I Have Never Been Truly Happy

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    I have to say that the reason

    for me not being happy is because of my weight. I am a 20 year old overweight female and I haven't experienced the emotion of being happy. I don't know how it feels like to be happy. I don't know how I can achieve being happy. It's hard for me being this way and not knowing how...
    beyondthebluesea beyondthebluesea
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2014

    All Time Negative...

    I can't remember when I began to be "not" happy since childhood. Life to me is full of routine, you go to school in a routine. you go to university in a routine. you go to get a job in a routine. Yes, people say why not make a change. The fact is you have your family to look...
    pleaseabcd pleaseabcd
    31-35, M
    Jun 14, 2013

    I Never Did Until...

    i found my best friend on here sweety you know how much i love you my sisiter
    wotaloser wotaloser
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2011

    No Such Thing

    Before you guys think there is something wrong with you, I have this theory about how I dont think anyone is TRULY HAPPY. Happiness comes in small doses, your child's smile, a chocolate chip cookie, an ******. People that seem to be happy all the time are fake, and they have...
    Ta2dXykMoM Ta2dXykMoM
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2010

    Ever Been Happy?

    I've been thinking lately that I can't ever recall REALLY being happy. I had brief moments, very short when I had a good time. But I can't really say when I've BEEN happy. I have two kids and I thought I was happy when they were born, and even now and then they make me smile. The...
    Swian Swian
    41-45
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

    this thought often creeps up on me; quietly

    and uninvited throughout the day. i have no recollection of a period of time where i have felt truly happy, uninhibited, free...not even as a child. i thought being a mother would give me some sort of purpose, a freedom from this neurosis, a direction. however, i feel more lost...
    mariegander mariegander
    26-30, F
    Jan 6, 2015

    All throughout my childhood,

    I had a tough time making friends. Oh sure, I had a few friends with whom I could share my thoughts, but they were few and far between. Since entering adulthood, those friends and I have parted ways. I always have felt left out in social situations, and I have never felt like a...
    Allen007 Allen007
    31-35, M
    Aug 22, 2015

    that is...until I found this site.

    ..I've met a lot of truly sincere, funny, and kind people here. and I guess I just want to say thanks to those people and let you know that all of you have inspired me to get help for my cutting problem and to keep fighting no matter how badly I wanted to quit. I have to say that...
    Inara24 Inara24
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    Cynically Me

    I honestly can't remember last time I was really happy. The feeling of pure, true happiness is just a vague image in my mind. Maybe it doesn't really exist. Maybe I make myself so unhappy because I think I am incapable of feeling happiness. I truly believe most of the happy...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong
    36-40
    1 Response Sep 11, 2013

    Its Been To Long

    I cant remember a time when I was truly happy, the closest times are when I read or when I'm with my best friend but when he leaves or I put down the book I feel even worse.
    WingedWatcher13 WingedWatcher13
    18-21, M
    Jul 14, 2013

    I just feel a strong resentment towards my

    mother. I know it isn't right but for my whole life she's done nothing but being me down. What do I do? I tried to tell her how I feel and she's been ignoring me for a month now, almost as if to say it's MY FAULT that she bullies me
    Kimerlykaren Kimerlykaren
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 19, 2014

    For as long I can remember ,

    I have never been "truly happy" . None of my family has really . We can be satisfied . But not happy . My problem is that I can't forgive myself for the past , I don't have many friends , I'm not happy with the school I been going to , and I been dealing with depression from my...
    angelmommy16 angelmommy16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2014

    What Is Being Happy

    I am  twin and a middle child. Ever since I was little I had to share or fight for someones attention. I had good grades but never once did I get told great job because my other sisters were having a bad time in school so my mom focused on them. Dad favored my older sister...
    wolveslilb wolveslilb
    31-35, F
    7 Responses May 17, 2007

    A White Male In His Early 20s Who Has Never Been Truly Happy

    Born 1 month early The middle child, between two sisters Grew up out in the country, isolated from other people a father and mother who were druggies, neglected their childrens needs, lacked emotional connection, caught up in their own situation. Witnessed drug use, physical and...
    jmfinn jmfinn
    22-25
    5 Responses Dec 3, 2010

    My mother says I was an unhappy baby,

    always screaming my head off for no reason, always red faced and ugly. Everyone says they tried their best to make me happy and excited, but I was still a crier, well into later childhood. I was always moody and temperamental and found joy in little to nothing. They said...
    JustLazyLittleMe JustLazyLittleMe
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

    Not Really,

    I have temp moments of slight satisfaction..but to think about a truely HAPPY moment in my life..it's hard to do!
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 28, 2009

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