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I Have Gained a Lot of Self Knowledge Through Depression

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    Not Proud Of It Really But....

    i spent the entire year of 2009 and part of 2010 in complete misery. i was lost in the darkness of my own misery during that time. as much as it hurt constantly i admit i learned a lot. i became deeply philosophical in a twisted kind of way i wrote life quotes down. i stopped...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 1, 2011

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    Yeah life sucks. I hate it

    when they would send me to teenage psicologists and ask me about my school life well that is over now. Now they know that i have the real thing. A simple hey man get better soon is not going to work. That may have worked a long time ago but not today and not tomorrow. Who says i...
    Insomniac77 Insomniac77 16-17, M 1 Response May 22

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    That's the one good thing

    that comes from depression. A person can learn to recognize what it is that triggered the bout of depression and maybe next time that trigger won't be pulled. 
    justmarji justmarji 51-55, F Dec 9, 2013

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    The Blessing Through The Curse

    This is a wonderful group title though I don’t care for the logo myself. It depicts an emotion on this subject which is dramatically different from my view. I’ve suffered from some form of depression for as long as I can remember, probably most of my life. Much...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 4 Responses May 26, 2011

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    It's Part of Who I Am

    Depression has been such a huge part of my life. I feel like it's always been there. Even as a kid I was never truly completely happy. Depression is part of me, I believe. So if you can't handle that then you shouldn't be around me. Some people think of depression as an illness...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    It Made Me Stronger

    Depression has always been apart of my life. It has made me realize who I am, who I want to be everything. I am not saying being depressed is good, because its not. It can make people stronger or crush you. I think it depends on who you are.
    tomtombear tomtombear 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2008

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    At One Point I Had Three Years Where

    I just lived internally. I was depressed and anxious to the point of not leaving the house unless I was with a safe person - and there were few of those. Over that time you get to know yourself well. And these were my preteen/teen years - the times you're growing and changing and...
    SofiaGrowsFlowers SofiaGrowsFlowers 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Although I have yet to see the light at the end

    of the tunnel I have come to a very illuminating realization of people who are suffering from depression. I've realized that the people that I have talked to who have struggled with or completely beaten depression all have one thing in common. They all have grit. Given enough...
    ComfyMan ComfyMan 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    The Oddest Two Weeks Of My Life

       A couple of years ago I hit rock bottom in my depression. I had let it get so bad I was on the verge of suicide and I really needed help. My family got me to go to a clinic where I saw a doctor. The doctor recommended that I go into a mental hospital just for a little while...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2011

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    Video:

    I found a good video about how this can work, how depression can be a catalyst for personal growth and whatnot. check it out here: http://youtube.com/watch?v=3c4CmhwD80w
    paradoxical paradoxical 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2008

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    Or Did I?

    Since being diagnosed with such an affliction on June 5th 2008, I like to think my eyes are more open and my sense of self, and reflection has been unleashed. Alas, it (for the most part) has not. The questions I had then are the same of today. Life huh? A few things have...
    EricS EricS 26-30, M 8 Responses Nov 7, 2008

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    Someone Else's Life

    I spent a lot of years living life as I was "supposed" to - not really knowing who I was - existing like a zombie - not really living, not quite dead. Then one day, I came to a sort of emotional rock bottom. What led up to this was a friend who told me, "...
    celebriticat celebriticat 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    Unraveled

    pre depression, a tighly wound, spool of thread with all notions, ideas, knowledge, personal awareness bundled in this tiny centerpiece, the cylindrical bubble of the "known". soon time outran longevity and i was slapped by the precipice of disaster. there i stood...
    tessagirl tessagirl 18-21, F Mar 28, 2009

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    My Emotional Intelligence

    I like to think that I have a deep level of emotional intelligence. How much? I don't know, but when I observe the people around me, I suspect that it's far more than the average person. I was born with this innate understanding of the human heart. I can feel things that...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    I Reflect A Lot

    I just think and think when I'm depressed, which is sometimes a good thing and sometimes bad. I ask myself various things like what I want out of life, how do I truly think about certain things, etc. When I'm honest with myself, it starts of web of "I feel this way because...
    BlankPage123456787 BlankPage123456787 70+, F Dec 26, 2011

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    I Have Learned...

    You can change for the ones you love. But if they expect you to change at least once, they'll always expect more change from you. Crying is ok if it makes the pain go away. More often than not however, it makes the pain worse. Cutting is never the answer. Just because its a...
    newlife0204 newlife0204 18-21, F 2 Responses May 28, 2011

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    Growing up I could never connect with God.

    Probably because whenever I prayed I'd always ask for a nice car when I grew up, or something like that. Though there were times when I had genuine prayer. I think I was mostly afraid of Him. He was dark and mysterious like the Church during evening Mass. So I left the Church...
    LightinDarkness8 LightinDarkness8 26-30 Mar 23

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    Maybe the Reason Why I Feel Older Than Other Ppl At My Age

    You learn so much about your self. wow. I found a positive thing about depression -.- but the bad thing is, at least in my case, you're never sure if the person you learned about was really you, or a depressed you. You know, if it was just something you have during a depressed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 29, 2007

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    Depressed......

    Help Im deppressed. Im so depressed.....What is there to Live for? Why me, God, Why me? These questions are haunting me again. My life has become no not a hell, but a void, a huge blackhole. Where nothing ever happens and nothing ever will? It has been like this for too long and...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 10, 2010

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    Strength Thru Adversity

    I can sooo identify with this group. I am an incredibly strong woman. Even my EEG test shows it.. laughs. I am strong, and smart and caring, and all my wonderful traits because of the living thru the refiners fire called life. My life has been riddled with depression since I...
    JustRho JustRho 46-50, F Jun 28, 2013

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    I am Failing My Brother.

    when i look to my father i see myself but although fundamentaly we are the same our ideas differ greatly. when i look at my brother i also see myself and it scares me, i see low self esteem (and depression which i know is just around the corner for him) i see myself at his age. i...
    Issac95 Issac95 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 6, 2008

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    A Silver Lining

    I was diagnosed with acute depression late last year, and have had to go through some really tough counselling sessions and a fair bit of medication. I won't bore you with the reasons for my depression, but here's how it is for me. Mine comes in waves, most of the time I'm ok...
    Themanwithnobrakes Themanwithnobrakes 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 6, 2012

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    It Was More Of An Eye-opener

    I go through periodic bursts of depression for somewhat unknown and complicated reasons. Through depression, I've come to realize how flawed I am. When I'm happy, I never notice any of my flaws, I pretend as if I'm perfect (almost invincible). When I'm depressed, I notice how...
    girlanonymous girlanonymous 18-21, F Jul 6, 2011

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    I Use Depression to Make Myself Stronger

    I remember reading something about depression: that people who are depressed often have a very realistic way of viewing the world. We don't sugar-coat bad things or pretend things are better than they are- we don't have the energy for it.  The article said that maybe this is...
    drpr drpr 46-50, F Aug 11, 2008

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    Learned Alot

    Ive suffered depression for seven years now. Ive came through so much in my life-i was abused, bullied, had kidney failure and so much more. And i gt to a point in my life where it all cought up with me. It was difficult trying to deal with it all. And for a while i...
    star26 star26 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Increase Intemacy And Keep Away From Depression

    I had a Blissful sexual experienced long back . I had a girlfriend and I was practicing Martial Art so physically I was 100% fit. I was reading a Osho's book. there was technique which connects conscious breathing,controlling movements to minimum required and doing meditation...
    Besent Besent 36-40 Dec 26, 2011

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    Knowing My May Have Brought It On

    my depression has FORCED me to look deeper into myself and into a lot of my action no matter how small they may be. All this so that i don't unconsciously make things worse, in doing so i now know more of my weaknesses then other people know about their own weaknesses.I keep...
    amicawinters amicawinters 18-21, F Dec 10, 2012

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    I Learnt Alot..

    i think it showed me how strong i really am. i faced so much with my depression, even looked death in the face more then once, but by some miracle I'm still here, and fighting. i wont give up, i wont let it beat me.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M 1 Response Mar 21, 2008

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