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I Have Ptsd

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    PTSD, doubled up with anxiety

    and depression, is a hell of a combination. I had always had anxiety and depression both, as far back as I can remember. Then being attacked at work started the ptsd. My abusive ex fiancé didn't help much, always telling me how much of a loser and piece of **** I was, and the...
    pag089 pag089 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    When I was 13 years old,

    I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite family member. It was January 24, 2011, and I was up at the farm for Christmas; the cousins were supposed to be coming up from...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I tried to talk to a friend

    who also struggled with PTSD , and thought that he would understand, but he made a lot of comments how i can't possibly have PTSD because I was never in the service or was in the military. I battle this all the time. Told i cant possibly have ptsd because I was not in the...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 2

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2014

    because of the gang rape I went through and I get flash back of it when I sleep every now and then it was horrible to go through and the flash backs make me think it's the same night like I'm back there going through it again.
    kmccrady12653 kmccrady12653 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    Okay so I love music

    and whenever I'm in the car with my mom, we play music extremely loudly and dance like annoying teenagers (except my mom is not a teenager) and last April, my mom and I were driving home one evening and as usual, dancing and singing like crazy people. We were so into the music...
    jasminestone jasminestone 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 5

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    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F Jun 26

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    You know it never seems to end

    or go away . Last week I thought I needed to be hospitalized because I was so afraid of the memories, then I just pushed them back down and away. Today I am suffering with the memories of my mother beating me nearly every night at age 10 11 and 12 and then in the morning it was...
    Audg911 Audg911 46-50, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    when i was 13 i saw my childhood best friend

    get shot and her dad pull the gun on himself.
    LadyTigeress76 LadyTigeress76 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 9

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I had a horrible experience

    when I was thirteen in a different country and now I can't even listen to the language without flashbacks.
    elephant608 elephant608 18-21, F Jul 3

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    Abuse by my mother is my first memory.

    Husband #1 gave me 2 babies (all grown now) then gave me the boot when I had gained weight. He was an only child and a narcissist. That took 12 years from my life and kicked me down a bit more. Husband #2 came 6 years later and the abuse went on again for 14 years. Husband #3...
    maddymay maddymay 56-60, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    I always have nightmares of my father

    when he beat me and my brother he broke several bones in my body and we couldn't get him in jail because he's the "sheriff" but I no longer see him or speak to him even though he tries to reconnect to me.
    restlessghost restlessghost 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    I'm a survivor of sexually,

    physically,mentally abused by family,police,ex. I posted ''I'm looking for survivor like me ''couple of times here or another groups in a year.. I'm appriciate for kindness. But i personally i don't want to share my very personal sensitve memory,trouma for EVERYONE. I choose...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I can't go more than a few nights without

    having a nightmare about things I've seen, or things I've done. 90% of it is things I experienced while serving overseas but the rest is just petty bullshit from the civilian world that somehow really bothers me. I'm not afraid of anything but myself. I don't have any emotions...
    Sinatra616 Sinatra616 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    Recently I have been trying to date this really

    nice guy (who I honestly don't believe would ever hurt me) but I have been noticing that the anxiety I am having about him seeing me triggered is actually becoming a trigger and sending me into episodes. I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced this fear of being...
    Khrysanthemum Khrysanthemum 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    Well actually I dissociate,

    which can actually be quite handy in some situations
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 58 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I'm crazy. There's something wrong with me.

    It's incomprehensible, how can anyone understand, and accept it, accept me? I have to hide it. A dirty secret. I wish these scars didn't show so much. I wish I wasn't so wrong. I can't accept these four letters as a magical explanation, a solution, an "everything will be okay...
    SkyChevalier SkyChevalier 22-25, T 4 Responses Jul 3

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    dulcivoluptas dulcivoluptas 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    Some days suck, when I look at my beautiful

    kids, and see how innocent and funny they are and remember all the **** my parents did to me at their age. I look at them, and can't imagine hurting them, so it makes me wonder why my parents did. You have got to be a really ****** parents to treat kids with such disrespect and...
    FosterCareSurvivor2007 FosterCareSurvivor2007 22-25, F 3 Responses May 26

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    I have PTSD. The first time I was told

    that I have PTSD was at the age of 11. This was after I was molested by my step grandfather for 3 years and by my step brother for 2 years. After all this I developed a natural fear of men. I have nightmares almost every night. and I've blocked out have of the **** that happened...
    alantae14 alantae14 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 2

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    I was molested by my grand father

    for 4 years from late 13 years old to 18 years old. I still remember him tormenting me every night . I have horrible nightmares and none of my friends believed me. actually an ex raped me because he thought I was weak. I tried to put it in school but the school told me if I did...
    kundabada kundabada 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    My Guilt Feelings

    Sometimes when I hear or read things about guilt if I do not run from it right away I start to think about what I may have done to people and children in Vietnam. I actually made napalm to be dropped on the enemy, I know it saved a lot of American lives and when it exploded the...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    I have extreme PTSD. When i was young,

    I lived with my best friends and her abusive father. I lived there for six years, and during that time I was raped, stabbed, and have had several bones broken. This past month, my best friend was murdered by his father, who then killed himself. I am so scarred.... I can't sleep...
    Believera Believera 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    I don't know why it is

    so had for me to socialize with people at work. I go home criticizing everything I said or did that day that could be considered a social interaction. I worry about the subject of family coming up, or something happening that could trigger me. I feel so alone, so I come on...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 20

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    Right this is the first time I've used this

    and gunna just get this out there that I have PTSD, damn that feels good to even get that out on paper 😊, Basically I was stabbed 3 times by a gang who thought I was someone who stole their weed, now 3 years later and hundreds of stitches later I still wake up in panic and...
    thomasxoxo thomasxoxo 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Unfortunatly i had before i had.

    Due to child abuse and combat. Docs solution is drugs drugs and more drugs. I gave up on the VA. Bud Light and isolation is much safer and not drugs.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 4 Responses Jul 19

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    I say And do thing I can't remember

    because of the fear I keep destroying all my relationships.
    Z1pp1e Z1pp1e 31-35, F Jun 26

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    The flashbacks make me feel like I'm reliving

    every horrible second. I'm shaking and crying and I don't know what to do. I need this to stop
    hihello703 hihello703 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    PTSD is ******* awful.

    I hope someday I can overcome it . I finished therapy at a free clinic a year ago and so far it's been OK. I got a job and a fiance and everything . but I always relive my past every night. does anyone have advice on how to make it stop?
    kundabada kundabada 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I've got some questions

    for those of you that's in a relationship. When did you start talking about your illness? Do you feel that you get enough support and understanding? I've been struggling like crazy when it comes to relationships, because I can't seem to bring my walls down or talk about my...
    Elisabeth90 Elisabeth90 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 15

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    I've been experiencing ptsd over the past 2

    years and its left my life in pieces: my whole world came crashing down after I was tortured not once but twice by men of the law the last time resulted in me leaving custody in an ambulance.... Since those evens I have had flashbacks, nightmares, I wake up in panic but its...
    luckbealadytonight luckbealadytonight 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    A few years ago on April 20 2013 Dad

    and I were on are way to the New Lenox Public Library for a half hour before going to Oak Park Illinois to see my Psychologist who is my councilor so anyway when we were on Cedar Road in New Lenox some person side swiped us Dad and I spun at 180 degrees hit a service truck in...
    Jolietillinois Jolietillinois 22-25, M Jun 23

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    I finally drove last week

    for the first time in over a year, big step for me. Anxiety attacks over and over and seeing horrible accidents on the freeways didn't help my anxiety at all. Getting bad directions from friends and not know the area made things stressful but with a positive attitude and no real...
    pixieontheprairie pixieontheprairie 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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