I Have Ocd and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 309 People

    I hate it so much. I cant believe

    that I cant control it.
    19BiGirl 19BiGirl
    18-21, F
    Nov 14, 2015

    My OCD is starting to kick in again.

    She said she wanted to start drinking again. She's been 3 months sober and I think she's on the track of starting to use again. She asked me the other day if I would be mad if she would take Ambian (sleeping pills). She said it makes her feel good and happy. When I replied yes...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson
    22-25, F
    Aug 12, 2015

    Relationships And Ocd Research

    Researchers at Case Western Reserve University are conducting two online studies about the relationships of individuals with OCD or hoarding. Each study involves completing questionnaires online about relationships, emotions and OCD. You must be at least 18 to participate...
    amyp100 amyp100
    31-35, F
    Aug 16, 2012

    There Is Life After Panic Attacks And Agoraphibia

    Hi, this goes out to all those that are suffering from panic, fear and agoraphobia, I know some days can feel pretty low but hang in there, there is life after panic attacks. I suffered through occasional panic attacks that later spiraled into a crippling 4 year battle with...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 6, 2013


     Depression is like a hole in the ground. You know you're down there, you can see the light above. You try to climb your way up, but you keep slipping back down. On a good day your hands get a grip on the edge, you try pulling yourself up and then the dirt under your hands...
    iwanttobewhereloveis iwanttobewhereloveis
    2 Responses May 10, 2009

    How To Tell Someone You Have Ocd, Without Embarrassing Yourself

    When I was a child, before I’d ever heard of the term obsessive compulsive disorder, I didn’t know what to make of my thoughts, other than that they were embarrassing and had to be kept secret at all costs. Fortunately today, OCD is well recognized, so most people have heard...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    Mar 10, 2012

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    The Textbook Symptoms Of Ocd Are Not The Whole Story

    I have a type of OCD which I finally understood to be Obsessive Compulsive Spartanism. For more than thirty years I suffered in embarrassed silence, not sure what was wrong with me. I suspected it was OCD, but my particular symptoms were documented in none of the textbooks on...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2012

    My Story

    I was abused by a step-father from the age of seven to eleven. I was told everyday that if I told anyone that I would be killed. For five years I dealt with the physical abuse, mental torture and abuse. He would beat me and laugh at me. He found out I was afraid of mice and he...
    Brokenlikeaturtleshell Brokenlikeaturtleshell
    36-40, F
    Sep 8, 2012

    A Question I Received About Overcoming Panic Attacks.

    Question: Can u give me an advice?i love how u explained that to overcome anxiety,u shud rely on urself and not on others bcoz dependency will only make me feel hopeless and weak.I really wanna try to live again.I miss the old me so much and i want to feel the freedom again of...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 7, 2013

    You Know You Have a Problem When...

    So I first realized that I had a problem with OCD when I was in college up in Fargo. It was -50 below with windchill and I walked the 3 blocks outside just to check my doorknob to see if the door was locked. That is my biggest compulsion, and the way that I monitor how mentally...
    kalistasadi kalistasadi
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2009

    checking, cleanning up,

    still pictures,
    steack2 steack2
    41-45, M
    Apr 23, 2014

    Good Morning. The weather is Beautiful outside.

    I will to get to the dog park today & take advantage of this climate. I will reach out like I am doing on EP to my inner circle. I am Grateful that I can do these things. Compulsions of any kind r difficult to manage at times. I have the tools today to help manage. I must pick...
    lucky1ofus lucky1ofus
    51-55, M
    1 Response Feb 29, 2016

    I have all 3 pleasurable diseases of OCD,

    Chronic Depression, and Anxiety. All eating away at my soul. I am in therapy..and it does work. However no one really understands the way that my brain works. People tell me that I blame everything on my problems but in reality my problems are the core root of everything in my...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson
    22-25, F
    Jun 29, 2015

    How To Date Someone Who Has Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

    You may have a partner with obsessive compulsive disorder, or you might be considering starting a relationship, but hesitant because the object of your affections has obsessive compulsive disorder. It can certainly be challenging if a person’s symptoms threaten to interfere...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    Feb 22, 2012

    Five Quick Tips To Tell If You Are Suffering From Ocd

    Obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder that is characterized by recurrent, unwanted thoughts (obsessions), that produce a sense of dread or alarm. Persons then engage in repetitive behaviors (compulsions) in an attempt to rid themselves of the obsessive...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    Aug 24, 2012

    When The Anxiety Started

    My anxiety wasn't a problem until the 8th grade. As a child (1st grade-10th grade) I suffered from severe stomach problems, and as a result, I ended up missing a lot of school. The doctors didn't know what was wrong with me, so they just said that I was lying, and that I was...
    EdenJones EdenJones
    22-25, T
    1 Response Apr 27, 2013

    I been targeted somehow at work/school.

    We were writing enrichment letters to one another without signing them. What got a tease letter. The first line says jump out of your window. Line number two jump off your back pouch. And three jump off a bride. I didn't react because that what the bully wants but there was no...
    shadowfluffy6 shadowfluffy6
    22-25, F
    May 28, 2014

    I'm also highly-anxious

    and these symptoms are exacerbated when I drink, which I've done on and off to a detrimental degree for about the last 20 years. I'm fearing my life is so severely messed up and I've neglected myself so long, I don't know what I can do to get it back. I know I need help and I do...
    KevinHilly KevinHilly
    36-40, M
    Jun 30, 2014

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014


    I have always been quiet the worrier, and always will be. It wasnt until the 3rd grade when my mom got M.S. I dont know why, but something in my mind just, broke. I was seing my mom deteriate before my eyes, someone so strong, being taken over by a greater force. But, it took two...
    Rebecki Rebecki
    1 Response Apr 16, 2013

    I had obsessive thoughts about breaking up with

    my girlfriend and about my ex; now I lost the best girl I ever had.
    butterchip butterchip
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 27, 2014


    Today i feel pretty low so i'll probably count everything a hundred times more than i usually do & my hands will hurt more because i'll of washed them more times than i usually do .....
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Feb 6, 2013

    OCD is when: Numbers remind you of the worst

    moments of your life. You can't walk into that room because you have a bad feeling. You can't hurt that stuffed animal because it has feelings, too. It is when: You stay up worrying to no end for no reason. You give up easily because you feel worthless anyway. You obsess...
    simplyOCD simplyOCD
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    I Am Consumed With Myself Because Of My Ocd

    it depresses me how many times i have to do these things every day correctly over & over, everything i do is dictated by my OCD, im so tired of this, i've been doing this since i was 13 im 22 now i just want to be free & be normal i don't want to do this any more some days i just...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 14, 2012

    My Ocd Had Gotten Worse

    it just used to be my skin would bother me maybe like 5 times a day, now i drink nothing but water, my skin drives me nuts all damn day 24/7 i cant stand the sight of dust of my desk or any surface that is black.......i have to clean it......i often tear my room apart & clean the...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 17, 2012

    Do I Have Ocd??

    i just got diagnosed with depression 3 months ago but ive had it for years. ive also had a lot of anxiety. i look at clocks almost every minute and i have to close doors all the time. when i close the doors i have to hold the handle for a while and let go of it a certain way. i...
    marlenecv marlenecv
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2009

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    Alleviating That Excess Nervous Energy

    One of the hardest things to deal with when trying to overcome panic and anxiety is knowing what to do with all that excess energy. I know when I used to get my panic attacks it sometimes felt like I just wanted to jump right out of my skin! My heart would race at a thousand...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 7, 2013

    What Not To Say To Someone With Ocd

    People say the darnedest things. And sometimes they say the most insensitive things. Whilst it’s great that obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) has received enough media attention that it’s no longer a dirty secret, it is obvious that many people still fail to understand the...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 11, 2012

    The Beast Inside Of Me...

    I started showing signs young for o.c.d. and panic disorder.When I was 3 I told my mother I was dying,I thuoght I was ill somehow.They dident understand what was wrong with me.They treated me so crule not meaning to.My dad already treated me crule because unknown to me at the...
    jadedyoung jadedyoung
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2011

    OCD Is Ruining My Life

    Im so anxious I'm so depressed Who can offer any advice To get me out of this mess
    Dannyjos Dannyjos
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 20, 2013

    Hoarding Vs Clutter Phobia, Which One Is Really Ocd?

    Why is the media so fixated on OCD being about hoarding, when hoarding is the opposite of everything that OCD stands for? People with OCD tend to be organized, neat freaks and clean. Hoarders on the other hand are disorganized, messy and a general health and safety hazard. They...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    Feb 22, 2012

    MY Life With Ocd

    I have OCD and depression and bipolar.  I developed this when I was 10 years old which means I have battled it for 35 years.  Medication has helped but for some reason it has come back to haunt me.  I count alot and can't concentrate.  They say it started due...
    whocares1 whocares1
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Sep 9, 2013
    rachel96826 rachel96826
    18-21, F
    May 14, 2015
    cottonbreeze cottonbreeze
    46-50, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    Help Please, Is This Mild Ocd?

    Whenever I am home alone I get EXTREMELY paranoid (like righht now, constantly looking behind me, even as I am typing- I'm scared to be writing that I'm scared if that makes sense...) I occasionally will go up to the door knob to check if it is locked, even...
    Faithie Faithie
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2009

    well this isnt about me.

    its about my friend. you see, she has a lot of bad things going right. tbh she isnt a she. she's a he (he had transgender) but people think of him as female now. What people make fun of him for: 1. His Pansexuality 2. His gender 3. His incureable diseases 4. His life 5. His...
    bestchloe bestchloe
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2014

    My mom says she is always stressed

    because of me and had enough. I'm sorry I have OCD.
    BornMysterious BornMysterious
    18-21, F
    Feb 2, 2016

    Mental Relapse

     Ok, so Iv been on Citalopram for god knows how long now (its an anti depressant) for my ocd and depression. It was working fine, but lately Iv started heading back to the 'old me'. The suicidal, homicidal (not literally, its the state that my mind reverts to) emotional...
    LoneTiger LoneTiger
    18-21, M
    Mar 17, 2009

    well this is my first time to doing this

    but hi i'm 14 years old and currently going through ocd , its starting to ruin my life because everyday i cry and i'm in fear for my life , the thoughts i have are terrible like my mind likes to make me think i hate my mom and i know i don't stuff like this makes me cry everyday...
    sweetcupcake92 sweetcupcake92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2013

    I Have Ocd By Asking Annoying Questions

    I have ocd by asking to many annoying questions. I mainly do this to my girlfriends which are now my ex's because of this reason. I will ask them stupid things like "did you say you went to the store first or did you go to your moms first?" I really don't care what the answer is...
    bga126427 bga126427
    26-30, M
    11 Responses Jun 11, 2010

    Does anyone have any hocd?

    I go through stages Doubting my love for my bf Then hocd Then I'm fine Then I'll worry my boyfriend will die Then I start the whole process again I'll have around 3 days of been normal But I even doubt all that what iv wrote :(
    sarahrose1994 sarahrose1994
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2015
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