I Have Just About Lost Hope That a Loving God Exists

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    Does a Loving God Exist?

    I have just about lost hope that a loving god exists. I used to believe. But I have yearned, cried, asked, even begged for some connection to Him (Her) and have been unable to find even a kernal of response. Anything would have done it for me...finding a good mechanic, winning $5...
    frito414 frito414
    56-60, F
    36 Responses Apr 16, 2009

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