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I Have Planned My Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 144 People

    Beginning Stages

    I haven't figured out the when or the how exactly...but I have started the preparations.  I make sure that those few folks that I love know I love them.  Every day.  I have a rabbit and 2 rats.  I am actively seeking a home for them with someone who will take care of them...
    permafrost21 permafrost21
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 13, 2011

    This Month.

    Everything that meant something to me -- the last few things giving me some semblance of hope -- is disintegrating before my eyes. I have a few things I need to take care of, and then I think I'm ready and have a viable plan.
    TheOtherWindow TheOtherWindow
    26-30, T
    1 Response Mar 14, 2010

    I'm 18. I had an abortion yesterday.

    I found out I was pregnant 5 days ago. My life has completely turned upside down in 5 days. It's 12 AM.. haven't slept. It's technically Christmas now. Dec. 23 was the abortion date. My parents would have thrown me out of the house and the father.. my on/off bf who is a cheater...
    redbeadsXx redbeadsXx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2014

    Today will be the last day of my life.

    .. I cannot dream anymore... I cannot wait anymore... Obviously there is no way out... And I'm tired... Today is my last day... I am abused... I am hurt... I've been torn to shreds... And no one knows it... Thanks for the short life and... GOODBYE!
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 24, 2015

    I have, its not a plan I have shared with anyone

    but I know exactly what id do and where id go. id make sure there were no questions left unanswered as much as possible and id make sure those I care about are ok unless I get so bad for that to not even matter, which would make me feel even worse if I didnt care about them...
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    Planning Is Better?

    My first attempt at ending life was at age 7. I was raised by less than cooperative people. But its not them, its me. I have realized the extent of the universe, the extent of being; and it's luster has faded. I have agonized and cried over what others may feel when I...
    DeepOblivion DeepOblivion
    2 Responses Aug 20, 2009

    Right Down To The Last Detail

    It was March 2001 and I was in the public service industry when someone"came out of the closet" to me. I mentioned it to a co-worker and like a flash fire, it made its way to the very top of my food chain. This guy was a political who's who and took aim at me. I was forced to...
    ticklishsoles ticklishsoles
    61-65, M
    3 Responses May 7, 2012

    It's Almost Time

    It’s almost time.. I’m not going to get into everything that has gone wrong in my life during the past 10 years. Trust me, I was one of the strongest. I was one of those who lusted after life. That was then, now is now. I will cease to exist soon. And no one will even know I...
    imyouroldman imyouroldman
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2011

    I think about suicide daily.

    Most times in holding myself back from it. I've already planned my note. I don't want to, but I feel like the day may come when I'm just tired of fighting my depression... And death seems like the answer towards peace
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2015

    This Has To Come To An End...

    Pain..Pain..Pain... Its all ive ever felt in my life. My life is filled with pain. Disapointments everyday. Something bad always happens to me.. It never fails. Ive been diagnosed with depression for 5 years now. Ive been on all the medications you can think of. Ive been in and...
    lyssie95 lyssie95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2009

    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone
    46-50, M
    Mar 26, 2015

    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2015

    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone
    46-50, M
    Mar 12, 2015

    I'm an Engineering student in the Philippines.

    Well, I wasn't SUPPOSED to be an Engineering student, but...whoo... Yes, I'm planning to end my own life this December. My grades are dreadful even if I passed a few tests (Heh, goes to show that my efforts are never enough). I'm about to lose a CRAP TON of units after this...
    Masakado1 Masakado1
    18-21, M
    Nov 3, 2015

    Planned For 2015. Apologies If Double Posted.

    After many years of believing I should but persuading myself not to Ive decided to set it in stone (or HTML) as a definite plan. Suicide is usually associated with desperation or illness. But it neednt be. A famous philosopher I once met (Stephan Korner) and his wife decided...
    axelsander axelsander
    1 Response Apr 19, 2011

    I have been planning on

    when I want to do it. I'm wondering what the easiest way to do it is, most painless and quickest. I don't know another way out. Any ideas?
    jamiewright26 jamiewright26
    26-30, F
    Feb 19, 2015

    People are too cruel.

    .I'm alone and just want to disappear. I need the courage to go through with this..
    Bobbiin Bobbiin
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    Honestly, I planned to do it November 1st.

    i kept telling myself you have to make it to your 18th birthday (which i never thought id see) and then your anniversary with him . well the first one. the realiziation that i dont really know where theyd bury me has taken a toll on me as well . but instead, i stayed the night...
    BrokenSilence22 BrokenSilence22
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    That moment when you are curled up in a ball,

    crying on your bedroom floor with pills and scissors in hand, and your shoulders wracked with sobs is when you know you need an escape. Feeling kinda moody lately.. Might just go.
    kittylova kittylova
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2015

    I Attempted Suicide Twice

    So my story has put a lot of pressure on me in the years . I am almost Seventeen but when i was around five I had visitation rights with my Biological father who was physically abusing me and sexually molesting me..  My mom didn't really know or even pay attention they weren't...
    skullhearts14 skullhearts14
    Jul 18, 2011

    Six Weeks.

    exactly six weeks from the day i told my mother i was feeling suicidal. if things haven't improved at all then.... Day: january 12 2012. tuesday. Time: between 9 and 10 How: razor.
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 6, 2011

    I Have.

    when i was 13 i planned on overdosing with any and all pills i could find in the medicine cabinet. i was mad at myself for not being brave enough to do it. i realized that there were probably better methods that wouldn't end in someone finding me before I died and me getting my...
    circaXsurvival circaXsurvival
    22-25, F
    Sep 19, 2010

    there's no formula response

    for where you are. All i know is that when I was absolutely ready my body reacted. i ran into the bathroom and began to heave into the toilet. I hadn't taken anything yet, just my inner self not stomaching the idea of death.
    sherring2 sherring2
    70+, M
    Feb 16, 2015

    I'm Ok

    I started self-destructive behaviour when i was about 14 - cigarettes, meaningless sex, drinking.  At 15 i was popping painkillers to see how many i could take in one go.  i think i got to 12 or so.  i drank beer before school; vodka after school.  popped...
    TheFunHasGone TheFunHasGone
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 1, 2009

    when i had thought about suicide i have planed

    ewerything to the last detail haw to do it where and whene and i still have thate plan i cant forget it and every time these suicide thoughts came back i always remember that plan i always felt that no one will even notist when i die or miss me they will just forget me like i...
    HelenSiren HelenSiren
    22-25, F
    Jan 19

    guys you think this is a good idea?

    anti depressants + Sleeping pills + Liquor + Bleeding myself in a tub. do you think this will do the job? will probably be around 14 hours before someone finds me.
    iSuicidal iSuicidal
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Dec 14, 2014

    Its Scheduled For 2015.

    After many years of believing I should but persuading myself not to Ive decided to set it in stone (or HTML) as a definite plan. Suicide is usually associated with desperation or illness. But it neednt be. A famous philosopher I once met (Stephan Korner) and his wife decided...
    axelsander axelsander
    4 Responses Apr 19, 2011

    Why? I don't see why death should be a solution.

    Can someone please explain it? **** off to whatever person that has left you. Is life boring or just sad? Take medicines or drugs. Feeling alone? Meet someone. Afraid of socializing? Drugs/alcohol. Made something that you regret? Fix it, change life, be kind. Can't accept...
    AcidBrain AcidBrain
    22-25, M
    Dec 4, 2014


    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2015

    Brain Dead

    i plan to end all soon. how . i have tried before only overdose .
    lillymay345 lillymay345
    26-30, F
    Oct 23, 2009
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