I Have Gender Identity Disorder

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    I'm physically male. But I'm emotionally

    and mentally a female for the most part. I do like some guy stuff like guns , cigars and sports. Other than that I love female things dresses, makeup shoes chick flicks ext but I also love females I'm not gay at all guy do nothing for me. I have been that way for as long as I...
    DawnR59 DawnR59
    56-60, T
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

    I am a Borderline Personality.

    I had always identified as transgendered, although I feel like I fell out of that a few years ago. I think I'm two-spirited (I'd never educated myself of the term until earlier this year.) Regardless, I received my diagnosis of GID in 2011. Gender is a silly thing.
    grindhound grindhound
    22-25, T
    2 Responses May 12, 2015

    All My Life

    i have had GID since age 5 and now at age 50 decided to transition, and i now live fulltime as a female. i wish i had done this years ago because i would have had my srs a longtime ago.......
    Mizsuzy Mizsuzy
    46-50, T
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