I Have Intrusive Thoughts

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    These thoughts I have can not always be swept

    away, and they are reoccurring throughout the day. When they pop into my head it becomes vivid and my body goes numb and it plays on a reel in my head. The images sometimes seem like a movie and its disturbing how these thoughts are scary but at the same time pleasing to me. The...
    chrissed47 chrissed47
    22-25, M
    Feb 14, 2015

    Getting Through This.

    I have recently been extremely disturbed by some of my intrusive thoughts, and took it upon myself to start seeing a therapist at the age of 22. I realized I have actually had intrusive thoughts since I was a young boy, and now recently they have really started to bother me. The...
    Ken101123 Ken101123
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2013

    Lost And Out Of Control

    when i was a freshman in high school, i remember coming home one day and while i was watching tomb raider, i thought angelina jolie was hot. That was the first time id ever thought about girls. I started freaking out... asking myself, " Am I a lesbian because I think that?". My...
    arteezya arteezya
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    I've always suffered from anxiety

    and thoughts and worries that would pop into my head at random. They used to revolve around disease or paranormal/religious thoughts, and even then they were more intense fears than actual thoughts. For example, I once developed the fear that I would get the Black Death after...
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic
    18-21, F
    Oct 8, 2014

    can someone else w violent intrusive thoughts/

    impulses talk to me about experiences and coping mechanisms
    bugab00 bugab00
    18-21, T
    1 Response Oct 21, 2015

    Hello everyone my real name is junior I have

    been a victim of intrusive thoughts all hope is not lost I am a very loving person I love to enjoy life I see the beauty in almost every situation but u fell into a deep fear my worst thoughts seemed like they would come true I started thinking I was capable of stabbing my...
    LifeAnLove LifeAnLove
    26-30, M
    Apr 1, 2015

    I still occasionally have them

    but they are not as frequent as they used to be. I just think they are out of my control and there is nothing i can do about them. At the moment i'm just trying to remain positive and ignore them.
    Darkstar101 Darkstar101
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 5, 2015

    Does anyone here ever obsess over small tiny

    things even from years ago? It drives me mad.
    rhiamia rhiamia
    18-21, F
    Mar 2, 2015

    Intrusive Thoughts

    I have intrusive thoughts and they are very distubering. Talking to my therapist helps and especially when she told me that its normal and ok. I always felt that I was the only one in the world that had them and I felt like a freak. Some consist of violence and some consist of...
    95alex 95alex
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2013
    anonymouslysleeping anonymouslysleeping
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    Jumping Out Cars

    When I'm in the car, I always think what it would be like to jump out of it while moving and I get the urge to do it. I usually think about stuff when I go to sleep, like making little stories in my head.. I'm not sure how to explain it.
    fudgie2002 fudgie2002
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2010

    Yes I Have Very Disturbing Unwanted Thoughts

     They vary from an image of cutting my wrists and seeing the blood trickle out. Others include being raped to be followed by a murderer. I have sexual thought at highly innapropriate times like at a job interview, if the interviewer is male icant stop imagining them naked or...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Sep 21, 2009

    Giving Me Anxiety

    I have had these intrusive thoughts my whole life off and on. But since I have moved and relocated they came back in full force. They used to be innapropriate images popping in my head. Now they have worsened and are so disturbing I feel sick. Case in point, i babysat my freinds...
    nicholas577 nicholas577
    1 Response Jul 10, 2013


    Makes me wanna do some evil **** like hurt people haha nah I use to. But when I set my mind free I realized the reasons for me always having that state of mind I kept my thoughts caged in let them get the best of me but when let those ravage thought speak I became aware of what...
    adamlevinemine9 adamlevinemine9
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2013

    You Can Do It

    My experience has been (YES I DO HAVE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS) that it really takes a tragic toll on your psyche and its no longer intact your traumatized you think your gonna be found out, taken through the streets by society, and put on trial and then be hung. Your not guilty its...
    waitingforheaven waitingforheaven
    May 31, 2011

    Having it gives me anxiety,

    the thoughts make me mad, sometimes i cry or shout at them telling them to go away.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 7, 2015

    Intrusive Thoughts.

    These thoughts scare the crap out of me, like I am going crazy. I just recently started having these thoughts ago, i am not sure if the stress of scared of not being able to pay my rent since I quit my job or all the stress with my roommates caused them to come back, but I think...
    rebboicms rebboicms
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2013

    Today I Told A Friend

    Today i told a friend i have OCD, i was first diagnosed with it around april/may time 2013 after a pretty traumatic first holiday with my girlfriend of 11 years. long story short, for the past 3/4 years AT LEAST i have had thoughts about harming my girlfriend or others and...
    penguinzz penguinzz
    26-30, M
    Jul 4, 2013

    Hi so i have these thoughts

    that are not like my other thoughts and what happens is that when I start thinking about a word (for example), I end up thinking about it for weeks or even months. Also when I'm outside, I get thoughts that people are staring at me even though I know that's most likely not the...
    michaellabc michaellabc
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2014

    Relationship Intrusive Thoughts

    Hey everyone, I wanted to share my story, I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years. I have always been head over heals almost sickening in love with him I mean obsessed. Never wanted anyone else could barely even look at another guy. I started working at this place where both...
    1 Response Jan 23, 2013

    I can't help but have these terrible violent

    thoughts about strangers, and people/things I love...Or even myself. Sometimes the thoughts become so obsessive, I have dreams about it (they're not nightmares), or completely breakdown to tears. I really hate experiencing these thoughts. It makes me feel like the worse person...
    DevilDollie DevilDollie
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2015

    I hate having it, it always bothers me every day

    and night, it is hard to live a free peaceful and quiet life with it, i wish for it to go away but it never does.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 30, 2015

    I know running away from my problems would

    never be the answer, considering the problems are in my mind. But I just wish I could wake up and feel better.
    Ladybug1321 Ladybug1321
    22-25, F
    Feb 9, 2014

    I Have Intrusive Thoughts?!?!

    Hi, ever since I was little my life was always around painting. I enjoyed it without a doubt. But there is something about red paint that gets me to have some thoughts..I don't know if I'm going crazy or what not but every time I see/around red paint I have thoughts that I just...
    jewlieana jewlieana
    18-21, F
    Nov 9, 2013

    I have experience high axiety

    and intrusive thoughts for last 4 months. intrusive thoughts are worse since they are mostly about my family, it scare me I may snap and do it. I tried couple different medicine but it didn't help, I am now on lorezapam to help with axiety. I was wondering if any of you had good...
    drage93 drage93
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 26

    Sad :(

    So I'm sharing this story because I've been doing some reading and it seems I'm not alone. My thoughts started in grade 9 (I'm 22 now) when I was listening to a pop song that had the word suicide in it. For some reason my brain hooked on this word and for the next 3 months I was...
    Sazual Sazual
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 28, 2012


    I've been living with intrusive thoughts for almost 2 year now and I'm so scared of them because it's the last thing I would ever do. The reason I'm scared is because I have a beautiful fiance and a handsome 5 year old son who I love more then anything in the world. At the...
    brandon520 brandon520
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 25, 2013

    Please Read

    i have had intrusive thoughts since the birth of my 2 year old son... usually sexual intrusive thoughts, or about children being abused etc. they are usually about things i fear the most, which really sicken me as its the last thing i want going through my brain. am taking low...
    kpe kpe
    5 Responses Jul 28, 2008

    I Have Always Had These...

    It's just so odd, they are usually violent as well. I could just be sitting and listening to someone, and the though to just smack them crosses my mind. I would never do this, of course, and I have no ill will towards them. I certainly don't want to hurt them, and it's usually...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 16, 2010

    Intrusive Thoughts Please Give Help And Advice

    i have intrusive thoughts about a serial killer and it really disturbs me. it affects the most for me is mastrubation. i really want to ********** but the serial killer thought always comes in while i am doing it and i end up stopping and being frustrated. are there any tips i...
    joshua4 joshua4
    18-21, M
    Aug 14, 2013

    I have frequent daydreams about violence caused

    towards me. Such projectiles or arrows going through my body, being hit by a high-speed train, being beaten up, water-cannoned and teargased by police, being blasted apart bomb or falling from a high building. It is just now that realised that these fantasies are somewhat odd...
    quirkyowl quirkyowl
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 4

    I had previously gone through life never

    expirencing any form of anxiety, I was also the lay back and let life happen kind of person. Until about 4 months ago I tricked myself into believing I had hiv (thanks google) I immediately got tested and it came back negative. I still couldn't get the thought out of my head...
    Adxl154 Adxl154
    18-21, F
    Feb 15

    Wow , finally i found the group of people

    suffering the same thing. I suffer this awful sickness for many many years. I would say since i was 16, then it were times where it was getting better but as i was 22 it really hit me so hard. I never got help, besides some sleeping pills, but i want help now. I cant imagine...
    Satyrion Satyrion
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 12

    They're horrid but at the same time thinking

    about them relieves some of my anger and built up anxiety. Not many people understand this. But I'm hoping those who do will shoot me a message if they'd like to talk about them. No matter how morbid they may be we can listen to each other. Hopefully it'll help us both.
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 13

    This sickness is so creepy

    and i dont know why i have to suffer from this.
    Satyrion Satyrion
    31-35, F
    Mar 14

    In This Mind Fight

    Well here's my story, I have depression and adjustment disorder, I have intrusive thoughts which are uncomfortable and worrying, I've been on sick from work for a few months now, was getting to a point where I was returning to work. Today my landlord decided to tell me I'm being...
    Brokke Brokke
    36-40, M
    Apr 12, 2013

    Really Having A Big Effect On Me

    This is not my real name because no one knows of what I'm suffering and I feel at this moment and time not to tell anyone but hopfully I can tell someone in the future. It started when I was about 17 years old the first thought that came in to my mind was really strong that I...
    RobertGHD RobertGHD
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2012
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