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I Have Let Myself Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 206 People

    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M Mar 23

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 20 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Today i earned some money by being a glory hole

    *****. I really needed that money to buy a monthly train tickets which cost alot. I sucked lots of **** and barely any of them gave me tip. Why would they. This is probably a new low for me.
    JennyLovely JennyLovely 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    I think this is one of those universal experiences that we all share. Even if we don't care to admit it.
    Mrskatearch Mrskatearch 31-35, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I have cut myself before but it was only by accident. I was throwing a coke can full of sand at a rock for the second time and slice my finger open completely :( all that hard work...
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    Its not that I've cried myself to sleep, its that I couldn't stop crying today yet. There has been so much stress in my household between me and my boyfriend. I know were not...
    4merself 4merself 36-40, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    i cried myself to sleep countless times. Who cares if I am happy or not? It becomes meaningless and when I am sad nowadays, it is hard to cry. Just hope I will never wake up
    Nat2138 Nat2138 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hadn't in months and tonight I had a huge argument with my boyfriend. It's been hard lately because we're both off to college and transitioning into a long distance relationship...
    serenabelle serenabelle 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    For the time you were taking me out on a date and asked, "is *that* what you're wearing?" in a non-joking manor. For the times that you refused to have anything to do with me when...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I keep waking up with tears in my eyes, and I don't know why...
    SirFineth SirFineth 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I recently had a past life regression done on me to help me understand everything that has transpired to me in the past 3 years. The man who lead me deeper into my spiritual self...
    Raven9854 Raven9854 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I have done this a few times because i hurt so bad. My back was hurting so bad i couldnt get comfortable.
    footballgal56 footballgal56 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm never shocked when people let me down nowadays. I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place.
    Bg3242 Bg3242 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    i did and im afarid i would do it again :-(:-(
    lillyross lillyross 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Ive been doing good for almost 2 years. About a week ago i started smoking again. But not only that its smoking weed cigarets drinking and taking pain pills just to get through...
    holehearted79 holehearted79 36-40, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    Last night ever to the kfc buffet wen I left my shorts were unbuttoned and my belt 2 notches bigger. What a good night
    chubbyhubby250 chubbyhubby250 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I liked this girl from college... I never thought she was pretty until I fell for her. Whenever I'm near her, my mind flies and I get lost in my dreams. Any other girls around me...
    fuwhat fuwhat 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Yup and that's what I'm going to do just get fat and give in to good food
    chubbyhubby250 chubbyhubby250 36-40, M Aug 25

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    Also I burnt my hand on purpose once in a moment when I wasnt sure it would hurt. Weirdly it didn't hurt and I ended up giving myself bad burns and being put on a watch list at my...
    coerietheraven coerietheraven 22-25, M Aug 25

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    Last year when I was being bullied/abused/isolated by my classmates, I used to cut myself as a form of stress-relief to ease myself away from the pain. But now, I've been clean...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response Aug 25

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    I was clean for almost a year. Now I just started again
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    the frugal bear the markings of the tolerant .....unfazed
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F Aug 25

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    Since 4 months I have been fattening myself up every single minute of the day I gained weight rapidly each and everyday thanks to a friend here with my girlfriend I turned into an...
    M19946 M19946 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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    Breast ultrasound day. Yay me!
    Twinkletoejam Twinkletoejam 41-45, F 7 Responses Aug 24

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    I often like to cut my fingertips to remind myself how much of a monster i can be. The cuts represent claws. If im not careful with what i touch, i will hurt myself. When i hurt...
    ForgedFromFire ForgedFromFire 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I think I'm coming to that stage where I am actually letting myself go. I wish I could honestly say I want to loose weight for health purposes but truth be told, I just want to...
    carmaletta carmaletta 26-30, F Aug 21

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    Having said "me too" (god that feels like "I do"), the very next thing i want to say is that i don't really know if i have anything more to say(?). This happened once before many...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 21

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    I'm still around and kicking friends. Just still dealing with something that hopefully should wrap up next week. I will be here on and off, but will really be back when what I'm...
    Twinkletoejam Twinkletoejam 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    My problem is i constantly crave other people acceptance..if someone doesnt tslk to me.or message me back i worry ive done something wrong.. i just wishbi coild stop it.mrelax..chi...
    sweetguy2016 sweetguy2016 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I have lost my direction in life. There are things that I want to accomplish, but I have no motivation to do so.
    jaynepayne jaynepayne 31-35, F Aug 18

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    I got up this morning after eating my butter for breakfast and moooing so loud the house shook, I put on my work pants, I crawled to my huge bowl of slop I made nothing but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 16

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    i wondered why i don't trust people i felt very low 'cause i always expected the worst of them but it's not my fault i became like that i grew up with no dad around even when he...
    nina1195 nina1195 18-21, F Aug 16

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    When my mom chose to go back to my dad, my brother and I were still living at home. I've moved two hours away from them since then, but it doesn't feel far enough. I've been...
    TrueBlue94 TrueBlue94 18-21, F Aug 15