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I Have Ednos

I have eating disorder not otherwise specified. 308 People

    I Wanna Purge.

    Just gave into Burger King. Gods, do I wanna puke it all back up.
    marajadeweston marajadeweston 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Have only had about 400-500 calories daily

    for the past two weeks.. Im so tired
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    My Abusive, Destructive Relationship With Ed

    I have ednos.  I am 41 years old, and just came to terms with the fact that I have suffered with ED for as far back as I can remember.  I have run the gamut of behaviors, have been significantly overweight (binge eating in my younger years), and on...
    marissacrc marissacrc 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    I'm confuse . Can someone

    who ever had / have ednos tell me the symptoms?
    CamillaMillys CamillaMillys 18-21, F Jul 21, 2014

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    Here it is 1:13am an I been

    so miserable all day.. I'm 7 months pregnant an I'm struggling to eat too keep mi baby healthy..i threw up 5x today..i feel disgusted with myself.. Ik I need to b eating got mi son an I try so hard but as these months past an I get bigger I lose it even more an nobody...
    P3rf3ctDisast3r P3rf3ctDisast3r 22-25, F Aug 19

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    Finally know what's the caused of losing a lot

    of weight at one point and gaining it like crazy. I use to binge on fast-food, snacks, chocolate, soft-drinks, desserts, instant noodles (uncooked). Then I starve myself out of feelings of depression and shame, punishing myself. Now I'm purging in a way and exercising but it's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 24

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    I have Ednos, and it's hard,

    because I will go through long periods of starving and binging. My weight is constantly changing and I hate that. It's so hard to loose weight, in the last few months, I have only gained :( Ugh :( Is anybody the same ?
    PaintOverItBlack PaintOverItBlack 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    Battling Eating Disorders

    So, its been two weeks since my 18th birthday, surely I should be happy, I could go out and legally buy alcoholic drinks, buy cigarettes, be a woman! So why is it that I'm not happy. I have a perfect family, great friends, and a gorgeous fiancee. The thing is, it isn't them that...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I can't get better. It's been 8 months

    and no matter how hard i try I can't do it and I'm just so tired
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly 16-17, F May 5

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    I hate this cycle. I

    either restrict and lose weight or binge and maintain/ gain. I'm so unhappy right now. I just want to lose again. I'll do anything. I feel like such a failure. I want to lose weight, but I'm struggling to control my binge eating. I feel so gross.
    BecomingPerfect88 BecomingPerfect88 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    Help Me

    I've had Ednos since last year. I lost 20 pounds, and ate less everyday. I have two people inside of me. One telling me to eat and the other one tells me to stop eating. I've been on this "recover" for one week and I'm fat, fat fat- I've gained all the weight back. I'm fat again...
    MinuteSecond MinuteSecond 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2012

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    Hey lovleys I'm Jaedon :) 16 years old.

    5'3 about 115-120 pounds? wanna be like 100? I am diagnosed with ednos. and have been battling this mess for 3.5 years. anyways, just need a buddy to get some extra pounds off! message me if you're interested! :)
    fatgirl0202 fatgirl0202 16-17, F Aug 9

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    Defined

    EDNOS, defined as an “eating disorder not otherwise specified”. Let me change the definition; specify it in relation to myself. EDNOS; not a disorder, but an existence. A creature made of tentacles and oily black skin, writhing and curling around my very soul, enclosing it...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2011

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    I have never felt comfortable with my weight,

    I never feel okay about eating , but I'm slowly but surely getting better, I've come to realise that my weight has no significance to my life and to other's, therefore why should I reject being healthy to feed my bad body image? I haven't purged for about 4 months, but I still...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal 16-17, F Aug 18, 2014

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    I'm too fat to have an eating disorder,

    right? That my ribs and cheekbones and pelvis have to be prominent and my hair must be straw like and my eyes must be dead. Don't worry. My sweatshirts and large pants hide my hard work. I understand the stereotype, and honestly that's my goal. I used to be quite the fat kid...
    Anonliljokergirl Anonliljokergirl 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    Lovely. I've relapsed again.

    I dont think im strong enough to get better again :(
    georgieescar georgieescar 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2014

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    Lost In Ednos

    So i guess ive realised i need to talk to someone about this.. im 20 years old, 5 ft 8 and have been struggling with eating issues since i was 14,  i was bulimic for 4 years and then recovered and since september 2008 i started restricting and went from 85Kg to 59 kgs now...
    atbattle89 atbattle89 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Sabatage

    So I've had Ednos for like, forever. Before I even knew that's what it was called. Pretty much Ana but not quite there, it's a work in progress. My current goal is just to lose 5 pounds, that's it..... shouldn't be too hard, right? I'm a pro at this, however I swear everyone is...
    suffering1286 suffering1286 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Not the Usual Eating Disorder...

      So apparently I have EDNOS... My psychologist clamed that I have orthorexia, but this is not an officially recognised disorder, so officially I have EDNOS...   My food “issues” though are strange... it’s not a case of fearing a gain in weight, nor...
    shadowlight shadowlight 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    Oh my god it hurts so badly I will never be

    able to get better it's almost been a year and I'm in the exact same spot I need to throw up so badly right now and my anxiety is at its peak I don't know what to ******* do I can't live like this much longer all I do is struggle I'm never happy I can't tell my mom and my best...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly 16-17, F Jun 27

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    I was getting a lot better

    and starting to become more comfortable with myself but recently, something happened to one of my friends and i don't know why but i've started over exersizing and restricting again, and i'm having serious urges to cut. i just want to be happy
    mybeautifulbreakdown mybeautifulbreakdown 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2014

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    Wanting Out Of Ednos.

    It all started in fifth grade. One of my nearest friends had insulted me and called me pig. She told me i was just jealous of her body since she was so thin. I was actually the biggest kid in class. I decided to do something about it. I started starving myself and purging every...
    anedlife anedlife 16-17 Mar 19, 2013

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    I hate myself, i think i have ednos ,

    but i'm not skinny. I ate a lot . I feel like a pig . I feel horrible ..
    CamillaMillys CamillaMillys 18-21, F Jul 28, 2014

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    Constant Battle

    either im eating to much or too little and then binging later, I cant freaking win. even when im good for a few days I remain just as fat as before and I just want to freaking binge again and again
    FreeMyHeart FreeMyHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses May 20, 2013

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    Lost so much weight since the last time I was

    here im so happyyyy I barely care about recovery anymore everyone loves me more than they ever did On my way to 100 and it's easy to get lower from there :)))))))))))
    Anonliljokergirl Anonliljokergirl 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    It'S Turned Into My Way Of Life.

    I have never talked about my eating disorder, personally. I figured it should've been easier online, but it's not. My eating disorder is something I'm ashamed of and it's silently killing me but at the same time it's not something I want to let go of. It's like the best friend...
    corinustad corinustad 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    I am a senior in high school

    and I have been dealing with eating disorder not otherwise specified for a little while now. It's the constant battle between starving and binging. The worst part is, there is no progress. Despite the purging and restrictive diets, I will never have positive body image. My goal...
    Vanessa41 Vanessa41 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2014

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    I'm not sure if I actually have an eating

    disorder or just severe food-related anxiety. Whenever I eat I'm so afraid of throwing up that I'll get bad panic attacks and my stomach feels full even if I haven't eaten much, because I always just feel nauseous. It's hard to explain. But yeah...
    helloo12121 helloo12121 13-15, F Jul 12

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    Well I think I do Most days I skips 1 - 2 meals

    and then on other days I over eat. I've never gone to a doctor about this so I am not 100% sure if I do have ednos or not
    catatattat catatattat 26-30, F Aug 17

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    My Eating Disorder Story, And Why Ednos Should Be Taken More Seriously

    I have had problems with my weight since 13, where I became anorexic, dropping down to 5st 12lbs. I did not get professional help for this, but a family member helped me and encouraged me to gain weight again. I still very much had problems with my body and eating, and when...
    Itisreal Itisreal 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 1, 2012

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    My mom says I'm on the verge of looking

    sickly… but when I look in the mirror I see myself times two:/
    LovetoSwim LovetoSwim 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I started restricting to 800 calories again.

    I am about to have 655 as my total for the day, because after I eat the baked potato I'm making I'll only have 145 calories to spare. (Gotta be 100 calories safe away from limit.)
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Nov 3, 2014

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    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    Welp, have been keeping my calories under 500

    the past three days, but tonight for some reason (right before bed) I just HAD to make a ham and cheese sandwich AND eat three balls of cookie dough. I want to throw up so badly but I know my parents would hear me.
    justbreathe95 justbreathe95 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I used to make Kandi - beaded jewelry

    and stuff. Not like the adult things - they were bright colored pony beads. It took a lot of time out of my 12 year old life at the time. I started eating very little just to spend time on my craft. I lost 10 pounds during that phase. I stopped, and gained it all back. It made...
    PanicAtTheDiscount PanicAtTheDiscount 13-15, F Apr 16, 2014

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    I Have Ednos...

    It started when I was 15 years old. I was a happy girl and had friends but in junior high I felt different in the sense of feeling chubby and even one girl had whispered behind my back "she is fat and useless in her own skin". Those words hurt me. I'm a sensitive person and I...
    Alexygirl23 Alexygirl23 18-21, F Jul 27, 2013

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    So I was walking into my boyfriends room

    and I tripped (or so I thought) and out of all things I hit the right side of my face on my closed laptop that was sitting up against a cushioned foot rest. I guess I blacked out from not eating enough, I thought I cried immediately when I hit and the extreme pain..... But I...
    OutForChange OutForChange 18-21, F Jun 5, 2014

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    I'm trying to recover.

    . it's slow.. too slow.. I'm sick of this and I'm trying to work out and balance meals so that it's healthy and I get enough food but sometimes I go over my limit and tonight I went waaaay over the limit for the first time probably since December.. Usually if I go over the limit...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly 16-17, F Mar 2

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    Here it is 12:30am an I'm up thinking bout how

    many calories I ate today..ive been struggling with this shyt since 14 sad part is I'm almost 7 months pregnant an I can't stop..ik I need to for mii baby but mi mind won't lemme..mii Dr says I'm at a healthy weight..i swear those r the worse words a person could tell meh is tht...
    P3rf3ctDisast3r P3rf3ctDisast3r 22-25, F Aug 13

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    3am Room Service At A 5 Star Hotel. Really? Really!?

    So, here I am 30 years old, the Executive Director of a national organization (my dream job), in a 5 star hotel, in the most comfy bed you can imagine and all I can think about is ordering more room service when breakfast begins. It bothers me the most being a mental health...
    stillednos stillednos 31-35 1 Response Mar 19, 2013

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    I Feel Irrelevant

    I have EDNOS. I used to have anorexia (5'4 and 100lbs) and now I am at a "healthy" weight. The issue is that the thoughts are just as bad! I never like myself, always feel fat, WANT to diet (but I still eat,) and compare myself. I have gone to therapy and take medication for...
    Jan 18, 2013

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    I have had eating issues

    since I was 11. I don't remember what it's like to not count calories and weigh myself constantly. I always feel guilty whenever I eat and I purge most of the time. I'm not a binge eater but I do eat a normal amount of food and purge it occasionally. Most of the time I'm fasting...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2014

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    Ednos And Want To Be Anorexic

    I would much rather be anorexic than ednos. I feel like ednos is not real because I am not losing weight. I hate it every day and I purge sometimes. I wish I could lock myself up in a cage with no food. I would be happy then.
    AbysmalSoul AbysmalSoul 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Anyone want to be recovery buddies?

    I can feel myself slipping back into restricting and I really need someone to help me through!
    ccb22 ccb22 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    I've begun restricting again

    because my parents never leave me home alone enough for me to purge, so today I had only 540 calories worth of food and my stomach is used to larger portions because I had been recovering, and it's grumbling and still empty and I feel amazing. And that scares. I shouldn't like...
    megganjohanna megganjohanna 18-21, F 1 Response May 9, 2014

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    Yep :/ depression and ednos goes hand in hand

    like a snowball effect ugh feeling really ill right now since I vomited
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T Feb 17

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