I Have Had Ect

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 199 People

    Ect Saved My Life!!

    Mine is a complicated story, it started when i took a pill given to me off label by a nurse practitioner on Nov 7th, 2008, my life was destroyed!! I went thru hell, and was never the same again, after the physical effects wore off and the hallucinating, I lost complete ability...
    happyagain happyagain
    41-45
    11 Responses Oct 28, 2010

    I Have Been Getting ECT For A Year...

    I will reach my one year mark in January, I am on maintenance once a month. I am in my 30's and tried just about every medicine out there. This is way better than all the medications I have taken over they years and I am happier than I have been since I was diagnosed with bipolar...
    Kimita213 Kimita213
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Tomorrow will be my 9th treatment of ECT.

    So far I have not had any real memory loss that I can see, no more than before LOL. I have been in major depression and bipolar for about 25 years. I've been on every medication there is. Currently I'm on Latuda and Celexa and although it's not enough, it helps. The ECT was the...
    cindybee142 cindybee142
    56-60
    Mar 13

    I've had more than 50 ECTs over the last 4 years

    and it has saved my life. I have very mild memory loss, but it's worth it.
    Cathy1963 Cathy1963
    51-55, F
    Jul 2, 2014

    Currently Having Ect Treatments

    I'm so happy to have found this site. I have been battling major depression, anxiety, PTSD, & borderline personality disorder since I was 15. I am 31 yrs. old now. Life to me was not worth living anymore as of November of last year. I had tried every anti-depressant there is...
    AceKitty AceKitty
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2013

    I Have Had Ect

    I went into the Hospital with Major Depression in May, 2010.  I have trouble absorbing medications into my system and as a result antidepressants do not work well for me.  I am on my 10th ECT treatment this week.  is it working for me?  I believe it is. ...
    back2me back2me
    41-45
    6 Responses Jun 20, 2010

    I've just finished my first round of 14

    treatments. I've noticed better overall mood and stability but suffer the memory problems many people have discussed here. To be honest, those memory problems started at the discovery of the illness and I didn't expect them to get magically better. Overall I'd say say it's a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 31, 2015

    To all of those who believe they have been

    damaged or lost significant amounts of memory, or can't do simple math, or have problems reading and writing, or feel emotionally dumbed down, numb, or vapid, PLEASE consider writing or calling your former ECT doctor and just give them your real feed back as to the negative...
    BFowler BFowler
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Apr 9, 2014

    About three years ago I finally stopped what

    was at least three and a half years of ECT. I would have treatments anywhere from multiple times a week to two or three times a month. I remember shortly before I decided to stop treatments I asked my dr how many treatments I had undergone all together and she quickly looked...
    sonja82 sonja82
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 23, 2014

    I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder,

    general anxiety, and PTSD. I was referred to ECT last winter upon realization of my sincere suicidal intent and underwent a series of 23 bilateral treatments, until the doctors determined the treatment unsuccessful and discontinued it. In the wake of the experience, I have...
    howlingfantods howlingfantods
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2014

    Ect Changed My Life Forever...

    I underwent ECT this summer.  I cannot share much of the details though as my memory has pretty much been wiped clean.  I really am missing several months (at least) of my life.  I do believe that the ECT helped at first.  I was extrememly depressed...
    Longing4Mercy Longing4Mercy
    31-35, F
    28 Responses Nov 24, 2009

    Long Terms Side Effects / Please Think Twice

    I've read through this forum on many occasions without posting. It's very difficult for me. I don't want to take hope from anyone considering this treatment or, having had ECT. All I can tell you is my experience, as the son of someone who had ECT. I should start by saying...
    Jamie772 Jamie772
    41-45
    4 Responses Mar 23, 2013

    Start ECT In Two Days

    I start ECT in two days and I'm worried about memory loss, and also about being stuck at home without being able to drive on treatment days for two weeks to a month. I hate being at home alone by myself. Anyone have advice or dealt with these issues?
    jerbeth jerbeth
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Oct 26, 2013

    Hi everyone! I'm blessed to say

    that I am alive today thanks to 10 bilateral ECT treatments that I had in July of 2014. I went from a happy-go-lucky college girl with a loving family, an abundance of friends, and a boyfriend I plan to marry...to severely depressed and looking up ways to kill myself. I was...
    Livelaughlove6813 Livelaughlove6813
    18-21
    7 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    It Saved My Life

    In Feburary of 2012 after my third suicide attempt since the age of 10, I landed myself in what I called the "looney-bin." I was inpatient for two weeks while the doctors figured out what to do with me. Diagnosed with severe depression at the age of 10, in twelve years I was put...
    AylaRose AylaRose
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2012

    At Sheppard-pratt In Baltimore

    I had ECT in the fall of 2009 at the Towson campus of Sheppard-Pratt hospital. At the time I was in a deep depression and my doctors hoped the therapy would break me out of it. I was an inpatient at the time the doctors (my own personal psychiatrist included) decided to try ECT...
    TIMeNIHIL TIMeNIHIL
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 12, 2011

    Start Tomorrow

    I start my ECT tomorrow. Nervous but hopeful. Any words of wisdom?
    Zeetie Zeetie
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

    I Feel I Have No Other Choice

    I am 42 now and after battling with conflicting diagnoses regarding my mental health. I have suffered since my teens but managed to cope with the use of illicit drugs. Things got bad when I sobered up at age 18. I sought mental health treatment off and on until my late 20s, when...
    needdrugs needdrugs
    41-45
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2012

    I recently had 10 unilateral ECT treatments

    and I know for a fact that it saved my life. I had no issues with memory loss whatsoever. None. Not even with my short term memory. The only side-effect was the headaches I had after the first 3-4 treatments, but other than that I have nothing but praise for ECT. In Fact, I...
    JJT79 JJT79
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Mar 9, 2014

    I had 12 ects. Four unilateral,

    eight bilateral. It didn't work at all and it damaged my memory. I immediately regretted it. I have spent my whole life educating myself and now I struggle to remember simple things like, names, places, directions, movies and books, etc. And my depression remains. Only do this...
    Mossyman1982 Mossyman1982
    31-35, M
    Jan 22

    Nothing has treated my depression

    as well as ECT. After years of battling debilitating depression unsuccessfully with medication and therapy, I elected to undergo ECT this past July. I remember feeling like my depression was gone completely after the first treatment, I couldn't think anything bad and I had much...
    PrettiestInPink PrettiestInPink
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

    I had a course of ECT treatments in March 2014.

    I had a great deal of forgetfulness, plus in increase, not decrease, in depression. I'd love to trade experiences with anyone, and I'd love to meet anyone with similar experiences - I live in San Francisco, California. Sending this with best wishes for all.
    Brownold Brownold
    61-65, F
    6 Responses May 24, 2014

    I had 3 treatments and felt better,

    and then had 2 more and stopped because I stayed the same. What has been your experience? I also think it is strange I keep getting positive memories long forgotten of my childhood. But I'm not complaining of course.
    heathee heathee
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Oct 13, 2014

    I have not personally had ECT,

    but my brother did in the 60's and I have some questions. Do any of you remember the pre treatment? Do any of you remember anything about the procedure itself? If anyone had auditory or visual hallucinations do you remember the before and after? I would greatly and with respect...
    emmabovary13 emmabovary13
    56-60, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2015

    so I suffer from schizophrenia

    and severe depression. I'm 22 and my doctor has recommended ect treatment. I've been reading peoples experiences and I'm kinda freaked out right now. I know I will have some memory loss but I'm scared it will be permanent. I play in the band at my church so I'm playing guitar...
    fizzyelf77 fizzyelf77
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 6

    Please think twice about ECT.

    It changed my life forever. I submitted to treatment 2 years ago for depression and am now being treated for PTSD and severe depression because of ECT. Please read "Doctor's of Deception" before considering this so-called treatment. I wish I did not buy into Carrie Fisher's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2014

    id like someone who is caring to talk to about

    my ect treatments. they were a terrible experience
    dianeepoo dianeepoo
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Jul 10, 2014

    in 2012 I had 17 ects

    for suicidal depression. some bilateral and some unilateral. it has ruined my life. i don't remember much of my past, my short term memory is terrible. i cant think properly. i am numb i cannot concentrate, i find it hard to talk, i feel stupid. i cant function. biggest mistake...
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 19, 2015

    My Experience.

    I had two course of ECT. The first course was ten treatments of unilateral therapy, the second was 12 treatments of bilateral therapy 12 months later. The treatments were every other day for the duration. I would go to the hospital which was off site from the mental health...
    jessijames jessijames
    18-21
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2010

    I got it done a year ago

    and now I'm doing it again. It sucks. I just hope it works. I can't remember anything right now haha
    Lewshun Lewshun
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 26, 2014

    Ect: Round 2.

    I am in the middle of my second encounter with ECT. I have struggled with bipolar disorder for 15 years or more. I am severely ill, but relatively high functioning. The first time I had ECT it saved me from a crushing depression. This time, I am seeking relief from intense...
    ninjabunny001 ninjabunny001
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2012

    I had ECT about 2 years ago; I had 30

    treatments all up and it didn't fix me. It didn't help at all but it's made my memory so bad.... My memory is getting worse & I'm constantly confused. I get confused counting change to buy a coffee! My depression a bit better now; mainly because of meditation & a change in my...
    joyarose joyarose
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2014

    Still Alive!!

    Have had approximately 60 ECTs over the past 12 years. 2 suicide attempts, many times tempted. Countless psychiatric hospital admissions, public and private. Tried multiple meds and now on Lithium, Lamictal, Pristiq and Seroquel. Good and bad days, last ECT 2 days ago. Yes there...
    quinnalton quinnalton
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Nov 25, 2012

    I received Ect for my major depression with

    impulsive suicidal thoughts. I don't remember anything leading up to it except for I was in the hospital again for attempted suicide. I don't remember anything that happened for weeks after that. I used to have a great job that I finally got after several years of college but...
    Bree42 Bree42
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2014

    21 Year Old Patient

    Hi, I'm Lola. I'm a student and I've received 50 treatments since I started December 2011. I'm receiving maintenance ECT at once/month now. I had to take 2 years off from college but I'm finally back to majoring in psychology to someday be a therapist. (My current therapist says...
    BeginnerLola BeginnerLola
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 8, 2013

    So I had 9 unilateral ECT's,

    it destroyed my memory, cogntiive abilities, like now I'm retarded at math, and I can barely remember what I'm reading, get lost in conversation, and almost all of my long term bibilographic memory is now gone...yes I also had a psychotic break, series of., that also greatly...
    BFowler BFowler
    36-40, M
    9 Responses Apr 9, 2014

    I have just started ECT in the last couple of

    months. The jury is out for me whether it works,as I donot know what to expect from recovery. I am bipolar 2 and find I have depression for 2-3 days after treatment 2 days of feeling good and then 2days of depression before I have treatment again. My question is am I suppose...
    bipolarbearhug bipolarbearhug
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

    Why Did I Let Them Do This To Me!!!!

    I am quite sure I've had depression my whole life it runs in my family. It was so overwhelming around 1999 and 2000 that i was bagging anyone who would listen to please help me. I was in and out of the hospital and the doctors talked me into Ect. I was told it would have NO...
    josephdavidwhitaker josephdavidwhitaker
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2012

    Woke Up To A New Life

    I am 35 and have spent yrs taking meds.  None of them seem to work so my dr recomedend ect i was scared but so desprite for any kind of help.  i went into hospital and proceeded threw the preliminary the iv the history and the questions.  as they wheeled me into...
    foolish1974 foolish1974
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Feb 25, 2010

    I have had over 60 treatments by now

    and I'm only 27. I can't even keep track of how many times I've had it now. It has messed up my memory pretty bad. Huge chunks of time even way before I had the ECT are gone. It's not just memories around the time of ECT like they tell you.
    ces588 ces588
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 26, 2015

    I just finished my second day of Ect treatment.

    The first day was awful. My muscles were incredibly sore, and my head hurt fiercely. Yesterday's treatment was better in the muscles, except for my calves. And, my headache returned. I also have burst blood vessels on my face, I am assuming, from seizing during the procedure. I...
    Semicolons Semicolons
    36-40, F
    Apr 19

    ECT = Intentional Brain Damage

    My life was certainly changed for the worse by ECT. First off, I want to recommend strongly that everyone read the book "Doctors of Deception: What They Don't Want You to Know About Shock Treatment" -- http://www.amazon.com/Doctors-Deception-About-Shock-Treatment/dp/0813544416...
    ddloldshep ddloldshep
    51-55, F
    16 Responses Feb 18, 2010

    Is long term memory loss really normal?

    I recently had ECT done... It's currently June 19, 2014 and around April 25th (less than 2 months ago) I started ECT while inpatient in the hospital. I had 9 treatments done, over a span of 3 weeks (3 treatments a week) I DID notice improvement after a few treatments. I...
    whisperingwind64 whisperingwind64
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jun 19, 2014

    I have a question about controlling bipolar

    disorder and ECT. I am currently on a mood stabilizer and two antipsychotics and still stuggle with depression. Has anyone been able to control their bipolar depression with ECT as opposed to antipsychotics an mood stabilizers? Or if you have had ECT for bipolar depression, have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 22, 2015

    Memory Loss

    i have had ect. many times in fact. they have used 2 different kinds of machines over the years. the latest one is a lot easier on me. it doesn't hurt so much afterward like it used to. i can honestly say it has helped me. but the memory loss is a horrible side affect. i just...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

    .i've suffered from deep depression

    and anxiety since 1992 and tried all kinds of medicines and therapies. i even tried a clinical trial at the NIH but didn't qualify for their treatment. i had a vagus nerve stim implanted in 2009 but it had no effect. i had 10 ect treatments about a month ago and it made my...
    dianeepoo dianeepoo
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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