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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 122 People

    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 18-21, F Nov 28, 2007

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    plz don't waste my time, cuz I won't waste yours. I have no time for idiots
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 5 days ago

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    that stupid senseless girl in my class ..she brings irritation with every single move of hers...there was time when i loved her for her innocence ...my best friend..but that...
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    Is it OK to spend your life trying to be happy alone because the person you love doesn’t love you back, and the thought of being with anyone else is incomprehensible and...
    Lesath Lesath 18-21, F a week ago

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    Falling down by the birthday massacre, my whole life in one song.
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    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 27

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    Mine is so bad that I've become a semi hoarder. I've been abandoned by 3 out of 4 parents. (My bios when I was a baby and adoptive dad when I was in 6th grade) luckily I got my mom...
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    Loving all of the redhead love! To think I hated my hair for most of my life😍
    stephensonstacey stephensonstacey 26-30 2 Responses Aug 26

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    " when we finally realize that nothing is permanent in this life, we would be more tolerant, more forgiving, and less judgemental"
    redpassion91 redpassion91 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    Yes I have. I have been through a lot in life. I had lost both my parents when I was six. I grew up at my uncles with the siblings that kept picking on me. I worked hard and got a...
    mickeyboy09 mickeyboy09 36-40, M 11 Responses Aug 26

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    3 days ago I moved to Spain to start my bachelors degree. Ive been looking forward to this for so long, I could not wait to get out of my country and start a new and more exciting...
    moretotheeyes moretotheeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    I have the mentality where I keep telling myself that everything is okay, it doesn't hurt too bad, and it will go away soon. I've been pretty sick before to the point where...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    badassgirrrl badassgirrrl 41-45, F 5 Responses Aug 24

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    Voina Voina 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    This is guaranteed to be the dumbest story on here... I have always liked dressing up in my room and pretending I was a girl. I mean why wouldn't I? I have such a girly body. I...
    TurnedOutTrap TurnedOutTrap 18-21, T Aug 22

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    Wealth sought. Dominance sought. Are we conquered by china. And not told. Money for wars Covered by chinese loans. Wealth creating poverty. Why. Facts about sad...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I am feeling totally worthless today. I feel like even the scum that you see floating on top of a pond has more worth than I do. I have been told many times throughout my life by...
    hannahphillips hannahphillips 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    This is really sad.. It's depressing me. I'm turning 21 and not a single girlfriend (lesbian) . I see all the teenage girls out there that have like plenty of girls and a new...
    DifferentbyNature DifferentbyNature 18-21, F Aug 20

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    I'm not a victim of loss of property. but my place of employment is most likely burning. we can't even get to it to see. the winds are going to gust up to 50 mph today with already...
    mattzoidhead mattzoidhead 26-30, M Aug 20

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    I wouldn't say I have a "thing" for red heads, but I've crushed on a few guys with the hair color. the guy I'm sorta seeing now is a red head and I just find his hair *so cute*, it...
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    Since the poor have no reward When wrecked by industry pros. EP Link
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