I Have Psychotic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 151 People

    This isn't my first time on here.

    I originally created an account here to look for help and support from others who understand the condition I live with. I eventually deleted it because I was doing much better, had made a good few friends and I didn't feel like I needed the extra help. It's now been about a year...
    InquisitiveBeing InquisitiveBeing
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 7, 2015

    Things That Help Me Recover a Bit

    I have to get my routine back slowly.. I'm also beginning to wake up early again with meds and all. Things that help me slowly recover If I haven't taken my meds yet: stop watching television: my head hurts.. no talking unless needed.. to people who wouldn't listen.. fighting...
    amejad amejad
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 18, 2009
    damsel50 damsel50
    51-55, F
    1 Response Jan 31, 2014

    What Is Wrong With Me?

    The voices started about a month ago. It's like someones sitting on my shoulder or whispering in my ear. It's always telling me that someone is trying to kill me. But then, the voice will suddenly change and say that i'm worthless and that no one would even bother with me. I'm...
    Violethoneydoo Violethoneydoo
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 19, 2013

    Its Scary, But Im Getting Better.

    Hello...My name is Emily, and im in my third year of middle school. I have suffered from having depression with Psychosis symptoms for quite awhile. Although its not really normal depression. Its anxiety, (which runs in my family) And psychosis symptoms. I used to hallucinate...
    IAm108 IAm108
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Dec 1, 2010

    Feels Like Everybody Around Hates Me It Makes Me Hate Everybody

    I have a strong feeling nobody likes me, they can know everything about me only by looking at me, when im in public people look at me twince i think they noticed on my face im not nice and im an angry person and im a mean person and straight away start to hating me... in repy i...
    LapurityGoldd LapurityGoldd
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2011

    Could Someone Please Help

    Could please help me. A few weeks ago i started to have hallucinations of people coming to me when I'm alone and sometimes when someones asleep next to me. My dreams when i sleep are starting to turn into nightmares and I wake up scared and hyperventilating and try to grab...
    Hellomellow Hellomellow
    3 Responses Feb 22, 2012

    Struggling And Trying To Keep It Cool

    I haven't been really aware of my symptoms when I was a child and did not sought immediate help when I could have. The hardest part in my childhood was feeling like no one understood me, especially my parents. I come from a distinct cultural background and the language barrier...
    RoboJam RoboJam
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2013

    Whispers In My Mind

    Most of the time, to put it bluntly, I’m depressed. I’m sad, and I want to die. I feel that way most of the day, every day. I don’t want to do anything, or go anywhere. I want to stay indoors or be alone. At night, I can’t sleep. I’ll lie awake for hours, even if I’m...
    ephemeraldaemon ephemeraldaemon
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2011

    It is bad I have serve psychotic depression I

    need help the ppl that I see the voices that I hear I thought it was normal but over the years it was getting worse and worse and I can do nothing I don't have a doctor or any medications no one I my family knows about it and I can't tell them I wish I could but the will laugh...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer
    16-17, F
    Mar 5, 2014

    Psychotic Depression

    Last year I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with psychotic features. I was the most confusing and mentally draining life experience. Basically I got into some trouble and ended up sending my best friend to jail who was in bond release pending a trial for...
    curtismiller curtismiller
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    I was diagnosed at 15 with depression.

    Between the ages of 30 and 32, my diagnosis was amended to include PTSD, GAD and Psychotic Depression. I O.D.'d 3 times in 2011. I don't know what kept me here, or why, since I struggle so much just to get thru each day acting as "normal" as possible. Hard to do when there is a...
    damagedwings damagedwings
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    I Dont Know If It'S Real. Whats Wrong With Me?

    Ever since I was young i've been afraid of things, and scared of mirrors. but lately it's been worst. I'm constantly having visions that frighten me of things popping up in windows and mirrors, i've had these for ages but never this vivid. I've also had dreams that are the same...
    taylora2400 taylora2400
    Jun 20, 2013

    I was diagnose with major depression with

    psychotic behavior/features , General anxiety, BDD, NOS eating disorder , and PTSD. I have gone through a lot ever since I was a child. I'm currently 16 and everyone in the household suffers from depression and PTSD. My twin suffers the same but without the psychotic behavior...
    xGumihorain xGumihorain
    18-21, F
    Jan 13, 2014

    My Experience With Psychotic Depression

    So I stumbled onto this website by chance, mostly just looking for people to talk to about my experience. I guess you could say I had a mostly normal life up until just the last couple years. Things didn't happen all at once for me but things started to go downhill fairly quickly...
    Hobbes1999 Hobbes1999
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2013

    I Feel Weird All The Time

    Unfortunately I have a lot to be depressed about. Life is difficult and I feel as though the only one I can trust is myself. I have weird feelings in the morning and at regular intervals during the day. This has been occurring for at least a year and a half but it is becoming a...
    ataloss2012 ataloss2012
    1 Response Oct 3, 2012

    Not Trying To Sound Cliche...

    The mind is flexible, plasticity. you can condition it to think other wise. I am currently recuperating from psychotic depression. I had auditory hallucinations, social withdrawal and the delusion that professors were observing my behavior.... that my roommates were out to get...
    Carolay1010 Carolay1010
    1 Response Nov 23, 2012

    Yes Im Psychotic Depressed

    I was so hoping to see that guys in world had same things going that i do. i have always been depressed but i was over worked for last couple years and it got worse. i started talking to myself and seeing stuff. I have sudical thoughts hell i even try tried to kill my sistet more...
    betterperson betterperson
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

    I was diagnosed with psychotic depression ,

    this is my first episode just recently, I thought everyone was lying to me, people were out to kill me and that I was going to jail, I thought I was dying. I attempted suicide, for the first time, I feel very sad for no reason sometimes too :(
    anonymouspsycho anonymouspsycho
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2014


    I think I haven't ever gotten out of this cycle..too many clues coming out of my mouth..passion?fantasy?nightmares?social uncomfortability?underachieving?seriousness and guilt?above all defensive over them all..The biggest clue is passion..What could happen if I don't have these...
    amejad amejad
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2011

    And today, everything is gone.

    I have lost it all. Abandoned by my boyfriend. Left with no vehicle, no home and I lost my job. I'm crashing into the abyss. No help. Nowhere to go. No more strength....no miracles
    damagedwings damagedwings
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    First Diagnosis 12 Yrs Later

    Im 25yr old male ..it all started when i was in 4th grade..first off i started getting in alot of trouble at school and very bad grades but i never really cared as a child i was shy and enjoyed self pitty and lonliness..by seventh grade i became depressed ..i was getting picked...
    SoConfused12 SoConfused12
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 28, 2013

    Just Another Broken Soul...

    I just started a new school because my old one was hell. I've been depressed for at least four years now, and just started taking medicine for it about half a year ago. Things were going okay, but all of the sudden I felt like the new friends I made were just plotting against me...
    eepgraham eepgraham
    3 Responses Oct 13, 2010

    Whispers telling me things.

    There are so many.
    alyssakellner alyssakellner
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 2, 2014

    The Recovery

    It all started last year. I had just entered my first year in sciences at cegep. I was very joyful and glad to have switched to the quebec system after having been in the french system all my life., Sadly for me, i didnt adapt very well and i flunked my three sciences courses the...
    malavitA malavitA
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 2, 2010

    I don't know if I have psychotic depression,

    I'm reading about it for the first time. however I do have severe depression and have increasingly become paranoid over the last few years. I trust no one and I believe everyone is plotting against me, trying to harm me. but the thing is it's true. so it's not a...
    outofhappiness outofhappiness
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

    Right when things are going my way,

    they start telling me things... I withdraw, and all returns to that from which they came
    MrAwesomeKyle MrAwesomeKyle
    18-21, M
    Feb 3, 2014

    I have severe Depression,

    accompanied with psychotic features. I've had Depression since I was a child, but three years years ago, it became much worse after I survived a traumatic event. I usually feel sad and empty on the inside. In fact, it's pretty rare that I experience happiness. I'm good at...
    macabremara macabremara
    22-25, T
    1 Response Dec 17, 2013

    Only Hidden

    I suppose the best way to start this is by saying that things have gotten better, yet I still feel like I'm 10 steps behind everyone else. My name is Jazz, and I have psychotic depression, anxiety and ADD. My teen years were hell. Everyone excitedly told me that teenage years are...
    Jazzness7 Jazzness7
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2013

    I'm Starting Classes Again..

    I've had a two months break and it's nearly over.. what I'm upset about is my dad didn't understand my condition.. he made me study a little.. studying was ok up till now.. I just couldn't be bothered to continue.. I think I was being too lazy anyway.. what is recovery? you're...
    amejad amejad
    22-25, F
    May 17, 2009

    I Remember Him Again

    It's hard to stare at him and suddenly thinking; "what is he looking at?" "why is he asking these questions?"why do I feel like I am having the weirdest romantic attraction of the decade here?oh well.. there he goes again.. i don't want to be left alone..I smell my own blood..I...
    amejad amejad
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2011

    Me And Not You Again

    i cant believe this is happening.The voices have reentered and invaded my thoughts once again.it was only a little bit at first now its a little more.I have to drop classes cause of this.The voices will haunt me to no end and i will go crazy at one point and you cant just ignore...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 7, 2012

    Anyone With A Similar History To Me Out There

    I am looking for anyone with a similar history to me - which is onset as a teenager with nighterrors and occasional mild delusional thoughts (jeolous, persecutory, somatic etc) followed by worsening insomnia becoming acute insomnia combined with panic/anxiety and recurrent severe...
    ornithine ornithine
    46-50, M
    1 Response Aug 23, 2013

    My Son Is 15 With Nightterrors-How Can I Help

    My son is having a bad dream right now. At age 9 months the nightterrors started. He is being treated in a psyciatric ward for teenagers. He is taking his meds and the angry psychosis is slowly drifting away. I see my son coming back. But I also see the terror in his eyes. Are...
    themomofoneoyourpeers themomofoneoyourpeers
    41-45, F
    Sep 29, 2013

    I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder

    with Psychotic Features when i was 15. I started feeling depressed when i was 11 and it slowly got worse. I stopped going to school my freshman year of high school, all i did was sleep and read. I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder and ADD. I...
    HannahRose1101 HannahRose1101
    22-25, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    Used To

    I was hospitilized for it eventually. I had my first psychotic episode that I remember when I was 11. I was just going through puberty, school was a mess, and I had all these other problems. When I was growing up I was already an oddball and had issues with my temper. It turned...
    LifelessSource LifelessSource
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 22, 2011

    Psychotic Depression Appearing More Often

    I was always a strange child, and had a quirky way of looking at the world. As a teenager, I was very moody. My family chalked it up to the infamous moodiness that comes along with being an artist. When I reached my 20's, I finally lost my virginity at 23. See, my mother was a...
    Gothicapped Gothicapped
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 13, 2012
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