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I Have Ocd

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    OCD Is Ruining My Life.

    where to begin... I started having ocd symptoms when I was 17, and one of my worst memories was around that time was when my mom was honking the horn outside, waiting for me in the car, but I couldn't close my bedroom door "right". I just closed the door over and over...
    melanie29 melanie29 26-30, F 59 Responses Jan 18, 2008

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    I have major OCD and depression.

    This summer has been one major depressive episode for me. I need my friends around me but they are bailing. I feel like I have no one. I need all the support I can get.
    hawksfan84 hawksfan84 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    It all began when I was about 6

    or 7. I was talking a drug called Singular. If anyone else has taken that as a child, it caused bad mental effects in some children. Including me. I argued with myself in my head. I was raised Christian, which is the subject my head decided to attack. I would hear "You don't...
    Crystallophobia Crystallophobia 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I started showing signs of OCD

    when I was about 7 years old, but nobody really paid much attention to it. When I was maybe 10 or 11, I thought something was utterly wrong with me, so I typed it into google, and the wiki for OCD came up. After reading it, I broke down and ran into my moms room, just bawling...
    FaggotVille76 FaggotVille76 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    An Excellent Example

    i've said it before, and i'll say it again: ocd was nearly the death of me. there was a time period in my early teenage years when i seriously thought the only way out of the hell that my mind had become was suicide. thank goodness i got treated. i don't speak of it often, both...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2008

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    Why does OCD keep interfering with my life,

    it limits everything that I can do! It just won't leave me alone! No one tells you this when you go to a therapist! At the end they say "that's it your fine" what they don't say is we will take you off the medication, they just leave you on it, which then your body depends on it...
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F Aug 18

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    My OCD is effecting my marriage

    and my family. My husband is tired of it and has told me has thought about leaving me. It gets so bad that I can't sit down when I get home from work until everything is in its place and clean. I will do this until I basically exhaust myself. Then I definitely dont have any...
    aapatulski aapatulski 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I have contamination based OCD.

    My mind never seems to switch off and I spend all my time tracking what's touched what and avoiding things I think of as dirty or anything with an unpleasant smell. Even just writing about it makes my skin crawl. I have other problems too, obsessive and intrusive thoughts, some...
    LastBusHome LastBusHome 22-25, F Jun 1

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    I wish that people would not judge me

    because I have OCD, it doesn't make me an alien! A lot of people don't understand and make me feel upset and sometimes isolated because people don't know what you go through.
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    Not the serious case though.

    Mild one i guess. 1. I am a total clean freak, i want my stuffs to be neatly arranged. 2. I do always have a schedule. I have "to do list" and since i am really forgetful. 3. I always have my evening "beauty ritual" no matter how tiring my day is from work or school. 4...
    Ladyling Ladyling 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    I was diagnosed with OCD at 3

    and since then it has continued to completely rule over my life.
    bfab1998 bfab1998 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 2

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    OCD Has worsened and changed

    for me For the past few months, I've been seeing nooses in my path... I know they're not here, but if I happen to walk into one I have to make myself "take it off" every time. I physically have to act like I'm removing the rope from around my neck or else my throat will...
    n0ceur n0ceur 18-21, F Aug 12

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    Since i got ocd- rocd - its always hard

    for me to feel the love inside my heart. My ocd always ruin my relationship with my girlfriend who love me so much. Im struggling so much yet i feel i dont want to lost her at the same time. Is it the sign that i love her? Somebody there with rocd too?
    BelindaMulyaniS BelindaMulyaniS 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Does anyone else have OCD?

    I MIGHT have the answer! Google "Myo Inositol & OCD" It seems to be a MUCH better SSRI with waaaaay less side effects, I have read very positive results online and ordered some myself, I have only taken one dose so far but I will update this once I know if it's good or not...
    theotherside420 theotherside420 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24

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    I have horrible OCD. It paralyzes me

    and has affected many aspects of my life for years. I never had any Obsessive Compulsive Disorder-like symptoms til I was about 5. I was a sheltered only child, who lived with my mom, dad, and pets in a secluded area. We rarely went out or got visitors. I had grew up with a...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jun 27

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    Atypical?

    at first when i came here, i almost didnt join it because i wasnt really sure. when you think of ocd, you think of counting and checking. i dont do those too much. i do collecting, shopping and eatting. i went through a shoe thing, a sock thing, a bead thing.... sometimes it will...
    kittten kittten 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    I just want everyone

    who has had ocd, or is struggling with it or just everyone in general to know that yeah it is really hard. I have had ocd for the past 10 years of my life. let me tell you, it isn't easy at all. some days are worse then others, some days are better then others. I just want...
    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F Aug 5

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    It's rather funny how this is working out.

    Lately, I've been obsessing over whether or not I have OCD. You know, spending hours googling symptoms, and taking tests, reading everything I can, over and over again. And then, I find this one doctor's website, (which is very informative, and I really like it) where it says...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Having OCD makes me very different from others.

    I've went to four different schools and still got picked on like I was the target. Now I'm homeschooled. But I still get bullied by my neighbors. Tbh having OCD isn't funny at all. I've actually tried committing suicide because it. Something stopped me from dying, i dont know...
    rachel96826 rachel96826 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I have a therapist for anxiety

    and depression and they're also referring me to psychology for my ocd. Although I'm thankful for the help I'm getting it's really really hard letting yourself be helped.. If that makes sense. I just feel like my whole life has been a certain way and trying to change is even more...
    Destrxctive Destrxctive 16-17, F Aug 18

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    I Feel Trapped!!

    I have had ocd for years now, but it has changed over the years also. The earliest thing I remember is being in infants school obsessing over dirt in my nails. I used to think if I got even the tiniest bit of dirt under my skin I would die. I would sit in class trying to pick it...
    Daniixx Daniixx 18-21, F 12 Responses May 6, 2009

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 16-17, F 1 Response May 26

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    Th3Blu3SphinxWithRainbowT33th Th3Blu3SphinxWithRainbowT33th 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    SallyT92 SallyT92 18-21 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I really struggle with OCD.

    .. I feel it distances me from my family, and sometimes friends
    Josey7217 Josey7217 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 16-17, M Jan 1

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    I have had OCD and social anxiety

    for 4-5 years now so bad I had to leave school people thinks it's todo with cleaning mainly but mine is counting and touching thing switching things on and of which makes me frustrated and angry at my self but I can't stop
    sophieghellon sophieghellon 18-21, F Aug 12

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    I don't really want to get into it.

    But it's getting worse and I'm not sure what's going to happen.
    Mercurylucidity Mercurylucidity 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    What Not To Say To Someone With Ocd

    People say the darnedest things. And sometimes they say the most insensitive things. Whilst it’s great that obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) has received enough media attention that it’s no longer a dirty secret, it is obvious that many people still fail to understand the...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F 3 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Do any of you find that having OCD makes it

    difficult to fly on an airplane? I always insist on getting to the airport five hours early, or more, and I check check check and recheck my flight information. Then on the airplane I am afraid to touch anything, like the seat-back pocket and tray table, and I use hand...
    Babaghanouj Babaghanouj 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    About How I Take a Shower, ...

    About how I take a shower, how I clean the house.  about alot.
    wowza wowza 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2008

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    Steps

    it's not a huge deal but i always count every step i take. and predicting how many steps it takes to reach a destination and then making sure to reach the destination in exactly that many steps..which i know just sounds crazy but it's what's always going through my head while I'm...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 9 Responses May 19, 2008

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    I got rOCD - relationship OCD Several month

    ago was horrible. I suffering daily panic attack, constant worry and all the depression symptom. Doubting about my girlfriend, i keep reassuring my feeling to her, if i dont "feel the love", my ocd will ruin my hole day.
    BelindaMulyaniS BelindaMulyaniS 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 4

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    Yes I Have Pure Ocd

    I've just been dianosed with Pure O just about a month ago it was not fun at ALL! I had no idea that having violent thoughts and urges was OCD, but it is. Even though I was only dianosed a month ago my therapist told me I probably had it since I was about 4-8...so yeah I had it...
    littlegirlinaBIGworld littlegirlinaBIGworld 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    I've been fighting my OCD

    for the past 7 years. It has been such a hard fight. Most days I just want to end it all. Why do people not get that OCD is a really issue and not just something that makes you a beat freak.
    oreoelizabeth oreoelizabeth 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 21

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 21-25, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    I don't have extreme OCD.

    .. But gosh having OCD and living wth my family is nearly impossible. The smallest things they do annoy me because it's pure laziness. Don't get me wrong I do a lot around the house to help them out I put in my share, but even if it's cleaning up after yourself or taking your...
    behappy4 behappy4 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    When I found out that I had OCD I didn't want

    to tell anyone as I was embarrassed but now I have excepted that I have it and all those people who have made fun of me will just have to deal with it and get over themselves, they just don't understand what it is like to deal with OCD!
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    It started mildly when I was eight.

    I kept counting the amount of syllables in songs, and I just HAD to end on an even amount of syllables, or it would drive me insane and I'd have terrible urges to try it again until I did. I didn't say anything and taught myself to stop a few months into it. Then, at the...
    Summer6457 Summer6457 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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