I Have Paranoia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 282 People

    Im Hoping Im Being Irrational

    Im paranoid of a few things for all logical reasons. But when I get paranoid or worried it happens fast and I tend to start having irrational fears and start to freak out. It gets to the point where I cant sleep until I figure out whats wrong or I some how calm myself down by...
    YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2009

    I Dont Know What To Do Now....

    Since I was 11 I have always felt like there was something wrong with me. For quite a few years I was obsessed with researching mental illness to try and figure out my problem. Although for a while I thought I was depressed I soon saw that many of my issues were not central to...
    nadiafh nadiafh
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

    -_-

    At work, in relationships, just everything....i hate it....the meds work a bit but...it's there and always will be. I F UCKING HATE IT!!! F UKC GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME THE F UCK ALONE.....................................
    MrJungleMonkey MrJungleMonkey
    31-35, M
    May 8, 2011

    Its been five ******* years

    and you're back of all times you're back I thought you were gone for good. But what am I saying?? I didn't get any treatment so your weren't even gone. Destroyed. You're back and you're in my empty head again Half the time I can't understand you because you're mumbling or...
    Kurpenter Kurpenter
    16-17, T
    1 Response Aug 3, 2014

    I've Been Irrationally Paranoid Since I Was Five.

    I, with no logical reasoning to back my fears up, believe people are watching me. Not necessarily through hidden cameras or anything, oh no. My paranoid side's not that smart. I just believe that people are watching me. People I don't know personally, people I do know...my...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 8, 2009

    Yes...

    im totally paranoid have been since fourteen around the time my mom started working again on the night shift. I went for months not even sleeping a bit till morning came. And if my mom wasnt home at the exact time she said she would be i had a melt down. This didnt just include...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 3, 2012

    It has gotten so bad I can't

    even walk in my own home without keeping my back to the wall so nothing will sneak up on me. I always think there is a monster or something chasing me when alone especially at night. This irrational fear emerged at the early age of ten after my mother kicked my dad out of the...
    Nobody200 Nobody200
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 8, 2014

    I Think People Are Out To Kill Me

    Hello My name is Pamela. I live in a trailor in the country. i have 2 young children. My wifes brother is in prison for drugs and other thing. He is messed up in the head. I believe that he is sending people to kill me because he thinks I am the one that had him put in jail. It...
    PamelaM1963 PamelaM1963
    46-50
    Apr 30, 2012

    Paranoid About Death and Loved Ones.

     Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember having these paranoid thoughts about my loved ones dying in a freak accident.  My parents always used to go to Las Vegas, and everytime they would leave my sister and I at our aunt and uncle's house, I'd start to feel...
    lepidoptera lepidoptera
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

    I randomly came across a list of addresses,

    i only saw one address which was something queens boulevard and then crumpled up the paper because it wasn't my business,while looking for cash because i just found 3 dollars, i know lucky me. the paper very well could of been rape or murder scenes thinking about it now, and i...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 27, 2015

    Okay....ay

     that picture of the eye is staring at me!! Creepy!! Anyway, I haven't been diagnosed quite yet cause I am afraid to see someone. They might tell my parents!! then my parents might tell people and they will think i am crazy, and i will have to hide for the rest of my short...
    rainbowclouds rainbowclouds
    18-21, F
    Aug 15, 2009
    Lydwill96x Lydwill96x
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    Sometimes

    I get a lot of crap for this but I always have a knife on me xD I have never had to use it but it comes in handy for intimidation.Sometimes a kid will want to fight or someone looks shady idk I just like knowing its there just incase ;)
    FreedomFighter10 FreedomFighter10
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jun 14, 2012

    Convinced I'm Paranoid

    Recently my wife of 6 years left me for another man, and I've become increasingly convinced that everyone is talking about me. As a stay and work at home father, I never really made any friends, and didn't think I needed any, I had my son, wife, and didn't really need anyone...
    NervousNelly NervousNelly
    26-30, M
    Oct 22, 2009

    Am I Insane?

    I've been using meth on and off for about 5 years. Not sleeping for 3 or 4 days was the norm for a couple of years of my life. I quickly developed this paranoia to where I thought ppl were playing mind games with me and plotting to harm me. Pretty normal delusions for your...
    Crzygentle Crzygentle
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2011

    What Do You Think I Have?

    I was just wondering if anyone can help me. For about 3 years now i have been dealing with this i know im paranoid and i know i have anxiety  and depression but i was wondering if it sounds like i have anything else because im really scared that i will have something worse. Il...
    chloeleebe chloeleebe
    18-21
    4 Responses Sep 11, 2011

    Paranoia Dilemma

    I have paranoia, not clinically anyway and I'm pushing the person who is the closest to me. Quite sad,, really but I don't know how to say good riddance to the thoughts. Is it possible
    xSugarplum xSugarplum
    22-25, F
    Jul 5, 2013

    the horrible thoughts are keeping me up

    and randomly attacking me again. I was paranoid for like 3hrs, tried to sleep but felt dirty so I showered, still couldn't sleep. now it's almost 7am and I'm still wide awake with a headache. I'd normally smoke weed to help me sleep this out but for some reason I just don't feel...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    I Can't Bare Looking At Billboards And Smurking Models

    I like models and I think they do a great job but I have a problem since being bashed and raped and abused by smurky abusive women.... Everytime I see a billboard or a smurking model or aggressive model photo I feel upset and disturbed as if they are smurking personally at me...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

    Paranoia Is Treatable

    No one has to suffer in the dark with mental illness in 2012.There are medications that can treat the chemical imbalances that cause the symptoms of mental illnesses including Paranoia.
    uberwoman uberwoman
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2012

    You're All Out To Get Me!

    Childhood: everytime I entered someones house I would follow the path in and out. Barely move around because I was convinced they didn't like me and would scrub where ever I had touched and I wanted to make it easier for them. This soon escalated... Teenage years: I used to think...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 30, 2011

    "living In The Slow Lane"

    Living in the slow lane. Watching the passer-by. Turning slowly insane. Tired of the attempts i try. Failure after failure. Anybody's no-one's life. Tired of keping up endure my existence and inner strife. Withdrawn and at bay. Longing for some response. If i can take another day...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Jul 12, 2011

    P P P P P Paranoid

    i kinda like my paranoia, nothing has given me more fears and trauma, but on the other hand nothing has made me feel more alive afterwards..
    mizfit mizfit
    26-30, M
    10 Responses Oct 8, 2009

    I Have No Doubts Im Paranoid

    I'm 18 years old and im convinced that i am paranoid.        Throughout my years in Highschool i have been invited to do many things by everyone, yet i can never do any of it because i feel that everyone is out to humiliate me or somehow have a huge...
    Arnoldpalmer17 Arnoldpalmer17
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 23, 2009

    Would you call paranoia a flaw

    or just? I would call my development a flaw because I no longer need to feel paranoid, I am safe and around happy people. Maybe one day I'll be able to feel okay with people touching me and entering my personal room and looking through my things without supervision? But until...
    TropicalArctic TropicalArctic
    18-21, M
    Dec 8, 2014

    I Think I Am Impossible

    everday i worry about my thoughts being said and heard outloud. The more i think about my neighboors hearing my thoughts the worse the thoughts get. i cant really control the thoughts either. for instance my thoughts are bad and i hear my thoughts say i should be shot, then i...
    wahoofreak12 wahoofreak12
    16-17
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2011

    The Worst It Could Possibly Get (for Anyone With Paranoia)

    My paranoia is an absoloute knightmare to live with in normal everyday life. Where sometimes I'm fine, I can hold a conversation together, a relastionship, and can just do the norm. The worst I've had it I think there's some sort of plot to kill me and my family by some hired...
    michaelbrownsword michaelbrownsword
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

    "paranoia"...............

    Stalking shadows.................................Play your games.............Innocent wishes come crashing down..............Forgotten humor climbs through your windows and snatches you out of your bed.................
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2011

    I believe people are trying to kill me,

    It's not a constant fear but when it happens it's very weird, during sleepovers I have stolen a knife from the kitchen and hid it under my pillow just in case my friend attacked me, became convinced my parents were trying to poison me and so made myself throw up, hidden in my...
    willmakaba willmakaba
    18-21
    Jun 27, 2014

    My Ex Has Paranoia

    me ex deals with paranoia and anxiety i really want to continue to help him and make him be able to trust me. We recently ended our engagement because he says he is no longer in love with me and that i have done a lot of damage towards him as far as him trusting me overall and...
    brittanywaters1 brittanywaters1
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 12, 2011

    Paranoia ~

    I have not been clinically diagnosed as paranoid, but I realise more and more that this is what I am experiencing. And this has been something that has been going on in the background my whole life. By unconciously or consciously reacting to my thoughts this has led me into...
    Doubt Doubt
    36-40
    5 Responses Jan 3, 2009

    This sucks... Literally ALL THE TIME I feel

    like I'm being watched.. I feel like someone is looking in my window at night, or someone is in the shower.. Or like someone is under my bed at night just waiting till I drift off so they can kill me. It's terrible..I'm always worrying....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 19, 2014

    you know what. you know what.

    **** this. really, I don't care wether the whole world hates me, I'm going to be myself and not give a **** of what others think and say to me. It's my life, not theirs.
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    Feb 20, 2015

    Paranoia!

    having bdd has really made me a paranoid person. i feel that some are looking at me, judging me because of my size. i am a 6', 135lb, multiracial 18 year old female. i have 4 brothers and sisters. all of them are perfect. small body, not too tall and, beautiful. its so hard...
    ang127 ang127
    18-21
    3 Responses Sep 12, 2008

    Every night I stay up

    so late in mid silence and I head so many different noises outside and inside. I've been trying to think of the obvious instead of all the scary things that normally come to mind, so I don't freak myself out to the point where my anxiety starts.
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    Jun 2, 2015

    I thought I was rid of it

    but I guess not. I don't want to go back to how I was before... I've been so much happier lately. But for the last few days I could feel the paranoia coming back. Today I find myself almost unwilling to fight it. I've reached that point again that I'm doubting how paranoid I...
    Redstar86 Redstar86
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 23, 2015

    I think people are watching me through cameras

    and when others laugh I feel like they are laughing at me . Or someone is trackin me through my phone . Not wow.
    MisledS0ul MisledS0ul
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jul 23, 2014
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