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I Have Ednos

I have eating disorder not otherwise specified. 255 People

    Not the Usual Eating Disorder...

      So apparently I have EDNOS... My psychologist clamed that I have orthorexia, but this is not an officially recognised disorder, so officially I have EDNOS...   My food “issues” though are strange... it’s not a case of fearing a gain in weight, nor...
    shadowlight shadowlight 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    I Wanna Purge.

    Just gave into Burger King. Gods, do I wanna puke it all back up.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    It'S Turned Into My Way Of Life.

    I have never talked about my eating disorder, personally. I figured it should've been easier online, but it's not. My eating disorder is something I'm ashamed of and it's silently killing me but at the same time it's not something I want to let go of. It's like the best friend...
    corinustad corinustad 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    Really Tired Of The Cycle...

    My family has always had body image issues, so I shouldn't be surprised that I ended up with ednos. At first, I would restrict my calories to 900 a day and I was taking a thermo to speed it up (also, I k ew nothing about nutrition). This lasted three months, and I dropped the...
    pandamagnolia pandamagnolia 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2013

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    11 Years And Counting

    I have been skinny all my life till I started taking meds for my thyroid. It start when I was 18 and now at age 29 I still can't accept my body. I am 5'4 and at my lowest I was 102 and at my highest 130. I would starve myself for days and live on coffee and energy drink...
    Stickstone Stickstone 26-30, F Aug 27, 2013

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    A Little Confused...is It Just Me???

    so i consider myself pro ana when in reality i know i probly have EDNOS.   i'll fast but if i break my fast or go over my cal limit for the day i just end up binging all day and stuffing my face and even after ive eaten a TON of food i still dont feel full.  ...
    undead3325 undead3325 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    Lost In Ednos

    im 15 years old, and i believe i may be battling an EDNOS. It's nearly been a year since i started calorie counting, at the start it was not such an obsession, but now it's pretty much all i think about! I constantly weigh myself, (at least 3 times a day). I count...
    evob15 evob15 13-15, F Apr 17, 2010

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    Loop

    im tired of my weight going up and down...i wish i could stay strong and not overeat again and again..why i can't stay in that time between, where i am strong enough not to eat,  just run, study and not feeling guilty brcause of eating(eating too much). well i don't know if...
    blueBerryblue blueBerryblue 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2010

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    Lovely. I've relapsed again.

    I dont think im strong enough to get better again :(
    georgieescar georgieescar 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    Hmmm...

    I think the main problem I have with EDNOS is restrictive eating. I make rules that I have to follow. I am on weight watchers...I am a nursing mother (still making plenty of milk and baby is thriving, so that's not an issue) so I get a 10...
    micahmae micahmae 22-25, F Feb 2, 2009

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    Constant Battle

    either im eating to much or too little and then binging later, I cant freaking win. even when im good for a few days I remain just as fat as before and I just want to freaking binge again and again
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses May 20, 2013

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    I'm too fat to have an eating disorder,

    right? That my ribs and cheekbones and pelvis have to be prominent and my hair must be straw like and my eyes must be dead. Don't worry. My sweatshirts and large pants hide my hard work. I understand the stereotype, and honestly that's my goal. I used to be quite the fat kid...
    Anonliljokergirl Anonliljokergirl 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    Defined

    EDNOS, defined as an “eating disorder not otherwise specified”. Let me change the definition; specify it in relation to myself. EDNOS; not a disorder, but an existence. A creature made of tentacles and oily black skin, writhing and curling around my very soul, enclosing it...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    My Eating Disorder Story, And Why Ednos Should Be Taken More Seriously

    I have had problems with my weight since 13, where I became anorexic, dropping down to 5st 12lbs. I did not get professional help for this, but a family member helped me and encouraged me to gain weight again. I still very much had problems with my body and eating, and when...
    Itisreal Itisreal 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2012

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    I never really stopped Okay so,

    it's been a year or two since I've been on here. A year or two since I first admitted to my problem, and since then it has only gotten worse. I passed out again, twice within two months. I've started to get light headed and unbalanced every time i stand up. My hands have been...
    hopelessly14 hopelessly14 13-15, F Dec 23, 2013

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    I have had eating issues

    since I was 11. I don't remember what it's like to not count calories and weigh myself constantly. I always feel guilty whenever I eat and I purge most of the time. I'm not a binge eater but I do eat a normal amount of food and purge it occasionally. Most of the time I'm fasting...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F 1 Response May 27

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    I started restricting to 800 calories again.

    I am about to have 655 as my total for the day, because after I eat the baked potato I'm making I'll only have 145 calories to spare. (Gotta be 100 calories safe away from limit.)
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    I'm confuse . Can someone

    who ever had / have ednos tell me the symptoms?
    CamillaMillys CamillaMillys 16-17, F Jul 21

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    Ednos And Want To Be Anorexic

    I would much rather be anorexic than ednos. I feel like ednos is not real because I am not losing weight. I hate it every day and I purge sometimes. I wish I could lock myself up in a cage with no food. I would be happy then.
    AbysmalSoul AbysmalSoul 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    So I was walking into my boyfriends room

    and I tripped (or so I thought) and out of all things I hit the right side of my face on my closed laptop that was sitting up against a cushioned foot rest. I guess I blacked out from not eating enough, I thought I cried immediately when I hit and the extreme pain..... But I...
    OutForChange OutForChange 18-21, F Jun 5

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    Lost so much weight since the last time I was

    here im so happyyyy I barely care about recovery anymore everyone loves me more than they ever did On my way to 100 and it's easy to get lower from there :)))))))))))
    Anonliljokergirl Anonliljokergirl 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    Lost In Ednos

    So i guess ive realised i need to talk to someone about this.. im 20 years old, 5 ft 8 and have been struggling with eating issues since i was 14,  i was bulimic for 4 years and then recovered and since september 2008 i started restricting and went from 85Kg to 59 kgs now...
    atbattle89 atbattle89 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Purging

    so- i binged. and, now i wanna purge.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2013

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    I have never felt comfortable with my weight,

    I never feel okay about eating , but I'm slowly but surely getting better, I've come to realise that my weight has no significance to my life and to other's, therefore why should I reject being healthy to feed my bad body image? I haven't purged for about 4 months, but I still...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal 16-17, F Aug 18

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    I hate myself, i think i have ednos ,

    but i'm not skinny. I ate a lot . I feel like a pig . I feel horrible ..
    CamillaMillys CamillaMillys 16-17, F Jul 28

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    I am a senior in high school

    and I have been dealing with eating disorder not otherwise specified for a little while now. It's the constant battle between starving and binging. The worst part is, there is no progress. Despite the purging and restrictive diets, I will never have positive body image. My goal...
    Vanessa41 Vanessa41 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    Anyone want to be recovery buddies?

    I can feel myself slipping back into restricting and I really need someone to help me through!
    ccb22 ccb22 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    My Ed Story

    I grew up in a big house. My mother took in young people with trouble in their own household. So My mom lived there, my brother and sister (which doesn't have the same father as me) lived there, i lived there and then there were always 2 or 3 other people living there. I was the...
    Phoebusdissapear Phoebusdissapear 18-21, F Jan 3, 2012

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    Sabatage

    So I've had Ednos for like, forever. Before I even knew that's what it was called. Pretty much Ana but not quite there, it's a work in progress. My current goal is just to lose 5 pounds, that's it..... shouldn't be too hard, right? I'm a pro at this, however I swear everyone is...
    suffering1286 suffering1286 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    My mom says I'm on the verge of looking

    sickly… but when I look in the mirror I see myself times two:/
    LovetoSwim LovetoSwim 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I was getting a lot better

    and starting to become more comfortable with myself but recently, something happened to one of my friends and i don't know why but i've started over exersizing and restricting again, and i'm having serious urges to cut. i just want to be happy
    mybeautifulbreakdown mybeautifulbreakdown 13-15, F Mar 25

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    Ednos?

    so, this is a hard for me to write, but the time has come that it needs to be done; no matter how hard it is.i am 17 years old, live in the uk and up untill 2 years ago i was of normal weight ( not that you could convince me of that. i thought i was huge.) since leaving school i...
    saintscheer27 saintscheer27 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    Asdfghjkl

    I've probably had EDNOS since like I was 9, I'm now 14. I did lose 30pounds in the end of th grade, but I gained it back, but I also grew 6inches taller. I'm 5'7 and 149.8 pounds. I wanna weigh 110, I know that this will eventually develope into anorexia, or even animia. I'm not...
    CuriousRegrets CuriousRegrets 18-21, F Aug 10, 2009

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    Battling Eating Disorders

    So, its been two weeks since my 18th birthday, surely I should be happy, I could go out and legally buy alcoholic drinks, buy cigarettes, be a woman! So why is it that I'm not happy. I have a perfect family, great friends, and a gorgeous fiancee. The thing is, it isn't them that...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Ugh, Relapse.

    I binged today... It really sucked. I had DQ ice creme after almost six hours of not eating.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    I used to make Kandi - beaded jewelry

    and stuff. Not like the adult things - they were bright colored pony beads. It took a lot of time out of my 12 year old life at the time. I started eating very little just to spend time on my craft. I lost 10 pounds during that phase. I stopped, and gained it all back. It made...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Apr 16

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    My Abusive, Destructive Relationship With Ed

    I have ednos.  I am 41 years old, and just came to terms with the fact that I have suffered with ED for as far back as I can remember.  I have run the gamut of behaviors, have been significantly overweight (binge eating in my younger years), and on...
    marissacrc marissacrc 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Slowly But Surely Recovering

    I've always had issues with body image. Most of my family is overweight or on the verge but I've always been the tiny one. My family has had NO problem pointing that out to me. I know they weren't trying to be mean or put me down, but that's always stuck with me. I know I'm small...
    gcriotgirl gcriotgirl 22-25, F Aug 21, 2013

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    Nobody Believes Me Or Understands What Has Me In It's Grip

    I hate myself. I spent my whole life being told I was fat, and other horrible things no child should ever be told. Every night at dinner, I was put down and ridiculed and insulted by everyone.  My mother would sometimes tell them to stop, but usually no one listened to her.  I...
    tryingtohealmysoul tryingtohealmysoul 31-35 Apr 22, 2012

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    The Battle

    I want to say that I don't have a problem... But I know that it's not true. I just don't know what to say or think. I was told that there was no way to talk around it because I need to say that it's an eating disorder. It is a battle everyday to tell myself to "eat normally" but...
    apd22830 apd22830 16-17 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    I hate this cycle. I

    either restrict and lose weight or binge and maintain/ gain. I'm so unhappy right now. I just want to lose again. I'll do anything. I feel like such a failure. I want to lose weight, but I'm struggling to control my binge eating. I feel so gross.
    BecomingPerfect88 BecomingPerfect88 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    3am Room Service At A 5 Star Hotel. Really? Really!?

    So, here I am 30 years old, the Executive Director of a national organization (my dream job), in a 5 star hotel, in the most comfy bed you can imagine and all I can think about is ordering more room service when breakfast begins. It bothers me the most being a mental health...
    stillednos stillednos 31-35 1 Response Mar 19, 2013

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    I've begun restricting again

    because my parents never leave me home alone enough for me to purge, so today I had only 540 calories worth of food and my stomach is used to larger portions because I had been recovering, and it's grumbling and still empty and I feel amazing. And that scares. I shouldn't like...
    megganjohanna megganjohanna 16-17, F 1 Response May 9

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    I Have Ednos...

    It started when I was 15 years old. I was a happy girl and had friends but in junior high I felt different in the sense of feeling chubby and even one girl had whispered behind my back "she is fat and useless in her own skin". Those words hurt me. I'm a sensitive person and I...
    Alexygirl23 Alexygirl23 18-21, F Jul 27, 2013

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    Living With Ednos

    As of the 3.1.13 I'm 5'2 and weigh 8stone 2 (114pounds) which is in the normal weight range for my height. I've always been preocupied about my weight, even at 8 years old I thought I was fat and convinced myself I was pregnant (Obviously not knowing how you get pregnant...
    sufferingednos sufferingednos 18-21, F Jan 3, 2013

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    Wanting Out Of Ednos.

    It all started in fifth grade. One of my nearest friends had insulted me and called me pig. She told me i was just jealous of her body since she was so thin. I was actually the biggest kid in class. I decided to do something about it. I started starving myself and purging every...
    anedlife anedlife 16-17 Mar 19, 2013

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