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I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

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    I Hate People

    I hate when people are like ok just come talk to me when you have a problem You do and they are like gosh you have to talk about your problems all the time and make you feel guilty and bad about it Like you just complain all the time And you're Like...yeah that's why I don't...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Lost In Life

    In 2009 my husband and I had twins. We lived in Virginia on a military base and in 2010 we lost one of our twins when he was taking a nap. When I called 911 I was giving CPR to my 3 month old child during the time it took for the ambulance to get there. We went to the hospital...
    lostsoul2010 lostsoul2010 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    I was trained early on by my mother to take

    abuse and not fight back. First husband abusive. Second husband abusive. A month ago granddaughter abusive.Didnt even occur to me to defend myself. Had years of counseling. I'm not in a good place.
    Brooke2000 Brooke2000 56-60, F Jan 9

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    I've been living with all three

    for years now. I hate this life I'm left with. There is not a pill or therapy I haven't tried. I'm barely holding it together.
    lonewolf41 lonewolf41 41-45, F Sep 9, 2015

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    I'm just going to keep it short

    and sweet... well its all not too sweet at all. I got PTSD from my rude upbringing, not only at home. I was bullied at school and also was in a 6 year abusive relationship.. physical mental emotional everything.. No i live in a far away land and with the love of my life which...
    ThehanyG ThehanyG 31-35, F Oct 14, 2015

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    An actual experience I had: A friend of mine

    who recently returned home from the army confided in me that he had PTSD. I helped him through some tough days, teaching him better ways to cope and he actually improved. He then asked how I knew what to do for PTSD and I explained to him I actually had it myself. It took a...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I feel like I'm not capable of fixing anything.

    I was abused as a child, and I'm still dealing with the fallout from that. I want to be over what happened, but the reality is; the trauma didn't develop in just one day, and I can't expect myself to repair the damage in that amount of time. However, I feel like time is running...
    Shovelfighter Shovelfighter 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    After the Military I went to the Elks Club with

    my Family. Lucky enough, that month there was an article from the Vet Center claiming to help Vets with getting back to normal life, readjusting. I was struggling, so I called, made an appointment, started therapy. It was only then, that I was informed of my fears. I have PTSD...
    ACTX013 ACTX013 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    I'm 40 years old, I was a firefighter

    for over 12 years. I had a call that involved a mother and her kids. It was a murder/suicide, I knew the mother, dad and the children. I have never been the same since. I had my own home, a fiancé who was the love of my life. It's all gone now! I just want someone to...
    ndirishfan ndirishfan 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    meowkachu meowkachu 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    Tonight I was doing nothing except sitting on

    the bed when I was suddenly overwhelmed with the need to get the hell out of that room. It felt like I was suffocating. So I got up and started running and could only apparently go in circles and eventually i had slammed my head into a cinder block wall
    damagedwings damagedwings 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD

    but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing but I'm totally 'new' to mental health illness. So I would very much appretiate if any of you guys could help me help him. SO, he's a...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

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    For the past few weeks I've been too scared to

    go to sleep. My PTSD has been bringing about some awful dreams and every time I think about going to sleep I have an anxiety attack. I usually only get 2-3 hours of sleep at a time and even then I always wake up in a panic.
    Tanya2147 Tanya2147 26-30, T 2 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    I think about what happened constantly.

    It doesn't make me freak out like it used too, but i feel like i haven't moved forward in a while. =(
    Gureiify Gureiify 22-25, T 1 day ago

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    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88 26-30, M Mar 4, 2014

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    I can't go thru another night like last night.

    I came very close to turning my head off permanently. I'm a disaster
    damagedwings damagedwings 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2015

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    majordepressivedisorder majordepressivedisorder 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

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    I was diagnosed with Depression

    and Anxiety when I was 17 years old. I have been taking medicine ever since. When I was twenty something happened that I will not broadcast in a story. As an after effect of that I have ptsd . I can't be around people or things that remind me of the event. I get jumpy when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands.

    I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being haunted by memory, but to go at it alone? That's something else entirely. I guess I'm just tired from it, is all.
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 18-21, F Dec 6, 2014

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    Quite possibly the worst mix of mental

    disorders one could possibly be diagnosed with. I have moments where all three clash and it literally feels like I am going crazy. It's scary.
    iSpyce iSpyce 31-35 Jan 28

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    I am tortured right now.

    My emotions are out of control and I can't numb it with any drugs. That will make things worse. I am sick. I can't pick myself back up. I just want to run
    marleychick23 marleychick23 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2015

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    having a rough time, listening to people scream

    at each other but I will get botched at if I try to go for a walk so I would rather avoid that.
    Shadowmantle Shadowmantle 31-35, F Dec 9, 2015

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    The truth is I'm not comfortable talking about

    where it all comes from. But it stems from years of being with an alcoholic emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive father.
    justbnatural justbnatural 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 29, 2015

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    Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in

    the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    My 15 year old son was raped

    and has since been diagnosed with PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Major Depression. He's all over the place with his feelings. This mom here is so overwhelmed. One minute he loves me, and in the blink of an eye, he hates everything about me. He has major panic...
    Arubaskies Arubaskies 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    I not sure what has kept me alive

    but right now I don't know a reason to stay a whole lot of things are going wrong family life work my health physically and mentally. I don't blame anyone just don't see myself as person that matters. my mother in law and every one says pray but I pray and pray and each day...
    xavieranpaul xavieranpaul 31-35, M Sep 21, 2015

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    I'm upset because my psychiatrist wants to wean

    me either way down on my Xanax or I think he really wants to get me off of it for good. This is NOT good! I need that Xanax! I'm an extremely anxious person & sometimes I need it just to get out to go to grocery. Like right now, I took my half pill of Xanax when it used to be a...
    Bluetangerine Bluetangerine 46-50, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Please read, I have a question

    for anyone who suffers from mental disorders. But first, a little bit (briefly) about my mental health history: I was diagnosed with ADHD, depression, and anxiety at age 9 by a specialist in her field - pediatric psychiatry. I had numerous tests done as a child by doctors and...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2015

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    I just read this post on Facebook.

    Just wanted to share it with you people. "I'm a therapist and keep this poster in my waiting room, apparently it saved a few lives: I don't like the phrase "a cry for help." I just don't like how it sounds. When somebody says to me, "I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    Anxiety includes caring too much about

    everything. Depression includes not caring much about anything. When you have both, it's hell. Add in ptsd, of course, and you have a really fun mixture (not).
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    Right now I just want to scream,

    OMG I'm a nutcase , Right now I just want to cry soo hard so I can sleep my thoughts are going a mile a min literally,I have not been able to get to sleep until extremely late in the morning for the last 2 weeks ,and everyday has been the same for most of my life I'm either...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2015

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    Feeling like I'm not respected.

    Feeling like I can't communicate my feelings. Feeling like my feelings are wrong. Feeling like giving up. Feeling like not caring. Feeling ashamed for giving up and breaking down. Feeling very depressed. All because I tried to communicate how I felt. All because my...
    St4rbright St4rbright 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I have ptsd, depression

    and anxiety ... Been put on Meds been shown to many doctors ... But the best cure I have ever found is by dealing with it ... Yes I still get bad depression and yea I still have PTSD but it hasn't been that bad .. My anxiety has went down ....... All I did was embraced my past...
    william2490 william2490 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7, 2015

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    God im lost im alone im in pain my spirit is

    broken my mind is gone as i scream pulling my hair out im beyond damaged there is no "fixing" this there is no light at the end of my tunnel i am scared and shaken i am terrified I need hope a helping hand someone to lean on to love who loves me back! i miss my child!!! my...
    KatyaCrow KatyaCrow 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2015

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    I'm back at work for the first time

    after being diagnosed with PTSD. Its hard. I feel like I can't tell anyone about it, which doesn't help my anxiety, which doesn't help my productivity, which doesn't help me hold down a job. I've worked really hard to keep my anxiety in check. However, my anxiety makes me go...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 6, 2015

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    I Want To Remember

    Can someone with experience please offer input? Both my therapist and my psychiatrist strongly believe I have PTSD or some form of repressed childhood trauma and I don't have any idea why they think this or where it is coming from. They suggest I do hypnotherapy to recover...
    chiodios chiodios 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    So i'm a combat vet. 8 years in the Marine

    Corps, 4 in the Army. Served in Afghanistan as an Explosive Ordnance Disposal team leader. Last combat tour was 2012-2013. Was "chaptered" (read kicked out) out of the Army in 2014. Lots of anger over that. Currently working at the VA as a janitor. Lots of anger over that. I...
    tracerjpn2k tracerjpn2k 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    Attn: Dark Cloud You move

    when I move and hover when I stop At times I've tried to walk, roll, fly away from you But no mattter where I go, how far I fly away you always catch up to me At times I thought I was free of you I need you to know you destroy me I can't outsmart you, I can't plead with you or...
    lostthoughtz lostthoughtz 22-25 Aug 26, 2015

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    Sometimes I just remember what happened to me

    and I think "did that actually happen? No it didn't... Oh my god yes it did." And I start to have a panic attack. I think if I wasn't on medication I would be institutionalized.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 30, 2015

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    What If You Forgotten Whom You Are?

       What if you forgotten whom you are?       PTSD part 2 stayin' safe...      Growing up I've always try to be something, someone, with some type of morals      or aspirations towards being what's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    For those who share my struggles,

    writing helps a LOT. It doesn't necessarily have to be physical writing, like with pen and paper. Electronically doing so, like on a blog or a private electronic journal, are just as helpful.
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    I Am Me

    I remember everytime they would put a label on me. The first was victim, and I was a victim of hate and rape. I add the hate first because my biological father hated me for being a girl. I was then raped at thirteen. I was forced into counseling. I didn't believe I belonged there...
    DarkLiela DarkLiela 22-25, F Apr 27, 2013

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    Strangled

    We`re supposed to go on vacation this summer. All family will get together. Large families. I`m scared. Large crowds. People staring at me. People touching me. People talking to me. People being near me. People asking questions. The smell of their breath as they glare at me with...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 5, 2012

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    I have spells of claustrophobia

    as well as agoraphobia. I try to manage it by staying in medium sized rooms that don't have a lot of people in them. I'm taking medication and going to therapy. One day I hope to be able to put this chapter of my life behind me.
    cyclops1975 cyclops1975 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2015

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