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I Have Ocd

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    I can remember having obsessive thoughts

    since I was a little girl. I remember obsessing over death when I was younger. When I was young we went to a lot of funerals for some reason. I remember obsessing over it to where I would have dreams about it. I believe after that it moved on obsessing over people. Its been many...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit 18-21, F Apr 30, 2014

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Every time I have to check

    or double check or triple check something because of it, it feels like a little defeat.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 1 Response May 12

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    I am at my wits end with my OCD.

    I don't even want to do anything or go anywhere 'cause I'm gonna have to deal with my constant symptoms: my worrying, my anxiety about small things going wrong, stepping, counting, and adjusting myself so I feel 'right'. its become automatic at this point but I still notice and...
    ocdfun123 ocdfun123 16-17 1 Response Jun 8

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    what are the ?bad thoughts?

    you get? is it dependent on the situation, or is it always the same? mines are situational with everything I do.
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 18-21, F 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Just to everyone with OCD.

    I have struggled since I was 6. Trust me. Worrying makes it worse. Nothing but negativity
    Ocdlol Ocdlol 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    a question for people with rocd how do you know

    if you love someone if you have rocd and coupled with anxiety attacks? Or its just impossible to love at all
    chemist3 chemist3 22-25, F 1 Response May 31

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    I would like to connect with people

    that suffer from this often unrecognized or just not understood disorder. It hinders my further education due to my morning routine. My make up has to be perfect otherwise I will not leave the house. I time how long it takes me to lace my lashes with mascara, groom my eyebrows...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses a week ago

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    The fact that OCD isn't capitalized in this

    experience's title is driving me nuts!
    SomebodyAwesome94 SomebodyAwesome94 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    I used to pull out my eyelashes

    when I was younger and click my teeth together everytime I saw a traffic light, because I 'had' to, you know
    Zolaura Zolaura 22-25, F Apr 28

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 16-17, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    i have ocd and its so annoying lol.

    everytime i repeatily wash my hands and im germaphobic. and i also worry too much and have to do whatever my body tells me what to do.caise if i dont i have a feeling that something bad might happen. yeah it sucks. when i walk to the stairs i literally have to walk back up...
    Chris4323 Chris4323 13-15, M Jun 3

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    OCD Is Driving Me Crazy

    Yes,i have a bit of ocd.When it comes to my house being clean,i can not stand things messy.Well my family ,they are a bunch of slobs!It drives me crazy,they make a mess all over.I clean for 4 hrs a day.This **** is getting so ******* old!
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    Trichotillomania, a curse

    that has plagued me since I was 6 or 7. Instead of seeing the beauty in myself when I look in the mirror all I see is the bare spots where my lashes and eyebrows should be. It is a disgusting feeling. When I tried to get help not a lot of therapists know what it is. But to my...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate it. It's annoying

    and it always nags at you and life would just be so much better if it disappeared -_-
    cottoncamarilla cottoncamarilla 13-15, F May 24

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    I feel so contaminated.

    I want to tear out my skin, scrub it clean and stitch it back on. I'm shaking and panicking and I can't handle the fact that I can't fix it. I can't disinfect my whole body. I can't be clean. I feel so overwhelmingly unsanitary and I can barely breathe. I need to fix it. But I...
    paintakesthepainaway paintakesthepainaway 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    Having OCD makes me very different from others.

    I've went to four different schools and still got picked on like I was the target. Now I'm homeschooled. But I still get bullied by my neighbors. Tbh having OCD isn't funny at all. I've actually tried committing suicide because it. Something stopped me from dying, i dont know...
    rachel96826 rachel96826 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2014

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    OCD and anxiety, I hate it.

    I constantly count things throughout my day in 10s. If I accidentally get further than 10 (on off days) I have to count up to 20, and so on. I have only met once person that truly understands what I'm going through. I'm embarrassed to even admit this due to being judged because...
    SpokenSilence SpokenSilence 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Hi, anyone with relationship ocd issue?

    does rocd makes you 'Don't know how you are feeling(about love)' the moment u are in a relationship? And when u got out of that relationship status, U almost immediately broke free from anxiety and ocd thoughts?
    chemist3 chemist3 22-25, F 1 Response May 31

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    It just a slight case of it.

    When I see something out of place I want to fix it. But it's not that strong of an urge. So typically in my mind I would be like "should I fix this, I could but should I?" That is unless it was something that I organized then it absolutely must stay the same. (That is unless the...
    DrakeoMagister DrakeoMagister 16-17, M 1 Response May 2

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    I have the pure o schiz.

    Or pure obsessional type ocd, thinking that I have schizophrenia. It really sucks. But atleast it's not what I thought it was. But i cant help but to ruminate about being psychotic sometimes. I also get other intrusive thoughts but mostly ones that I'm not normal or human. And...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 1 Response May 28

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    it comes and goes. when i was 18 it was really

    bad. my ocd thing is washing my hands.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I hate it. When I was a kid it got to a point

    were it was a disability. It completely took over and I had no resistance.Literally every second of my life I had those thoughts and I had the compulsions at least 20 times a day.Now I'm a completely different person.
    hahahahahahano hahahahahahano 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I just wanted to know what are some ways people

    cope with ocd? i had it since I was a kid .
    koolj89 koolj89 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 3

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    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Oct 18, 2014

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    I was talking to a friend here about OCD

    and she reminded me of an embarrassing; but funny story that other people with OCD may be able to relate to. So I was working in this office and I was about to go on vacation. Anyone with ocd knows that this is a task because you have to go through the time consuming ritual of...
    worrywart42 worrywart42 41-45 Jun 3

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    So i have this very illogical reasoning of

    wanting things to be perfect and if not i go crazy as in before i could never lose weight. Because i felt that the weightloss had to permanent instead of having the basic logic that body is something you'll have to take care of time and again like how you eat or clean or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 10

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    Something that might help someone.

    I am a mother with five children with OCD. I didn't know what they had till they were in their teens. It was almost too late for intervention then. I home schooled them and even though they got quality schooling they had very little social experience. Bad thing for someone...
    kindandterrified kindandterrified 16-17, M Jun 21

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    It's when your going through the endless loop

    that you fear the good times won't happen again. It's when things are going good you fear getting caught in the loop again. Ocd can be a debilitating illness to deal with. It feels like your mind is racing on an endless track. Your brain thinks up the most irrational things you...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 18 hrs ago

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    Okay im pretty sure i have ocd

    or just obssesive tendencies i guess. But i dont think its nothing because sometimes i dont want to go downstairs , because i probably end up having problems with the lights, or pushing in chairs. I dont even bother cracking my door because i will spend at least 5 to 10 minutes...
    Anime456 Anime456 22-25, F 2 Responses May 28

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    So it's not me with OCD it's my wife.

    And I gotta tell you, I'm kind of pissed at her right now. I normally give in to her preferences to keep her from panicking, but these preferences are becoming more inconvenient for me, while they of course aren't for her. But there is no reasoning that inconvenience trumps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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