I Have Lost a Child

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 192 People

    Illness And Guns

    i lost a daughter to cancer, ewing sarcoma at age 14 and a son was murdered at age 16 by a15 year old punk I MISS THEM
    seadragon59 seadragon59
    51-55, M
    9 Responses Jun 5, 2011

    I lost 3 of my kids it's going on 5 years

    and there death still hunts me I dream about it every night i sleep idk how to move on
    demonchild616 demonchild616
    26-30, F
    Nov 30, 2014

    It Was a Stand Still In My Life

    I was in college, my last year. I had been dating a girl for 8 months. Because of our carelessness she got pregnant. She was in her first year, headed for a masters. It was a quite moment when we received confirmation. We were not in love. We had deep feelings for each other but...
    ntbadjstlst ntbadjstlst
    31-35, M
    17 Responses Dec 7, 2008

    Will I Ever Find Closure... My Darling Cherane

    It was 12 February 2011, we were at a Pamper Party for my nephew's "wife to be". Mothers and daughters enjoyed much laughter that day. i still remember how she looked, my sweet daughter, Cherane then 27, and i commented on this before we left. ..she said she had to look her...
    mydelight mydelight
    51-55
    Jan 9, 2013

    Farewell Mahlon- My eldest child left this

    world on his own terms in 2007 a few months before her 13th birthday. For the first 10 years of her life I had not been involved much at all, because the maternal grandmother who didn't like that her black daughter was romantically involved with a white man of foreign heritage...
    HellenicinHouston HellenicinHouston
    41-45, M
    1 Response Mar 5

    Lessons For Mommy.

    When my daughter was diagnosed with AML at the age of 1, I was scared, angry, and every other emotion you could imagine. I had no sense of happiness, it was being taken away from me. Her father left us after the diagnoses because "He couldn't handle it" so I was left to deal...
    FightingDawn FightingDawn
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

    Christmas Approaching

    I was hoping I could get some advice from mothers who have lost a child. With Christmas approaching, I'm even more unsure of how to handle many things. Everything is a question in my mind but my question today is how other families have handled family ornaments for the Christmas...
    gidget1237 gidget1237
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

    Craig William

    It's been almost 19 years ago my handsome baby boy passes away,here is he's story......It was the begaining of April 1993 I found out I was preganant I just turned 20 very young very nervous but very excited.On December 12,1993 I gave birth to a healthy bouncing baby boy.Weighing...
    tamtamlynn tamtamlynn
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2012

    Haunting Thoughts

    I try to always remember them both happy ,there laughter anduunending energy. But sometimes I can't help but think about how they died. The crooner swears they didn't suffer. But how can that be true? The boat capsized,caught in a horrific unpredicted storm. Did they know they...
    Tatteredpages Tatteredpages
    36-40, F
    Oct 19, 2013

    I never knew what it felt like

    til I lost my precious baby almost a year ago. It still hurts me today. Time doesn't heal all. A parent should NEVER have to bury a child. I find that I blame myself for losing her. Because timing was not right. But I knew I would make the best of it. 'Cause that's what we all...
    Photogirl685 Photogirl685
    31-35, F
    Aug 30, 2015

    So posted a few days ago

    but need to release the rest. The longer the pain stays inside the worse it gets. Brooklyn was killed by my ex her father. He was mad at me and took it out on my girls, not just Brooklyn. She was the youngest so she was the easiest to target. Brooklyn was beaten with a branch...
    kaseyclue kaseyclue
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2015

    Never-Ending

    The pain of losing a child is never-ending. Whoever said time heals all wounds. Didn't know what they were talking about. I think about my twins everyday. I carry them in my heart and memories wherever I go. Soon it will be Thanksgiving,then fast approaches Christmas. This will...
    Tatteredpages Tatteredpages
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2013

    Not a day goes by that I don't think about you,

    Bugs. I was blessed to be your Mama, even though your life here was painfully short. I know that you watch out for me and your big brothers, and your Daddy. I love you, and that will never change.
    ZenLioNESS719 ZenLioNESS719
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    There Little Faces

    No parent should ever have to bury there child. There is no amount of tears or time that heals. If it weren't for my other son who was barely 5 at the time I think I would of fallen completely apart. I went to counseling for over 3 years and while it has helped me tremendously, I...
    Tatteredpages Tatteredpages
    36-40, F
    Aug 12, 2013

    Sending every parent

    who has ever been through this, my heart goes out to you. When I lost my little girl, nearly 9 years ago, I didn't have anyone to talk to. I'm so grateful I now do.
    ZenLioNESS719 ZenLioNESS719
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    It's almost Christmas.

    God I hate Christmas. It use to be this magical time of the year. Rachel and I would be cooking for days in advance. This will be the second Christmas. With out her... with out the joy she brought into my home. I remember that even at 26 years old she would always still wake me...
    sckimmy sckimmy
    41-45, F
    Dec 23, 2014
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    Sam and Isabelle

      I have lost 2 children, both were conceived via rape, but that does not make the fact that they are not here any less painful... I know that with Sam (the first) I was not in any fit state to be a mother, but I still wish He’d at least had a chance at life.  ...
    shadowlight shadowlight
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 7, 2009

    Lil James, Mom Loves You And Misses You...

    Lil James was my youngest son. Only 15 years old and a typical teenager. We called him Lil James because there were two James' in the house and he was the youngest. On 09/20/2010, my son was walking home from a friends house when he was hit by a car and killed. Only two...
    vosshootieowl vosshootieowl
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Sep 19, 2012

    A Part Of Me

    Is this the right group to post my story? Does it really matter what group I pick? The story will still be the same. I don't even know where to begin. How do you put into words the loss of your children and brother? How can I explain to anyone the joy and surprise when I found...
    Tatteredpages Tatteredpages
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Aug 8, 2013

    I lost my daughter Ashley Rene at 21 years old

    in Feb 2008 due to complications of her giving birth to my grand-daughter Ashianna. We lost them both
    lisamariesings lisamariesings
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2014

    I recently lost my daughter of 32.

    She had 2 children who are going to miss her, as well as my pain that I don't feel I will ever get over. My child and I were as close as any father and daughter could be. We talked each morning and during the day. It is so hard not to have her call me at 2 in the morning and...
    farmerman57 farmerman57
    56-60, M
    Oct 25, 2015

    My Beloved Kyra

    I lost my beautiful 26 year old daughter on August 17, 2013. She lived her short life to the fullest under the big skies of Montana. She was an organic farmer, who lived in her little aristocrat trailer by the gardens, under an apple tree. Her father and I spent the last week...
    will351 will351
    66-70, F
    3 Responses Sep 30, 2013

    I lost my daughter Eva to an form of cancer,

    Neuroblastoma, last year. She was nearly two years old when we lost her. Her tumor was spotted to late and although she had an operation there was nothing that could be done. I miss her everyday, but recently I found out I was pregnant again with my boyfriend. I know that this...
    honkytonks honkytonks
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 10, 2014

    Today Is My Daughter's Angel Date

    It is hard to believe that 10 years ago today, my beloved daughter and only child, Shawnee, died.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 3, 2011

    My husband and I finally got pregnant

    after trying for awhile...and we were so ecstatic! I have twin boys from a precious relationship and my husband is an amazing step dad, but for us to finally be pregnant with one of our own was a dream come true. The pregnancy was a little rough, I was very very sick with...
    Butterflyjre Butterflyjre
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2014

    I Lost A Baby

    I found out I was pregnant and all I could think of was what would be best for her. I made plans to keep her safe from abusive people in my family. I gave her a name. I thought long and hard about what I needed to change for her to give her the best life possible. The when I went...
    Janeasha Janeasha
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 1, 2013

    I'M Not Ready To Tell This One

    My precious baby drowned, while I was away from home. Love with everything you got, life can be much shorter than you think.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 26, 2013

    My twin baby passed away the other night

    (Thursday 03/06/2014) and I just can't get over it. She was only 1 week old. I gave birth to her the previous week and she was immediately rushed to the NICU after experiencing birth trauma. She suffered from brain edema and herniation and I can't stop wishing and praying for...
    darkafricanchild darkafricanchild
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 8, 2014

    Julianna

    just 16 days ago I "Lost" my nine year old daughter... well I don't really like the term "lost" since I didn't misplace her like a set of car keys..Julianna (my 9 year old) and my 6 year old were on there way to school. Julianna was walking her bike across the street and my 6...
    4became3 4became3
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2011
    redneckwoman33 redneckwoman33
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2015

    I still tell people I have 4 children.

    Because I do. My twins will forever be 4 years old. I'll never see them go to school. I won't ever hear there laughter again. My husband won't ever be able to take them sailing or teach them to ride a bike. He'll never walk his daughter down the aisle on her wedding day. Well...
    Echoes1 Echoes1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    I Lost My Baby Girl

    i was in a long term relationship from the age of 13 to 16 and yeah we did have sex and i did become pregnant with an amazing baby girl but me and his best friend were messing around in his bed room and on the landing but i tripped and fell down the stairs he knew that i was...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 10, 2012

    Fair Weather Friends And The Loss Of A Child

    We lost our Emmy when she was twenty two years old. She was in her third year of college. She died of brain cancer, in nine months. She and I were very close, she was dearer to me than life. She still lived at home. She and I shared many of the same beliefs. We understood one...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone
    56-60, F
    10 Responses Nov 27, 2011

    Hello I'm Samantha I am 18 years old.

    But I was 17 when I lost our beautiful baby girl. Not coping really well was hoping for some advice perhaps I don't know. Here's my story : I can remember the day I found out I was pregnant clearly. I thought I had been for awhile but didn't think it could be possible I can...
    LostAndConfusedMum LostAndConfusedMum
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2013

    A week ago I said good-bye to my 16 year old

    daughter forever. I am still in shock that she is gone and even more so over how she passed. I will never forgive myself for mistakes that I may that could have easily led up to her death.
    kaseyclue kaseyclue
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    September 2010: Sometime this month,

    without knowledge, I conceived my second child. I was living in Dodge City, KS with my ex fiancé and his son. We were constantly fighting and he ended up laying his hands on me. I called it quits after walking 6 miles to the hospital and reported him there. He was nice enough...
    Krissysheart Krissysheart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

    I miss my baby. One day she was here.

    The next day she wasn't. All I think about all day is how she's not here. What her hugs felt like. What her sweet kisses felt like. What her laugh sounded like. What we would be doing at this time or that. I love her with my heart. My dear sweet baby. She was only 20 months old...
    Nalasmom Nalasmom
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2013

    I dreamt of being a mom

    as far back as I can remember. My dad had decided I was going to college and I was going, but I wanted to be a mom too.I can remember that I wanted twins. A boy and a girl. I had chosen their names. The little girl would have long blonde hair and the boy would be dark. I drew...
    akindheart akindheart
    61-65, F
    13 Responses Sep 2, 2014

    Stefan

    we have lost our little boy of 11 on Saturday night, 8/05/2010. He was born disabled and died in his sleep. The pain and heartache we're going through is more than we can bear
    Ronell Ronell
    36-40, F
    9 Responses May 14, 2010

    Hi Lost One Off My Child

    my wife karid hower baby 9 mouths and he was born astill born and hit broke hour hearts then one off my son died with a drug off dose the man that sold him the drugs his still saleing them and he his geting away with hit from baby glencoe2
    glencoe2 glencoe2
    61-65, M
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2012

    My Christmas

    My son would have been 26 this year in November, it doesn't seem possible. I must tell you that I always wanted a son who could carry on my name and that would allow me to teach him the things that a father should teach his son. I had a son by my first wife but when we got...
    cosmiccowboy cosmiccowboy
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2012

    I Have Lost 2 Children, But Only 1 Is Dead

    In 1992 I fled my home of Sarajevo when it was attacked and went to wait in Greece. There I met a gorgeous dark skinned woman from America. Our relationship was short and tumultuous, but she gave birth to my 1st son. She vanished with him when he was 5 months old baby and was...
    Sarajevo4Life Sarajevo4Life
    41-45, M
    Nov 16, 2013

    He Was Only 5 Hours Old.....

    Hello! My name is Lyndsie and i would like to share my experience of losing a chid. It was November of 2012 that i found out i was pregnant! My boyfriend (now fiance) and i were so excited because on May 10,2012 i had a miscarriage at 3 months. Well as soon as i found out i had...
    lyndsielg lyndsielg
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2013

    It's almost Christmas.

    God I hate Christmas. It use to be this magical time of the year. Rachel and I would be cooking for days in advance. This will be the second Christmas. With out her... with out the joy she brought into my home. I remember that even at 26 years old she would always still wake me...
    sckimmy sckimmy
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 23, 2014

    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe

    and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month old son he died in bed with my husband a freak accident who was blamed he went crazy beat me left me for my cousin he ended up In jail now he is...
    laceykight laceykight
    31-35, F
    Apr 13, 2014

    Gracie

    On the night of Halloween 2009, my 5 year old twin daughters Grace and Madison, went to my sister's who lived down the street. They had so much fun getting candy, listening to music, and playing together. That night my sister brought them home and said she and her family were...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2011

    I just lost my 16 year old son,

    on January 22 2014. He was my only son and my world!!!! I do not know how to go on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Barbarawillis2000 Barbarawillis2000
    51-55, F
    7 Responses Feb 2, 2014
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