I am lucky in the way that I have not lost anyone close to me thru death. I have lost a lot in my life thru other ways. I am a registered nurse, I love my profession. I have always "given" my life to my job, literally. When I was 21 years old I began having issues with...
What have i lost? I lost, many times who i could have been...i was abused when i was 7...when i was 18 my mother became very ill and spent 4 years in hospital dying...when i was 21 my 24 year old sister died and three weeks later my mother died....a year later my best friend...
hell people can shut out future happiness through past loss be it deaths or otherwise,
But finally I can relate n have no regrets or apathy towards future ideals n I'm happy I no longer see from the inside looking in but from the outside looking in.
I see Pandora's box as it...
I can't find her. I can't articulate properly how horrible i feel. I wish I could have found her, but I can't. Now I feel depressed and lost. I don't know what to do now. For a short time, everything just stopped, when I talked with her, and then trying to find her.... I just...
Tragic reflections mark my disappointment
indisposed in my mordent resentment
the everyday thoughts of my loss
Vivid and long enduring memories of the past
flood my being
Anger fuels my soul
my becoming is unreal