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I Have Lived In Fear For Most of My Life

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    BEING Hated and Indirect Blame of Somebody Elses Crime.

    BECAUSE i WAS A VICTIM OF RAPE BY MORE THAN 1 MEMBER OF MY FAMILY, i WAS DESPISED AND HATED AND MADE TO FEEL LIKE SCUM FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THAT WAS NOT OF MY DOIMG I WAS FORCED AND RAPED. mY MOTHER DID NOT CONTACT THE POLICE, INSTEAD SHE TOLD ALL MY RELATIVES WHO WENT...
    MPA123 MPA123 51-55 Sep 1, 2008

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    Yeah I Have....

    I spend a lot of my time in fear. But not for me. My moms a b!tch. And she loves to throw her authority around me. She says I'm the special child, to stupid to figure anything out. I may be young, but I'm not stupid. I may not be book smart, but I'm street smart. I can take care...
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf 18-21, F May 25, 2013

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    A Life Full Of Fear

    Well for those of you who have read my previous stories i will skip ahead, for those of you who haven't... read it :)... but i'll still summerize. When i was younger from the time i was born till the time i was 11 years old i was living with an abusive father and watching him...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 31, 2011

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    Constant Vigilance

    He stole my innocence. So I put him in prison. He molested me for the better part of a year. My sister too. I finally found the strength to tell my mom. I'm so glad that she is as strong as she is. She put him away. Soon after we got a guard dog. But everyday I look over my...
    ThatPrincessCharm ThatPrincessCharm 18-21, F Sep 3, 2013

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    Safe Now... It Still Feels Odd

    I am 34 years old.  The first 32 years of my life I was squashed beneath my father's thumb.  He beat me down, both physically and emotionally until I couldn't even think of rebelling.  I knew that if I ever put a toe out of line I was up for a beating...if I was lucky.Far...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Fear...

    ...was the thing that kept me away from everything else for most of my life. Now, after my therapy I am starting to live like a normal person. People who know me do not know about my problem. They think I am a normal girl just like everybody else who goes to work everyday and...
    MarMar1487 MarMar1487 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Motivated By Fear

    I had a discussion with my boyfriend about Super Mario Galaxy. I always tend to be highly stressed when I'm playing and he wanted to know why. I told him that I was motivated by fear of losing, whereas he was motivated by winning. We have decided that if I want to play that he...
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F Nov 28, 2007

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    It is a strong fear. Too many times I hear it, I have lived it my self. Being in a violent relationship with someone who really does not care about "you" robs so much from you...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    So I literally shake, no no no, I freaking convulse when I have to speak I front of a crowd it's.......actually most likely pretty funny to watch. By any means I have panic attacks...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    First.. Think about where you were born,, the family you were born into, the circumstances that surrounded you when you were young,, and all the expiriences and moments you have...
    Josue26 Josue26 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I am afraid to eat today. I havnt had one of these days in a while. In all honesty I believed that once I was with my boyfriend this illogical fear would die off. That his magic...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I have a fear of heights, sharks, scorpions and snakes. I probably have more, but I can't remember them at the moment.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M Jul 15

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    Have A Fear Of Drowning .....................
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I have this fear of chainsaws. But nah, thats just common sense.
    supersofie supersofie 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Log Off! God. I feel sick. It's like the world is no longer important to people... life is no longer being experienced the way it should be. It's pretty sad going to a concert and...
    aviodthisnoid aviodthisnoid 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have totally messed up my life. I am going no where in life besides mental hospitals for the last three and a half years. I'm never going back to one again..willingly that is. I...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I have had eczma all my life and lately it is so bad that I don't go out in public because I don't want people to look at me, the only thing that clears it away is prednisone which...
    nikita80501 nikita80501 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    What would happen if I did a p-shift with my lip piercings in? I know if I take them out they'll heal up as soon as I shift like most minor wounds do, so I wanted to see what you...
    theblessingofinsanity theblessingofinsanity 13-15, T 1 day ago

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    I have been married for 5 years but we've been together for 17. There was a significant age difference between us (she was older). Long story short, over time, I got extremely...
    vladi7 vladi7 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Honestly, I have no patience for haters of God and I can admit that even though I think it's so wrong to betray your creator, I have to have patience for it because I want to be a...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I may have a thing for older guys but it doesn't mean you have to send me pictures of your private areas. I am capable of going through a conversation without it. I don't know why...
    chandy2014 chandy2014 18-21, F Jul 2

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    My first crush was on a girl in junior school with red hair. Oh my god I have loved her forever! I will never get over her. I just adored her hair, her face, her body, everything...
    Prettyjennifer2004 Prettyjennifer2004 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    I have a weakness for redheads and it's not true thy have souls
    kushboy303 kushboy303 18-21, M Jul 4

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    I started bleeding about 2 weeks after my last period and I figured that it was because I had stopped taking the pill for a few days. I've been taking the pill daily, but haven't...
    WiredCritter WiredCritter 22-25 4 days ago

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    It's only come on in the last couple of years. Before then, I was always a little anxious, but once it was fully airborne, I could relax. But now it's an actual fear.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 10 hrs ago

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    I need to make a confession.....when I was little, I loved the water, I was always trying to get in as much as could, until the day. The day I was hit with a massive wave that...
    TheShutout TheShutout 16-17, M Jul 11

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    I just decided I don't like life. I'm gonna give myself four more months to make things go my way. If things don't then it's bye bye world .
    prankqueen prankqueen 13-15, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    My husbands affair last year has been the worst thing ever to happen to me. Even the loss of my dear lovely mum couldn't compare to his affair. You see he was the perfect husband...
    Mylifesover Mylifesover 46-50 3 Responses Jul 5

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    Deprivation. At&t and verizon dont got big plans. Videos need big plans. No unlimited data plans means what. No videos. No learning from them. No comfort from them...
    converted converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 5

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    I have a few fears like everyone but this is for my irrational fear. It's irrational for I don't know where my fear comes from our why I fear it. I fear ladders. I don't fear...
    fallenzero fallenzero 22-25, M Jul 14

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    I have very few fears, but the ones i do have are paralyzing. Open water, arachnids, large canines make my nerves go crazy. But to be fair, each fear was branded on me by an...
    xxxCL4Yxxx xxxCL4Yxxx 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    Well, I'm not exactly 18 yet, but I will be this coming November. I'm surprised at how little I've actually done with my life so far. It makes me sad to the point where I could...
    Mindnever Mindnever 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    My main fears are clowns and then the basic being cheated on/being alone fears. But anyone here scared of clowns?
    labyrinthandinfinity labyrinthandinfinity 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I have alot of irrational fears. I am scared of maggots, mirrors in front of dark stairways, and slugs. Those are just some of my fears. I don't ever think I'll get over them.
    PrincessAbigail89 PrincessAbigail89 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Theres nothing to fear but fear itself
    boobsandbellylover boobsandbellylover 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    I fear loosing the one person I love. And well let's just say that person is walking away from me now
    Lilbit69 Lilbit69 16-17, F Jul 2

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    I was born in Paris, France, only daughter to a Franco-Spanish father, and an Irish mother.We lived in Paris for my first two years, then with my grandmothers illness we moved to...
    Paca24 Paca24 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    All my life it has been lonesome, i never had anyone come to my birthday parties. I have never had a real girl friend because they would ask me out and of course like the fool i...
    SonofAodha SonofAodha 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 6

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    For the big shots that think they know anything for sure...I hope you find balance in your life! All around us are lies and deception for the true observers to see! The media...
    Shewolfiie69 Shewolfiie69 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I am a chameleon in terms of life status. When I get bored with who I am and what I'm doing, I switch it up for the sweet taste of variety!
    leavemealonepaul leavemealonepaul 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I am extremely afraid of spiders, and a few months back we got new neighbors who kept them as pets of course we just had to invite them over for dinner one night. Then the next day...
    ciciyoshi ciciyoshi 13-15, F Jul 15

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    I'm going to fort worth on Thursday
    bandchicklover bandchicklover 13-15, F Jun 29

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    every feel the world is crashin down on you? i literally do... i gotta go talk to a landlord and see if i can stay at my place if not im **** outta luck i cant afford anything else...
    katieg3 katieg3 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 30

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    I don't know why but when ever I'm in the dark alone or just going bed I keep picturing a 7ft black figure with glowing eyes, I have it stuck in my head. This keeps me from...
    Bearhugs123 Bearhugs123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Not to be rejected but to be forgotten.
    Spookitty Spookitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I was molested and raped by my step grandfather when I was 5 years old to 7 years old. I live with PTSD and have horrible dreams and flashbacks. He never got what he deserved...
    ngutman22 ngutman22 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    This can not be happening to me again. I can't go through losing him again. My haven't talked to him all day and I know there's never a day where we don't talk unless something is...