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    Hi, I've read a lot of your experiences

    and most of you talk about "black outs". How does it feel? How can your alters be so disrespectful towards you? I want to know because mine would never do that, the like me or the ones that hate me just ignore me. Do you even have any kind of relationship with them?
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    Hello. @.@

    Hey, everyone. I wanted to take some time to introduce myself and the 5 alters (if that's okay...). I guess I'll start with the alters... 1) Keiko - Keiko has been around for a long time, constantly taking care of me and the others (you could say she is a mother figure). She...
    ZenoKun ZenoKun 18-21 3 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Hi. Im new to this so.

    . please be understanding! I only have one personality. Her name is DoryBob and she is 3. Is it common to only have one alter?
    SallyandBob SallyandBob 16-17, F Apr 18

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    So my alters and I came up with this idea,

    which is when an alter appears during school hours they have to right down their marking on my left arm (why my left arm? I don't know). And by their marking I mean: Σ Δ Θ Κ Ζ Ε Ω Γ Η Ι So far today, I switch to Sigma, Epsilon, Delta, and Kappa.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Has anyone here with DID ever feel like they

    have no personality? Like a void dark type feeling with no feel of drive to do or say anything but you try anyway because you know it's better than nothing? Or maybe you just cant talk to people not because your scared of them but because you'll scare them? I'm really curious to...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 15

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    I feel that way! by now!

    i have been alone most of them! i travel alone, go to eat or do other things alone, i always wanted to a nice lovely and beautiful gf! but it never got one! My loneliness and sadness has made me different! when i am completely alone a girl comes out from me she makes me feel...
    Idontknowwhomiam Idontknowwhomiam 22-25 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Hi.. My names Xander I'm the other personality

    of Justin's. If you have any questions talk to Justin and he will let me know and I'll answer them. And by the way I am a shy nervous guy..
    Hellfire66 Hellfire66 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    Hiya im a Mike an im a alter.

    . heh the Host just kinda up an left locked himself up an well we dont really have anyone in charge... but lately iv been aware most an iv been finding it really annoying when i chatting with my best friend an i like blank out... an when everything clears im sucking my thumb an...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M Dec 3, 2014

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    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here

    because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or diagnostic, but I read a lot of things that are very similar to my experience, so here it is: I'm 17 years old, and I draw since 7 years...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F Sep 14, 2014

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    Well I recently just discovered this place

    and I thought it would be a great idea to post stuff about my personalities and I. Well I might as well introduce them, "Rex" - original me, Rex isn't my real name and I don't want to post my real name do to personal preferences Alejandro - this personality is the "good" side...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 3, 2014

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    All 9 Of Me/Us/Them

    Hi I will start to introduce them, 1. The child is the most important and sane one of us. The is 5 years old. Innocent and carefree. 2. Surviver Emily is a tough with a military like way of doing things. She is not to be crossed! She had to be born in my hour of need. She was...
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Hello, it is me again.

    It has been a while. I feel so disconnected from everything like i am in a dream. I want to wake up but i can't. Cal is back. He says he loves me, its been a really long time since i have seen him. He said i was angry with him but i can't remember why. I don't want to be...
    minibird minibird 18-21, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I NEED ADVICE! So when I first fragmented,

    I was mostly in control. I kept Sigma and Epsilon (the first two Alter's) in check. No one knew what was wrong with me, so that caused even more bullying from the other kids making things harder for me. Sometimes I switched and caused trouble when Sigma took control, and...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2014

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    Hey im wanting to talk to people around my age

    who also have DID please please add me on skype or google+ hangouts so we can chat :D SnowAngelFrostPup
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I Am Amazed

    Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we all came out with caring kind child alters... I do have some bad/mean alters...
    elderwitch47 elderwitch47 46-50, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Weekend weekend I love the weekend!

    I get to have so much fun! Do you like the weekend? Of course you do it's the weekend ^_^ ~Theta
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    These past few days have been a blur.

    I'm constantly switching whenever I get stressed, which is almost every time and everyday. Some freshmen kid at my high school started a fight with me, I'm a junior, but I tried not fight but everyone around us was forcing me to. The kid hit me first when I wasn't looking, and...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 28, 2014

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    I Hate Change

    Around the age of 11, L showed up. We still don't know why, but it happened. Somehow, she knew what she was without any problem and she was able to keep life "normal" looking. Through the years, we've worked out how to keep a "common memory" as my husband calls it and keep some...
    sljz sljz 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    I saw my psychiatrist today

    and I have new hope of being able to integrate all my personalities through therapy! YAY! The only alter I really don't like is the one that expresses anger. She is very hostile and has been violent. She uses language that is despicable to me! I really like my psychiatrist, he...
    TeriJessie TeriJessie 56-60, F Dec 23, 2014

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    There is a demon in us all.

    For some people it comes out easier than others. Our very own... Hadrian Coull, the only one who refuses to use our given last name. He would smile and kill and plan your death. You can knock him down but no matter how hard or how many he won't stay down, bruised, broken or...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    Does anybody else have Alters of themselves?

    I'm just a 6 year old version of myself in one of mine and I've never spoken to someone else with it before b
    LittlePrincess01 LittlePrincess01 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    My personalities are: Amber Smith,

    Emily Johnson, Bobby Jackson, Emo Savanna, Slutvanna, Mature Savanna, Mr. Sudsbeard.
    AmberSmith13 AmberSmith13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Only two people know about this.

    One of my best friends, and me (and my alters). My family don't know and I'm un-diagnosed (obviously)... I'm not sure if I should tell my family, or at least one of them... My main fears that have stopped me doing so are, I don't want to be treated differently (in a bad way...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2014

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    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    Frustrated With Doctors..........

       I am so sick of being treated like I am stupid! Book-smart is what they are - Whoopie!!! I think that I know more about mental illness than they do. When I have to fight to get the medications that I NEED it's like pulling teeth. I haven't seen my psychiatrist in 5 years and...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I have five alters that I keep in check

    for the most part, one of them has been acting up lately because he represents my sexual side and my dad's girlfriend's son is hot, add that to the fact that I haven't had any sexual contact in three months and you have a recipe for disaster
    idenmarshals idenmarshals 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 31, 2014

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    MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM THE META SYSTEM!

    (Picture made by epsilon)
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    One of my alters have alters.

    I'm a Russian doll.
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2014

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    My system is a house.

    We all live in this house, with our own rooms (bedrooms) and communal rooms. Like the lounge room and library. We also have something like a prison, where the door only locks and opens from the outside, (its a nice rooom). There's also two studies and a council room. Our house...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    So today is a holiday,

    the only two friends I have aren't talking to me. I hold them so dearly and I feel like they're dead... I don't know why this happens. I'm close to just breaking down and crying, why was I made fragile and attached to anything that notices me?
    DarkHappiness DarkHappiness 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    Where Is The Fight!?!?

    Please tell us there is someone out there still willing to fight! Fight o be happy! fight to be healthy! and fight to gain your lives BACK AND TAKE BACK WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM YOU AND YOUR OTHER SELVES!!! It seem that every system we have met to date has given up or "settled" for...
    SystemK SystemK 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    We're all watching a show at the moment.

    It's not called multiple personality disorder anymore you know, it's dissociative identity disorder. Not that we have it just thought I'd point it out. She's excited about this new show and keeps thinking about what she'd do if she were in it. She doesn't want me to say that...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    What To Do About A Girl Who Fakes Being Multiple

    Okay, so there is this girl who goes to my school and has found out about The Hotel (My multiple system)... At first, she didn't say anything directly to me or anyone else who was out, but instead she would talk to my others friends and tell them about how I'm "faking" this for...
    Ambergon Ambergon 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    My mpd, at least the one

    that i register most with, is named Savannah Mae Carter. On my profile that's what it says, so people i know personally can't find me online. Anyway her name is Savannah, 21 years old from Bellevue Washington. She makes a living by prostitution and is actually the one who enjoys...
    iamaphrodite iamaphrodite 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    Hi, I am new to this group.

    I joined because I am confused an need help. My main question is, do I have MPD. in my head I hear two voices (John and Potentia) Potentia rarely speaks, so I am usually talking to John. Potentia has been there for a long time (don't know how long exactly) John has been there...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Hello. I suspect I have multiple personality

    disorder but I'm not really sure and I need another opinion but I'm scared to ask anyone I know (no offense, I'm sorry). I have periods of time where I don't have memories. I walk into a room and forget why I did. And sometimes I feel deja vu, like from once a few weeks to 13...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Celasta Celasta 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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