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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 18-21, F Nov 28, 2007

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    My name is Holly and I'm 30 years old. For the first time I'm getting an apartment for myself and a job. Have not had a job in 5 years. I really want this badly! My fear is that my...
    Sweetaspie29 Sweetaspie29 26-30, F 18 hrs ago

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    I swear I wrote this Amazing post that Was HERE... Where did it Go?? *Regardless: It's True... I Will Settle For Nothing Less Than Amazing For My Life. =) ***And now I feel...
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    For me it feels like they come to life from a fantasy book. I find them so beautiful and I wish I get to least kiss a redhead , I've never had anything with one.
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    that Hawkfrost is gonna turn me into a kit and kill me. idk why i have this fear but i do.
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    He was never interested but when I've grown up then all of the sudden he wants to be a good daddy and acts like he always cared. Sure people might change their mind but If you can...
    FrostyElsie FrostyElsie 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    well it has actually been six days... it all started on friday evening when i decided to have a couple drinks...a couple drinks led to shots...a couple shots led to me swaggering...
    igotthesunshiningoutmyass igotthesunshiningoutmyass 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I adore redheaded women. I love the color of their skin. they're so beautiful. I love the fact that they can switch from red to blonde and have it look so natural...but natural red...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    I'm actually in a relationship with someone who is appears to be fearful of physical intimacy. Although he really won't acknowledge it. I feel like he loves and cares about me...
    marengo10 marengo10 46-50, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am new to this site and only started it to help other people with me and my wife's story but what I see on here is disturbing. The fact that people are using being gay to cheat...
    johnishappy johnishappy 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I haven't had a legitimate relationship in 2 years. I've tried dating websites, but there is never a mutual feeling. I pray about finding someone, but I'm truly afraid it will...
    ambiblue ambiblue 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    isnt it a normal test for everyone? I didnt suspect I had it but it was done along with other normall testing -heps etc. I think all people should have it as part of a med work...
    blonde10 blonde10 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Seeking motivated self starter for once in a lifetime opportunity. Responsibilities include the single task of rolling a cold can of beer across my sunburned neck and shoulders...
    rpf1988 rpf1988 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    Hey I'm single looking for a girl or transgender
    Chaospi2 Chaospi2 16-17, M a week ago

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    I learned something very valuable today. Never leave my cell phone on silent. My son has hidden it somewhere, and I've been searching for about two hours. Still can't find it.
    PraiseBeToYevon PraiseBeToYevon 31-35, F 14 Responses Jun 26

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    I don't know why but I'm always the last choice or completely ignored. Me: "Yeah you can come to my house when it's midnight. No problem. I'll make sure you're happy before I...
    Lcy2472 Lcy2472 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I have only had online relationships, but I want a real one. Someone I can hold, kiss, love fully and deeply. Cause I want to know real love outside my family...
    personalldemon personalldemon 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    I was rejected by my peers as a little girl at the age of 4-10 for being happy and then at the ages of 11-14 for being depressed and a bisexual, but they only focused on me liking...
    personalldemon personalldemon 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I am so frustrated with myself I need someone and I don't know why. I'm a happy person and I have plenty of friends but there's a part of me that feels empty. A part of me that...
    bemmie bemmie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    OK. So no bitterness here, but I was a punk rocker when I was a teen, and actually got kicked out of a church for having blue hair and black clothing. Lol!
    twistedAndJaded twistedAndJaded 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 24

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    If you ever feel like you're pathetic just know that one year on Valentine's Day I went and bought myself a giant stuffed teddy bear because I was alone and the checkout lady asked...
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 24

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    I'm in an environment where being LGBT,which I am,is 'wrong and immoral'. I'm constantly being yelled at and attacked for my sexuality and it's hard.
    JustKindaThere JustKindaThere 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 24

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    My parents rejected me for having a baby with a man from a different race. Its been 6 years since I spoke to them..
    Teegar Teegar 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    My grandparents reject me sometimes. They don't like my opinions. And my grandpa thinks I am exaggerating with my phobia and that I just act crazy and am stupid and stuff. ...like...
    MutedVoice MutedVoice 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    You hate the fact that I'm brutally honest and I actually care enough to be honest to you? Oh well, I'm not gonna apologize for it. You can just walk away like the rest of them
    SxuccessfuI SxuccessfuI 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    Ppl say I'm weird, dumb and retracted in school it sucks I have barley any friends and I'm picked on at gym bc I can't do a pull up
    batmanPattyp batmanPattyp 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I want a love for more than a lifetime. I want a love that stretches across time and never stops.
    TheGirlYouNeverKnew TheGirlYouNeverKnew 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Seems to be an ongoing thin even from people who say they are open minded. So much for integrity. But I wont change me. Ill be the same. One day I may not be rejected for me being...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 23

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    I think fears can be divided into different groups. I divide them to "stupid" fears and then the other group is of the fears that really stop us from wanting to face reality. (Just...
    Zelmi5 Zelmi5 18-21, F Jun 22

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    I find life to be quite intriguing. I am grateful and thankful for everyone in mine and will forever cherish the memories I have had with them when they no longer in it. Signed...
    Kcentra Kcentra 18-21, F Jun 20

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    Okay so I spend a lot of my time in my room Being creative and improving on my self just doing my thing Yet at home I get so much hate... Specially by my pathetic pregnant aunt...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    You complain to me, accusing me of trolling, maybe you're feeling too haughty You accuse me of hanging with trolls, pedos & the crazes... Maybe I have a thing for the...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F Jun 20

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    I think ep should make it where people can see your status when they message you. that would save a lot of irritation for those of us who use it to keep certain types away.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Jun 17

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    My Haters exist because they love me Kissing my back, because it's me that they envy Grab a hold of something because they're drowning in jealousy Trash talking my words like its...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F Jun 17

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    i used to have this friend i found via steam the gaming software and when the time passed he was sh!t head towards me so what i did i cut connections with him and never talked to...
    ThePsychoMantis ThePsychoMantis 13-15, M Jun 16

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