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I Have Let Myself Down

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 20 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M Mar 23

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    I am letting go of how he made me feel worthless instead of a lover and I'm moving on because i was existing fine before him. I am letting go of how he made me feel irrelevant...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 20

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    why do I keep ruining things again? Why do I keep stopping myself from being happy? Why don't I let myself live for at least a second once in my life?
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    because I believe my children need me. I would never leave them. From the day they were born I have protected and helped care from them. I believe a parent should never abandon...
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    love to have mine pulled down please anyone
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