I Have Flashbacks

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 436 People

    His hands all over me its the only time he is

    nice once he starts to loose focus I can see his cross eye become lazy it hurts
    00Broken00 00Broken00
    18-21, F
    Jun 21, 2015

    My Past

    i have flash backs from my past i was in a very bad realtionship i was beat really bad and i was involed in other stuff whivh hurts me bad i get flashbacks all this i feel never get over it i hope i do but it just now feels part of me
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness
    1 Response Apr 21, 2012

    These suck, especially

    when I get a flashback about where I had an anxiety attack. It was bad enough the first time.
    persononinternet persononinternet
    18-21, M
    Jan 11, 2014

    Lying awake at 2am, pondering your

    worthlessness. Knowing how disgusting you are. feeling so guilty. Ashamed. Disgusting. In your mind you go over and over what he did to you. You just feel so.. wrong. Your birthday is always okay at first. You feel happy, and you're grateful to all your family and friends for...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    I can't breathe properly.

    This triggered me completely. Memories, flashbacks. Holy sh*t. Why do people have to post such perverted, insensitive stuff?
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    May 11, 2015

    Looking at old photos.

    ... I couldn't seem to believe I'm am still me. I have problems with looking myself in the mirror now... what do I do ?!
    monatonie monatonie
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2015


    I think alot and have always relived moments over and over in my head.  It's like I remember every detail of some things.  Abusive comments from my ex .....well they are just not going away.  More are coming out.  Remembering times.........that I know.I am having other...
    flodials flodials
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2012

    I remember when I was six it was mid march

    and we were at the hospital. You see my grandmother had bad kidneys she was a smoker and her lungs were failing and she's was on support. I remember sitting in the floor of her hospital room the smell of alcohol in the air I thought it was just a regular visit so I was sitting...
    Marigold101 Marigold101
    18-21, F
    Jul 3, 2014

    I'm Gasping For Breath And I Feel Like This Time My Mom Is Going To Kill Me.

    Nightmares taunting me night after night. I know they are memories I had shoved down so deep that only now were they finally trying to surface. Every night as the nightmares begin to reveal their truth, I wake up and won't let myself sleep again because I am not ready to remember...
    phoebe55 phoebe55
    51-55, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2013

    Can't even get a massage without flipping out.

    Honestly the whole thing was incredibly uncomfortable. I was panicking the whole time, felt like it was his hands that were on me. I couldn't calm down. The thing that really frustrated me was that I'd gotten a massage before and it didn't trigger anything. Why the heck did this...
    Hush92 Hush92
    22-25, F
    Jan 1, 2014

    I Just Had One

    I was reviewing my experiences and I look at the one called "Have Been to a Mental Hospital" and suddenly I was there looking at my Drill Sargent telling me that " You are still in the ARMY you need to cut your hair."  That happen almost 20 years ago but...
    jc2009 jc2009
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2009

    Haunted De-javu

    Everything seems to trigger a flashback, leaving me feeling dirty, vulnerable or ashamed. A touch, a comment, a place, a smell...All leave me with a dreaded feeling of de-javu. I am unable to trust and me senses have been blunted by memories that haunt me. The flash-backs are so...
    fullfigureozchick fullfigureozchick
    18-21, F
    Jul 29, 2009

    Always In My Dreams

    The old saying goes, "an elephant never forgets". Well, neither does a knighty. You wouldn't realise it were it not for my writing this story ( :3 ), but I actually spend a lot of my time thinking back to days gone by.. reminiscing about recent events, playing out scenes and...
    KnightyKnight KnightyKnight
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 9, 2013

    They Hurt

    It literally feels like I'm going through the whole thing all over again. Why is that exactly? I mean I'm sorry but I figure me surviving it once, should be more than enough. I shouldn't have to relive the damn thing over & over again like some damn broken record. I hate...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 10, 2009
    sherahasel712 sherahasel712
    16-17, F
    Jun 15, 2014

    Why I Have Flashbacks

    I was abused by a step-father from the age of seven to eleven. I was told everyday that if I told anyone that I would be killed. For five years I dealt with the physical abuse, mental torture and abuse. He would beat me and laugh at me. He found out I was afraid of mice and he...
    Brokenlikeaturtleshell Brokenlikeaturtleshell
    36-40, F
    Sep 22, 2012

    My Dad

    Not many people see someone die but I did. I saw my dad get murdered.He got stabbed. It takes over my life. I still hear the man's voice and have flashbacks of his face and that scene. Most people don't believe me but it's true. I think of it almost everyday. It results in a lot...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 28, 2011

    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    Jul 23, 2012


    It just started learning to drive (in town) and I get flashbacks when I come to a stop sign. They're always about the crash, but I had the crash on a fourwheeler. So confused. ha.
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2012

    I hate having a flashbacks specially

    when it's about the things I don't want to rember. It's 1:53 am here and i'm still awake because I remember how my my boyfriend kissed his bestfriend and it totally ****** me off.
    mielrovi mielrovi
    18-21, F
    Apr 10, 2015

    I've had a bad night.

    . All night I would close my eyes and I would start to feel it on and in me again.. As if it was happening again. Then I keep hearing it I've had to keep head phones in to try and over rank the noise.. I'm scared.. I don't know how much more of these I can take...
    swimmingwolf0 swimmingwolf0
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 18, 2014


    I don't even try to but it happens anyway. One moment I'm watching TV and the next I have a flashback. They are usually about when I was a little girl. They are stuff I shouldn't even remember. My mom dosen't even remember them. I just have a flashback of some random moment in my...
    Ghostclaw Ghostclaw
    Feb 11, 2012

    They say all these things,

    to make you feel guilty. To make you stay quiet. To make you think it's normal. Their words are in your mind constantly. They won't ever leave. "It's ok, you're a good girl" "Don't cry. Good girls don't cry." "If you tell your friend, I'll make them do it instead." "Just keep...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    Apr 5, 2015

    I feel so tired but I can't sleep.

    Any recommendations on how to calm really bad flashbacks? Music is a little soothing, but is having, strangely, barely any effect tonight.
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    May 9, 2015


    I've only sometimes flashbacks. It's about my abortion I had when I was 13. When I realized I was pregnant I had a lot of worries of course. I decided to abort, I didn't know the father, my family was very understanding and suported me and I doesn't want to have I child, I...
    Julia1889 Julia1889
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2012

    I hate flashbacks. I was having a normal day,

    almost a happy day, for once. Then I went to bed last night and as I was laying there it all came rushing back. It's not even like a flashback, it's like I'm literally there, with it all happening over again. I wish I could just be fricking normal. Not lying in bed crying...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2014

    Some guy sent me a disgusting message,

    with a picture attached. I didn't realise until I opened it, but it just triggered me, and that day just keeps going through my mind. I keep remembering every single thing that happened. Everything that was said, everything that was done. What the hell is wrong with me? I need...
    FabulousUnicorn15 FabulousUnicorn15
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 12, 2015

    I Hate Them

    I have had flashbacks since I was about 15. I don't get them that often but when I do they take over. It's like I am a kid again, with him there raping me all over again.They are so vivid that I even feel the pain again. It takes it a while for the feelings to go away.During the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
    41-45, T
    1 Response Dec 23, 2012

    Nightmares Mostly

    Most of my flashbacks are in the form of nightmares. I had a pretty traumatic experience when I was 15. I saw my best friend take 3 bullets in the chest right in front of me. Often times I wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat and I always have to look at my hands...
    Silver01ta Silver01ta
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2008

    I'm basically reliving my life from the end of

    high school till now and writing some down. Talk about some crazy memories.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop
    22-25, M
    Apr 21, 2015

    Not that often, thank God,

    but my parents screamed at each other pretty often when I was young, and one time I thought they were going to get in a fist fight, it was really scary for me. I tryed to get between them and accidentally got smacked with the broom handle. Ever since then whenever I hear people...
    YesImStillHere YesImStillHere
    26-30, F
    Sep 23, 2015

    during flashback now.

    ..1:13am now... i'm so exausted... i hate it.i hate it..it's pretty bad..like hell.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    Ever since I watched my sister die.

    I've been having very bad flashbacks about the accident. For the most part I'm doing okay but these flashbacks come out of nowhere and they are killing me. I can't handle seeing her die over and over. I want it to stop.
    alanabean alanabean
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    Flash Blacks

    often i'll have flashblacks of my childhood & ill ether be day dreaming or often have bad dreams were itll refleck on the way i act sometimes wakeing up gasping for air the bad dreams sometimes will be wet dreams flashblacks go back to were im like a child like baby were...
    F5Twister F5Twister
    26-30, M
    Mar 8, 2008

    Not often thank the gods

    and not always awake. Sometimes I wake up and see the blood in my arms hear my neice gasping for air and my ears ring from the gun shots. I was 14 when my best friend and a 3 year old baby we're both gun down in front of me. Don't know how I lived all I know is I was not fast...
    SolayTranswife SolayTranswife
    26-30, T
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    Since I gave birth, I have a lot of very

    different flashbacks. It's sometimes very disturbing. It's not traumatic, it's just because I feel I had different identities throughout my life. I was a lonely kid, I was a broken-heart girlfriend, I was a student studying in the library. And all those memories come to me just...
    CantatriceChauve CantatriceChauve
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2014

    A year and a half ago,

    I knew a person named Ian. He attempted suicide six times. I was with him for four of his attempts. When I have flashbacks, they're always the same. I'm in a dark hallway, looking into his bedroom. He's sitting on the end of his bed, facing away from me. But I know what he's...
    stalingradsnow stalingradsnow
    18-21, F
    Jun 16, 2014

    Messed Up

    I can't even look in the mirror with out wanting to break into tears cause all I see is me sitting in a public place with my ex trying to rape me and I don't get it every time I see something horrid I automatically relive that at least once a day I can't read certain words...
    Hydergirl4ever Hydergirl4ever
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2013


    I have flashbacks of my past a lot of the time, though they are more like an old film.Each picture is its own segment. And it just flashes past my eyes.I see random memories.Forests and the overwhelming feeling of pain and helplessness. When my father took me out into the forest...
    Ariesgrl21 Ariesgrl21
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2012

    That day you left... I knew you would

    but I hoped you wouldnt. I understand why you left, but I was constantly screaming in my head. That look you gave me.. God that look killed me. My heart hurts every time it just think of it. You hung up on me even though you promised you wouldnt... I thought I'd never get you...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697
    18-21, F
    Jul 14, 2015

    I Have Flashbacks

    Sometimes we'll be driving, I'll have my window down and a smell hits me and takes me back 6 years.Sometimes I'll be watching kids playing outside and hearing them laugh takes me back 12 years.Anything can trigger a flashback, it's bittersweet. Sometimes I wish I could go back...
    CuteInChaos CuteInChaos
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2011

    Post Traumatic Stress

    I have flashbacks often because I was abused up until the age of five and it gave me post traumatic stress disorder, so basically I'm forced to remember the hardest part of my life rather often
    BrokenDreamer14 BrokenDreamer14
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2012

    I have this so often

    and it's usually the bad flashbacks so bad I dream of them
    MaxwellMoonHoof MaxwellMoonHoof
    22-25, M
    Oct 3, 2015

    I frequently get flashbacks of previous dreams

    that I had years ago. Is that normal? I'll see something familiar while driving in the car or on tv and I'll instantly be brought back to a dream that I know I didn't have anytime recently. It's seriously so weird! Who knew that those dreams are deep inside my mind still.
    cicisays13 cicisays13
    31-35, F
    Nov 22, 2014
More Stories