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I Have Histrionic Personality Disorder

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    I was just recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic and histrionic.. However you spell it. What I battle with most is being alone because eventually I'll find your weaknesses pretty quickly I'll know all your secrets and then if you hurt me once I...
    frozenFire6767 frozenFire6767 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I Have Mixed Histrionic And Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    I hate to be disliked and hated. I hate to be thought of as immoral, corrupt, difficult, mean, weird, etc. I wish to be liked and loved. It is okay to be ignored and be hidden from those who will hate me but I can't read people. I am too forward and stupid socially. I have the...
    Darkenedsun Darkenedsun 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    I am deeply loving ..

    . a bit too loving, perhaps. Diagnosed with HPD 2 years ago, and struggle with it on many days. Married to my best friend ... but this disorder is ever present and affects every aspect of my life.
    yogasummer yogasummer 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    Is there anyone here who has had another former or co existing diagnosis with borderline personality disorder? I was diagnosed with Autism in my childhood but one psychologist I...
    rainbowsmangos2015 rainbowsmangos2015 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I may be a sadistic borderline but at least I wouldn't lie, betray or cheat the people I cherish (even if it is a few). I wonder who the real animals are.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    This is a lil excerpt from a comment I made. "you can over come it. its a matter of retraining ur brain. and reassuring urself. what ur experiencing is probably not real.like...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Do any of you (those with borderline) find you feel like you have to be in a relationship?? You're always on the prowl for one? For me I'm this way big time. If I sense a...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate my husband today! I wish he would pay for what he has done.
    arachmichel arachmichel 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have had so much to be ungrateful and so very little to be thankful for.. I am living in a world where i am not in control.. I hate everything about my stupid illness and i cant...
    xxcaylaxx xxcaylaxx 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Does anyone else hate losing in anything? Drives me nuts.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've been clinically diagnosed with sociopathy,' I said. 'Do you know what that means?''It means you're a freak,' he said.'It means that you're about as important to me as a...
    saffronlooby saffronlooby 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    living in a world of non BPD people is a lonely place
    Tattooedgirl864 Tattooedgirl864 31-35 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate this feelings. Idk what's triggering all these bad feelings in me today but I wish I never woke up from my sleep. I just wanna be alone but I wanna talk. I feel hatred but...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    This acting.......this constant acting like everything is fine, act like I can handle things, act like there is nothing wrong, act like I love my family, act act act act! I don't...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Yeah I remember why I don't let myself feel for ppl. Ppl will always cause you pain. It's best to just wall yourself up and stay in your cell alone and lonely. It's a duller pain...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    ****VERY LONG DEscriptION****I've never told anyone about this before and it's one of my darkest secrets. But I have 3 alters that make up "me." They don't have names so I gave...
    Ikebanna69 Ikebanna69 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    "To love is a dangerous path for me." —Michael (Me)
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Are there any other borderline males like myself?
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I have at least 3 distinct personalities. It's difficult to know which one is the real me.
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I first started to notice I wasn't 'normal' when I was 14 years old. I would flip out so quickly over small things, and I don't mean just have a temper tantrum.. I would break...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Do any of you guys find yourself easily obsessed with subjects, ppl, objects. places ect. ??
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    two days ago i was ready to divorce my husband. this am, he made love to me and i loved it. i don't want a divorce. i want security. i don't want to talk to anyone else in the...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    If you want to what Borderline Personality feels like watch the links below. It'll give you an inside look. Watch "Borderline Personality Disorder - What it feels like" on...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I was just in emotion mind RAGE, ANGER.. everyone in my path got a taste of it and I didn't care. I get fed up with being ran all over sometimes and I explode! People need to...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F Aug 24

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    I think one of the hardest parts about 'having borderline' (I say it like this because you are of course not defined by it) is that you have this chronic feeling of inadequacy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Nothingness!!! I woke up to flat, numb, nothingness. As much as I hate being manic or on a really bad low I think id rather have either of them right now. This feeling or lack of...
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    So like I've noticed that through out myself, especially as I've gotten older, I have gotten very terrified about ppl leaving me. Which is of course the abandonment issues with our...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    It's ironic how I can be completely ruthless to some people whereas I can be very gentle, accepting and kind towards those I have chose to cherish.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    I started having symptoms around six months ago. Since then I've been in therapy and together my therapist and I realized that I have two alternate personalities. One is my age. He...
    reaperthejack reaperthejack 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    i dont feel like writng as nothing seems to help im having trouble getting up to face the day dont feel like showering yesterday was different the nothing helps i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 23

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    what is the difference between avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety disorder?
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F Aug 23

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    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Aug 22

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    Hi all! I do not have BPD but I am getting worried about Sarah, who is a friend of mine, and I am wondering if you could please help me? I think she has BPD because of the...
    Thia999 Thia999 56-60, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    I have not been diagnosed officially, but both my psycholigist and psychiatrist believe that I have a personality disorder. My psycholigist thinks it may be Bi-Polar II but does...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    My other personalities all have their own way of talking, they have their own style and even my eye color changes sometimes. In this picture you see me and Iris, one of my other...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Aug 21

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    Question- has anyone found any good coping strategies that help them deal with BPD ?
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I think because of bpd, when I experience any thoughts of judgments against myself, they are magnified by ten. The father of my three children is engaged to be married. I want to...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I was diagnosed with bpd over a year ago. I am currently dealing with a flood of self judgment after finding out my kids father is engaged now I am struggling to not make this...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Im struggling with self harm and anxiety. All while being recently diagnosed with bpd and dealing with being gay, there's so much going on. Sometimes i get so over whelmed by...
    thatonekid07 thatonekid07 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    My mother and her family emotionally abused me until I was in my early twenties. Therefore I often feel worthless, like I was born a bad person, and that no one likes/cares about...
    OnyxOrOrion OnyxOrOrion 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I am frustrated bc of problems w mental health care.
    Marlena1977 Marlena1977 36-40, F Aug 18