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I Have Just About Lost Hope That a Loving God Exists

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    Does a Loving God Exist?

    I have just about lost hope that a loving god exists. I used to believe. But I have yearned, cried, asked, even begged for some connection to Him (Her) and have been unable to find even a kernal of response. Anything would have done it for me...finding a good mechanic, winning $5...
    frito414 frito414 56-60, F 38 Responses Apr 16, 2009

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    Post 005 There are no red flags that pop up for me in Genesis Chapter 5 at all. Chapter 5 deals mainly with Adam and Eve's lineage through Seth until the birth of Noah, and that...
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    Post 004 In my last post I talked a little bit about Genesis 2:17 but after that no more red flags pop up for the rest of Chapter 2 (for me anyway). god's Machiavellian plan for...
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    Yes I have. I have been through a lot in life. I had lost both my parents when I was six. I grew up at my uncles with the siblings that kept picking on me. I worked hard and got a...
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