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I Have Lost Someone I Love

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    I must have heard them all; things people say

    to someone widowed early. The most meaningful one came from a beautiful old widow. "Be grateful your husband died in your arms. Isn't it great a consolation that he did not die somewhere in someone else's arms? How many husbands and wives have made a bow to God 'til death do us...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    The Valley of Unknowns There were no warning

    signs to prepare me for all the emotional and physical unknowns. As early as during the wake of my husband, I was already in the valley. One unknown after another unknown began to manifest and I was caught by surprise. LOTS OF TEARS. I greeted each person who came to the wake...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Billira Billira 31-35, F Jan 4

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    I lost my grandpa and grandma

    and I want them because they were so kind to me and I loved them soo much
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Feb 28, 2014

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    I got a phone call yesterday night.

    "perri, it's Lucy. your uncle is ...." right there I knew what the phone call was about. my uncle was killed overseas in combat. he's my best friend and isn't here anymore.
    brown2306 brown2306 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    Deep In My Heart I've carved your name deep

    into my memory that you live in the depth of my soul. I've engraved it in my mind to adorn the pages of my life. I've thawed your name into my veins to flow to my heart in the silence of the night. I have kept your name like harvest songs and I remember it with tears of...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    4 years ago I lost my cousin.

    he was overseas and something happened to him. when I got to the hospital to see him, I had ready started to shut everyone out. when I saw him he had just gotten out of surgery and he didn't want to see anyone else but me. about 2-3 hours later he died with my arms around him...
    brown2306 brown2306 16-17, F Jan 20, 2014

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    My dearest dad has passed away

    for five months. I just couldn't stop missing him. I often cry at night. Oh, How I want to hear his voice calling me again! He loved me so much. When I felt helpless, not knowing what to do and where to go, it was always him that gave me the direction, comforted me, encouraged...
    constantiajeng constantiajeng 51-55, T Dec 14, 2014

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    Uncle Adam There are a lot of alcoholics in my

    family, including my father, now sober. But the first in our family to be recognised for this disease was my uncle, Adam. He was also the first to die because of it. He had always been an alcoholic as long as I could remember. He hadn't worked much in my lifetime, having...
    PersonalGenesis PersonalGenesis 22-25, F Jan 7

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    I miss him... I still miss him.

    I don't know sometimes how I am supposed to do this without you. I'm still angry sometimes that you were taken from me. I'm strong until I'm alone then my heart breaks over and over. I cannot move forward and I cannot go back. I want to forgive who took you from me.. I just can...
    Runningwild00 Runningwild00 41-45 2 Responses Jan 16

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    This past week I lost someone

    that I loved very much. Not in a sexual sense but in a way like a mother. This is going to sound funny but my mother-in-law. She was 88 and passed on Tuesday Jan 14. We are going to miss you Oma. (Oma in german is grandmother) She was an amazing women. My wife, daughter and...
    Rescuediver1874 Rescuediver1874 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    How callous when people place a time frame

    for grieving. You are expected to "get back in the saddle", and some are more concerned about your productivity and profitability. I remember, I became furious as the attempt was made to shoehorn me back into the mold. I was deeply pained and saddened and outraged that the world...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    My grandpas service was yesterday

    and I don't think it did him justice. Lots of his oldest friends didn't even show up. The one thing that keeps bothering me is my sister showed up and ate almost all the peanuts I brought home from his room just after he died. For some reason that really ****** me off. It's...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I had a dream that I found R.

    I was so totally overjoyed and so excited that I attempted to jump into his arms. The shock and confusion, even hostility, that he looked at me with was horrifying. He didn't recognize me. He didn't know me anymore. He reached out to our son in a tight embrace and laughed at how...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    My best friend growing up died over 2 years ago.

    I still find memories of him float up in my everyday life. I joined this group to see what is more common with grief. He was very young, died from drowning. I was devastated. I look forward to reading about the amazing lives that have left us, and how you cope, or even...
    Shniddleyway Shniddleyway 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    My Mom's Death I remember it clearly

    as though it happened yesterday. She was an amazing woman. Very independent yet not. My dad really held her together. I remember the night that he died. The fastest 24 hours of my life. And when we took her home, I cannot recall her ever crying so loud for so long. It broke my...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 4 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    The Death of My Mother She has Always been

    there Smiling most of the time And some times just a bit stern But always with kind words Advice designed to help And help me to get thru life No longer will i hear Her words of insight And sound advice When i think of her gone Tears seem to come to me As loss dawns on me...
    dragonfang dragonfang 51-55, M Dec 13, 2014

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    I just went to the funeral of my friend's

    father. Then there's a sudden feeling that engulfs in my nerve. I miss my papa. Who passed away last September, just after my birthday.
    moonchildd moonchildd 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    In the hospital where my husband

    and I worked, the cardioresucitator/defibrillator was put in his charge. Everyone knew how strict he was; meticulously careful with whatever was entrusted in his care. He would make his daily rounds to check on them. The doctors in the ER, reviving him at that time, couldn't...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    My Grandpa

    It's been 17 days now so I figured I'd write him a tribute- You will be missed dearly!!! Who am I going to have to pick on all my bf's, and tell mine and Cait's friends our dresses look crazy? You were a tough man and will never be forgotten in our family for sure.. We can all...
    babyblueeyes0417 babyblueeyes0417 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2011

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    I lost him a month ago.

    We were together for 4yrs. He said he's unhappy, that I'm complex and he's basic, that he can't see me in the future anymore, that I don't hang out with his friends too much, that we argue too much, he promised so many things including our future and the rest of our life. he...
    misskc22 misskc22 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I've lost someone dear to me.

    this happened awhile ago but I feel like I need to tell this story. I knew this girl her name was Christina and she was my very first girlfriend. we would do everything together be it from walking on the beach to just relaxing by the fire pit in my back yard. haha once she...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Our Crazy Angel

    I was shattered; emotionally torn, wiped out, and as hard of heart as you could get. Then I met Daniel. And within minutes, all that had melted away. It was the same for him. A uniting of souls, a shared passion. Against all odds I had fallen in love again. Under the WORST...
    wolvescry2 wolvescry2 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 20, 2011

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    My girlfriend 3 years ago today she was the

    only person to love me for who I am and did not care about my looks We loved each other it was long distance but we always Skyped she did not care about the five year age gap between us we had are whole future planned together but god decided to take her away Why god Why...
    Dynamite500 Dynamite500 18-21, M Oct 22, 2014

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    Sadness and Loss Tears falling Like sprays of

    salt From a sea wave Like rain from The skies above To fall from sad eyes' Eyes that see into A soul filled with sadness A soul that knows loss A soul of a person Who has lost a friend, A loving kind woman And a good friend Up in Heaven Where the angels dwell Some where above...
    dragonfang dragonfang 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Lost Him to the Sea.

    I loved him in that 6th grade, innocent way. His smile reminded me of the children I once ran the playground with. The boy who'd brush the dirt off my knee when I'd trip, even if his friends made fun of him. THAT was him. Even at 25, his presence made me kick at the tiny...
    ofthegallows ofthegallows 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I watched my Father die of cancer.

    For 3 years my dad fought terminal lung cancer. He died 3 years ago. I was by his side the whole time. I can never stop thinking about him. I can't concentrate on school or anything else. My friends haven't lost someone that close to them so I feel like u can't talk to anyone...
    heathermal123 heathermal123 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    My grandpa...the only one

    that meant anything to me out of my blood relation. I never met him until I was 13. We weren't super close, we didn't visit often, but I could completely trust him. When I was 17....One day some guy brought in a car and wanted him to buy it. He refused. A week later 3 men jumped...
    OrchidsNuBlu OrchidsNuBlu 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I lost someone so dear to me.

    I was in London for two months getting a treatment for bipolar disorder. While there I met this wonderful guy, one of the most amazing person who has ever lived. We got really close in that small time I was there, and I got my first boyfriend. We did everything together, we...
    RedLineEngineer RedLineEngineer 18-21, M Nov 1, 2014

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    True Happiness

    Its been almost a year since weve talked. The worst year of my life. iv made it closer to hell than heaven. Iv lived in darkness,struggling to find light. Wrapped myself in more tears than smiles. Slept to more nightmares than dreams. & worst part in that year i could no longer...
    BlackroseVsWhiterose BlackroseVsWhiterose 16-17, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I had this friend for 2 years,

    then she started having sex and getting knocked up (she's 14 OML..) and so I kind of just told her she isn't a good influence on me and I don't want to get with the wrong crowd, but now I miss her a lot.
    zennarts zennarts 13-15, F Aug 24, 2014

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    When i was 10 years old i was going to dance in

    the roll as Clara in the Nutrcracker, one of the most famous ballet shows. My Twin brother was dancing the prince role. On the rehearsals... My brother collapsed and was sent to the hospital. My brother had gotten leukemia. He did, only 10 years 7 months and 14 days old. Every...
    Leona248 Leona248 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    The Valley of Anger I had little control over

    my reactions to grief. I felt weak, almost breathless. I could not ignore the cold damp feeling of dread that crept over me. The following days, weeks and months and even in the years to come were filled with unpleasant choices I often handled with anger. I didn't understand nor...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Jan 18

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    It's really hard to focus on my finals

    when you still appear in my mind. You should be here right now, crying over finals with me instead of crying over you. Why?
    MacabreCannibal MacabreCannibal 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2014

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    Zachary

    I've lost many people I love in my life, both family and friends. The pain never goes away you just learn to live with the emptiness their absence leaves in your heart. Some you can at least say they lived a long and good life...but for some that is just not the case. We lost...
    magiceyes28 magiceyes28 36-40, F 4 Responses May 23, 2013

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    "Tread softly! All the earth is holy ground.

    " ~ Christina Rossett "Where there is sorrow, there is holy ground." ~ Oscar Wilde If that is true, then the four walls of my bedroom had become such a place. On the day his father died, when my son arrived home, he crawled up into my bed, where our hearts entwined in sacred...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Sometimes I want to scream into the sky,

    even though you can't hear me I just want to cry..... I feel like I'm all alone sometimes and you just left us here :( Colten started 4th grade and all he said he wished for is that you were here.... How oh how is this fair :( Colten's so brave, and I'm so close to breaking...
    butterflykisses21 butterflykisses21 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2014

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    Taken.

    I share story's... not a story, my freaking life. I met him when I was 11, on my birthday. We were running around chairs, he was lower than me, funny looking. I was trying to be a women already :D He said he loved me, I laughed. He was 14. We grew up. I loved him... I love him. I...
    s1lenc3 s1lenc3 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    New Begginning

    Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything. It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it. when my grandpa died in front of me his last words were "i cant breath". it was hard on us all. he ust to call me his...
    maverick321 maverick321 70+, M 1 Response Jan 26, 2012

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    Best Friend

    I've posted one story here, so I think this is also about that... He was the love of my life, yeh it really sucks loosing the love of my life... but he was also my best friend. You know after a great day, when something good happens, you want to run to someone, the one person...
    s1lenc3 s1lenc3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    He was actually the love of my life

    and the man who I was going to marry. He passed away last year from early onset Parkinson's . We met and fell in love several years ago, before he got sick. We had a wonderful life. We would go sledding in the winter, hiking in the warm weather, boating in the summer, and...
    emeraldangel emeraldangel 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    The Valley of Reality "You won't pass this

    test; you're not strong; you are angry.", the devil kept telling me in my mind. I didn't care if I passed a test I had never signed up to take. The kind of pain and devastation that come from the sudden death of a love one is beyond description. On a scale of one to ten, the...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    This is the one I have been dreading.

    The year my husband died, during the first Christmas, I walked through it in a daze, numb, fog. I know I am going to have to face it again this year, 'tho the intensity may be less. There is no way around having to feel his absence. I had no one and nothing to distract me from...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    My Dear Friend

    I have lost a very close friend, someone online, don't say anything ok. But she was such a good friend I love her so much, she stabbed herself in the lung and died in hospital. I believe although she's biologically dead a soul as beautiful as hers isn't going anywhere just yet...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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