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I Have Ocd

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    So I'm not 100% sure I have OCD

    but as of recently I have noticed my need to re-check all locks in the house is getting worse especially when I am alone. It is often triggered by the thought of harm coming to myself or my mom (if she's home). I check other things as well over and over again until I'm sure it...
    bdagurl bdagurl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Not the serious case though.

    Mild one i guess. 1. I am a total clean freak, i want my stuffs to be neatly arranged. 2. I do always have a schedule. I have "to do list" and since i am really forgetful. 3. I always have my evening "beauty ritual" no matter how tiring my day is from work or school. 4...
    Ladyling Ladyling 22-25, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    Having OCD makes me very different from others.

    I've went to four different schools and still got picked on like I was the target. Now I'm homeschooled. But I still get bullied by my neighbors. Tbh having OCD isn't funny at all. I've actually tried committing suicide because it. Something stopped me from dying, i dont know...
    rachel96826 rachel96826 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2014

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    I have never posted a story on this site

    but I might as well share the only one I got. When I was younger I had really bad OCD... I was around 6 or 7, most of those years were a blur - like how it is for mostly everyone. I just remember the routines, the patterns, the washing of hands. Back then I didn't realize how...
    lovelylife0 lovelylife0 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I hate that unconsciously my OCD controls my

    body. I don't want to do something but my body just does it, and it's very embarrasing
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I was talking to a friend here about OCD

    and she reminded me of an embarrassing; but funny story that other people with OCD may be able to relate to. So I was working in this office and I was about to go on vacation. Anyone with ocd knows that this is a task because you have to go through the time consuming ritual of...
    worrywart42 worrywart42 41-45 Jun 3

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Just to everyone with OCD.

    I have struggled since I was 6. Trust me. Worrying makes it worse. Nothing but negativity
    Ocdlol Ocdlol 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I wouldn't usually post asking

    for help like this but I'm extremely bothered tonight. As you probably already know from the title, I have OCD. Well part of my OCD is that I sit around and scratch and pick at my head like, all day. My hair falls out, my head bleeds. It's pretty sick. Tonight, it just seems...
    brookledsome brookledsome 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    So I feel like I might have OCD,

    I'm a teenager and I haven't been diagnosed with it but I'm really sure I do. I do things over and over until I get it perfect, I have to have things in an exact order or I freak out and I don't know how to control it. I always imagine breaking things or creating a mess and it...
    willawd willawd 13-15, F Jul 29

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    Something that might help someone.

    I am a mother with five children with OCD. I didn't know what they had till they were in their teens. It was almost too late for intervention then. I home schooled them and even though they got quality schooling they had very little social experience. Bad thing for someone...
    kindandterrified kindandterrified 16-17, M Jun 21

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    what are the ?bad thoughts?

    you get? is it dependent on the situation, or is it always the same? mines are situational with everything I do.
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    I was diagnosed when I was 10.

    I've lost most of my friends because of my OCD. I have made my hands bleed from compulsive hand washing. When somebody hugs me, I feel like I need to shower and hell knows that I of somebody just touches me, I want to kick them in the face. Sometimes I practically claw myself so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 30

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    my skin feels absolutely disgusting

    and i cant shower bc the shower is dirty and broken i am in agony
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 18

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    I'll be on Twitter or something

    and see a pic that has like one little thing wrong but that little thing stands out and I just get so angry. like it bothers me that someone would post something like that just to bug out people that have OCD. it really gets to me.
    brookledsome brookledsome 16-17, F Jun 29

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 18-21, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 18-21, F 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    I'm a teenage girl dealing with OCD.

    No one in my family understands, and I just need someone to talk to.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 20

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    I feel so contaminated.

    I want to tear out my skin, scrub it clean and stitch it back on. I'm shaking and panicking and I can't handle the fact that I can't fix it. I can't disinfect my whole body. I can't be clean. I feel so overwhelmingly unsanitary and I can barely breathe. I need to fix it. But I...
    paintakesthepainaway paintakesthepainaway 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    In order to open any Christmas present I must

    have them organized from.... * biggest-smallest * color of the wrapping paper * height And estimated weight When they are open I organize them from.... * necessities (toothbrush, hairbrush, deodorant) * extra (phone cases, gift cards, music) * electronics (anything that needs...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    I am at my wits end with my OCD.

    I don't even want to do anything or go anywhere 'cause I'm gonna have to deal with my constant symptoms: my worrying, my anxiety about small things going wrong, stepping, counting, and adjusting myself so I feel 'right'. its become automatic at this point but I still notice and...
    ocdfun123 ocdfun123 16-17 1 Response Jun 8

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    I just broke down bawling like a two-year old

    because my husband erased my dry erase board full of notes and lists... He just doesn't understand that was the equivalent of erasing my brain! ::pulls hair out::
    ShesAVeryKinkyGirl ShesAVeryKinkyGirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 18-21, M Jan 1, 2014

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    It's just been getting worse this past week I

    might need to start medicating it
    ffhgu ffhgu 13-15, M Jul 16

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    I haven't been diagnosed with OCD

    but I know that I have OCD. I don't have ritualistic behavioral patterns but I do have ritualist thinking patterns. I think about the same thing over and over and over and over and over again because I believe that it's going to change something in reality. I know that this is...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F Jul 26

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    Wondering17 Wondering17 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I hate it. It's annoying

    and it always nags at you and life would just be so much better if it disappeared -_-
    cottoncamarilla cottoncamarilla 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    Bloodnotesxd Bloodnotesxd 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    unofficially.. i'm currently obsessed with

    how adorable my cats are... O.o
    PastelLime PastelLime 31-35 Jun 24

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    For as long as I can remembwr,

    mostly with counting & cleaning. It's weird.
    tigerlilybaybee tigerlilybaybee 26-30, F Aug 9

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    OCD Is Driving Me Crazy

    Yes,i have a bit of ocd.When it comes to my house being clean,i can not stand things messy.Well my family ,they are a bunch of slobs!It drives me crazy,they make a mess all over.I clean for 4 hrs a day.This **** is getting so ******* old!
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    I yelled at my mother

    because she bit the corner of a sandwich before I had the chance to cut it in half. It was ruined. How can you make something perfect if its been ruined? I didn't know what to do after that. I went crazy inside with thoughts. I had to make her cut the sandwich.
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I've been really good about controlling my OCD

    these past few weeks, but today. . today I relapsed. I only pulled a few eyebrows, but its enough to make me hate myself. The funny thing is the very thing that set it off was the mere fact that I couldn't fix something between a person who is dear to me and I.. over something...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 26

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    I have ritualistic thinking patterns

    that feel impossible to get rid of and it's very stressful for me. Today I did not allow myself to compulsively analyze different social situations and it made my anxiety worse but I felt stronger. What about that interaction by the printer, when that person walked by, what...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F Aug 7

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    Trichotillomania, a curse

    that has plagued me since I was 6 or 7. Instead of seeing the beauty in myself when I look in the mirror all I see is the bare spots where my lashes and eyebrows should be. It is a disgusting feeling. When I tried to get help not a lot of therapists know what it is. But to my...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    I would like to connect with people

    that suffer from this often unrecognized or just not understood disorder. It hinders my further education due to my morning routine. My make up has to be perfect otherwise I will not leave the house. I time how long it takes me to lace my lashes with mascara, groom my eyebrows...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 27

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