spice up our intimate relationship. Instead I find online men who like to see me beating myself naked. If I think of it...
    painwanted painwanted
    46-50, F
    22 Responses Apr 7, 2016

    We usually try to avoid talking about our past

    faults because we have done some things that we are not proud of, but have not we all stumble? I had to learn to move on from my past mistakes bad decisions and learn from them. Simply because I stumble, doesn't mean it's over. The past doesn't govern my present nor future...
    growingwisdom growingwisdom
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015

    I bought this new ice cream it's really good I

    told my kids it was medicine so I wouldn't have to share it was a little tub 😜
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    I have done something terrible.

    . :-( ..... so i woke up this morning and I was standing at my sister's bed but she had her head hanging off the edge of it I start walking by slowly and I farted .. I couldn't control it. and I laughed .. am I a bad person? lol
    mergirl123 mergirl123
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    I have done several things I am not proud of.

    I have hurt people and almost ruined most of my life. I was here before under a different profile. I had a book I was promoting and I ran a private club. Now they are all gone. Losing them brought me more happiness than I could ever have imagined. I become involved with...
    amarillodream amarillodream
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    I've always had a pure heart

    and good intentions. But it seems that being dumped recently after being with this guy for almost 4 years, I started having problems within myself. One night stands. Alcohol abuse. Breaking people's hearts. No longer knowing what I want. I was in love with this guy and...
    xIamKira xIamKira
    18-21, F
    Mar 20, 2016

    After my bad breakup,

    everyone was turning from me, I had a bad reputation as the crazy girl. I turned to the usual kind of self medication. Mostly began to sleep with people I felt nothing for, and popped pills. I dwindled down to nothing as my weight dropped even more. I was a skeleton, hollow...
    CarelessCassie CarelessCassie
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Aug 7, 2015

    having an ice cube fall of the ice tray

    and shamelessly kicking it under the fridge.. *sigh*
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    I sleep with people I don't care about.

    I tell guys straight up that I don't want a relationship, I don't even care what their name is. When I get stressed or am dealing with some f'd up personal stuff, I tend to release my energy with random men. Then I feel like crap about it later on. Idk wtf is wrong with me.
    HaleyGray HaleyGray
    18-21, F
    16 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    I have done things that I am not proud of.

    But I am proud of doing them when I was young.
    whyacinth whyacinth
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    I did. I didn't think about it at the time,

    but the next day was terrible.
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    20 Responses Feb 1, 2014
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