I Have Inner Conflict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 318 People

    I was born in the early '60s,

    to a very conservative small town family. My paternal grandfather was the local Chief of Police. This meant that my family name was very well known, and generally held in fairly high esteem (or so I was taught at a young age). What a surprise when I started school and found that...
    Knum420 Knum420
    56-60, M
    Jun 25, 2015

    My Dark Secret

    I see so many people on here sad about a relationship fall outs and lonliness to the point that they almost exist in a deep dark hole of despair. I cannot relate to it at all for one good reason. I do not see people the same way that you guys do. I see people as a "...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    9 Responses Aug 20, 2009

    Inner Child?

    I watched a Law & Order episode recently which was out of character for me but something drew my attention to it. It was about two girls that killed a boy their age for the fun of it. One girl was dominate and the other submissive. The dominant girl killed the boy because she was...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 19, 2010

    Maybe The Biggest Problem With My Life

    This is really cool, because I've been reading stories and can clearly see that I am not alone (always knew, just easier to see now and that helps.) I don't have inner conflict; I AM one big conflict! I have no idea who i really am or what my life is about. It's very hard to meet...
    Delete151 Delete151
    26-30, F
    Oct 3, 2013

    To start with on this topic,

    my sister and I have been at odds for years, her blaming me for slights that happened out parents back in the '90's when she returned from out of state to live. Then it hit the fan!! She started hating on me and my family for no good reason and would back-hand compliment me and...
    karriesue53 karriesue53
    61-65, F
    Jul 10, 2015

    I Think We All Do

    I always think about the little Angel on one shoulder and the Devil being on the other, kind of like in the cartoons but more like in real life. One says yes the other no and so on like that.
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    3 Responses Nov 17, 2010

    An internal war tears me apart inside,

    from so many angles, for so many reasons.In a world where I temporarily trapped, the one who holds the keys pleads...while my head is turned he does his bad deeds...he swears to give me everything, I want nothing his damage has set in. He pleads he cannot live with out me...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 29, 2014

    Inner Conflict

    Inner conflict,It's raging,All the time,A civil war,Pointless,One part of me,Against another,If it don't stop,I'm gonna blow!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 8, 2012


     my mind is on its own journey without me. It gets angry before I can think. It makes decisions without me cause I don't know what to do. I can't solve all these problems thrown at me for me to deal with. Because I don't know how. And I don't have any support anymore not...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2009

    Over Thinking

     Inner conflict takes over my life. It controls everything, no bondaries. I wish my brain would stop working just long enough for me to sleep, or do something without guilt. Why do I even have to plan out when I cut myself. Why do i do this? It's tearing me apart though...
    whatamitosay whatamitosay
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2009

    Evil ..? Emo? Or Simply Overpowered?

    sometimes i really feel scared of ppl that it makes me think evil about all of them. i dont know why or how. it just that they hurt me so much and idk how to answer that and i choose to stay away.  and then i remember that im being too nice and attractin ppl to me. and then...
    ChezaRose91 ChezaRose91
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 6, 2010


    Its very often that I find myself in midst of a conflict within me.A conflict between What I should be doing and what I think I should be doing.And it becomes very difficult for me to do that thing untill I have resolved that conflict.I usually become lost,not able to concentrate...
    Macrajat Macrajat
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 6, 2011


    And sometimes the **** goes Nukular in my head.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 13, 2011

    All The Time

    Should I open my heart to love and risk getting hurt again, or let this thing I'm going through continue and let myself fall into it?
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Oct 13, 2009

    The War Will Never Be Over

    Every voice in my head fights with the other. These voices come and go. I love them.
    Ghostette Ghostette
    18-21, F
    Nov 1, 2010

    I Hate Loss

           My oldest son said to me the other night "Mom, your good to us (him and his brothers) but you can be cold sometimes to other people." I said "Really?" and he said "Yup, work on it!" I did not realize that I had a...
    Neutrino38 Neutrino38
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    Till Death Do Us Part

    Will i ever be normal? Can i ever be my own person, why do i have to fight all these battles on top of an inner conflict? When can i be free...?
    trueself0326 trueself0326
    18-21, M
    Aug 10, 2013

    Pilotbob7.5 does not work with Windows 10.

    ..go figure. I get timeout error! Guess I'll have to wait for Pilotbob8.0.
    Pilotbob75 Pilotbob75
    41-45, M
    Sep 27, 2015

    I always have a conflict with

    whether I should ask questions or bring something up but "I shouldn't" Always wins.
    Raptax231 Raptax231
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014

    I'm sort of straight edge

    and drink only when I'm given permission. I say no to drugs and subconsciously judge potheads but sometimes I just want to be friends with someone who will open me up to those experiences. I want to get high or drunk off my ***.
    bornaverage bornaverage
    18-21, F
    Mar 15, 2016
    sayumxo sayumxo
    22-25, F
    Aug 20, 2014

    I'm Not 2-faced But I Have Several Personalities.

    My inner conflict is one of love and hate, it's one of happiness and sadness, and it's one that tries to drive me insane sometimes and lets me be in love at other times. The side of me that wants to be happy is fighting to survive because the darker part of me is hiding itself...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 13, 2011


    hello i have what they call inner thinking. for the past 8, 9 years Ive have been stuck looking at whats going on, instead of what people are saying, i think back wards (I think). Not sure what it is, it may be something that everyone else does. I don't know??? any ideas i would...
    blindsided blindsided
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2009

    Sometimes I am white,

    sometimes I am black. Yet occasionally I ended up stuck in the grey. My personality switches so fast that I could not even have a grasp on it.
    littleowlet littleowlet
    16-17, F
    Feb 11, 2015

    Constant Inner Conflict Career Wise

    I am 23 and in my 2d year of law school. I've ALWAYS wanted to go to law school never had a plan B. I went straight frm high school to college and from college to law school. BUT Now that I know what I got myself into I'm a bit conflicted. I am already close to $100k in debt...
    secretheart14 secretheart14
    26-30, F
    Nov 24, 2013
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    My 2 Sides

    I want to love myself but I can't get overcome all this bottled up self hatred.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    4 Responses Jul 26, 2010
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