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I Have Felt Love, Loneliness, And Pain

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    I Have Felt Love, Loneliness, And Pain

    When I was little, I've always wanted a REAL best friend. Girls used to bully me, call me gay, etc. Probably because I was pretty, and a little bit too nice, and people like to take advantage of nice folks. I kind of settled with that kind of behavior from people, and it carried...
    LetsPray LetsPray 70+, F Dec 21, 2011

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    Lost

    You've filled my heart with love 
With happiness and joy 
A feeling so strong and willed 
That nothing could destroy 

I often wake in tears 
Wishing you were here 
But in my dreams you visit 
Makes you feel so near

 Yet when I reach out to you
 As far as I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses May 21, 2012

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