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    I was in my drivers ED class today

    and our teacher showed a video about organ donation.Aside from it being sad because a man died i was to busy trying to stop a PTSD attack from getting out of hand.The video showed images of hospitals ,doctors,nurse,and ambulances all of which are triggers.I haven't slept because...
    ordinaryemma ordinaryemma 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    gwisforlovers gwisforlovers 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Into myself, I fall and I feel what I thought

    to be reality slipping away. The tremors start and all fades to black. Meaning is lost in a torrent of confusion and the panic hits. Where I am isn't even a question because I don't even recognize who I am in that moment. It's not the fear of dying, but the fear in dying...
    Aurinne Aurinne 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    When I was 16 I was abducted.

    The was held for a little over an hour and terrorized by being told what was going to happen to me. I was actually able to escape before any of that happened but it has haunted me since. I have a lot of irrational fears, I don't like to be left alone at night, scared to be in...
    abigailc abigailc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 2

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    One of my mother's boyfriends threatened to put

    a bullet between my eyes and held her hostage and I haven't been the same since.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    no matter how hard i try i cant forget what you

    did ... yes i do smile now but its not real at all ... only if there was anyone to notice that ... but perhaps nobody cares .....
    curiousmoi curiousmoi 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 16

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 55 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I keep being haunted by one of my accidents

    that I worked I do not think I will ever get closer.
    polarbear911 polarbear911 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Since i was a little girl i have had nothing

    but trouble. I'm 18 now i have issues but if i say i need help my brother tells me there's nothing wrong and i just want something wrong with me. I have a new therapist and i told her, my dad, some kid, family friend, my friend with a group of his friends, some guy i dont know...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    My dad has been talking about sending me to a

    residential treatment center to get help for trauma/PTSD that hasn't been dealt with for the past few years. I used to live with an alcoholic mother who was abusive (emotional with physical and sexual incidents) and though I don't live with her anymore after Child Protective...
    experiences683 experiences683 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 11

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    when i was 16 i was attacked

    and ever since i have had flashbacks, panic attacks and hear voices, i also have a range of other mental health problems aswell, never thought an incident at the age of 16 would give me this horrible condition. it is truely horrible and my thoughts go out to all that suffer...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 2

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    Well here it goes....

    On the night of November 19th my then fiance and I went out on a date night to mend our relationship. We have a one year old son together. Im 21 and hes 27. He struggled from bi polar 1 and 2 (which i had no idea about). We went out to dinner and he invited another couple. I was...
    tbkerfoot tbkerfoot 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    When i was in fifth grade my mother was

    diagnosed with clinical depression and my family changed forever.In my 4th grade year she started taking 6 week leaves from work.I had no idea why.Then one day out of the blue she lost it.She was driving me to school and started crying.At this point the crying had become normal...
    ordinaryemma ordinaryemma 22-25, F Sep 15

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    Well This Sucks.

    I mean.... the second I believe I'm happy I seem to get to relaxed and then triggered.... Then I go into superstition mode and carry around a rabbits foot etc...  say prayers before I get in my car... write prayers on my body when i go places  When will it end? I'm so tired...
    1ItalianLady 1ItalianLady 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Access To Euthansia.

    I was answering a question regarding access to Euthanasia, thought it was a little too long so made it a story.Firstly got to say I'm really sorry to everyone if I get my words a little mixed up whilst writing my answer to this question. It is a question that stirs so many...
    Kurlysue Kurlysue 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2012

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Actually, C-PTSD. Does anyone else here have

    it? The "C" stands for complex, meaning my issues don't stem from a single event (i.e. an attack, short period of war) but rather from multiple years of recurring trauma in my childhood. I grew up in a very toxic environment and most of the time from before I was 11 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Sep 8

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    I was molested by a 5 year old boy

    when I was 3 years old. I have constant nightmares because of it.
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24

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    I suffer from PTSD and am unable to cope with

    it, which is a major problem for me because it is debilitating my life. I'm fearful all the time, I can't stop thinking, I don't want to eat or sleep. I avoid therapy/counseling bc it only seems to make my PTSD worse - I'll black out and start dreaming. I don't know how to...
    forgetmenots101 forgetmenots101 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 11

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    Battle Scars

    I have PTSD. It doesn't control me anymore. It may wake me up rudely at night several times a week. But not as severely as once before. I have had some horrific experiences. Seen unspeakable things. But for the most part it has made me stronger. When I first came home I was an...
    Ssgsmith77 Ssgsmith77 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    I don't know. I have been feeling very anxious

    all last week and this week. I left for lunch every day to calm my self down and regroup. Which worked ok for most of last week. Then the bad weekend just kept on into this week. Today I had a lot of anxiety, frustration from the time I woke up that just kept on building out of...
    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    Static

    Static, Part 1 of 3 If you  can afford irony, you’re doing alright.     Its not that the stretching hours between the two times didn’t matter. It happened, the collective events are part of the soul. It matters. Even calling...
    troutlily troutlily 61-65, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    kc07 kc07 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 23

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    I am/will be doing group

    and individual therapy throughout the course of a year at the hospital.
    octopieyes octopieyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    When I was younger I joined the US Army,

    thinking how great it would be to serve my country. Well after basic training we were given a mentality about when we get to our unit we will deploy go to war and get shot in the face. So everything became about being prepared to die. Needless to say I am still alive. I joined...
    Titanmeatcat Titanmeatcat 26-30 2 Responses Jul 19

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    It has been about four months

    since my boyfriend of one year committed suicide in front of me. It started in the morning he had already started drinking. I went to work at 12 and he came up to my work and was drunk I had to ask him to go home because he couldn't be at my work drunk. He went home and I was...
    kathytrip kathytrip 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Out of the Dark~ I long

    for the time of endless slumber, for the lights, and midnight parades. The clowns, whose masks only accentuate their madness, cannot hide in this stillness. We find them and exile their presence before we are tainted and perfumed by their vile existence.  The darkness in my...
    Aurinne Aurinne 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 17

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    2 years ago I was attacked by my own family,

    a family member committed suicide then found a man hanging at work. All this happened in a matter of 6 months. I completely broke down in the shower and before I knew it there was blood everywhere. I was in shock and for months afterwards I was still cutting. My sister...
    leesalush leesalush 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    I was diagnosed today

    for PTSD PASS & depression. My dr wants me to take an anti depression because I know I can't handle what's going on by myself.. But has anyone else tried more holistic methods that have worked other than medicating yourself? Or maybe some really great stories about medications...
    kros10 kros10 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    When I was 11 years old,

    I moved to a new town and lived in the "ghetto." I had never felt accepted at my old school, so I made sure to get into whatever group would accept me. I fell in with this group of kids that were "trouble". One day we went to one of their houses, his name was Josh. When we went...
    hiself hiself 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    chris121458 chris121458 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 9

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    Not something I live with easily,

    nightmares, sleepless nights, fears, memories
    tornadoalley2 tornadoalley2 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 16

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    My Guilt Feelings

    Sometimes when I hear or read things about guilt if I do not run from it right away I start to think about what I may have done to people and children in Vietnam. I actually made napalm to be dropped on the enemy, I know it saved a lot of American lives and when it exploded the...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    A Lifelong Struggle!

      I have suffered from PTSD long before it was even classified as a diagnosis! Although it's roots are based in a miserable, abusive childhood, it didn't begin to interfere with my ability to function until I was in the Navy. I was officially discharged in 1973 with...
    gsryoga gsryoga 56-60, M 5 Responses Dec 20, 2009

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    I tried all kinds of treatments

    for PTSD... I would isolate myself from people in order to avoid being triggered, sought out counseling numerous times which could only help so much until I discovered EMDR. It took 2 years and I made so much progress... then I needed a break, but went back again after a couple...
    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 23

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    June is PTSD awareness month

    and June 27, 2014 is PTSD awareness day. More people need to understand what ptsd is and it's effects on others.
    myrandomthoughts101 myrandomthoughts101 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    At least I'm pretty sure I do.

    I have not been diagnosed by a medical doctor but this would really make the most sense. I'm in a low phase right now, I'm moody, hate everything, can't stand to be touched, news of the poor people in Palestine sends my head spinning and I lash out at my boyfriend for putting...
    123sotired 123sotired 31-35 Aug 3

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    I Was Attacked Again

    It's been a while since I was physically attacked but it happened again last night. Let me start by saying I was once hit by a car and this causes me a lot of fear when I cross the street and cars play race the pedestrian. So last night I was crossing the street shortly after...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 5 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Dear mom. I hope you can see it,

    one day. I hope you can see all the scars I'm wearing. All the hurt I have experienced. All the pain and anger I'm feeling. All these things I can't get a hold of because I don't know how too keep living my life. I don't want to kill my self... I have to many to live for - so I...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 6 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    I woke up, middle of last night,

    attempting to break my own neck. Acting out being attacked in my dreams again. I have slept well in two weeks. I flinch now, throughout the day, because it suddenly feels like I'm being attacked and I tense/flinch to defend myself but no one is actually there. In fact, nothing's...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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