I Have Lost the Will to Live

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    I've Dedicated My Life To The Military.

    I spent my Junior and Senior years of high school in Air Force JROTC. And they were the best two years of my life. I knew what I wanted to do with my life. So, I enlisted in the Air Force last May. And I have been extremely proud of that decision. It's the only thing I can...
    davosalexander davosalexander
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 5, 2013

    I've Done It All

    My life has started off pretty rough but I never let that stop me from achieving whatever it was I wanted or needed. My parents separated before I was born. My mother and my father both had drug addictions. I grew up on and off with my mother because she would get so bad that she...
    Ricole123 Ricole123
    22-25, F
    Apr 24, 2012

    Well, I new here and heck I may

    even be too young. But excuse me if i'm doing this wrong but, I have recently lost the will to live. I have a high case of social anxiety, a sleep disorder that makes me always sad and tired. I'm failing school, my sister is a honour student and that causes high expectations for...
    MatthewNS MatthewNS
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 21, 2014

    Hi From TonyCantlay

    Well, I'm not too bothered about privacy, for a start !  I don't understand the internet very well, and can't make head or tail of how this group works.  Anyway, I'm a 55 year old married man who has fallen out of love with life in a big way.  Live in London U.K...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay
    56-60, M
    6 Responses Feb 21, 2010

    Understanding Myself - The Greatest Challenge

    Let's say I have two options to chose from, one of which will have a good outcome for me, the other will not. Surprisingly I can't stop myself from choosing the one that won't. I can't stop myself from doing this, and no matter how much I want my life to become less chaotic...
    mattjl mattjl
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

    I Want To Go Home.

    I have lost my will to live. I only wish to sleep and never wake up. I used to love playing the violin as a professional violinist but having played recently I just feel dead inside. I feel terribly for my 13 year old daughter. I raised my older two children 23 and 20 with...
    Pleasegod Pleasegod
    41-45
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2011

    Everyday Is A Chore.

    I've hated myself for years and have cut myself many times but before now i've always wanted to keep going, i've always had something to keep going for , long term or short term. Now those things that I would once keep going for don't give me that will to survive like they used...
    thedemonandtheangel thedemonandtheangel
    18-21
    1 Response Jul 15, 2013

    Still Lost The Will To Live ....

    Hi - I just don't understand this site, but then I don't understand very much at all. How can the group have 13 members - or whatever, but only two stories ? I seem to be the only person in living memory who admits to having lost the will to live. Why is this ? Has everyone else...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay
    56-60, M
    4 Responses Oct 10, 2010

    My life does not mean anything to me.

    ..i have been brought here to suffer...there's a reason for my punishment from god...I hope that there is an end time cause this world sucks
    PuppetMaster87 PuppetMaster87
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    What's The Point?

    I've been struggling for too long, finally (after years of medical neglect and misdiagnoses) I had the surgery I needed and my life is supposed to be getting better, problem is it took so long to sort out now there's nothing left of my life to salvage, I've also been left with...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4, 2012

    I Have Lost The Will To Live.

    I'm not suicidal, I just don't care whether I live or die. I wake up in the morning (evening/afternoon) disappointed that I survived the night. I don't do anything anymore, I never go outside unless I have a doctor's appointment, (unless I cancel it) There's nothing I want to...
    Beastweaver Beastweaver
    41-45, M
    10 Responses Oct 20, 2011

    I Have Nothing To Add To The Dalai Lama

    Http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Listen-To-The-Buddhist-Dalai-Lama/1283818 . Message me, if you want ? Also, Dalai Lama Website has "Contact" Link. Tony.
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay
    56-60, M
    Nov 23, 2010

    Tony’s Universal Theory – On “mental Health, And Other “problems”

    Hi ! Yes, I have a positive theory on “mental health”, so-called, which may apply to other areas also ? It is a little long, please forgive? Am discovering, as I write. Theory is simple. People, are just people. Not “patients”, “offenders&rdquo...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay
    56-60, M
    Nov 10, 2010

    I'm a couple months away from turning 30

    and it's something I've been dreading for some time. I was always told that gay life ends at 30 and if you're still single it's pretty much s wrap. I know that's ridiculous but I've always had this negative association with aging. I've always felt out of place socially, even...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    Just Don'T Feel Like Living Anymore

    I'm a woman who has lost interest in living. I've been not very interested in living this life, for my whole life. It's so pointless, the races we run and the contests we enter. What is there to be excited about? I'm just dreadfully tired of being on the Earth. Any doctor...
    Colliebird20 Colliebird20
    41-45
    5 Responses Apr 21, 2013

    I Can't Believe

    i can't believe that no one else has started this group yet.  i frequently dream that i die, and when i wake up, i realize that dying would be fine by me.  life has been a lot of wasted, futile effort for me.
    markgreen markgreen
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 15, 2008

    Being young and struggling with severe chronic

    migraines and acid reflux.. I can tell you my life and physical appearance has changed like if I was some drug addict. Recently I've been getting swelling in my throats due to acid reflux, this makes it hard to to eat and breathe at times.. Secondly my hair is thinning, I cannot...
    littlemac64 littlemac64
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Nov 29, 2014

    I only go to doctors.

    My husband and I argue all the time. Our grandkids are with their sex addicted dad. I can't stand that. I don't know what to do.
    JBT3618 JBT3618
    56-60, F
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    Throughout the day I question the meaning of

    life. What's my purpose here? Why was I born? Why do I keep waking up every morning? I've been depressed most of my life. I can remember being in 3rd or 4th grade ready to die because of pressure to excel in school. My dad was borderline abusive if you ask me. You know how black...
    ThomasAnderson04 ThomasAnderson04
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 10

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