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I Have Mpd and 19 Alters

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 18 People

    Two Weeks Of Torture

    I was diagnosed two weeks ago with MPD/DID. I have spent most of that time meeting my other personalities through journaling. However now there is a new voice in my head that drowns out the others. IT is a very dark and depressing voice, that tells me that I need to drink and cut...
    whytedragun whytedragun 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2010

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    The Start

    My name is Wyatt. Here are the names of my personalities Andy: angry, mean, and hates my siblings. Willis: Envious and Jealous. Milton: sucidel, murderous, and wants to run away. All of their names are versions of my name. My full name is Andrew: Andy, Wyatt: Willis, Milton...
    Bluninja Bluninja 16-17 1 Response Mar 5, 2013

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    My Alter Family

    I have 5 alters not including me.  I don't remember them being their forever.  I don't really even hear them.  I just know they are there.  One is very suicidal and loves to drink.  Two of them are very young and cry alot and rock and two more...
    belemilus belemilus 36-40 4 Responses Aug 2, 2009

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    All of Me

    Ok yall here goes;  I have always had many voices in my head some would act out to help in stressful situations.  I started when I was very young I do not know when the first was, I have always been ok playing by myself.  I know I have at least one female her...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 7 Responses Mar 24, 2009

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    Living With Mpd And My Family Doesn't Know...

    I have always had voices in my head. One always sounded angry and full of hate. I had always put it down to being half asleep as I am also an insomniac. Well, your mind can play tricks on you when you've had a lack of sleep. However, one morning something strange happened. I was...
    Secretsocks Secretsocks 16-17, F Jun 13, 2012

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    MPD

    Well i have way too many alters to name and not all want to say their names here so, basically i have just as many boys as girls and everyone is under 20. Anemone and Eureka are 2 of them they are 16. Ane is shy and super cute while Eu is her polar opposite sexy and wild...
    AnemoneEureka AnemoneEureka 13-15 10 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    Not Really Just 15

    we only have 15 but we don't need a hole grop to ourselfs for us im hattie im 4 and big emily wants me to stop riting so i ges i better go by
    sugarfooties sugarfooties 66-70 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    Alts

    think i only hvae 4 or 5 but i am begaing to question that todat as i think back i am missing parts but maybe that is just do to old gae you will find other stories in other areas for mpd
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Aug 27, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I need to talk about last night. Yesterday morning was great. 'A' wasn't feeling as sick as usual (she has been coming down with fevers for around two weeks now) and was able to...
    Remotay88 Remotay88 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    And my alters have decided that they have found us the one. I'm just wondering if anyone else has alters like mine. Because of my alters all being me, and the fact that I have no...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I don't know which of my alters are alters. I mean, if I had to count them, they're smth like 50. But I feel like there's two kinds of people in the system: - The lost souls, that...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Let me introduce myself. This will be long. I'm going to call myself M and I will refer to my wife as A. We've been married for only a few months as I write this. We are both 20...
    Remotay88 Remotay88 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    Only two people know about this. One of my best friends, and me (and my alters). My family don't know and I'm un-diagnosed (obviously)... I'm not sure if I should tell my family...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 4 Responses Dec 13

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    Only two people know about this. One of my best friends, and me (and my alters). My family don't know and I'm un-diagnosed (obviously)... I'm not sure if I should tell my family...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    My anxiety can flare up at any time and make me very ill. Some days I struggle with it, but most days I can keep it under control. Unfortunately, it alters my eating habits and I...
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    so i'm really curious about this, how does your system handle relationships? do you let alters date or does the host only date/whatever else???
    komaeda komaeda 16-17 3 Responses Dec 6

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    I must be really dense. About a year ago, my wife had some bad panic attacks...and we found she had OCD...and upon finding out what it was... she said she's been this way forever...
    WtfAmIHearing WtfAmIHearing 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    So I have a problem. One of my alters, Lara, is suicidal and cuts herself. When she does this she harms the whole system and if she dies, we all do. Her depression is really bad. I...
    Lisawellsliveson Lisawellsliveson 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just this weekend I was out with colleagues at a very busy pub and as usual found it very difficult to follow the conversation. I have always struggled when in noisy environments...
    ProfessorDrew ProfessorDrew 51-55, M 11 hrs ago

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    My childhood was a depressive phase. Not so much when we were where we live but when we went to our relatives' place during vacations. My mom's sisters are very conservative and...
    unsettledkp unsettledkp 18-21 18 hrs ago

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    2, both female. I've had 2 different cyberstalkers in my internet lifetime. They were both female and both under the age of 25. Stalking is a very serious thing. Cyberstalkers are...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 14 hrs ago

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    Well where to start? I guess it's always better to just put it out there....I was recent tly told I have liver disease and they think it's acute and that means it showed up without...
    Squeekarose Squeekarose 31-35, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Every so often I stop and think how lucky I am to have met some really cool, unique and truly amazing people.  This is for several of them.  If you read through this list...
    pineychick pineychick 31-35, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Not everyone is meant to have a relationship, have children or have lots of friends or even have friends. I don't have any of these but oh well, making the best of it. Have job...
    RetroRulez RetroRulez 31-35 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    She always has something to say to me. If I got a 99 on a test"Stupid, why didn't you get 100" If I get a good score in a competition"Stupid, so and so got higher." She calls me...
    IndianGirl123 IndianGirl123 13-15, F 31 mins ago

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    So this is a dream that i had about a week back. It felt so real and the content is kinda weird haha. So here goes: It was climbing period in school. Basically, a school period...
    Shimmerz479 Shimmerz479 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    You know I do find it funny when I come to this group to read stories. I find it funny because people my age who have no friends are rarely actually alone like me. The majority...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    It's about time I tell you guys about some of my problems to know me better. I have a specific crustacean food allergy. I can eat deep fried shellfish with crisp crust, but not...
    TetraZL TetraZL 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    I have to tell you the reason why I am the way I am. I am the way I am (crazy) because I have something wrong with my brain. And yes, I actually do belong in a mental hospital...
    AleaAndLexi AleaAndLexi 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    I hate it when people argue with me, and then end the argument by blocking me. Like. You blocking me without trying to finish the argument just takes all the fun out of it. like...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 7 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I love my "dent" my friends and I always joke about it however i wish I could wear bras that fit me properly. I'm a C/D cup but I have to wear B and even then it doesn't fit right...
    Nicoleq Nicoleq 18-21 19 hrs ago

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    My jealousy issue is driving the best relationship i have in my life to the brink of an end. I just cannot trust. I've tried. I've been trying my hardest to change and try...
    SolitarySol SolitarySol 31-35, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I have gained in the belly and now my *** is getting there too. I have weman grab me as in walking and live it.
    impregnator69 impregnator69 31-35, M 16 hrs ago

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    After really thinking through everything, about all of the moves I've made throughout the country, and where I am currently, I have pretty much next to no friends (in person). And...
    obscureriddle obscureriddle 22-25, F 12 hrs ago

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    Yea, just as it says, I have Aspergers Syndrome. It's tough at times. Yea, I have a great understanding of logic but the fact I don't understand emotions. Nor do I understand and...
    Tnert357 Tnert357 18-21, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I wish I have sense like spidey sense when someone have secret crush on me and take advantage of it (chuckle).
    562alex 562alex 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    I did have one in the tip of my tongue but I took it out to have these done 😜
    Louiseelmorexo Louiseelmorexo 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Nor do I want to be but have I come face my reaction- Idk, I guess I will just have to see, but if it's like the alien off of alien, I'm high tailing it outta there, but my butt...
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I am doing a lot of things that I'm not proud of but they are in the past now that doesn't mean I won't do something else I like a good challenge I love to have fun I think that's...
    jeepwrangler1 jeepwrangler1 46-50, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'd rather have both; which I have. I probably have too many acquaintances, honestly...but I consider only a small amount of them as my real, true, close, best friends.
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of everyone making a big deal out of abortion. If a woman decides to get rid of her own fetus then it's her life and not effecting you at all. It's her fetus , life and...
    ThePrettyOnee ThePrettyOnee 13-15, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Well just mainly my two best friends, we always have a good time together, make each other laugh, I can always count on them. We have been best friends since middle school and...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    I think all that have seen my profile know my fantasy but just in case: I want so fervently to fatten and **** a gainer girl and have belly sex with her.
    FormedFromClay FormedFromClay 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    My Mom died in 2008. My Dad died in 2009. My finace was killed in a motorcycle accident in 2010 Just 2 weeks before we were to get married and go to Costa Rica. Yes, I have been...
    Vickielynn1960 Vickielynn1960 51-55, F 6 hrs ago

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    I have normal dreams at times. For example, walking to places I know and comfortable with. But one night I had a dream: I can see orange surrounding me and large things in front...
    lunamaple lunamaple 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    My dream last night was a long one. We started out in a cemetery, the kids& I were cleaning the headstones and monuments, going in a clockwise pattern. We were also changing a...
    Harley53 Harley53 56-60, F 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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