I Have Let Myself Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 200 People

    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach
    26-30, F
    Feb 8, 2008

    Today i earned some money by being a glory hole

    *****. I really needed that money to buy a monthly train tickets which cost alot. I sucked lots of **** and barely any of them gave me tip. Why would they. This is probably a new low for me.
    JennyLovely JennyLovely
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP
    22-25, M
    Mar 23, 2015

    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 27, 2014

    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr
    26-30, F
    18 Responses May 27, 2014

    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik
    26-30, F
    Apr 11, 2008

    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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