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I Have Ptsd

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    last night was a bad night

    for me - stressors abounded and my normal relief sequence was out of whack - the methods i've developed to deal with it were unavailable, and this session has continued to plague me deep into today. nothing to be done about it, except try to cope for now...
    darksyd darksyd 46-50, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Before I was placed in foster care I was abused

    and molested now I walk the path of darkness from all the trauma I was forced to endure
    Sarahsworldofpain Sarahsworldofpain 18-21, F Mar 16

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    RavenHearts RavenHearts 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Victims of a sudden impact are some of the

    hardest to treat. It's not just the collision that injures them. It's everything after. The centrifugal force keeps them moving, tossing them from vehicles, throwing them through windshields, slamming their internal organs into the skeleton. Their bodies are injured over and...
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    Battle Scars

    I have PTSD. It doesn't control me anymore. It may wake me up rudely at night several times a week. But not as severely as once before. I have had some horrific experiences. Seen unspeakable things. But for the most part it has made me stronger. When I first came home I was an...
    Ssgsmith77 Ssgsmith77 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    I have PTSD from a very horrible abusive mother.

    She broke me in every single way and then left me to try and find all the pieces. My anxiety gets so bad I feel like a fish out of water struggling to breath, trying to find some air to take in. My chest feels like I have this constant pressure, this pain that just never goes...
    MyDarkPassenger5 MyDarkPassenger5 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Up until a year ago I had no idea

    that I had a problem. I assumed things I felt was just how I was. After a few suicide attempts and finally getting help, I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and PTSD. In my childhood I was around alot of domestic violence. My dad was an alcoholic and attempted to shoot my mom...
    dccoh dccoh 36-40, M Apr 4

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    I had a panic attack.

    I used to have several but they had reduced over the years..  So I'm not sure what triggered this most recent one.. save for the incident. It was about 3am.. my roomies called me to go pick them up from the mall. I drove there and parked front of the main entrance where they...
    amankhalila amankhalila 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    So I'm not very comfortable talking about this

    at all. I haven't really had an "attack" with this in a while. I've actually forgotten it was there until today. I've been struggling with the fact that I am gay for about a month now but today I realized something different. I don't like to be touched or told that I'm loved and...
    baebaeboo baebaeboo 16-17, F Jan 26

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    The Great Pretender

    I have PTSD, but I didn't know that until I was past 50. I am almost 60 now, and I spent most of my life wondering what was wrong with me. I figure that I have been dealing with this illness since the age of 4 1/2 when I first started school. I was suffering from stress on the...
    thebluebohemian thebluebohemian 56-60 4 Responses Jul 10, 2010

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    Where I Am At

    I was diagnosed with Complex RR-PTSD after an abusive relationship involving sexual abuse. I still have flashbacks, panic attacks, paranoia, insomina..  bla bla bla, but its alot better these days. I try and eat regularly ( i no longer eat meals ) and i exersize often. A...
    ShayChrysalis ShayChrysalis 19-21, F 4 Responses Oct 22, 2007

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    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Does She Realize?

    My wife triggered the hell out of me this morning...I made an innocent mistake, but one that was kind of important.  She stood over me and shouted at me.Admittedly, only three sentences, but she knows I've become ultra-triggery.And then I told her she'd scared the hell out of me...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    After My Divorce

    After my husband divorced me,back in 2005, I couldn't watch TV shows or movies that had to do with marriage, divorces, couples fighting, or even weddings. I still look away when I see people kissing on TV.. though I feel sad when I see couples walking hand in hand out in public...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 4 Responses Jun 26, 2012

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    I was stabbed when I was sixteen in my abdomen

    and by my heart by a guy trying to earn his stripes in the gang world, a world I was part of, but never liked guns and knives . I had already been jumped a few times by then. I guess my ptsd could have already been there a little but after I was stabbed I went crazy. I thought...
    kjd4 kjd4 26-30 2 Responses Feb 27

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    Mine comes from emotional

    and physical torture I suffered at a boarding school for "at risk" kids that my parents sent me to when I was a teenager. The worst thing, and the thing I just cannot seem to shake, is that it's very difficult for me to be around other people. I'm not as bad as I used to be...
    IronOrchid IronOrchid 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    Static

    Static, Part 1 of 3 If you  can afford irony, you’re doing alright.     Its not that the stretching hours between the two times didn’t matter. It happened, the collective events are part of the soul. It matters. Even calling...
    troutlily troutlily 61-65, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    last april i was asked to clean up a crime

    scene by a employer didnt think much of a guy went out a fourth story window in northern ont. felt some water dripping on my head went to wipe it off it was human blood had it all over my face my clothes i've never been so horrified in my life. a man not much older then me went...
    foxtrottango foxtrottango 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 30

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    Haunting my sleep, Not

    even one night of peace. Frantically searching, piles of debris. Steel twisted, girders bent, concrete rubble, houses mangled, hours spent. Searching, seeking, where are you hiding? Twisted cars, iron bars, can't escape these mental scars. Searching, seeking, never finding...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 12

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    This is my story. Would mean the world

    if you would read it. I'm trying to get awareness about depression and my experiences. https://www.facebook.com/Jennifersally/posts/10153911739105553 If you could like and share my status on Facebook would mean a lot as I am trying to bring attention to depression and help...
    Chinoi6 Chinoi6 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    When I was young I was in a long line of traffic

    when this car blew up right in front of my I was around 5-6 years old just barely starting life and something like this happens imagine how much that scars a kid especially also seeing the people in that car splatter to nothing the little child in the back, the parents that were...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    A Soldiers Duty Forever

    Hello everyone. I am a medically discharged Army soldier. I have been out for just over 2 years now. I've been back from my tour in Iraq for 5 years. I was injured while over there. My vehicle called a Stryker was hit 6 times by roadside bombs, 2 times by rpg's, a car bomb, ...
    sexyxsoldier sexyxsoldier 26-30, M 5 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 49 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    When I was 6 years old my stepdad

    and my mom were having really bad relationship problems and they decided to get a divorce.. So one night he decided to come to out house (drunk) and he beat my mom with a baseball bat. I was sleeping in the room with her and I woke up to him hitting her with the bat, ALOT of it...
    meaghan334 meaghan334 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 29

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    I have mild PTSD. I show a lot of the symptoms

    but not too intensely. But sometimes, something happens, it's like a switch gets flipped and I panic. I'm overcome by anxiety and fear. I can't have anyone behind me, I need to everyone in the room so no one sneaks up on me. If someone touches me, I flail at them ready to...
    missalkali missalkali 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    What Is Really Like

    I've already shared some stories here. But today I want to mention something else. I want to share what is really like having PTSD. Every day I see people who with determination and strong-will make their dreams possible. I also have dreams. But most of them have to remain...
    julie295 julie295 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    amankhalila amankhalila 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Well This Sucks.

    I mean.... the second I believe I'm happy I seem to get to relaxed and then triggered.... Then I go into superstition mode and carry around a rabbits foot etc...  say prayers before I get in my car... write prayers on my body when i go places  When will it end? I'm so tired...
    1ItalianLady 1ItalianLady 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    With my ptsd i don't feel like i am living at

    most I am surving, when i see people i always see my self as inferior. lately I have come to the realization of who can ever love me if I dont love me. when i look in the mirror i don't see a decorated veteran i see a scared little boy trying to hide from his problems and use...
    damagedsoldier damagedsoldier 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    My PTSD is related to having tried to raise a

    child that was just pure evil. My wife's son was 3 when we were married. His father was a druggie that died before he was born. The short version of this is that the kid grew up to be referred to as a sociopath by the head of a psychiatric hospital. I was used, physically...
    ImBatmanNow ImBatmanNow 51-55, M Feb 7

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    People don't understand how PTSD really affects

    a person intill they them selfs have gone through it. Gone through the constant looking over your shoulder trying to make sure you know where everyone is. Constantly having your guard up just waiting for someone to throw a punch. The flashbacks that send you back to the worst...
    MyDarkPassenger5 MyDarkPassenger5 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    PTSD the Hidden Scars

    I am a Nam Vet with PTSD not all of which is military derived. I attend A PTSD Group and have seen with dismay the younger members coming in. Now I have a 16 yr old who want to be "Rambo" not really just has a Military drive and I am so against it, but dont...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M 16 Responses Feb 2, 2008

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Ever since that day my life has changed

    and I just want to be free from it.
    ithzelhernandez ithzelhernandez 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    I've gotten this diagnosis a few weeks back.

    Of course I saw it coming, but to hear your therapist say it out loud is a whole other story. I have gone through a lot of emotional abuse when I was little and my father abandoned me when I was 7. Since then a lot of awful things have been happening that I have to deal with...
    Quibbler Quibbler 18-21, F Mar 10

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 23

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Ptsd Is Killing My Marriage....help?

    I'm a former USMC infantry machine gunner, who served in Iraq for two tours. My first deployment was hell, and I lost quite a few good buddies, one in front of my eyes. Due to our command telling us we were to suck it up and not go get help (for fear of losing people to medical...
    ajmilberg ajmilberg 26-30, M 4 Responses May 4, 2012

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    Strange Reactions

    I will forever have unusual pauses and reactions to things that may trigger. The most I can do is make those pauses end quicker or happen less frequently. As much as I try to prepare for triggers, do the usual coping routines, and keep myself open...there are just certain...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki 31-35 2 Responses Jan 14, 2009

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    I struggle every day with my PTSD.

    I was abused as a child and even though I'm a young adult it still lingers. I was also bullied a lot and I had a very traumatic time in highschool, I was ready to commit suicide. I find it hard to sleep, I have bad tinnitus and I often starve myself, but I don't want to go to a...
    TrailerDoll TrailerDoll 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    Access To Euthansia.

    I was answering a question regarding access to Euthanasia, thought it was a little too long so made it a story.Firstly got to say I'm really sorry to everyone if I get my words a little mixed up whilst writing my answer to this question. It is a question that stirs so many...
    Kurlysue Kurlysue 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I Was Attacked Again

    It's been a while since I was physically attacked but it happened again last night. Let me start by saying I was once hit by a car and this causes me a lot of fear when I cross the street and cars play race the pedestrian. So last night I was crossing the street shortly after...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 5 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Tonight at work the place I'm working felt they

    needed to use a bird cannon to scare away the birds trying to mate and build nests around the plant. It's a bit rough and I'm having flashbacks of rocket and mortar attacks when I was in Iraq in 2004. I jump every time the damn thing goes off. Which is every 45-60 seconds
    skeeter0079 skeeter0079 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 22-25, F 9 Responses Feb 17

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    I was a United States Marine

    and served in Iraq. I had a suicide bomber detonate within 20 feet of me. Luckily I was in a turret and only got hit with rocks and dirt. It has been 6 years and I still am haunted by this daily. My emotions go from none to extremely angry in seconds. I have 2 psych doctors...
    serafeimsc serafeimsc 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I just recently found out I have PTSD.

    I've always had little triggers and reactions due to many years of abuse. I never realized just how much these things effected me. The constantly looking over my shoulder, jumping at the slightest fast movements or loud noise, being in a group of people and it's like I'm just...
    MyDarkPassenger5 MyDarkPassenger5 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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