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I Have Histrionic Personality Disorder

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    I Have Mixed Histrionic And Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    I hate to be disliked and hated. I hate to be thought of as immoral, corrupt, difficult, mean, weird, etc. I wish to be liked and loved. It is okay to be ignored and be hidden from those who will hate me but I can't read people. I am too forward and stupid socially. I have the...
    Darkenedsun Darkenedsun 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    Well Here It Goes

    I was just recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic and histrionic.. However you spell it. What I battle with most is being alone because eventually I'll find your weaknesses pretty quickly I'll know all your secrets and then if you hurt me once I...
    frozenFire6767 frozenFire6767 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I had a panic attack Friday night and was suicidal, I went to the hospital and the psychiatrist told me he thinks it's likely I have borderline personality disorder. If this is...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    Hello, I was recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I am really freaking out about it. Since I was 18, I thought I had Bipolar disorder and now I am 25 and they...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Well its that time again, my monthly therapy appointment to try and deal with the monsterous multiflavored monkey on my back called APD. I almost feel its useless to go but i keep...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    Well to be honest there is nothing borderline with it lol I have quite a few personalities and they are all different. I can't see these myself, only once when I was being...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I haven't written in a while. Not that there hasn't been anything to share. Simply that... I've been attempting to live my life without diarizing all of it publicly. I started...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    and it's taken over my entire life. When I read about others having the disorder, I shift from feeling comforted (when I am relating to their symptoms) to utter hopelessness...
    jasiilovely jasiilovely 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 30

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    I am recently out of the "denial" that I have a disorder. I am consciously aware that the thought processes within my neurological wiring are malfunctioning. I have the behaviors...
    utteringartist87 utteringartist87 26-30 2 Responses Sep 29

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    With this disorder, relationships hurt. People frequently complain about being single, and how lonely they are; but with BPD, I hurt way more and am way more lonely in a...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    I was just diagnosed today. I need information.. If you know a lot about this disorder or have it yourself, could you please tell me a bit about it? I know lots about it but I need...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    I have a question for others who have this disorder, do you find it hard to listen to music sometimes? I've noticed I have to be in the "right mood" for almost everything...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 9

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    I went to a job interview today. That was a highly social job, where you have to interact with people and do similar stuff. I really wanted it and felt motivated to do it; because...
    Gegete Gegete 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    My wife of 8 years has reached the end and can no longer put up with my BPD-like personality. I only say "like" because I haven't been diagnosed yet. I have however been diagnosed...
    choloch choloch 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    This is ruining my life. Impulses I can't control. Anger I cant maintain. Such deep brutal feelings. Scars from head to toe, self inflicted, done so I didn't have to feel my...
    skinfeeder skinfeeder 26-30 3 Responses Sep 20

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    My system is a house. We all live in this house, with our own rooms (bedrooms) and communal rooms. Like the lounge room and library. We also have something like a prison, where the...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 20

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    Can someone describe to me what it's like to have bpd? How does it affect you? What exactly is it? Thanks so much
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    To all with BPD- have you found someone who truly loves you for you? And who is willing to take care of you when you are having an episode? I'm so scared I will never find someone...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 25

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    i need to vent i just feel like i cant go on i dont like men sorry yesterdsy imade myself step out in the world go to my friends store to visit i diidnt get home until ten then i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    It's getting harder and harder at work to control my mood changes. I'm a teacher and must be positive at all times at work and it's hard to do when you are screaming on the inside...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 26

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    I have BPD and am in a serious live-in relationship. Things are rough, at best, mostly because of my own debilitating issues. Also, I feel so alone. How can you BE with someone...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    These past few days have been a blur. I'm constantly switching whenever I get stressed, which is almost every time and everyday. Some freshmen kid at my high school started a fight...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    i need to write i get up in the morning im tired all the time im probably in my head i believe being overweight for me i cant stand do i stick to something know last nite i called...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I see people so happy, with friends and a significant other. And then there's me. I'm so terrified I will spend my life alone. My loneliness is all thanks to my BPD. I just push...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 29

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    Do you ever have that feeling where you *need* to finish everything important you've ever wanted to do right now, end up with several messes, failed projects and an extreme feeling...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    Hey Guys! I need some advice. My boyfriend of two years, has BPD traits. We met in college and it was a whirlwind of romance. Although, after some time together I began to notice...
    Nicoleashleyxo Nicoleashleyxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I'm in hospital trying to figure out whether I have BPD or what the heck is going on with me. What's been going on with me since I was a kid. I'm so grateful for this site to have...
    Ilovehavingbraces Ilovehavingbraces 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    And I have FINALLY broken up with and moved out from the boyfriend. It means I'm living at home with my ailing elderly father and 40 year old unemployed brother... But at least I...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 8

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    My husband and I are going on vacation tomorrow for 8 days. I truly pray we have a fun trip and that I can keep my emotions in check and don't have any "episodes". I really want to...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I believe my mothers behaviour and the emotional abuse she put my sister and I through as kids is a significant factor as to why I've developed brain damage. I'm at a family dinner...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Is it just me or is there a link between BPD and an aversion to being touched or touching someone else? I get creeped out, disgusted, or just feel awkward when people tend to touch...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 12

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    I have it.. I have had it since I was 12. I found out after talking to a psychologist. Turns out, I was emotionally unstable. It's hard to have people around me since I'm more of a...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Do you tell your boss about BPD ? Hi. Before the BPD took over I was a Cert 4 in local govt operational works, Cert 4 in Human resources and qualified computer technician who owned...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    My papa is dying and I went to see him and it's so horrible and sad but now that I'm home and I'm thinking about everything else it hurts more, he's had such an amazing life he's...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am going to make a full recovery, live a wonderful life and have a family one day and be a good mother to my future children and a wonderful partner for my boyfriend. I WILL...
    AngelMom062013 AngelMom062013 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have a question for those of you who have bpd or know about it, do you have problems eating? I have appetite problems, I sometimes only eat when I'm craving something specific...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    My dear fellow BPDs We have to remind each other that we are strong enough to get through another day. I know it's hard to breathe, and to smile, but push forward! We all have...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I hate it that I'm alone. I hate it that I can't look at myself in the mirror. I hate it that if I were to die today, right now, nobody would miss me. I hate my dreams because they...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's one of those days where I just want to pound my head against the wall until it bleeds..
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I currently split with my partner of 4 yrs...he was cheating...i feel lost, sad, low..im drinking way to much, i just want the hurting to stop but it never does
    ginganut84 ginganut84 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I hate this. It makes me overly sensitive and irritable. My emotions go so far up and so far down so quickly. I can't tell what I should feel so I just pretend like everything is...
    CleverName94 CleverName94 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 21

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    Today. Oh today. I just figured I'd stop with trying and work on my marriage. If he wants me the way I am...help me...Be my best friend again....he can reach out. I'm tired of...
    skinfeeder skinfeeder 26-30 2 Responses Sep 21

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    Fight the demons every day...
    euphoricvoyage euphoricvoyage 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    Hello Guys, I am just new here. I see myself as a normal college student who has different group of friends. But other people sees me as a person who has BPD. I dont what it is at...
    rui1074 rui1074 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 26

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    I wonder if EP will censor me this time... No one cares! So what do I care about hurting them too! I got a bunch of psych tests coming up next week and I just want to best that...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 26

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    Attempted suicide Wednesday night. I'm not feeling very well these days..
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    just wanted to share something with you guys if you go on youtube click on bpd videos there is music and it has words i find it gives me relief try it if you cant relief
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 28