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I Have Let Myself Down

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 23 Responses May 27

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Related Experiences

    I want you to be happy. I want to experience every day with you. I want to grow old with you (with less fear)... :)
    Jacques0041 Jacques0041 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I really let myself go. I already shared an experience about my gain in my freshman year from pizza and beer. That left me 48lbs heavier than when I entered. I slowed down and only...
    foresty foresty 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have accepted myself, not in a way that I know myself therefore I should change everything to fit in the society and #yolo. No not that, but simply I have accepted that, me, who...
    anon152 anon152 13-15 4 days ago

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    Its taken a few decades but i have found myself. I will not compromise on anything or anyone who is going to drag me back to who i was.
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I never like the "found myself" thing. You already are you how does one find what they ready are? Are we trying to rip the space time continuum
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I am more than ecstatic to be able to give hope to all sufferers today by being able to truthfully tell you that I managed to rip myself out of bulimia completely in the time space...
    mel95 mel95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I've been overweight for a good chunk of my life. Currently I'm up to about 290 lbs. I've been trying to lose the weight, and for a while, I was doing pretty well, but now... I...
    CasvalEarth CasvalEarth 22-25, M Sep 3

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    Honestly I'm so tired of being let down. I always keep my hopes and expectations low so it doesn't bother me as much but even then it still feels horrible.
    poppagee poppagee 16-17, F Aug 30

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    Today was my (step) cousin's christening and I didn't go. And that's because my mom and step dad are separated and my step sisters hate me and my mom (I wrote about that in some...
    holdontilmay holdontilmay 18-21, F Aug 24

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    Or will be soon. Few have. But life in society has. Society is killing us all. And we debate it. But not for long.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Sep 8

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Aug 29

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    I normally use a pair of scissors I have about 6 scars in total all on my left arm no one mentions them I don't know if they know what they are or is they are afraid to mention...
    Gabriella20xx Gabriella20xx 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I have this fetish... I like to see women hanging by their neck and barefoot. I like also to hang myself by my neck and stay there for a while, and when I feel I´m like dizzy, I...
    PepeNador PepeNador 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    Once I was a strong girl, had great friends, my dream job and was just strong. A year later, I am recently dumped, I am in the midst of walking away from my job and I hate myself.
    JeLaWa JeLaWa 22-25 1 Response Aug 31

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    I first cut myself at the age of 16. Few times at age of 17. Then again when i was 20. And the latest was 3 months ago as 21. All to ease the pain in my heart. Trying to stay clean...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I found myself. But I always afraid of what people can think of me. You can say fear of prestige or fear of anything. To be yourself, it's challenge.
    peterrizk peterrizk 22-25, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I want to start off by saying, I love this group name. It fits my situation perfectly. I used to be such a creative, artistic, expressive person. I had a 600+ page role-play going...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cut to make the pain I have been through to go away
    shibabe1996 shibabe1996 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    Never gonna RUN AROUND and... DESERT YOU!!!! Never gonna MAKE YOU CRY! Never gonna SAY GOODBYEEEE!!!! Never gonna TELL A LIE... and HURT YOUUU!!!!!! This has been your daily...
    mhenson144 mhenson144 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    Dawn of the Dark. One exchanged one for another. You sank too deep you can't get back on. What you wish for is nothing but the last of an ending. A lost cause you no longer see...
    SimonFlarerington SimonFlarerington 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I'm not there but I'm working on it please share pictures
    dantodawn dantodawn 51-55, T Aug 20

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    A few times..... A few years ago my best friend lost her mother; she was in such emotional pain that it affected me too.... I hate friends feeling hurt....it hurts me too...
    SarahTheHooker SarahTheHooker 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    true story. it was so amazing!
    melina123 melina123 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    So i decided to cut my tummy instead of my arms and legs because my friend keeps seeing them I think im getting better, im starting to cut less
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10

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    Just like my day today. So id rather sweat it out. Jog and probably dance until my feet hurts. At least im happy with ME.
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    It did save me, years ago. I'd die without it
    NegativePulse NegativePulse 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Music has saved my life on multiple occasions
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    yeah i slipped with a knife dozens of times when i do stuff outside
    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I haven't been the best of friends with myself. I know I've let myself down and that I'm harder on myself than most believe I should be But that's the price you pay when you have a...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    many people have let me down. those whom i assumed were "friends" were nothing more than trouble and And a bunch of halfwits. so i don't really get people too close to me, fearing...
    sheisthesongthatnooneshallsing sheisthesongthatnooneshallsing 18-21 Sep 4

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    Because so many people have let me down. Even the ones I love dearly have let me down. My rule has been no having expectations but recently I set it too high so now I'm falling so...
    lydiasangi lydiasangi 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    My thoughts for today...if anyone is interested, that is, in little old me and my observations so far... Do you ever notice that the EPer's who post stories..oops...experiences...
    MistyMoon1 MistyMoon1 41-45, F 23 Responses Sep 11

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    "yeah, yo You were that, foundation Never gonna be another one, no. I followed, so taken So conditioned I could never let go Then sorrow, then sickness Then the shock when you flip...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I feel chained down. I have held myself to such a high standard for so long...possibly too long. I tell myself "I have to do better,my family counts on me/will count on me in the...
    YohKomori YohKomori 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Today I went for a swim at my local lake. As I jumped into the water with enthusiasm, I was determined to swim to the little island far off in distance. I paddled and paddled and I...
    BLVLFreeSwim BLVLFreeSwim 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    (Beware, I may get a little graphic.) I have emetophobia. I guess I should start the story from the beginning. I'm not really sure when it started, but I think it stemmed from...
    bridget1234567 bridget1234567 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I had a dream a weird one lol Im looking for a ghost but she lives under the sea in a hotel like house thats under the sea.. I dunno how to get there so i asked someone for help...
    Chiscuit Chiscuit 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I never for a second thought my life would take the turns it has I'm greatly appreciated for all the people I have met, love, lost Along the way, you are my current saviours For...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 11