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    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here

    because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or diagnostic, but I read a lot of things that are very similar to my experience, so here it is: I'm 17 years old, and I draw since 7 years...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I have five alters that I keep in check

    for the most part, one of them has been acting up lately because he represents my sexual side and my dad's girlfriend's son is hot, add that to the fact that I haven't had any sexual contact in three months and you have a recipe for disaster
    idenmarshals idenmarshals 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 31, 2014

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    I feel that way! by now!

    i have been alone most of them! i travel alone, go to eat or do other things alone, i always wanted to a nice lovely and beautiful gf! but it never got one! My loneliness and sadness has made me different! when i am completely alone a girl comes out from me she makes me feel...
    Idontknowwhomiam Idontknowwhomiam 22-25 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    There is a demon in us all.

    For some people it comes out easier than others. Our very own... Hadrian Coull, the only one who refuses to use our given last name. He would smile and kill and plan your death. You can knock him down but no matter how hard or how many he won't stay down, bruised, broken or...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    Flashbacks...

    You've gotta love them...they just creep up on you when you least expect it and freak you right out. It is as though they seem to know you're at a moment of peace and then, BAMM--- you remember a flash of your past that is very unpleasant. I have a hard time dealing with them...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 10 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    Hello. I suspect I have multiple personality

    disorder but I'm not really sure and I need another opinion but I'm scared to ask anyone I know (no offense, I'm sorry). I have periods of time where I don't have memories. I walk into a room and forget why I did. And sometimes I feel deja vu, like from once a few weeks to 13...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    I'm actually an alter in a certain someones

    system. I posted it here cause they post in the Dissociative Identity disorder experience. I don't think the host would be mad I made an account though! I'm Astrid. :s
    goatmother goatmother 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    Amid the crowd they hear a scream,

    they pass it by like a mere dream, vast amounts of the human race, the likes of which are not my taste, they suffer and cry, they beg and lie, love and torment, untold lament, pouring tears, upon their peers, so forgive my transgressions, for I have none of their obsessions, one...
    fenrirandimpachi fenrirandimpachi 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    My mind is riddled with metaphors

    and I dream in code. I was feeling very low one day and had this vision as I was half in and half out of sleep. I saw a dark crossroads, down three of the roads was endless grey, but down one all was black. I felt distraught and decided to try the black road, in hopes I might...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 31, 2014

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    Hi, I've read a lot of your experiences

    and most of you talk about "black outs". How does it feel? How can your alters be so disrespectful towards you? I want to know because mine would never do that, the like me or the ones that hate me just ignore me. Do you even have any kind of relationship with them?
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    I Hate Change

    Around the age of 11, L showed up. We still don't know why, but it happened. Somehow, she knew what she was without any problem and she was able to keep life "normal" looking. Through the years, we've worked out how to keep a "common memory" as my husband calls it and keep some...
    sljz sljz 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    Confusion About The Self

    My name is Olivia, and to start off with, I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia by high school. But after a lot of research and pills that don't help I truly believe i have multiple personality disorder. It's hard for me to talk about, but I have 5 people that are very closely a...
    lightningoddess lightningoddess 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    The We of Me

    I have dealt with this my whole life and did not understand others did not until I was in my 20's.  I have a fairly stable community of alters, personailties, or whatever you wish to call them.  For the most part we share the memories and experiances with each other...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 10 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    I have three other personalities.

    First up is Paul. Paul like to hurt people. He likes to fight, move around, and is thrill seeking. Paul had his moment once. Once. Since then, I have been doing my best to keep him down. Then there is Steven. He is perverted and lustful. When I am around my girlfriend, I will...
    OmegaJ OmegaJ 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 31, 2014

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    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    A question that I've always wanted to ask.

    Does anyone have an alter by the name of Hyde? I've always wondered...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M Oct 25, 2014

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    Hi, Kyle there, I'm one of the alters.

    I just wanted to know if some of you alters already fell in love with a real person, or if you hosts already fell in love with alters. I did, so I just wanted to talk about this with other people.
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2014

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    My mpd, at least the one

    that i register most with, is named Savannah Mae Carter. On my profile that's what it says, so people i know personally can't find me online. Anyway her name is Savannah, 21 years old from Bellevue Washington. She makes a living by prostitution and is actually the one who enjoys...
    iamaphrodite iamaphrodite 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    Life With My Wives

    Hello everyone, My name is RT, just my initials for now, but most who know me call me that anyway. My story is an odd one, but a beautiful one, it is the story of meeting and living with angels, as husband, and father to more than one. In 1995 my shallow excesses in...
    Voltaire1 Voltaire1 51-55, M 4 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    Hiya im a Mike an im a alter.

    . heh the Host just kinda up an left locked himself up an well we dont really have anyone in charge... but lately iv been aware most an iv been finding it really annoying when i chatting with my best friend an i like blank out... an when everything clears im sucking my thumb an...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M Dec 3, 2014

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    What To Do About A Girl Who Fakes Being Multiple

    Okay, so there is this girl who goes to my school and has found out about The Hotel (My multiple system)... At first, she didn't say anything directly to me or anyone else who was out, but instead she would talk to my others friends and tell them about how I'm "faking" this for...
    Ambergon Ambergon 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM THE META SYSTEM!

    (Picture made by epsilon)
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    Hi, I Have Another Side To Me.

    I AM a girl, the usual me is down the earth, chill, not tolerant to many people but still open somehow, innovator, etc. Francisco: Demon... Francisco comes out when i'm mad. My pupils get bigger, my skin turns ice cold, i black out. I'll hurt you anyway possible. I'll fight you...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    Celasta Celasta 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Sadira

    I  forgot about her. I don't have alters that come out. But they're still there. They seem to feed off my attention? Sadira breaks things down to the sum of their parts, viciously. I can't think of an example but it's very depressing. She is pure depression and cynicism...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jul 21, 2009

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    I saw my psychiatrist today

    and I have new hope of being able to integrate all my personalities through therapy! YAY! The only alter I really don't like is the one that expresses anger. She is very hostile and has been violent. She uses language that is despicable to me! I really like my psychiatrist, he...
    TeriJessie TeriJessie 56-60, F Dec 23, 2014

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    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    My Fears Of The Outside...

    All my life I have had many fears-I didn't know why until I was diagnosed with DID. One of my worst fears is going outside. I feel so afraid and I can't seem to get a handle on it. I will go to the window and look out and get this huge knot in my chest and the thought of leaving...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    Hello, it is me again.

    It has been a while. I feel so disconnected from everything like i am in a dream. I want to wake up but i can't. Cal is back. He says he loves me, its been a really long time since i have seen him. He said i was angry with him but i can't remember why. I don't want to be...
    minibird minibird 18-21, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I have 6 different alters they include a child

    alter, a happy energetic alter, a sad alter, a angry alter and a protector alter. I have had them ever since I was a child and we all live in a house. In this house is this room called 'the attic' I'm not aloud in the attic but I want to know what's in there. I don't know if...
    Jasmine368 Jasmine368 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    One of my alters have alters.

    I'm a Russian doll.
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2014

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    Only two people know about this.

    One of my best friends, and me (and my alters). My family don't know and I'm un-diagnosed (obviously)... I'm not sure if I should tell my family, or at least one of them... My main fears that have stopped me doing so are, I don't want to be treated differently (in a bad way...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2014

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    My system is a house.

    We all live in this house, with our own rooms (bedrooms) and communal rooms. Like the lounge room and library. We also have something like a prison, where the door only locks and opens from the outside, (its a nice rooom). There's also two studies and a council room. Our house...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    I NEED ADVICE! So when I first fragmented,

    I was mostly in control. I kept Sigma and Epsilon (the first two Alter's) in check. No one knew what was wrong with me, so that caused even more bullying from the other kids making things harder for me. Sometimes I switched and caused trouble when Sigma took control, and...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2014

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    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    Is it possible for an alter to have experience

    memories, of something that they can't have possibly experienced? for example; a 57 year old male alter, having war memories. And because of these memories they feel random fear, and panic attacks and the occasional shell shock.., however this 57 year old is only in,the body...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 5 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Does anybody else have Alters of themselves?

    I'm just a 6 year old version of myself in one of mine and I've never spoken to someone else with it before b
    LittlePrincess01 LittlePrincess01 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    All 9 Of Me/Us/Them

    Hi I will start to introduce them, 1. The child is the most important and sane one of us. The is 5 years old. Innocent and carefree. 2. Surviver Emily is a tough with a military like way of doing things. She is not to be crossed! She had to be born in my hour of need. She was...
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Weekend weekend I love the weekend!

    I get to have so much fun! Do you like the weekend? Of course you do it's the weekend ^_^ ~Theta
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 24

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