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I Have Mpd and 19 Alters

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 17 People

    Two Weeks Of Torture

    I was diagnosed two weeks ago with MPD/DID. I have spent most of that time meeting my other personalities through journaling. However now there is a new voice in my head that drowns out the others. IT is a very dark and depressing voice, that tells me that I need to drink and cut...
    whytedragun whytedragun 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2010

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    All of Me

    Ok yall here goes;  I have always had many voices in my head some would act out to help in stressful situations.  I started when I was very young I do not know when the first was, I have always been ok playing by myself.  I know I have at least one female her...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 7 Responses Mar 24, 2009

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    Not Really Just 15

    we only have 15 but we don't need a hole grop to ourselfs for us im hattie im 4 and big emily wants me to stop riting so i ges i better go by
    sugarfooties sugarfooties 66-70 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    The Start

    My name is Wyatt. Here are the names of my personalities Andy: angry, mean, and hates my siblings. Willis: Envious and Jealous. Milton: sucidel, murderous, and wants to run away. All of their names are versions of my name. My full name is Andrew: Andy, Wyatt: Willis, Milton...
    Bluninja Bluninja 16-17 1 Response Mar 5, 2013

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    MPD

    Well i have way too many alters to name and not all want to say their names here so, basically i have just as many boys as girls and everyone is under 20. Anemone and Eureka are 2 of them they are 16. Ane is shy and super cute while Eu is her polar opposite sexy and wild...
    AnemoneEureka AnemoneEureka 13-15 10 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    Living With Mpd And My Family Doesn't Know...

    I have always had voices in my head. One always sounded angry and full of hate. I had always put it down to being half asleep as I am also an insomniac. Well, your mind can play tricks on you when you've had a lack of sleep. However, one morning something strange happened. I was...
    Secretsocks Secretsocks 16-17, F Jun 13, 2012

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    My Alter Family

    I have 5 alters not including me.  I don't remember them being their forever.  I don't really even hear them.  I just know they are there.  One is very suicidal and loves to drink.  Two of them are very young and cry alot and rock and two more...
    belemilus belemilus 36-40 4 Responses Aug 2, 2009

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    Alts

    think i only hvae 4 or 5 but i am begaing to question that todat as i think back i am missing parts but maybe that is just do to old gae you will find other stories in other areas for mpd
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Aug 27, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I have five alters that I keep in check for the most part, one of them has been acting up lately because he represents my sexual side and my dad's girlfriend's son is hot, add that...
    idenmarshals idenmarshals 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    And my alters have decided that they have found us the one. I'm just wondering if anyone else has alters like mine. Because of my alters all being me, and the fact that I have no...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I don't know which of my alters are alters. I mean, if I had to count them, they're smth like 50. But I feel like there's two kinds of people in the system: - The lost souls, that...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So, I've been doing research on DID and have come across some interesting things that made me think, like common names in alters. So I wanted to ask everyone who is willing to...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 8 Responses Nov 11

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    Does anybody else have Alters of themselves? I'm just a 6 year old version of myself in one of mine and I've never spoken to someone else with it before b
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    I have a large internal system. my core fractured when I was 12. it is reweaving itself together now. my father was a Dr and did cruel things to me. he stopped my heart 9 or 10...
    susieladybug65 susieladybug65 56-60, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    For over seven months, I've been in a relationship with someone, problem is I have a very sexual alter who is getting jealous of mine and his relationship... Is it bad of me to say...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    latlely I have been having troubles sleeping or staying asleep. no matter how tired I am I just can't do it. I have been having family troubles since my aunt past away Feb 14, 2...
    MarineGirlfriendMary MarineGirlfriendMary 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Idk what's going on or if I'm js overthinking it but the "baby" subject and me having one keeps getting brought up, like my friend Amanda had a dream Abt me being pregnant, today I...
    DRB92 DRB92 22-25, F 40 mins ago

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    i am now working ast cameraman in cine field....i want to tell somthing about prostitute the way of cinema so i have real story about prostitue.my story base:evry girl like haveing...
    kanagan kanagan 22-25 6 mins ago

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    The only good thing about having a bad cold is using the pun.....My nose is running and I have to go catch it.
    AlysonAnnaD AlysonAnnaD 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I don't think I've ever truly smiled. I don't think anyone has seen the real me. I don't think my friends have ever seen me cry. I don't think I've ever shown them the pain I go...
    SoulWriter17 SoulWriter17 16-17, M 1 hr ago

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    My mother may not make it through the night. But she might. I am unsure what I should do. She's trying to walk around...I am trying to stay out of the nurse's way as they try ti...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    There's two experiences I have had. The first time I wasn't trying to astral project, I was just going to sleep as normal and the next morning is when I realized that I had astral...
    Champagne77 Champagne77 18-21, F Oct 29

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    Sometimes, I sleep poorly not because my mind is too busy, or I am distracted, but because I fear the although light, definite responsibility of tomorrow. I guess it's just like...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 29

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    I hate it when people mistake my age through my looks.. Unlike my other friends , I have a baby face.. People in school thought I'm my friend's little sister..
    Sharlita Sharlita 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    I need help!!!!! i met my husband in 2008... we were young, loving life and infatuated with eachother. we got married in 2012 and here it is 2014 and I have felt for a year and a...
    lovexlife lovexlife 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    If you have a crush in me you're obligated to tell me because I am B L I N D when it comes to that sort of stuff.
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F Oct 29

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    Why are there SO MANY military wife/girlfriend/fiance groups? I'll assume the reason there isn't a reverse of this group is because most military personnel are male. It seems like...
    pinkypie5 pinkypie5 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    I never really had much friends as a little kid. I remember one time I thought I made a friend. She invited me to the football field. Nobody ever invited me anywhere so I was...
    AwkwardDemon AwkwardDemon 16-17, M Oct 29

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    I think I have trusted people too much and I was let down badly by them.I don't know why I still trust people.Trusting less may mean getting hurt less.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 12 Responses Oct 29

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    I want someone who will love me and care for me. To stand with me by my side, to have children with who we both love. That and more and whoever gives it to me has my heart body and...
    alohacruz alohacruz 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    I have two lovers. I don't want to hurt them, it's not fair, it's wrong. I can't seem to choose... They both satisfy different needs of mine, what one doesn't the other does. (Not...
    lowlowloks lowlowloks 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 29

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    Probably too many things. Skipping and leaving school I don't even have regrets over, so it isn't that. I regret messaging that former teacher a few months back and trusting that...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 29

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    I'm not sure of what's happening. I'm not sure if it's GSA, I mean, I assume it is. I'm confused about it and maybe if I share my experience, I can figure it out better. I'm a boy...
    Noahtuk Noahtuk 26-30, M Oct 29

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    I'm 20 and many people have told me I look as I am 17/18 or that I look young and that I look younger than I am. I don't know how to take this, as a compliment or rude. I have no...
    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 29

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    Do I think I've go it figured out? Does my wisdom sit on high? Am I so dilluted, That the truth will pass me bye. I have always wondered, why I feel the way I do. Always looking...
    Mindlabyrinth Mindlabyrinth 41-45, M Oct 29

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    Raisin cookies that looks like chocolate chip cookies are the main reason I have trust issues.
    hippiee hippiee 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    How do I let this go. My heart fills with woe, Will I loose my heart, Are we ment to be apart, I never thought so, How will I ever heal, Will I ever love this much, Can it ever be...
    Mindlabyrinth Mindlabyrinth 41-45, M Oct 29

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    This was taken at a friends gathering I have it on my Facebook profile! I took a picture of these two bunnies getting it on! The female which apparently was the one on the bottom...
    ThereIsNoName ThereIsNoName 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    I frequently have dreams where I'm facing some challenge.. like rock climbing to a plateau then a group of gypsies with wagons tell me I've done well and there's still a bit more...
    trmhippygirl7 trmhippygirl7 22-25, F Oct 29

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    I came to this site after sleepless nights of wandering the Internet while trying to calm my anxieties. It's been a few days since my Herpes diagnosis and I have experienced every...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 29

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    There have been moments over the course of the last few days where my life was the same. Where I felt like my cute, bubbly self. And then something small would happen; a thought, a...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    Trying to send the perfect picture for a friend on Snapchat and I'd be like "Why do I have to be so Ugly!?" :(
    TheKDoomsday TheKDoomsday 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    It has been years since I have had a "normal" sleeping pattern. It is to the point where I often wonder if I am no longer an insomniac, but rather just nocturnal instead.
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    I had crush on someone.. she was my class mate.. knowing her from childhood use to like her a lot and started growing feelings for her from very long time. I never felt d same for...
    purvajsheth purvajsheth 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 29

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    I wish I didn't hate my body so much. People tell me that I have nothing to worry about, and I am beautiful. I still find so many things wrong with my body and the way I look...
    PreciousAngel27 PreciousAngel27 36-40, F 12 Responses Oct 29

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    I have always loved dogs, but i could get one when i was 18. My first dog was a beautiful sheperd mix, he was a malinois/dutch sheperd mix. I trained with him and everything. Now i...
    Crazycoral84 Crazycoral84 26-30, M Oct 29

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