I Have Ocd

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    I remember my friend handed me a box of rainbow

    nerds. After I promptly slapped him I spent a good hour sorting them by color
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai
    16-17, M
    Nov 23, 2015

    I always repeat same actions.

    For example I must turn on and turn off light switch certain number of times othervise I think something will go wrong. I know it's a nonsence, but I can't stop. I always have these annoying thoughts in my head that I have to repeat or touch objects more than once. I live like...
    kamileeeeeeyyy kamileeeeeeyyy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2016

    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

    I kind of have it, but I have learned to

    control it. I hate non symmetrical things. My dad is even worse though. He can't stand when a picture is crooked or if the front of my soda can isn't facing towards me. What?
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 26, 2014

    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014

    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 21, 2014

    I have pure o OCD and it's a *****.

    It's a long story but I'm running out of Prozac which helps tremendously with the barrage of intrusive thoughts. It just sucks because unlike physical pain this pain builds up and when you try to explain to some one am intrusive thought you keep having they just don't get it
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 25, 2016

    Yeah, I have another disorder.

    It's another one that is because of anxiety. I am not one that obsessively cleans or checks things. I find something and I can't stop thinking about it. For example, when I was studying to be a teacher I was obsessed with reading teacher manuals and copying down everything it...
    softlywaking softlywaking
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2016

    actually I have Pure Obsessional OCD.

    and I want to go to therapy, do you think that'll help stop the thoughts?
    kittysgotclaws kittysgotclaws
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 21, 2015

    I am constantly checking

    and re checking that doors are locked especially when going out or going to bed. have to check the alarm is set five or six times. always worrying about were things are like purse, keys and phone to the point I get up and check. always counting and re counting items. do i have...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 30, 2016

    And I hate people who say 'omgggg i'm soooo OCD,

    i organize my pencils in colour order!!' No. Thats not f*cking OCD. OCD is about intrusive thoughts and having to do everything a certain number of times because if you dont do it right you feel like the world is going to end. OCD sucks. Its not something to joke about >_<...
    FeedingTheWolves FeedingTheWolves
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 24, 2014

    I often have trouble choosing clothes to wear,

    or drinking from a certain cup, all because I have irrational worries that I will die, or someone will get hurt from my putting on of jeans in the morning. It's very tiring. This even extends into video games, tv shows, and typing. I constantly worry over where my character...
    LukeEmerson LukeEmerson
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 31, 2016

    I have a OCD as it relates to ruminations.

    I don't wash my hands one hundred times or check the lock a hundred times, but I analyze situations that happened. It gives me the illusion of control and certainty and it gives me something to do. I said this, he said that, he had this facial expression, it could mean this or...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 26, 2016

    I honestly think I do.

    .. I obsess over one topic for long periods of time(weeks maybe even months). Not like if stuff is straight or symmetrical as much as like a problem with the world or a thought. I'm sure lots of people think about a problem for a long period of time but it has a really negative...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2016

    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

    It really sucks having OCD.

    Especially because it's so hard for me to explain it to someone who has never had to deal with it.
    bananalaffytaffy bananalaffytaffy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2015

    I excessively wash. It use to be longer

    but I'm able to do it faster these days. Ive been able to improve little by little. But still I'm struggling. My OCD is a little different though. Germs are not my primary concern. I would say more but I'm not comfortable with the public. p.s. Don't bother telling me to...
    floatingleaf floatingleaf
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I have a form of ocd called scrupulosity

    and my best friend knows this. However she has expressed her dislike of my religion in very harsh words that I dare not repeat even in writing. I respect that she has her own views of religion but I've asked her not to express this with me because it triggers me. She still...
    obsession94 obsession94
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2016

    It's when your going through the endless loop

    that you fear the good times won't happen again. It's when things are going good you fear getting caught in the loop again. Ocd can be a debilitating illness to deal with. It feels like your mind is racing on an endless track. Your brain thinks up the most irrational things you...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015

    Hello , i am new here

    and i want to share my story and ask for advice :) I am suffering from ocd for 16 years now btw i am 24 years old , my relation with my parents is really bad not because of me but they are irresponsible and don't have empathy for me although my dad is a physician and supposed...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 7, 2015

    It is really bad. It is causing harm to my

    body, but i do not want no damn medications. I have always been this way, even as a kid. It is not my fault I am like this, certain life changing events as a child just sparked it out of nowhere. I hate it so damn much! It is a damn addiction that i cannot stop! Screw you OCD I...
    LackingSense LackingSense
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jan 13, 2016

    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2014

    I can't deal with this.

    When I move somewhere new I have to re organize my bookshelf and each time I can't handle it. I can't get it in the right order. It feels wrong. I finally had a good system but my brother accidentally broke my bookshelf in the move. I managed to save half of the bookshelf but my...
    sweetmiss123 sweetmiss123
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2015


    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

    the pressure is taking its toll on me again .

    the cycle seems to be repeating itself . and to think i thought i was stronger than this ..
    ocd101 ocd101
    1 Response Mar 4, 2016

    The doctor who diagnosed me ruled out ocd.

    im not sure what that means but i have had ocd symptoms since i was little but its not super bad. i can control my compulsions of having things a certain way or fixing something that is bothering me. If you have ocd you should watch this video. it is great.https://www.youtube...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    OCD sucks, I hate when people say "that makes

    me OCD" or "oh I have OCD when I see this" it's like no, you can't turn your OCD on or off, it's always there. My OCD was bad yesterday, so bad I didn't even trust myself to get out of bed, you don't want something like that. OCD isn't just pushing all the tables so that they're...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude
    18-21, M
    Jan 1, 2014

    Does ocd have to involve organization ?

    or can it simply be something that your mind obsesses about ..say for example your opinion on something do you ever have to state it to yourself in your head just to go over why youre right?
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 31, 2016


    it's not a huge deal but i always count every step i take. and predicting how many steps it takes to reach a destination and then making sure to reach the destination in exactly that many steps..which i know just sounds crazy but it's what's always going through my head while I'm...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace
    26-30, M
    10 Responses May 19, 2008

    My ocd is change. I cant stand it

    if my life style changes in the slightest bit. The only thing I can stand is goin out to do something. But other than that I cant stand it. Even if its just taking a shower at night (I take them in the morning)
    udontneedtokno udontneedtokno
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2016

    I have just come to terms with having OCD.

    I'm ashamed because of the way people will judge me if I tell them. This is the first time I have felt vulnerable to people's opinions of the real me.
    melkorx melkorx
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 4, 2016

    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 26, 2014

    my ocd is somewhat a blessing

    and just annoying. I always wash my hands because I haaaattteeee germs. I have a very specific morning and night routine and if I do something differently, my whole day will be off. I will repeatedly turn my light switch on and off and I cant control it. idek what to do
    gg819 gg819
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 27, 2016
    yelsiissad yelsiissad
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 7, 2014

    Damn this stress, whenever I get overly

    stressed my only outlet that comforts me is trichotillomania. :( Its a pain in the *** when my eyebrows are finally growing back and then a day like this poof they are gone again. :(
    SnowVixen SnowVixen
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2015

    I would much rather die

    than deal with ocd. It paralyzes me, ruins my life, and it doesn't let me enjoy things without nitpicking at the details. I mean I'm not suicidal but sometimes I wouldn't mind if someone just murdered me. I have tried to expose myself to the negative stimulus as that is...
    Hah2234 Hah2234
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 19, 2015
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    2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    A lot of people confuse compulsive behavior

    with being OCD, but obsessive and compulsive are two different things, although if you are obsessive you will probably be compulsive too. Obsessive behavior is characterized by intrusive thoughts that just happen, or despite people's efforts to resist them, control or ignore...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas
    56-60, M
    Oct 3, 2015

    I was talking to a friend here about OCD

    and she reminded me of an embarrassing; but funny story that other people with OCD may be able to relate to. So I was working in this office and I was about to go on vacation. Anyone with ocd knows that this is a task because you have to go through the time consuming ritual of...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 3, 2015

    Oddly enough, I enjoy being in messy

    environments, however I must have order amongst the chaos and have a few odd ticks. Certain numbers bug me, as well as certain sounds and sensations. And of course if I see something crooked I simply must straighten it but I do enjoy a messy environment to an extent. Is anyone...
    justanothertesla justanothertesla
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 10, 2015

    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2013

    In order to open any Christmas present I must

    have them organized from.... * biggest-smallest * color of the wrapping paper * height And estimated weight When they are open I organize them from.... * necessities (toothbrush, hairbrush, deodorant) * extra (phone cases, gift cards, music) * electronics (anything that needs...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2014
    Zoexx Zoexx
    16-17, F
    Feb 20, 2016

    My Ocd is killing me right now.

    I'm trying my best to deal with this, without medication but I don't think that I can keep this up much longer. I keep picking my skin and poking things that hurt on my body. It is progressively getting worse and I have no idea what to do. Even though whenever I touch, poke, and...
    thesorrybumblebee thesorrybumblebee
    22-25, F
    Dec 7, 2015

    I might have ocd, even

    though my doctor hasn't given any special treatment for it. I take really long to get things done. I can't get anything done because I keep checking and rechecking things. This madness is what keeps me depressed and in the house. I always feel like I forgot to do so and so...
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    Apr 7, 2016

    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2014

    It'd be nice to hold a newborn without getting

    thoughts of throwing it to the ground
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015

    OCD Is Ruining My Life.

    where to begin... I started having ocd symptoms when I was 17, and one of my worst memories was around that time was when my mom was honking the horn outside, waiting for me in the car, but I couldn't close my bedroom door "right". I just closed the door over and over...
    melanie29 melanie29
    26-30, F
    60 Responses Jan 18, 2008

    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

    I compulsively shop for books.

    I collect lots of them. I used to have around 300 books in a small flat. I'm getting better as I have sold and donated to charity a lot of my craft books. However I still have a lot of novels and I keep buying them. The best thing is I now read them so some are getting donated...
    crimsonpetal crimsonpetal
    41-45, F
    Jan 11, 2016

    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin
    18-21, M
    Jun 4, 2014

    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    Oct 18, 2014

    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

    I have a new what I think is a ocd issue,

    I can't wait for stuff. It makes me anxious. If I'm in line my first thought is get out of there now. I'm waiting now to do taxes and I'm ready to bolt. Don't have a walk in service if your not going to take the freakin walk ins. I've been here for an hour and I was ready to...
    Dorkfish711 Dorkfish711
    Feb 6, 2016

    OCD is not when some person sees something out

    of place and says "UGH ITS OUT OF PLACE, I HAVE OCD". But of course, there are actually people with OCD who do get bothered by those things. OCD is not a 'cute' or 'funny' quirk. OCD is the feeling of complete loss of control over your mind and body. It's the feeling that...
    ghostofthesun ghostofthesun
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2015
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