I Have Inner Demons

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 608 People

    We all have our horrors

    and our demons to fight.But how can I win, when I'm paralyzed?They crawl up on my bed, wrap their fingers around my throat.Is this what I get for the choices that I've made?God forgive me, for all my sins. God forgive me, for everything.God forgive me, for all my sins. God...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    i have no control over my inner demons

    and i know sooner or later someone is going get really hurt
    mannansing03 mannansing03
    18-21, M
    Mar 23, 2015

    Everyone has there inner demons

    that put you down and make you think bad things are going to happen or something you are when you are not being positive is the best way to defeat it but it is definitely hard to overcome things like temptation
    rach232323 rach232323
    18-21, F
    Jan 3, 2015

    Why am I so empty? Guilt?

    Guilt of surviving. No one knows my story. I'm the polite, mild mannered, with a charming boyish look. You don't know what I've seen. The connection I've made with people whose lives hell you can never understand. And I have a magic touch, to absorb the pain of others so...
    xicovu xicovu
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 26, 2014

    Except I wouldn't exactly call them demons.

    In our society, we polarize things: good, bad; angels, demons. Now I am not categorically denying the existence of either, but I do suggest that the "demons" are maybe just dark parts of ourselves, or of the world surrounding us-- dark parts that we cannot accept as our own. It...
    lovely9me lovely9me
    31-35, F
    Feb 21, 2014

    They Speak to Me...

    It's been a while since  they have...  but I know they're there... every once in a while they will peek through and whisper softly to my soul... I remember them well... but we were never friends...
    phidget phidget
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 29, 2008

    Yes the Inner Demons.

    I have fallen in love with the most wrong women for me available in the past. I don't know why I did it but I did. They all needed something. Someone to take care of them or problems they needed help to overcome. I have always been a sucker for someone in need I guess. These...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia
    41-45, M
    17 Responses Jan 31, 2008

    I can hear them right now.

    It doesn't surprise me how they tell me what to do. I can only hear them when I think about certain things. Sometimes I wonder why they are so harsh with me, but I know why. I listen to them some times. They understand me well. When I zone out, half of the time I'm listening to...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2015

    through out my life I have always felt like

    there was someone watching me waiting for the right moment to kill me or something about five years ago I felt my mind and thoughts go out of control there would be thoughts that would continually pop up and quickly leave and as this would be happening my body would constantly...
    Werepryer Werepryer
    Jul 17, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Aug 6, 2015

    I know my demons very well.

    They rear their ugly heads never letting me breath a breath of air. Some people don't even know when they help the demon to rise. This will be a Lifelong battle that may continue into the grave.
    deleted deleted
    Dec 26, 2014

    Rage is the confession of pain.

    In an idiosyncrasy that only life is au fait with, trouble found me. Earlier today staring at my reflection, staring back were eyes a shade of Cimmerian. A bottomless abyss of black rage. Serene realization stills my heart. He is awake. My demon. The rabble-rouser. Baptized in...
    Frankenstein99 Frankenstein99
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    Its name Hatred. His best friends are Anxiety

    and Melancholy. Shake hands now, and play nicely.
    DestinyAuthor DestinyAuthor
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 14, 2014

    I wish I had amnesia.

    So I could forget about the stupid little things.
    spoja1 spoja1
    16-17, F
    Sep 24, 2014
    56-60, M
    Dec 31, 2015

    The demons inside me are trying to control me,

    making me think of ways to end my life and convincing me to end it.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2014

    Anybody else staying up till early in the

    morning trying to fight their demons.. or more accurately hiding from their inner demons? I stay up getting drunk trying, hoping to avoid the inevitable.. the demons that will haunt me. either in my sleep, or if I'm lucky they'll simply be waiting for me once my eyes open...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 6, 2015

    Absolutely I do, who doesn't?

    They run rampant and are opportunists like the troll population here. I just try to keep myself as productively busy as I can with things such as volunteer counseling, while I also try to avoid sitting idle, especially during my downtime.
    ChaoticEnigma ChaoticEnigma
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 12

    monsters dont sleep under ur head,

    they scream inside of yur head
    musicislife11 musicislife11
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 30, 2014

    For the last year, I have been trying to tackle

    some of my own demons, some of which have affected me since childhood. To do that, I have had to be very honest with myself, sometimes painfully, and that has included re-living certain events, how I treated some people, and the feelings I had felt. However in doing so, and...
    secretboy84 secretboy84
    31-35, M
    Jul 13, 2014

    Yeah, I have inner demons fighting in my head.

    I'm hazardous so beware. Some people think I'm crazy, but truth be told. I don't know what I am.
    HolidaySpice HolidaySpice
    16-17, F
    Apr 7, 2014

    There are two parts of me fighting

    for control. One part is the dominant part, the one that truly cares for people and knows I have the skill and power to help them, and the other part, ha, that's the fun part. Exact opposite. I'm heartless. Hurt as much as you want. See if I care. Let me play my "mind games...
    kxCobra kxCobra
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2014

    I thought they were gone,

    make it stop. Please. Just go away. Shut up, shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP!
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    I am their slave.. blackened tendrils wrapped

    around the mind, running rampant through my veins of filth. They are a part of me, and i am thankful they exist. That voice you hear, your inner dialogue. Your thoughts. Those, that other people cant hear, but you keep to yourself. That is my savior. My presence, without...
    UndyingWraith UndyingWraith
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    On my 45 minute journey through the darkened

    woods tonight, I decided not to listen to music. I just paced myself and listened. I listened to the quiet of the night, trying not to think but for once just exist. Exist in this solitude world of mine, full of hatred, abandonment, fear and sometimes sadness. Feeling apart from...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 29, 2014

    I'm new on here to start off.

    I've been getting bullied at school for my nose. A lot of people tell me that I'm gorgeous and I shouldn't listen to them. But I know for a fact that all of you who get bullied can't just ignore them the way people tell you to. It's so hard, when they point out my nose, those...
    trellatay trellatay
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Apr 4, 2014
    burnner burnner
    56-60, M
    1 Response Oct 25, 2015

    Sometimes when reality becoming overwhelming,

    I found myself drowning in the sea of pressure. The type of stress thag you can't get it out or away, you just let it be there. And then come the internet, it's addictive prople say, it's bad, but to me, it's my fantasy that I need so I could run and escape in.
    deleted deleted
    Nov 29, 2015

    It's not something like other people's inner

    demons but sometimes I'll just yell something. It's like someone trying to say "bubbles" in an angry voice. Once my friend wanted me to throw my trash away at lunch with her, and I yelled,"IM DRINKING MY MILK!" And a bunch of people looked at me and it was really funny though...
    Lcy2472 Lcy2472
    13-15, F
    Aug 11, 2015

    The Past and Today

    Is it possible to be lied to so much in the past that you expect to be lied to by everyone in your future? Is it possible to be cheated on so much in your past that you expect it to continue happening in the future? Can the deception of your past haunt you years later to the...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia
    41-45, M
    17 Responses Mar 5, 2008
    HellifIknow2015 HellifIknow2015
    31-35, M
    2 Responses May 25, 2015

    You know it's getting to me

    and I try not to let it. I read to escape but it still finds a way to creep up on me. It makes me remember everything and sometimes leaves me having multiple panic attacks. Silent ones so that no one knows what's going on.
    forevercaring forevercaring
    18-21, F
    May 25, 2015

    Does anyone else have demon

    that keep em up? Am I the only one that can't sleep can't rest because there's something seriously wrong eating away at you.... we've all done some bad things, som things we're not proud of... and yeah some of us have done worse then others... but I don't think that means we are...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 31, 2015

    My inner demons made me evil

    and I like that my power of darkness will soon consume this world and I will consume every human soul on this pitiful earth. Father Satan will soon rise and destroy this earth and I will help him destroy this earth my father Satan is inside of me everyday father Satan is the...
    BadassDemon666 BadassDemon666
    31-35, M
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    I have so many secrets locked inside me

    that I can't help but try so hard to keep inside. I have many demons I'm trying to fight them off I can't allow them to ruin my Life.
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 16, 2014

    When you smile but you're dying inside,

    the feeling of trying to not getting attention and fear of everyone else but you have to make sure that yourself look ok, so that everyone will don't pay "fake" attention. But then, all I need, is someone who actually care and look at me and say "you're not okay". But people are...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 14, 2015

    There are two devils on my shoulders.

    There is no angel. No moral compass or conscious for guidance.
    SierraJay SierraJay
    16-17, M
    Nov 9, 2015

    Tethered inside my mind with malice a mere

    glance from within I see from the eye of my window the freedom outside of it the place I long to be The horrors that manifest from within the darkest corners throughout do terrify Its malevolence beseech the marrow of my bones, taunting my soul , pleading with my demons to...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    1 Response Jul 31, 2015

    My inner demons protected me

    and they gave me strength and they have gave me the Idea to find the seal of darkness and when I find that seal of darkness than I will draw that seal and that seal will bring lord Satan to this world and lord Satan will destroy this world and when he is finished I will use the...
    Destruction666 Destruction666
    22-25, T
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    Can you hear them ? They're knocking at your

    door. They desire access to the inner core of you. They want to wreak havoc inside of you, stir you up and awaken all that's hidden and asleep within your darkest desires, then they want to go deeper yet and release the other half of you, the one you have imprisoned there...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Can you hear that? Can somebody hear that?

    !! I thought they were gone, they will never leave me, never. God help me.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 1, 2014

    they fuel my anger, what can I do to take

    control, and help them do good?
    Compoundgold Compoundgold
    13-15, M
    1 Response Dec 29, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 4, 2013

    I hear them... Tell me to do things I don't

    want to do... I tried blasting it with music never helps, I calm them and myself by showing blood or pain... It helps... I just don't know what to do anymore..
    deleted deleted
    Aug 31, 2015
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015
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