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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 18-21, F Nov 28, 2007

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    A Life Full Of Fear

    Well for those of you who have read my previous stories i will skip ahead, for those of you who haven't... read it :)... but i'll still summerize. When i was younger from the time i was born till the time i was 11 years old i was living with an abusive father and watching him...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 31, 2011

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    I remember I was asigned to write about my worst fear in sheet of paper. I wrote that my biggest fear was fear itself. Imagine life where you can't do anything because your scared...
    SingingHeaven47 SingingHeaven47 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    I would like to know why almost everyone fears death. I am not suicidal, I have always been this way. I want to understand this fear to help someone who is terrified. I have...
    lonewolf41 lonewolf41 41-45, F 1 Response May 5

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    Hi i never judge any one i believe in live and let live i also believe we are here for a good time not a long time so we should make the most of it, I am very open minded in many...
    007carpetman 007carpetman 51-55, M 3 Responses May 24

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    Congratulations, Unbound05, the award for "most stupid reason to block someone" goes to you! I have a life, dude. I've got school and a bunch of extracurricular activities that I...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I have to live this life that is given to me ,only then I will understand what do i have to live for.If I will quit before my time naturaly death comes Then the some thought will...
    ola2 ola2 41-45, M May 17

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    I have been single for way to long. All my friends are happy with their significant others. I am plus sized and it hurts. We are studying Romeo and Juliet in school and I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 6

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    I wonder if there are any others that can relate to my issue. I have traveled to and lived in other countries over the years. I was stationed in Germany for a couple of years...
    LostDragon LostDragon 56-60, M 1 hr ago

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    I tread waters of insecurity fearing one day everything will come to end, will vanish, just disappear into the silence of night. You know very well you are the air I breathe yet my...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 1 Response May 3

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    There is a reason why I find myself excuses to avoid relationships. Confidence and self-esteem go hand in hand and they are mostly essential for a successful relationship. I...
    Irwenzo Irwenzo 22-25, M May 3

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    Yes, my mad hatter! Nothing makes you swoon more than a special person who totally gets you, and you them. Life is an adventure I plan to explore...
    OSoQuiet OSoQuiet 36-40, F 5 hrs ago

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    People have often left me when I need them most. So I'm really scared that everyone I know is just gonna leave me one day. I hate to be alone. I'm afraid of that too. But I'm...
    KidNova45 KidNova45 18-21, M 1 Response May 6

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    after much deleiberation i finally plucked up the courage to try life modeling. Picked a small place out of town as i am quite unique i didn't want to be reconginsed. Not going to...
    dwarfmodel1 dwarfmodel1 31-35, M 1 Response May 14

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    I'm 16 years old and I have severe eczema that constantly goes and comes. I know there's no cure for it but I need something that will at least make it calm down and not keep...
    idontknow86 idontknow86 16-17, F May 5

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    I'm scared of sports. They give me anxiety and I fear I'm gonna do really bad before doing them. I'm also scared of a lot of people.
    alfalfalouf alfalfalouf 13-15, M May 15

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    The fear of failure, supposed to be a drive or a motivation to commit to something, hoping to achieve or prevent something. But what happens when the drive keeps on going, but the...
    Alphie123 Alphie123 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I do I fear that one day all my friends will just stop talking to me Heck yesterday one of my closest friends who I talk to every day didn't answer me at all and I'm kinda worried...
    chase667 chase667 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    my oldest son has been out of the house n in the Marines roughly 9 months now. I treat his things like a shrine to him. I have 5 other children n I am completely terrified how I am...
    sixtens sixtens 36-40, F 12 hrs ago

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    My parents split up when I was 7 years old. I remember a lot about their divorce; there are things that still make me sad to even think about. I saw my mom cry so many times, her...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    I'm not really dependent on people but you could say that I have close ties with them. The thought has always been on my mind since I was very young, probably around 14 or 15. My...
    Niran3 Niran3 22-25, M 1 Response May 6

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    We had an outbreak of tornados last night in my small town in Oklahoma... We expect them here and especially in May but last night was like a bad movie..... They kept coming for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses May 7

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    Just had a brief meeting, and for demo purposes he had to show me something on his computer. I had to lean in to look. As I was leaning in, I got a whiff of his scent and...
    justbtwnus justbtwnus 31-35, F 8 Responses May 7

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    After living in Kenya for 6 years I am ready to get back to the states for 6 months of R n R.
    Gasaholic4u Gasaholic4u 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I'm Doctor Micheal Ibadin,I am the representative doctor of University of Benin Teaching Hospital(UBTH),I have been given the opportunity by the hospital management to advertise on...
    Rexkelvin Rexkelvin 51-55, M 2 hrs ago

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    It's so socially crippling that all of the relationships I form now are intentionally shallow. Temporary. Human shaped Band-aids for the gaping holes left by parents, siblings...
    Godlevel Godlevel 16-17 23 hrs ago

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    Sometimes in your life you will encounter or meet who is really nice and a good talker just to get your trust.. But in the end you will find out that she/he is only using you.. Now...
    Princess1028 Princess1028 36-40, F May 18

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      Malcolm X Gandhi Steve Jobs I look up to people like that Martin used the media to his advantage... To help fight for civil rights Gandhi was able to influence a nation...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F 3 Responses May 19

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    I truly cried and a little bit of me died when Paul Walker passed away. He impacted tuners around the world and my generation has lost its most Influential person.
    Solenylon Solenylon 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    I would never take back one thing I did and am proud of where I am in life. Not only that, but my voice is beginning to reach out to people on here and I got a few followers, which...
    seikofontay seikofontay 18-21, M May 10

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    Being a very open and opinionated member of the LGTBQ community. I am often rejected for my views. I also am a quiet person when it comes to most other things. It's hard for me...
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 1 Response May 14

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    I have a special person in my life that I actually met here on EP. After countless conversations we then had an amazing getaway together. I very much enjoyed our time together and...
    hadyourchance hadyourchance 36-40, F 1 Response May 22

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    I have a lot of special people in my life,but there's that real someone special someone of16 years of marriage, i have loved even a couple of year before our I does, there was good...
    68bear 68bear 46-50, M May 24

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    the best 3 minutes and 30 seconds of my life occurs when I hear Derek Sanders sing call me hopeless not romantic.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have found this with you and I want to thank you for the feeling you give me and I will work at us every single day for the rest of my life to make us happy and to make us work I...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 36-40, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Kodaline ( artist ) "One Day" ( song ) "In a perfect world" ( album ) This sums up my life....
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 6 days ago

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