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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Aug 15

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F Nov 28, 2007

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    A Life Full Of Fear

    Well for those of you who have read my previous stories i will skip ahead, for those of you who haven't... read it :)... but i'll still summerize. When i was younger from the time i was born till the time i was 11 years old i was living with an abusive father and watching him...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 31, 2011

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    When I was a child I was a slave and was constantly being threatened with a gun my father had if I didn't do something right. He would actually point it at me and it was so scary...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Can't live to my age and not have a few "Phew. That was close!" Moments.!!
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    This actually still scares me when I think about it so maybe it's good to get it out. Two of my closest female friends knew this guy. I never really knew much about him besides...
    Bewail Bewail 22-25, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Where I work a manager would threaten to kill me charge me for burial say family not miss me he transferred I waited a year I told company they not do anything because of time I...
    dontbhere dontbhere 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I like to think of myself as a person that's not afraid of anything. And physically that is true, I'm always up for a challenge. I have no phobias. Snakes would be the closest, but...
    nipplelover43 nipplelover43 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 7

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    18 years ago, I left everything; work, family, friends, home, and moved accross the world to be with the man I thought was the one. From the very begining things were not right...
    AlmaV AlmaV 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I have been single for two years and I'm tired of being single!!!!!!
    theonenibodylikes theonenibodylikes 13-15, M Aug 24

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    I find them... Hmm.. Manly and sexy. I don't know I suppose it is just me but then I have a thing for that. Lol
    Artz4Life Artz4Life 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have a weakness for mature, classy, sexy women.
    ughargh1 ughargh1 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    I want to control my fear not let it control me. My anxiety level is spiking through the roof especially with school starting in a few days. Local school Thirty minutes away and...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 31

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    I have lots of fears, I'm scared of airplanes I think that I will die in air plain accident, or survive and live in jungles all my life without seeing people (this one is worse...
    nataliawww nataliawww 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 31

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    If you are feeling jealous - or someone close to you is - Don't feel ashamed (if you are the jealous person), or try to make them feel ashamed. Two reasons: 1) Feelings walk in...
    SmartKat SmartKat 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    This has been a recent development. I am really not sure if it's right for me to fear this but this is causing unwanted stress in my life. It started last year in December. I had...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    So I joined the military and got stationed in Texas. I'm originally from New Jersey. One fear that I didn't know I had until I got here was the fear of being alone. Feeling alone...
    cyrusthevirus74 cyrusthevirus74 18-21, M Aug 26

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    Fears, Fears, Fears #1. Thunderstorms. I dislike thunderstorms with a passion. I'm afraid of them. The lightning doesn't scare me as much as the thunder does. I dislike the noise...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Not specifically mine more like my possible future children I fear that they will live in a war zone and won't know true happiness I fear that our world is so damn corrupt that no...
    snazzygal3000 snazzygal3000 13-15, F Aug 25

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    I just wanted to live one day without fear and that'll be enough... - Pills - Booze - Oblivion (Trying to get into a fight, hopefully someone will knock me out cold) - Cars (I'll...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Sep 2

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    Right though I mean just for this teen part of my life I don't regret how I spend my sad little days -,-
    BabyDuchanne BabyDuchanne 16-17, F Sep 6

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    I'm not trying to find a perfect man yet somehow the thought of being close to any- in reality- freaks me out. I have over the years developed this terrible pattern where somehow...
    lonelygirl10 lonelygirl10 18-21, F Aug 25

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    Fears: greatest to least Being completely isolated from human contact with no hope of reconnecting, (different planet, last person on Earth) Being in excruciating pain while still...
    CJCA CJCA 18-21, M Aug 26

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    freddy Krueger is my worst fear, even just reading the words to his song makes me feel a bit nervous.
    AlternateReality AlternateReality 16-17, F Sep 3

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    My biggest fear is becoming like my parents. My dad is a dead beat who still lives with his mom. And my mom works everyday until she's absolutely exhausted and takes her anger out...
    lilbum97 lilbum97 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 10

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    My biggest fear is having to tell my mom that i have depression and that i cut annd self harm and have thoughts of suicide.
    battlescars2012 battlescars2012 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    I believe we go through horrendous & ecstatic periods for a reason.
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    To be honest I have always been a good girl. Good grades, a good person, always trying to do what I thought was right. But then I met him. Not exactly in the way most people meet...
    rachel13124 rachel13124 16-17, F Aug 26

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    I'm afraid that my over protective nature for my son will hold him back or cause to runaway from me :-/ I don't know what to do
    MrsGigalowJr MrsGigalowJr 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 27

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    Life have taught me so much, I grew stronger and tougher mostly now I can see people for who they really are
    leostrong leostrong 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    So if you want to talk about anything or everything, I'm around unless if I'm sleeping and at school. I'll reply asap anyway so don't hesitate to message me! I really, honestly don...
    jayyward jayyward 16-17, M Sep 11

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    I've been reading the threads on "the other woman" all day, and all I can feel is disgust and contempt. You play the victim card like nothing else. "Oh, it just happened," "It...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Has anyone noticed how much of a difference looking at the world a different way makes; it's almost like living in someone else's life. Bad stuff still happens, no denying that...
    notafraid777 notafraid777 16-17, M Aug 25

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    im studying to become a profession, yet when i watch shows like No Reservations with Anthony Bourdain, i think about it all as... whats the point? I mean , in order to become a...
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 22-25, M Aug 29

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    Infinite Passion Real Beauty True Solace Internal Youth Timeless Wisdom Ultimate Life Purposes Ah as life it is full with curiosity, thus i have my own infinite curiosity...
    NonchalantEros NonchalantEros 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    i am lonely person. some times i need to have a true love in my life whom i can share my feelings and emotions. hoping to meet some one special,friendly and loving as a life...
    lovingman1966 lovingman1966 46-50, M a week ago

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    Sometimes life throws you mAny curveballs where it feels like you are spinning out of control! That very thing that you thought you could control you realize that you are powerless...
    bubblysunshine bubblysunshine 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    I have a lot of food friends i have my old ex and amazing friends and teachers. I also have alot of joy and happiness to live up for but im not trying to be rude but alot of people...
    MichaelEgitto MichaelEgitto 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 28

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    There's this guy that I met in 7th grade, and soon after we quickly became best friends. Then on valentines day that year he told me that he liked me. I didn't know how to respond...
    Littlemonkey2 Littlemonkey2 16-17, F Aug 29

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    Celebrating a dear friends birthday tonight with a group of close friends...can't wait! Friends are hard to come by these days and when you key someone into your life and heart...
    beth70 beth70 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    Goodbye everyone ... I'm feeling great to know new good people in your life share with them your experiences,help you,give you advices...I'm so glad ...thanks for everyone who I...
    simplyking simplyking 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    It happens quite often, I can always get girls to like me. That is no problem. The problem is when we get intimate. As soon as they find out about my 13 inches they run the other...
    davesays davesays 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 1

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    My life is finally looking up after five years, I'm getting a girlfriend and get to get involved with the youth again. It's going to be great after all this time to be genuinely...
    geary97 geary97 16-17, M Sep 1