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I Have Lost Hope

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    At night when the moon is full,

    i hide in the sheet beginning to drool. Dream of wonder and love, filled with nightmares of pain and hatred. Two halves collide in war that cannot be broken, my heart has lost its last token. The only love in which lives now, is beaten by the other forces that are rotten and...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni 16-17, M Jan 4, 2014

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    I can't be alone anymore.

    I can't do this alone. I need a push to keep going. I can't do this alone. I can't.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    Blaaaaaahhh

    So I went to see my doctor a little while ago and he made me feel like crap. I cried and **** and all he did was give me some tablets to keep me calm. They ran out after 2 weeks. Over a month later, I get a counsellingĀ appointment, this then gets cancelled and I get another one...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 14, 2013

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    Ohsingmysoul Ohsingmysoul 46-50, F Mar 10

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    I had hope, now that I've lost

    that there's nothing much else
    mrennie61 mrennie61 51-55, M Jun 13, 2014

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    Lost Hope

    There are certain kinds of hope that we can no longer feed. Hope for a future with a certain person. Hope that the love we once shared will return.It is done. It is said. It is made clear that his hope can no longer be acknowledged. This hope becomes self aware. It is put into a...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 1 Response May 18, 2011

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    I just feel as if, for me,

    there is no reason to live. I don't have any talents, though I've reached out to many things (examples include multiple sports, drawing, writing, acting, math, etc, etc) and haven't found anything I'm good at. I am surrounded by so many people that have true talent and are...
    tamingllamas tamingllamas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    On guys, they're all the same

    and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    Just realizing after some time

    that I can't keep living like this. Like my first entry I did on this site, I'm still alone. I have to keep lying to people saying "I'm fine". There isn't much left I have but my hope. I don't even know if I have any left. I'm lying in my bed, knowing I have lots of work to...
    Aoiberry Aoiberry 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    So recently this guy went to a college

    and was waving the American flag and shouting pro American things... No one cared. He grabbed the black flag of ISIS and waived it shouting pro ISIS things... No one cared. He grabbed the Israeli flag and waived it and didn't even have to say anything before people started...
    mrwilson062198 mrwilson062198 16-17, M Dec 12, 2014

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    I ******* hate this!!

    šŸ˜” Just let the pain end!
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Apr 9

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    The Worst Thing To Loose

    The worst thing to loose is hope. Nothing's going to get better, it will always be horrible. I looked at everybody else who had a better life than me. Not perfect but better. You lie, you just live in a web full of lies and you have a better life than me?! Then you decide to...
    NicolePear NicolePear 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    How could I let myself get this bad?

    A cancer patient wouldn't wait so why would mental illness patient wait. I brought this upon myself and it's only going to get worse...I can't accept the help for some reason...I don't know why. Maybe it's scary or maybe it's cuz I don't want to give in and actually say I'm...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    In Humans

    I still would like the world to be a better place. I still support these in pain and living injustice. But I don't relate to "people", to the mass. And I don't want to. It can be taken for coldness and arrogance, but it's more rebellion and disgust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    What's the point of trying

    if no one cares.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I've been for someone all my life

    and when I found him he pushed me away
    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver 26-30, F Feb 16, 2014

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    The only purpose I have in life is to serve my

    parents, and I can only do that $h!t for so long! Dammit! I don't know how I'm supposed to live through life helping people- and then feeling like I accomplish nothing. I constantly feel like I am cleaning up a regenerating puddle. I soak up my misery with the sponge of day-to...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 12

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    I can no longer see purpose in my life.

    But I'm so physically and emotionally, drained of life, I don't have the strength to take my life. Haha, I'm so physically alone. I hate how it's so difficult to make something of myself. ;(
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Jan 9

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    I can't light up my cigarette or brush my teeth in a glamourous way. I can't even tie up my hair :o The cat even bit my bandage this morning and then she tried to sit on it, I don...
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    :( I feel quite sad today. I've come to find out that Thegrumpydead has deleted his account I'm gonna miss our banter, our English talk, our Ale talk and our women talk, just...
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    KierstenJ671 KierstenJ671 22-25, F May 8

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    One, I secretly still love, others I feel bad for now, and others I lost 6 this year
    StevieOakley14 StevieOakley14 13-15, F May 9

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    ive lost 18 in the last year
    Oddgirllili Oddgirllili 13-15, F 1 Response May 9

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