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I Have Never Been Truly Happy

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    I just feel a strong resentment towards my

    mother. I know it isn't right but for my whole life she's done nothing but being me down. What do I do? I tried to tell her how I feel and she's been ignoring me for a month now, almost as if to say it's MY FAULT that she bullies me
    Kimerlykaren Kimerlykaren 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    this thought often creeps up on me; quietly

    and uninvited throughout the day. i have no recollection of a period of time where i have felt truly happy, uninhibited, free...not even as a child. i thought being a mother would give me some sort of purpose, a freedom from this neurosis, a direction. however, i feel more lost...
    mariegander mariegander 26-30, F Jan 6

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    For as long I can remember ,

    I have never been "truly happy" . None of my family has really . We can be satisfied . But not happy . My problem is that I can't forgive myself for the past , I don't have many friends , I'm not happy with the school I been going to , and I been dealing with depression from my...
    angelmommy16 angelmommy16 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2014

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    I have to say that the reason

    for me not being happy is because of my weight. I am a 20 year old overweight female and I haven't experienced the emotion of being happy. I don't know how it feels like to be happy. I don't know how I can achieve being happy. It's hard for me being this way and not knowing how...
    beyondthebluesea beyondthebluesea 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2014

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    Cynically Me

    I honestly can't remember last time I was really happy. The feeling of pure, true happiness is just a vague image in my mind. Maybe it doesn't really exist. Maybe I make myself so unhappy because I think I am incapable of feeling happiness. I truly believe most of the happy...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 1 Response Sep 11, 2013

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    Ever Been Happy?

    I've been thinking lately that I can't ever recall REALLY being happy. I had brief moments, very short when I had a good time. But I can't really say when I've BEEN happy. I have two kids and I thought I was happy when they were born, and even now and then they make me smile. The...
    Swian Swian 41-45 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    All Time Negative...

    I can't remember when I began to be "not" happy since childhood. Life to me is full of routine, you go to school in a routine. you go to university in a routine. you go to get a job in a routine. Yes, people say why not make a change. The fact is you have your family to look...
    pleaseabcd pleaseabcd 31-35, M Jun 14, 2013

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    No Such Thing

    Before you guys think there is something wrong with you, I have this theory about how I dont think anyone is TRULY HAPPY. Happiness comes in small doses, your child's smile, a chocolate chip cookie, an ******. People that seem to be happy all the time are fake, and they have...
    Ta2dXykMoM Ta2dXykMoM 26-30 3 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    What Is Being Happy

    I am  twin and a middle child. Ever since I was little I had to share or fight for someones attention. I had good grades but never once did I get told great job because my other sisters were having a bad time in school so my mom focused on them. Dad favored my older sister...
    wolveslilb wolveslilb 31-35, F 7 Responses May 17, 2007

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    A White Male In His Early 20s Who Has Never Been Truly Happy

    Born 1 month early The middle child, between two sisters Grew up out in the country, isolated from other people a father and mother who were druggies, neglected their childrens needs, lacked emotional connection, caught up in their own situation. Witnessed drug use, physical and...
    jmfinn jmfinn 22-25 5 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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    Its Been To Long

    I cant remember a time when I was truly happy, the closest times are when I read or when I'm with my best friend but when he leaves or I put down the book I feel even worse.
    Deathward22 Deathward22 18-21, M Jul 14, 2013

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    I Never Did Until...

    i found my best friend on here sweety you know how much i love you my sisiter
    wotaloser wotaloser 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2011

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    My mother says I was an unhappy baby,

    always screaming my head off for no reason, always red faced and ugly. Everyone says they tried their best to make me happy and excited, but I was still a crier, well into later childhood. I was always moody and temperamental and found joy in little to nothing. They said...
    JustLazyLittleMe JustLazyLittleMe 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    Not Really,

    I have temp moments of slight satisfaction..but to think about a truely HAPPY moment in my life..it's hard to do!
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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    that is...until I found this site.

    ..I've met a lot of truly sincere, funny, and kind people here. and I guess I just want to say thanks to those people and let you know that all of you have inspired me to get help for my cutting problem and to keep fighting no matter how badly I wanted to quit. I have to say that...
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I have never been in a relationship. I'm 36, gay and never been in a relationship with a male or female. I'm scared out of my mind because I'm sensitive to people and there...
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    I'm 26 and have never been kissed. It's just gotten to the point where I'm too embarassed that it will be my first kiss to have my first kiss. if that makes sense.
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    I have never been kissed I am still waiting for a girl to kiss me
    paul642 paul642 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I never been in a 3 year relationship. I should say 2 but I be lying. In the 2 years it was off and on. The max of my relationships was 6 months total.
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I have never tho or real one fake people
    ridleyswaq ridleyswaq 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This is not a regret, it's something I've known would happen. Parents thankfully divorced at age 4. My dad had weekend custody and is a great dad. Still, I saw how hard being a...
    MissASC77 MissASC77 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Never was on a date, never had a chance to go on one. Seems like I'm just not what girls are looking for these days :D
    SorrowSong SorrowSong 18-21, M Feb 4

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    I'm 35 years old, and I've never kissed a woman. I'd like to, but I never seem to get to the point where it would be a reciprocated feeling. I've often tried to imagine what it's...
    halfblind79 halfblind79 31-35, M Feb 6

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    It's a little past midnight, and here I am thinking about a conversation I had with someone earlier. He pm'd me and asked, what one thing I really want in life. My answer was to...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 12

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    Not to sure it sounds too great tbh though I am partial to a glass of cider. I did shots out of egg cups once with my friend and we got a bit tipsy but never drunk
    Minutes2Midnight Minutes2Midnight 13-15, F Feb 11

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    I have noticed several people in relationships, even going so far as to get married. They're all like "you'll find someone one day" this and "you need a partner" that and I'm...
    orderedchaos orderedchaos 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I'm 24 years old and being the wheel around your friends who are all couples just sucks. Sleeping alone at night in a big bed hugging pillows wishing it was a person instead, then...
    nubianprince21 nubianprince21 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    I mean I'm 13 what do you expect? 😂 I've had boyfriends but nothing deep
    Uhilikepizza Uhilikepizza 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I dont really know how it feels to be in love
    johnny437 johnny437 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 7

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    But I did ride in the passenger's side of a cop car :)
    Bethstar Bethstar 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 8

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    I mean I'm pretty young but I want that experience like "talking", going on dates, falling asleep on the phone, surprise visits, everything like that, I want to see what its like.
    FrankietheCat FrankietheCat 16-17, F Feb 8

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    I´m so hard to handle... difficult to convince ... except, of course, by the gentle persuasion of his kisses... mmmm......
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    Yup . true I'am still in the closet I guess that's why but one day I hope i kiss the one and I will feel the magic huh I watch a lot of movies But I rly hope someday
    brokenV brokenV 18-21 1 Response Feb 19

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    I caught part of it right here
    Shhhhandenjoy Shhhhandenjoy 26-30, M Feb 21

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    It's true and kinda sad. I want a boyfriend so bad
    ciarajones179 ciarajones179 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    The only one I had was a online one but I don't count that, and I'm 15 I find it a little sad, but I know I will find a girl I like later in life.
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    It sucks because all around me I see and I think is it too much to ask for someone to love?
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I have Only been blocked a couple of times for no apparent reason.
    Falcon27 Falcon27 61-65, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    So here I am, 47, never married and no children. I have been in relationships, but they hadn't worked out. It wasn't anything I did wrong other than take a chance at something. I...
    Doeyz1967 Doeyz1967 46-50 1 Response Feb 9

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    I waited for someone else to bring me happiness and all he did was just break my heart, the relationship was so frustrating that I would get sick for no reason and also mad at...
    mas80 mas80 31-35, F Feb 9

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    I hate when people pretend to understand or to say I'm better off. Well I'm not, they are better off. They just don't understand. They'll argue with me and say, "Well you've...
    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F Feb 21

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    well I've never been but I have an immediate family member that has and let me tell you that once you get out society doesn't let you forget that you've been in. probably why so...
    sleepyphotograher sleepyphotograher 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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