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I Have Let Myself Down

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M Mar 23

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 20 Responses May 27, 2014

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    This is how I keep myself from doing things I said I'd never do I don't tell myself never to do anything, that way I never let myself down.
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    I've grieved And mourned And moved on from the love. Now, it's time to Repeat the process And let go of the friendship That meant so much to me. I don't give up easily. I don't...
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    I use to cut and quite often at that, but then this amazing and wonderful person came into my life (now my girlfriend) and helped me stop cutting because it's 100% not the answer...
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    I always blame it on the cat and everyone always believes me
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    I have had this problem with myself since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every...
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    I just fear that I'm going to let everyone down and I hate doing that
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 23

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    for letting the bullies and men put me down that I felt so low I just let myself go to much i let them as well not there fault mine I am really ashamed of how I look even more so...
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    I know in your eyes, I did the most unimaginable, unforgivable thing. I am human. I did what I did to forget all the hurt, disappointment, and to keep from having horrible...
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    it was a period in my life that I'm so glad is over and has made me such a strong person. at the time, i couldn't see a way out and you don't think there is one. i was so consumed...
    mxtxc mxtxc 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    For all those people who are cutting at the moment please stop I'm saying this because I care about all of you I know what it's like to feel like it's the only thing that can make...
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    I have really bad insomnia. I just can't sleep it's abnormal like I'm not suppose to sleep. It's so bad I feel tired but my body doesn't want to sleep and I find myself up for over...
    Shilfer Shilfer 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have, until this time, resisted the urge to post a comment that sounds like I am doing so solely to generate sympathy. Not that I have anything against anyone that reaches out in...
    Heartofgold4one Heartofgold4one 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Suffering with chronic depression and anxiety I have found that I have become quite reclusive. I see a friend once or twice a week, but apart from that I stay at home by myself. I...
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