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I Have Gained a Lot of Self Knowledge Through Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 482 People

    Knowing My May Have Brought It On

    my depression has FORCED me to look deeper into myself and into a lot of my action no matter how small they may be. All this so that i don't unconsciously make things worse, in doing so i now know more of my weaknesses then other people know about their own weaknesses.I keep...
    amicawinters amicawinters 18-21, F Dec 10, 2012

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    Learned Alot

    Ive suffered depression for seven years now. Ive came through so much in my life-i was abused, bullied, had kidney failure and so much more. And i gt to a point in my life where it all cought up with me. It was difficult trying to deal with it all. And for a while i...
    star26 star26 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    I Have Learned...

    You can change for the ones you love. But if they expect you to change at least once, they'll always expect more change from you. Crying is ok if it makes the pain go away. More often than not however, it makes the pain worse. Cutting is never the answer. Just because its a...
    newlife0204 newlife0204 18-21, F 2 Responses May 28, 2011

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    Yeah life sucks. I hate it

    when they would send me to teenage psicologists and ask me about my school life well that is over now. Now they know that i have the real thing. A simple hey man get better soon is not going to work. That may have worked a long time ago but not today and not tomorrow. Who says i...
    Insomniac77 Insomniac77 18-21, M 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    Iv learnt just in the last week how my

    depression, is either a root of loneliness or numbness! Numbness feels like your crazy for feeling nothing, feels inhuman, feels empty... I tried purposely causing drama to just feel something, even if that emotion was pain... but nothing came. I woke up one morning crying...
    generationlover generationlover 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Fight it don't let anything bring u down!

    Don't kill urself Give yourself another chance to live and to change your life for the better ;D They did it , you can do <3
    Minju96 Minju96 18-21, F Sep 15, 2014

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    The Oddest Two Weeks Of My Life

       A couple of years ago I hit rock bottom in my depression. I had let it get so bad I was on the verge of suicide and I really needed help. My family got me to go to a clinic where I saw a doctor. The doctor recommended that I go into a mental hospital just for a little while...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2011

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    Video:

    I found a good video about how this can work, how depression can be a catalyst for personal growth and whatnot. check it out here: http://youtube.com/watch?v=3c4CmhwD80w
    paradoxical paradoxical 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2008

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    Not Proud Of It Really But....

    i spent the entire year of 2009 and part of 2010 in complete misery. i was lost in the darkness of my own misery during that time. as much as it hurt constantly i admit i learned a lot. i became deeply philosophical in a twisted kind of way i wrote life quotes down. i stopped...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 1, 2011

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    Strength Thru Adversity

    I can sooo identify with this group. I am an incredibly strong woman. Even my EEG test shows it.. laughs. I am strong, and smart and caring, and all my wonderful traits because of the living thru the refiners fire called life. My life has been riddled with depression since I...
    JustRho JustRho 46-50, F Jun 28, 2013

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    Maybe the Reason Why I Feel Older Than Other Ppl At My Age

    You learn so much about your self. wow. I found a positive thing about depression -.- but the bad thing is, at least in my case, you're never sure if the person you learned about was really you, or a depressed you. You know, if it was just something you have during a depressed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 29, 2007

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    I Learnt Alot..

    i think it showed me how strong i really am. i faced so much with my depression, even looked death in the face more then once, but by some miracle I'm still here, and fighting. i wont give up, i wont let it beat me.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 21, 2008

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    Growing up I could never connect with God.

    Probably because whenever I prayed I'd always ask for a nice car when I grew up, or something like that. Though there were times when I had genuine prayer. I think I was mostly afraid of Him. He was dark and mysterious like the Church during evening Mass. So I left the Church...
    LightinDarkness8 LightinDarkness8 26-30 Mar 23, 2014

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    Unraveled

    pre depression, a tighly wound, spool of thread with all notions, ideas, knowledge, personal awareness bundled in this tiny centerpiece, the cylindrical bubble of the "known". soon time outran longevity and i was slapped by the precipice of disaster. there i stood...
    tessagirl tessagirl 18-21, F Mar 28, 2009

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    I Reflect A Lot

    I just think and think when I'm depressed, which is sometimes a good thing and sometimes bad. I ask myself various things like what I want out of life, how do I truly think about certain things, etc. When I'm honest with myself, it starts of web of "I feel this way because...
    BlankPage123456787 BlankPage123456787 66-70, F Dec 26, 2011

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    Increase Intemacy And Keep Away From Depression

    I had a Blissful sexual experienced long back . I had a girlfriend and I was practicing Martial Art so physically I was 100% fit. I was reading a Osho's book. there was technique which connects conscious breathing,controlling movements to minimum required and doing meditation...
    Besent Besent 36-40 Dec 26, 2011

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    Depressed......

    Help Im deppressed. Im so depressed.....What is there to Live for? Why me, God, Why me? These questions are haunting me again. My life has become no not a hell, but a void, a huge blackhole. Where nothing ever happens and nothing ever will? It has been like this for too long and...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 10, 2010

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    The Blessing Through The Curse

    This is a wonderful group title though I don’t care for the logo myself. It depicts an emotion on this subject which is dramatically different from my view. I’ve suffered from some form of depression for as long as I can remember, probably most of my life. Much...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 4 Responses May 26, 2011

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    Someone Else's Life

    I spent a lot of years living life as I was "supposed" to - not really knowing who I was - existing like a zombie - not really living, not quite dead. Then one day, I came to a sort of emotional rock bottom. What led up to this was a friend who told me, "...
    celebriticat celebriticat 51-55, F 3 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    I am Failing My Brother.

    when i look to my father i see myself but although fundamentaly we are the same our ideas differ greatly. when i look at my brother i also see myself and it scares me, i see low self esteem (and depression which i know is just around the corner for him) i see myself at his age. i...
    Issac95 Issac95 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 6, 2008

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    My Emotional Intelligence

    I like to think that I have a deep level of emotional intelligence. How much? I don't know, but when I observe the people around me, I suspect that it's far more than the average person. I was born with this innate understanding of the human heart. I can feel things that...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    This journey has taught me

    so much a bout myself.... That I care too much about things that literally mean NOTHING. Lol I kind of feel stupid when I think about it but it's so easy to be consumed by negative thoughts and feelings when you're in the moment. Now I'm just going to say to myself, am I really...
    CBlaze22 CBlaze22 18-21 1 Response Jan 18

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    It's Part of Who I Am

    Depression has been such a huge part of my life. I feel like it's always been there. Even as a kid I was never truly completely happy. Depression is part of me, I believe. So if you can't handle that then you shouldn't be around me. Some people think of depression as an illness...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    I Use Depression to Make Myself Stronger

    I remember reading something about depression: that people who are depressed often have a very realistic way of viewing the world. We don't sugar-coat bad things or pretend things are better than they are- we don't have the energy for it.  The article said that maybe this is...
    drpr drpr 46-50, F Aug 11, 2008

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    Or Did I?

    Since being diagnosed with such an affliction on June 5th 2008, I like to think my eyes are more open and my sense of self, and reflection has been unleashed. Alas, it (for the most part) has not. The questions I had then are the same of today. Life huh? A few things have...
    EricS EricS 31-35, M 8 Responses Nov 7, 2008

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    It Was More Of An Eye-opener

    I go through periodic bursts of depression for somewhat unknown and complicated reasons. Through depression, I've come to realize how flawed I am. When I'm happy, I never notice any of my flaws, I pretend as if I'm perfect (almost invincible). When I'm depressed, I notice how...
    girlanonymous girlanonymous 18-21, F Jul 6, 2011

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    I've just learned more about myself overall

    and what my limits are. I've learned my tolerance levels of negativity and what symptoms can do to me. I think depression has helped me cherish just even the tiniest happy moments even. To me, depression is like being poor and being normal/happy is like being rich. Because you...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F Nov 17, 2014

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    It Made Me Stronger

    Depression has always been apart of my life. It has made me realize who I am, who I want to be everything. I am not saying being depressed is good, because its not. It can make people stronger or crush you. I think it depends on who you are.
    tomtombear tomtombear 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2008

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    Although I have yet to see the light at the end

    of the tunnel I have come to a very illuminating realization of people who are suffering from depression. I've realized that the people that I have talked to who have struggled with or completely beaten depression all have one thing in common. They all have grit. Given enough...
    ComfyMan ComfyMan 16-17, M Aug 14, 2014

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    At One Point I Had Three Years Where

    I just lived internally. I was depressed and anxious to the point of not leaving the house unless I was with a safe person - and there were few of those. Over that time you get to know yourself well. And these were my preteen/teen years - the times you're growing and changing and...
    SofiaGrowsFlowers SofiaGrowsFlowers 22-25, T 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    My mother has borderline personality disorder. It's all or nothing, black or white to her. You have to give her attention and she is constantly taking and editing selfies. She is...
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    I woke up this morning and realized that I don't have many friends or a girlfriend, because I have low self esteem and self confidence, I have always known there was something...
    JodyValero JodyValero 18-21, M 1 Response May 12

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    When I was eleven, my dad had depression. I never directly noticed the link but I guess it effected me. I would put off my emotions all day, pretend I didnt feel anything, then...
    GingerHolmes GingerHolmes 16-17, F May 8

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    I battle depression for years, last year i tried to kill my self, now i am on antidepressants for mounts and they are helping me a lot, my suicide thoughts are gone. But i still...
    anazi anazi 26-30, F May 18

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    I feel like I can relate too all you. I'm not proud of how I feel about my body, because of my weight. I wish I could take back the things I said. This all started in second grade...
    SymphonyChild SymphonyChild 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I haven't been on here in over 7 months thought I would update my weight gain. Last time I logged in here I managed to lose some weight and was around 180Lbs. but that changed...
    Dijaei1173 Dijaei1173 22-25, F 4 Responses May 11

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    I've never been overweight but at times I have been heavier and it gets pointed out by family members and somewhat praised but when I lose weight voluntarily I don't get the...
    Artiste92 Artiste92 22-25, F May 18

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    Well it's been a bit embaressing to say the least. I'd been thin and fit my whole life. 7 months ago I was 96 pounds now I'm 187 in just 7 months. To make it simple I had a medical...
    Brittany19008 Brittany19008 16-17, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    All my life, I have looked in the mirror and said "I can be better, I can look better, look at how any things I can change!". It started I guess when I was in the 4th grade, and...
    vanstable123 vanstable123 13-15, M Apr 29

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    I have always had low self esteem. And just when it seems I am getting through this problem, I go back to hating certain aspects of myself. My goal is to have a healthy self...
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I guess being bullied as a child, being disabled, having a father who talks down to you constantly will effect you for years. I've tried exercise, talking about it any 'new hobbies...
    Almostanonymous Almostanonymous 22-25, M 3 Responses May 13

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    It's funny though,self esteem how much it matters.On the job brain full of ideas I want to say them,I want to contribute,but no.Mouth open no words,hand in air in gesticulation...
    somerandomguyfromspace somerandomguyfromspace 31-35, M 1 Response May 16

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    She also has schizophrenia, and cuts, and has an abusive father, and was molested, and attempted suicide twice, and had a hospital visit, and has PTSD. In general, she's an...
    VivyLaVida VivyLaVida 13-15, F Apr 29

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    I have Aspergers which means I can be shy, with very low self esteem & lack confidence, I feel ugly and unwanted. I'm here because I'd like to meet genuine people & make friends...
    Scarletjaki Scarletjaki 36-40, F 5 Responses May 2

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