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I Have Ocd

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 12 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    Writing stories on the internet isn't enough.

    Wouldn't it be nice to have someone you could trust? But is that a side effect of OCD? Constantly doubting relationships, terror at one's own actions, fear of next to everything, shameful thoughts... How do you share this with anyone? You might scout the waters, asking...
    AbusiveMistress AbusiveMistress 18-21 Mar 13

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    An Excellent Example

    i've said it before, and i'll say it again: ocd was nearly the death of me. there was a time period in my early teenage years when i seriously thought the only way out of the hell that my mind had become was suicide. thank goodness i got treated. i don't speak of it often, both...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2008

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 16-17, M Jan 1

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    I can't sleep unless I go to sleep at an exact

    hour, (11:00, 12:00, 1:00) if I am up at 3:15 am I will stay up till 4. The ink in pens need to be inside the pen when they're not being used. (if that makes sense). If there are two different kinds of one thing (two different kinds of cookies for example) there needs to be the...
    iamthephoenix iamthephoenix 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I have OCD - or at least OCD tendencies.

    Some examples of things that have me in a strangle-hold: 1. Symmetry is important. This includes even numbers. Whenever I adjust the volume on anything - be it the TV or the car stereo - is HAS to be on an even number. I have nearly wrecked trying to fix it. 2. When I work...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 7

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    I have ocd, if something isn't in the right spot

    or facing the right way it drives me nuts. Oh well :-)
    sweetlikesuga sweetlikesuga 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    I've never heard of anyone else

    who has this on in particular but I have a spitting OCD. Whenever I have an intrusive thought, or look at something nasty, or someone says a curse word, or makes a rude gesture, I spit. If I don't, I feel as if I'm swallowing it and it becomes a part of me. It's completely...
    Septisoul Septisoul 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Hey everyone. Below is a link to a video I made

    originally to my parents trying to tell them im not ok. The reason im posting it here is because i think a lot if you guys will relate to this. <3 Http://www.youtube.com/embed/Wj3gsOqd8Hw
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F Apr 6

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    Hello OCD community! I have recently realized

    that I have OCD. I took an online test to see what mental illnesses I have symptoms for. It turns out every disorder I have symptoms for is an anxiety disorder. The number one being OCD. After some research I realized things I do that I thought were normal and natural are...
    AnastasiaOPI AnastasiaOPI 18-21 Feb 13

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    I Have OCD

    I have always been a bot of an organizational person and it drives me crazy to go inside someone elses house and it's a mess. I just want to clean it and organize it. I also have to clean my house in a certain order and if any of those rooms get destroyed by my kids i have to go...
    sleepypeggy sleepypeggy 31-35, F Apr 7, 2013

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    OCD

    I recently found out that I have OCD. I've always thought that the things I did were a tid bit obsessive.. but I never thought it'd be OCD. I have many of the symptoms; in cluding: frequent hand washing, equality with body/movements (like if I step on a crack with one foot...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I am very OCD! I sweep

    and mop daily. I double check my straightener and sometimes triple check it! I wash my hands multiple times daily. It's insane! There are many other insane things I can't even get into.
    Heidi75 Heidi75 36-40 Jan 25

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    Hey guys, it's really hard to go through OCD.

    .. As we all know.... Everything seems really pessimistic sometimes, but it's getting better:) anyone with suggestion how they dealt with their OCD? Sorry for a bad English...
    KyungNag KyungNag 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    ccpass22 ccpass22 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I have severe and chronic ocd anxiety

    and depression including panic attacks. im just seeking any others who can relate. I have been battling this sine age 5 or 6 and I am now 30yrrs old. I NEED help. i am in extreme emotional pain every.hour day.minute-as well as fibromayalgia degenerative disc disease and a ton of...
    xshellyx xshellyx 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    OCD Is Ruining My Life.

    where to begin... I started having ocd symptoms when I was 17, and one of my worst memories was around that time was when my mom was honking the horn outside, waiting for me in the car, but I couldn't close my bedroom door "right". I just closed the door over and over...
    melanie29 melanie29 26-30, F 58 Responses Jan 18, 2008

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    Am i the only one who feels like nobody

    understands what im going through ? Like no one understand why i give so much importance to particular objects or people, why i obsess and cant seem to stop thinking about something so irrelevant, it just makes me want to scream and give up
    Letthesunshine237 Letthesunshine237 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Obsessive compulsive disorder - really annoying

    and lately been driving me insane.
    Ghrite Ghrite 13-15, M Mar 24

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 21-25, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    I have to clean everything I touch with 91%

    isopropyl rubbing alcohol, & society hates me for it. I also have unwanted intrusive thoughts.
    otad12 otad12 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I'm a poster child for OCD.

    I do the same routines daily and hate it when things become chaotic. Structure and timelines give me comfort. Waiting on someone (like at the doctor's office) drives me insane. I like things neat and tidy. Dishes in my sink - never!! Laundry everywhere - no way. Blessing or...
    aguythatknows aguythatknows 41-45, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    What Not To Say To Someone With Ocd

    People say the darnedest things. And sometimes they say the most insensitive things. Whilst it’s great that obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) has received enough media attention that it’s no longer a dirty secret, it is obvious that many people still fail to understand the...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F 4 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Pure O

    HelloI suffer from a severe ocd, which sometimes takes control over my emotions and beliefs.I obsess about thoughts and ideas that irritate me.I get convinced by the ideas of me being a bad person, so i end up ruminating situations  in my headwhich dont exist, end up believing...
    pinkspell pinkspell 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    I Feel Trapped!!

    I have had ocd for years now, but it has changed over the years also. The earliest thing I remember is being in infants school obsessing over dirt in my nails. I used to think if I got even the tiniest bit of dirt under my skin I would die. I would sit in class trying to pick it...
    Daniixx Daniixx 18-21, F 12 Responses May 6, 2009

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    I have been battling ocd

    since i was young and sometimes its too overwhelming, and it doesn't help that i know no one that suffers from the same condition, just want to talk to someone who can relate
    Letthesunshine237 Letthesunshine237 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Yes I Have OCD, No, My House Is Not Spotless

    OCD - hmmmm... just thought that was me - makes me quirky and sassy, right? Since being diagnosed (officially) at age 35 with OCD, I realize that OCD tendencies were are part of my life since I was a wee child. Again, who doesn't do that? worry like that? try and fix that...
    ninjakitteh ninjakitteh 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 19, 2013

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    SallyT92 SallyT92 18-21 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I Can Count Myself to Sanity...

    I thought I was normal.....then I was diagnosed with depression followed by suicidal, some time before anxious, and all prior to OCD.  I now have learned they are all entwined.  After lots of therapy and years of being told I was odd I now have an...
    countress countress 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2008

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    Different Type Of Ocd

    I have OCD, but its nothing major, until i learned that there are different types of OCD. I was seeing my therapist for years and found out i suffer from what is called Cheating OCD. There are two subtypes. 1: You feel like you feel like you have cheated or feel like your...
    DixieBabe92 DixieBabe92 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2012

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    Yes I Have Pure Ocd

    I've just been dianosed with Pure O just about a month ago it was not fun at ALL! I had no idea that having violent thoughts and urges was OCD, but it is. Even though I was only dianosed a month ago my therapist told me I probably had it since I was about 4-8...so yeah I had it...
    littlegirlinaBIGworld littlegirlinaBIGworld 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    It's An Everyday Battle.

    I have been braking away from OCD tendencies for awhile. I am doing so much better...but still...some things are there. It used to be that I'd have to check all the locks in my house several times before going to bed, and touch certain items at the supermarket. At one point in...
    kkid kkid 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2007

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    CrushOnPhilBrooks CrushOnPhilBrooks 16-17, F Jan 26

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I'm fed up of feeling l like crap everytime I

    don't check something.... I'm fed up of thinking I'm going to die the whole time!
    thatfeelingwhenichallenge thatfeelingwhenichallenge 13-15, F Jan 22

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    647821097bbnmhb 647821097bbnmhb 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Ugh I hate it I feel like every thing has to be

    on the right side like if something touches my left leg I touch my right leg twice I hate odd numbers too in school it's hard for me because when something happens it can be hard for me to make it the right way my OCD is controlling me I hate it so much :(
    Allalone06 Allalone06 13-15 Jan 15

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    Why Do People Yell At You For Having OCD Attacks?

    I've recently noticed how everyone yells at you when you are completing an OCD ritual. Everytime one of my guardians catches me doing an OCD thing, they yell at me. As in, "Stop it! Stop doing that weird thing!!!" And they are genuinely upset! Why is that? It's almost as if they...
    sajjystar98 sajjystar98 13-15 3 Responses Sep 6, 2013

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    I wash my hands all the time,

    have to stick to my routine and have a set way of doing things. I know where everything is all the time and have a way I put my door handle witch I put in the right position everytime I to through the door...... If things don't go how they should then my brain makes me think...
    jen1994 jen1994 18-21, F Feb 15

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    It Gets In The Way Of Everything!!!!

    Everyday, every couple of seconds, I'm constantly having to deal with a variety of equally annoying/painful tics. There I things I have to do with my hands, my eyes, my feet, my mouth, any everything around me! Sometimes it makes me late for things, sometimes it makes me cry or...
    sajjystar98 sajjystar98 13-15 1 Response Jun 6, 2013

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    About How I Take a Shower, ...

    About how I take a shower, how I clean the house.  about alot.
    wowza wowza 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2008

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    I wash my hands constantly,

    wear long sleeves to cover my hands, separate my items by what is "clean" and "dirty" (clean as in when I am in my room or in pajamas, dirty when I am out), I have to put the toilet lid down before I flush and I can't go into a bathroom for 8 hours if someone flushed with the...
    maddiegraddie maddiegraddie 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    Steps

    it's not a huge deal but i always count every step i take. and predicting how many steps it takes to reach a destination and then making sure to reach the destination in exactly that many steps..which i know just sounds crazy but it's what's always going through my head while I'm...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 9 Responses May 19, 2008

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    I am currently a sophomore in high school,

    and when I was in fifth grade I began to experience minor symptoms of ocd. They have since escalated to me needing to move the furniture in my room every three weeks, having to clean every weekend, organize constantly, and things like that. I have to count the amount of steps I...
    Ally271 Ally271 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I was diagnosed with OCD several years ago.

    It manifests itself in compulsive spending. I went through over $10,000 like it was nothing and had nothing to show for it. I had to ask my parents for help getting out of debt and the decision for my father to take over my accounts was made. It makes me feel pathetic knowing...
    SilentTears930 SilentTears930 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I have recently started getting bothered by

    things that are out of place . Like at school all my papers and pencils have to be In the same place and never anywhere else. That's not it..... Anything that is out of place bugs me!! If someone's sweatshirt tie things aren't hanging at the same place it drives me insane. It's...
    red00 red00 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 27

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    Actually i really could use someone to talk to.

    ..I live in a chaotic home exposed to so much disorder and inconsistency. I haven't had a compulsive episode in a while. I resist them and talk myself out of them so thats good right? Well i feel like a stifled volcano and i feel the pressure with each little crack. I cracked...
    Kryste Kryste 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Atypical?

    at first when i came here, i almost didnt join it because i wasnt really sure. when you think of ocd, you think of counting and checking. i dont do those too much. i do collecting, shopping and eatting. i went through a shoe thing, a sock thing, a bead thing.... sometimes it will...
    kittten kittten 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Mind Threats.

    I have been affected by OCD for as long as I can remember.  When I was three someone told me the phrase, "Step on the crack, break your mama's back".  After that, if I ever stepped on a crack I would freak out until I saw my mom again.  As I got...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 7 Responses Aug 10, 2008

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    I have an OCD in which pressure has to be

    even on my body. For example, if someone hits me in my right boob, I will hit myself in the left on to feel an even amount of pain. It also happenes if I walk left, right, left then stop to talk & start again on my left. It would start to feel weird so I tap my right foot twice...
    trulovr1128 trulovr1128 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    OCD Is Driving Me Crazy

    Yes,i have a bit of ocd.When it comes to my house being clean,i can not stand things messy.Well my family ,they are a bunch of slobs!It drives me crazy,they make a mess all over.I clean for 4 hrs a day.This **** is getting so ******* old!
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 31-35, F 10 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    My OCD Case

    Hello there! I'm 14 and I've been diagnosed with OCD about a month ago which really annoyed me because I've been aware of it for a year but my parents just thought that it was only a part of a phase with teenager problems, hormones and all. I've always been "crazy" (in a good...
    TheWalkingPotato TheWalkingPotato 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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