I Have Lost Hope

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 130 People

    I can't be alone anymore.

    I can't do this alone. I need a push to keep going. I can't do this alone. I can't.
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 20, 2014

    Just realizing after some time

    that I can't keep living like this. Like my first entry I did on this site, I'm still alone. I have to keep lying to people saying "I'm fine". There isn't much left I have but my hope. I don't even know if I have any left. I'm lying in my bed, knowing I have lots of work to...
    Aoiberry Aoiberry
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 4, 2013

    Lost Hope

    There are certain kinds of hope that we can no longer feed. Hope for a future with a certain person. Hope that the love we once shared will return.It is done. It is said. It is made clear that his hope can no longer be acknowledged. This hope becomes self aware. It is put into a...
    lisa36 lisa36
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 18, 2011
    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 22, 2015

    I'm getting depressed again.

    One of my best friends is gone. I don't know where she is and I haven't talked to her in a long time. She was hospitalized. I miss her a lot and everyday just seems harder. I get sadder and sadder and I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. Things are just stupid and everything...
    candyfreak28 candyfreak28
    18-21, F
    Jul 10, 2015

    In Humans

    I still would like the world to be a better place. I still support these in pain and living injustice. But I don't relate to "people", to the mass. And I don't want to. It can be taken for coldness and arrogance, but it's more rebellion and disgust...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2009

    On guys, they're all the same

    and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2014

    I had hope, now that I've lost

    that there's nothing much else
    mrennie61 mrennie61
    56-60, M
    Jun 13, 2014

    So recently this guy went to a college

    and was waving the American flag and shouting pro American things... No one cared. He grabbed the black flag of ISIS and waived it shouting pro ISIS things... No one cared. He grabbed the Israeli flag and waived it and didn't even have to say anything before people started...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 12, 2014

    I just feel as if, for me,

    there is no reason to live. I don't have any talents, though I've reached out to many things (examples include multiple sports, drawing, writing, acting, math, etc, etc) and haven't found anything I'm good at. I am surrounded by so many people that have true talent and are...
    tamingllamas tamingllamas
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

    I've been for someone all my life

    and when I found him he pushed me away
    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver
    31-35, F
    Feb 16, 2014

    I can no longer see purpose in my life.

    But I'm so physically and emotionally, drained of life, I don't have the strength to take my life. Haha, I'm so physically alone. I hate how it's so difficult to make something of myself. ;(
    deademotion11 deademotion11
    26-30, M
    Jan 9, 2015

    I once hoped the war would end.

    I once hoped i would become a normal teenager who cared about sports and friends than looking at the news. I once hopes my dad would treat me better. I once hoped i will find those friends who will last with me forever. I once hoped never to lose someone again. I once hopes I...
    Hgaood Hgaood
    18-21, M
    Sep 10, 2015

    The only purpose I have in life is to serve my

    parents, and I can only do that $h!t for so long! Dammit! I don't know how I'm supposed to live through life helping people- and then feeling like I accomplish nothing. I constantly feel like I am cleaning up a regenerating puddle. I soak up my misery with the sponge of day-to...
    deademotion11 deademotion11
    26-30, M
    Jan 12, 2015
    Ohsingmysoul Ohsingmysoul
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    At night when the moon is full,

    i hide in the sheet beginning to drool. Dream of wonder and love, filled with nightmares of pain and hatred. Two halves collide in war that cannot be broken, my heart has lost its last token. The only love in which lives now, is beaten by the other forces that are rotten and...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni
    18-21, M
    Jan 4, 2014

    Happiness....you are a liar,

    deceiver, betrayer. So I dub thee Unforgiven.... "The Unforgiven" (By Metallica) New blood joins this earth, And quickly he's subdued. Through constant pained disgrace The young boy learns their rules. With time the child draws in. This whipping boy done wrong. Deprived of...
    GhostOfGrey GhostOfGrey
    36-40, F
    Jan 12, 2016


    So I went to see my doctor a little while ago and he made me feel like crap. I cried and **** and all he did was give me some tablets to keep me calm. They ran out after 2 weeks. Over a month later, I get a counsellingĀ appointment, this then gets cancelled and I get another one...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 10, 2013

    The Worst Thing To Loose

    The worst thing to loose is hope. Nothing's going to get better, it will always be horrible. I looked at everybody else who had a better life than me. Not perfect but better. You lie, you just live in a web full of lies and you have a better life than me?! Then you decide to...
    NicolePear NicolePear
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2012

    too many secrets ...she refused to let me in.

    i cant trust her... i feel like a loser as i m going to have another failed relationship...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    How could I let myself get this bad?

    A cancer patient wouldn't wait so why would mental illness patient wait. I brought this upon myself and it's only going to get worse...I can't accept the help for some reason...I don't know why. Maybe it's scary or maybe it's cuz I don't want to give in and actually say I'm...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 20, 2015

    What's the point of trying

    if no one cares.
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

    I ******* hate this!!

    šŸ˜” Just let the pain end!
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2015
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne
    Sep 14, 2013

    Why do people want you to talk about the pain

    you experience? It seems easier to just bury it deep down and try to move forward sometimes. Talking just reopens wounds trying to heal.
    blackjack1808 blackjack1808
    36-40, M
    Aug 19, 2015
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