I Have Emotional Deprivation Disorder

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    Never, Never A Warm Touch From My Mother...

    ...and now, 57 years later, I feel so awfully much detached from people, I just can't help it. My husband used to say sometimes just "I love you, baby", and in the begiiing of our marriage I used to ask him  "But why?", and I ment it. Isn't it strange? If it wasn't for...
    Aronia Aronia
    56-60, F
    4 Responses May 21, 2010

    I have edd and just lost the only person

    that ever affirmed me to suicide, My husband. We had been married for 35 years. I realized that he was everything to me , without him I find that I cannot leave the house or even talk to family members. As time passes it gets worse. it has been a year since his death. My...
    just56 just56
    61-65, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2014

    Hope Comes In Different Packages

    What a relief to find firstly an answer to my ‘question’ something is wrong? and feel that I’m not alone in this world through this Group. As I’m sure most of you have googled conradbaars.com this overview brought me to my knees in tears (literally) when I realised that...
    AnthonyC001 AnthonyC001
    Oct 2, 2012

    I Feel A Million Miles Away From Where I Was When I Wrote My Last Story

    The first and only story, blog, or whatever you call it, on this site was something that I wrote around 18 months ago.  To be honest, I forgot I even signed up on this site and was only reminded because of an email. I truly feel like a completely different person now. I was...
    jenniferk32 jenniferk32
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 27, 2012

    A Place To Call Home

    Does anyone really understand what I have been through and why I am who I am?  if they did would they accept me for who I am?  Since I was a little kid, i felt I never belonged to the humane race.  No one gave a dam if I lived or died.  I raised myself...
    justacidathart justacidathart
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Feb 12, 2010

    I Found Me, Finally And There's A Term For It Edd

    I've been wondering for quite sometime what was wrong with me, more so recently. I met someone very nice and told me he is in love with me and I asked him "Why?" I couldn't reciprocate the love. I like him that I know but can't go more than that. I question everything when it...
    miajnorway miajnorway
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Aug 31, 2010

    How Do I Find Unconditional Healing Love When I Am Emotionally Deprived And Unstable?

    I just found informaton on this disorder and am stunned at how accurate it is in describing me. I have always felt something like a Quasimoto- like there was something freakishly wrong with me that everyone else sees and causes them to reject me. I have intense, deep cravings for...
    jenniferk32 jenniferk32
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Sep 18, 2010


          I am a single 49 year old female who for most of my adolesence and young adult years (early 20)s felt like I was very different from all of my peers and even close friends.  I felt like an "alien" from another planet. I was extremely shy as a young girl but I came...
    Chantasia Chantasia
    3 Responses May 14, 2011


    It sucks! it sucks! it sucks! it sucks! IT SUCKS! And I am not a freak! I had to get that off my chest. Emotional Deprivation Disorder is horrible. I feel so sick. I'm really not myself right now, I don't know who I am. Does anyone else feel like this?
    peaceable peaceable
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jul 11, 2008

    Emotionally Undeveloped

    I believe I have this emotional deprivation disorder. I have known this all my life but did nt know the name for it. I have never been able to form personal relationships with women and indeed have never had a real girlfriend in 54 years of life. I am not gay. Far from it. I...
    bigfoot91 bigfoot91
    7 Responses Apr 30, 2012

    The Things People Say..

    I am new to this group... I am desperately seeking help for the severe emotional pain and broken relationships that have plagued me my entire life. I will share more later perhaps but does anyone else have a strong trigger when people tell you not to feel pain, or God doesn't...
    notable notable
    51-55, F
    10 Responses Sep 3, 2011

    Trying To Help

    I don't have this disorder actually, but I recently discovered that one of my oldest and dearest friends does have it.  I looked at the list of symptoms, and out of 42 of them, I could definitively recognize at least 31 of them in him. Now I know him very well...
    TheFixer TheFixer
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2009

    Looking For A Little Help....

    I've never been to a shrink before so I don't actually know if i have this, but I came acrossed it googling. The last few months I've just wanted to know what is wrong and that I'm not the only person in the world that feels like this. It seems like most of the people who...
    Learning2Fall Learning2Fall
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2010

    I Never Knew

    there was a name for this. It really sucks to feel this way on a daily basis, and to know that it affects my relationships.
    sassee1 sassee1
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2009

    On the Way to Cure

    I self-diagnosed myself with Emotional Deprivation Disorder over 5 years ago.  I was so relieved to have a diagnosis and know I wasn't just some crazy.  Since that time, with the help of God and a wonderful husband who is  patient and loyal, though I do...
    affirmed affirmed
    5 Responses Jul 6, 2009

    I've come to realize

    and accept that I have EDD, based on a list of symptoms I came across after googling "emotionally stunted". As I'm sure many of us are, I can be warm, affectionate, and empathetic, but I need someone else to initiate a gesture and break down my wall before I can connect. And...
    papipapsmear papipapsmear
    26-30, T
    1 Response Nov 4, 2015

    Hi, Members!

    OK so I have been really silly. I started this group a looooong time ago because I had EDD, felt totally terrible, and also thought that there was no representation on the net. I then pretty much immediately forgot my password and the new email address I'd set up to register...
    peaceable1 peaceable1
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 13, 2011

    Not Quite Sure, But I Need to Do Something!

    Im not quite sure  what i have, but i suspect that it could be Emotional Deprivation Disorder. I read the conrad baars website and i recognized plenty of the symptoms in myself. However, the description says that the disorder stems from nto feeling unconditional love at a...
    lorieu lorieu
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2009

    In the Dumps

    I am majorly feeling in the dumps.  I've been doing research on the internet trying to figure out why I am feeling so lousy and "stumbled" upon this emotional deprivation disorder.  I sensed something was seriously wrong with me because every time my counselor...
    carriehugs carriehugs
    6 Responses Jul 3, 2009

    Nobody's Princess

    My father has always been extremely cold and critical. He never expressed any nurturance or empathy for me.  He has never acted to preserve or enhance my present or future well-being.  On multiple occasions my mother has stopped him from acting to my long-term detriment.  He...
    ensorceled ensorceled
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2012

    What Is The Next Step?

    I have known I have some variety of emotional deprivation.  I have had therapy, looked online for hours, joined countless forums, etc. etc.  The truth is there is a real poverty of information out there about how to cope with emotional deprivation.  As much as I...
    kas63 kas63
    8 Responses Sep 18, 2010

    I just need to tell someone something about

    this, whatever that is. I need to get this off my chest, because none of me makes any sense to me. I'm 15 now, but I'll be turning 16 in a few days. I'm pretty sure I have EDD, but I feel like I shouldn't. I don't think my childhood was that terrible. It's like I believe you...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    Not Fun

    So I am not sure I have this but have great reason to believe thats whats going on here. My parents have never showed emotion or expressed love to me even though I know they do love me. I know i have some really great true friends who are always there for me, but I always feel...
    heffstar22 heffstar22
    1 Response Aug 6, 2009

    Soulmate With Edd

    I met a girl who I fell in love with at first sight. We were perfect together, in so many, many ways, and she said so too. I knew she had a rough childhood, and understood why she had trouble with intimacy. Physical sex was ok, but she was uncomfortable with me kissing her...
    doctorbone doctorbone
    51-55, M
    1 Response Feb 6, 2012

    Fit the Criteria - Except For Kleptomania!!

    I tick most of the criteria boxes for this disorder.  I have a lot of co-dependent traits too, mainly people pleasing and conflict avoidance but don't fit the whole criteria of a co-dep, I am very independent for starters and don't display neediness or clingyness...
    KlarityBelle KlarityBelle
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2009

    Still In Shock That I Came Across This Disorder And It Fits Me Better Than My Shirt!

    I was actually looking around trying to find out something that would help me understand my husband and that is when I found this!  I have seen counselors and doctors, one told me to read a book on Codependancy,  one had put me on Effexor Xr after trying other...
    wantingjoy wantingjoy
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2010

    hello. i also am self-diagnosed.

    the more i study, the more sure i am that this is me! unfortunately, my husband is cruel, manipulative, generally awful, and i am trying hard to leave him. i'm scared by the fact that everything i read about healing this disorder insists that i can't be helped without someone...
    snarla snarla
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2014

    Same Things...

    It breaks my heart whenever I read a new story in here, not least because I always have an instant recognition and think that anyone here could pretty much be describing my life. There is so much resonance with what people say and it does make me feel just a little better that...
    peaceable1 peaceable1
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

    My Boyfriend Wrote 'I can't get over the fact that I'm fu@#ing a fat chick' About Me...

    My boyfriend John is lovely…kind, gentle, highly intelligent, artistic and creative. He lets me be me and accepts me for who I am, personality-wise anyway. He seems to “get” me- he gets my dark side, gets my borderline slapstick-silly side, seems to respect my intellect and...
    jenniferk32 jenniferk32
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 5, 2012

    Please Can Someone Help Me

    When I was 5 my mother got cancer, and was ill for two years and then died. During this time my nan came to live with us, and I was not allowed to see my mum as she was in bed ill. Then she went to hospital. My nan was physically abusive to me, and I was very scared of her. When...
    Babybear07 Babybear07
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

    Take Me To Your Heart...

    My mother had a hollow embrace. Like icy bones wrapped around me with no body to hold to. Her grieving breast was too bitter to give the warmth a child needs. Her numbed lips, as blue as death, spit frozen, ghostly breath-- like chards of ice. I'm from the chill of a...
    Heidicake Heidicake
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Dec 29, 2010

    I Don't Know

    I can not say 100% that i have this. I have never been formally diagnosed with it. Recently i have been noticing some behavior that is troubling.   I feel like there must be an underlying cause. There are many "symptoms" that are startlingly similar to myself. I...
    Tacit Tacit
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 1, 2008
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