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I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

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    I'm 40 years old, I was a firefighter

    for over 12 years. I had a call that involved a mother and her kids. It was a murder/suicide, I knew the mother, dad and the children. I have never been the same since. I had my own home, a fiancé who was the love of my life. It's all gone now! I just want someone to...
    ndirishfan ndirishfan 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    Strangled

    We`re supposed to go on vacation this summer. All family will get together. Large families. I`m scared. Large crowds. People staring at me. People touching me. People talking to me. People being near me. People asking questions. The smell of their breath as they glare at me with...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 5, 2012

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    For those who share my struggles,

    writing helps a LOT. It doesn't necessarily have to be physical writing, like with pen and paper. Electronically doing so, like on a blog or a private electronic journal, are just as helpful.
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    My Forray Into The Darken World Beyond....

    The Drunken sailor, that should have drowned!!! the beginnings of downfall into PTSD 1   It's March 75 and My Submarine, with two others, are currently tide up to a support tender ship, in the middle of the Mediterranean .  We're to take on provisions...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    I have major exams and I cant focus due to

    flashbacks,Im doing my best but its not enough
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I think the anxiety and depression are caused

    by the PTSD/ the trauma itself. I don't think I'd be depressed or this anxious if it weren't for the trauma. It's still god awful though... :/
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F Mar 18

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    Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in

    the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    Road Block'S At Every Turn

    This is one of those random things I decided to post on a whim… I posted a similar version of this on a different group, but wanted to share it here as well. Unless you have suffered from anxiety, depression, or panic attacks it’s really hard to explain. For me, there is...
    HayBail HayBail 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2013

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    I am tortured right now.

    My emotions are out of control and I can't numb it with any drugs. That will make things worse. I am sick. I can't pick myself back up. I just want to run
    marleychick23 marleychick23 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    i don't mind you fingering my play dough

    I don't mind you fingering my play dough! Hi, I had PTSD and a brain injury for a while now like 13 years really 30 total for ptsd, but A really great thing happens when you type me a note or comment, I get to dream.   Dreams are those things that are addictively...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    I have had all 3 from

    when I was just a child my mom when you was around would kick and hit me, my grandma and grandparents were raising me I called him dad because we were so close he died when I was 10, and my grandma just died in October 8 days after my 38th birthday thankfully I have my son and...
    bert102176 bert102176 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 23

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    I Am Me

    I remember everytime they would put a label on me. The first was victim, and I was a victim of hate and rape. I add the hate first because my biological father hated me for being a girl. I was then raped at thirteen. I was forced into counseling. I didn't believe I belonged there...
    DarkLiela DarkLiela 22-25, F Apr 27, 2013

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    Malattachment due to starvation

    for intimacy during early development. Caused by: Neglect and/or abuse from the female attachment figure. Most people who have this affliction are completely unaware that that is the cause, Because 1. To them, their experience was normal for all they know and 2. Repression of...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm on week five at the new job.

    I was ok until I heard a song on a radio that reminded me of the family that betrayed me, and how much I miss my younger sister. I don't know why, she never spoke well of me to her friends, and was rarely nice to me. I went home and cried. I hope my company really means it...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F Jun 17

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    but I'm tired of crappy therapists

    and people's pity, so no one in my new town knows.
    cycffuff cycffuff 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 8

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    ive never been diagnosed

    but i think i have PTSD. i think my child birth brought it out. i had a long scary horribly painful delivery and almost had a c section cause we were losing him (my son) he's a live but its taken a toll on my body, I've been through A LOT in my life i think its delayed.
    brebauer brebauer 18-21, F Feb 1

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    Everyday I lose more feeling.

    Everday is hard. everyday I lose a piece of myself. Everday I grow more numb. Everyday I miss her. Everyday I grow more lonly. Everyday I miss my dad more. Everyday I'm more lost. I'm losing everything I cared about.
    Z1pp1e Z1pp1e 31-35, F Jul 4

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    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with Depression

    and Anxiety when I was 17 years old. I have been taking medicine ever since. When I was twenty something happened that I will not broadcast in a story. As an after effect of that I have ptsd . I can't be around people or things that remind me of the event. I get jumpy when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    Cut myself tonight for the first time in a few

    months. I'm better at hiding it now though.
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Look if anyone knows how anxiety feels like I

    do. I fight it just like most of you stay strong ?
    annemarieduffx annemarieduffx 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook

    which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as themselves. If you suffer from a mental illness, self harm or have an eating disorder then this is a place for you to come and be...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F Dec 11, 2014

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    Right now I just want to scream,

    OMG I'm a nutcase , Right now I just want to cry soo hard so I can sleep my thoughts are going a mile a min literally,I have not been able to get to sleep until extremely late in the morning for the last 2 weeks ,and everyday has been the same for most of my life I'm either...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    I Hate People

    I hate when people are like ok just come talk to me when you have a problem You do and they are like gosh you have to talk about your problems all the time and make you feel guilty and bad about it Like you just complain all the time And you're Like...yeah that's why I don't...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    What If You Forgotten Whom You Are?

       What if you forgotten whom you are?       PTSD part 2 stayin' safe...      Growing up I've always try to be something, someone, with some type of morals      or aspirations towards being what's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    I talked to my therapist tonight

    and she's referred me to a psychoanalyst to get me officially diagnosed. I also decided after a long and hard fight to get myself on meds. It'll be a few weeks yet, but it's going to happen and I'm terrified. I don't want to be changed into something that I don't recognize. I...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Feb 10

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    as though having and dealing with PTSD every

    day wasn't bad enough someone has stolen a large sum of money from me. I think I know how, last year one of the yeoman took hundreds of peoples PII home with her to her drunk and high boyfriend. when I was notified that my PII had been one of the ones she released I was given...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F Jul 1

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    What I'm slowly realizing about PTSD (and

    subsequent depression and anxiety) is that it doesn't always happen right after said traumatizing event. It can sometimes take years to develop or manifest. I think in my case, the adult in me is trying to cope with the trauma that the child had to face. It's a long, difficult...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    The truth is I'm not comfortable talking about

    where it all comes from. But it stems from years of being with an alcoholic emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive father.
    justbnatural justbnatural 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    An actual experience I had: A friend of mine

    who recently returned home from the army confided in me that he had PTSD. I helped him through some tough days, teaching him better ways to cope and he actually improved. He then asked how I knew what to do for PTSD and I explained to him I actually had it myself. It took a...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Yoga is helping me a lot though.

    And also toning up my bum, and that's always good. :-D :)
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    I am currently getting help

    for PTSD depression and anxiety have become a way of life for 10 years I lost 2 of my friends they were both murdered and then I lost my mom to cancer 2 years later I have constant hyper vigilance and crowds of people make me really uncomfortable I recently quit 2 jobs because I...
    gevee20 gevee20 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    Was diagnosed with symptoms of ptsd

    and trauma, 3 years ago.i've been going to therapy for 4 years. different therapists. I find therapy helpful. The struggle can be difficult during certain moments, moreso than others. I would say flashbacks and memories are the most difficult thing.Anything can trigger it off, a...
    mixieloca mixieloca 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    I suffer from PTSD and I feel

    that I can't really live a full life because of it. I guess it would be easier to discuss if I had been in combat but my battle was with a parent. One so abusive she destroyed the "me" I was suppose to have become. The constant anxiety and depression are awful. Now that I'm 58...
    Lcjones Lcjones 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    I have ptsd, depression

    and anxiety ... Been put on Meds been shown to many doctors ... But the best cure I have ever found is by dealing with it ... Yes I still get bad depression and yea I still have PTSD but it hasn't been that bad .. My anxiety has went down ....... All I did was embraced my past...
    william2490 william2490 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands.

    I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being haunted by memory, but to go at it alone? That's something else entirely. I guess I'm just tired from it, is all.
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F Dec 6, 2014

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    I have had depression

    since I was 15...it comes & goes as does the anxiety. I take Effexor now & that helps a lot, though I still have my "bad days." Where I don't want to do anything or deal with life. I'm grateful that the anxiety is under control...knock on wood. I saw a therapist a few months...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I haven't been able to work

    for two day in a row. I keep pushing myself forward, but I think I've run out of steam. I've gone through all the coping strategies my therapist has taught me: * Accomplish small things so you'll want to accomplish bigger things. * Practice mindfulness * Write Nothing...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just wait for each day to be over.

    I sleep in late to waste time. I sit in the dark during the day. Then I go to bed early and lie in the darkness.
    Kitty4190 Kitty4190 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    I Want To Remember

    Can someone with experience please offer input? Both my therapist and my psychiatrist strongly believe I have PTSD or some form of repressed childhood trauma and I don't have any idea why they think this or where it is coming from. They suggest I do hypnotherapy to recover...
    chiodios chiodios 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    The Good, Badd And Ugly Part 5

    The GoOd, Bad And UgLy part5 It's really hard to continue this, for me to press forward, for I have a throbbing headache from concentrating, uncontrollable trembling just reflecting, fear of the unknown, that might await me along my journeys ahead, for It's now seems as a...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    Running late for work this morning.

    Heard hubby on the phone..switching between two calls, talking back and forth for two people. When he was finally done I could hear him yelling aloud about how frustrating it was. He sounded on the verge of tears. He headed to the bathroom and tossed something around loudly. At...
    Catsoutdabag Catsoutdabag 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    I wish I can act normal like everybody else

    without having flashbacks,Im trying hard ti study but I cant focus especially when Im dealing with difficult subjects
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 6

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