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I Have Let Myself Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 202 People

    I started off strong

    when i told him i wasnt going to let him make me do things without there being something between us first. I kept it up for 1-2 days an then i cracked and did whatever he wanted. I am so angry at myself for getting me into this situation where i am pretty sure he's come bored of...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I Use to Be...

    ...the person who everyone looked up to.  I was self-sufficient, independent, and didn't have a care in the world.  If someone was doing me wrong, I immediately removed that person from my life.  If something wasn't going the way I thought it should, I figured out...
    QueenD QueenD 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2008

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    I have tried suicide 3 times.

    WHY WONT IT Work!!!!???
    lonelyafraid4lifr lonelyafraid4lifr 22-25, F 21 Responses May 27, 2014

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    My 3 year training contract ends in July.

    There is another trainee in the same year as me, but I feel as though he is more liked than me, because he's more of a 'man' than me. Firstly, I am by far more intelligent than him; I went to college and I studied maths, English, physics and geography. I'm a better driver and I...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M Mar 23

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    I just hate myself so

    so much.wish I could beat my dark side soon."There are those who say fate is something beyond our command. That destiny is not our own, but I know better. Our fate lives within us, you only have to be brave enough...
    Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx Iskskskdjjzzjjxjxjx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    once again...as always.

    ...I always set goals for myself that I want to achieve but I always seem to fail and it makes me so disappointed in myself and makes me feel like a loser...I always give up halfway and I don't know why
    SomeGirlS SomeGirlS 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I Have...and I Will Build Myself Up

    I have let myself down I am nothing like I use to be. I was vibrant, sexy, and full of life. I miss that..I decided I am going to work for it back. I want to live life and be happy. I know its going to take allot of hard work, but hey I am up for the challenge. I know that the...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F Apr 11, 2008

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    Stress and despair have gotten a hold of my

    soul. I never read the books I love anymore, I hardly remember to pray, and staying fit has become nothing more than an afterthought. To step back and look at where I have ended up now compared to before is so belittling, because I know I have the potential to be something...
    AcousticArdor22 AcousticArdor22 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2014

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    Actually...

    I let myself go. Physically. It's a long boring story, but that's the gist. I'm finally doing something about it, though. After many, many years of beating myself up and guilt I finally cracked.
    LostRach LostRach 26-30, F Feb 8, 2008

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    I am so sorry about this morning when you needed me to be strong and supportive I wasn't I became argumentative and petty when I should have been there to listen and give you words...
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    In the last month I've put on about 5 pounds without even trying.. I think it's due to going out to eat (usually 1-3 times a week) and snacking (on chips, chocolate, crackers...
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    it's all because of self hate. i hate myself and dont care about me. i message older men online. im the stupid girl that reply's to the pervets. that accepts strangers friend...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F a week ago

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    There's only a few who have never hurt me and who I trust never will and they are...God, Jesus, my angel, and my sister. I love them so so much and I will always be there for each...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Apr 5

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    Im annoyed that I paid £1600 rent to the supported housing for Ill people at Webb house in zetland road .. They do not deserve any money ...because they are taking the puss and...
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     This is my arm. Also have scars elsewhere. Im hoping ,that you whp are cutting, could see yourself as a valuable person and your life worth of trying. Scars you made follow...
    Mindmorfin Mindmorfin 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I know I have a good boyfriend and he is amazing but. I don't know if I can live anymore. I'm always depressed and I don't want him to be around that. I cut my self from my waist...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    so I cut myself all the way from the middle of my torso to my ankle. but now I'm really dissapointed in my self
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I have just tried to post a story about pleasuring myself at work and it was deleted by admin! It was no worse than other stories and comments on this thread! What's the point of...
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    Have you ever met someone who is funny, kind, gentle and soft hearted? Have you realized you've fallen for them, almost completely? I have and now I feel its too late to turn back...
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    It's been Almost 3 years since I started cutting myself I have been clean for a Month already and the Reason I started is cause people said that I deserved the Pain and Suffering...
    LovelessMind LovelessMind 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I have since I was in 6th grade. I was starting to really take in the fact that I was adopted. I didn't understand at the time it was for the best. I've been pushed and pulled in...
    BornBroken BornBroken 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    This is a kinda funny story. When I was taking loads of drugs in this house I shared with my best mate/drug buddy, some strange stuff used to happen.I had a parcel delivered to me...
    chinawhite007 chinawhite007 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I started when I was about 9.. I was diagnosed with major depression and it made me feel like I was a complete waste, and that since I have a problem that I shouldn't be alive...
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    I have lately been throwing up my food , i weight 122.5 and that number just kills me ... I have to stop eating and if i eat i will throw up ..
    iwanttodiesobad1212 iwanttodiesobad1212 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    She's distancing herself and I've seen it before. Why can't I find real love anymore. I refuse to believe that I'm unloveable. Even though depression has made me vulnerable. I...
    rolledawayfromthetree rolledawayfromthetree 18-21, M Apr 5

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    I'm not a robot or a slave. If you don't like me or accept me for who I am then screw you!
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64 13-15, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    When I was 4 yrs. old, closing my grandpas pocket knife, to the bone. Damn that hurt later!!! What nut case does it on purpose? These are weird answers here!
    PaulBeach4 PaulBeach4 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I was clean from cutting for a year and a bit but then last week I went through a really bad fight and I cut again. Not deep at all. But in every day after that I craved cutting...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Last year I carved fat into my thigh.
    KidLeftInTheDark KidLeftInTheDark 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    yeah.....and honestly I'm ashamed...I'm so weak....I can't deal with anything... I ruin everything...I'm just ******* useless. and don't try to tell me I'm not.
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 9

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    I just did again cutting has become so addicting especially when I'm depressed it makes me wanna do it more sorry to disappoint u Alexa
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 16

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    People at school saw my cuts and I'm scared for judge mental people
    torritaco torritaco 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 20

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    The cuts are on my ankle and foot anyone know how to hide them besides pants and socks
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    was in a mental hospital for it and got a therapist (pretty stupid one) i was clean for 2 months, started again 2 days ago
    deaddreamergirl deaddreamergirl 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    Even when I stopped gaining, my trousers feel tight and sometimes they rip when I try to get up after dinner Did I really get so fat that I need to give up on jeans? ;P
    stelarring stelarring 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I only want to cut very rarely when my day has been awful and I just think the physical pain will balance out everything. But I don't do it. But today has been trying. Like idk...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I'm in the hospital again after another suicidal freak out last night. My bf restrained me from overdosing. He knocked on my sisters bedroom door and said he needs help because I'm...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Odd dream this morning It's been a long time and I still dream bout him it's odd I don't want him I'm fed happy and healthier yet my dreams play tricks with me It's almost...
    ophelia379 ophelia379 26-30, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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