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I Have Experienced Psychosis

For anyone experiencing or having had experienced a psychotic episode 402 People

    The Woods

    I  know this looks long, but I promise that it is worth the read. When I was twenty years old, I had a spiritual and emotional experience that changed the way that I look at life forever. As with all good stories, it starts with the love of a woman... It was a...
    naughtypuppy naughtypuppy 26-30, M 28 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    Having An Episode

    So. Narsasisticly speaking, I stepped outside of my bubble to b proved wrong agen. I can't predict others thinking! I'm pretty close with a lot but not always right and that really upsets my social balance. Horrible, if everything's not about me then why dose it seem that way.
    wakotrs wakotrs 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2013

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    My Psychotic Episodes-

    my story is too long to share but these are acouple of things i experienced- i heard screaming and voices a lot. i thought that my whole family was part of some massive neo nazi white supremicist group and hundreds of aboriginal people where going to come to torture and kill me...
    youngozziman youngozziman 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    Four Years After My Last Psychotic Episode (Bipolar I)

    I’m shifting between two worlds. I call one the evil world, the other the good world. People appear out of nowhere in front of me. The most recent thing I remember is the car ride to the hospital and my last cigarette, probably for a while. I sign the forms they present...
    Scith Scith 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    My Psychosis

    In June 2011, I was under a lot of stress at work and ended up doing a lot of my work at home working late into the night. Whilst having a smoke in the back garden, I heard some voices which could have been coming from anywhere really but didn't make a big issue of it. After all...
    AyoIrl79 AyoIrl79 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 1, 2012

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    Post-traumatic Psychosis

    I have been out of the mental hospital for about 5 months now. It was rough. I have a son that I am the primary care-giver of and it was so hard being without him. My relatives helped me with him while I was in the hospital. I was treated for psychosis. My doctor said it was...
    Ricole123 Ricole123 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    I spent three years (14-17) of my life floating

    in and out of reality, and people didn't really notice. They just assumed I was a bit of a space cadet and perhaps a bit slow. I don't remember how I started therapy, but it happened around last February. It felt like there was a foggy plastic bubble between me and the real...
    godvvave godvvave 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    So Called Madness.

    I keep going back and forth between believing their (US culture) bullshit and believing my own. I'm not quite sure what is true right now. I had a vision last night after I had asked for one and it reminded me strongly of a friend of mine. I wrote a letter very soon after to him...
    awakedream awakedream 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    I have experienced psychosis

    because of weed. The most recent one was unlike nothing before. Usually I think my family and stuff are demons or aliens and everyone around me is trying to kill me. I did think everyone was trying to kill me and that my family were not really my family. but this time it was...
    KAYCIXO KAYCIXO 18-21, F May 20

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    Last year in May the psychiatrists said

    that the strange things that I was experiencing was a psychosis. Fortunately, it didn't go so far. Now after analyzing what happened to me, I realize that everything started from mood swings. Then my dreams became so vivid. But then delusions appeared. I thought that my hands...
    goldenmoon15 goldenmoon15 22-25, F Jun 5

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    Family History By 1prettygirl ,Post Partum Psychosis

    Well this is a bit of a change,i will post the rest of the story but this is what i have found out about my families illnesses In the 1930's my great grandmother was taken away from her children due to a major post partum problem,was gone for 3 months. 1960's my own...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 5 Responses Apr 24, 2013

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    Misdiagnosed Cause I Knew What Was Going On

    Hi, I'ld be happy to hear from someone that knew what was happening during their episode. I had hell for near two months this year. To make a long story short I was under a lot of stress when someone pointed out affair bit of things to me one night on the serious matter, I went...
    kmwatson kmwatson 31-35 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I am a regular 19 year old girl

    who experienced a drug-induced psychosis for the duration of the summer that almost ruined my life. I strongly feel that this is something that people should be more aware and understanding about after experiencing what I would describe as the most traumatizing period of my life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Just under a year ago I revelled in believing I

    had discovered the equation of the meaning of life: 1 + (2+2) = 2 which I believed would cure cancer. I also believed I had found the mathematical representation of the 10 commandments: |=||=||| (or 1=2=3, note there are 10 horizontal and vertical lines.) Furthermore, I was...
    rewindme rewindme 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I thought my family was trying to kill me.

    I thought my co workers were following me home from work. The morning I went to the hospital I thought one of my bosses were waiting outside in their truck. My boyfriend had work and I pretended to be sleeping but I thought he was kidnapped! I called him in a panic and he said...
    reneelove1 reneelove1 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    My Struggle With Psycosis

    Hello, I am just at the end of my second psychotic episode and I am having a very rough time getting back to normality. In both of the episodes, I believed I was the messiah without a doubt from Intense visions I had and things god showed me. Things some people said to me could...
    briguy2012 briguy2012 26-30 4 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    Losing And Finding My Mind

    This is quite long but an intresting exp of my life.A bit more happened then this inside my head an what i heared but hears as brief as i can make it. On may 5th i travelled to Germany from New Zealand to  work as a chef in a restaurant. I had been smoking alot of weed...
    lostsomespirit lostsomespirit 22-25 9 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    I have major depressive disorder with psychotic

    features, The voices went away for about 3/4 years and then i started taking adderall again But i was also starving myself at the time and i got paranoid thoughts again After about four months on adderal i decided to try meth for two weeks.... WORST DECISION EVER Voices came...
    HannahRose1101 HannahRose1101 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Funny Thing!

    What had cause my psychosis was the meds that my therapists gave me! Yep, the meds that was suppose to cure my depression and anxiety, gave me moments of hallucinations! XD They were the meds, "Paxil", "Wellbutrin", "Zoloft", "...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    Do Not Move

    im new here and its nice to talk I guess. im aliyah am im thirteen years old. i like to think of myself as a abnormal person. im in the eighth grade and play soccer. i am depressed so bad. i have the most abnormal visuals in my head. I see and sometimes hear scary stuff that is...
    aliyah2001 aliyah2001 13-15, F Oct 20, 2013

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    had delusions about being Jesus.

    Experienced hallucinations
    toramu toramu 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Hmmm..

    I'm not sure if I have experienced psychosis or not. I'm not sure if I am hallucinating. I used to hear a telephone ringing behind me in high school as I walked through the hallways. My friends couldn't hear it. It sounded so real but at the same time it seemed unreal. I even...
    blazedin blazedin 18-21, F Sep 22, 2013

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    It all started at a music festival

    that I attended two years ago. i experienced drug-induced psychosis for a few days-probably prolonged by minimal sleep and nourishment. its taken me a long time to piece together the timeline of events that occurred and i still obsessively probe my mind for answers to the blank...
    psychoticalias psychoticalias 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Defeating Psychosis

    I was diagnosed with phychosis a month ago, along with major depression. I am now just understanding what phychosis is. My psychosis, in general, is pretty typical among others who have experienced mental illness. My perception of Reality was changed. Maybe forever. But I have...
    HighEndOfLow HighEndOfLow 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    I'Ve Never Shared My Story Before.

    i have so much shame centered around it that i can't talk it through to somebody face to face. i'm sharing it here in hopes of being spared judgement. i don't know why i did the things i did. i suppose that's where the disorder comes in to play. the best i can hope for is to...
    Rills Rills 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    I began thinking the guy I was dating was in a

    detox sober living program that this Jesus loving realtor in my town had created. Then I started believing that 2 other guys I had been with that lived in totally different places all knew each other and were in this program. When I asked the current guy about it he was totally...
    manicvelvet manicvelvet 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Truly Harrowing

    I am a decent bright, bubbly, sensible, kind and very lovely person. For my user name I tried all the lovely positive names under the sun, and they were already taken. So I finally got exhausted and tried 'harrowing'. Maybe it will actually get some attention! I am so not an...
    harrowing harrowing 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2013

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    I Battled Psychosis For 3 Years

    Awhile back, I battled a psychotic episode for almost 3 long years.  I thought for the longest time that I had schizophrenia, as having psychosis is like being schizophrenic.  It seemed to occur when I had alot of stress in my life.  Money problems, friends leaving...
    haydenrules haydenrules 31-35, F 16 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    Still Trying to Figure It All Out (phychosis)

    Today I am 32.When I was 17 my life changed...drastically!My parents divorced,I was moving from place to place,yadda yadda. I went out with my friends and being young and carefree,I smoked hash oil,or whatever it was.After about a half of an hour,I was high for my first time ever...
    Josie11 Josie11 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    Psychosis Changed My Dream World.

    I have always had very intense dreams. I love being deeply immersed in my dream worlds, completely forgetting my waking life. I am very lucky because when I have nightmares I don’t tend to wake up, rather my dream self finds amazing ways to solve the problems and...
    phubbie phubbie 22-25, F 8 Responses Sep 28, 2010

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    This is my first post on EP.

    I'm so glad I found this app! :) I was diagnosed with Adult ADHD (predominantly inattentive) in the summer of 2011. My first experience with psychostimulants was in August, when my RN prescribed me Adderall IR. It took me a few months to get the dosage to a suitable and...
    I4n3 I4n3 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 23

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    My Psychosis and Their Difference Faces.

    Visiting from the BPD forum. I have almost all of my history over there. The type of psychosis I have endured is called brief reactive psychosis. This is psychosis that shows its ugly face during extreme times of stress. Things like this happened to me as far back as I can...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    Do Not Be Afraid

    This song speaks to my soul and goes into deep places. For me, it heals the scars of depression and psychosis but this song is for anyone! I am not advocating religion. I am just sharing a song that I am sure everyone can relate to. If you prefer to listen rather than read, go...
    Marysone Marysone 22-25, F Aug 30, 2013

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    My Psychosis Experience

    Well it all started in my 30's . I had been in a very abusive relationship since I was 19. I started using my imagination to escape the verbal and mental abuse. I would think things like I had invisible friends to talk with a they would give me good advice.. this worked well for...
    4yrheadache 4yrheadache 41-45, F 4 Responses May 19, 2011

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    My name is Lisa and I am 13 years old.

    I have been put on .5 mg of Risperidal. I experience auditory hallucinations of my thoughts coming into my head that do not come from, kind of like telepathy. I also have disorganized speech and behavior. I am very eccentric and have self stimulation issues. I flap my arms when...
    lisatheladybug lisatheladybug 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 5

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    About a year ago I lost everything meaningful

    to me due to marijuana psychosis. I lost both of my jobs, my apartment, and my girlfriend left me. It turns out I'm one of the .001% of the worlds population that gets psychotic effects from it. I had become dependent on it because I loved how it made me feel. I had been...
    hamstergreen hamstergreen 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 3

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    Poem- "I Am Not The Girl That I Could Be"

    Have you ever walked insanity streets? Glimmering with empty promises – Sparkling with deceit? Now tell me, do you know who I am? A whisper of the girl that I could have been. Have you ever been burglarized – In an untraditional way? Your riches sit untouched – It’s...
    maezombiie maezombiie 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    During the recovery stage of my psychosis I was

    writing things about myself down on a piece of paper and all of a sudden i felt this click in my head. This click made my voice sound different and changed the way my thoughts sounded, and when my mother talked to me it sounded different. Everything looked more colorful. This...
    devkap28 devkap28 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    In June of 2013 is when I had my largest

    psychotic break. I knew something was wrong when I started hearing the voices in about January. At the time I had a lot going on. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in July of 2012, and bipolar disorder is what "caused" my psychosis. The voices told me awful things, things I...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 1 Response May 9

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    I'm having a very strong urge to stop taking my

    antipsychotics. I'm about to work a full week for the first time. If I stop taking them now I'll have one day off before I start my next shift. I've done this before. I know the hazards. But I don't want to wait more than a month to get off of this.
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    The White Wolf - Some Of My Experiences In Psychosis

    In December 2012 I came to the conclusion that I was Abraham Lincoln, Jesse James, Elvis Presley, King Tutankhamen and A.A. Allen (Revivalist) reincarnated. I even experienced heart ache at the thoughts of dying as the listed people that I thought I used to be and claimed to have...
    thebutcher606 thebutcher606 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    A Poem About My First Psychotic Episode

    Lost In Her Own Reality Cold. Breathing in air of another. The Earth dissapears. Light vanishes. Whispers engulf the brain. They own it. She is gone. All she sees is them. This is her past. She now disassociates. Decieving her own self, is she sane?
    roseshideinthemind roseshideinthemind 16-17, F Mar 15, 2013

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    Trigger

    Everybody reacts differently to different drugs. I've tried a few. For example, some people have had bad experiences with LSD. Personally, I never have. But I always respond poorly to Cannabis without fail. I will try to explain what my experience is like.It starts out fine. From...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    I have bipolar with a mix of psychosis .

    It's a horrible to live with . I have hallucinations thoughts of suicide/homicide . I switch moods really fast if something triggers it . But I really need someone to talk to ... :(
    confused5050 confused5050 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    Phychosis: A Blessing Or A Curse?

    I am 21 years old, and 7 months ago i was attacked by phychosis. Something suddenly felt strange, something unplaceable, unique. It was like having a bomb in my head, someone lighting the fuse, but myself not knowing how long the fuse was going to take to blow. BANG! The fuse...
    Antzbah Antzbah 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2012

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    A couple of months ago I was diagnosed with

    psychosis and was put into a psychiatric hospital for nearly two months, since then I have been trying to find other people who have experienced psychotic type symptoms also but are not sure that it was really what was going on. I am also a spiritualist who meditates regularly...
    carinaleejones carinaleejones 26-30 2 Responses May 15

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    bluebird222 bluebird222 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 18

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    The Time I Thought We Were Gods.

    I'm 18 years old and my name is Janica, My psychosis came on suddenly about 8 months ago, it started suddenly during my job. I thought I was the town joke and everyone in the town had to live like I did. I am a cashier and at the time, and I thought people were buying all the...
    janica23 janica23 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2013

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    I'm still experiencing psychosis.

    I'm afraid people are trying to kill me or hurt me in some other ways. Before getting treatment, I spent 6 months thinking I had done something awful and deserved to be punished. Thanks to the meds, I can now go out a bit easier, but I'm not out of the woods quite yet. I can...
    hutre hutre 22-25 1 Response Feb 28

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    Related Experiences

    I am 24 and I have experienced so much pain that you would die, you'd just ******* die! But I'm alive now and I got a nice big and beautiful smile on my face! Yay!
    northexit182 northexit182 22-25, M Aug 17

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    My mom passed away last year (January 2013). She was eighty-eight years old, which was very fitting for her to have lived in years, the same amount as there are keys on a piano...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 8

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    In my first "experience" I told you that you and I are different. This experience will just be peeling back one of the layers so you can see in more detail. I was diagnosed with...
    AshTheShade AshTheShade 31-35, M Aug 10

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    Forty-four years ago the youngest of my three brothers committed suicide, he was twenty years old, and I was thirteen. He would have been sixty-four years old today, so I wanted to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 11