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I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

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    Tonight was rough. Reminded of some people

    who are no longer and never will be in my life again. Sleeping lasted about an hour. First New Year's Eve alone in many years. Grateful for those who called, texted, and were just hear to listen. Better days ahead... I hope. 2016
    MrsIndepend21 MrsIndepend21 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 1

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    I Hate People

    I hate when people are like ok just come talk to me when you have a problem You do and they are like gosh you have to talk about your problems all the time and make you feel guilty and bad about it Like you just complain all the time And you're Like...yeah that's why I don't...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    My Ptsd Story.

    Last year I had a complete mental meltdown. I was angry with myself. I used to cut and anytime I felt I was under emotional attack I would unleash my wrath on that person. As my psychiatrist said, I am generally a person with a positive attitude and that is what kept me going...
    DcreativeBUG DcreativeBUG 26-30 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    majordepressivedisorder majordepressivedisorder 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

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    Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in

    the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    Yoga is helping me a lot though.

    And also toning up my bum, and that's always good. :-D :)
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    hello just introducing me I was in the military

    for 11years and have ptsd/DID. I was diagnosed in 2013 and have been struggling with it since I have 2 daughters and a loving wife. she is going through some health issues and we may think she has lupus or ms. I my self am disabled ( reason I had to get out of the military). I...
    xavieranpaul xavieranpaul 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2015

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    I haven't been tested to see

    if I truly have PTSD, but I just might have it. These flashbacks I have of the horrible things I've gone through shock and terrify me all over again. I get super jumpy and anxious. My heart beats so fast and I lose all focus of what's around me. I relive it all over and over...
    MellowButterfly666 MellowButterfly666 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2015

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    What I'm slowly realizing about PTSD (and

    subsequent depression and anxiety) is that it doesn't always happen right after said traumatizing event. It can sometimes take years to develop or manifest. I think in my case, the adult in me is trying to cope with the trauma that the child had to face. It's a long, difficult...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I just read this post on Facebook.

    Just wanted to share it with you people. "I'm a therapist and keep this poster in my waiting room, apparently it saved a few lives: I don't like the phrase "a cry for help." I just don't like how it sounds. When somebody says to me, "I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I'm back at work for the first time

    after being diagnosed with PTSD. Its hard. I feel like I can't tell anyone about it, which doesn't help my anxiety, which doesn't help my productivity, which doesn't help me hold down a job. I've worked really hard to keep my anxiety in check. However, my anxiety makes me go...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 6, 2015

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    I have to relearn everything about the people I

    love. PTSD made me forget who I am.
    exacerbate exacerbate 16-17, F Sep 5, 2015

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    I am tortured right now.

    My emotions are out of control and I can't numb it with any drugs. That will make things worse. I am sick. I can't pick myself back up. I just want to run
    marleychick23 marleychick23 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26, 2015

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    For those who share my struggles,

    writing helps a LOT. It doesn't necessarily have to be physical writing, like with pen and paper. Electronically doing so, like on a blog or a private electronic journal, are just as helpful.
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    The truth is I'm not comfortable talking about

    where it all comes from. But it stems from years of being with an alcoholic emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive father.
    justbnatural justbnatural 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 29, 2015

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    Please read, I have a question

    for anyone who suffers from mental disorders. But first, a little bit (briefly) about my mental health history: I was diagnosed with ADHD, depression, and anxiety at age 9 by a specialist in her field - pediatric psychiatry. I had numerous tests done as a child by doctors and...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2015

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    Anxiety includes caring too much about

    everything. Depression includes not caring much about anything. When you have both, it's hell. Add in ptsd, of course, and you have a really fun mixture (not).
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm 40 years old, I was a firefighter

    for over 12 years. I had a call that involved a mother and her kids. It was a murder/suicide, I knew the mother, dad and the children. I have never been the same since. I had my own home, a fiancé who was the love of my life. It's all gone now! I just want someone to...
    ndirishfan ndirishfan 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    I often dream about packing & trying to get

    away from my ex-fiancé who was very abusive to me for 3 yrs. At that time my life was in danger. The dreams haunt me. A few Drs have told me I have PTSD from that horrible experience.
    Bluetangerine Bluetangerine 46-50, F Aug 15, 2015

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    Was diagnosed with symptoms of ptsd

    and trauma, 3 years ago.i've been going to therapy for 4 years. different therapists. I find therapy helpful. The struggle can be difficult during certain moments, moreso than others. I would say flashbacks and memories are the most difficult thing.Anything can trigger it off, a...
    mixieloca mixieloca 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2015

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    I am not seeking a "pity party",

    let me describe" only" depression as I feel it NOW. I feel as though however abstract it sound's, my soul is bleeding,I ponder about thinking "end"... where once the simplicity of merely reading brought joy,a hobby or pastime bringing excitement. NOW...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 13, 2015

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    Attn: Dark Cloud You move

    when I move and hover when I stop At times I've tried to walk, roll, fly away from you But no mattter where I go, how far I fly away you always catch up to me At times I thought I was free of you I need you to know you destroy me I can't outsmart you, I can't plead with you or...
    lostthoughtz lostthoughtz 22-25 Aug 26, 2015

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    Lost In Life

    In 2009 my husband and I had twins. We lived in Virginia on a military base and in 2010 we lost one of our twins when he was taking a nap. When I called 911 I was giving CPR to my 3 month old child during the time it took for the ambulance to get there. We went to the hospital...
    lostsoul2010 lostsoul2010 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Tonight I was doing nothing except sitting on

    the bed when I was suddenly overwhelmed with the need to get the hell out of that room. It felt like I was suffocating. So I got up and started running and could only apparently go in circles and eventually i had slammed my head into a cinder block wall
    damagedwings damagedwings 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88 26-30, M Mar 4, 2014

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands.

    I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being haunted by memory, but to go at it alone? That's something else entirely. I guess I'm just tired from it, is all.
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 18-21, F Dec 6, 2014

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    Its thé énd thé fckn énd i cnt take it

    anymore so superficial shity world hate everything around beside nd up side down wish the pain could stop wish my life was beter I'm not yo got more then being an angel in the sky This world is too superficial for me my heart is too deep to feel too true to lie too clean to cry...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2015

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    So i'm a combat vet. 8 years in the Marine

    Corps, 4 in the Army. Served in Afghanistan as an Explosive Ordnance Disposal team leader. Last combat tour was 2012-2013. Was "chaptered" (read kicked out) out of the Army in 2014. Lots of anger over that. Currently working at the VA as a janitor. Lots of anger over that. I...
    tracerjpn2k tracerjpn2k 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    meowkachu meowkachu 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    I was diagnosed with Depression

    and Anxiety when I was 17 years old. I have been taking medicine ever since. When I was twenty something happened that I will not broadcast in a story. As an after effect of that I have ptsd . I can't be around people or things that remind me of the event. I get jumpy when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    I just wait for each day to be over.

    I sleep in late to waste time. I sit in the dark during the day. Then I go to bed early and lie in the darkness.
    Kitty4190 Kitty4190 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    For the past few weeks I've been too scared to

    go to sleep. My PTSD has been bringing about some awful dreams and every time I think about going to sleep I have an anxiety attack. I usually only get 2-3 hours of sleep at a time and even then I always wake up in a panic.
    Tanya2147 Tanya2147 26-30, T 2 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    God im lost im alone im in pain my spirit is

    broken my mind is gone as i scream pulling my hair out im beyond damaged there is no "fixing" this there is no light at the end of my tunnel i am scared and shaken i am terrified I need hope a helping hand someone to lean on to love who loves me back! i miss my child!!! my...
    KatyaCrow KatyaCrow 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2015

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    I was trained early on by my mother to take

    abuse and not fight back. First husband abusive. Second husband abusive. A month ago granddaughter abusive.Didnt even occur to me to defend myself. Had years of counseling. I'm not in a good place.
    Brooke2000 Brooke2000 56-60, F Jan 9

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    Sometimes I just remember what happened to me

    and I think "did that actually happen? No it didn't... Oh my god yes it did." And I start to have a panic attack. I think if I wasn't on medication I would be institutionalized.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 30, 2015

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    Hi, I am Mike and I served two tours in Iraq.

    My first deployment was out of Camp Hovey Korea in 2004-05. I was with 2nd ID and we were attached with the 1st Marines in Ramadi Iraq. My second time I was deployed from Fort Lewis in 2007. Anyway, I experianced alot of crazy things and after my service I came back to Ohio and...
    flemin37 flemin37 36-40 2 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    What If You Forgotten Whom You Are?

       What if you forgotten whom you are?       PTSD part 2 stayin' safe...      Growing up I've always try to be something, someone, with some type of morals      or aspirations towards being what's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    I feel like I'm not capable of fixing anything.

    I was abused as a child, and I'm still dealing with the fallout from that. I want to be over what happened, but the reality is; the trauma didn't develop in just one day, and I can't expect myself to repair the damage in that amount of time. However, I feel like time is running...
    Shovelfighter Shovelfighter 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    having a rough time, listening to people scream

    at each other but I will get botched at if I try to go for a walk so I would rather avoid that.
    Shadowmantle Shadowmantle 31-35, F Dec 9, 2015

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    I'm just going to keep it short

    and sweet... well its all not too sweet at all. I got PTSD from my rude upbringing, not only at home. I was bullied at school and also was in a 6 year abusive relationship.. physical mental emotional everything.. No i live in a far away land and with the love of my life which...
    ThehanyG ThehanyG 31-35, F Oct 14, 2015

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    I Want To Remember

    Can someone with experience please offer input? Both my therapist and my psychiatrist strongly believe I have PTSD or some form of repressed childhood trauma and I don't have any idea why they think this or where it is coming from. They suggest I do hypnotherapy to recover...
    chiodios chiodios 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    I Am Me

    I remember everytime they would put a label on me. The first was victim, and I was a victim of hate and rape. I add the hate first because my biological father hated me for being a girl. I was then raped at thirteen. I was forced into counseling. I didn't believe I belonged there...
    DarkLiela DarkLiela 22-25, F Apr 27, 2013

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    I can't go thru another night like last night.

    I came very close to turning my head off permanently. I'm a disaster
    damagedwings damagedwings 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2015

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    I have spells of claustrophobia

    as well as agoraphobia. I try to manage it by staying in medium sized rooms that don't have a lot of people in them. I'm taking medication and going to therapy. One day I hope to be able to put this chapter of my life behind me.
    cyclops1975 cyclops1975 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2015

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