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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 18-21, F Nov 28, 2007

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Aug 15, 2014

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    I had a moment of despairing. I saw that the conditions I would be living in would be... as I put it a few hours ago, "Oh god...it's bad...This is really bad..." There may or may...
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    i will help you with your fear................................
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    The odds of me being born is incredibly slim, not only that but I am classified in society as "normal" along with this I also went through life's struggles and realized... I'm a...
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    Wealthy bought. Wealthy run. But no reward for workers. No concern for workers broken. Collect pay back from workers But dont support their health Or help government...
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    I fear losing all the good I have left in me. Things happen to me that hurts me so bad it turns into anger and resentment and I fear it will make me turn into someone I'm not
    ladycherie97 ladycherie97 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I know my purpose is to write my story, to express how I survived the hell I survived, to help motivate people, I know I am meant b to write books, and speak on TED about the power...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    "G'day mate.Thats a bonza barbie.Could do with more snags on it though.MIND THE COCKATOOS! They stole my cozzie the other day,brand new,I was looking forward to swimming in it.Oh...
    hazelflower12 hazelflower12 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Oh man have I ****** up. I haven't got my results yet but I know I've failed my exams. Which means that I'm not getting into my college course. Which means I need to get a job...
    GrimMindControl GrimMindControl 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hair Highlighting Gone Wrong... Patience Threads On Thin Ice In Hell... I am constantly changing like the Four seasons in a still life. I decided to highlight My hair today, out...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    We got led the wrong way. The mitneys and the gates. And the oprahs. Luxury not unity. Hoarders get bashed For being unhealthy. But the wealthy can hoard. And buy...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    I have no idea where this came from, no one else in my family has it. Not that I ever talked about it, but my parents, grandparents, and my parents' siblings all had children young...
    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm afraid that I'm going to commit to the wrong person and be unhappy. I don't want to marry the wrong man. Although I know throughout life he and I will change, I just hope he is...
    VanitySux VanitySux 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I've posed for pictures with Iv'ry Soap, I've petted stray dogs, and shied clear of dope (I've petted stray dogs, and I never mope)* My smile is brilliant, my glance is tender But...
    thehippy thehippy 41-45, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    The other day my mother rearranged me to see a friend I haven't seen since preschool and that was quite a long time ago. So I'm okay with it, sorta stressing, constantly asking my...
    MARAVELOUS MARAVELOUS 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    Right, so, on Friday it came about that I had misfortune of meeting a numerous amount of trolls, this will happen, especially now. Troll Culture is part of the generation it seems...
    Gangstress Gangstress 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    Fox news Protecting wealth. Bashing wisdom for pay. Stupid bully oreily. http://youtu.be/EO4Ko-v-q0g
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jul 26

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    I guess you can call it as a Blood Phobia. For some reason, my body starts to go into a panic attack, I feel queezy and start to get light headed and I pass out. It doesn't ALWAYS...
    EvoKinevil EvoKinevil 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 26

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    I have many, many fears. The sound of a bug moving under paper in my room made me feel the need to list them. That starts the first fear. Bugs. Spiders. falling. Flying. Death...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Jul 26

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    I always try appreciate everything. Even for my bad luck, mistake. Im stronger because of what ive been through, im kind because of my loneliness, im smarter because of what ive...
    Natureismagic Natureismagic 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I was born with Cerebral Palsy. Cerebral palsy (CP) is a disorder that affects muscle tone, movement, and motor skills (the ability to move in a coordinated and purposeful way). I...
    claythechamp claythechamp 18-21, M Jul 23

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    I fear I'll wake up and everything will have been a dream and everyone I care about will be gone. And I'll be alone.
    Simone423 Simone423 13-15 Jul 23

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    Almost hourly me fears the future. EP Link
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    If most people walked just a mile in my shoes they would end up completely insane to have to fight and claw just to survive to have absolutely nothing and have no choice but to...
    CandiceAllcoxx CandiceAllcoxx 26-30, T 1 Response Jul 23

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    My big heart gets me in the worst situations! Sometimes I think that when people see my heart they try to find stability, comfort,peace, love and control as well as acceptance in...
    XxLionHeartxX XxLionHeartxX 18-21 1 Response Jul 23

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    Rough estimates. One of six disabled. One of six incarcerated. Two of six retired. Leaving two of six employed. Or are they. Jobs are hard to land. Degrees or...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jul 22

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    At a library. Reading fiction. Of drow. And noticing ruling wealthy Identical to drow. Conquer for profit. But what of the broken And the incarcerated And the...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jul 22

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    True love never dies or fades and lasts longer than the relationship itself most times.
    amymayoral01 amymayoral01 51-55, F Jul 22

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    Oil companies. Or gas. Drill. Then fill holes. And oklahoma shakes. But passes law. Oil companies can do as they please. Wtf. What. The Fok. Why. How many...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jul 22

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    The wealthy led us wrong Caring cant be taught. But the wealthy say dont. They say save for luxury. And profit off of us trying. America and others hurt But...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I woke up this morning hearing the presenter discuss the Ashley Madison hacking and there was a phone interview with a 40 year old woman with kids who is signed up to a similar...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 21

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    chriscc11 chriscc11 26-30, F Jul 21

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    Hi im flying from omaha to atlanta and then orlando on wednesday and im scared of flying. Always have a panic on the plane and i breath shallow and i cant focus or drink and eat...
    Shawntel14 Shawntel14 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    So long! So much is new So much has become old I have a new little joy rocking in a tiny swing next to me. His journey to the world was not without it's trouble, but here he is...
    LookAwayLookAway LookAwayLookAway 31-35, F Jul 19

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    I have a deep feel of regret in my stomach, something you've caused. I let my guard down, let you in, begin to really like you and now you're having second thoughts. Why does this...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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