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I Have Paranoia

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    Paranoid About Death and Loved Ones.

     Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember having these paranoid thoughts about my loved ones dying in a freak accident.  My parents always used to go to Las Vegas, and everytime they would leave my sister and I at our aunt and uncle's house, I'd start to feel...
    lepidoptera lepidoptera 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    I Can't Bare Looking At Billboards And Smurking Models

    I like models and I think they do a great job but I have a problem since being bashed and raped and abused by smurky abusive women.... Everytime I see a billboard or a smurking model or aggressive model photo I feel upset and disturbed as if they are smurking personally at me...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 2, 2011

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    Sometimes

    I get a lot of crap for this but I always have a knife on me xD I have never had to use it but it comes in handy for intimidation.Sometimes a kid will want to fight or someone looks shady idk I just like knowing its there just incase ;)
    FreedomFighter10 FreedomFighter10 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2012

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    -_-

    At work, in relationships, just everything....i hate it....the meds work a bit but...it's there and always will be. I F UCKING HATE IT!!! F UKC GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME THE F UCK ALONE.....................................
    MrJungleMonkey MrJungleMonkey 31-35, M May 8, 2011

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    Paranoia Dilemma

    I have paranoia, not clinically anyway and I'm pushing the person who is the closest to me. Quite sad,, really but I don't know how to say good riddance to the thoughts. Is it possible
    xSugarplum xSugarplum 18-21, F Jul 5, 2013

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    You're All Out To Get Me!

    Childhood: everytime I entered someones house I would follow the path in and out. Barely move around because I was convinced they didn't like me and would scrub where ever I had touched and I wanted to make it easier for them. This soon escalated... Teenage years: I used to think...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    Let Loose From My Brain! Ahhhh.

    These are the thoughts that i feel are holding me back in life. The thoughts that convince me of feelings once familiar. And by familiar I mean pain, guilt, shame, anger, and most of all; unworthiness. Ever since I had gotten kicked out of my fathers house at age 10 for...
    Cyborg123 Cyborg123 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2013

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    I've Been Irrationally Paranoid Since I Was Five.

    I, with no logical reasoning to back my fears up, believe people are watching me. Not necessarily through hidden cameras or anything, oh no. My paranoid side's not that smart. I just believe that people are watching me. People I don't know personally, people I do know...my...
    JigsawLo JigsawLo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 8, 2009

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    I Think I Am Impossible

    everday i worry about my thoughts being said and heard outloud. The more i think about my neighboors hearing my thoughts the worse the thoughts get. i cant really control the thoughts either. for instance my thoughts are bad and i hear my thoughts say i should be shot, then i...
    wahoofreak12 wahoofreak12 16-17 3 Responses Aug 12, 2011

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    P P P P P Paranoid

    i kinda like my paranoia, nothing has given me more fears and trauma, but on the other hand nothing has made me feel more alive afterwards..
    mizfit mizfit 26-30, M 10 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    It has gotten so bad I can't

    even walk in my own home without keeping my back to the wall so nothing will sneak up on me. I always think there is a monster or something chasing me when alone especially at night. This irrational fear emerged at the early age of ten after my mother kicked my dad out of the...
    Nobody200 Nobody200 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    Its been five ******* years

    and you're back of all times you're back I thought you were gone for good. But what am I saying?? I didn't get any treatment so your weren't even gone. Destroyed. You're back and you're in my empty head again Half the time I can't understand you because you're mumbling or...
    Kurpenter Kurpenter 13-15, T Aug 3

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    I believe people are trying to kill me,

    It's not a constant fear but when it happens it's very weird, during sleepovers I have stolen a knife from the kitchen and hid it under my pillow just in case my friend attacked me, became convinced my parents were trying to poison me and so made myself throw up, hidden in my...
    willmakaba willmakaba 18-21 1 Response Jun 27

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    I don't smoke weed but my paranoia goes through

    the roof like I do smoke it god damn it I need help with it
    JonnyBurrows10 JonnyBurrows10 18-21, M 1 Response May 19

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    Online Paranioas

     in the days of yore before the net i was fine. when faced woth a multituade of faceless nothings that scared the hell out of me, i took on the role of defenseperson. fight or flight. and nothing is more frightening then a perceived unknown threat. Whem i turn off the computer...
    CelestralCreature CelestralCreature 41-45, F Jun 14, 2012

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    My Ex Has Paranoia

    me ex deals with paranoia and anxiety i really want to continue to help him and make him be able to trust me. We recently ended our engagement because he says he is no longer in love with me and that i have done a lot of damage towards him as far as him trusting me overall and...
    brittanywaters1 brittanywaters1 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2011

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    The Worst It Could Possibly Get (for Anyone With Paranoia)

    My paranoia is an absoloute knightmare to live with in normal everyday life. Where sometimes I'm fine, I can hold a conversation together, a relastionship, and can just do the norm. The worst I've had it I think there's some sort of plot to kill me and my family by some hired...
    michaelbrownsword michaelbrownsword 26-30 3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I think people are watching me through cameras

    and when others laugh I feel like they are laughing at me . Or someone is trackin me through my phone . Not wow.
    MisledS0ul MisledS0ul 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    What Do You Think I Have?

    I was just wondering if anyone can help me. For about 3 years now i have been dealing with this i know im paranoid and i know i have anxiety  and depression but i was wondering if it sounds like i have anything else because im really scared that i will have something worse. Il...
    chloeleebe chloeleebe 18-21 5 Responses Sep 11, 2011

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    Yes...

    im totally paranoid have been since fourteen around the time my mom started working again on the night shift. I went for months not even sleeping a bit till morning came. And if my mom wasnt home at the exact time she said she would be i had a melt down. This didnt just include...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    Paranoia ~

    I have not been clinically diagnosed as paranoid, but I realise more and more that this is what I am experiencing. And this has been something that has been going on in the background my whole life. By unconciously or consciously reacting to my thoughts this has led me into...
    Doubt Doubt 36-40 5 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    "paranoia"...............

    Stalking shadows.................................Play your games.............Innocent wishes come crashing down..............Forgotten humor climbs through your windows and snatches you out of your bed.................
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2011

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    Paranoia!

    having bdd has really made me a paranoid person. i feel that some are looking at me, judging me because of my size. i am a 6', 135lb, multiracial 18 year old female. i have 4 brothers and sisters. all of them are perfect. small body, not too tall and, beautiful. its so hard...
    ang127 ang127 18-21 3 Responses Sep 12, 2008

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    I Think People Are Out To Kill Me

    Hello My name is Pamela. I live in a trailor in the country. i have 2 young children. My wifes brother is in prison for drugs and other thing. He is messed up in the head. I believe that he is sending people to kill me because he thinks I am the one that had him put in jail. It...
    PamelaM1963 PamelaM1963 46-50 Apr 30, 2012

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    Lydwill96x Lydwill96x 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I Have No Doubts Im Paranoid

    I'm 18 years old and im convinced that i am paranoid.        Throughout my years in Highschool i have been invited to do many things by everyone, yet i can never do any of it because i feel that everyone is out to humiliate me or somehow have a huge...
    Arnoldpalmer17 Arnoldpalmer17 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 23, 2009

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    You can make paranoia better by stop smoking

    weed or pot I've heard anyway
    JonnyBurrows10 JonnyBurrows10 18-21, M Jun 8

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    Am I Insane?

    I've been using meth on and off for about 5 years. Not sleeping for 3 or 4 days was the norm for a couple of years of my life. I quickly developed this paranoia to where I thought ppl were playing mind games with me and plotting to harm me. Pretty normal delusions for your...
    Crzygentle Crzygentle 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2011

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    Okay....ay

     that picture of the eye is staring at me!! Creepy!! Anyway, I haven't been diagnosed quite yet cause I am afraid to see someone. They might tell my parents!! then my parents might tell people and they will think i am crazy, and i will have to hide for the rest of my short...
    rainbowclouds rainbowclouds 18-21, F Aug 15, 2009

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    Paranoia Is Treatable

    No one has to suffer in the dark with mental illness in 2012.There are medications that can treat the chemical imbalances that cause the symptoms of mental illnesses including Paranoia.
    uberwoman uberwoman 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    Im Hoping Im Being Irrational

    Im paranoid of a few things for all logical reasons. But when I get paranoid or worried it happens fast and I tend to start having irrational fears and start to freak out. It gets to the point where I cant sleep until I figure out whats wrong or I some how calm myself down by...
    YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2009

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    Convinced I'm Paranoid

    Recently my wife of 6 years left me for another man, and I've become increasingly convinced that everyone is talking about me. As a stay and work at home father, I never really made any friends, and didn't think I needed any, I had my son, wife, and didn't really need anyone...
    NervousNelly NervousNelly 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2009

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    I Dont Know What To Do Now....

    Since I was 11 I have always felt like there was something wrong with me. For quite a few years I was obsessed with researching mental illness to try and figure out my problem. Although for a while I thought I was depressed I soon saw that many of my issues were not central to...
    nadiafh nadiafh 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    "living In The Slow Lane"

    Living in the slow lane. Watching the passer-by. Turning slowly insane. Tired of the attempts i try. Failure after failure. Anybody's no-one's life. Tired of keping up endure my existence and inner strife. Withdrawn and at bay. Longing for some response. If i can take another day...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Jul 12, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Can I please just live one day with out my ******* paranoia ,anxiety, depression and addictions to remember how life was before?
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Aug 23

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    Today I was very distant from my boyfriend. He noticed and asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to say because I knew it would make him mad, that he would just shut me out or say...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I have a friend who used meth for about 9 months. He has not used for 4 months but still has signs of paranoia. Does it subside in time or are there cases of permanent paranoia...
    JT2020 JT2020 31-35, M Aug 8

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    When I was 7 years old I had a feeling that someone was walking around in the house at night. When I began to get this feeling I got nightmares every night. I got really scared and...
    BeautifulPainter BeautifulPainter 13-15, F Aug 4

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    It's a bright sunny day on the farm. My toddler son and I are there to explore. Horses are in the fields yonder. Hay stacks neatly piled at the entrance of the barns. Cows tethered...
    exppro40 exppro40 36-40, F Aug 6

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    I don't want to believe I do though, so I don't know what to think.....I mean I've never been diagnosed or anything. I constantly struggle with delusions though. I'm always...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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    I have a fear of body odor. I realize it is a strange and irrational fear, but I am terrified of body odor. I take 3 showers a day, always have my lush brand deodorant, and carry...
    MaryLiz94 MaryLiz94 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    It's been a rough couple of months for me and my BPD has been in high gear. I know it's there and it's not only making my life hard, but everyone around me as well...my daughter...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    I have more of a mild anxiety that shares its deviation with paranoia. It mostly goes towards my relationships with people, and I have suffered a panic attack or two that I can...
    NickleDollar NickleDollar 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    Hi, I'm Eden, and I have problems: depression, schizophrenia, OCD, and symptoms seen in psychopaths and sociopaths. I feel terrified of myself. I can't believe that my brain...
    FlyingToHell FlyingToHell 13-15, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    You probably do it's justbthatbyou have so many trust issues and paranoia that when you have a real friend you think their ale or using, while in conjunction pushing away new...
    iamonamission iamonamission 16-17, M Aug 4

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    This is actually a story from last year. I feel I have a healthy sense of fear for strangers and the danger they may pose. BUT I admit, sometimes I get a little carried away...
    megmeg526 megmeg526 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Since about age 13, I've dealt with severely psychotic episodes and manic outbreaks from my mother. At first I thought that it was just unhappiness which stemmed from her becoming...
    hawksnester hawksnester 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Can you imagine the devastating impact living with aniridia nystagmus can have on a woman in her twenties? The constant feelings of worry towards how others may act if they...
    eleisopaque eleisopaque 22-25, F 17 hrs ago

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    They say within the first 5 to 10 minutes after waking up you tend to forget 95 percent of your dreams. This has only applied to me in rare occasions as I seem to vividly remember...
    sash227 sash227 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    He loves to wear metal t-shirts, maybe a pair of jeans. He sometimes wears sunglasses, sometimes maybe it's nothing. He jokes about things and me laugh. He says funny things, and...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 6 hrs ago

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    Amazing two bedroom villa located in Assos with private infinity pool and Jacuzzi in a intimate placing benefitting from fantastic sunset sightsWill you be ready to discover the...
    Willy52yt Willy52yt 31-35, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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