I Have Ptsd

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    Right this is the first time I've used this

    and gunna just get this out there that I have PTSD, damn that feels good to even get that out on paper 😊, Basically I was stabbed 3 times by a gang who thought I was someone who stole their weed, now 3 years later and hundreds of stitches later I still wake up in panic and...
    thomasxoxo thomasxoxo
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2015

    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    So I have this problem where

    whenever I have one bad experience associated with a certain object or place or even person, my natural instinct tells me to avoid those things altogether. A lot of them aren't even that bad. For example, when I was 4 years old, I was at the airport going to fly to Nashville...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Apr 3, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    I cannot un see what I've seen

    and it's making me crazy.
    Frank0352 Frank0352
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Mar 29, 2016

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    Abuse by my mother is my first memory.

    Husband #1 gave me 2 babies (all grown now) then gave me the boot when I had gained weight. He was an only child and a narcissist. That took 12 years from my life and kicked me down a bit more. Husband #2 came 6 years later and the abuse went on again for 14 years. Husband #3...
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    2 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    Really bad today.... And I can't hide

    as I have way to much to do and then my daughter comes home from her friends. Give me strength today. Wanna scream and hide in a ball.
    louiseengland85 louiseengland85
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2016

    I feel guilty because my PTSD is not related to

    military service. Mine is a long childhood of abuse. Anyone else have guilt when they discuss their PTSD?
    SSKyleRedd SSKyleRedd
    46-50, M
    9 Responses Jan 21, 2016

    I slept for 6hrs straight last night - WITHOUT

    A NIGHTMARE! The nursing staff came in after I was up, to hi-five me. (Corny, but I loved it. Hehe) This is the best morning I've had in hospital thus far. I even had a workout! Heading to my group session soon, I hope this high lasts all day until I see my babies this...
    Daisy06 Daisy06
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2015

    I feel so ******* angry a lot lately

    and I don't know why. When I was gone all I could think about was my family and now that I've been home a while they've been irritating the **** outta me. Like my son he's 3 and he'll just stand there and stare at you and when I ask him what's up he just stands there! I get so...
    BjKhann BjKhann
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 6, 2016

    I have managed to set myself up

    for the ultimate ptsd events. only you guys will understand. when a small thing is a trigger but you keep trying to fix it hoping that will resolve the flashbacks, the panic, the pain. my meds aren't helping. I haven't slept in days. I can't eat. I am trying to be positive but...
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    1 Response Apr 19, 2016

    I have PTSD, Schizophrenia,

    Autism, Depression, and ADHD. I was diagnosed with Autism when I was nine years old. I was diagnosed with depression and schizophrenia shortly after my mom passed away. I walked in on my mom having a heart attack. I called the ambulance, and told them my mom was having a heart...
    asianspice24 asianspice24
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2016

    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Aug 29, 2007

    and I recently went through something quite

    difficult. I ended up having to leave my job, house and even my city, consequently losing the support of all the friends and family I had there. I got to come home, to where I was born, but I feel a bit like a failure. I left with such big dreams, and Ive come back shattered. I...
    AnxiouslyAwaited AnxiouslyAwaited
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 12, 2016

    As odd as it sounds, hunger pains are one of my

    triggers. Which is why I'm always eating (that and I'm always hungry). Except the other night, I was so tired I just went to bed without eating anything, and I woke up hungry. That little pain in my stomach triggered a full-blown hallucination, and in seconds, I could've sworn I...
    2byoung 2byoung
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016

    'Contact, IED, wait out' the words i convinced

    myself id never hear, but now i cant forget them. Its been 3 years, but i still see it everyday. The guy i grew up, went to school with, went through everything in my life with, just lying there. I never thought id want to here another one of his awful jokes again, but now id...
    Ashley318 Ashley318
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
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    3 Responses Feb 17, 2014

    I have been recently found out

    that I have PTSD and I get in these moods where I just hate everyone and I have so much anger all the time. like I just wanna go and fight someone. but when I get in these moods I get angry with myself and just wanna end it.
    tcupp72 tcupp72
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2016

    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2013

    It's actually quite bothersome.

    I've been on medication for the past to treat it, but clearly my body adapted to it and they said, "good luck". For the most part I'm able to calm myself down if I have an episode, but there are still things I associate with my experiences, which is partially why I rarely leave...
    NinaPants97 NinaPants97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2016

    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09
    18-21, F
    58 Responses Feb 14, 2010

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    Hello. I wanted to use this app

    as an outlet but it seems kinda late now. But anyway, I have ptsd. From all kinds of abuse starting from when I was four. I'm still getting over it and made some progress. But not a lot. I guess that's okay for now. Just as a start
    Blurryface5936 Blurryface5936
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2016

    I suffer from PTSD and am currently owner

    training a service Dog to help me with it. while its a help to thouse who have served us the programs who help people with dogs will only help if your a vetrian war is not the only reson for PTSD and im as much a survivor as an vetrain. I have delt with demestic abuse rape and...
    Lokisvixen Lokisvixen
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2016

    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
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    3 Responses Sep 23, 2014

    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Dec 19, 2010
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14, 2016
    curvycat curvycat
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Mar 20, 2016

    Lately, I have been forced

    yet again to ride PTSDs roller coaster ride of craziness. The past how many days truly tested my smile. It didn't steal it however. I started having pain in my nips which is a sign that PTSD is about to activate yet again since one of the men who attacked me ripped my nips...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2016

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
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    2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 3, 2016
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    Apr 12, 2016

    I have moments where I just want to curl into a

    ball and cry until I fall asleep.
    Flowerchild666 Flowerchild666
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 14, 2016

    I was diagnosed with PTSD,

    after experiencing several traumatic events as a child. From watching my mother cut her face apart with a knife while high on heroin to watching her be raped when I was a young teenager. I developed bleeding stomach ulcers by the time I was 10 because of all the verbal abuse and...
    PrettiestPirate PrettiestPirate
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    just a helpful place

    for those coping with ptsd http://www.outofthestorm.website/
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    2 Responses Apr 17, 2016
    BadMomKira BadMomKira
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2016

    Some days suck, when I look at my beautiful

    kids, and see how innocent and funny they are and remember all the **** my parents did to me at their age. I look at them, and can't imagine hurting them, so it makes me wonder why my parents did. You have got to be a really ****** parents to treat kids with such disrespect and...
    FosterCareSurvivor2007 FosterCareSurvivor2007
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2015

    To everyone on here, you are

    so strong! Don't discredit yourself, you made it this far and even if you feel like you're not in control then stop and just breathe. Take a minute and shut out all the bothersome thoughts. Also, I know that some ppl have had horrible experiences, but just know that not everyone...
    hannahB3223 hannahB3223
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2016

    I have PTSD. I grew up in a cult.

    My home was chaotic. I grew up in a culture of abuse. I finally escaped. I moved across the country. Then the recession hit. I've struggled to keep a roof over my head for the past 4 years. 2 months ago, my medications got messed up. I ran out of my antidepressant and...
    snowflake79 snowflake79
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    I thought I was getting better.

    I thought I could feel "normal" again. Every time I think I'm going to be okay, then all of sudden the memories and the pain come back. I hate this I just sat on the kitchen floor for an hour(maybe longer)crying my eyes out. I hate living like this.
    Casey2736 Casey2736
    16-17, T
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    Anyone here had trouble driving due to panic?

    Any tips for getting back behind the wheel? I really want to drive again but so far I haven't gotten up the courage. I was a passenger in a car today and my mind went right back to hearing glass shattering and my buddies screaming. I needed the ride but I feel so beat down after...
    AdventureJunkie89 AdventureJunkie89
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    You know it never seems to end

    or go away . Last week I thought I needed to be hospitalized because I was so afraid of the memories, then I just pushed them back down and away. Today I am suffering with the memories of my mother beating me nearly every night at age 10 11 and 12 and then in the morning it was...
    Audg911 Audg911
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    If you have PTSD,it's

    so hard to hang out with people who doesn't understand it.they are not bad people,they just can't understand.how do we cope with this?
    babyblueeee babyblueeee
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jan 21, 2016

    Someone who has experienced trauma also has

    gifts to offer all of us - in their depth, their knowledge of our universal vulnerability, and their experience of the power of compassion. Sharon Salzberg
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    Mar 22, 2016

    Trauma creates one of four types of people:

    victims, rescuers, or perps - and if you're really lucky and really strong and very willing and brave, survivors. Allison Anders
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    4 Responses Apr 15, 2016

    When I was 13 years old,

    I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite family member. It was January 24, 2011, and I was up at the farm for Christmas; the cousins were supposed to be coming up from...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    does anyone else have problems with memory loss?

    not only do i not remember what trauma occurred, besides nightmares & when i disassociate.. when i get emotional provoked negatively i loose sometimes hours of my life.
    LMariex3 LMariex3
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Oct 10, 2015

    I don't need to manufacture trauma in my life

    to be creative. I have a big enough reservoir of sadness or emotional trauma to last me. sting
    deleted deleted
    Mar 14, 2016

    For those looking for other resources on your

    journey to healing I recommend www.outofthestorm.website for those with cptsd. Also the books The Tao of Fully Feeling and Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker. And the day came when the risk to remain closed tightly in a bid became more painful than the...
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    1 Response Apr 12, 2016
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    3 Responses Oct 9, 2015

    Trying to stay positive

    even when it's hard. Everyday is a new day. I try to remember to "Except the calm" when I'm in a safe place. Know is no one trying to hurt me. I am okay. I am safe. I have hope that we can all eventually get there.
    radicalrhino radicalrhino
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Mar 9, 2015

    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad
    22-25, M
    7 Responses May 16, 2009

    after getting back from Iraq,

    we returned to Germany..my friend Chris went back to Indiana for a week to try to catch the birth of his child..his GF gave birth after about a week after he got back to Germany..it was a Tuesday night, we were drinking watching movies, Chris drank a bottle of Jim Beam and...
    Audi5000 Audi5000
    41-45, M
    Apr 5, 2016

    I was told I have PTSD around August 2014,

    along with depression and anxiety... The doctor/counselor actually told me it's a pretty severe case of all 3. It stems from my childhood, along with me being a firefighter. I guess you can still say I don't believe this is true. A part of me does... but the other part is...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 30, 2015
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