I Have Ednos

I have eating disorder not otherwise specified. 328 People

    Everyday I tell myself "Don't eat.

    Only drink water. Don't eat. Only eat if you HAVE to. Don't eat. No calories. Don't eat. Chew gum without calories so you don't feel hungry. Don't eat"
    thtshygirl thtshygirl
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 11, 2015

    I'm trying to recover.

    . it's slow.. too slow.. I'm sick of this and I'm trying to work out and balance meals so that it's healthy and I get enough food but sometimes I go over my limit and tonight I went waaaay over the limit for the first time probably since December.. Usually if I go over the limit...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly
    18-21, F
    Mar 2, 2015

    Here it is 1:13am an I been

    so miserable all day.. I'm 7 months pregnant an I'm struggling to eat too keep mi baby healthy..i threw up 5x today..i feel disgusted with myself.. Ik I need to b eating got mi son an I try so hard but as these months past an I get bigger I lose it even more an nobody...
    P3rf3ctDisast3r P3rf3ctDisast3r
    22-25, F
    Aug 19, 2015

    Here it is 12:30am an I'm up thinking bout how

    many calories I ate today..ive been struggling with this shyt since 14 sad part is I'm almost 7 months pregnant an I can't stop..ik I need to for mii baby but mi mind won't lemme..mii Dr says I'm at a healthy weight..i swear those r the worse words a person could tell meh is tht...
    P3rf3ctDisast3r P3rf3ctDisast3r
    22-25, F
    Aug 13, 2015

    I Have Ednos...

    It started when I was 15 years old. I was a happy girl and had friends but in junior high I felt different in the sense of feeling chubby and even one girl had whispered behind my back "she is fat and useless in her own skin". Those words hurt me. I'm a sensitive person and I...
    Alexygirl23 Alexygirl23
    18-21, F
    Jul 27, 2013

    I can't get better. It's been 8 months

    and no matter how hard i try I can't do it and I'm just so tired
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly
    18-21, F
    May 5, 2015

    My Abusive, Destructive Relationship With Ed

    I have ednos.  I am 41 years old, and just came to terms with the fact that I have suffered with ED for as far back as I can remember.  I have run the gamut of behaviors, have been significantly overweight (binge eating in my younger years), and on...
    marissacrc marissacrc
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2009

    I was just diagnosed with EDNOS last week.

    .. I am guilty of self harming using food. Restricting myself to one small meal a day because maybe my mom would be happier with me if I was skinnier. There are days I can't leave my room because I feel so fat and ugly the idea of people seeing me is horrifying and I work 2 jobs...
    MidnightLaughter MidnightLaughter
    22-25, F
    Nov 12, 2015

    I am a senior in high school

    and I have been dealing with eating disorder not otherwise specified for a little while now. It's the constant battle between starving and binging. The worst part is, there is no progress. Despite the purging and restrictive diets, I will never have positive body image. My goal...
    Vanessa41 Vanessa41
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 2, 2014

    I was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder

    almost a year ago. I no longer struggle with that, but instead, something else. I used to eat uncontrollably. I am 5'3" and my highest weight ever was 185. This summer, I realized that I had a problem that I could solve, so I made a conscious effort to stop eating so much. It...
    brriittttaannyy brriittttaannyy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 13, 2015

    Yep :/ depression and ednos goes hand in hand

    like a snowball effect ugh feeling really ill right now since I vomited
    cute4me cute4me
    16-17, T
    Feb 17, 2015

    Lost so much weight since the last time I was

    here im so happyyyy I barely care about recovery anymore everyone loves me more than they ever did On my way to 100 and it's easy to get lower from there :)))))))))))
    Anonliljokergirl Anonliljokergirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2014

    Lovely. I've relapsed again.

    I dont think im strong enough to get better again :(
    georgieescar georgieescar
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 27, 2014

    My Ed Story

    I grew up in a big house. My mother took in young people with trouble in their own household. So My mom lived there, my brother and sister (which doesn't have the same father as me) lived there, i lived there and then there were always 2 or 3 other people living there. I was the...
    Phoebusdissapear Phoebusdissapear
    18-21, F
    Jan 3, 2012

    Anyone want to be recovery buddies?

    I can feel myself slipping back into restricting and I really need someone to help me through!
    ccb22 ccb22
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2014

    Ednos And Want To Be Anorexic

    I would much rather be anorexic than ednos. I feel like ednos is not real because I am not losing weight. I hate it every day and I purge sometimes. I wish I could lock myself up in a cage with no food. I would be happy then.
    AbysmalSoul AbysmalSoul
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2013

    Tfw you refuse to eat the small healthy thing

    because CALORIES and then end up pretty much binging on junk food 2 hours later. Wow. Just wow. Well done. >____<
    jessipanda jessipanda
    18-21, F
    Oct 7, 2015

    I hate myself, i think i have ednos ,

    but i'm not skinny. I ate a lot . I feel like a pig . I feel horrible ..
    CamillaMillys CamillaMillys
    18-21, F
    Jul 28, 2014

    Not the Usual Eating Disorder...

      So apparently I have EDNOS... My psychologist clamed that I have orthorexia, but this is not an officially recognised disorder, so officially I have EDNOS...   My food “issues” though are strange... it’s not a case of fearing a gain in weight, nor...
    shadowlight shadowlight
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

    Hey lovleys I'm Jaedon :) 16 years old.

    5'3 about 115-120 pounds? wanna be like 100? I am diagnosed with ednos. and have been battling this mess for 3.5 years. anyways, just need a buddy to get some extra pounds off! message me if you're interested! :)
    fatgirl0202 fatgirl0202
    16-17, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    I'm unhappy in my marriage

    and don't know how to fix it. We'd been separated 9 months but then I let him come home thinking things would be different but they're not. He won't go to counseling and I get blamed for nearly everything. Just wish someone else would come along to take me away and show me the...
    Mimi4life2 Mimi4life2
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Oct 1, 2015

    Finally know what's the caused of losing a lot

    of weight at one point and gaining it like crazy. I use to binge on fast-food, snacks, chocolate, soft-drinks, desserts, instant noodles (uncooked). Then I starve myself out of feelings of depression and shame, punishing myself. Now I'm purging in a way and exercising but it's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 24, 2015

    I was getting a lot better

    and starting to become more comfortable with myself but recently, something happened to one of my friends and i don't know why but i've started over exersizing and restricting again, and i'm having serious urges to cut. i just want to be happy
    mybeautifulbreakdown mybeautifulbreakdown
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2014

    It's getting worse because of my stress levels.

    Starving then binging then starving again.... I don't know whether I should look for help or not...
    jessipanda jessipanda
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2015

    Coming out of a restriction cycle

    and into a binge cycle... Hoping I can stop before I do any damage.
    jessipanda jessipanda
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2015

    I Feel Irrelevant

    I have EDNOS. I used to have anorexia (5'4 and 100lbs) and now I am at a "healthy" weight. The issue is that the thoughts are just as bad! I never like myself, always feel fat, WANT to diet (but I still eat,) and compare myself. I have gone to therapy and take medication for...
    Jan 18, 2013

    Oh my god it hurts so badly I will never be

    able to get better it's almost been a year and I'm in the exact same spot I need to throw up so badly right now and my anxiety is at its peak I don't know what to ******* do I can't live like this much longer all I do is struggle I'm never happy I can't tell my mom and my best...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2015

    It'S Turned Into My Way Of Life.

    I have never talked about my eating disorder, personally. I figured it should've been easier online, but it's not. My eating disorder is something I'm ashamed of and it's silently killing me but at the same time it's not something I want to let go of. It's like the best friend...
    corinustad corinustad
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2013

    I'm not sure if I actually have an eating

    disorder or just severe food-related anxiety. Whenever I eat I'm so afraid of throwing up that I'll get bad panic attacks and my stomach feels full even if I haven't eaten much, because I always just feel nauseous. It's hard to explain. But yeah...
    helloo12121 helloo12121
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    Sabatage

    So I've had Ednos for like, forever. Before I even knew that's what it was called. Pretty much Ana but not quite there, it's a work in progress. My current goal is just to lose 5 pounds, that's it..... shouldn't be too hard, right? I'm a pro at this, however I swear everyone is...
    suffering1286 suffering1286
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    Well I think I do Most days I skips 1 - 2 meals

    and then on other days I over eat. I've never gone to a doctor about this so I am not 100% sure if I do have ednos or not
    catatattat catatattat
    26-30, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    I've been having 800-1000 calories the last few

    weeks. and now I just binged for the last four days! I probably went from 119 to 127 pounds but why do I even care ?? ugh
    gloryandglamour gloryandglamour
    18-21, F
    Oct 14, 2015

    Defined

    EDNOS, defined as an “eating disorder not otherwise specified”. Let me change the definition; specify it in relation to myself. EDNOS; not a disorder, but an existence. A creature made of tentacles and oily black skin, writhing and curling around my very soul, enclosing it...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

    Battling Eating Disorders

    So, its been two weeks since my 18th birthday, surely I should be happy, I could go out and legally buy alcoholic drinks, buy cigarettes, be a woman! So why is it that I'm not happy. I have a perfect family, great friends, and a gorgeous fiancee. The thing is, it isn't them that...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2009

    Oh greaaat apparently I've got EDNOS woooow

    what a great thing to know about, (means that I have aneroxia, Bulimia and I purge, binge and restrict all together)
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 28

    Wanting Out Of Ednos.

    It all started in fifth grade. One of my nearest friends had insulted me and called me pig. She told me i was just jealous of her body since she was so thin. I was actually the biggest kid in class. I decided to do something about it. I started starving myself and purging every...
    anedlife anedlife
    18-21
    Mar 19, 2013

    I have never felt comfortable with my weight,

    I never feel okay about eating , but I'm slowly but surely getting better, I've come to realise that my weight has no significance to my life and to other's, therefore why should I reject being healthy to feed my bad body image? I haven't purged for about 4 months, but I still...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    I started restricting to 800 calories again.

    I am about to have 655 as my total for the day, because after I eat the baked potato I'm making I'll only have 145 calories to spare. (Gotta be 100 calories safe away from limit.)
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount
    16-17, F
    Nov 3, 2014

    When I first became how I am,

    every one considered me skinny. But I lost weight and loved how much weight I lost. I then started seeing things differently. I used to hate skinny people and people who would calorie count and stuff. Now I like live by it and people kind of judge me. I am sorry I can't help it...
    Mikah1022 Mikah1022
    16-17, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    I miss my anorexia today.

    I am at my heaviest weight in a very long time and even though I know that I'm more than a number, I really miss being numbed out from all the pain in this world. I nearly died 3 years ago and if I hadn't stopped, I'd be dead by now, but I still miss it so, so much...
    p3141592 p3141592
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 11, 2015

    3am Room Service At A 5 Star Hotel. Really? Really!?

    So, here I am 30 years old, the Executive Director of a national organization (my dream job), in a 5 star hotel, in the most comfy bed you can imagine and all I can think about is ordering more room service when breakfast begins. It bothers me the most being a mental health...
    stillednos stillednos
    31-35
    1 Response Mar 19, 2013

    Lost In Ednos

    So i guess ive realised i need to talk to someone about this.. im 20 years old, 5 ft 8 and have been struggling with eating issues since i was 14,  i was bulimic for 4 years and then recovered and since september 2008 i started restricting and went from 85Kg to 59 kgs now...
    atbattle89 atbattle89
    18-21
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

    I have Ednos, and it's hard,

    because I will go through long periods of starving and binging. My weight is constantly changing and I hate that. It's so hard to loose weight, in the last few months, I have only gained :( Ugh :( Is anybody the same ?
    PaintOverItBlack PaintOverItBlack
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2015

    My Eating Disorder Story, And Why Ednos Should Be Taken More Seriously

    I have had problems with my weight since 13, where I became anorexic, dropping down to 5st 12lbs. I did not get professional help for this, but a family member helped me and encouraged me to gain weight again. I still very much had problems with my body and eating, and when...
    Itisreal Itisreal
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 1, 2012

    I recently fall back into EDNOS

    and the most worrying part is that I'm not even worried about it. And I'm afraid I'll only start to care once my teeth and hair show signs, like how it was last time.
    cocoroo cocoroo
    26-30, F
    Oct 20, 2015

    My mother just confronted me by accusing me of

    making myself throw up. I've done a lot of things but not that, and not at the time or in the way that she insisted I was.
    consciousmindlessness consciousmindlessness
    18-21, F
    Jan 10

    Welp, have been keeping my calories under 500

    the past three days, but tonight for some reason (right before bed) I just HAD to make a ham and cheese sandwich AND eat three balls of cookie dough. I want to throw up so badly but I know my parents would hear me.
    justbreathe95 justbreathe95
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2015
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