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I Have Lost Hope

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 66 People

    At night when the moon is full,

    i hide in the sheet beginning to drool. Dream of wonder and love, filled with nightmares of pain and hatred. Two halves collide in war that cannot be broken, my heart has lost its last token. The only love in which lives now, is beaten by the other forces that are rotten and...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni 16-17, M Jan 4

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    I've been for someone all my life

    and when I found him he pushed me away
    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver 26-30, F Feb 16

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    The Worst Thing To Loose

    The worst thing to loose is hope. Nothing's going to get better, it will always be horrible. I looked at everybody else who had a better life than me. Not perfect but better. You lie, you just live in a web full of lies and you have a better life than me?! Then you decide to...
    NicolePear NicolePear 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 14, 2013

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    I had hope, now that I've lost

    that there's nothing much else
    mrennie61 mrennie61 51-55, M Jun 13

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    Blaaaaaahhh

    So I went to see my doctor a little while ago and he made me feel like crap. I cried and **** and all he did was give me some tablets to keep me calm. They ran out after 2 weeks. Over a month later, I get a counselling appointment, this then gets cancelled and I get another one...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    In Humans

    I still would like the world to be a better place. I still support these in pain and living injustice. But I don't relate to "people", to the mass. And I don't want to. It can be taken for coldness and arrogance, but it's more rebellion and disgust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    Lost Hope

    There are certain kinds of hope that we can no longer feed. Hope for a future with a certain person. Hope that the love we once shared will return.It is done. It is said. It is made clear that his hope can no longer be acknowledged. This hope becomes self aware. It is put into a...
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 1 Response May 18, 2011

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    On guys, they're all the same

    and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I just feel as if, for me,

    there is no reason to live. I don't have any talents, though I've reached out to many things (examples include multiple sports, drawing, writing, acting, math, etc, etc) and haven't found anything I'm good at. I am surrounded by so many people that have true talent and are...
    tamingllamas tamingllamas 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    Just realizing after some time

    that I can't keep living like this. Like my first entry I did on this site, I'm still alone. I have to keep lying to people saying "I'm fine". There isn't much left I have but my hope. I don't even know if I have any left. I'm lying in my bed, knowing I have lots of work to...
    Inasda Inasda 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    So here's me roughly 10 years ago. Artist, musician, technician, teacher, touring with my band part time, working on some kids books and short movie scripts. Owned my own business...
    platoflats platoflats 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I have lost 3 stone in 7 months and i am very proud of myself! I have always been a yo yo dieter but within the last 6 years of being in a long term relationship i found it hard to...
    OrangeLemons24 OrangeLemons24 22-25, F Oct 13

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    "It's better to have lost at love, then never to have loved at all!" "I Won't Forget Ypu" by Poison http://youtu.be/BJJ_HJ-9JNM
    scootter01 scootter01 31-35, M Oct 13

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    I have lost 100lbs total and 70lbs in the last 6 months. My recent friends never saw me when I was heavier and now don't understand where I'm coming from. I started at 220lbs. They...
    Changeallaround Changeallaround 22-25 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am not sure if I actually have lost her as a friend. But it has been more than a week since we last talked. She told me she is going trough hard times. And that I am maybe the...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I have been at this weight loss thing for 2 and a half months and I am proud to say I have lost almost 30 pounds. Now I'm at the point where I am border lining under weight weights...
    AnUnknownOne AnUnknownOne 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I had success with a great family, with work where I was respected and valued by my company and by my customers. I worked hard on improving my health, and had finally reached my...
    gmeza98 gmeza98 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I lost my little sister in December 2008. She was only 19 and had just given birth to her son. She was able to enjoy her baby for 12 days before she was murdered by the baby's dad...
    tobelikeme tobelikeme 26-30, F Oct 4

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    It hurts a lot. You find someone who becomes a big part of your life, and you need them. Then one day, they aren't there anymore and you're left with that empty space feeling lost...
    rirxalri rirxalri 16-17, F Oct 1

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    I am almost sure I'm going to hell. Like I don even try anymore. I give up. I feel like it's easier to be controlled by the devil than continue to struggle and then not working out...
    kellylopez kellylopez 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    After recently miscarrying I feel like I have no support from anyone. Not the father, friends or family.. I really don't know how to move on from this, I know I have to but I don't...
    daniellerookexx daniellerookexx 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 4

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    Oh little David Dog my special furry buddy. I think about you almost everyday and miss you something awful. I hope you and the other family animals are frolicking happily where...
    NicoNever NicoNever 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    I lost a part of me when someone very important to me left. I was too dependent on him and didn't think anything bad would happen. If I were to say I lost a part of me a year ago...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    I had an eating disorder as an athlete. I lost my friends, the trust only fmaily, and myself. I no longer play national tennis tournaments or get straight A's in school. I no...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    I lost my virginity when I was 14. I was a **** addict and I tried self-pleasuring. My classmates taught me to watch ****. It felt good, yes, but now that I am 20, I regret all of...
    arielle444 arielle444 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I lost both my parents in my young adulthood, well I just turned 24, so technically I still am a young adult, but I feel so old. I lost my dad to Potts disease (TB of the spine...
    Priya07 Priya07 18-21, F Oct 16

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    I lost my left pinky toe. What about you?
    PointlessSafety PointlessSafety 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I lost part of myself. I'm finding it hard to be happy with who I am & who I'm with anymore. Used to be the one to make everyone laugh now I'm so full of self doubt that I can...
    MyNameIsKita MyNameIsKita 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I lost faith in God. I don't believe he ever loved me, I don't think he ever cared about me, and I also feel like he hates me and is punishing me for losing faith in him. :'( I don...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    Very much so. I mean there was years I couldn't look in a mirror without crying. I really don't like myself. There's only a cple of things about myself I really like but other than...
    lostwithin25 lostwithin25 22-25, F Sep 28

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    I'm so lonely. It's been a year since my ex left me - I'm still not over it. His name still comes into my head everyday. Our relationship was good, until I got depressed and that...
    ems177 ems177 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    If you have read my other story that I posted in this experience, you would know I lost a lot of important people throughout my life, people who I love dearly, I posted that story...
    Secret179688 Secret179688 18-21 Oct 10

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    I lost my v card when I was 13. I regret it so much people bullied me for 3 years because I made one mistake.
    lovelymaddi lovelymaddi 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    Dunkin has been gone for 24 hours now. My beautiful boy was always by my side, purring, and cuddling. I feel lost and alone.
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 12

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    Two months ago I thought she hated me, like everything I do is bad. But a month ago I found out that she was 6 weeks pregnant. :O my sister informed me via text, and I was excited...
    Trishhh Trishhh 22-25, F Oct 15

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    My younger brother died a month ago from blood cancer. He was 18 years old. I can't stop thinking that it should be ME, not him. He was such an amazing guy, he could have achieved...
    cyanesque cyanesque 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 17

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    In 2008 my 3 year old Nephew Chaince died from strangulation from a mini blind cord. He died a week after Christmas, in some ways I am lucky to have known and lost many people in...
    davidmuhn davidmuhn 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    And one day out of the blue i lost you too...Maybe it was my fault not having screamed at the tops of my lungs for what you did but it certainly wasn't me to blame you did it again...
    Eternelleme Eternelleme 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    Indeed I have.It feels as if everyone I meet either wants something from me or wants to screw with me.I always feel pressured to please people and if I don't meet the standard I'm...
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I had to have my beloved Sheba put to sleep 9 years ago and I still miss her every day. She was a starving stray when I took her in and I wasn't sure if she'd adjust. She did and...
    Dodger30y2k Dodger30y2k 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    You know i like to talk to people on here and help others with advice but damn like some of you really push it. Nothing but damn pervs and insisting on dating if i don't even know...
    RoughLife88 RoughLife88 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    47kg since April 1st 2012 to be exact. I would love to chat to people who have similar weight loss achievements.
    CassRL CassRL 22-25, F Sep 28

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    I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant on august 14th. I was so happy and from the moment I found out about my angel I loved him/her more than words could say. I carried that little...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    My cat Armand ran away two months ago. . . we still haven't found him. I really miss him; he loved to cuddle.
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 11

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    Harrison(16) and Joseph(15) you will always be in my heart why did you have to leave!!! I wish you never killed yourself and we're still here with me where you belong.
    MusicFreak81314 MusicFreak81314 13-15, F Oct 12

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    I have been abused physically and mentally by my mother and stepfather for 6 years of my live. every night i would pray for a better family but instead things just got worse.I...
    jonathan10018102 jonathan10018102 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just wanted to apologize for not answering most of my messages this past week. Very sad about the loss of Dunkin and haven't been in a chatty mood. Don't give up on me, I will...
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 4 days ago

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