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I Have Lost the Will to Live

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    I Can't Believe

    i can't believe that no one else has started this group yet.  i frequently dream that i die, and when i wake up, i realize that dying would be fine by me.  life has been a lot of wasted, futile effort for me.
    markgreen markgreen 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 15, 2008

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    I've Dedicated My Life To The Military.

    I spent my Junior and Senior years of high school in Air Force JROTC. And they were the best two years of my life. I knew what I wanted to do with my life. So, I enlisted in the Air Force last May. And I have been extremely proud of that decision. It's the only thing I can...
    davosalexander davosalexander 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    I Want To Go Home.

    I have lost my will to live. I only wish to sleep and never wake up. I used to love playing the violin as a professional violinist but having played recently I just feel dead inside. I feel terribly for my 13 year old daughter. I raised my older two children 23 and 20 with...
    Pleasegod Pleasegod 41-45 1 Response Dec 24, 2011

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    Understanding Myself - The Greatest Challenge

    Let's say I have two options to chose from, one of which will have a good outcome for me, the other will not. Surprisingly I can't stop myself from choosing the one that won't. I can't stop myself from doing this, and no matter how much I want my life to become less chaotic...
    mattjl mattjl 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    Just Don'T Feel Like Living Anymore

    I'm a woman who has lost interest in living. I've been not very interested in living this life, for my whole life. It's so pointless, the races we run and the contests we enter. What is there to be excited about? I'm just dreadfully tired of being on the Earth. Any doctor...
    Colliebird20 Colliebird20 41-45 5 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    I Have Lost The Will To Live.

    I'm not suicidal, I just don't care whether I live or die. I wake up in the morning (evening/afternoon) disappointed that I survived the night. I don't do anything anymore, I never go outside unless I have a doctor's appointment, (unless I cancel it) There's nothing I want to...
    Beastweaver Beastweaver 41-45, M 9 Responses Oct 20, 2011

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    I only go to doctors.

    My husband and I argue all the time. Our grandkids are with their sex addicted dad. I can't stand that. I don't know what to do.
    JBT3618 JBT3618 56-60, F 1 Response May 19, 2014

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    Tony’s Universal Theory – On “mental Health, And Other “problems”

    Hi ! Yes, I have a positive theory on “mental health”, so-called, which may apply to other areas also ? It is a little long, please forgive? Am discovering, as I write. Theory is simple. People, are just people. Not “patients”, “offenders&rdquo...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M Nov 10, 2010

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    I'm a couple months away from turning 30

    and it's something I've been dreading for some time. I was always told that gay life ends at 30 and if you're still single it's pretty much s wrap. I know that's ridiculous but I've always had this negative association with aging. I've always felt out of place socially, even...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 29

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    Well, I new here and heck I may

    even be too young. But excuse me if i'm doing this wrong but, I have recently lost the will to live. I have a high case of social anxiety, a sleep disorder that makes me always sad and tired. I'm failing school, my sister is a honour student and that causes high expectations for...
    MatthewNS MatthewNS 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 21, 2014

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    Hi From TonyCantlay

    Well, I'm not too bothered about privacy, for a start !  I don't understand the internet very well, and can't make head or tail of how this group works.  Anyway, I'm a 55 year old married man who has fallen out of love with life in a big way.  Live in London U.K...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M 6 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    My life does not mean anything to me.

    ..i have been brought here to suffer...there's a reason for my punishment from god...I hope that there is an end time cause this world sucks
    PuppetMaster87 PuppetMaster87 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Being young and struggling with severe chronic

    migraines and acid reflux.. I can tell you my life and physical appearance has changed like if I was some drug addict. Recently I've been getting swelling in my throats due to acid reflux, this makes it hard to to eat and breathe at times.. Secondly my hair is thinning, I cannot...
    littlemac64 littlemac64 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I've Done It All

    My life has started off pretty rough but I never let that stop me from achieving whatever it was I wanted or needed. My parents separated before I was born. My mother and my father both had drug addictions. I grew up on and off with my mother because she would get so bad that she...
    Ricole123 Ricole123 22-25, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Still Lost The Will To Live ....

    Hi - I just don't understand this site, but then I don't understand very much at all. How can the group have 13 members - or whatever, but only two stories ? I seem to be the only person in living memory who admits to having lost the will to live. Why is this ? Has everyone else...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M 4 Responses Oct 10, 2010

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    Everyday Is A Chore.

    I've hated myself for years and have cut myself many times but before now i've always wanted to keep going, i've always had something to keep going for , long term or short term. Now those things that I would once keep going for don't give me that will to survive like they used...
    thedemonandtheangel thedemonandtheangel 18-21 1 Response Jul 15, 2013

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    I Have Nothing To Add To The Dalai Lama

    Http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Listen-To-The-Buddhist-Dalai-Lama/1283818 . Message me, if you want ? Also, Dalai Lama Website has "Contact" Link. Tony.
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M Nov 23, 2010

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    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    What's The Point?

    I've been struggling for too long, finally (after years of medical neglect and misdiagnoses) I had the surgery I needed and my life is supposed to be getting better, problem is it took so long to sort out now there's nothing left of my life to salvage, I've also been left with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2012

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    I came to depend on a sporadic PM with an EP member who was seriously listening and helping me with my issues as an OW. Very sweet and kind person. I'm hoping I haven't offended...
    LotusLIL LotusLIL 46-50, F 3 days ago

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    I never knew what it felt like til I lost my precious baby almost a year ago. It still hurts me today. Time doesn't heal all. A parent should NEVER have to bury a child. I find...
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    I belong to a country where unfortunately caste still is everything. Your love has no meaning if your castes are not the same, your commitment has no value if you don't belong to...
    dela123 dela123 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I lost both my mother and grandmother to cancer, I am sorry for your loss.
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    I lost my aunt to cancer 9 months ago. It still feels the same as the first day I lost her. She was my second mother. She was in the delivery room with my parents. She held me...
    papayalover24 papayalover24 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Yes I have. I have been through a lot in life. I had lost both my parents when I was six. I grew up at my uncles with the siblings that kept picking on me. I worked hard and got a...
    mickeyboy09 mickeyboy09 36-40, M 11 Responses a week ago

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    I lost my mother to cancer 2 years ago tommorow having an extremly hard time with it right now I just want to cry so much it has been a hard road!
    Declanx Declanx 13-15, M 8 Responses Aug 25

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    I searched through experiences and I think this makes the most sense to me though my parents are alive. My mom and dad did horrific things to me and I can't express the suffering...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I spent last night at a viewing for my friends 15 year old daughter. a beautiful vibrant girl who gave generously of herself. She was a cheerleader and died on 8/20 from an...
    surgchic surgchic 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    kingkyrie kingkyrie 51-55, M 7 Responses Aug 24

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    Anth1290 Anth1290 22-25, M Aug 24

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    Back when I was in my previous relationship say 2 years ago I had all the faith in the world. My life was horrible. I didn't want to live. I held God close to my heart. Deepest...
    Butterflykiss707 Butterflykiss707 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 23

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    How to lose your faith: 1) Retreat into yourself 2) Use meds to numb your feelings and emotions 3) Never allow yourself to be alone with your thoughts 4) Tell yourself that...
    ERMAHGERD1 ERMAHGERD1 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 23

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    i don't really know how to start this out, so I'm going to jump right into it. When you were little there was nothing you care about, you'd dance around and not care if people...
    silverelephant silverelephant 13-15, F Aug 22

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    If you are one of those people that believes that you do, fine, stay where you are. However, I have decided that I don't need to bring a live into this world to be happy. Giving...
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 21

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