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I Have Ocd

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    OCD Is Ruining My Life.

    where to begin... I started having ocd symptoms when I was 17, and one of my worst memories was around that time was when my mom was honking the horn outside, waiting for me in the car, but I couldn't close my bedroom door "right". I just closed the door over and over...
    melanie29 melanie29 26-30, F 59 Responses Jan 18, 2008

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    I have never been diagnosed

    but i am certain that i suffer from severe ocd, When i was 11 i was often angry with people and whenever i thought bad about someone i had to repeat these phrases in my head or else something bad would happen, when i was 8 i would be annoyed if a fork was too close to a plate...
    karasummit karasummit 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 21

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    Today was a bit of a weird day.

    After about 3:00 pm I started doing my homework (as I always do on PD days, holidays and weekends) but I realized the table wasn't straight that my laptop was sitting on. I moved downstairs and sat the laptop on a different table but the fact that the one upstairs wasn't...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    I have fairly mild OCD.

    It started around high school. The main form of my OCD has to with checking - especially the door both when leaving and (to a lesser extent) at night before going to bed. A few years ago go to the point where it could take 5-15 minutes to leave my home. Currently I can leave my...
    jzednan jzednan 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    Welcome To My Hell

    Hey, I'm Sally, I'm 20 years old and this is my story (English is not my first language so you'll have to forgive me for my mistakes)When I was 8 years old I started to touch walls, for two reasons:The first is because I was horrified by the thought that my worst nightmares will...
    SallyT92 SallyT92 18-21 3 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    The fact that OCD isn't capitalized in this

    experience's title is driving me nuts!
    SomebodyAwesome94 SomebodyAwesome94 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 11

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    cottonbreeze cottonbreeze 41-45, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    And yet again I find myself going.

    to talk to a perfect stranger about my condition. You'd think this would get easier but it doesn't.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Sep 19

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    A big problem for me is

    that I've let the illness define me. Whether I have a good day or not is determined by what I'm thinking not what I'm doing. I can't enjoy the things I should enjoy because the illness stops me doing so. This breaks my heart.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    As well as being a mental illness,

    OCD has a number of physical symptoms that can make me feel very unwell. These include numbness in my face, feelings of nausea, twitches, increased sweating and most of all a build up of pressure in the head that causes intense headaches. This makes it all the harder to live my...
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Sep 17

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    I hate to touch any thing with one part of my

    body that the other side didn't (the backs of my hands or my corresponding toes for example) with the exception of door handles and computers. I hate when I touch something cold with only one hand, I hate stepping on lines with one foot without stepping on it with the other, I...
    firnin firnin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 4

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    I was at this women clothes store with my aunt

    N they had this dis organize perfume stand ... I couldn't help but to fix it for them and the lady was like Lady : can you please not touch them Me: I have an OCD about this **** let me organize it for you. And she left
    Rydude Rydude 16-17, M Jan 1

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    About How I Take a Shower, ...

    About how I take a shower, how I clean the house.  about alot.
    wowza wowza 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2008

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    One effect OCD has on me is

    that it enforces this idea that I should live by an extremely and ludicrously strict moral code. Any thoughts that deviate from this even slightly cause me extreme discomfort. It is also retroactive, I remember the stupid things I did when I was a kid or a teenager and I judge...
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 25

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    Ever since I was little.

    It's not so bad now, but still. I can't stand it when people say, "Everyone has a little OCD." Like no, everyone likes certain things to be a certain way, they're called preferences. OCD feels like I absolutely cannot continue to doing anything until this thing is facing that...
    LokixAvenger LokixAvenger 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    It bugs me that the title of this experience

    says 'Ocd' instead of 'OCD'.
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I wish people around me would realise

    that OCD isn't just my habits and compulsions.. It's an anxiety disorder, and with that comes many other things.. Constant worrying and getting worked up over small things.. I know to everyone else it seems stupid and pathetic as well as 'easy and simple' to stop, but its not...
    Rach2104 Rach2104 16-17, F 1 Response May 26

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    Would love to know if there is anyone with OCD

    & depression in North Yorkshire UK.
    Annajuliett Annajuliett 22-25, F Sep 27

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    Not the serious case though.

    Mild one i guess. 1. I am a total clean freak, i want my stuffs to be neatly arranged. 2. I do always have a schedule. I have "to do list" and since i am really forgetful. 3. I always have my evening "beauty ritual" no matter how tiring my day is from work or school. 4...
    Ladyling Ladyling 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I feel so contaminated.

    I want to tear out my skin, scrub it clean and stitch it back on. I'm shaking and panicking and I can't handle the fact that I can't fix it. I can't disinfect my whole body. I can't be clean. I feel so overwhelmingly unsanitary and I can barely breathe. I need to fix it. But I...
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I'm not depressed or anything over it right

    now I think but it's just it feel like my mind is running wild having a heart of it's own. I worry a lot about how people here percieves me and hold a few who'd been kind close to my heart. Then when they're not here, or not speaking to me I feel neglected. It's like this OCD...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Why does OCD keep interfering with my life,

    it limits everything that I can do! It just won't leave me alone! No one tells you this when you go to a therapist! At the end they say "that's it your fine" what they don't say is we will take you off the medication, they just leave you on it, which then your body depends on it...
    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F Aug 18

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    I have ocd. And its really screwd upball my

    happiness. I deserve better. I sometimes wonder what life would be like if I would not have had ocd.
    Polarbear1234 Polarbear1234 31-35, M Sep 19

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    OCD controls my life.

    It comes in waves, sometimes it's stronger then other times. Recently it has gotten bad. It takes me 30 mins to literally walk 30 feet to my room because I need to touch every corner and walk perfectly. Everything I touch with my left hand I have to touch with my right hand...
    DavidP4 DavidP4 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 2

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    So today I spent half an hour in shoppers drug

    mart fixing the nail polish section...just as I was about to leave I saw another thing out of place. It's so frustrating. It's not really the fact that I fixed it all and made it straight and stuff that bothered me the most...it's the intrusive thoughts that came across my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It all began when I was about 6

    or 7. I was talking a drug called Singular. If anyone else has taken that as a child, it caused bad mental effects in some children. Including me. I argued with myself in my head. I was raised Christian, which is the subject my head decided to attack. I would hear "You don't...
    Crystallophobia Crystallophobia 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Sometimes I worry I may have done something

    wrong even though I don't think I have. I can never be sure though, as by definition you don't have a memory of not doing something.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M a week ago

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    I was diagnosed when I was 4 years old.

    I wasn't sure what it was when I was young so my grandma and I made up an imaginary person to fit my OCD. I have to wash my hands, feet, back, and legs with water everytime they feel dry. I wash about 75 times a week. It hasn't been as bad as it was though. My parents used to...
    mojo0101 mojo0101 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    OCD Is Driving Me Crazy

    Yes,i have a bit of ocd.When it comes to my house being clean,i can not stand things messy.Well my family ,they are a bunch of slobs!It drives me crazy,they make a mess all over.I clean for 4 hrs a day.This **** is getting so ******* old!
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 8 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    A Strange Morning

    Today I woke up, and it was quiet. My head was empty. Anyone with OCD would be thrilled to have their heads clear, for even a second. But it scared me. I began to worry that I was faking and that I was faking and that I was just trying to get attention this whole time. I sat up...
    purplepiper7 purplepiper7 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Everytime I start to feel down

    or low, my OCD gets worse. The thoughts are more intense and don't go away as easily. It's annoying and frustrating...which in return just brings me lower :/ I just want it to easier, but it seems it only gets harder
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Sep 19

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    I have contamination based OCD.

    My mind never seems to switch off and I spend all my time tracking what's touched what and avoiding things I think of as dirty or anything with an unpleasant smell. Even just writing about it makes my skin crawl. I have other problems too, obsessive and intrusive thoughts, some...
    LastBusHome LastBusHome 22-25, F Jun 1

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    Yes I Have Pure Ocd

    I've just been dianosed with Pure O just about a month ago it was not fun at ALL! I had no idea that having violent thoughts and urges was OCD, but it is. Even though I was only dianosed a month ago my therapist told me I probably had it since I was about 4-8...so yeah I had it...
    littlegirlinaBIGworld littlegirlinaBIGworld 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    I'm severely OCD. I have to always look at the

    clock. I feel like if I don't do something Im going to have bad luck. I have to have stuff on the edge of my blankets when I go to sleep and every bit of the blanket has to be covered up. When I make things it has to be PERFECT or I get frustrated. I have to write in my journal...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    It'S Not Easy

    I'm a 17 year old girl in high school. I can't hide my tendencies. So at school, like anywhere else, they happen. It's not easy being different. It's not easy always having to answer questions concerning my strange actions- nit easy having to explaining myself. But I can't help...
    SheIsNotAFreak SheIsNotAFreak 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    For the past week I have felt

    as good as I have in the past few months. Then I agreed to do something new and the bad thoughts creep back in.
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M Oct 3

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    O.C.D.

    For as long as I can remember I have been counting things, checking, rechecking and locking and relocking things. i couldn't tell you when it started, I think it just kinda came on slowly. It's not quite as bad as it used to be but it still sucks. I can't even freakin wash my...
    Disordered Disordered 21-25, F 14 Responses Feb 27, 2007

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    OCD, OCD Tendencies, Something....

    I don't feel comfortable saying I have OCD, since I've never sought out formal diagnosis. However, I can say without a doubt that I've always had obsessive tendencies. So many habits, so little time to talk about them all! One thing I do that I've been doing since I was a kid is...
    Mikebissle Mikebissle 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    So I'm away for the weekend,

    I'm trying to have a good time but there they are, old thoughts running through my head. Makes it difficult to enjoy myself
    somethingx3 somethingx3 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    I hate when people who have no clue what real

    OCD is like, say they have OCD!!!!! Like, oh you gota wash your hands 5 times a day and can't drink after your dog? Well that must be horrible!! Lol!!! For real? You can just spend a couple weeks in my life and see how loosely you throw that word around again. I have had OCD...
    Kayloves060814 Kayloves060814 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    I hate having OCD. People throw

    that diagnosis around like it's a big, fat joke. "Oh, I like to organise, I have OCD!" "That needs to be straight, I'm sooooo OCD!" And the one I hate the most is "CDO because that's OCD in alphabetical order! LOLOLOLOL." It's not fun to have OCD. There are compulsions I have...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x 22-25, F 3 Responses May 24

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    OCD Ocd Ocd Ocd Ocd...

    ...I had to write that 5 times to make it right. There's three letters in 'OCD', so 5 x 3 = 15. 15 = a good number. But 5 + 3 is 8... not a good number. Crap. That's going to bug the hell outta me. That, my friends, is just a typical thought in my brain from day to day. Every...
    AllySh0rty AllySh0rty 18-21, F 13 Responses Feb 16, 2008

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    I think I have mild OCD.

    I like everything to be perfect. However I am probably the most go with the flow laid back person you'll ever meet for having OCD, LOL.
    Findingmyself84 Findingmyself84 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    I Feel Trapped!!

    I have had ocd for years now, but it has changed over the years also. The earliest thing I remember is being in infants school obsessing over dirt in my nails. I used to think if I got even the tiniest bit of dirt under my skin I would die. I would sit in class trying to pick it...
    Daniixx Daniixx 18-21, F 13 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Atypical?

    at first when i came here, i almost didnt join it because i wasnt really sure. when you think of ocd, you think of counting and checking. i dont do those too much. i do collecting, shopping and eatting. i went through a shoe thing, a sock thing, a bead thing.... sometimes it will...
    kittten kittten 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    Having OCD makes me very different from others.

    I've went to four different schools and still got picked on like I was the target. Now I'm homeschooled. But I still get bullied by my neighbors. Tbh having OCD isn't funny at all. I've actually tried committing suicide because it. Something stopped me from dying, i dont know...
    rachel96826 rachel96826 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    In the last few months its been really bad to

    the point where i won't even sleep at home anymore. My family are so messy and it realy gets to me. They leave crap out everywhere its not that hard to put it away!!!!! Gah being here annoys me so much because everything is out of place.
    behappy4 behappy4 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    Whenever my parents leave the house,

    I have to say 'I love you'. The thinking behind this is that if they die, the last words they hear from me will be 'I love you'. When I put money in my wallet, the big bills go in first, with the faces in the front. When I eat candy corn, I have to take three bites, one of each...
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 3 Responses Sep 17

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    I have the urge to clean my room

    as soon as I get home. Not normal cleaning. Like, vacuuming even when I know my floor is clean and dusting. I also have an obsession with touching everything around me and snapping my wrist with a rubber band. I'm constantly touching my surroundings and have red marks on my...
    brookledsome brookledsome 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I don't have extreme OCD.

    .. But gosh having OCD and living wth my family is nearly impossible. The smallest things they do annoy me because it's pure laziness. Don't get me wrong I do a lot around the house to help them out I put in my share, but even if it's cleaning up after yourself or taking your...
    behappy4 behappy4 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    moveslikespaghetti moveslikespaghetti 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    yelsiissad yelsiissad 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    Looking Back...

    I got diagnosed with depression and OCD when I was about 16. My family thought I was a bit mental, or fussy. But when I look back, I realise the signs were always there. As a small child, I would sometimes get sweets. If the sweets were different coloured (Jelly tots, sugar mice...
    AlreadyExiled AlreadyExiled 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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