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I Have Ocd

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    First off, I for real have compulsions,

    I've had them my whole life. I'm not a person who is like "I like stuff neat and orderly or else it bothers me" or like "I want my clothes folded neatly and off the floor at all times" no. Just no My compulsions have ranged from breathing out my mouth and nose in a rhythmic...
    theycallmetk theycallmetk 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    My OCD has a mind of its own,

    and I can't control it, when it wants something it takes it. I don't have a say in anything, my OCD has taken over everything, to the point where I can't even think straight anymore. I'll be working in school, and if it's not perfect I'll sit there the whole period making what...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F Feb 18

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    Still washing lilke crazy.

    My hands are starting to hurt even more. Now you can clearly see the wounds from it and still I cant stop....
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 23

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    The fact that OCD isn't capitalized in this

    experience's title is driving me nuts!
    SomebodyAwesome94 SomebodyAwesome94 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    I have OCD, and I will tell you,

    it is a true ANXIETY DISORDER, not some joke to make when you get annoyed at something not going your way. People fail to realize how similar OCD can be to schizophrenia, and I'm not just talking about schiz OCD which is a common condition of which a person with OCD believes...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T Mar 29

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    I feel so contaminated.

    I want to tear out my skin, scrub it clean and stitch it back on. I'm shaking and panicking and I can't handle the fact that I can't fix it. I can't disinfect my whole body. I can't be clean. I feel so overwhelmingly unsanitary and I can barely breathe. I need to fix it. But I...
    paintakesthepainaway paintakesthepainaway 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    OCD and anxiety, I hate it.

    I constantly count things throughout my day in 10s. If I accidentally get further than 10 (on off days) I have to count up to 20, and so on. I have only met once person that truly understands what I'm going through. I'm embarrassed to even admit this due to being judged because...
    SpokenSilence SpokenSilence 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    It just a slight case of it.

    When I see something out of place I want to fix it. But it's not that strong of an urge. So typically in my mind I would be like "should I fix this, I could but should I?" That is unless it was something that I organized then it absolutely must stay the same. (That is unless the...
    DrakeoMagister DrakeoMagister 16-17, M 1 Response May 2

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    I used to pull out my eyelashes

    when I was younger and click my teeth together everytime I saw a traffic light, because I 'had' to, you know
    Zolaura Zolaura 22-25, F Apr 28

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    The thing with how my OCD works is

    that it essentially wants me to inform the entire planet of everything I have ever thought, said and done so that the rest of humanity can look at it and collectively judge whether or not I am a bad person.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Feb 7

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    It's so scary, I have

    so many thoughts at a time, like I have an irritating thought and I try to drown it down with another thought that comes at the same time.. If that makes sense!?
    Slubberdegullion Slubberdegullion 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    So i have this very illogical reasoning of

    wanting things to be perfect and if not i go crazy as in before i could never lose weight. Because i felt that the weightloss had to permanent instead of having the basic logic that body is something you'll have to take care of time and again like how you eat or clean or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 10

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    So it's not me with OCD it's my wife.

    And I gotta tell you, I'm kind of pissed at her right now. I normally give in to her preferences to keep her from panicking, but these preferences are becoming more inconvenient for me, while they of course aren't for her. But there is no reasoning that inconvenience trumps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    This isn't an experience

    but a question to anybody that has OCD... I'm too scared to go to the doctors incase they don't believe me so if I tell you guys my story, maybe one of you lovely people can tell me if I should see someone! Basically the last couple years ive been getting these really...
    lauralooxx lauralooxx 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 2

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    Been ok for the last few days

    but just relapsing a bit today.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Jan 14

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    Every time I have to check

    or double check or triple check something because of it, it feels like a little defeat.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 1 Response May 12

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Oct 18, 2014

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    I hate it. It's annoying

    and it always nags at you and life would just be so much better if it disappeared -_-
    cottoncamarilla cottoncamarilla 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Having a mental illness from a early age isn't

    good but haven't the worst case of obsessive compulsive disorder your local CAMHS have ever seen is something els .......... Would love to talk to others with ocd and maybe help or just talk to other people battling with the dreaded disorder !
    billiam96 billiam96 18-21, M Feb 12

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 18-21, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    Does anyone else here associate everything in

    their lives with specific numbers? No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to stop myself! I will do things an excessive amount of times just because I don't "like" certain numbers - mostly because of what those numbers represent or once represented. I count everything I do. I...
    oqtimusqrime oqtimusqrime 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    it comes and goes. when i was 18 it was really

    bad. my ocd thing is washing my hands.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    My ocd is the typical cleanliness

    and tidy thing everyone seems to have but I love it I love seeing a dirty messy room and that feeling of that I've done it ive made the air breathable and made the room hygiene friendly is a great feeling it's **** when nobody else has the desire to be clean and they surround...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I can remember having obsessive thoughts

    since I was a little girl. I remember obsessing over death when I was younger. When I was young we went to a lot of funerals for some reason. I remember obsessing over it to where I would have dreams about it. I believe after that it moved on obsessing over people. Its been many...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit 18-21, F Apr 30, 2014

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    Hello all. My fiancé is OCD.

    He doesn't go to a therapist but takes Zoloft so that helps. His OCD acts up when no one is around him.. Like tapping his leg and opening closing doors.. Stepping in his foot steps.. Has to get up and down a bunch of times before feeling right sitting in a chair. For about a...
    mysticdragonlady mysticdragonlady 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Okay so I don't really know

    if this is OCD or not. I hope someone can help me. I'm sorry it's such a long post but please read it. I really need opinions. I have this major thing with evenness. It's not really symmetry. Like with my body, it must always be even. Every time I wake up at night I turn to my...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 21

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    Does anyone write words you hear in the air

    with your finger? I do it all the time and idk if it's ocd or something else
    butterfly519 butterfly519 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    I've been coping really well with my OCD

    recently, which is why I haven't been on here in ages, but habits are starting to present themselves to me recently. None of which are anything major compared to my old habits but they are extremely frustrating. Normally my boyfriend, of three years, is pretty good at knowing...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 18-21, F Jan 21

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    Not a lot of people really understand

    when I get stressed out and why I'm so stressed out. For example, my graduation party is tomorrow. Woohoo, right? It would be woohoo if it weren't for the ants all over and the relative who is currently staying with us who brought her constantly screeching child and the fact...
    R0XIE R0XIE 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    So. My biggest problem is my germfobia (dont

    know if thats spelled right). And Im having a hard time now. Im washing my hands like crazy and I can start feeling the skin hurting because its drying out. But I dont know what to do or how to handle it. I feel scared of everything right now. Dont want to touch my own hair...
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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