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I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

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    I think my biggest thing is my fear of not

    being in control. Whenever I start to feel as though I'm losing control, or if I feel as though control is slipping out of my hands, I get anxiety/panic attacks, which I think are caused by the PTSD, and these attacks then lead to bouts of depression. I feel one coming on now...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 5, 2014

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    My Ptsd Story.

    Last year I had a complete mental meltdown. I was angry with myself. I used to cut and anytime I felt I was under emotional attack I would unleash my wrath on that person. As my psychiatrist said, I am generally a person with a positive attitude and that is what kept me going...
    DcreativeBUG DcreativeBUG 22-25 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Ptsd

    I was in a tornado and it brought up PTSD from all parts of my life and fears along with it. I use to use and drink and haven't once thought about it after all this. They did put me on a pill I use to abuse and it somehow helps when in panic mode. I think the important thing is...
    jupiter71 jupiter71 36-40, T Mar 19, 2012

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    Feeling like cutting myself again.

    I don't know where it comes from. It's just something that screams out from my soul. I wonder if it's practice for suicide or if I just like the thought of hurting myself. I'm a monster. It's too late for me. I can't stand being in my own life. And I hate myself for feeling that...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2014

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    Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in

    the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    The Good, Badd And Ugly Part 5

    The GoOd, Bad And UgLy part5 It's really hard to continue this, for me to press forward, for I have a throbbing headache from concentrating, uncontrollable trembling just reflecting, fear of the unknown, that might await me along my journeys ahead, for It's now seems as a...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    Lost In Life

    In 2009 my husband and I had twins. We lived in Virginia on a military base and in 2010 we lost one of our twins when he was taking a nap. When I called 911 I was giving CPR to my 3 month old child during the time it took for the ambulance to get there. We went to the hospital...
    lostsoul2010 lostsoul2010 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    For those who share my struggles,

    writing helps a LOT. It doesn't necessarily have to be physical writing, like with pen and paper. Electronically doing so, like on a blog or a private electronic journal, are just as helpful.
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Was diagnosed with symptoms of ptsd

    and trauma, 3 years ago.i've been going to therapy for 4 years. different therapists. I find therapy helpful. The struggle can be difficult during certain moments, moreso than others. I would say flashbacks and memories are the most difficult thing.Anything can trigger it off, a...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    Are there any ways to fight off

    or prevent anxiety/panic attacks? Now that I've targeted exactly what causes them, how can I use that to help me?
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    but I'm tired of crappy therapists

    and people's pity, so no one in my new town knows.
    cycffuff cycffuff 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    Short version: I was groomed

    for abuse by my father, who is a con artist and not a part of my life anymore. He kidnapped my sibling and I when we were little and we were missing for a year. Now that I am a mother I really feel for what that must have been like for her. My mother remarried several times...
    iamowl iamowl 31-35, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I have many disorders

    because of my childhood and the way I grew up.
    KensleyRenee KensleyRenee 16-17, F Nov 24, 2014

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    Road Block'S At Every Turn

    This is one of those random things I decided to post on a whim… I posted a similar version of this on a different group, but wanted to share it here as well. Unless you have suffered from anxiety, depression, or panic attacks it’s really hard to explain. For me, there is...
    HayBail HayBail 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2013

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    I think the anxiety and depression are caused

    by the PTSD/ the trauma itself. I don't think I'd be depressed or this anxious if it weren't for the trauma. It's still god awful though... :/
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F Mar 18

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    i don't mind you fingering my play dough

    I don't mind you fingering my play dough! Hi, I had PTSD and a brain injury for a while now like 13 years really 30 total for ptsd, but A really great thing happens when you type me a note or comment, I get to dream.   Dreams are those things that are addictively...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    Running late for work this morning.

    Heard hubby on the phone..switching between two calls, talking back and forth for two people. When he was finally done I could hear him yelling aloud about how frustrating it was. He sounded on the verge of tears. He headed to the bathroom and tossed something around loudly. At...
    Catsoutdabag Catsoutdabag 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    I have had depression

    since I was 15...it comes & goes as does the anxiety. I take Effexor now & that helps a lot, though I still have my "bad days." Where I don't want to do anything or deal with life. I'm grateful that the anxiety is under control...knock on wood. I saw a therapist a few months...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Okay. So I always have to keep my ears covered

    because I feel like someone (or something) is going to scream in my ear and my back also has to be covered constantly as well. Anybody else have this problem?
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    What If You Forgotten Whom You Are?

       What if you forgotten whom you are?       PTSD part 2 stayin' safe...      Growing up I've always try to be something, someone, with some type of morals      or aspirations towards being what's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    I'm also a big, big fan of inspirational quotes.

    Yeah, they're cheesy, but when you're walking down a dark path and it looks like you're walking alone, a few simple words can make a big difference. "Fear not. We are of the nature of the lion, and can not descend to the destruction of mice and such small beasts." - Elizabeth I...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    My Forray Into The Darken World Beyond....

    The Drunken sailor, that should have drowned!!! the beginnings of downfall into PTSD 1   It's March 75 and My Submarine, with two others, are currently tide up to a support tender ship, in the middle of the Mediterranean .  We're to take on provisions...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Please read, I have a question

    for anyone who suffers from mental disorders. But first, a little bit (briefly) about my mental health history: I was diagnosed with ADHD, depression, and anxiety at age 9 by a specialist in her field - pediatric psychiatry. I had numerous tests done as a child by doctors and...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I am currently getting help

    for PTSD depression and anxiety have become a way of life for 10 years I lost 2 of my friends they were both murdered and then I lost my mom to cancer 2 years later I have constant hyper vigilance and crowds of people make me really uncomfortable I recently quit 2 jobs because I...
    gevee20 gevee20 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    Malattachment due to starvation

    for intimacy during early development. Caused by: Neglect and/or abuse from the female attachment figure. Most people who have this affliction are completely unaware that that is the cause, Because 1. To them, their experience was normal for all they know and 2. Repression of...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I should be going to a psychiatrist (or

    whatever, phycologist, idk&idc) but I'm too stubborn. Mind over matter... Right?
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    What I'm slowly realizing about PTSD (and

    subsequent depression and anxiety) is that it doesn't always happen right after said traumatizing event. It can sometimes take years to develop or manifest. I think in my case, the adult in me is trying to cope with the trauma that the child had to face. It's a long, difficult...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I have been suffering with PTDS,

    Anxiety, and severe depression since I was a little girl. It all started when my ex boyfriend committed suicide when I was 13 years old after talking on the Phone with him that same night.. It was so hard going to his funeral. It broke my heart. My life really hasn't been the...
    Kmg1994 Kmg1994 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2013

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    I talked to my therapist tonight

    and she's referred me to a psychoanalyst to get me officially diagnosed. I also decided after a long and hard fight to get myself on meds. It'll be a few weeks yet, but it's going to happen and I'm terrified. I don't want to be changed into something that I don't recognize. I...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Feb 10

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    I have had all 3 from

    when I was just a child my mom when you was around would kick and hit me, my grandma and grandparents were raising me I called him dad because we were so close he died when I was 10, and my grandma just died in October 8 days after my 38th birthday thankfully I have my son and...
    bert102176 bert102176 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 23

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    I'm Foxaaaay Again!

    This will be a very shallow post but I want to share it with the great people of EP.Well I went through a very stressful time. It lasted for about 5 years and you know, no matter how strong you are or how positive you are towards life, the pain starts to show on your face. They...
    DcreativeBUG DcreativeBUG 22-25 2 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    ive never been diagnosed

    but i think i have PTSD. i think my child birth brought it out. i had a long scary horribly painful delivery and almost had a c section cause we were losing him (my son) he's a live but its taken a toll on my body, I've been through A LOT in my life i think its delayed.
    brebauer brebauer 18-21, F Feb 1

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    Yoga is helping me a lot though.

    And also toning up my bum, and that's always good. :-D :)
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    I Hate People

    I hate when people are like ok just come talk to me when you have a problem You do and they are like gosh you have to talk about your problems all the time and make you feel guilty and bad about it Like you just complain all the time And you're Like...yeah that's why I don't...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I Want To Remember

    Can someone with experience please offer input? Both my therapist and my psychiatrist strongly believe I have PTSD or some form of repressed childhood trauma and I don't have any idea why they think this or where it is coming from. They suggest I do hypnotherapy to recover...
    chiodios chiodios 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    Considering checking myself into the hospital

    willingly for the first time. Recurring depressive thoughts. Not suicidal though which is nice. I just feel trapped in a box. Am I the only one?
    TheLonelyStoner95 TheLonelyStoner95 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    I suffer from PTSD and I feel

    that I can't really live a full life because of it. I guess it would be easier to discuss if I had been in combat but my battle was with a parent. One so abusive she destroyed the "me" I was suppose to have become. The constant anxiety and depression are awful. Now that I'm 58...
    Lcjones Lcjones 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    I just read this post on Facebook.

    Just wanted to share it with you people. "I'm a therapist and keep this poster in my waiting room, apparently it saved a few lives: I don't like the phrase "a cry for help." I just don't like how it sounds. When somebody says to me, "I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with Depression

    and Anxiety when I was 17 years old. I have been taking medicine ever since. When I was twenty something happened that I will not broadcast in a story. As an after effect of that I have ptsd . I can't be around people or things that remind me of the event. I get jumpy when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands.

    I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being haunted by memory, but to go at it alone? That's something else entirely. I guess I'm just tired from it, is all.
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F Dec 6, 2014

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    Strangled

    We`re supposed to go on vacation this summer. All family will get together. Large families. I`m scared. Large crowds. People staring at me. People touching me. People talking to me. People being near me. People asking questions. The smell of their breath as they glare at me with...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 5, 2012

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    I just wait for each day to be over.

    I sleep in late to waste time. I sit in the dark during the day. Then I go to bed early and lie in the darkness.
    Kitty4190 Kitty4190 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    Right now I just want to scream,

    OMG I'm a nutcase , Right now I just want to cry soo hard so I can sleep my thoughts are going a mile a min literally,I have not been able to get to sleep until extremely late in the morning for the last 2 weeks ,and everyday has been the same for most of my life I'm either...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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