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I Have Ptsd

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    Week seven back at work.

    Its still a struggle most days, but I've had a few good days since my last post. I live for those days. I'm so glad to have experienced good days. I was concerned a few Saturdays ago when I nearly had a meltdown in front of my co-workers at a tech conference: "My co-workers...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    I've been experiencing ptsd over the past 2

    years and its left my life in pieces: my whole world came crashing down after I was tortured not once but twice by men of the law the last time resulted in me leaving custody in an ambulance.... Since those evens I have had flashbacks, nightmares, I wake up in panic but its...
    luckbealadytonight luckbealadytonight 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2014

    because of the gang rape I went through and I get flash back of it when I sleep every now and then it was horrible to go through and the flash backs make me think it's the same night like I'm back there going through it again.
    kmccrady12653 kmccrady12653 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    Recently I have been trying to date this really

    nice guy (who I honestly don't believe would ever hurt me) but I have been noticing that the anxiety I am having about him seeing me triggered is actually becoming a trigger and sending me into episodes. I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced this fear of being...
    Khrysanthemum Khrysanthemum 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Abuse by my mother is my first memory.

    Husband #1 gave me 2 babies (all grown now) then gave me the boot when I had gained weight. He was an only child and a narcissist. That took 12 years from my life and kicked me down a bit more. Husband #2 came 6 years later and the abuse went on again for 14 years. Husband #3...
    maddymay maddymay 56-60, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I have extreme PTSD. When i was young,

    I lived with my best friends and her abusive father. I lived there for six years, and during that time I was raped, stabbed, and have had several bones broken. This past month, my best friend was murdered by his father, who then killed himself. I am so scarred.... I can't sleep...
    Believera Believera 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    So I have this problem where

    whenever I have one bad experience associated with a certain object or place or even person, my natural instinct tells me to avoid those things altogether. A lot of them aren't even that bad. For example, when I was 4 years old, I was at the airport going to fly to Nashville...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 3

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    Okay so I love music

    and whenever I'm in the car with my mom, we play music extremely loudly and dance like annoying teenagers (except my mom is not a teenager) and last April, my mom and I were driving home one evening and as usual, dancing and singing like crazy people. We were so into the music...
    jasminestone jasminestone 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    Right this is the first time I've used this

    and gunna just get this out there that I have PTSD, damn that feels good to even get that out on paper 😊, Basically I was stabbed 3 times by a gang who thought I was someone who stole their weed, now 3 years later and hundreds of stitches later I still wake up in panic and...
    thomasxoxo thomasxoxo 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    when i was 13 i saw my childhood best friend

    get shot and her dad pull the gun on himself.
    LadyTigeress76 LadyTigeress76 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 9

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    Unfortunatly i had before i had.

    Due to child abuse and combat. Docs solution is drugs drugs and more drugs. I gave up on the VA. Bud Light and isolation is much safer and not drugs.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 5 Responses Jul 19

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    I'm a survivor of sexually,

    physically,mentally abused by family,police,ex. I posted ''I'm looking for survivor like me ''couple of times here or another groups in a year.. I'm appriciate for kindness. But i personally i don't want to share my very personal sensitve memory,trouma for EVERYONE. I choose...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I finally drove last week

    for the first time in over a year, big step for me. Anxiety attacks over and over and seeing horrible accidents on the freeways didn't help my anxiety at all. Getting bad directions from friends and not know the area made things stressful but with a positive attitude and no real...
    pixieontheprairie pixieontheprairie 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I was molested by my grand father

    for 4 years from late 13 years old to 18 years old. I still remember him tormenting me every night . I have horrible nightmares and none of my friends believed me. actually an ex raped me because he thought I was weak. I tried to put it in school but the school told me if I did...
    kundabada kundabada 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    Let's just say I was a little stupid

    when it came to using street drugs, and I had a very bad trip 2 times. The first time, I didn't have a problem after it happened. The second time I ended up getting PTSD.
    NoUserName1107 NoUserName1107 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    PTSD is ******* awful.

    I hope someday I can overcome it . I finished therapy at a free clinic a year ago and so far it's been OK. I got a job and a fiance and everything . but I always relive my past every night. does anyone have advice on how to make it stop?
    kundabada kundabada 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    dulcivoluptas dulcivoluptas 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I can't go more than a few nights without

    having a nightmare about things I've seen, or things I've done. 90% of it is things I experienced while serving overseas but the rest is just petty bullshit from the civilian world that somehow really bothers me. I'm not afraid of anything but myself. I don't have any emotions...
    Sinatra616 Sinatra616 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I don't know why it is

    so had for me to socialize with people at work. I go home criticizing everything I said or did that day that could be considered a social interaction. I worry about the subject of family coming up, or something happening that could trigger me. I feel so alone, so I come on...
    mrspleco mrspleco 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 20

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    I'm crazy. There's something wrong with me.

    It's incomprehensible, how can anyone understand, and accept it, accept me? I have to hide it. A dirty secret. I wish these scars didn't show so much. I wish I wasn't so wrong. I can't accept these four letters as a magical explanation, a solution, an "everything will be okay...
    SkyChevalier SkyChevalier 22-25, T 4 Responses Jul 3

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    I have PTSD. The first time I was told

    that I have PTSD was at the age of 11. This was after I was molested by my step grandfather for 3 years and by my step brother for 2 years. After all this I developed a natural fear of men. I have nightmares almost every night. and I've blocked out have of the **** that happened...
    alantae14 alantae14 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 2

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F Jun 26

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    I say And do thing I can't remember

    because of the fear I keep destroying all my relationships.
    Z1pp1e Z1pp1e 31-35, F Jun 26

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    When I was 13 years old,

    I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite family member. It was January 24, 2011, and I was up at the farm for Christmas; the cousins were supposed to be coming up from...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I tried to talk to a friend

    who also struggled with PTSD , and thought that he would understand, but he made a lot of comments how i can't possibly have PTSD because I was never in the service or was in the military. I battle this all the time. Told i cant possibly have ptsd because I was not in the...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 2

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    PTSD, doubled up with anxiety

    and depression, is a hell of a combination. I had always had anxiety and depression both, as far back as I can remember. Then being attacked at work started the ptsd. My abusive ex fiancé didn't help much, always telling me how much of a loser and piece of **** I was, and the...
    pag089 pag089 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    The flashbacks make me feel like I'm reliving

    every horrible second. I'm shaking and crying and I don't know what to do. I need this to stop
    hihello703 hihello703 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Im a child abuse survivor :'( i feel

    so lonely unloved and Life seem to énd for me
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    I am a 29 year old woman

    who still believes in monsters. Just now I heard something rustling in the back yard. Knowing logically that it was a raccoon, I also knew, in the deepest depths of me that at any moment some unimaginable, horrific creature was going to break through my window and consume me in...
    mrsteaberry mrsteaberry 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I couldn't sleep at all.

    I literally laid in bed crying from the intense flashbacks I was having. I've even been having these audible hallucinations where my nephew will be crying really badly, so I run to check on him and he's fine.. I'm such a wreck these days! :(
    KoopyKoop KoopyKoop 18-21, F Jun 5

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    You know it never seems to end

    or go away . Last week I thought I needed to be hospitalized because I was so afraid of the memories, then I just pushed them back down and away. Today I am suffering with the memories of my mother beating me nearly every night at age 10 11 and 12 and then in the morning it was...
    Audg911 Audg911 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Well actually I dissociate,

    which can actually be quite handy in some situations
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 25

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