I Have Multiple Personality Disorder

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    I am one of many alters,

    Usually one of the forgotten ones. I am neglected by what's supposed to be my family. The don't care and they never will. I try to front and I usually succeed, but once they notice it's me, they push me away. I am a person, not just an alter. I have feelings too and it hurts to...
    Donottellanyone Donottellanyone
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    I got to know most of them over the years,

    but some of them refuses to open up, either too shy or too hardheaded. I do love each of them like they are family, even a certain one who always made my life miserable for a reason I still don't understand til this day. Some of them has helped me through situations, and some...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 28, 2015

    I'm in constant fear of going in

    and not coming back out for a while. the longest I did was almost a year. my husband hates it. he's begged me to stay, which I try really hard to do. I can't even imagine what it must be like living with someone multiple. the hell I've put that poor man through. :(
    erayn erayn
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 11

    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26
    46-50, F
    12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    Tonight, three of my alters killed themselves.

    It's horrible. Jake cried. For the first time in his life, the first time since we were six years old, Jake, the protector, cried. It's like losing a loved one. But worse because you feel like they were in the same mind with you and you could have done something to prevent it...
    Indigo27 Indigo27
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 1

    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2014
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    If I went to a therapist about this what would

    they do with me? I've heard they would hospitalize me. Is this true? What normally happens?
    BornFromShadows BornFromShadows
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    I was reading a page about how to deal with

    people who have DID, when more people would read pages like this it would be a lot easier to trust the people around us http://www.wikihow.com/Act-Toward-Someone-with-Dissociative-Identity-Disorder
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    Sep 18, 2015

    Since when do you all have your alter?

    Mine is here I guess since I was born he's more like an older brother to me right now than only an alter. He was more of a boogeyman to me because I'd... feel how he looked. I did not actually see him but you know the feeling of another person
    TightnShady TightnShady
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 17

    I used to hate having this disorder

    and I honestly still do sometimes but I've at least come to terms with it. The most dominant one is the little girl that likes to always be present 24/7. That makes it kinda hard when I'm tryna focus in school but I've made it to the 11th grade so I must be managing well lol.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 16

    How can I keep from coming out

    when I shouldn't? Is it possible that just being around a certain person can trigger my switching? It's an in law and I don't want to ruin things. Being around her I always slip out and idk why. I'm struggling so bad today :(
    BornFromShadows BornFromShadows
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

    So my alters and I came up with this idea,

    which is when an alter appears during school hours they have to right down their marking on my left arm (why my left arm? I don't know). And by their marking I mean: Σ Δ Θ Κ Ζ Ε Ω Γ Η Ι So far today, I switch to Sigma, Epsilon, Delta, and Kappa.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    It all started out with Mary,

    than Anna, Elsa, Steve, and Kim. After a few months, Roxy appeared. It was so simple back then, with only 7 people sharing one body. But it grew and kept growing until this last week. Here is a list, wrote by Anna and Alyssa! (If you are going to judge me, please don't respond...
    Donottellanyone Donottellanyone
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2015

    I am a bit confused..

    .my doctor has told me that I may have DID brought about from 20 years of continuous sexual abuse starting around 3 or 4 years old. I never really thought it was anything out of ordinary. I just figured I had a bad memory or ADD. I would have conversations and the persons voice...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 23

    I feel so stupid for this.

    like I should be able to control it but sometimes I can't. and when I can it makes me feel like I must be full of it.
    JessygotaBooBoo JessygotaBooBoo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 11

    Hi, I am new to this group.

    I joined because I am confused an need help. My main question is, do I have MPD. in my head I hear two voices (John and Potentia) Potentia rarely speaks, so I am usually talking to John. Potentia has been there for a long time (don't know how long exactly) John has been there...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld
    16-17, M
    1 Response Dec 16, 2013

    There is a demon in us all.

    For some people it comes out easier than others. Our very own... Hadrian Coull, the only one who refuses to use our given last name. He would smile and kill and plan your death. You can knock him down but no matter how hard or how many he won't stay down, bruised, broken or...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 10, 2014

    Where Is The Fight!?!?

    Please tell us there is someone out there still willing to fight! Fight o be happy! fight to be healthy! and fight to gain your lives BACK AND TAKE BACK WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM YOU AND YOUR OTHER SELVES!!! It seem that every system we have met to date has given up or "settled" for...
    SystemK SystemK
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 1, 2012

    Flashbacks...

    You've gotta love them...they just creep up on you when you least expect it and freak you right out. It is as though they seem to know you're at a moment of peace and then, BAMM--- you remember a flash of your past that is very unpleasant. I have a hard time dealing with them...
    Leena26 Leena26
    46-50, F
    11 Responses Feb 25, 2012

    Sadira

    I  forgot about her. I don't have alters that come out. But they're still there. They seem to feed off my attention? Sadira breaks things down to the sum of their parts, viciously. I can't think of an example but it's very depressing. She is pure depression and cynicism...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    17 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    I have polyframented personality disorder.

    I have an alter, her name is Penny she is 2 years 4 months. I named her when I was 4. Penny goes really fast through tunnels of white light, I have a hard time controlling her sometimes. I've been working on this for several year but have felt very isolated and have isolated...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 1, 2015
    himenoko143 himenoko143
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    Fighting personality- Sapphire Naughty

    personality- Jade Protective personality- Jackson Depressed personality- Red Dark personality- Dal Funny personality- Chester Small voice personality- Hector Laughing personality- Goldie Frustrated personality- Sadie I have a total of nine personalities. They usually...
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    Apr 2

    Confusion About The Self

    My name is Olivia, and to start off with, I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia by high school. But after a lot of research and pills that don't help I truly believe i have multiple personality disorder. It's hard for me to talk about, but I have 5 people that are very closely a...
    lightningoddess lightningoddess
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 1, 2013

    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2014

    So I am getting used to all the different

    personalities, they are popping up all the time now. Not sure exactly why I havent seen them before or why they are coming out only now, but I can say that I have had a insane two weeks...
    tastone tastone
    70+, F
    Mar 8

    Hi guys, please I need help.

    Me myself I have only one personality, but my fiance I suspect has 3. I only met them for the first time the past weekend, and I was sure my man was dying... I dont know how exactly it happend, but when I found him he was lying on the floor convulsing, like he was having an...
    tastone tastone
    70+, F
    5 Responses Feb 29

    I finally got some sleep.

    Basically slept through the entire day yesterday. Only to "wake up" and find my finger cut and pictures and notes on my phone from various points throughout the day. I guess I didn't sleep as much as I thought...
    Indigo27 Indigo27
    16-17, F
    Mar 7

    Hi, I Have Another Side To Me.

    I AM a girl, the usual me is down the earth, chill, not tolerant to many people but still open somehow, innovator, etc. Francisco: Demon... Francisco comes out when i'm mad. My pupils get bigger, my skin turns ice cold, i black out. I'll hurt you anyway possible. I'll fight you...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 29, 2012

    I Am Amazed

    Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we all came out with caring kind child alters... I do have some bad/mean alters...
    elderwitch47 elderwitch47
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    MissBloodKittie MissBloodKittie
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

    The We of Me

    I have dealt with this my whole life and did not understand others did not until I was in my 20's.  I have a fairly stable community of alters, personailties, or whatever you wish to call them.  For the most part we share the memories and experiances with each other...
    allofus allofus
    46-50, M
    10 Responses Apr 20, 2009

    sometimes I'm really glad my protector (one of

    my personalities) is testing people before I accept them in my life, keeps me from a lot of disappointment
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart
    31-35, T
    27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

    Dream Fight

    Last night I had the strangest dream (that means alot coming from me).  It was like a small room and there were so many people inside it, some were talking and others arguing, but not everyone could fit into the room.  So the ones outside were trying to pull others out...
    allofus allofus
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jan 17, 2010

    Well I recently just discovered this place

    and I thought it would be a great idea to post stuff about my personalities and I. Well I might as well introduce them, "Rex" - original me, Rex isn't my real name and I don't want to post my real name do to personal preferences Alejandro - this personality is the "good" side...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2014

    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Aug 1, 2014

    I'm always scared that one day I won't be able

    to hold back an alter from fronting, and then possibly found out that the alter hurt someone I love. I've heard it happen and I'm petrified of it happening to me
    Dazino Dazino
    16-17
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Hello. I suspect I have multiple personality

    disorder but I'm not really sure and I need another opinion but I'm scared to ask anyone I know (no offense, I'm sorry). I have periods of time where I don't have memories. I walk into a room and forget why I did. And sometimes I feel deja vu, like from once a few weeks to 13...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Jun 22, 2014

    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 22, 2014

    One of my personas has been becoming more

    powerful lately. There's a lot to her (I'm still learning) I've been letting her do what she believes is best. However, it's intimidating to me at times. You see... I'm awkward, shy, soft spoken and anxious but she (doesn't have a name really) is aggressive, daring, and...
    ladysapio ladysapio
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 4, 2015

    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Jun 6, 2014

    Suddenly I see the truth.

    ....... I'm an alter :(
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    I been feeling really weird lately.

    .. I think I might have MPD because I switch moods and sometimes when I wake up I can't decide between good clothes or bad clothes it's really weird I just need help from anyone if they think I might have MPD.
    CeCeGuy CeCeGuy
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    ****VERY LONG DEscriptION****I've never told

    anyone about this before and it's one of my darkest secrets. But I have 3 alters that make up "me." They don't have names so I gave them nicknames according to what they do, there's "Soul," "Shell," and "Ego." Only one can be dominant at a time, and they switch. Recently I've...
    Ikebanna69 Ikebanna69
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 29, 2015

    Sometimes I wonder if I'm valid

    because I have heard so many stories of people faking it, I don't really know if the trauma I faced is liable for this disorder. but, since we're all allowed to share our stories here, I'm going to try to make sense of myself. Triggers: substance abuse, alcohol, sexual abuse...
    Dazino Dazino
    16-17
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    I'm really scared to look in the mirror

    because I don't see myself anymore
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    One has opened up to me in a new way.

    A few nights ago i had a dream, ive felt i kind of knew what it meant, but the thing is, he sees things the way that they arent, and is very very very sensitive to alot. But as i saw something in the dream (not really worth sharing here, but it was pretty bad), he began to come...
    xseventyXsevenx xseventyXsevenx
    18-21, M
    Jan 23

    I realized something today,

    I front a lot less than my alters. Maybe I am an alter myself. I always guessed that I am the real me but than I wonder who I am? Am I me? Was I a lie? Just feeling a bit lost
    Donottellanyone Donottellanyone
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    I think our cat can tell the difference between

    us....I wonder if anyone else experiences this? -Green
    WeAreALittleRandom WeAreALittleRandom
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 17

    9 alters and I wish I didn't have them,

    but at the same time I love them. Jade- sexual Unknown- sassy, sarcastic, smart *** Goldie- laughs at everything Sadie- bipolar, easily angered Dal- dark, cruel Sally- energetic, happy Slade- sarcastic, straight faced Jackson- protector, first alter Red- depressed, self...
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 8

    Diagnosed an hour ago.

    I knew the whole time.
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls
    16-17, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2015

    All 9 Of Me/Us/Them

    Hi I will start to introduce them, 1. The child is the most important and sane one of us. The is 5 years old. Innocent and carefree. 2. Surviver Emily is a tough with a military like way of doing things. She is not to be crossed! She had to be born in my hour of need. She was...
    drakneko drakneko
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    Its funny.........my mom always thought I just

    had a wild imagination. Turned out it wasn't exactly that. It wasn't til I was 14 I realized what it was. First time Ace came out was when my mother got with this guy that was so bad for her. She actually abandoned her kids for him.......but I notice more frequently I was having...
    Ace43262 Ace43262
    22-25, F
    Apr 9

    Hey.. I am pretty sure I have MPD.

    . I have all the symptoms and voices in my head telling me stuff and commenting on things I do. I am here for anyone who wants to talk about it.
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    Apr 4

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