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I Have Ocd

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    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Not the serious case though.

    Mild one i guess. 1. I am a total clean freak, i want my stuffs to be neatly arranged. 2. I do always have a schedule. I have "to do list" and since i am really forgetful. 3. I always have my evening "beauty ritual" no matter how tiring my day is from work or school. 4...
    Ladyling Ladyling 22-25, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    The first time i remember doing something O.

    C.D was when i was about 6 or 7 and i still have this issue i would pkay with my nails 24/7 i felt like air was getting under them so i qould have to push it out but then there was no air! So i had to lift up my nail to let the air back in i was in grade 1 my counseler sudgested...
    Dakotaraexox Dakotaraexox 13-15, F Jan 7

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    I've been coping really well with my OCD

    recently, which is why I haven't been on here in ages, but habits are starting to present themselves to me recently. None of which are anything major compared to my old habits but they are extremely frustrating. Normally my boyfriend, of three years, is pretty good at knowing...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 16-17, F Jan 21

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    I AM A: reactive checker I CHECK: people,

    reassurance, every decision I CHECK PEOPLE BY: texting, following I CHECK REASSURANCE BY: asking, apologizing, constant research I CHECK DECISIONS BY: asking others, research, deliberation until I get sick I need every decision, every relationship to be %100 right. I NEED to...
    maggie9801 maggie9801 18-21, F Nov 15, 2014

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    My ocd is the typical cleanliness

    and tidy thing everyone seems to have but I love it I love seeing a dirty messy room and that feeling of that I've done it ive made the air breathable and made the room hygiene friendly is a great feeling it's **** when nobody else has the desire to be clean and they surround...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I have a bit of OCD because I have intrusive

    thoughts. I guess these kind of thoughts have a name that I've had all of my life. They're the kind of thoughts that I never want to have, but can't help having. I argue with myself about it, trying to push it away, but that only brings them back. They can make me feel horrible...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F Feb 16

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    OCD Is Driving Me Crazy

    Yes,i have a bit of ocd.When it comes to my house being clean,i can not stand things messy.Well my family ,they are a bunch of slobs!It drives me crazy,they make a mess all over.I clean for 4 hrs a day.This **** is getting so ******* old!
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 7 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    So it's not me with OCD it's my wife.

    And I gotta tell you, I'm kind of pissed at her right now. I normally give in to her preferences to keep her from panicking, but these preferences are becoming more inconvenient for me, while they of course aren't for her. But there is no reasoning that inconvenience trumps...
    WtfAmIHearing WtfAmIHearing 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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    my hands have to be clean,

    and if I'm nowhere near somewhere I can wash my hands whenever I feel the need to then I just ware gloves 247 until I can wash them.
    alexxvaunlennon101 alexxvaunlennon101 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Having OCD makes me very different from others.

    I've went to four different schools and still got picked on like I was the target. Now I'm homeschooled. But I still get bullied by my neighbors. Tbh having OCD isn't funny at all. I've actually tried committing suicide because it. Something stopped me from dying, i dont know...
    rachel96826 rachel96826 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2014

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    The worst thing about having diagnosed OCD is

    the feeling like you're either crazy and all alone or you're crazy and all alone. Having thoughts and fears run through your head about hurting people, hurting children or seeing things incorrectly sucks... even when the deep down of you knows that you are a great person...
    77cm77 77cm77 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    My OCD has a mind of its own,

    and I can't control it, when it wants something it takes it. I don't have a say in anything, my OCD has taken over everything, to the point where I can't even think straight anymore. I'll be working in school, and if it's not perfect I'll sit there the whole period making what...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    I just got diagnosed on Thursday.

    They call it the "doubting disorder". I just want to be able to trust that my friends love me and want me around. I don't know how to deal with this yet.
    maggie9801 maggie9801 18-21, F Nov 14, 2014

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    im always picking at my face

    and trying to get the... stuff out... i just want my face to be clean but all i do is turn myself into an ugly, bloody, disgusting mess
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 16-17, M Jan 1, 2014

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    Does anyone write words you hear in the air

    with your finger? I do it all the time and idk if it's ocd or something else
    butterfly519 butterfly519 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Oct 18, 2014

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    The fact that OCD isn't capitalized in this

    experience's title is driving me nuts!
    SomebodyAwesome94 SomebodyAwesome94 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    In order to open any Christmas present I must

    have them organized from.... * biggest-smallest * color of the wrapping paper * height And estimated weight When they are open I organize them from.... * necessities (toothbrush, hairbrush, deodorant) * extra (phone cases, gift cards, music) * electronics (anything that needs...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    It actually bothers me is much

    when I don't know which hand my gloves go on.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I feel so contaminated.

    I want to tear out my skin, scrub it clean and stitch it back on. I'm shaking and panicking and I can't handle the fact that I can't fix it. I can't disinfect my whole body. I can't be clean. I feel so overwhelmingly unsanitary and I can barely breathe. I need to fix it. But I...
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    Body dysmorphic disorder,

    OCD, and eating disorder is a terrible chain of mental hell. Especially unmedicated because its just not an option. I'm just ridiculously obsessed with my body image and I worry and overthink it to the point where I just refuse to eat/vomit/selfharm/no sleep/refuse to be...
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M Jan 25

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    Been ok for the last few days

    but just relapsing a bit today.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Jan 14

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    mysteriousnite mysteriousnite 13-15, F Feb 1

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    I feel like this thing will never end.

    When you think you are totally okay then just hits you again. And again....
    Meoooww Meoooww 13-15, F Jan 14

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    I have my kpop albums in a particular order

    and no one is allowed to touch them but me. Everything in my room is organized a certain way. I easily notice when something is moved and get irritated. My ocdness doesnt allow me to be messy or unclassy with the way i dress unless im not going out at all then i dont dress up...
    kpopgirl21 kpopgirl21 18-21, F Dec 24, 2014

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 16-17, F 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    Aggressive OCD. I'm having an awful day with it

    now. I've never talked about it before, and I'm off my medicine which does calm it, so this experience may come out as jerky and all over the place, and it probably won't make sense, but I'm doing this because I feel myself on the verge of a panic attack and I'm hoping that...
    NinaBunny NinaBunny 70+, F 6 Responses Feb 1

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F Feb 18

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    I wish that people would not judge me

    because I have OCD, it doesn't make me an alien! A lot of people don't understand and make me feel upset and sometimes isolated because people don't know what you go through.
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    The thing with how my OCD works is

    that it essentially wants me to inform the entire planet of everything I have ever thought, said and done so that the rest of humanity can look at it and collectively judge whether or not I am a bad person.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Feb 7

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Having a mental illness from a early age isn't

    good but haven't the worst case of obsessive compulsive disorder your local CAMHS have ever seen is something els .......... Would love to talk to others with ocd and maybe help or just talk to other people battling with the dreaded disorder !
    billiam96 billiam96 18-21, M Feb 12

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    In case you haven't checked it out before,

    this a great site that I've found for OCD. http://beyondocd.org
    Daenerys7 Daenerys7 41-45, F Nov 24, 2014

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    First off, I for real have compulsions,

    I've had them my whole life. I'm not a person who is like "I like stuff neat and orderly or else it bothers me" or like "I want my clothes folded neatly and off the floor at all times" no. Just no My compulsions have ranged from breathing out my mouth and nose in a rhythmic...
    theycallmetk theycallmetk 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 13-15, F 1 Response