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I Have Let Myself Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 194 People

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    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 21 Responses May 27, 2014

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I knew it was wrong yet I got caught up in the moment. Time for me to take a step back. I am obviously not what u wanted, just a distraction.
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    how do I start ... I'm not the ideal teen. as a child, I thought of death I started self harming at 7 y/o and admitted into many hospitals within weeks of being released. 4 failed...
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    i got a cut on my finger befor
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    Well I cut my thigh so now what I'm obviously not getting better what do I do now?
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    Being depressed over a girl isn't cool. And whats worse, i am afraid of letting my friends, family know because i don't want to be laughed at. Even if i know they won't. For over a...
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    There are times I've let them crumble. Let myself hope, and then gotten hurt. And each time I've built them back, thicker and stronger. I don't think I'll let them break again...
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    For the Heartbroken You took all the love I offered Even all my dignity Made me think my love was ugly Then threw it back at me Now my stomach feels so hollow My ego feels...
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    i dont care i need to vent i could never say how im feeling to my sick family abused neglected im so angry insid enobody lets me express myself i dont think i treally like my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Feb 22

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    I know this is long. I want to know if anyone else feels the guilt that I feel and depression or if anyone has similar experiences. Thank you so much for your support. I feel...
    interested0001 interested0001 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I love my boyfriend and our family, I live with him and his 17 year old son and we've got a puppy together. But he really let me down on Valentine's Day, it was our first one...
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    He texted me he wanted to talk and what I thought was gunna be a break up convo turned into a make up convo ^_^ He came over to my house and told me he wasn't mad at me EVER but...
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