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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    A Life Full Of Fear

    Well for those of you who have read my previous stories i will skip ahead, for those of you who haven't... read it :)... but i'll still summerize. When i was younger from the time i was born till the time i was 11 years old i was living with an abusive father and watching him...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 31, 2011

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F Nov 28, 2007

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    Mom is protective, she tell me everything

    that could go wrong, I live in fear , I do everything carefully, exhausting, feeling so negative Dad yells at me, his way of telling want he wants, I lived to please him, still feeling not enough, not good enough. He wants me to listen , he doesn't hear me. I didn't know when I...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    sometimes i wonder, would there be a time in my life when i'll smile with a purpose, cry with joy or will i forever remain in the shadows of my own fears? Silence has become my...
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    NOT ALL FEAR IS BAD When we attain enlightenment we will have an end to suffering. In the meantime we are going to experience fear. Fear is our mind’s way of compelling us to get...
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    I fear, failing as in the past I have failed courses that I have repeated and been told it's not suited for me, I fear planning a long term goal cause I know my fear is going to...
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    Is that a common fear?? I have a missive fear that people hear my thoughts. . . It scares me sometimes but then i remember that it's impossible. Right? 0_o
    Anika1258 Anika1258 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I have a lot of fear. One fear I'm coping with is going outside. I don't like entering the real world. Guys are crazy now. You can say no they don't take no for a reason. Once...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    I feel like if you have to "put someone in their place" by telling them they'd never make it a day in your shoes, then you are weaker than you think. A truly strong person wants to...
    dreamingoptimist dreamingoptimist 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Centipedes, most bugs, burglars, and abandonment. I've had an experience with all, soo.. I guess it is sort of justified.
    Lekoml Lekoml 13-15, M Feb 18

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    It's not so much messed it up as lost life. I fear I am too dead inside and will need counseling later maybe. I'm dead and trying to live.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have a bad fear of people walking behind me at night.. Especially if they run. I had a really bad experience.. ;/ I hate how it gets dark really early now so it's dark longer...
    AlexisOwO AlexisOwO 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I fear that all good things come to an end and I am destined for misery.
    twistedAndJaded twistedAndJaded 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    Reality of Fear You're not afraid of the dark: You're afraid of what's in it You're not afraid of heights: You're afraid of falling You're not afraid of people around you: You're...
    BrokenCorpse BrokenCorpse 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Do you ever feel like your trapped? Like you can't get out of something with out hurting someone else? Or you love someone and they don't love you back and you can't let them go...
    SexyAngelBitches SexyAngelBitches 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I would like to announce my weirdest and biggest fear but I know everyone will laugh. :(
    MaxwellMoonHoof MaxwellMoonHoof 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    I have been through thing that most should never have to go through. I can't move forward, because I can't stop looking back...
    Harper101 Harper101 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    There was this dream, on one island, where i was alone. Lucid vol.1. For many years I had only 1 true friend. He is amazing. He is my soulmate. We know each other for many years...
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    city87 city87 26-30, M Feb 10

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    I've been single for about 13 years. I've had a fear of rejection since I was young. Getting told "I'd rather just be friends" by every girl I liked when I was younger. Than when...
    Benny412 Benny412 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    I do have this issue.. I always like I want to fall in love but when the chance that it may happen suddenly hit me and I hold back and run away. I still don't have the courage.
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I'm afraid to get close to someone..everytime I did I got hurt. I can't love someone untill I'm completely sure he loves me back. I'm tired of putting all the efforts in a...
    GianniV GianniV 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    blaze4dazee blaze4dazee 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    The Effects of HarrassmnetThe effects of harassment can often drive the victim to feel thoughts of depression, low self confidence, and little self-esteem. Apart from being...
    Jenimichel Jenimichel 41-45, F Feb 13

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    most of the stuff we worry about never happens
    trashspice trashspice 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Afterthought: Every soul is whole, no matter how wounded the human being. No matter how low one has gone in life, there is wisdom and strength within, that will get him to the...
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    Things I learned from life and from reading 1) Life is more simple then you think it is 2) always try to see the good in people this will make your life easier 3) Never let go...
    ZeroShift ZeroShift 18-21, M Feb 8

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    So in July I'm walking down the street in 90 degree weather which felt more like 190. My head was pounding because I had a banana and a protein shake in the morning but didn't eat...
    Modiwolfshit Modiwolfshit 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    I have had enough of feeling like there is a 1ft thick steel ceiling over my head. I want to break free and flourish in my life.
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    Hi ALL I need Life partner My skype Is talha.armani add me I need senceir and loving life partner
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    Hi ALl I need Life partner My skype Is talha.armani add me I need senceir and loving life partner
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    im 18 an ive always wanted my life partner to come sweep me off my feet but who am i kidding, dont think that will ever happen
    asianna1418 asianna1418 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    Looking, but wondering if it exists. I am jaded to the point where I hate reading fairy tales to my youngest. Why perpetuate this myth of lifetime love when I don't believe?
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    I am horribly depressed, but I try to keep my head high. I try to make sure those around me are happy so that can give me a little feeling of hope that I am not unwanted. I...
    OutOfTheOrdinary OutOfTheOrdinary 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7

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