I Have Forgot How To Smile For Real

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    Burnt In My Memories

    You are burnt in my memories!! From the very first time I saw you. When you step out of your car. You are burnt in my memories!! When I first saw your sexy legs. The first smile on your face when you looked at me. You are burnt in my memories!! From the first kiss, the glow...
    travelingman77 travelingman77
    61-65, M
    Jan 31, 2013

    Forgot How To Smile For Real At Times.....

    I have no idea what it is like to smile for real...it is always forced...no one likes to see a sad face, so many times I fake it and smile....makes everyone feel better that way, always hiding behind the mask.   My life is a mess, and trying to figure out how to make it better...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 6, 2012

    Perfection Vs. Fake

    My smile....what is that again? How do I do that again? What does it mean to actually smile? Because of my many years of perfecting this smile of mine, I have forgotten how to actually smile for real. It's perfect, and no one can ever tell how I am actually feeling behind this...
    XxTINYAZNxX XxTINYAZNxX
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2012

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