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    You made me afraid of everything.

    everything. I can't even work or go to school without being afraid. I can't even go to class because of how emotionally unstable I am after I see you on campus. it triggers it. everything triggers the memories the flashbacks. everyday. I push people tht care about me away. I...
    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 2 Responses a week ago

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    Access To Euthansia.

    I was answering a question regarding access to Euthanasia, thought it was a little too long so made it a story.Firstly got to say I'm really sorry to everyone if I get my words a little mixed up whilst writing my answer to this question. It is a question that stirs so many...
    Kurlysue Kurlysue 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2012

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 56 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I was molested by a 5 year old boy

    when I was 3 years old. I have constant nightmares because of it.
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24

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    My Guilt Feelings

    Sometimes when I hear or read things about guilt if I do not run from it right away I start to think about what I may have done to people and children in Vietnam. I actually made napalm to be dropped on the enemy, I know it saved a lot of American lives and when it exploded the...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    I don't know. I have been feeling very anxious

    all last week and this week. I left for lunch every day to calm my self down and regroup. Which worked ok for most of last week. Then the bad weekend just kept on into this week. Today I had a lot of anxiety, frustration from the time I woke up that just kept on building out of...
    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    I keep being haunted by one of my accidents

    that I worked I do not think I will ever get closer.
    polarbear911 polarbear911 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Amy1MM Amy1MM 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    Actually, C-PTSD. Does anyone else here have

    it? The "C" stands for complex, meaning my issues don't stem from a single event (i.e. an attack, short period of war) but rather from multiple years of recurring trauma in my childhood. I grew up in a very toxic environment and most of the time from before I was 11 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Sep 8

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    i hate God more than anything

    and anyone. There was a time i forced myself to pray for him because i thought he will purify me from this hatred. It hurt me so much just like now and I used to cry in sujud..i felt so damn lost. They used to say it only happens because I am honest..Through time it will hurt...
    Superpsycho Superpsycho 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23

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    It's really hard to begin a new life seeking

    positivity and happiness when I have flash backs and triggers thanks to my past. Hopefully with time and consistent counseling the pain will slowly dissipate but until then my brain is a mess.
    alliemamabear alliemamabear 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I tried all kinds of treatments

    for PTSD... I would isolate myself from people in order to avoid being triggered, sought out counseling numerous times which could only help so much until I discovered EMDR. It took 2 years and I made so much progress... then I needed a break, but went back again after a couple...
    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Seeing people die in a horrible manner Mann I

    never thought it'd have such an affect on me... Seeing my grandfather die also had such an affect on my psyche. I tried to be brave but now I just want to be free.... Trauma is a funny thing. It doesn't necessarily hurt when it happens. It's an unusual feeling like a wave of...
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut 26-30, M Nov 12

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    One of my mother's boyfriends threatened to put

    a bullet between my eyes and held her hostage and I haven't been the same since.
    picses2222 picses2222 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    chris121458 chris121458 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 9

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    I have been exposed to it twice,

    once as a result of war and once thanks to cleaning up after bush fires. In the case of the latter, I used have flash backs, nightmares. Anger was by constant companion. I was pretty much over it and then I spent time just after Black Saturday 2009 dealing with the results which...
    PaulineRoberta PaulineRoberta 46-50, F 1 hr ago

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    I hate sex 😒😳 especially

    after being sexually abused
    NoLoveInMe NoLoveInMe 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 7 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Since i was a little girl i have had nothing

    but trouble. I'm 18 now i have issues but if i say i need help my brother tells me there's nothing wrong and i just want something wrong with me. I have a new therapist and i told her, my dad, some kid, family friend, my friend with a group of his friends, some guy i dont know...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    How do you manage the nightmares?

    I do well during the day it's only at night I wake up screaming .I don't remember my dreams I just know I feel scared.im in threapy it's helping a bit,but when I'm sleeping somewhere new that's when it happens or if I get a new housemate basically when something changes in my...
    Confused848 Confused848 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 17

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 2

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    Well This Sucks.

    I mean.... the second I believe I'm happy I seem to get to relaxed and then triggered.... Then I go into superstition mode and carry around a rabbits foot etc...  say prayers before I get in my car... write prayers on my body when i go places  When will it end? I'm so tired...
    1ItalianLady 1ItalianLady 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    notyourfuckdoll notyourfuckdoll 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    i wish i can block myself here.

    Just like i block others once their actions trigger me.
    Superpsycho Superpsycho 22-25, F 15 Responses Nov 16

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    June is PTSD awareness month

    and June 27, 2014 is PTSD awareness day. More people need to understand what ptsd is and it's effects on others.
    myrandomthoughts101 myrandomthoughts101 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I was in my drivers ED class today

    and our teacher showed a video about organ donation.Aside from it being sad because a man died i was to busy trying to stop a PTSD attack from getting out of hand.The video showed images of hospitals ,doctors,nurse,and ambulances all of which are triggers.I haven't slept because...
    ordinaryemma ordinaryemma 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    Battle Scars

    I have PTSD. It doesn't control me anymore. It may wake me up rudely at night several times a week. But not as severely as once before. I have had some horrific experiences. Seen unspeakable things. But for the most part it has made me stronger. When I first came home I was an...
    Ssgsmith77 Ssgsmith77 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    I have struggled for months now.

    Months of therapy, months of dragging up things that are better left alone. Talking about him, and what he did to me. I feel fine sometimes, and other days i know im going insane. I want to be locked away from everyone near to me so i can't hurt them anymore. I dont want my...
    TooYoungforThis19 TooYoungforThis19 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    Why oh ******* why!? Wasn't it enough to go

    through all that? Wasn't it enough to be affraid everyday, for years? Wasn't it enough to have to hide it all? Wasn't it enough? Appearently not! I was diagnosed a while back and have been suffering from it for years. I denied it at first. Said it didn't get to me anymore. I had...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    no matter how hard i try i cant forget what you

    did ... yes i do smile now but its not real at all ... only if there was anyone to notice that ... but perhaps nobody cares .....
    curiousmoi curiousmoi 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 17

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 2 Responses Sep 23

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    My dad has been talking about sending me to a

    residential treatment center to get help for trauma/PTSD that hasn't been dealt with for the past few years. I used to live with an alcoholic mother who was abusive (emotional with physical and sexual incidents) and though I don't live with her anymore after Child Protective...
    experiences683 experiences683 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 11

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    When i was in fifth grade my mother was

    diagnosed with clinical depression and my family changed forever.In my 4th grade year she started taking 6 week leaves from work.I had no idea why.Then one day out of the blue she lost it.She was driving me to school and started crying.At this point the crying had become normal...
    ordinaryemma ordinaryemma 22-25, F Sep 15

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    Dear mom. I hope you can see it,

    one day. I hope you can see all the scars I'm wearing. All the hurt I have experienced. All the pain and anger I'm feeling. All these things I can't get a hold of because I don't know how too keep living my life. I don't want to kill my self... I have to many to live for - so I...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Static

    Static, Part 1 of 3 If you  can afford irony, you’re doing alright.     Its not that the stretching hours between the two times didn’t matter. It happened, the collective events are part of the soul. It matters. Even calling...
    troutlily troutlily 61-65, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    When I was 16 I was abducted.

    The was held for a little over an hour and terrorized by being told what was going to happen to me. I was actually able to escape before any of that happened but it has haunted me since. I have a lot of irrational fears, I don't like to be left alone at night, scared to be in...
    abigailc abigailc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I Was Attacked Again

    It's been a while since I was physically attacked but it happened again last night. Let me start by saying I was once hit by a car and this causes me a lot of fear when I cross the street and cars play race the pedestrian. So last night I was crossing the street shortly after...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 5 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Hello. I was a exactly abused by my stepfather

    for 11 years. And it still effects my relationships. I try to give so much of myself...that I actually lose my true self. I try to make the opposite sex "love" me way too soon. I am recently divorced. ..After 29 years of marriage, and could never have a ******. I don't know what...
    Mel50 Mel50 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 19

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    I use to think that ptsd was only something the

    brave men and women of our military had to go thru. I've recently been diagnosed and learned otherwise. I do know that every person's experience is different and that the ptsd due to war trauma is completely different from that of say something like rape or a car accident. so...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 3

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    ibam a combat vet and PTSD is making me go

    crazy the screams won't stop the nightmares won't stop what do I do
    sapper325 sapper325 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    No, I've never been in combat.

    Usually that's what people ask me when I say something about me having PTSD. I was recently attacked in my house, being choked into unconsciousness twice. I was drunk, and could not remember a whole lot. It's been over a month, and i still have nightmares, and my anxiety is so...