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I Have Ocd

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    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I would like to connect with people

    that suffer from this often unrecognized or just not understood disorder. It hinders my further education due to my morning routine. My make up has to be perfect otherwise I will not leave the house. I time how long it takes me to lace my lashes with mascara, groom my eyebrows...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 27

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    Bloodnotesxd Bloodnotesxd 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    what are the ?bad thoughts?

    you get? is it dependent on the situation, or is it always the same? mines are situational with everything I do.
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 18-21, M Jan 1, 2014

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    actually, i used to have this thing

    when i was little: i had to touch again everything i accidentally touched, and if i turned around to the right then i HAD to turn again to the left. and sometimes when i'm reading something and i flip the page my hand automatically flips it back to c heck a word, i can flip the...
    lupos lupos 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    I yelled at my mother

    because she bit the corner of a sandwich before I had the chance to cut it in half. It was ruined. How can you make something perfect if its been ruined? I didn't know what to do after that. I went crazy inside with thoughts. I had to make her cut the sandwich.
    LalapaloozaChick LalapaloozaChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    unofficially.. i'm currently obsessed with

    how adorable my cats are... O.o
    PastelLime PastelLime 31-35 Jun 24

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Trichotillomania, a curse

    that has plagued me since I was 6 or 7. Instead of seeing the beauty in myself when I look in the mirror all I see is the bare spots where my lashes and eyebrows should be. It is a disgusting feeling. When I tried to get help not a lot of therapists know what it is. But to my...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    Something that might help someone.

    I am a mother with five children with OCD. I didn't know what they had till they were in their teens. It was almost too late for intervention then. I home schooled them and even though they got quality schooling they had very little social experience. Bad thing for someone...
    kindandterrified kindandterrified 16-17, M Jun 21

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    I hate that unconsciously my OCD controls my

    body. I don't want to do something but my body just does it, and it's very embarrasing
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    The worst kind. I have the kind

    where you get intrusive thoughts and they are horrible
    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 18-21, M Aug 20

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    I'm a teenage girl dealing with OCD.

    No one in my family understands, and I just need someone to talk to.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 20

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    Just to everyone with OCD.

    I have struggled since I was 6. Trust me. Worrying makes it worse. Nothing but negativity
    Ocdlol Ocdlol 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 18-21, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    It's just been getting worse this past week I

    might need to start medicating it
    ffhgu ffhgu 13-15, M Jul 16

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    And I hate people who say 'omgggg i'm soooo OCD,

    i organize my pencils in colour order!!' No. Thats not f*cking OCD. OCD is about intrusive thoughts and having to do everything a certain number of times because if you dont do it right you feel like the world is going to end. OCD sucks. Its not something to joke about >_<...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I haven't been diagnosed with OCD

    but I know that I have OCD. I don't have ritualistic behavioral patterns but I do have ritualist thinking patterns. I think about the same thing over and over and over and over and over again because I believe that it's going to change something in reality. I know that this is...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F Jul 26

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    It's when your going through the endless loop

    that you fear the good times won't happen again. It's when things are going good you fear getting caught in the loop again. Ocd can be a debilitating illness to deal with. It feels like your mind is racing on an endless track. Your brain thinks up the most irrational things you...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 4

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    So I'm not 100% sure I have OCD

    but as of recently I have noticed my need to re-check all locks in the house is getting worse especially when I am alone. It is often triggered by the thought of harm coming to myself or my mom (if she's home). I check other things as well over and over again until I'm sure it...
    bdagurl bdagurl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    So it's not me with OCD it's my wife.

    And I gotta tell you, I'm kind of pissed at her right now. I normally give in to her preferences to keep her from panicking, but these preferences are becoming more inconvenient for me, while they of course aren't for her. But there is no reasoning that inconvenience trumps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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    So I feel like I might have OCD,

    I'm a teenager and I haven't been diagnosed with it but I'm really sure I do. I do things over and over until I get it perfect, I have to have things in an exact order or I freak out and I don't know how to control it. I always imagine breaking things or creating a mess and it...
    willawd willawd 13-15, F Jul 29

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    I have never posted a story on this site

    but I might as well share the only one I got. When I was younger I had really bad OCD... I was around 6 or 7, most of those years were a blur - like how it is for mostly everyone. I just remember the routines, the patterns, the washing of hands. Back then I didn't realize how...
    lovelylife0 lovelylife0 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    This is medically diagnosed not on my own O

    started to notice symptoms of it over the last week so I checked with my doctor I have moderate OCD
    ffhgu ffhgu 13-15, M Jul 11

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    I just broke down bawling like a two-year old

    because my husband erased my dry erase board full of notes and lists... He just doesn't understand that was the equivalent of erasing my brain! ::pulls hair out::
    ShesAVeryKinkyGirl ShesAVeryKinkyGirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    For as long as I can remembwr,

    mostly with counting & cleaning. It's weird.
    tigerlilybaybee tigerlilybaybee 26-30, F Aug 9

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    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 16-17, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I hate it. It's annoying

    and it always nags at you and life would just be so much better if it disappeared -_-
    cottoncamarilla cottoncamarilla 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    I'll be on Twitter or something

    and see a pic that has like one little thing wrong but that little thing stands out and I just get so angry. like it bothers me that someone would post something like that just to bug out people that have OCD. it really gets to me.
    brookledsome brookledsome 16-17, F Jun 29

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    Not the serious case though.

    Mild one i guess. 1. I am a total clean freak, i want my stuffs to be neatly arranged. 2. I do always have a schedule. I have "to do list" and since i am really forgetful. 3. I always have my evening "beauty ritual" no matter how tiring my day is from work or school. 4...
    Ladyling Ladyling 22-25, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 18-21, F 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    I was talking to a friend here about OCD

    and she reminded me of an embarrassing; but funny story that other people with OCD may be able to relate to. So I was working in this office and I was about to go on vacation. Anyone with ocd knows that this is a task because you have to go through the time consuming ritual of...
    worrywart42 worrywart42 41-45 Jun 3

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    I was diagnosed when I was 10.

    I've lost most of my friends because of my OCD. I have made my hands bleed from compulsive hand washing. When somebody hugs me, I feel like I need to shower and hell knows that I of somebody just touches me, I want to kick them in the face. Sometimes I practically claw myself so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 30

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    ffhgu ffhgu 13-15, M Jul 11

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    Steps

    it's not a huge deal but i always count every step i take. and predicting how many steps it takes to reach a destination and then making sure to reach the destination in exactly that many steps..which i know just sounds crazy but it's what's always going through my head while I'm...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 10 Responses May 19, 2008

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    I've been really good about controlling my OCD

    these past few weeks, but today. . today I relapsed. I only pulled a few eyebrows, but its enough to make me hate myself. The funny thing is the very thing that set it off was the mere fact that I couldn't fix something between a person who is dear to me and I.. over something...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 26

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