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I Have Let Myself Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 196 People

    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 21 Responses May 27

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27

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    today i really feel like i let someone down...this site has really helped me get my feelings down so i don't feel so trapped, but i still need control. so i still cut (well...
    kwrc kwrc 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    Let myself is an understatement? I drank some tea and it made me sleepy. Then Tasha took advantage of me while I was nice and vulnerable!!!
    ThereIsNoName ThereIsNoName 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    Hey Naomi here :) I'm thinking of just letting myself go and become a big fat blob. If there is anyone out there who could help me that would be great! Hugs xxx Naomi
    naomikasai naomikasai 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 6

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    If guys suddenly disappeared off the face of the earth, I'd probably eventually be unrecognizable outside of work and special events. Maybe I just don't care about myself as I...
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 22-25, F Oct 24

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    One night I was eating some of my favorite hot wings and I took a huge bite and it went down so far so i had for force myself to throw up
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 30

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    Another one! I had myself instant noodles on the stove. The bowl I had put the boiling water and noodles and flavouring in wasn't very big and it was about 70-80% with boiling...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 29

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    I have just gotten out of my self harm bout. I'm 16 and planning on joining the U.S. Army. Now I know that self harm scars are a BIG disqualifier but I am determined to reach my...
    Armyhopeful Armyhopeful 16-17, M Nov 13

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    Crying myself to sleep is the only way for me to sleep lately. It's just so hard and tiring that I then get more tearful.
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sometimes, I wonder why I do this. I go on here, or Twitter. Talk with people about pointless bs, and eventually, it all turns into a big moral crusade. Raging at people who'll...
    ShyShogan ShyShogan 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    For many years I have felt like I just was a waste of space. I felt like something was missing. A strange as It was, when I was standing there, bound to the wall, getting caned, I...
    0happycamper 0happycamper 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I've ways been extremely large. In my family, I'm the fat one. The one that gets thirds and fourths. The one that walks behind everyone else because I'm slow. The one who takes up...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 22

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    I enjoy making people laugh, a majority of the time I do it to get laughs and I'm being completely serious. Like I often joke about how I'm a fat bastard, and the fact that I'm...
    Dickard101 Dickard101 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 30

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    I feel like I disappoint everyone. I never do enough. I never do anything well enough. Won't they just cut me a break?!
    Masqurade Masqurade 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    Idk y I just did I'm sooooo sick of everything now. I'm sorry to everyone I hurt its nothing personal just business.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Many a time! The worst was when I was at the supermarket once. Some old people were in the way of the heated chicken (and other foods in there) rack area. They were choosing...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 29

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    Another incident. I had put eggs on to boil on the stove. I was wondering why the eggs weren't boiling. Stupidly put my hand on the ELEMENT. Yes my full f*cking hand! (Think my...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Oct 29

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    you know that moment when things are so bad and ****** up there is absolutely nothing you can do except laugh...I am that laughter.
    TheGreatDisappointment TheGreatDisappointment 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 6

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    Flashed my boobz for a group of guys in a stag party
    Bev1978 Bev1978 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 11

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    I  did it again. :(. Why am I so useless?
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was in class today and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    unicornsydney unicornsydney 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I once in a while find someone I feel trust with. Someone I begin to open up to. I never open up completely, but I start. Then when I am away from them I begin to question why...
    cocanola cocanola 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want Confindence in myself. I have been battling what i now know as rosacea since i was 12. In turn its made me extremely shy and self conscious about myself. I don't have flare...
    ARP90 ARP90 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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    Hey, slow it down whataya want from me Whataya want from me Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me Whataya want from me There might have been a time When I would give myself away...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    I have always suffered from anxiety. Most people in my family are anxiety driven and have the social behaviors of children. I grew up not understanding that crying because...
    greenribbon73 greenribbon73 18-21, F Nov 11

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    I'm sure this is the question everyone asks: How do you maintain to yourself that your mother is narcissistic? And now background (convoluted tldr imminent): I have a mother whose...
    rootlesswind rootlesswind 26-30 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I was in the first grade, and they told me that 2+2=4, I thought, "not necessarily!" I mean, 2 apples and 2 oranges do not equal 4 apples. I was always getting the numeral 4...
    roseisaroseisarose roseisaroseisarose 51-55, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Let me breathe. Let the sky be blue again and sun warm. Let me be, set me free. Things will crowd up on you if you let them. And I let them. I let them get so heavy they...
    Freestanding Freestanding 51-55, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I came to Canada 3 years ago to study and then hopefully settle down here. Just the way I saw marriages and relationships go down in my family (my mother has been the mistress of...
    TheDragonBorn TheDragonBorn 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I really need advice, not sure how this site works but here goes: I'm 17 years old and I keep letting my parents down. My older sister has anxiety and small things can upset her...
    17femaleuk 17femaleuk 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 13

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    I am a very positive person but I don't accept or swallow mistakes easily. I tend to treat myself the worst when it comes to making mistakes. [I give others even much space in...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F Oct 25

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    I always told myself to focus on school and that guys would come later, but I couldn't deny that there was someone in a few of my classes that I had found myself attracted to. I've...
    irresistiblyme irresistiblyme 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Guys tell me if that ever happened to you.. Now im thinking and cant understand why did people i was the closest to eventually became strangers to me. I was always kind and helped...
    Gitamomo Gitamomo 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    I never lost a man that was worth keeping ✌️ I will never again as a female dumb myself down and forget my worth to be with a man that only puts in half the effort towards me...
    ThePrettyOnee ThePrettyOnee 13-15, F Nov 13

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    Am i undeserving of a mother's love do you even love me? i feel like i was a mistake it's like the past all over again where you take everything out on me, i know im not perfect...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F Nov 1

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