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I Have Paranoia

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    "living In The Slow Lane"

    Living in the slow lane. Watching the passer-by. Turning slowly insane. Tired of the attempts i try. Failure after failure. Anybody's no-one's life. Tired of keping up endure my existence and inner strife. Withdrawn and at bay. Longing for some response. If i can take another day...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Jul 12, 2011

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    I Can't Bare Looking At Billboards And Smurking Models

    I like models and I think they do a great job but I have a problem since being bashed and raped and abused by smurky abusive women.... Everytime I see a billboard or a smurking model or aggressive model photo I feel upset and disturbed as if they are smurking personally at me...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    "paranoia"...............

    Stalking shadows.................................Play your games.............Innocent wishes come crashing down..............Forgotten humor climbs through your windows and snatches you out of your bed.................
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2011

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    Its been five ******* years

    and you're back of all times you're back I thought you were gone for good. But what am I saying?? I didn't get any treatment so your weren't even gone. Destroyed. You're back and you're in my empty head again Half the time I can't understand you because you're mumbling or...
    Kurpenter Kurpenter 13-15, T Aug 3

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    Lydwill96x Lydwill96x 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    I've Been Irrationally Paranoid Since I Was Five.

    I, with no logical reasoning to back my fears up, believe people are watching me. Not necessarily through hidden cameras or anything, oh no. My paranoid side's not that smart. I just believe that people are watching me. People I don't know personally, people I do know...my...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 8, 2009

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    Convinced I'm Paranoid

    Recently my wife of 6 years left me for another man, and I've become increasingly convinced that everyone is talking about me. As a stay and work at home father, I never really made any friends, and didn't think I needed any, I had my son, wife, and didn't really need anyone...
    NervousNelly NervousNelly 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2009

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    Paranoia Dilemma

    I have paranoia, not clinically anyway and I'm pushing the person who is the closest to me. Quite sad,, really but I don't know how to say good riddance to the thoughts. Is it possible
    xSugarplum xSugarplum 18-21, F Jul 5, 2013

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    -_-

    At work, in relationships, just everything....i hate it....the meds work a bit but...it's there and always will be. I F UCKING HATE IT!!! F UKC GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME THE F UCK ALONE.....................................
    MrJungleMonkey MrJungleMonkey 31-35, M May 8, 2011

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    What Do You Think I Have?

    I was just wondering if anyone can help me. For about 3 years now i have been dealing with this i know im paranoid and i know i have anxiety  and depression but i was wondering if it sounds like i have anything else because im really scared that i will have something worse. Il...
    chloeleebe chloeleebe 18-21 5 Responses Sep 11, 2011

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    My Ex Has Paranoia

    me ex deals with paranoia and anxiety i really want to continue to help him and make him be able to trust me. We recently ended our engagement because he says he is no longer in love with me and that i have done a lot of damage towards him as far as him trusting me overall and...
    brittanywaters1 brittanywaters1 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2011

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    Sometimes

    I get a lot of crap for this but I always have a knife on me xD I have never had to use it but it comes in handy for intimidation.Sometimes a kid will want to fight or someone looks shady idk I just like knowing its there just incase ;)
    FreedomFighter10 FreedomFighter10 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2012

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    Paranoia!

    having bdd has really made me a paranoid person. i feel that some are looking at me, judging me because of my size. i am a 6', 135lb, multiracial 18 year old female. i have 4 brothers and sisters. all of them are perfect. small body, not too tall and, beautiful. its so hard...
    ang127 ang127 18-21 3 Responses Sep 12, 2008

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    It has gotten so bad I can't

    even walk in my own home without keeping my back to the wall so nothing will sneak up on me. I always think there is a monster or something chasing me when alone especially at night. This irrational fear emerged at the early age of ten after my mother kicked my dad out of the...
    Nobody200 Nobody200 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    I think people are watching me through cameras

    and when others laugh I feel like they are laughing at me . Or someone is trackin me through my phone . Not wow.
    MisledS0ul MisledS0ul 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I Dont Know What To Do Now....

    Since I was 11 I have always felt like there was something wrong with me. For quite a few years I was obsessed with researching mental illness to try and figure out my problem. Although for a while I thought I was depressed I soon saw that many of my issues were not central to...
    nadiafh nadiafh 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    This sucks... Literally ALL THE TIME I feel

    like I'm being watched.. I feel like someone is looking in my window at night, or someone is in the shower.. Or like someone is under my bed at night just waiting till I drift off so they can kill me. It's terrible..I'm always worrying....
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 19

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    I Think I Am Impossible

    everday i worry about my thoughts being said and heard outloud. The more i think about my neighboors hearing my thoughts the worse the thoughts get. i cant really control the thoughts either. for instance my thoughts are bad and i hear my thoughts say i should be shot, then i...
    wahoofreak12 wahoofreak12 16-17 3 Responses Aug 12, 2011

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    P P P P P Paranoid

    i kinda like my paranoia, nothing has given me more fears and trauma, but on the other hand nothing has made me feel more alive afterwards..
    mizfit mizfit 26-30, M 10 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    Am I Insane?

    I've been using meth on and off for about 5 years. Not sleeping for 3 or 4 days was the norm for a couple of years of my life. I quickly developed this paranoia to where I thought ppl were playing mind games with me and plotting to harm me. Pretty normal delusions for your...
    Crzygentle Crzygentle 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2011

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    I don't smoke weed but my paranoia goes through

    the roof like I do smoke it god damn it I need help with it
    JonnyBurrows10 JonnyBurrows10 18-21, M 1 Response May 19

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    Paranoid About Death and Loved Ones.

     Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember having these paranoid thoughts about my loved ones dying in a freak accident.  My parents always used to go to Las Vegas, and everytime they would leave my sister and I at our aunt and uncle's house, I'd start to feel...
    lepidoptera lepidoptera 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    The Worst It Could Possibly Get (for Anyone With Paranoia)

    My paranoia is an absoloute knightmare to live with in normal everyday life. Where sometimes I'm fine, I can hold a conversation together, a relastionship, and can just do the norm. The worst I've had it I think there's some sort of plot to kill me and my family by some hired...
    michaelbrownsword michaelbrownsword 26-30 3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I Have No Doubts Im Paranoid

    I'm 18 years old and im convinced that i am paranoid.        Throughout my years in Highschool i have been invited to do many things by everyone, yet i can never do any of it because i feel that everyone is out to humiliate me or somehow have a huge...
    Arnoldpalmer17 Arnoldpalmer17 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 23, 2009

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    Paranoia ~

    I have not been clinically diagnosed as paranoid, but I realise more and more that this is what I am experiencing. And this has been something that has been going on in the background my whole life. By unconciously or consciously reacting to my thoughts this has led me into...
    Doubt Doubt 36-40 5 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    I'm a paranoid person.

    But I'm learning to stabilize it into a more healthy paranoia, if paranoia can be healthy.. And I could say it's from medicine, but it's not. I used to take a lot of medications but I hated them so I'm on less. And I think I'm better when it comes to that, because I'm teaching...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F Nov 11

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    You're All Out To Get Me!

    Childhood: everytime I entered someones house I would follow the path in and out. Barely move around because I was convinced they didn't like me and would scrub where ever I had touched and I wanted to make it easier for them. This soon escalated... Teenage years: I used to think...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    Paranoia Is Treatable

    No one has to suffer in the dark with mental illness in 2012.There are medications that can treat the chemical imbalances that cause the symptoms of mental illnesses including Paranoia.
    uberwoman uberwoman 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    Okay....ay

     that picture of the eye is staring at me!! Creepy!! Anyway, I haven't been diagnosed quite yet cause I am afraid to see someone. They might tell my parents!! then my parents might tell people and they will think i am crazy, and i will have to hide for the rest of my short...
    rainbowclouds rainbowclouds 18-21, F Aug 15, 2009

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    Let Loose From My Brain! Ahhhh.

    These are the thoughts that i feel are holding me back in life. The thoughts that convince me of feelings once familiar. And by familiar I mean pain, guilt, shame, anger, and most of all; unworthiness. Ever since I had gotten kicked out of my fathers house at age 10 for...
    Cyborg123 Cyborg123 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2013

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    I believe people are trying to kill me,

    It's not a constant fear but when it happens it's very weird, during sleepovers I have stolen a knife from the kitchen and hid it under my pillow just in case my friend attacked me, became convinced my parents were trying to poison me and so made myself throw up, hidden in my...
    willmakaba willmakaba 18-21 1 Response Jun 27

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    Yes...

    im totally paranoid have been since fourteen around the time my mom started working again on the night shift. I went for months not even sleeping a bit till morning came. And if my mom wasnt home at the exact time she said she would be i had a melt down. This didnt just include...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I Think People Are Out To Kill Me

    Hello My name is Pamela. I live in a trailor in the country. i have 2 young children. My wifes brother is in prison for drugs and other thing. He is messed up in the head. I believe that he is sending people to kill me because he thinks I am the one that had him put in jail. It...
    PamelaM1963 PamelaM1963 46-50 Apr 30, 2012

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    You can make paranoia better by stop smoking

    weed or pot I've heard anyway
    JonnyBurrows10 JonnyBurrows10 18-21, M Jun 8

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    Im Hoping Im Being Irrational

    Im paranoid of a few things for all logical reasons. But when I get paranoid or worried it happens fast and I tend to start having irrational fears and start to freak out. It gets to the point where I cant sleep until I figure out whats wrong or I some how calm myself down by...
    YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2009

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    I pulled three lashes out this evening. I'm suffering from anxiety this evening due to my boyfriend (and my paranoia). I want to pull more. I keep feeling my lashes. It's awful...
    0justme0 0justme0 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    What is it with the metallic taste? It's almost like an emotion, a strange sense of justice...if that makes any sense. In the dream world everything has to balance. I can't be...
    joecell joecell 46-50, M Nov 9

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    And I love each and every alter in me. Some have been with me for long, and some are brand new. But they are still me and they know exactly what I need and how I feel. In the end...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F Nov 10

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    I feel like screaming somebody save me. Anybody? Save me! Please save me from myself. Or am I actually the one that needs saving? Am I really in the wrong here or does the blame...
    SimplicityJai SimplicityJai 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    yepppp several times. not my drug of choice. ;) lol ive even had it laced that wasnt fun! lol paranoia and loss of control. lol No lol
    SadisticPsychopathicBitch69 SadisticPsychopathicBitch69 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I honestly don't know if I have Bipolar or not.. I'm not willing to look at too many sites, some could be fake and give me extreme paranoia.. But I want to know of these symptoms...
    PendalWitch PendalWitch 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I don't know if this is the right place to talk about this, I don't want pity, it may sound oh woe is me, but I am happy enough well ish last night I had a chat with my mum that...
    soapdodger soapdodger 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    So, I am an American teenager and I believe that I have multiple psychological disorders. After reading and researching a few psychological disorders after being told that I may...
    JoeTheMessiah JoeTheMessiah 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Couldn't post this as a question because they don't give you enough room. I figured I needed to explain a little before posing the question, so here goes. My husband and I have...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have suffered from hh since about 16 years of age(I am now 40).I have generalised sweating when I am nervous or anxious only, although I do have more generalised sweating when...
    Shez74 Shez74 36-40, F 12 hrs ago

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    I have had selective mutism since 2nd grade. I was always unable to answer the questions the teachers ask me and i would never respond back. I always sat alone during recess and i...
    amivii amivii 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    In my old house I used to have a Rottweiler, name of course Roty. He was te runt and we chose him because we knew no ones else would. He was the only one who survived. He was my...
    ShadowedLover ShadowedLover 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    I'm only 20 and I feel I've been through hell in my life when I was younger I was emotionally and physically abused I've never felt loved or cared for until I met my husband in our...
    mzk94 mzk94 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    I definitely have no problem with interracial relationships what so ever. I am a white female and I am married to a black male. I have been dating black men for 25 years now. I...