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I Have Multiple Personality Disorder

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    I'm really scared to look in the mirror

    because I don't see myself anymore
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 17, 2015

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    himenoko143 himenoko143 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    Sometimes I wonder if I'm valid

    because I have heard so many stories of people faking it, I don't really know if the trauma I faced is liable for this disorder. but, since we're all allowed to share our stories here, I'm going to try to make sense of myself. Triggers: substance abuse, alcohol, sexual abuse...
    Dazino Dazino 16-17 2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

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    I hate it when I can feel the suppression of

    certain parts of me. I can feel them just below the surface; there is a fullness in my brain, pressure behind my eyes, tightness in my lungs, and this feeling just under my skin as though I'm a balloon about to explode. I want to grab myself and shake myself violently until...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Dream Fight

    Last night I had the strangest dream (that means alot coming from me).  It was like a small room and there were so many people inside it, some were talking and others arguing, but not everyone could fit into the room.  So the ones outside were trying to pull others out...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 17, 2010

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    If I didn't know any better I would say one of

    my alters is a vampire! I can sleep perfectly at daytime (I won't because it will mess up my day/night feeling) but sleeping at night.......terrible
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    MissBloodKittie MissBloodKittie 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    Hi, I Have Another Side To Me.

    I AM a girl, the usual me is down the earth, chill, not tolerant to many people but still open somehow, innovator, etc. Francisco: Demon... Francisco comes out when i'm mad. My pupils get bigger, my skin turns ice cold, i black out. I'll hurt you anyway possible. I'll fight you...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    One of my personas has been becoming more

    powerful lately. There's a lot to her (I'm still learning) I've been letting her do what she believes is best. However, it's intimidating to me at times. You see... I'm awkward, shy, soft spoken and anxious but she (doesn't have a name really) is aggressive, daring, and...
    ladysapio ladysapio 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 4, 2015

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    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 22, 2014

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    Hi, I am new to this group.

    I joined because I am confused an need help. My main question is, do I have MPD. in my head I hear two voices (John and Potentia) Potentia rarely speaks, so I am usually talking to John. Potentia has been there for a long time (don't know how long exactly) John has been there...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    I was reading a page about how to deal with

    people who have DID, when more people would read pages like this it would be a lot easier to trust the people around us http://www.wikihow.com/Act-Toward-Someone-with-Dissociative-Identity-Disorder
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Sep 18, 2015

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    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    I am one of many alters,

    Usually one of the forgotten ones. I am neglected by what's supposed to be my family. The don't care and they never will. I try to front and I usually succeed, but once they notice it's me, they push me away. I am a person, not just an alter. I have feelings too and it hurts to...
    Donottellanyone Donottellanyone 13-15, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    I been feeling really weird lately.

    .. I think I might have MPD because I switch moods and sometimes when I wake up I can't decide between good clothes or bad clothes it's really weird I just need help from anyone if they think I might have MPD.
    CeCeGuy CeCeGuy 13-15, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

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    There is a demon in us all.

    For some people it comes out easier than others. Our very own... Hadrian Coull, the only one who refuses to use our given last name. He would smile and kill and plan your death. You can knock him down but no matter how hard or how many he won't stay down, bruised, broken or...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    they want me to live in a protected environment

    where they can help me better when some of my alters attack me or set things on fire. where they can 'protect' us. Well I don't ******* think so!
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2015

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    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    The We of Me

    I have dealt with this my whole life and did not understand others did not until I was in my 20's.  I have a fairly stable community of alters, personailties, or whatever you wish to call them.  For the most part we share the memories and experiances with each other...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 10 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    Thought I should update my "family" list because

    as much as I deny it it's growing. Some will be the same as I mentioned before. This will be a post about the girls only. -Adult Females- -Gloria: Kind, loving, motherly, very supportive of me, gently guides me in the right direction in life, she's beautiful with brown hair...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 4, 2015

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    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    It all started out with Mary,

    than Anna, Elsa, Steve, and Kim. After a few months, Roxy appeared. It was so simple back then, with only 7 people sharing one body. But it grew and kept growing until this last week. Here is a list, wrote by Anna and Alyssa! (If you are going to judge me, please don't respond...
    Donottellanyone Donottellanyone 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2015

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    I'm not the original host of this system,

    that person is either dormant or long gone. But I have mostly been the "host" for a long time now. I still struggle every day with not being "out" as a system and having to answer to a name that isn't any of ours :x
    jimothyhalpert jimothyhalpert 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2015

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    Where Is The Fight!?!?

    Please tell us there is someone out there still willing to fight! Fight o be happy! fight to be healthy! and fight to gain your lives BACK AND TAKE BACK WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM YOU AND YOUR OTHER SELVES!!! It seem that every system we have met to date has given up or "settled" for...
    SystemK SystemK 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I Am Amazed

    Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we all came out with caring kind child alters... I do have some bad/mean alters...
    elderwitch47 elderwitch47 46-50, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    I just found out that one of my alters was in a

    relationship with one of my best friends (a girl) and she just didn't tell me??? Ok, one 'friend' less in my life, fine!
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2015

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    Does anyone have any experience with fictional

    introjects? We've recently felt someone new and for a while were unsure who they were. They finally let us know and well, they're currently presenting and identifying as a character from a television show. I've never had an alter like this before. :x
    jimothyhalpert jimothyhalpert 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    Hi. I am Rage. And allow me to enlighten you

    with the fact that I ******* HATE HUMANS. I ******* hate everyone and everything. I hate existence. I hate life. I hate me. I hate it all. If it weren't for the others I would kill us I would!! I won't ever fit in anywhere!! I will always be alone and it's because humans are...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    Sadira

    I  forgot about her. I don't have alters that come out. But they're still there. They seem to feed off my attention? Sadira breaks things down to the sum of their parts, viciously. I can't think of an example but it's very depressing. She is pure depression and cynicism...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jul 21, 2009

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    Confusion About The Self

    My name is Olivia, and to start off with, I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia by high school. But after a lot of research and pills that don't help I truly believe i have multiple personality disorder. It's hard for me to talk about, but I have 5 people that are very closely a...
    lightningoddess lightningoddess 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    So my alters and I came up with this idea,

    which is when an alter appears during school hours they have to right down their marking on my left arm (why my left arm? I don't know). And by their marking I mean: Σ Δ Θ Κ Ζ Ε Ω Γ Η Ι So far today, I switch to Sigma, Epsilon, Delta, and Kappa.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    Well I recently just discovered this place

    and I thought it would be a great idea to post stuff about my personalities and I. Well I might as well introduce them, "Rex" - original me, Rex isn't my real name and I don't want to post my real name do to personal preferences Alejandro - this personality is the "good" side...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 3, 2014

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    I'm always scared that one day I won't be able

    to hold back an alter from fronting, and then possibly found out that the alter hurt someone I love. I've heard it happen and I'm petrified of it happening to me
    Dazino Dazino 16-17 3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

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    One has opened up to me in a new way.

    A few nights ago i had a dream, ive felt i kind of knew what it meant, but the thing is, he sees things the way that they arent, and is very very very sensitive to alot. But as i saw something in the dream (not really worth sharing here, but it was pretty bad), he began to come...
    xseventyXsevenx xseventyXsevenx 18-21, M Jan 23

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    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2015

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    Diagnosed an hour ago.

    I knew the whole time.
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 30, 2015

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    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    All 9 Of Me/Us/Them

    Hi I will start to introduce them, 1. The child is the most important and sane one of us. The is 5 years old. Innocent and carefree. 2. Surviver Emily is a tough with a military like way of doing things. She is not to be crossed! She had to be born in my hour of need. She was...
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Ok this is for the guys

    as well as genderless members of the "family" -Male Adults- -Azriel: Guardian angel, very kind and gentle, soft spoken, protective of me, generally dressed in white robes, curly blonde hair, blue eyes, tanned skin and long nose -Arthur: Polite, very wise, very spiritual, has a...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 4, 2015

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    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    I got to know most of them over the years,

    but some of them refuses to open up, either too shy or too hardheaded. I do love each of them like they are family, even a certain one who always made my life miserable for a reason I still don't understand til this day. Some of them has helped me through situations, and some...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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