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I Have Ocd

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2014

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    I have a new what I think is a ocd issue,

    I can't wait for stuff. It makes me anxious. If I'm in line my first thought is get out of there now. I'm waiting now to do taxes and I'm ready to bolt. Don't have a walk in service if your not going to take the freakin walk ins. I've been here for an hour and I was ready to...
    Dorkfish711 Dorkfish711 26-30 2 days ago

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    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    OCD is not when some person sees something out

    of place and says "UGH ITS OUT OF PLACE, I HAVE OCD". But of course, there are actually people with OCD who do get bothered by those things. OCD is not a 'cute' or 'funny' quirk. OCD is the feeling of complete loss of control over your mind and body. It's the feeling that...
    ghostofthesun ghostofthesun 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 18, 2015

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    And I hate people who say 'omgggg i'm soooo OCD,

    i organize my pencils in colour order!!' No. Thats not f*cking OCD. OCD is about intrusive thoughts and having to do everything a certain number of times because if you dont do it right you feel like the world is going to end. OCD sucks. Its not something to joke about >_<...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 18-21, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    When I get depressed,

    I have inner thoughts that scream one day I'll kill somebody, I'm dangerous, I should kill myself. Does this qualify as intrusive thoughts? A few times when I was very angry, I had thoughts about how I would kill the person who angered me. I never acted on them, for I don't...
    K4yl421 K4yl421 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2015

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    The doctor who diagnosed me ruled out ocd.

    im not sure what that means but i have had ocd symptoms since i was little but its not super bad. i can control my compulsions of having things a certain way or fixing something that is bothering me. If you have ocd you should watch this video. it is great.https://www.youtube...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Dec 2, 2015

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    It is really bad. It is causing harm to my

    body, but i do not want no damn medications. I have always been this way, even as a kid. It is not my fault I am like this, certain life changing events as a child just sparked it out of nowhere. I hate it so damn much! It is a damn addiction that i cannot stop! Screw you OCD I...
    LackingSense LackingSense 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 13

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    Oddly enough, I enjoy being in messy

    environments, however I must have order amongst the chaos and have a few odd ticks. Certain numbers bug me, as well as certain sounds and sensations. And of course if I see something crooked I simply must straighten it but I do enjoy a messy environment to an extent. Is anyone...
    justanothertesla justanothertesla 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2015

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    It's when your going through the endless loop

    that you fear the good times won't happen again. It's when things are going good you fear getting caught in the loop again. Ocd can be a debilitating illness to deal with. It feels like your mind is racing on an endless track. Your brain thinks up the most irrational things you...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 4, 2015

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    Damn this stress, whenever I get overly

    stressed my only outlet that comforts me is trichotillomania. :( Its a pain in the *** when my eyebrows are finally growing back and then a day like this poof they are gone again. :(
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2015

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    I think the devil trys to get me to see things

    i dont want to see like the fault in our stars is a movie that gives me anxiety. I dont want ro hear about cancer it scares me. I dont know how to stop thinking about negative rhings. And i cant even watch tv because theres always somethinf negative on there
    ihatemyself22 ihatemyself22 18-21, F Nov 21, 2015

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    It's not as bad as a lot of people's

    but I have a lot of OCD tendencies and some days are better than others.
    Ddachelle16 Ddachelle16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2015

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    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Oct 18, 2014

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    I have a sister in law

    who just posted this pic this morning on Facebook, and I thought it was an AWESOME way to describe and to see for all of us with OCD. Hang in there everyone. And give yourself credit for your strength and for making it this far in life! You have more bravery and strength than...
    Daenerys7 Daenerys7 41-45, F Nov 17, 2015

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    A lot of people confuse compulsive behavior

    with being OCD, but obsessive and compulsive are two different things, although if you are obsessive you will probably be compulsive too. Obsessive behavior is characterized by intrusive thoughts that just happen, or despite people's efforts to resist them, control or ignore...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M Oct 3, 2015

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    I'm having a hard time today.

    Right now I feel like just crying.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2015

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    I am constantly checking

    and re checking that doors are locked especially when going out or going to bed. have to check the alarm is set five or six times. always worrying about were things are like purse, keys and phone to the point I get up and check. always counting and re counting items. do i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I compulsively shop for books.

    I collect lots of them. I used to have around 300 books in a small flat. I'm getting better as I have sold and donated to charity a lot of my craft books. However I still have a lot of novels and I keep buying them. The best thing is I now read them so some are getting donated...
    crimsonpetal crimsonpetal 41-45, F Jan 11

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    In order to open any Christmas present I must

    have them organized from.... * biggest-smallest * color of the wrapping paper * height And estimated weight When they are open I organize them from.... * necessities (toothbrush, hairbrush, deodorant) * extra (phone cases, gift cards, music) * electronics (anything that needs...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    actually I have Pure Obsessional OCD.

    and I want to go to therapy, do you think that'll help stop the thoughts?
    kittysgotclaws kittysgotclaws 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 21, 2015

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    I hate it. It's annoying

    and it always nags at you and life would just be so much better if it disappeared -_-
    cottoncamarilla cottoncamarilla 13-15, F 1 Response May 24, 2015

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 16-17, M Jun 4, 2014

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    It started when I was very little (like 3 years

    old). It was different then. I got the hair pulling compulsion when my preschool teacher pulled out an eyelash. I would ritualize my thoughts and words and actions in a superstitious way. I was also technically a hoarder. I remember my mom wanted to throw out the shelf in my...
    Njhth Njhth 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    Steps

    it's not a huge deal but i always count every step i take. and predicting how many steps it takes to reach a destination and then making sure to reach the destination in exactly that many steps..which i know just sounds crazy but it's what's always going through my head while I'm...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 10 Responses May 19, 2008

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    I remember my friend handed me a box of rainbow

    nerds. After I promptly slapped him I spent a good hour sorting them by color
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2015

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2014

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    I have a form of ocd called scrupulosity

    and my best friend knows this. However she has expressed her dislike of my religion in very harsh words that I dare not repeat even in writing. I respect that she has her own views of religion but I've asked her not to express this with me because it triggers me. She still...
    obsession94 obsession94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I have cod and sometimes it's bad like now.

    I have two computers on because 1 is updating and I really want to shut the computer down like now. Have to put things away after I use them like right away . This is driving me nuts. I feel claustrophobic for real.
    Dorkfish711 Dorkfish711 26-30 1 Response Nov 16, 2015

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    It'd be nice to hold a newborn without getting

    thoughts of throwing it to the ground
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    Hello , i am new here

    and i want to share my story and ask for advice :) I am suffering from ocd for 16 years now btw i am 24 years old , my relation with my parents is really bad not because of me but they are irresponsible and don't have empathy for me although my dad is a physician and supposed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 7, 2015

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    My Ocd is killing me right now.

    I'm trying my best to deal with this, without medication but I don't think that I can keep this up much longer. I keep picking my skin and poking things that hurt on my body. It is progressively getting worse and I have no idea what to do. Even though whenever I touch, poke, and...
    thesorrybumblebee thesorrybumblebee 18-21, F Dec 7, 2015

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    I can't deal with this.

    When I move somewhere new I have to re organize my bookshelf and each time I can't handle it. I can't get it in the right order. It feels wrong. I finally had a good system but my brother accidentally broke my bookshelf in the move. I managed to save half of the bookshelf but my...
    sweetmiss123 sweetmiss123 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    This world is just too much

    for me. I can't see anymore. I can't see the beauty in this world anymore. I'm thinking of suicide. My OCD obsessions are too much for me to handle. This life is really painful. Therapy hasn't been successful for 6 years, now I'm going to get special therapy for OCD but it's...
    Silverdeer Silverdeer 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 13, 2015

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    I kind of have it, but I have learned to

    control it. I hate non symmetrical things. My dad is even worse though. He can't stand when a picture is crooked or if the front of my soda can isn't facing towards me. What?
    theguywiththeredhair theguywiththeredhair 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 9, 2015

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    OCD Is Ruining My Life.

    where to begin... I started having ocd symptoms when I was 17, and one of my worst memories was around that time was when my mom was honking the horn outside, waiting for me in the car, but I couldn't close my bedroom door "right". I just closed the door over and over...
    melanie29 melanie29 26-30, F 61 Responses Jan 18, 2008

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    I just realized something I do that's a symptom

    of OCD. I always thought like checking social media was normal. But, for me I don't think it's very normal, every minute I'm always obsessively checking fb, twitter, here etc. for notifications or messages. Like I don't check once or twice but like every chance I get or if I'm...
    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 21, 2015

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    My ocd is change. I cant stand it

    if my life style changes in the slightest bit. The only thing I can stand is goin out to do something. But other than that I cant stand it. Even if its just taking a shower at night (I take them in the morning)
    udontneedtokno udontneedtokno 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16

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