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I Have Histrionic Personality Disorder

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    I was just recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic and histrionic.. However you spell it. What I battle with most is being alone because eventually I'll find your weaknesses pretty quickly I'll know all your secrets and then if you hurt me once I...
    frozenFire6767 frozenFire6767 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I am deeply loving ..

    . a bit too loving, perhaps. Diagnosed with HPD 2 years ago, and struggle with it on many days. Married to my best friend ... but this disorder is ever present and affects every aspect of my life.
    yogasummer yogasummer 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    I Have Mixed Histrionic And Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    I hate to be disliked and hated. I hate to be thought of as immoral, corrupt, difficult, mean, weird, etc. I wish to be liked and loved. It is okay to be ignored and be hidden from those who will hate me but I can't read people. I am too forward and stupid socially. I have the...
    Darkenedsun Darkenedsun 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    I'm not really sure if I have this particular disorder but I sure as hell become not myself anymore when I'm in certain places I don't feel comfortable to be at or I have issues...
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    So I'm due on Friday to get a diagnosis for what I'm sure will be borderline personally disorder. When I was younger I had a psychiatric assessment done and borderline was...
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    Just found out that I have Histronic P.O. not the bipolar I've been taking meds for years for. So down. What a mess I've become and what a fricken fool I've made over the years of...
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