I Have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 585 People

    The past haunts me. Childhood is

    when you develop your basic skills for life and social skills. If it gets screwed up, so does your life. I can't connect with people because of this trauma. I will always be afraid of men. My self esteem is at an extreme low, even though I seem to be doing fine on the surface...
    RedAngelic RedAngelic
    18-21, F
    Apr 25, 2014

    I've been having an extremely tough time lately.

    I acquired PTSD after my freshman year roommate almost drank herself to death. She completely invalidated my feelings towards what happened, glosses over my PTSD, and triggered a panic attack towards the end of spring semester. She called me at 2 am during the summer drunkenly...
    lcr3 lcr3
    22-25, F
    Jul 30, 2015

    Mines not the typical PTSD.

    When I was 5 my sister had cancer. I have flashbacks to moments in time that hurt. They only last a little till I snap back out of it. My grandpa passes when I was 8 and he was my best friend. I have flashbacks to the day I found out. My life's been so much simpler than others...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2013

    The memory flashes just won't stop.

    Sometimes it's just too much and I break down. I feel like I have no control. I don't want to dwell on those traumatizing moments and I do what I can to try to make my mind focus on something else. Sometimes I even let the memory take over in the hopes that reliving it will make...
    Shadowmantle Shadowmantle
    31-35, F
    Dec 17, 2015

    My PTSD has progressed through the years

    as I have sustained more and more trauma. When I was 3 or 4, I was molested. Despite a decade of therapy, I have yet to identify who it was that abused me. All I recall is a pain "down there" and intense feelings of fear, shame, and disgust, as well as brief flashes of being...
    MrsCarlileAtYourService MrsCarlileAtYourService
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2014

    So Much Trauma & So Little Help

     Recently diagnosed with PTSD. in a nutshell......father moved a lot so I had 14 different schools in 10 years, resulted in a patchy education and little ability to make or maintain friendships. From age 9-13 was sexually molested by paternal grandfather. Years later...
    c8lorraine c8lorraine
    22 Responses May 28, 2009

    My uncle raped and tortured me

    when I was 6 and he rented my out to men I don't really want to go into more detail but yeah
    ameliaandmore ameliaandmore
    18-21, F
    Jan 14, 2014

    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88
    26-30, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    Looking For A Few Answers

    On friday I was diagnosed with pdst. Briefly, my story is that I went to meet my partner at a party on new years day to find she had been shot dead, along with her daughter and sister. I have been allocated 15 hours of specialist councilling to help. Is this enough?
    dafrowe dafrowe
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2012


    I am a strong willed person, have endured much, is not the kind of person to likely break down and give up. But that has its disadvantages too. I am not seeking advice or wanting help on this one, think I just need to vent. Being strong willed, my subconscious mind will sometimes...
    NeoZen NeoZen
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2012

    My alcoholic father was abusive towards my

    mother. My younger brother is the product of rape. She escaped with us 3 kids when my younger brother was only a few months old back to her home country where we grew up. My father died a few years later when his liver could no longer deal with his addiction. Growing up having...
    PrincessAropax PrincessAropax
    31-35, F
    May 7, 2014

    I was in a marriage for two years with my ex

    husband who changed the day I married and he was physically violent every day even on my wedding night and on my honeymoon! I was also in a tram accident in Blackpool the year of the sept 11 attacks. This happened in the August bank hole weekend. After the meal for a last make...
    yarlini yarlini
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2014

    Went to visit the counsellor yesterday.

    Told her about my panic attack over a mock interview and the distance between myself and the other person. Learned I need something in between me and the other person. Learned it was okay to be confused and relaxed instead of tense. Learned that awkward feeling when standing in...
    singlemom1254 singlemom1254
    Jun 11, 2015


    I suffer from P.T.S.D. I suffer from it from a very abusive child hood.  heres the faces peopple forget about the PTSD Myself and my 2 sisters.
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jun 19, 2008

    I've gone through major trauma recently.

    ..major mind control, brainwashing, loss of a soul mate, & being alone through it all. I've been going to therapy, I'm on meds and I seemed to be doing okay but Saturday night I completely lost my ****. There were factors leading up to it, but my entire mindset shifted to dark...
    Fiftypercent Fiftypercent
    Jul 6, 2015

    Welcome Back To Your PTSD Experiance- BIG Life Changes Eddition

    You don't know me, but i cannot remember life outside of my PTSD- ive had it since i was 5(ish) years old and it grew and grew until it exploded all over my life when i was just 13, then again when i was 19, and again when i was 23. Then as i got older and wiser (or at least...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2013

    I Should Never of Sang.

    I was diagnosed with PTSD seven years ago in December. I'd locked myself away from the world for five months previously with my small child as I was too scared to leave my home. I was offered no help in them first five months of hell and we really struggled. Eventually, social...
    amigoodenough amigoodenough
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Nov 25, 2007

    I was r*p*d by my ex boyfriend 2

    and a half years ago. I still cannot get over this and I have been dragged through courts backwards and they have now refused to see any evidence. This has all traumatised me and I feel like I am never goingn to be the same again. :-(
    Lalaleia Lalaleia
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 27, 2015

    The Brain's Funny Way ...

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about the brain. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2007

    Living With Asperger's, Social Phobia, Depression And Ptsd.

    I have always been different from other people, a social outcast and been called weird. I was unloved by my parents, molested by a relative, physically abused by babysitters, bullied and ostracized in school, rejected by guys, betrayed by friends and mistreated by family. I have...
    IMPogueMahone IMPogueMahone
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2012

    How I Overcame Panic, Fear, Hypochondria And Agoraphobia!

    I struggled with panic, fear, hypochondria and eventually even agoraphobia for years. It seemed like my mind just got stuck in this loop in which I just kept worrying. As soon as my panic kicked in, my heart started racing and I was absolutely convinced that I was on the verge...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    1 Response Nov 25, 2013

    This isn't something

    that I particularly enjoy taking about but I'm hoping that taking about it might not only help me but also someone in a similar situation. I was talking to my doctor about it and she said that in a way I have PTSD..I never really thought about it like that. I thought that that...
    jackieroy93 jackieroy93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2015

    The Man In the Shadows

    When I was little(8) my mother married and abusive alcoholic. He would beat me and my little brother almost daily. When I was 11 it progressed to sexual abuse. BY the time I was 15 I was sexually active and had an older boyfriend. I am now 37 years old but these experiences...
    ember1471 ember1471
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2008

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    Dear Danny, I learned how to live with a pack

    mentality. I resisted it a long time because it's never how I wanted the world to be. It happened one day though, I realized that in my world you were either predictor or prey. I wanted to be safe more than I wanted to belive in a world where good can say good and live well. I...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Apr 5, 2015

    My Fiance Has Made Such A Difference In My Life...

    Sometimes it is so bad... Nightmares interrupt my sleep. Anxiety washes over me. Panic strikes and bitterly attacks. My own imagination brings discomfort. Triggers happen suddenly and unexpectedly create fear. Flashbacks take me back to hell. My fiance'... He is there at night to...
    OMGitsRiley OMGitsRiley
    26-30, F
    Apr 6, 2013

    Been going to the counsellor

    for 6 weeks now. Not surprised to know I've got symptoms of trauma. It explains the rapid weight gain, the feeling of being trapped, the constant anxiety, the feelings of hopelessness and never feeling safe. Childhood trauma. Thanks family. It's nice to know it's not me...
    singlemom1254 singlemom1254
    Apr 27, 2015

    My Life With Ptsd

    It starts with two parents who should never have had children together. my father an alcoholic abused me physically and mentally. then i was raped by my boss at 18. then raped by my best frind of 12 years. then almost killed by my daughters father. this disease has made me feel...
    nalu22504 nalu22504
    5 Responses Nov 12, 2008

    When I was 3 my mom went into a coma

    when she was diagnosed with MRSA. She was in a coma for 4 months and in hospital for 8. She had 3% chance of surviving but yet she did. She then was told she would never walk again, but she did. <3 She also has many many health problems which means she is in hospital a lot...
    SecretGirl14 SecretGirl14
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 13, 2014

    I think I have post tramatic stress disorder I

    was raped a few months a go I have vivid nightmares where I wake up screaming and apartetly shouting no.I don't know what to do about this as during the day I'm fine.Can anyone explain what's going on
    Confused848 Confused848
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

    Pain In The Azz Disorder

    PTSD is such a pain to deal with.  Even knowing most of my triggers doesn't help much because I cannot avoid them all altogether.  Just yesterday a commercial on the radio threw me into a full-blown flashback... 15 minutes before I had to walk out the door.I'm left shaking and...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

    I have complex PTSD. I developed this back in

    2005 shortly after my husband divorced me. Sometimes I get flashbacks of bad things that happens to me in the past. Sometimes I get traumatized these days due to people in my apartment building who mistreats me. Whenever bad things happens to me, and I get traumatized. I become...
    noaht43 noaht43
    46-50, T
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2015

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    But Who Do You Have If You No longer Have Yourself

    3 years ago i found my sons father he had hung himself and been dead 15 hours or so-who am i suppossed to share this with-no one can see what i saw-it wont ever leave me-i recently started to ask for help.i have lots of friends and a great support network.i thought if i get...
    loveNBloved loveNBloved
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 6, 2010

    Ptsd From Abusive Childhood

    i grew up in an unstable home environment where i developed survival skills of being emotionally numb . it was not until I was 28 years old that i finally got treatment due to an unstable marriage. it has been amazing to finally have  feelings and use them to make decisions...
    neogarden neogarden
    Jun 14, 2010

    Triggers Hurt A Lot

    I am the fifth of six kids. Father was an alcholic and mom a codependent. I lgrew up in the 70s. Parents going through a lot of problems. The first three kids didn't feel the trauma in the house as much as the last three, including me. We moved around a lot because my dad was...
    loves2much loves2much
    Apr 15, 2011

    I wonder if I have this.

    Ever since my photos in thongs were made public I get stressed easily. Everyone I see in the street makes me have paranoid thoughts , wondering if they have seen the pics. Living life as an outed thong wearer has done this to me
    ryanwearsthongs ryanwearsthongs
    26-30, M
    Jun 14, 2015

    Time doesn't heal wounds.

    It grows darkness. The darkness spreads throughout over time. Sometimes it can be ignored. Forgotten. But darkness attracts demons and they reawaken the monster.
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns
    Mar 14, 2014

    A Reflection On My Healing Process

    I'm in this strange in-between phase of my healing.  Where I know that the "worst" is over, i don't have panic attacks all the time anymore, the nightmares aren't so frequent, mostly i can go about a "normal life" Where the worst thing i have to face is...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 10, 2008

    Probably Going to End Up Gone & Buried...

    I try to avoiding sleeping as much as I can; I hate having to go to sleep, because I always have nightmares about things I'd rather not have to face in relation to my PTSD. I was given antidepressants to try and help me overcome the depression, but instead I started hearing...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Jul 8, 2009

    Insomnia Or Night Terrors

    So difficult to choose.  They are, of course, related.  For a time, I'll go without any nightmares.  Strange dreams, erotic dreams, weird/bizarre dreams.  One night, I'll have a terror.  The kind that stands you up out of your bed and has you in a ready stance to fight...
    TrustIsEarned TrustIsEarned
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 24, 2011


    hiya im just wondering how long it tuck you to over come PTSD as i have had it for years and am unable to finish the councelling as i find it to hard.  however it is starting to get on top of me yet again and im finding it harder to deal with it. my family and friends think...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2009

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    PTSD Ruins Lives

    No cars, no buses, no trains. No escalators, no elevators, and pretty much anything that has to do with being around other people within a three foot radius because I am afraid that if I have a panic attack I will flip my ****. Loud noises make me jumpy and anything that has the...
    limesoda80090 limesoda80090
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2013


    Some may think it silly to think to have PTSD from a divorce, though most divorces did not involve the need to talk to the FBI and local homicide detectives. The past year I have really been focusing on resolving a lot of anger issues, things that are difficult to let go of. I...
    NeoZen NeoZen
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Nov 19, 2013

    How Ptsd Has Changed My Life.

    I have had PTSD a few times. Once lasting for an entire YR when our house burned down and we barely made it out alive. Another time when an enemy threatened our family and we had to disappear and flee in the night. (I still haven't gotten over that one and it's been 9 YRS) and...
    IMPogueMahone IMPogueMahone
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2012

    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jul 22, 2010

    I have had complex PTSD

    for four years. I barely lived during a 22 hour long or more torture acts done to me. I was stabbed, waterboarded and revived several times, burned,etc...no one understands why i just cant simply be completely better
    ashchris ashchris
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2014

    Hotline/Crisis Numbers: http://ptsdusa.

    pyeito pyeito
    31-35, M
    Sep 25, 2014

    So last night I had one of my spells,

    .. Sometimes when I sleep I don't dream,. I remember, to me it is real. Last night I woke up after having what I call an anxiety attack brought on by ptsd. Was drenched in sweat, heart pounding out of my chest. I got out of bed to collect myself and calm down.. I was walking...
    Someone6687 Someone6687
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    Not So Brave

    I feel like a faded picture of the brave survivor.. my painted on smile and laughter echoing through the corridors of my life- and even the pages of the Internet. Why is it that when i am hurting inside i feel the need to comfort people around me instead of seeking comfort? ...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 4, 2009

    Could you have PTSD from years of being bullied.

    It quick for about 12-18 months and start up again.
    shadowfluffy6 shadowfluffy6
    22-25, F
    Nov 11, 2014


    ...I will post a story in this group. My therapist encourages me to write, draw, exercise, talk.... ...my psychiatrist encourages me to take drugs. I know what the triggers are ...some are avoidable ...some are not. It sucks. Anyway...someday I'll post a real story here.
    OMGitsRiley OMGitsRiley
    26-30, F
    Mar 27, 2013
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