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I Have Let Myself Down

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 20 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M Mar 23

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I was so skinny, flat stomach and a size zero not long ago. But I love eating and drinking wine. It has caught up with me for sure! I've definitely let myself go. Let's see how far...
    missimo missimo 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    But I do it to give myself an opportunity to boost the mood of other people who are feeling down. Because I'm not happy if someone else is unhappy.
    Lansy Lansy 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    In the last month I've put on about 5 pounds without even trying.. I think it's due to going out to eat (usually 1-3 times a week) and snacking (on chips, chocolate, crackers...
    Cat903 Cat903 26-30, F Apr 25

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F May 6

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    I know I have a good boyfriend and he is amazing but. I don't know if I can live anymore. I'm always depressed and I don't want him to be around that. I cut my self from my waist...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I have since I was in 6th grade. I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in...
    BornBroken BornBroken 16-17, F Apr 27

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    This is a kinda funny story. When I was taking loads of drugs in this house I shared with my best mate/drug buddy, some strange stuff used to happen.I had a parcel delivered to me...
    chinawhite007 chinawhite007 26-30, M May 1

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    so I cut myself all the way from the middle of my torso to my ankle. but now I'm really dissapointed in my self
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F May 2

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    I have lately been throwing up my food , i weight 122.5 and that number just kills me ... I have to stop eating and if i eat i will throw up ..
    iwanttodiesobad1212 iwanttodiesobad1212 13-15, F Apr 27

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    It started when I was 12 and then it went on till I was 16 I'm recoving from self harm I still have days where I really want to and it's hard not to but at lest I'm getting...
    KaylaDem33 KaylaDem33 18-21, F May 4

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    I'm not a robot or a slave. If you don't like me or accept me for who I am then screw you!
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64 13-15, M 1 Response May 3

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    Even when I stopped gaining, my trousers feel tight and sometimes they rip when I try to get up after dinner Did I really get so fat that I need to give up on jeans? ;P
    stelarring stelarring 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    I only want to cut very rarely when my day has been awful and I just think the physical pain will balance out everything. But I don't do it. But today has been trying. Like idk...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F Apr 29

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    With a crafting knife, during art class, while I was cutting card. Wasn't that deep, but I bled alright.
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M May 6

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    I used to buy pencil sharpeners just for the blade
    GEMWASHERE GEMWASHERE 13-15, F 2 Responses May 6

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    it was a bad time in life, my parents were never home and i lived with my great grandmother, i cut my hands with a blade in my room
    Angel861 Angel861 13-15 May 10

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    Today I actually talked to the boy that I liked all year (although not anymore, for obvious reasons)... The one I knew since a couple weeks before my depression. The one who...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6 13-15, F 1 Response May 13

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    Three times already today feeling horny again! Any fem want to join me?
    keith1boy keith1boy 46-50, M May 16

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    I'm 67 days clean today :)
    camasf camasf 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm in the hospital again after another suicidal freak out last night. My bf restrained me from overdosing. He knocked on my sisters bedroom door and said he needs help because I'm...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses May 2

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    I don't have any friends, all my friends and even some family have let me down. I'm a loner.
    costaricanbeautyyy costaricanbeautyyy 16-17, F 4 Responses May 4

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    Two days ago, I went to pick out some flowers to make hanging baskets for friends. Sounds like a nice, relaxing afternoon, right? WRONG. After trying to pick out flowers for 2...
    bellybelle bellybelle 36-40 5 days ago

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    This last year has been all over the spectrum, from really really good, to just brutal. I think I am starting to understand why I am struggling so much with being confident in...
    loneranger91 loneranger91 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    I feel I have been letting my family down most of my life. I pray about it all the time but it doesn't seem to get better. Once I start to feel like I am doing something that will...
    afa777 afa777 22-25, M 1 Response May 14

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    Maybe you guys can help me sort out what's happening with my family. I'm not really sure if my father is narcissistic, or if he has some other problem, but I know that he...
    Cocoona Cocoona 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I wonder if this is my secrect way if giving up. I have no dreams. I gave them all up. I don't expect anything. I don't want to ask for anything. I am just clinging on to my faith...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    Odd dream this morning It's been a long time and I still dream bout him it's odd I don't want him I'm fed happy and healthier yet my dreams play tricks with me It's almost...
    ophelia379 ophelia379 26-30, F 2 Responses May 4

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    I woke up this morning and realized that I don't have many friends or a girlfriend, because I have low self esteem and self confidence, I have always known there was something...
    JodyValero JodyValero 18-21, M 1 Response May 12

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    I am tired of trying so hard, in a country that greed has ruined. It used to be your company would keep just enough profits to be well off, they cared about thier workers and gave...
    simj1122 simj1122 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    It's easier.. And then you don't have to deal with people letting you down constantly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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    ****. I knew I shouldn't have. I knew it was stupid. I can't trust myself, I should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time. The question is now, how do I really feel? Is...
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F May 11

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    Last night i was unable to concentrate and work on my art so i went out for a few beers…to an unknown place in a neighboring town to try and open up my cluttered mind. Great...
    flip420 flip420 46-50, M 2 Responses May 15

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