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I Have Histrionic Personality Disorder

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    I was just recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic and histrionic.. However you spell it. What I battle with most is being alone because eventually I'll find your weaknesses pretty quickly I'll know all your secrets and then if you hurt me once I...
    frozenFire6767 frozenFire6767 26-30, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I Have Mixed Histrionic And Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    I hate to be disliked and hated. I hate to be thought of as immoral, corrupt, difficult, mean, weird, etc. I wish to be liked and loved. It is okay to be ignored and be hidden from those who will hate me but I can't read people. I am too forward and stupid socially. I have the...
    Darkenedsun Darkenedsun 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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