I Have Lost a Friend

A group for those grieving the lost of a friend, co-worker or some one they knew well 783 People

    I have lost my best friend three years ago .

    . he passed right before he turned 19 from lung cancer .. #1 reason why I hate cigarettes.. still haven't been able to morn.. his sis hates me and won't let me even talk about him.
    SilverandGold23 SilverandGold23
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    My best friend passed away this past summer

    from mouth cancer. He used smokeless tobacco and chewed on cigars. I was to be his auxiliary deputy until one day when there was an emergency at the school where I taught. I called and he arrived on scene before the ambulance. I waited around for him to take care of all the...
    belugagirl70 belugagirl70
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jan 30, 2014

    I want to see him again.

    I want give him one more hug. I want him to know how much I miss him already. I want to see him smile. To laugh with him, to goof off and do stupid things. I want to see his gorgeous eyes that remind me of being kids again... That I will never see again. I don't want to...
    kitticat007 kitticat007
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2015


    I love my friends very much. Because i pointed out their lies, manipulative nature and hypocritical judgment i lost the people i put alot of work and heart into. I feel i was just there to use and respect was not a factor in our relationship. I feel angry and sad.
    Moose98 Moose98
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2012

    Darlene- May You Rest In Peace

    Yesterday I find out in an email from a co-worker that a former co- worker had collapsed at home and died.  Darlene was a wonderful woman.  She worked with the homeless, got her social work diploma in order to help her clients even more.  She was always there for...
    kritterbug kritterbug
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2008

    As I sit here contemplating it all,

    I just cannot believe that I have lost someone whom I have cared very deeply for here on EP. I respect that my friend must leave I guess? And I wish her the very best in life always. She will forever and always be in my heart, and in my prayers, even though we shall never ever...
    allsfinebime allsfinebime
    56-60, M
    5 Responses Jan 24, 2015


    Last week a friend of mine was killed when a drainage ditch at his home collapsed. He was a business owner, a church leader, a husband and father who was in perfect health. At 55, he was just beginning to experience his grandchildren. He wasn't a close friend, but someone that...
    Trackcoachred Trackcoachred
    56-60, M
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2013

    Today in Hawaii time it is

    now 525pm, @132pm I was lost of word's, stuck @ work with no impression, no effects, until it hit me. As I'm walking along my hall way, A picture of my mother, my father my siblings, me and my Best friend. I literally broke down on my knees and cried. After maybe 10-15min of...
    pesimk pesimk
    26-30, F
    Aug 4, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Apr 11, 2016

    I lost a friend due to Crystal meth

    and I'm losing another to the same thing.
    mrsaturn9682 mrsaturn9682
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 21, 2015

    R.I.P Boxy... Good friend

    and a lovely guy. Everyone on my course will miss you. Including me. <3
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1
    22-25, M
    Aug 20, 2015

    Train Accident :(

    The other day a good person called Brian also know as Yoteslaya died. He tried to out run a train. I never met him but he was a gaming legend. Great at playing zombies like me. I went to America hoping to live stream kino der toten with him but he's dead now. Only 32 years old...
    PROSyndicate PROSyndicate
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 28, 2013

    I Miss Her..

    I had a friend her and i loved each other like we were family. we hung out nearly everyday and often skyped and often talked over the internet too. during this summer i was in Florida for the whole summer. she had family fairly close to where i was staying and wanted to surprise...
    ShadowOkami ShadowOkami
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 19, 2013

    R.I.P Duncan Lawrence.

    .. You died last year in October and I never knew. I'm sorry we didn't talk more and I'm sorry I didn't reply. If there is an afterlife, save me a seat! ;) Peace be with you my friend <3
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1
    22-25, M
    Aug 18, 2015

    Its hard to believe that 3 months ago today you

    left this world, you are a free man....how does it feel? I wish u could tell me....we went to your grave me your mom and sisters and your friends.....and lit candles and wrote to you on balloons and let them go....I just want to let you know you will forever be in my heart in my...
    ripevan ripevan
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 9, 2014

    This coming up Saturday,

    it will be two months since our family friend passed away. She was 75 years old. I don't grieve ALL the time. I just do when I feel like it. I tell myself, "Stop grieving and suck it up!" I know she's in a better place and she's not suffering anymore. I tell myself to buck up...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 10, 2014

    I love my best friend.

    But I'm broke him..
    ValeryJuke ValeryJuke
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    My neighbor died. He was only 47.

    He was a presence in this part of this big city. He and I were the only two western faces in this small section of this big Asian city. I will miss him. Friendships are tough around here, at least for me. I can't honestly say that we were the closest of friends. I don't know...
    Speingo Speingo
    Nov 20, 2015

    And Gained A Few

    And so on it will go like that until I die. Most of the people I become friends with remain my friend unless they do something that can't be excused or explained away for any reason. It's not like I think so effing much of myself that I have to have a set of rules for you to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 7, 2011

    It's my fault honestly.

    I've always had issues. And now I realize I'm a terrible friend. I always seem to stop her from things she wants. So I'm leaving her. I texted her (I didn't have the chance to do this in person [and she texted me about her being upset and depressed because of things I do {Not...
    TheDinoKitty TheDinoKitty
    16-17, F
    Dec 11, 2015

    It's going on year 3.

    .. My best friend killed himself because of being bullied everyday. It really really sucks. He was my world. I honestly told him everything, and we did everything together. Its been awhile but it still hurts. I miss him lots???? And now I just feel alone. Like no ones there. I...
    Smile6781 Smile6781
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 21, 2015

    Moral dilemma - input appreciated My friend's

    boyfriend of 6 years broke up with her unexpectedly. She did not understand what had happened to cause it and was devastated. My boyfriend is friends with her ex-boyfriend and told me the truth: He had not cheated on her but had met another girl and wanted to be with her instead...
    eviejane1991 eviejane1991
    26-30, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    It's getting close to a year ago

    that he took his own life. I still wonder why. I wish I could have helped him. He would have gone far. I miss you my friend. RIP Austin.
    Zibble Zibble
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 1, 2014

    And I fucken regret it.

    I lost someone who I love and who loved me back. And I know they won't ever take me back.
    londonbr1dge londonbr1dge
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    Fly high Kelsey ?? I love you

    so much and it hurts everyday without you
    PaigeOfSteel PaigeOfSteel
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2016

    I wonder if I'll ever have a best friend again.

    I haven't been able to give someone that title in years..
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 3, 2015

    Time To Say Goodbye, My Friend

    The struggle has been long. The pain on the increase each day. To see Paul, my dearest and closest friend suffer was just too much to take. Why would someone have to go through so much pain? Even animals have better options as we have "mercy killings" to end the suffering. Many...
    HardingP119 HardingP119
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

    I thought you told me you'll always be there

    from me when I needed you remember when we promised we'll grow up together and conquer the world now when everything starts getting good for you and new ppl come in your life my messages are being missed you don't Skype me no more and when we talk it's one word answer or I was...
    nsmoov nsmoov
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    I'm kinda scared tbh,

    her name was Brianna and I met her online, but not here. She was really depressed so I told her about EP and she joined for a little bit. One day she told me that her parents were getting a divorce and she just wanted to die, I talked her out of it. I fell asleep one night...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    Madison Victoria Pearce-- RIP 8/23/14 Can't

    even describe the feeling.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen
    22-25, M
    Aug 24, 2014

    Today, it just hit me

    that he is gone. We we weren't best friends or anything, but he meant a lot to me. I loved his passion about music, his weird mannerisms, and the two times he made my day when I felt like crap. The one day I was leaving school and he was randomly passing by and I started...
    Shamandora Shamandora
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2014

    Losing a friend I can sense the thoughts

    from faraway Of a man left alone to ponder over his long lost wishes He sought freedom using the paint-brush But found himself crippled because of his past mistakes. It always gets dark and lonely when the dawn approaches He’s scared to face death only at that time Yet he...
    prettyfate prettyfate
    36-40, M
    Apr 22, 2014

    But it wasn't because we fought,

    it's because last year my friend died on January 23rd 2015. He was only 15 and was one of my bestest friends, or my besting buddy. I've come to terms that he's in a place with a buffet for life and I just think that he's happy, but I still haven't visited his grave yet and I'm...
    colorfulrainbow19 colorfulrainbow19
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Lisa- My Mentor, My Friend

    Lisa...  She was my Sunday School teacher from grade 4-8.  She was into God, horses, swimming, camping and life in general.  Her enthusiasm always seemed to rub off on me.  She was always appeared to be prepared for whatever would come her way. She was...
    kritterbug kritterbug
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2008

    Today is a very sad day .

    .. I got bad news some one close to my heart passed away . I can't stop crying . She was a wonderful soul .... I hurt more because I wish I could have been there for her more before she left us... She was fighting a terrible disease ... Lung cancer an she was slowly killing...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

    His name was Antwan. While most people in HS

    bullied me, Antwan never did. He was nice, funny and really cared about others. He died Feb of last year. I still think of him often. I'm thankful I got to meet him and be friend him in this lifetime. He was a good guy and he will never be forgotten.
    GeekyFatChick GeekyFatChick
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Gone too soon: I lost a friend recently,

    he was only 20. He was amazing and loved by everyone around him and he was well known in the community. I wish I stayed in contact with him more often. I wish I could have done something. There are fears he was murdered. I'm sorry :(. Words can't describe ....R.I.P ♥
    AnonymousEm AnonymousEm
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2016

    I lost a really great friend of mine,

    Andwen. He was on EP and I'm sure he's helped so many people even outside EP. He was really an amazing person. I hope people would pray for him, and also for his bf who has been grieving so much.
    GummiBr GummiBr
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    Missing You Always

    There are moments late at night when my mind won't let me sleep, that I find myself thinking of you.  I was at your funeral, but it still doesn't seem real.  I feel you, your energy, your spirit, the essence that was you is all around me.  Are you with me?  Do...
    Freestanding Freestanding
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2008

    When Did This Happen?

    I'm not gonna say much cause I don't know much. I'm looking out the window just hoping. I have a friend in hospital dieing from blood cancer. Not excactly a BFF kind of friend. But a class mate. And all the things I could tell him yet. He has a hope. Not big but a hope. Is this...
    LivLov LivLov
    13-15, F
    7 Responses Oct 14, 2012

    Now It Is Forsure

    David B. rest in peace my friend i only got the news today but my friend did jump from the lions gate bridge in vancouver BC you will be missed my dear friend i wish you hadnt done what you did but i hope you are finally at peace.   Good bye my friend may you rest in...
    C11H26NO2PS C11H26NO2PS
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2009

    When I was in the sixth grade my friend called

    me up and told me we couldn't be friends anymore, so I asked her why she said that I wasn't popular and that I was to stupid to be popular so I hung up on her and cried myself to sleep. I'm soo tired of people who are or trying to get to be in a group of the popularity people so...
    TristinandAtlantis TristinandAtlantis
    16-17, F
    Jun 30, 2015

    Its Life

    We all lose friends from time to time. Many different reasons people come into our lives aswell as leave our lives. Maybe you just grow apart, or maybe there is a fight were words are said that can't be taken back. Maybe old ages comes and takes them away. Live long enough and we...
    Arorin Arorin
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2010

    My landlord became my dearest friend,

    when we fell on hard times, money ruined our friendship, we were evicted (I understand the business relationship) but I'll never get over the severed friendship
    133jenn 133jenn
    51-55, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2014

    *** I Love You Seester! ***

    My sister died in October, she was the sunshine. I feel like she is with me all of the time and yet I feel so lonely and like this Earth is really the end. Some people speak to her out loud, as if she is still around but, in the air, I just can't muster the words to say. I...
    harvestfestival harvestfestival
    31-35, F
    Jan 17, 2013

    Turns out she's fake

    and when she gets what she wants she leaves. I don't like her anymore, this is the first time I've actually disliked somebody and after everything my mom and I have done for her....
    countrygirlISTaylor countrygirlISTaylor
    18-21, F
    Jul 28, 2014
    londonbr1dge londonbr1dge
    18-21, F
    Feb 28, 2015

    A Friend Remembered

    Where did you go my friend?  With your humour and bravery?  And baggage.  Under what stars do you sleep?  Do you sleep, now?  It used to be difficult for you, a thing we had in common.  Late night/early morning chats when all other friends were abed.  I thought we were...
    avatarunknown avatarunknown
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

    Had an ex boyfriend that died in a car accident

    years ago, hated when I heard about it, even though we weren't together anymore , we were still friends. Never take anything for granted, life can be taken as quick from you as it was given.
    Bonnet9 Bonnet9
    26-30, F
    Apr 4, 2016
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