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I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

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    I talked to my therapist tonight

    and she's referred me to a psychoanalyst to get me officially diagnosed. I also decided after a long and hard fight to get myself on meds. It'll be a few weeks yet, but it's going to happen and I'm terrified. I don't want to be changed into something that I don't recognize. I...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F Feb 10

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    i don't mind you fingering my play dough

    I don't mind you fingering my play dough! Hi, I had PTSD and a brain injury for a while now like 13 years really 30 total for ptsd, but A really great thing happens when you type me a note or comment, I get to dream.   Dreams are those things that are addictively...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    I am tortured right now.

    My emotions are out of control and I can't numb it with any drugs. That will make things worse. I am sick. I can't pick myself back up. I just want to run
    marleychick23 marleychick23 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26

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    My Forray Into The Darken World Beyond....

    The Drunken sailor, that should have drowned!!! the beginnings of downfall into PTSD 1   It's March 75 and My Submarine, with two others, are currently tide up to a support tender ship, in the middle of the Mediterranean .  We're to take on provisions...
    Randysdot Randysdot 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD

    but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing but I'm totally 'new' to mental health illness. So I would very much appretiate if any of you guys could help me help him. SO, he's a...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    Sometimes it seems like no one understands.

    I feel like I'm being overdramatic when I say that, but it really does feel lonely, having Ptsd. It's bad enough to spend life being haunted by memory, but to go at it alone? That's something else entirely. I guess I'm just tired from it, is all.
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F Dec 6, 2014

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    Everyday I lose more feeling.

    Everday is hard. everyday I lose a piece of myself. Everday I grow more numb. Everyday I miss her. Everyday I grow more lonly. Everyday I miss my dad more. Everyday I'm more lost. I'm losing everything I cared about.
    Z1pp1e Z1pp1e 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    How do you cope with your emotions

    and thoughts when your depression gets worse? And what to do about these stressed out feelings you get an hour before a panic attack? How do you cope with pannick attacks and anger outbursts? What to do..
    misguidedghost9 misguidedghost9 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    Running late for work this morning.

    Heard hubby on the phone..switching between two calls, talking back and forth for two people. When he was finally done I could hear him yelling aloud about how frustrating it was. He sounded on the verge of tears. He headed to the bathroom and tossed something around loudly. At...
    Catsoutdabag Catsoutdabag 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in

    the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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    I just wait for each day to be over.

    I sleep in late to waste time. I sit in the dark during the day. Then I go to bed early and lie in the darkness.
    Kitty4190 Kitty4190 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    All through my childhood (up

    until i was 16) i was the craziest happiest most enthusiastic ADHD kid you could ever meet. (ADHD in the sense that I'd rather run around and have fun than do my homework or pay attention in class). Then my memory is fuzzy but something happened to me. My ears stuck out so i...
    LiamgotOwned LiamgotOwned 22-25, M Aug 7

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    The truth is I'm not comfortable talking about

    where it all comes from. But it stems from years of being with an alcoholic emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive father.
    justbnatural justbnatural 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I Hate People

    I hate when people are like ok just come talk to me when you have a problem You do and they are like gosh you have to talk about your problems all the time and make you feel guilty and bad about it Like you just complain all the time And you're Like...yeah that's why I don't...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 8

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    Yoga is helping me a lot though.

    And also toning up my bum, and that's always good. :-D :)
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F Nov 4, 2014

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    Lost In Life

    In 2009 my husband and I had twins. We lived in Virginia on a military base and in 2010 we lost one of our twins when he was taking a nap. When I called 911 I was giving CPR to my 3 month old child during the time it took for the ambulance to get there. We went to the hospital...
    lostsoul2010 lostsoul2010 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Look if anyone knows how anxiety feels like I

    do. I fight it just like most of you stay strong ?
    annemarieduffx annemarieduffx 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I just read this post on Facebook.

    Just wanted to share it with you people. "I'm a therapist and keep this poster in my waiting room, apparently it saved a few lives: I don't like the phrase "a cry for help." I just don't like how it sounds. When somebody says to me, "I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    Hi, I am Mike and I served two tours in Iraq.

    My first deployment was out of Camp Hovey Korea in 2004-05. I was with 2nd ID and we were attached with the 1st Marines in Ramadi Iraq. My second time I was deployed from Fort Lewis in 2007. Anyway, I experianced alot of crazy things and after my service I came back to Ohio and...
    flemin37 flemin37 36-40 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    "Why PTSD Is Undiagnosed In Many Black

    Women" http://blackdoctor.org/457086/ptsd-and-african-american-women/
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 14

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    I Am Me

    I remember everytime they would put a label on me. The first was victim, and I was a victim of hate and rape. I add the hate first because my biological father hated me for being a girl. I was then raped at thirteen. I was forced into counseling. I didn't believe I belonged there...
    DarkLiela DarkLiela 22-25, F Apr 27, 2013

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    I had told myself I would make more clay

    starfish and draw again but I haven't. I still haven't eaten yet today. I told my husband the other day that I haven't seen a need to shower or brush my teeth or leave my house unless I'm going somewhere with some sort of purpose. simply going for a walk is out of the...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F 1 Response May 25

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    as though having and dealing with PTSD every

    day wasn't bad enough someone has stolen a large sum of money from me. I think I know how, last year one of the yeoman took hundreds of peoples PII home with her to her drunk and high boyfriend. when I was notified that my PII had been one of the ones she released I was given...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F Jul 1

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    Was diagnosed with symptoms of ptsd

    and trauma, 3 years ago.i've been going to therapy for 4 years. different therapists. I find therapy helpful. The struggle can be difficult during certain moments, moreso than others. I would say flashbacks and memories are the most difficult thing.Anything can trigger it off, a...
    mixieloca mixieloca 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    What If You Forgotten Whom You Are?

       What if you forgotten whom you are?       PTSD part 2 stayin' safe...      Growing up I've always try to be something, someone, with some type of morals      or aspirations towards being what's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    My Ptsd Story.

    Last year I had a complete mental meltdown. I was angry with myself. I used to cut and anytime I felt I was under emotional attack I would unleash my wrath on that person. As my psychiatrist said, I am generally a person with a positive attitude and that is what kept me going...
    DcreativeBUG DcreativeBUG 22-25 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I'm 40 years old, I was a firefighter

    for over 12 years. I had a call that involved a mother and her kids. It was a murder/suicide, I knew the mother, dad and the children. I have never been the same since. I had my own home, a fiancé who was the love of my life. It's all gone now! I just want someone to...
    ndirishfan ndirishfan 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    I often dream about packing & trying to get

    away from my ex-fiancé who was very abusive to me for 3 yrs. At that time my life was in danger. The dreams haunt me. A few Drs have told me I have PTSD from that horrible experience.
    Bluetangerine Bluetangerine 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    Strangled

    We`re supposed to go on vacation this summer. All family will get together. Large families. I`m scared. Large crowds. People staring at me. People touching me. People talking to me. People being near me. People asking questions. The smell of their breath as they glare at me with...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 5, 2012

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    I think the anxiety and depression are caused

    by the PTSD/ the trauma itself. I don't think I'd be depressed or this anxious if it weren't for the trauma. It's still god awful though... :/
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F Mar 18

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    I am not seeking a "pity party",

    let me describe" only" depression as I feel it NOW. I feel as though however abstract it sound's, my soul is bleeding,I ponder about thinking "end"... where once the simplicity of merely reading brought joy,a hobby or pastime bringing excitement. NOW...
    DEVINIQUE DEVINIQUE 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I have ptsd, depression

    and anxiety ... Been put on Meds been shown to many doctors ... But the best cure I have ever found is by dealing with it ... Yes I still get bad depression and yea I still have PTSD but it hasn't been that bad .. My anxiety has went down ....... All I did was embraced my past...
    william2490 william2490 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7

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    I Want To Remember

    Can someone with experience please offer input? Both my therapist and my psychiatrist strongly believe I have PTSD or some form of repressed childhood trauma and I don't have any idea why they think this or where it is coming from. They suggest I do hypnotherapy to recover...
    chiodios chiodios 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2012

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    Please read, I have a question

    for anyone who suffers from mental disorders. But first, a little bit (briefly) about my mental health history: I was diagnosed with ADHD, depression, and anxiety at age 9 by a specialist in her field - pediatric psychiatry. I had numerous tests done as a child by doctors and...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I wish I can act normal like everybody else

    without having flashbacks,Im trying hard ti study but I cant focus especially when Im dealing with difficult subjects
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F May 6

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    hello just introducing me I was in the military

    for 11years and have ptsd/DID. I was diagnosed in 2013 and have been struggling with it since I have 2 daughters and a loving wife. she is going through some health issues and we may think she has lupus or ms. I my self am disabled ( reason I had to get out of the military). I...
    xavieranpaul xavieranpaul 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I am in one of those moments

    now that I don't know what's really happening anymore. I am a student and I was diagnosed with ptsd and anxiety 7 months ago now. Over the past few months I have developed major depression as well. In the beginning I was able to read like 10 pages of scientific articles in 3 to...
    misguidedghost9 misguidedghost9 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I have major exams and I cant focus due to

    flashbacks,Im doing my best but its not enough
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Cut myself tonight for the first time in a few

    months. I'm better at hiding it now though.
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    What I'm slowly realizing about PTSD (and

    subsequent depression and anxiety) is that it doesn't always happen right after said traumatizing event. It can sometimes take years to develop or manifest. I think in my case, the adult in me is trying to cope with the trauma that the child had to face. It's a long, difficult...
    AlexTheWordSmith AlexTheWordSmith 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    An actual experience I had: A friend of mine

    who recently returned home from the army confided in me that he had PTSD. I helped him through some tough days, teaching him better ways to cope and he actually improved. He then asked how I knew what to do for PTSD and I explained to him I actually had it myself. It took a...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm back at work for the first time

    after being diagnosed with PTSD. Its hard. I feel like I can't tell anyone about it, which doesn't help my anxiety, which doesn't help my productivity, which doesn't help me hold down a job. I've worked really hard to keep my anxiety in check. However, my anxiety makes me go...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 1 Response