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I Have Histrionic Personality Disorder

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    I was just recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic and histrionic.. However you spell it. What I battle with most is being alone because eventually I'll find your weaknesses pretty quickly I'll know all your secrets and then if you hurt me once I...
    frozenFire6767 frozenFire6767 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I am deeply loving ..

    . a bit too loving, perhaps. Diagnosed with HPD 2 years ago, and struggle with it on many days. Married to my best friend ... but this disorder is ever present and affects every aspect of my life.
    yogasummer yogasummer 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    I Have Mixed Histrionic And Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    I hate to be disliked and hated. I hate to be thought of as immoral, corrupt, difficult, mean, weird, etc. I wish to be liked and loved. It is okay to be ignored and be hidden from those who will hate me but I can't read people. I am too forward and stupid socially. I have the...
    Darkenedsun Darkenedsun 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    So my name is Jazmin and i have four other personalities. it took me awhile to figure out why i had this Disorder, or what it was. Firstly Multiple personality disorder is a mental...
    ScarletandRose ScarletandRose 13-15, F 1 Response May 8

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    Hey guys, I'm new here, so I'm not exactly sure how this goes.. But I figured I'd give it a shot. Here's a little bit about me: My name is Sara, I'm 19 years old, I live with my...
    darling1925 darling1925 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    people around me don't understand how horrible this disorder is. Borderline personality disorder can be and is debilitating. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I lash out for hours at a time, then I might get depressed for hours at a time. others I'm really happy. sometimes super excited over nothing. I started looking at symptoms of...
    eternitygoeson eternitygoeson 13-15, F May 2

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    I just got diagnosed with APD at my psychiatrist's office. I knew I had ADD early on, Social Anxiety Disorder in highschool, but not until now, some 10 years later do I finally get...
    sakurakil sakurakil 26-30, M 1 Response May 7

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    My borderline is getting worse these few days.I have sort of over dosing on anxiety pills.Between the trade off of being in extreme pain,and being somewhat okay I chose whatever...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses May 17

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    I think this disorder will cause me to be alone forever.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I'm mostly always mean to people especially my mom. I would get irriated and annoyed if she ask me about something that I think it's very obvious and it answers itself or think...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F Apr 30

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    my borderline seems to differ in alot of ways from the experiences I'm reading. i have other issues that help to form this mess in my head but i dont identify with the normal...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I realize now how much having borderline personality puts a damper on your relationships. It makes everything feel so unstable. And it's like I am scared to lose anybody in my...
    KairiKipling KairiKipling 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    When I was young used to feel.....in fact, was close to normal up until about 7 years old.... That is when my ASPD first began to show up..... But, over the past few years, I...
    AudioTravylerRavenwolf AudioTravylerRavenwolf 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    The other day, I was in a mood and arguing with my husband (as is common anymore) and before I could catch it, I said something pretty awful, even for me. I said, "Lately, I spend...
    justarandom justarandom 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    i dont really know what to qt to write really i feel like im not connected ive beenwatching tv havent been able to cope barely hangoing on i have a stubborn kid in me who refuses...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response May 1

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    i feel like i cant go on i have apart in me well the depressed kid has rejected everything doesnt have the will to go on life is passing me bad i look for a home i never had i dont...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F May 2

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    does anyone know of or have experienced and can explain dissociation in relation to BPD to me? if u don't have an answer don't bother leaving a comment...no bs.
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Alright, where to begin? I hope only those with BPD read this. It's incredibly incredibly insensitive and very damaging to a Borderline person when someone who doesn't understand...
    Vaecia Vaecia 22-25, F 4 Responses May 5

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    Saw the movie shame.That is exactly how it is being borderline.I think I am somewhere in between.Being Demisexual,empath and borderline is a strange **** up of emotions.You have...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses May 8

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    In the past month, a lot has happened. I'll warn you in advance that this is a long post, but I think it might help some of you to feel less alone. I hope it does. So. I dated a...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses May 10

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    I can't have normal relationships. Any good relationship I get myself into, I end up becoming destructive and craving intensity. I don't like nice guys, nice girls. I want...
    borderlineeverything borderlineeverything 16-17, F 1 Response May 10

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    Anyone else have that one person in your life that you try to avoid because she triggers every emotion you try to bottle up? Her very presence ignites the most intense BPD emotions...
    tribe1855 tribe1855 22-25, M 4 Responses May 10

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    does anyone else have an alter ego?
    himenoko143 himenoko143 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    today was better...it feels good to have a good day...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F May 13

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    Right now any time there is mention of death, my brain goes "that's a great idea, let's die, you want to die" which is highly unhelpful when you're trying to be happy. Why do I...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14

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    There are seven of us: Ria, Rose, Ally, Delilah, Alex, Lexi, and Pearl. We are able to change who is the main person, and have done so in the past. Each of us are our own people...
    Venialia Venialia 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    anyones partner have bpd aswell as yourself?
    nessa88 nessa88 26-30, F May 16

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    I recently started therapy up again and that seems to be helping tremendously. Socially and mood wise I have been a lot more outgoing and grounded This is such a change from the...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I am undiagnosed but I believe I have this. I used to think that I am being possessd by an evil spirit or something. I am confused. A few months ago, I have developed a character...
    Sen22 Sen22 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    needing to vent not that it helps i was worried about brother as he hasnt been on face book i told him about mom hes i create drama all i did was reach out nobody see if he cares i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    im not sure i have bpd but this is the best category i could think to post in. i feel like a sheet of paper. blank. i emulate other people and fictional characters but they dont...
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Okay,so saw fatal attraction,and let me put out some stuff,as a bpd sufferer myself,I will never do,and it is very unlikely most average bpd people might. 1.I love animals...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    If you're in Northern New Jersey and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    If you're in Northern New Jersey and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    sometimes i hate being on her enot you guys i have to force myself to i feel like crap nothing helps so much pain i want to give up i feel lost and i dont know waht im tired of...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I hate my anxieties. I hate my self destructive persona. I hate how I am on the outside. I hate how I am on the inside.
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F Apr 25

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    i hate how i can't trust my own mind anymore....
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    im feeling really funny i dont feel real like im just a body around walking around my apartment so tired as usual going to bed is this being disonnected it freaks me out my mond...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Apr 26

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    It gets way worse when I drink. Does this happen to anyone else? It's like when I get drunk I completely lost control and act psychotic.
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 29

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    I'm in the hospital again after another suicidal freak out last night. My bf restrained me from overdosing. He knocked on my sisters bedroom door and said he needs help because I'm...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses May 2

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