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I Have Multiple Personality Disorder

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    I hate it when I can feel the suppression of

    certain parts of me. I can feel them just below the surface; there is a fullness in my brain, pressure behind my eyes, tightness in my lungs, and this feeling just under my skin as though I'm a balloon about to explode. I want to grab myself and shake myself violently until...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    Having multiple personalities can be

    frustrating a lot of the time(for me)because they both have their own style and things they like to do. I have clothes that I rarely wear and stuff that I barely use only cause one of my personalities wanted to wear or play with it. Then they both have different taste in who...
    CryingMyselfToSleep CryingMyselfToSleep 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    There is a demon in us all.

    For some people it comes out easier than others. Our very own... Hadrian Coull, the only one who refuses to use our given last name. He would smile and kill and plan your death. You can knock him down but no matter how hard or how many he won't stay down, bruised, broken or...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    Hi, I am new to this group.

    I joined because I am confused an need help. My main question is, do I have MPD. in my head I hear two voices (John and Potentia) Potentia rarely speaks, so I am usually talking to John. Potentia has been there for a long time (don't know how long exactly) John has been there...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    Hi.. My names Xander I'm the other personality

    of Justin's. If you have any questions talk to Justin and he will let me know and I'll answer them. And by the way I am a shy nervous guy..
    Omegawolf11 Omegawolf11 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    Amid the crowd they hear a scream,

    they pass it by like a mere dream, vast amounts of the human race, the likes of which are not my taste, they suffer and cry, they beg and lie, love and torment, untold lament, pouring tears, upon their peers, so forgive my transgressions, for I have none of their obsessions, one...
    fenrirandimpachi fenrirandimpachi 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    Flashbacks...

    You've gotta love them...they just creep up on you when you least expect it and freak you right out. It is as though they seem to know you're at a moment of peace and then, BAMM--- you remember a flash of your past that is very unpleasant. I have a hard time dealing with them...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 10 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    What To Do About A Girl Who Fakes Being Multiple

    Okay, so there is this girl who goes to my school and has found out about The Hotel (My multiple system)... At first, she didn't say anything directly to me or anyone else who was out, but instead she would talk to my others friends and tell them about how I'm "faking" this for...
    Ambergon Ambergon 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    I'm very new here... And I've recently come to

    terms with my alters. There's three of us. I am Santi, and the other two are Meza and Sopa. We're all very confused of how we came to be like this. They are named after my two most common usernames, which I always find interesting because they innately chose those names before...
    censoredbysopa censoredbysopa 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I started having symptoms around six months ago.

    Since then I've been in therapy and together my therapist and I realized that I have two alternate personalities. One is my age. He's extremely violent and loves hurting others, as well as inanimate objects. The other is a seven year old boy who likes to make friends with...
    reaperthejack reaperthejack 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    I Am Amazed

    Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we all came out with caring kind child alters... I do have some bad/mean alters...
    elderwitch47 elderwitch47 46-50, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Confusion About The Self

    My name is Olivia, and to start off with, I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia by high school. But after a lot of research and pills that don't help I truly believe i have multiple personality disorder. It's hard for me to talk about, but I have 5 people that are very closely a...
    lightningoddess lightningoddess 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    I have at least 3 distinct personalities.

    It's difficult to know which one is the real me.
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't take anything to "help" my disorder

    because I believe that will only silence them and I do not want that. I like talking to them, hearing what they have to say, and if they have a problem they can talk to me, or if I have a problem I can talk to them, or if there's nothing I can do to help them, they can talk to...
    MrMenShow MrMenShow 18-21, F Jul 26

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    So my alters and I came up with this idea,

    which is when an alter appears during school hours they have to right down their marking on my left arm (why my left arm? I don't know). And by their marking I mean: Σ Δ Θ Κ Ζ Ε Ω Γ Η Ι So far today, I switch to Sigma, Epsilon, Delta, and Kappa.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Weekend weekend I love the weekend!

    I get to have so much fun! Do you like the weekend? Of course you do it's the weekend ^_^ ~Theta
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    Hi. Im new to this so.

    . please be understanding! I only have one personality. Her name is DoryBob and she is 3. Is it common to only have one alter?
    SallyandBob SallyandBob 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    Yup, I'm friends with some of them

    and we get along, they understand they can't go weird with my body. Then some of them just enjoy being difficult, arguing with my husband or best friend and always making it clear that they hate everything for some reason...and then there's one who...I just don't know, before I...
    FloridaGirl93 FloridaGirl93 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    My personalities are: Amber Smith,

    Emily Johnson, Bobby Jackson, Emo Savanna, Slutvanna, Mature Savanna, Mr. Sudsbeard.
    AmberSmith13 AmberSmith13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    My Fears Of The Outside...

    All my life I have had many fears-I didn't know why until I was diagnosed with DID. One of my worst fears is going outside. I feel so afraid and I can't seem to get a handle on it. I will go to the window and look out and get this huge knot in my chest and the thought of leaving...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    Hello. I suspect I have multiple personality

    disorder but I'm not really sure and I need another opinion but I'm scared to ask anyone I know (no offense, I'm sorry). I have periods of time where I don't have memories. I walk into a room and forget why I did. And sometimes I feel deja vu, like from once a few weeks to 13...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally

    known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and get some things out of the way. First of all I will answer the questions people ask me most:-So, you are schizophrenic?*No! Absolutely not, that...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Aug 22

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    In the beginning, there was just me.

    The one born in the body as a baby. Then, there was "Niemo" (codename for use on this site). And then Y, V, T, Danny, Crave, Aeli, B, Zakk, Barry, Liza, Tony, Mommy, Daddy, Tomi, Billa, Kehl Rabenstein, Puppet Master, Lucifer, Tobi, Jack, Andres, Flyboys (group), Lilith, Gabriel...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 3 Responses May 28

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    idk if I actually have multiple personality

    disorder, but suffering from border line personality disorder makes me feel like I have different personalities due to my ability to switch modes n roles, quickly.... BTW, the movie Cybil with Sally Field is not a true story... FYI...but in the movie Girl Interrupted, Angelina...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 1 Response Aug 18

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    So my name is Jazmin

    and i have four other personalities. it took me awhile to figure out why i had this Disorder, or what it was. Firstly Multiple personality disorder is a mental disorder when other personalities or people form inside you head and can sometimes even control your emotions. I reason...
    ScarletandRose ScarletandRose 13-15, F 2 Responses May 8

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    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Has anyone here with DID ever feel like they

    have no personality? Like a void dark type feeling with no feel of drive to do or say anything but you try anyway because you know it's better than nothing? Or maybe you just cant talk to people not because your scared of them but because you'll scare them? I'm really curious to...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I've finally been diagnosed,

    people now take me more seriously
    treescarab treescarab 22-25, F Jun 20

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    Does anybody else have Alters of themselves?

    I'm just a 6 year old version of myself in one of mine and I've never spoken to someone else with it before b
    LittlePrincess01 LittlePrincess01 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    There are seven of us: Ria,

    Rose, Ally, Delilah, Alex, Lexi, and Pearl. We are able to change who is the main person, and have done so in the past. Each of us are our own people: we all have different mannerisms, tastes, goals, and past. When we blackout, we share our memories to the others to avoid...
    Venialia Venialia 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16

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    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    This acting.......this constant acting like

    everything is fine, act like I can handle things, act like there is nothing wrong, act like I love my family, act act act act! I don't know how for how much more I can keep this up
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I have 3 Alters, Oscar- the nerd.

    .. Chase- when I'm in water like when I take a shower, or at the pool... John- the puppet guy. And those are my alters some I can control others I can't
    FidoMan FidoMan 13-15, M Aug 14

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    Hi, I Have Another Side To Me.

    I AM a girl, the usual me is down the earth, chill, not tolerant to many people but still open somehow, innovator, etc. Francisco: Demon... Francisco comes out when i'm mad. My pupils get bigger, my skin turns ice cold, i black out. I'll hurt you anyway possible. I'll fight you...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    Iris Iris is one of my alters

    who is really hard to control. She is very strong minded and loves to break people mentally. I've lost some of my best friends because they couldn't deal with Iris. Somehow I can understand that but it also makes me sad. Iris really hates me and absolutely believes we don't...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Aug 16

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    Hey im wanting to talk to people around my age

    who also have DID please please add me on skype or google+ hangouts so we can chat :D SnowAngelFrostPup
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    So today is a holiday,

    the only two friends I have aren't talking to me. I hold them so dearly and I feel like they're dead... I don't know why this happens. I'm close to just breaking down and crying, why was I made fragile and attached to anything that notices me?
    DarkHappiness DarkHappiness 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Where Is The Fight!?!?

    Please tell us there is someone out there still willing to fight! Fight o be happy! fight to be healthy! and fight to gain your lives BACK AND TAKE BACK WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM YOU AND YOUR OTHER SELVES!!! It seem that every system we have met to date has given up or "settled" for...
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