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I Have Multiple Personality Disorder

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    Once upon a time, There was a little girl.

    The little girl had a mummy and a daddy who said they loved her very much. One day, the little girl was hurt by something she shouldn't have seen. The mummy and the daddy punished the little girl for something that wasn't her fault. For days the little girl was locked in a dark...
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 1

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    Hi. I just curious in how the personality swap,

    I know that physically, there might be minimum differences, but I have view that the way they represent them self; such as the usage of certain words or intonation, or the way they respond to the same question, might be differ. What is your experience? Correct me if I'm wrong...
    MissHara MissHara 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I have a whole playlist of songs

    that make me feel understood, these are the ones that focus on my MPD. "Animal I have Become" Three Days Grace "Monster" Skillet "I am an Illusion" Rob Thomas "All These Years" Adema "Let Me Be Myself" 3 Doors Down "One X" Three Days Grace "Chameleon Boy" Blue October "Ugly Side...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Aug 1

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    Losing Control

    I have been highly functional most of my adult life. Very few people have ever even commented on, much less knew about my condition. My wife, however, knows almost everything. Hell, sometimes she knows more than I do. She sees things from an outside perspective. And as such, I...
    neoerebus neoerebus 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    The We of Me

    I have dealt with this my whole life and did not understand others did not until I was in my 20's.  I have a fairly stable community of alters, personailties, or whatever you wish to call them.  For the most part we share the memories and experiances with each other...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 10 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    I'm actually an alter in a certain someones

    system. I posted it here cause they post in the Dissociative Identity disorder experience. I don't think the host would be mad I made an account though! I'm Astrid. :s
    goatmother goatmother 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    Is it possible for an alter to have experience

    memories, of something that they can't have possibly experienced? for example; a 57 year old male alter, having war memories. And because of these memories they feel random fear, and panic attacks and the occasional shell shock.., however this 57 year old is only in,the body...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 5 Responses Aug 31

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    Ok so I'm having a lot of trouble with alexis

    my alter who does what ever the **** she wants....can she be locked away or something?!?!? Please help
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 10 Responses Jun 6

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    Dream Fight

    Last night I had the strangest dream (that means alot coming from me).  It was like a small room and there were so many people inside it, some were talking and others arguing, but not everyone could fit into the room.  So the ones outside were trying to pull others out...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 17, 2010

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    They seem to be back.

    For some reason they left me. But they are back. I missed them very much! My head was so quiet without them. Now them seem to quietly chatter among themselves. We make a good team! People would think that this would be a bad thing! But nope! I love them! They help me with hard...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    It Wasn'T Me

    I have undiagnosed MPD. I know of 3 other personalities and what I like to call the "occasional tourist". All of them have names, distinct looks, and personalities that make them stick out. My pictures even look like different people. People that know me well know the names of...
    AwakenSoul82 AwakenSoul82 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    My system is a house.

    We all live in this house, with our own rooms (bedrooms) and communal rooms. Like the lounge room and library. We also have something like a prison, where the door only locks and opens from the outside, (its a nice rooom). There's also two studies and a council room. Our house...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    I've always wanted to know this about other

    people... How quickly can another persona come into being? Do they suddenly appear, or do they gradually "slide in"?
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 7 Responses Aug 17

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    I'm not quite sure this qualifies

    as an experience, but Arthur wanted me to share it with you all- Host Hello to all. This poem was written about the only female alter in our system, but I believe that it can also be used to express how others may feel. I hope you all get something from this, a cheer up, an...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M Sep 12

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    MissHara MissHara 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    Hi, I Have Another Side To Me.

    I AM a girl, the usual me is down the earth, chill, not tolerant to many people but still open somehow, innovator, etc. Francisco: Demon... Francisco comes out when i'm mad. My pupils get bigger, my skin turns ice cold, i black out. I'll hurt you anyway possible. I'll fight you...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    These past few days have been a blur.

    I'm constantly switching whenever I get stressed, which is almost every time and everyday. Some freshmen kid at my high school started a fight with me, I'm a junior, but I tried not fight but everyone around us was forcing me to. The kid hit me first when I wasn't looking, and...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    Where Is The Fight!?!?

    Please tell us there is someone out there still willing to fight! Fight o be happy! fight to be healthy! and fight to gain your lives BACK AND TAKE BACK WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM YOU AND YOUR OTHER SELVES!!! It seem that every system we have met to date has given up or "settled" for...
    SystemK SystemK 22-25 5 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Frustrated With Doctors..........

       I am so sick of being treated like I am stupid! Book-smart is what they are - Whoopie!!! I think that I know more about mental illness than they do. When I have to fight to get the medications that I NEED it's like pulling teeth. I haven't seen my psychiatrist in 5 years and...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 7 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Hello. I suspect I have multiple personality

    disorder but I'm not really sure and I need another opinion but I'm scared to ask anyone I know (no offense, I'm sorry). I have periods of time where I don't have memories. I walk into a room and forget why I did. And sometimes I feel deja vu, like from once a few weeks to 13...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    My mind is riddled with metaphors

    and I dream in code. I was feeling very low one day and had this vision as I was half in and half out of sleep. I saw a dark crossroads, down three of the roads was endless grey, but down one all was black. I felt distraught and decided to try the black road, in hopes I might...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 31

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    Here's to everyone. How many times a day do you

    switch? Or who is the alter that's out the most?
    ShiroAria ShiroAria 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here

    because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or diagnostic, but I read a lot of things that are very similar to my experience, so here it is: I'm 17 years old, and I draw since 7 years...
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F Sep 14

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    My Experiences With Did...

    I don't really know what to say. I have wanted to connect with other people like me for a very long time. I was really nervous about opening up about living with this 'condition'. My alters saved my life while I was a child and now they can be a challenge. Other people don't...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Hi, I am new to this group.

    I joined because I am confused an need help. My main question is, do I have MPD. in my head I hear two voices (John and Potentia) Potentia rarely speaks, so I am usually talking to John. Potentia has been there for a long time (don't know how long exactly) John has been there...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Hi, I've read a lot of your experiences

    and most of you talk about "black outs". How does it feel? How can your alters be so disrespectful towards you? I want to know because mine would never do that, the like me or the ones that hate me just ignore me. Do you even have any kind of relationship with them?
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F 9 Responses Sep 16

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    I was raped by my brother of 8-9 years my age;

    who was beaten and raped by my half brother of 10-11 years my age who was raped by his mother and beaten by our father. Fun family dynamics out of the way now, I learned at an early age to split my conscious and sub-conscious mind. And to create many personalities in my sub...
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    I Am Amazed

    Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we all came out with caring kind child alters... I do have some bad/mean alters...
    elderwitch47 elderwitch47 46-50, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    I have 6 different alters they include a child

    alter, a happy energetic alter, a sad alter, a angry alter and a protector alter. I have had them ever since I was a child and we all live in a house. In this house is this room called 'the attic' I'm not aloud in the attic but I want to know what's in there. I don't know if...
    Jasmine368 Jasmine368 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 4

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    Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

    I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 27 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    i was always very interested in this.

    to whoever has this disorder is very brave because i know it must be frustrating basically sharing your body with different people
    luvabl3 luvabl3 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    so uh.... have any of you.

    .. experienced another Alters dream before? Because I did last night.... It was only a small bit of it, like 20 seconds of the dream.... anyone else had this?
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 30

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    I have five alters that I keep in check

    for the most part, one of them has been acting up lately because he represents my sexual side and my dad's girlfriend's son is hot, add that to the fact that I haven't had any sexual contact in three months and you have a recipe for disaster
    idenmarshals idenmarshals 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    All 9 Of Me/Us/Them

    Hi I will start to introduce them, 1. The child is the most important and sane one of us. The is 5 years old. Innocent and carefree. 2. Surviver Emily is a tough with a military like way of doing things. She is not to be crossed! She had to be born in my hour of need. She was...
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    My alter ego is called Erik.

    As soon as he takes over, I stop being the 22 year old girl I am and turn into a 16 year old boy. I have no control over him. He is a troublemaker, gets into fights with everyone and is very rude- and my friends and family tell me that Erik dislikes me a lot. He thinks he should...
    BloodOnIce BloodOnIce 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    Ok, so this is a thing.

    It's a big thing. A big, annoying (and possibly dangerous) thing about myself that I have come to terms with. I have accepted the fact that I will sometimes turn into a British man who is apparently a know it all and rather annoying. But the main thing here is that I have a...
    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    One of my alters have alters.

    I'm a Russian doll.
    AhtnamasH AhtnamasH 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    What To Do About A Girl Who Fakes Being Multiple

    Okay, so there is this girl who goes to my school and has found out about The Hotel (My multiple system)... At first, she didn't say anything directly to me or anyone else who was out, but instead she would talk to my others friends and tell them about how I'm "faking" this for...
    Ambergon Ambergon 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    Packing for a trip is impossible.

    .. I pack my clothes then think 'Wait, what if I'm not out the whole time, should I pack clothes for the girls too?' Ugg...I'm running out of room in my suitcase as it is. Jesse
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 3 Responses Aug 6

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    So my alters and I came up with this idea,

    which is when an alter appears during school hours they have to right down their marking on my left arm (why my left arm? I don't know). And by their marking I mean: Σ Δ Θ Κ Ζ Ε Ω Γ Η Ι So far today, I switch to Sigma, Epsilon, Delta, and Kappa.
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Flashbacks...

    You've gotta love them...they just creep up on you when you least expect it and freak you right out. It is as though they seem to know you're at a moment of peace and then, BAMM--- you remember a flash of your past that is very unpleasant. I have a hard time dealing with them...
    Leena26 Leena26 46-50, F 10 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    Does anybody else have Alters of themselves?

    I'm just a 6 year old version of myself in one of mine and I've never spoken to someone else with it before b
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    I was at a party the other day,

    and for some reason my friend was behind a couch. And I (one of me) for some other reason was trying to keep him behind the couch. It was all a good game, we were all laughing, and having fun, especially the guy behind the couch. And then my other friends started trying to pull...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 4

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    Hello. @.@

    Hey, everyone. I wanted to take some time to introduce myself and the 5 alters (if that's okay...). I guess I'll start with the alters... 1) Keiko - Keiko has been around for a long time, constantly taking care of me and the others (you could say she is a mother figure). She...
    ZenoKun ZenoKun 16-17 3 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Time to share my story of Multiple Personality

    Disorder(MPD). I know, in my case, this is more commonly known as a Teenage Identity Crisis, but I'd like to refer it as MPD. So lets start in the beginning, I was in my early 15 as a rising freshmen in high school and of course that is where most teenagers start their...
    LightlySaltedSalmon LightlySaltedSalmon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I have three other personalities.

    First up is Paul. Paul like to hurt people. He likes to fight, move around, and is thrill seeking. Paul had his moment once. Once. Since then, I have been doing my best to keep him down. Then there is Steven. He is perverted and lustful. When I am around my girlfriend, I will...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 31

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    I'm lucky no one tests me to show the one part

    of four that I don't like letting take control of this body.
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 20

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    i'm so done. i am unhappy all the time

    and its getting worse. i can't eat. i sleep but it feels weird. my dreams are sick. i just want out. i wish i could be happy. they are fighting all the time and i feel sick all the time. i hate Cal the most his mind is gross. i just want to be free and live in a safe cozy place...
    minibird minibird 18-21 1 Response Aug 5

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    I Hate Change

    Around the age of 11, L showed up. We still don't know why, but it happened. Somehow, she knew what she was without any problem and she was able to keep life "normal" looking. Through the years, we've worked out how to keep a "common memory" as my husband calls it and keep some...
    sljz sljz 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    Yup, I have Multiple Personality Disorder,

    and it's really hard sometimes. I try to hide it from people I don't know and even some of my closest friends. I'm afraid they'd think I'm too weird.
    SilverXJzargo SilverXJzargo 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 21

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