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I Have Lost Hope

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 135 People

    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 14, 2013

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    I can't be alone anymore.

    I can't do this alone. I need a push to keep going. I can't do this alone. I can't.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    At night when the moon is full,

    i hide in the sheet beginning to drool. Dream of wonder and love, filled with nightmares of pain and hatred. Two halves collide in war that cannot be broken, my heart has lost its last token. The only love in which lives now, is beaten by the other forces that are rotten and...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni 18-21, M Jan 4, 2014

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    too many secrets ...she refused to let me in.

    i cant trust her... i feel like a loser as i m going to have another failed relationship...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

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    Lost Hope

    There are certain kinds of hope that we can no longer feed. Hope for a future with a certain person. Hope that the love we once shared will return.It is done. It is said. It is made clear that his hope can no longer be acknowledged. This hope becomes self aware. It is put into a...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 1 Response May 18, 2011

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    I just feel as if, for me,

    there is no reason to live. I don't have any talents, though I've reached out to many things (examples include multiple sports, drawing, writing, acting, math, etc, etc) and haven't found anything I'm good at. I am surrounded by so many people that have true talent and are...
    tamingllamas tamingllamas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    On guys, they're all the same

    and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    The Worst Thing To Loose

    The worst thing to loose is hope. Nothing's going to get better, it will always be horrible. I looked at everybody else who had a better life than me. Not perfect but better. You lie, you just live in a web full of lies and you have a better life than me?! Then you decide to...
    NicolePear NicolePear 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    The only purpose I have in life is to serve my

    parents, and I can only do that $h!t for so long! Dammit! I don't know how I'm supposed to live through life helping people- and then feeling like I accomplish nothing. I constantly feel like I am cleaning up a regenerating puddle. I soak up my misery with the sponge of day-to...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 12, 2015

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    I ******* hate this!!

    šŸ˜” Just let the pain end!
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2015

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    I can no longer see purpose in my life.

    But I'm so physically and emotionally, drained of life, I don't have the strength to take my life. Haha, I'm so physically alone. I hate how it's so difficult to make something of myself. ;(
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 9, 2015

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    Blaaaaaahhh

    So I went to see my doctor a little while ago and he made me feel like crap. I cried and **** and all he did was give me some tablets to keep me calm. They ran out after 2 weeks. Over a month later, I get a counsellingĀ appointment, this then gets cancelled and I get another one...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    I once hoped the war would end.

    I once hoped i would become a normal teenager who cared about sports and friends than looking at the news. I once hopes my dad would treat me better. I once hoped i will find those friends who will last with me forever. I once hoped never to lose someone again. I once hopes I...
    Hgaood Hgaood 16-17, M Sep 10, 2015

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    Happiness....you are a liar,

    deceiver, betrayer. So I dub thee Unforgiven.... "The Unforgiven" (By Metallica) New blood joins this earth, And quickly he's subdued. Through constant pained disgrace The young boy learns their rules. With time the child draws in. This whipping boy done wrong. Deprived of...
    GhostOfGrey GhostOfGrey 31-35, F Jan 12

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    Just realizing after some time

    that I can't keep living like this. Like my first entry I did on this site, I'm still alone. I have to keep lying to people saying "I'm fine". There isn't much left I have but my hope. I don't even know if I have any left. I'm lying in my bed, knowing I have lots of work to...
    Aoiberry Aoiberry 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22, 2015

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    How could I let myself get this bad?

    A cancer patient wouldn't wait so why would mental illness patient wait. I brought this upon myself and it's only going to get worse...I can't accept the help for some reason...I don't know why. Maybe it's scary or maybe it's cuz I don't want to give in and actually say I'm...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 20, 2015

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    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 2 Responses Jul 6, 2015

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    Ohsingmysoul Ohsingmysoul 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2015

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    I'm getting depressed again.

    One of my best friends is gone. I don't know where she is and I haven't talked to her in a long time. She was hospitalized. I miss her a lot and everyday just seems harder. I get sadder and sadder and I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. Things are just stupid and everything...
    candyfreak28 candyfreak28 18-21, F Jul 10, 2015

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    So recently this guy went to a college

    and was waving the American flag and shouting pro American things... No one cared. He grabbed the black flag of ISIS and waived it shouting pro ISIS things... No one cared. He grabbed the Israeli flag and waived it and didn't even have to say anything before people started...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2014

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    What's the point of trying

    if no one cares.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I've been for someone all my life

    and when I found him he pushed me away
    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver 26-30, F Feb 16, 2014

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    In Humans

    I still would like the world to be a better place. I still support these in pain and living injustice. But I don't relate to "people", to the mass. And I don't want to. It can be taken for coldness and arrogance, but it's more rebellion and disgust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    I had hope, now that I've lost

    that there's nothing much else
    mrennie61 mrennie61 51-55, M Jun 13, 2014

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    Why do people want you to talk about the pain

    you experience? It seems easier to just bury it deep down and try to move forward sometimes. Talking just reopens wounds trying to heal.
    blackjack1808 blackjack1808 36-40, M Aug 19, 2015

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    I have lost both of my parents to cancer. It is a terrible disease that hopefully we can end. Too much pain has been caused because of it. Too many people lost.
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    My friend tried committing suicide yesterday and again today... Im trying to act like everything is okay so I don't worry or bother anyone but I seem to be massively failing at it...
    Izzy143 Izzy143 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I lost my Nana to lung cancer in 2004. I recently been cancer myself and my mom is currently fighting lung cancer :(
    sikkacyanide sikkacyanide 22-25, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    hey dad. I could use your advise. Its been over ten years so I know asking you now is a little out of the ordinary. I am not your little guy anymore. Its been far too long for...
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    I have lost 2 stone since last April. I was overweight and really self-conscious about it but now I'm at a healthy weight and really pleased. :)
    emjm013 emjm013 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It's not something I usually like to talk about but, I figure that I'm in good company here. I lost my father to COPD when I was 16. He had smoked for 40 years and it just did him...
    thealouwho thealouwho 18-21, F 42 Responses 6 days ago

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    will the person that i lost was my cousin he die when i was 4 mouths old so i never even got to see him or meet him before
    AK407 AK407 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Reason, Season, or Lifetime People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When...
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    She threw herself at me. I took things slowly. After a few months, we were official. I was a part of her family's dinners. She was "the happiest they've ever seen her." She treated...
    standardmale standardmale 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Everyone that I've ever cared about is dead. I only have my mom. I don't know what I would do if I lost her.
    AManOfFewWords AManOfFewWords 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Today, my family and I mourn the list of a very special lady, my most amazing aunt, she and my Uncle had 17 children lost count how many grand kids, and great grand youngons, they...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    A letter I swore I'd never write: I know I said I wouldn't write to you anymore... But I'm not going to send this to you so I guess I'm still ok. I just want you to know where I...
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