I Have Experienced Psychosis

For anyone experiencing or having had experienced a psychotic episode 552 People

    Truly Harrowing

    I am a decent bright, bubbly, sensible, kind and very lovely person. For my user name I tried all the lovely positive names under the sun, and they were already taken. So I finally got exhausted and tried 'harrowing'. Maybe it will actually get some attention! I am so not an...
    harrowing harrowing
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 28, 2013

    I'm just going to write the things I'd had

    while experiencing psychotic episodes. I have had hard time forgiving myself or accepting myself because of these. I doubt my existence. I still hate myself. But by writing here I hope things get easier for me. ( I don't remember all of it though. ) First episodes. Age 18 I...
    shirrinha34 shirrinha34
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jul 4, 2015

    Im a fighter no matter what life throws no

    matter how much paint heart feels in time all will heal now for that chocolate eclair time to enjoy the small pleasures of life with a cup of tea.... Positivity!!!!!
    jml5 jml5
    31-35, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    Phychosis: A Blessing Or A Curse?

    I am 21 years old, and 7 months ago i was attacked by phychosis. Something suddenly felt strange, something unplaceable, unique. It was like having a bomb in my head, someone lighting the fuse, but myself not knowing how long the fuse was going to take to blow. BANG! The fuse...
    Antzbah Antzbah
    18-21
    3 Responses Oct 12, 2012

    I'm 22 and about a year ago I was totally

    different person. Popular, very fit from going to the gym, etc.. I was also smoking weed. Everything was going great, but at then end of April 2014, after I smoked with a friend, on my way home I became extremely scared of dying. Particularly was scared of dying from a car...
    unknownOrigin unknownOrigin
    22-25
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    Trigger

    Everybody reacts differently to different drugs. I've tried a few. For example, some people have had bad experiences with LSD. Personally, I never have. But I always respond poorly to Cannabis without fail. I will try to explain what my experience is like.It starts out fine. From...
    AltF4 AltF4
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Sep 23, 2013

    In June of 2013 is when I had my largest

    psychotic break. I knew something was wrong when I started hearing the voices in about January. At the time I had a lot going on. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in July of 2012, and bipolar disorder is what "caused" my psychosis. The voices told me awful things, things I...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 9, 2014

    Part 2 at the Airport in Ireland (Dublin to be

    exact). While I was in the airport, I ended up living there for a number of days and not really sleeping much at all. I would sit in the arrivals area and watch the News about the war on the TV screen there. I would also end up buying a mobile phone and attempt to call my...
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    hi. I would like to write about my experience

    with psychosis. it all started one day. I was at home and I began to think, I realized a very basic truth, and that was that everything in life has its purpose. from a chair (used for sitting) to a pen used for writing. everything has its purpose. for some reason this...
    felixmer felixmer
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    I spent three years (14-17) of my life floating

    in and out of reality, and people didn't really notice. They just assumed I was a bit of a space cadet and perhaps a bit slow. I don't remember how I started therapy, but it happened around last February. It felt like there was a foggy plastic bubble between me and the real...
    godvvave godvvave
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 19, 2014

    Four months after my episode does anyone get

    that heavy weight on the heart feeling when you can't believe the things you did during your episode that sickie feeling where you wish it never happend man can't wait for this feeling to go....
    jml5 jml5
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

    this recovery thing is hard sometimes.

    i have came to a conclusion, none will truly ever understand. be there for you through it yes. I've come to the point I expect none to understand my brain, my wierdness, and oddities. I only expect for people to listen, and then try to understand.... no, you don't even have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 15, 2015

    Just under a year ago I revelled in believing I

    had discovered the equation of the meaning of life: 1 + (2+2) = 2 which I believed would cure cancer. I also believed I had found the mathematical representation of the 10 commandments: |=||=||| (or 1=2=3, note there are 10 horizontal and vertical lines.) Furthermore, I was...
    rewindme rewindme
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 28

    Poem- "I Am Not The Girl That I Could Be"

    Have you ever walked insanity streets? Glimmering with empty promises – Sparkling with deceit? Now tell me, do you know who I am? A whisper of the girl that I could have been. Have you ever been burglarized – In an untraditional way? Your riches sit untouched – It’s...
    maezombiie maezombiie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

    Psychosis or spiritual enlightenment?

    Somehow the world lined up and revealed itself to me on that week of december, since then everything is different. The only question in my mind is wether I was delusional or something truly beautiful happenned, I might never know. The number... I've stopped seeing it everywhere...
    ConsciousExplorer ConsciousExplorer
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    My cvnt sister films me during my psychotic

    episodes and posts them on her blog to get reactions.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2015

    I wasn't that it was.

    . I heard voices from someone named Tania recently who would tell me how defective I am compared to others and she would let me hear others thoughts that agreed with her, or she would show me unpleasant images and tell I was only getting offended because I have no turpentanium...
    asdlalnjal asdlalnjal
    18-21, F
    Nov 30, 2014

    OK, time for the story of my second episode.

    In 2003, roughly a year after I had had my first episode of psychosis, the second was triggered by being involved with someone over the internet. It turned out to be quite a profound relationship, with this person stopping me from going ahead with a suicide attempt and they...
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    I am 17 years old and have just gone through

    psychosis. I didn't hear voices, I didn't experience hallucinations necessarily, but I became able to see patterns and pictures on the walls. I also began to experience delusions. I thought that Sony had been watching me since I had been 7 and that my friends and family had been...
    spiralaxy spiralaxy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2015

    About a year ago I lost everything meaningful

    to me due to marijuana psychosis. I lost both of my jobs, my apartment, and my girlfriend left me. It turns out I'm one of the .001% of the worlds population that gets psychotic effects from it. I had become dependent on it because I loved how it made me feel. I had been...
    hamstergreen hamstergreen
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jan 3, 2014

    Losing And Finding My Mind

    This is quite long but an intresting exp of my life.A bit more happened then this inside my head an what i heared but hears as brief as i can make it. On may 5th i travelled to Germany from New Zealand to  work as a chef in a restaurant. I had been smoking alot of weed...
    lostsomespirit lostsomespirit
    22-25
    9 Responses Sep 17, 2010

    I have schizoaffective disorder,

    and although the paranoia tends to linger with me at all times, I have episodes during which things get much worse. The painful biting on my arms and legs gets stronger, the feeling of someone right behind me gets stronger, I obsessively worry more and more about people...
    theactualme theactualme
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 2

    I started experiencing my symptoms with

    Psychosis at around 17. I could never sleep as a child and grew up in a abusive home. Mainly it's paranoia that gets me in trouble. I do hear voices but not audiotary. I also get delusional but one thing I have gotten pretty good at is staying grounded. Being in a healthy...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    Well.. Had a meeting with my doctor the 12:e,

    got the diagnosis and i have gotten a medicin called quetiapin. I have taken it only twice so far, it's been like heaven. My hallucinations have calmed down alot, i can relax, finally. It's only the start of taking it since it will be increased after the first week and so on but...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 13, 2015

    My Psychosis Experience

    Well it all started in my 30's . I had been in a very abusive relationship since I was 19. I started using my imagination to escape the verbal and mental abuse. I would think things like I had invisible friends to talk with a they would give me good advice.. this worked well for...
    4yrheadache 4yrheadache
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 19, 2011

    Hi, I have a friend that is going through this.

    I'm ringing him up from his hospital. Any tips on how to talk to him? Thanks.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    Hey guys I would like to talk about my

    experience, has anyone experienced something similar? Would appreciate your comments :-) I started when I came back from holiday, I felt so anxious and couldnt sleep for days. I had many strange thoughts I remember going for an MRI scan, thinking this would turn me into the...
    goldhawk85 goldhawk85
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    Do u think its possible ?

    My sibling is blaming me for causing his psychosis.. i had told him of my experiences during my psychosis because he was helping me with depression. I didnt realise until later he was experiencing both himself, he now blames me for his psychosis.
    lostinthisworld83 lostinthisworld83
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    Still Trying to Figure It All Out (phychosis)

    Today I am 32.When I was 17 my life changed...drastically!My parents divorced,I was moving from place to place,yadda yadda. I went out with my friends and being young and carefree,I smoked hash oil,or whatever it was.After about a half of an hour,I was high for my first time ever...
    Josie11 Josie11
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Apr 30, 2009

    My Psychosis

    In June 2011, I was under a lot of stress at work and ended up doing a lot of my work at home working late into the night. Whilst having a smoke in the back garden, I heard some voices which could have been coming from anywhere really but didn't make a big issue of it. After all...
    AyoIrl79 AyoIrl79
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2012

    bang, bang, bang, stops,

    bang, bang, bang fan was screaming . my head felt like it was gonna explode.. my who vision started flashing a red face . the face said "you cant do it" constantly. Then i felt like my head was about to explode, along with my heart. The voice made the exploding smaller...
    MissingPlugins MissingPlugins
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2015

    The Woods

    I  know this looks long, but I promise that it is worth the read. When I was twenty years old, I had a spiritual and emotional experience that changed the way that I look at life forever. As with all good stories, it starts with the love of a woman... It was a...
    naughtypuppy naughtypuppy
    26-30, M
    27 Responses Aug 31, 2009

    I think I have schizophrenia,

    but I cannot talk to my psychiatrist about it, nor any of my family. I have a fear of doctors. I don't know what to do.
    Dawhead Dawhead
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 9

    How does one bounce back from this sort of

    thing? I was 17. Basically, I was in a car with my best friend at the time and one of his friends. They were smoking pot and decided to take a few hits. I was never a pot head, I just would toke up here and there. I knew this wasn't "me". I always felt ashamed whenever I did...
    Friendlee Friendlee
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

    I have been seeing things lately,

    usually a black animal like a cat dog or skunk. what should I do to cope, it's a scary thing
    nicksmash nicksmash
    22-25, M
    Oct 18, 2015

    My episodes of psychosis were first triggered

    by an anti-depressant withdrawal. I was prescribed a higher dose which exceeded what was meant to be taken as maximum, then given professional advice to just completely stop. Needless to say it blew my mind away. I remember much from the experience. I witnessed what seemed to...
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    My Struggle With Psycosis

    Hello, I am just at the end of my second psychotic episode and I am having a very rough time getting back to normality. In both of the episodes, I believed I was the messiah without a doubt from Intense visions I had and things god showed me. Things some people said to me could...
    briguy2012 briguy2012
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 25, 2013

    I am a regular 19 year old girl

    who experienced a drug-induced psychosis for the duration of the summer that almost ruined my life. I strongly feel that this is something that people should be more aware and understanding about after experiencing what I would describe as the most traumatizing period of my life...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I was with an american girl

    for seven years, i am italian, we decided to join a post graduate programme in Europe, there I met a beautiful french girl who seemed to be interested in me, by the end of the master i had completely lost my mind for her, i was convinced that she loved me and i decided to leave...
    Gioele Gioele
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    Spiritual Emergence Psychosis

    i was reading a the book "the power of now"by eckhart tolle when a thought came to me while laying in bed...if i can observe my own thoughts then who am i really.that was when it all started.it was like my thoughts were outside of my head.the next day while driving to work a...
    carcrashinkev carcrashinkev
    41-45
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2012

    It all started at a music festival

    that I attended two years ago. i experienced drug-induced psychosis for a few days-probably prolonged by minimal sleep and nourishment. its taken me a long time to piece together the timeline of events that occurred and i still obsessively probe my mind for answers to the blank...
    psychoticalias psychoticalias
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 19, 2014

    I was in University and everything was going

    great making new friends, going out, having fun twas all good! At the time I was an active reservist in the military and would you know a semi-professional cagefighter. A young, fit happy person. For a while anyway. You see the problem was besides all that I was still very...
    SAMURA1M1KE SAMURA1M1KE
    26-30, M
    Nov 6, 2015

    I'Ve Never Shared My Story Before.

    i have so much shame centered around it that i can't talk it through to somebody face to face. i'm sharing it here in hopes of being spared judgement. i don't know why i did the things i did. i suppose that's where the disorder comes in to play. the best i can hope for is to...
    Rills Rills
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 20, 2013

    I feel so strange. My memory is getting really

    bad and I can't seem to focus. People always look exceptionally weird. An example of this was last night when I saw an old man holding a severed head in my work parking lot. I touch my face and look down and see blood, but when I look in the mirror nothing's there. I stopped...
    HijackedMind HijackedMind
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    Okay..here it goes. So first off I will start

    by saying that what I experienced was called a "substance induced psychosis" which is basically a psychotic episode that was caused by taking drugs. In my case I took mushrooms. I am not absolutely sure if my psychosis was triggered because I have a history of mental illness in...
    lolitaxx1971 lolitaxx1971
    18-21, F
    Nov 14, 2015

    I'm currently 18 years old.

    I'm hoping i'm on the road to recovery for my psychosis. I believe i've had it for roughly a year, along with depression for 6. For the first time, in what feels like forever, I believe I may actually make it through this. At first, I didn't even realise what was going on, no...
    TurnerBoy94 TurnerBoy94
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    Four Years After My Last Psychotic Episode (Bipolar I)

    I’m shifting between two worlds. I call one the evil world, the other the good world. People appear out of nowhere in front of me. The most recent thing I remember is the car ride to the hospital and my last cigarette, probably for a while. I sign the forms they present...
    Scith Scith
    26-30, M
    Nov 14, 2013

    When I was younger (8-11) I would occasionally

    have visual hallucinations, during these times, I was also extremely paranoid. I was always depressed. The thing is, my family didn't talk about or acknowledge mental illness. When I brought these things up (the VERY few times I did) I was either told to stop making up stories...
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds
    31-35, F
    Sep 26, 2014
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