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I Have Ednos

I have eating disorder not otherwise specified. 193 People

    Ednos?

    so, this is a hard for me to write, but the time has come that it needs to be done; no matter how hard it is.i am 17 years old, live in the uk and up untill 2 years ago i was of normal weight ( not that you could convince me of that. i thought i was huge.) since leaving school i...
    saintscheer27 saintscheer27 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I don't even know what to do with myself some

    days. I'm just so torn between warning to eat and not wanting to eat because if I eat I binge and want to throw up
    marinasayshi marinasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    I Guess.

    Several years ago I was evaluated for eating disorders. The result? Virtually every single one of the boxes for anorexia was checked off.  One, only ONE criterion was not met...but it was a doozy.  I sought help early, so according to the DSM-IV (the diagnostician's Bible), I...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2013

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    Wanting Out Of Ednos.

    It all started in fifth grade. One of my nearest friends had insulted me and called me pig. She told me i was just jealous of her body since she was so thin. I was actually the biggest kid in class. I decided to do something about it. I started starving myself and purging every...
    anedlife anedlife 16-17 Mar 19, 2013

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    I used to make Kandi - beaded jewelry

    and stuff. Not like the adult things - they were bright colored pony beads. It took a lot of time out of my 12 year old life at the time. I started eating very little just to spend time on my craft. I lost 10 pounds during that phase. I stopped, and gained it all back. It made...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F a week ago

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    Sabatage

    So I've had Ednos for like, forever. Before I even knew that's what it was called. Pretty much Ana but not quite there, it's a work in progress. My current goal is just to lose 5 pounds, that's it..... shouldn't be too hard, right? I'm a pro at this, however I swear everyone is...
    suffering1286 suffering1286 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    The Battle

    I want to say that I don't have a problem... But I know that it's not true. I just don't know what to say or think. I was told that there was no way to talk around it because I need to say that it's an eating disorder. It is a battle everyday to tell myself to "eat normally" but...
    apd22830 apd22830 16-17 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    Defined

    EDNOS, defined as an “eating disorder not otherwise specified”. Let me change the definition; specify it in relation to myself. EDNOS; not a disorder, but an existence. A creature made of tentacles and oily black skin, writhing and curling around my very soul, enclosing it...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    Ugh, Relapse.

    I binged today... It really sucked. I had DQ ice creme after almost six hours of not eating.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Loop

    im tired of my weight going up and down...i wish i could stay strong and not overeat again and again..why i can't stay in that time between, where i am strong enough not to eat,  just run, study and not feeling guilty brcause of eating(eating too much). well i don't know if...
    blueBerryblue blueBerryblue 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2010

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    11 Years And Counting

    I have been skinny all my life till I started taking meds for my thyroid. It start when I was 18 and now at age 29 I still can't accept my body. I am 5'4 and at my lowest I was 102 and at my highest 130. I would starve myself for days and live on coffee and energy drink...
    Stickstone Stickstone 26-30, F Aug 27, 2013

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    My mom says I'm on the verge of looking

    sickly… but when I look in the mirror I see myself times two:/
    LovetoSwim LovetoSwim 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Purging

    so- i binged. and, now i wanna purge.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2013

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    A Little Confused...is It Just Me???

    so i consider myself pro ana when in reality i know i probly have EDNOS.   i'll fast but if i break my fast or go over my cal limit for the day i just end up binging all day and stuffing my face and even after ive eaten a TON of food i still dont feel full.  ...
    undead3325 undead3325 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    My Ed Story

    I grew up in a big house. My mother took in young people with trouble in their own household. So My mom lived there, my brother and sister (which doesn't have the same father as me) lived there, i lived there and then there were always 2 or 3 other people living there. I was the...
    Phoebusdissapear Phoebusdissapear 18-21, F Jan 3, 2012

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    My Abusive, Destructive Relationship With Ed

    I have ednos.  I am 41 years old, and just came to terms with the fact that I have suffered with ED for as far back as I can remember.  I have run the gamut of behaviors, have been significantly overweight (binge eating in my younger years), and on...
    marissacrc marissacrc 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Do I Deserve To Have A Problem?

    I'm Kylie. I'm 17 years old and have a twin sister with a similar struggle. From the 7th to 9th grade I gained weight until I was slightly overweight, not too much but still fatter than I would like, especially when the other girls in my class were tiny. At the end of freshman...
    hkylie2013 hkylie2013 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I'm 21 And I Should Be Over This, But I'm Not

      My family, they just mock me by asking how I would feel if actual chubby or overweight people heard me talk about my body or they call me "anorexic".  The second one hurts worse because I wish was, because at least then I'd be thin.  I don't binge, so I can't be bulimic even...
    Neverlandlass Neverlandlass 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2012

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    Bulimia ~

    I've never been one for throwing up; I have a fear of suffocating to death. But, I was bulimic for a while in 6th grade. I haven't purposefully thrown up since Hallowe'en 2012. But, I relapsed today.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    I Diagnosed Myself

    but for good reason. i've always struggled with my weight. used to self injure. starve myself. binge/purge. but it wasn't all the time. sometimes i would eat 'normal'. i knew something wasn't right, but i didn't know what it was exactly. i researched eating disorders. ednos. ah...
    TheThinnerIsTheWinner TheThinnerIsTheWinner 18-21, F Nov 12, 2011

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    I Have Ednos...

    It started when I was 15 years old. I was a happy girl and had friends but in junior high I felt different in the sense of feeling chubby and even one girl had whispered behind my back "she is fat and useless in her own skin". Those words hurt me. I'm a sensitive person and I...
    Alexygirl23 Alexygirl23 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

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    Battling Eating Disorders

    So, its been two weeks since my 18th birthday, surely I should be happy, I could go out and legally buy alcoholic drinks, buy cigarettes, be a woman! So why is it that I'm not happy. I have a perfect family, great friends, and a gorgeous fiancee. The thing is, it isn't them that...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I never really stopped Okay so,

    it's been a year or two since I've been on here. A year or two since I first admitted to my problem, and since then it has only gotten worse. I passed out again, twice within two months. I've started to get light headed and unbalanced every time i stand up. My hands have been...
    hopelessly14 hopelessly14 13-15, F Dec 23, 2013

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    Dinner Time &Amp; Dessert?

    I've decided to eat dinner with my family tonight. Usually, my dad will make dinner for me, my brother and my sister and himself, but I won't eat. He takes this as I've eaten before he got home or I'm just not hungry. Being born three months premature gave me that excuse. But...
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F Feb 19, 2013

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    Hmmm...

    I think the main problem I have with EDNOS is restrictive eating. I make rules that I have to follow. I am on weight watchers...I am a nursing mother (still making plenty of milk and baby is thriving, so that's not an issue) so I get a 10...
    micahmae micahmae 22-25, F Feb 2, 2009

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    Lost In Ednos

    So i guess ive realised i need to talk to someone about this.. im 20 years old, 5 ft 8 and have been struggling with eating issues since i was 14,  i was bulimic for 4 years and then recovered and since september 2008 i started restricting and went from 85Kg to 59 kgs now...
    atbattle89 atbattle89 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Constant Battle

    either im eating to much or too little and then binging later, I cant freaking win. even when im good for a few days I remain just as fat as before and I just want to freaking binge again and again
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses May 20, 2013

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    Nobody Believes Me Or Understands What Has Me In It's Grip

    I hate myself. I spent my whole life being told I was fat, and other horrible things no child should ever be told. Every night at dinner, I was put down and ridiculed and insulted by everyone.  My mother would sometimes tell them to stop, but usually no one listened to her.  I...
    tryingtohealmysoul tryingtohealmysoul 31-35 Apr 22, 2012

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    It'S Turned Into My Way Of Life.

    I have never talked about my eating disorder, personally. I figured it should've been easier online, but it's not. My eating disorder is something I'm ashamed of and it's silently killing me but at the same time it's not something I want to let go of. It's like the best friend...
    corinustad corinustad 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    Update ~

    DAYS SINCE I CUT: 3 or 4 DAYS SINCE I ATE: 0 LAST PURGED: 1w/a HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY RECOVERY: The need to restrain my eating in undeniable. I made a plan last night to only eat twice a day. Once at midnight; once at noon. Other than those times, I just consume liquids. That...
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    Ednos And Want To Be Anorexic

    I would much rather be anorexic than ednos. I feel like ednos is not real because I am not losing weight. I hate it every day and I purge sometimes. I wish I could lock myself up in a cage with no food. I would be happy then.
    AbysmalSoul AbysmalSoul 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    Living With Ednos

    As of the 3.1.13 I'm 5'2 and weigh 8stone 2 (114pounds) which is in the normal weight range for my height. I've always been preocupied about my weight, even at 8 years old I thought I was fat and convinced myself I was pregnant (Obviously not knowing how you get pregnant...
    sufferingednos sufferingednos 18-21, F Jan 3, 2013

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    Eating Disordered Since Childhood

    I have always struggled with my weight. But let me give you some context. I grew up in Utah with parents who were used to cooking huge meals for the guests we'd have over frequently. To this day for meals like Thanksgiving she always cooks for way more people than are there. And...
    isothien isothien 22-25 1 Response Jan 8, 2012

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    Bulimia Is A B*Tch!

    My wrists look really small today. And, now I'm only 100 lbs. Which seems normal for someone who's 4'11''. Haven't eaten since noon. But, now I'm really hungry. I'm forcing myself not to eat for another seven hours. Considering going vegetarian... If I ever eat enough to be...
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F Feb 19, 2013

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    Not the Usual Eating Disorder...

      So apparently I have EDNOS... My psychologist clamed that I have orthorexia, but this is not an officially recognised disorder, so officially I have EDNOS...   My food “issues” though are strange... it’s not a case of fearing a gain in weight, nor...
    shadowlight shadowlight 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    Really Tired Of The Cycle...

    My family has always had body image issues, so I shouldn't be surprised that I ended up with ednos. At first, I would restrict my calories to 900 a day and I was taking a thermo to speed it up (also, I k ew nothing about nutrition). This lasted three months, and I dropped the...
    pandamagnolia pandamagnolia 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2013

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    The Blackhole Of Ednos

    Throughout most of highschool, I was confident, happy, and just content. I was at a new years party last year when I was a junior. Long story short, one of my bestfriends boyfriend forced me to blow him. I didn't tell anyone, I was scared people wouldn't believe me and I didn't...
    Staystrongandbeautiful Staystrongandbeautiful 16-17 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    Hm

    I'm getting very tired of the girls on ana boot camp. Not all of them, just the ones who are fake. Nobody even bothers to relate to me if my posts aren't about what I ate. When they are about how I feel they just ignore me. God, I hate this. Today I feel like I don't want...
    Radio1Radio1 Radio1Radio1 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 28, 2009

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    I was getting a lot better

    and starting to become more comfortable with myself but recently, something happened to one of my friends and i don't know why but i've started over exersizing and restricting again, and i'm having serious urges to cut. i just want to be happy
    mybeautifulbreakdown mybeautifulbreakdown 13-15, F Mar 25

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    3am Room Service At A 5 Star Hotel. Really? Really!?

    So, here I am 30 years old, the Executive Director of a national organization (my dream job), in a 5 star hotel, in the most comfy bed you can imagine and all I can think about is ordering more room service when breakfast begins. It bothers me the most being a mental health...
    stillednos stillednos 31-35 Mar 19, 2013

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    I am a senior in high school

    and I have been dealing with eating disorder not otherwise specified for a little while now. It's the constant battle between starving and binging. The worst part is, there is no progress. Despite the purging and restrictive diets, I will never have positive body image. My goal...
    Vanessa41 Vanessa41 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I Wanna Purge.

    Just gave into Burger King. Gods, do I wanna puke it all back up.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I Feel Irrelevant

    I have EDNOS. I used to have anorexia (5'4 and 100lbs) and now I am at a "healthy" weight. The issue is that the thoughts are just as bad! I never like myself, always feel fat, WANT to diet (but I still eat,) and compare myself. I have gone to therapy and take medication for...
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    I have had eating issues

    since I was 11. I don't remember what it's like to not count calories and weigh myself constantly. I always feel guilty whenever I eat and I purge most of the time. I'm not a binge eater but I do eat a normal amount of food and purge it occasionally. Most of the time I'm fasting...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F Mar 31

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