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I Have Never Been Truly Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 148 People

    What Is Being Happy

    I am  twin and a middle child. Ever since I was little I had to share or fight for someones attention. I had good grades but never once did I get told great job because my other sisters were having a bad time in school so my mom focused on them. Dad favored my older sister...
    wolveslilb wolveslilb 31-35, F 7 Responses May 17, 2007

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    All Time Negative...

    I can't remember when I began to be "not" happy since childhood. Life to me is full of routine, you go to school in a routine. you go to university in a routine. you go to get a job in a routine. Yes, people say why not make a change. The fact is you have your family to look...
    pleaseabcd pleaseabcd 31-35, M Jun 14, 2013

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    Cynically Me

    I honestly can't remember last time I was really happy. The feeling of pure, true happiness is just a vague image in my mind. Maybe it doesn't really exist. Maybe I make myself so unhappy because I think I am incapable of feeling happiness. I truly believe most of the happy...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 1 Response Sep 11, 2013

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    For as long I can remember ,

    I have never been "truly happy" . None of my family has really . We can be satisfied . But not happy . My problem is that I can't forgive myself for the past , I don't have many friends , I'm not happy with the school I been going to , and I been dealing with depression from my...
    angelmommy16 angelmommy16 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2014

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    that is...until I found this site.

    ..I've met a lot of truly sincere, funny, and kind people here. and I guess I just want to say thanks to those people and let you know that all of you have inspired me to get help for my cutting problem and to keep fighting no matter how badly I wanted to quit. I have to say that...
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I just feel a strong resentment towards my

    mother. I know it isn't right but for my whole life she's done nothing but being me down. What do I do? I tried to tell her how I feel and she's been ignoring me for a month now, almost as if to say it's MY FAULT that she bullies me
    Kimerlykaren Kimerlykaren 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    No Such Thing

    Before you guys think there is something wrong with you, I have this theory about how I dont think anyone is TRULY HAPPY. Happiness comes in small doses, your child's smile, a chocolate chip cookie, an ******. People that seem to be happy all the time are fake, and they have...
    Ta2dXykMoM Ta2dXykMoM 26-30 3 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    I have to say that the reason

    for me not being happy is because of my weight. I am a 20 year old overweight female and I haven't experienced the emotion of being happy. I don't know how it feels like to be happy. I don't know how I can achieve being happy. It's hard for me being this way and not knowing how...
    beyondthebluesea beyondthebluesea 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2014

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    Not Really,

    I have temp moments of slight satisfaction..but to think about a truely HAPPY moment in my life..it's hard to do!
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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    My mother says I was an unhappy baby,

    always screaming my head off for no reason, always red faced and ugly. Everyone says they tried their best to make me happy and excited, but I was still a crier, well into later childhood. I was always moody and temperamental and found joy in little to nothing. They said...
    JustLazyLittleMe JustLazyLittleMe 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    Ever Been Happy?

    I've been thinking lately that I can't ever recall REALLY being happy. I had brief moments, very short when I had a good time. But I can't really say when I've BEEN happy. I have two kids and I thought I was happy when they were born, and even now and then they make me smile. The...
    Swian Swian 41-45 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Its Been To Long

    I cant remember a time when I was truly happy, the closest times are when I read or when I'm with my best friend but when he leaves or I put down the book I feel even worse.
    WingedWatcher13 WingedWatcher13 18-21, M Jul 14, 2013

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    All throughout my childhood,

    I had a tough time making friends. Oh sure, I had a few friends with whom I could share my thoughts, but they were few and far between. Since entering adulthood, those friends and I have parted ways. I always have felt left out in social situations, and I have never felt like a...
    Allen007 Allen007 31-35, M Aug 22

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    A White Male In His Early 20s Who Has Never Been Truly Happy

    Born 1 month early The middle child, between two sisters Grew up out in the country, isolated from other people a father and mother who were druggies, neglected their childrens needs, lacked emotional connection, caught up in their own situation. Witnessed drug use, physical and...
    jmfinn jmfinn 22-25 5 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    I Never Did Until...

    i found my best friend on here sweety you know how much i love you my sisiter
    wotaloser wotaloser 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    Even when things were good in my life,

    I was never settled or satisified, there was always elements of doubt and not feeling like I fit in.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 20

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    this thought often creeps up on me; quietly

    and uninvited throughout the day. i have no recollection of a period of time where i have felt truly happy, uninhibited, free...not even as a child. i thought being a mother would give me some sort of purpose, a freedom from this neurosis, a direction. however, i feel more lost...
    mariegander mariegander 26-30, F Jan 6

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    ... at least not since I was 9! My grandmother thought it would be funny if I were to be the "bartender" at a family gathering one night. I knew enough to fill TUMBLERS with so...
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    I'm an interracial adoptee from Africa, adopted by a white family. These last few years I've been thinking about the stories my adoptive parents have told me about what happened...
    Tearystar1027 Tearystar1027 18-21 18 hrs ago

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    nah...I jus let em in so they don't bust the door in
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 20 hrs ago

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    I believe I do....possibly I have good reason to believe my mum gave birth to other children, so, that can only mean.... I have siblings i have never met
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 21 hrs ago

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    I didn't meet their specifications, and that's too bad:)
    Flower293 Flower293 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Never known it may very well never will. But I love myself if I don't no one else will.
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm beginning to believe "Love" has been hyped up, maybe it's the same feeling as having a crush-but the other person has a crush on you as well: and that's "love". If so, I miss...
    PicklesAndPie PicklesAndPie 26-30 3 days ago

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    I'd really like to start dating soon. :) I think it'll be nice to spend hours just getting to know someone.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Not only i have never been drunk but also i have never drunk alcohol ever.
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    That's mainly because they don't exist
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like I don't care anymore. This hit me one morning when I was overthinking things in my life. It has been a very busy week with all the things need to be done at work...
    themoonstone themoonstone 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Life feels very foreign to me these days. I go through the motions, count my blessings, do the best I can (I think)...but it's like I'm on a path I have never walked before and...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 12 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm 21, almost 22 and have never had a boyfriend/girlfriend. And I've only ever been kissed once just after high school. Recently I've started making friends for a change and one...
    InYourArms InYourArms 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was in one. but it was so awkward and we got no where so I don't count it. we liked each other it just didn't go well. don't know how I'd do in a real one.
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    and probably will never have one, I'm forever alone, even though I'm only 16 I don't think I will ever get a girlfriend, I'm good person I think but I don't think I'm good enough...
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    My dad let me try some whiskey and it was so disgusting! How do people drink that rank drink? I don't think I'll ever be drunk if thats what you have to drink. I don't get how...
    GeorgiaAllender13 GeorgiaAllender13 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Lonelyness is forgetting what it feels like to press your lips against somebody else's. Or to hold hands with meaning or to look into that persons eyes and really feel something...
    JaySmith9999 JaySmith9999 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've never been in a relationship, but been on dates. Until I was 25 years old I wasn't interested in having one, but started to feel lonely. I've signed up to dating sites, but...
    kuroijukai kuroijukai 26-30, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    I always get told, " You're gorgeous and charming! Why aren't u with a guy?" I'm thinking ...dude I'm wondering the same thing
    WolfBlood9 WolfBlood9 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I know its not me. Its certainly not been my choice to have been alone all this time. There are many variables at play and most are out of my control. I believe that the variables...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Is it because I'm ugly? Or is it because I don't know how to deal with people? Who knows? But really I do wanna experience a relationship. I really wanna be loved.
    Kittymeow7 Kittymeow7 18-21, F 10 Responses 5 days ago

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    Having one of those nights...feeling sorry for myself. Haha I really wish I knew what I'm doing wrong or why I'm unattractive to guys. My parents always told me my weight is the...
    Beyoutiful056 Beyoutiful056 22-25, F 83 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm turning 22 soon and I've never been kissed. It stressed me out for a while but now I'm just like whatever's meant to happen will happen. I mean 99% of the time I'm too shy and...
    AllOverMe AllOverMe 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 41 years old and I've never been kissed by someone special. I miss being kissed. I hope I get my first kiss real soon.
    spaghetti12 spaghetti12 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I guess I'm saving my first kiss for the right person...
    Fernblaze101 Fernblaze101 13-15 1 Response Aug 24

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