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I Have Lost Hope

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    The Worst Thing To Loose

    The worst thing to loose is hope. Nothing's going to get better, it will always be horrible. I looked at everybody else who had a better life than me. Not perfect but better. You lie, you just live in a web full of lies and you have a better life than me?! Then you decide to...
    NicolePear NicolePear 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    Ohsingmysoul Ohsingmysoul 46-50, F Mar 10

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    How could I let myself get this bad?

    A cancer patient wouldn't wait so why would mental illness patient wait. I brought this upon myself and it's only going to get worse...I can't accept the help for some reason...I don't know why. Maybe it's scary or maybe it's cuz I don't want to give in and actually say I'm...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    What's the point of trying

    if no one cares.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I'm getting depressed again.

    One of my best friends is gone. I don't know where she is and I haven't talked to her in a long time. She was hospitalized. I miss her a lot and everyday just seems harder. I get sadder and sadder and I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. Things are just stupid and everything...
    candyfreak28 candyfreak28 16-17, F Jul 10

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    I've been for someone all my life

    and when I found him he pushed me away
    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver 26-30, F Feb 16, 2014

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    I ******* hate this!!

    šŸ˜” Just let the pain end!
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I had hope, now that I've lost

    that there's nothing much else
    mrennie61 mrennie61 51-55, M Jun 13, 2014

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    At night when the moon is full,

    i hide in the sheet beginning to drool. Dream of wonder and love, filled with nightmares of pain and hatred. Two halves collide in war that cannot be broken, my heart has lost its last token. The only love in which lives now, is beaten by the other forces that are rotten and...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni 18-21, M Jan 4, 2014

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    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 14, 2013

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    In Humans

    I still would like the world to be a better place. I still support these in pain and living injustice. But I don't relate to "people", to the mass. And I don't want to. It can be taken for coldness and arrogance, but it's more rebellion and disgust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    Blaaaaaahhh

    So I went to see my doctor a little while ago and he made me feel like crap. I cried and **** and all he did was give me some tablets to keep me calm. They ran out after 2 weeks. Over a month later, I get a counsellingĀ appointment, this then gets cancelled and I get another one...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 2 Responses Jul 6

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    On guys, they're all the same

    and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I can no longer see purpose in my life.

    But I'm so physically and emotionally, drained of life, I don't have the strength to take my life. Haha, I'm so physically alone. I hate how it's so difficult to make something of myself. ;(
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 9

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    So recently this guy went to a college

    and was waving the American flag and shouting pro American things... No one cared. He grabbed the black flag of ISIS and waived it shouting pro ISIS things... No one cared. He grabbed the Israeli flag and waived it and didn't even have to say anything before people started...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2014

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    I can't be alone anymore.

    I can't do this alone. I need a push to keep going. I can't do this alone. I can't.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    Just realizing after some time

    that I can't keep living like this. Like my first entry I did on this site, I'm still alone. I have to keep lying to people saying "I'm fine". There isn't much left I have but my hope. I don't even know if I have any left. I'm lying in my bed, knowing I have lots of work to...
    Aoiberry Aoiberry 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    The only purpose I have in life is to serve my

    parents, and I can only do that $h!t for so long! Dammit! I don't know how I'm supposed to live through life helping people- and then feeling like I accomplish nothing. I constantly feel like I am cleaning up a regenerating puddle. I soak up my misery with the sponge of day-to...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 12

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    Lost Hope

    There are certain kinds of hope that we can no longer feed. Hope for a future with a certain person. Hope that the love we once shared will return.It is done. It is said. It is made clear that his hope can no longer be acknowledged. This hope becomes self aware. It is put into a...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 1 Response May 18, 2011

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    Why do people want you to talk about the pain

    you experience? It seems easier to just bury it deep down and try to move forward sometimes. Talking just reopens wounds trying to heal.
    blackjack1808 blackjack1808 36-40, M Aug 19

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    I just feel as if, for me,

    there is no reason to live. I don't have any talents, though I've reached out to many things (examples include multiple sports, drawing, writing, acting, math, etc, etc) and haven't found anything I'm good at. I am surrounded by so many people that have true talent and are...
    tamingllamas tamingllamas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    cheerhannah124 cheerhannah124 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    so true, me too .
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 9 hrs ago

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    I came to depend on a sporadic PM with an EP member who was seriously listening and helping me with my issues as an OW. Very sweet and kind person. I'm hoping I haven't offended...
    LotusLIL LotusLIL 46-50, F 15 hrs ago

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    I never knew what it felt like til I lost my precious baby almost a year ago. It still hurts me today. Time doesn't heal all. A parent should NEVER have to bury a child. I find...
    Photogirl685 Photogirl685 26-30, F 17 hrs ago

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    I belong to a country where unfortunately caste still is everything. Your love has no meaning if your castes are not the same, your commitment has no value if you don't belong to...
    dela123 dela123 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I lost both my mother and grandmother to cancer, I am sorry for your loss.
    michelleplus1 michelleplus1 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    I lost my aunt to cancer 9 months ago. It still feels the same as the first day I lost her. She was my second mother. She was in the delivery room with my parents. She held me...
    papayalover24 papayalover24 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yes I have. I have been through a lot in life. I had lost both my parents when I was six. I grew up at my uncles with the siblings that kept picking on me. I worked hard and got a...
    mickeyboy09 mickeyboy09 36-40, M 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    I lost my mother to cancer 2 years ago tommorow having an extremly hard time with it right now I just want to cry so much it has been a hard road!
    Declanx Declanx 13-15, M 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    I searched through experiences and I think this makes the most sense to me though my parents are alive. My mom and dad did horrific things to me and I can't express the suffering...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I spent last night at a viewing for my friends 15 year old daughter. a beautiful vibrant girl who gave generously of herself. She was a cheerleader and died on 8/20 from an...
    surgchic surgchic 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    it seems tthey pretty much leave all the admin work downn to Epallie, a bot. And she has a stick the size of the eiiffel tower up her a*s, making it impossible for you to post any...
    Anth1290 Anth1290 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Back when I was in my previous relationship say 2 years ago I had all the faith in the world. My life was horrible. I didn't want to live. I held God close to my heart. Deepest...
    Butterflykiss707 Butterflykiss707 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    i don't really know how to start this out, so I'm going to jump right into it. When you were little there was nothing you care about, you'd dance around and not care if people...
    silverelephant silverelephant 13-15, F a week ago

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    Losing weight is praised and even encouraged in our society. However, I've lost so much this summer that half of my wardrobe doesn't fit me anymore. I lost a total of 40 plus...
    SeanaO SeanaO 22-25, F 18 Responses Aug 20

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    I've lost my mum and my nan to cancer. I've also lost my grandparents and my great aunt but it wasn't to cancer. I've lost lots of people and it's sad and I'm so lonely. I didn't...
    turkishgirl98 turkishgirl98 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 19

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    I haven't lost him yet. But what good will 2 months do? He's the kindest man ever. He never cared for himself, only others, which got him in such a situation. Why?! Why did he have...
    CindyLEvans CindyLEvans 16-17, F Aug 18

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    My rabbit was 11,5 years old when he died last year. A lot of people find it ok to be upset about a rabbit's death when you are still a child, but they couldn't understand why I...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 18

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    I have lost my direction in life. There are things that I want to accomplish, but I have no motivation to do so.
    jaynepayne jaynepayne 31-35, F Aug 18

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    so if you have been following my posts ive been trying to lose weight and working out wasnt helping. a few months ago i had gotten a job at walmart and my eating habits changed i...
    LcplSkeens LcplSkeens 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 18

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