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I Have Ptsd

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    I am/will be doing group

    and individual therapy throughout the course of a year at the hospital.
    octopieyes octopieyes 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    what do you do to calm your ptsd?

    I lately because of stress have been going back words with my progress:/ I have been working out and walking. I still have flash backs or think about what happened. :/
    zoeyB zoeyB 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 10

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I hate how I feel. I feel like I'm an idiot

    because everyone says the something. telling me I'm not the only one with problems and pretty much I'm so use to going back to the past when I know I shouldn't. it's extremely annoying and I want it to stop. my past keeps coming back to me and it sucks.
    easterbaby88 easterbaby88 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 12

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    last night i woke up screaming again from night

    terrors. i was molasted as a child, raped ad a teen, and had an abusive bf who broke my bones. im so scared to sleep sometimes i stay up till i finially pass out. the memories come back so vivid in my dreams. i wont leave the house alone ever cuz strangers scare me. i see the...
    cooper3366 cooper3366 31-35, F Apr 4

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    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 5

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    Right this is the first time I've used this

    and gunna just get this out there that I have PTSD, damn that feels good to even get that out on paper 😊, Basically I was stabbed 3 times by a gang who thought I was someone who stole their weed, now 3 years later and hundreds of stitches later I still wake up in panic and...
    thomasxoxo thomasxoxo 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    So I have this problem where

    whenever I have one bad experience associated with a certain object or place or even person, my natural instinct tells me to avoid those things altogether. A lot of them aren't even that bad. For example, when I was 4 years old, I was at the airport going to fly to Nashville...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 3

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I have PTSD, but not from war

    or rape like most people. I got mine from a car accident i caused. It was so traumatic to me. I totaled my car and it everyone saw. Every time I drive, I start to cry. I can hear, smell, and see these that aren't there. Sitting in the passenger seat gives me panic attacks. I...
    Fegelein97 Fegelein97 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 9

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    So what did attempting suicide get me last

    night? Nowhere... My parents don't understand one bit that goes through my head every single day, they are pissed off at me and kicked me out of the house.. Idk why I even keep trying to do it, it never works for me... I tried killing myself 3 times in my life.. once with a...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893 18-21, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    So, I have a question,

    for all of you people out there that are informed on the matter or have a history of sexual abuse. Is it normal to think something is happening that isn't? I hugged my mom's fiancé because he got home from a funeral yesterday, and he's a drunk, and I could have sworn he kissed...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I thought i had social anxiety cause i won't go

    outside and see my friends. I've isolated myself from everyone i once knew except my own parents. But yet, i can still talk to people just fine. i'm just scared of their impression of me, of how they would see me now with all my issues. Now i understand that i have PTSD. all of...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    I was just officially diagnosed in December

    2014. I've talked about past traumas with my therapists before, but never got a formal dx. I have the flashbacks, nightmares and major anxiety triggered by things that remind me of the various events. Now they want me to consider EMDR therapy or check in to some sort of trauma...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    4 combat tours to iraq an Afghanistan later.

    .. here I am depressed, anxious, scared fearfull tired of insomnia haunted by dreams, shattered by nitemares .where do I go from here when it should have been me not him that died??
    rustyusasurfco rustyusasurfco 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 57 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    notyourfuckdoll notyourfuckdoll 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    I was in an accident a few months back

    and it didnt really affect me until recently. I basically have 10 sec nightmares on constant replay. Im driving, car out of nowhere and the impact. i wake up a split second get my breathing under control and try to sleep. it happens on a loop luckily not every day of the week...
    Lestat93 Lestat93 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I was in savannah Ga.

    ... Staying at a motel... I went to the office just as a black guy was shot through the head and fell through a plate glass window and lay in a puddle of blood
    6deviant9 6deviant9 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 26

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    my question is can you love someone

    that has ptsd and can they love you back
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Apr 9

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I have PTSD as a result of abuse.

    I have been able to survive most of the effects of it. Here's how shows I watch, if it has something in the show that makes me want to close my eyes or run to the other room, my example: Law and Order special victims, I spit on your grave, burning beds. These types I don't...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I realize that this may make me seem like a nerd

    or something, but I suffer from PTSD from when I was raped at 8 years old. Most people think you can only get it from being in a war or something, but thats not the case. I just wanted to put that out there...
    fragilesoul813 fragilesoul813 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    This woman was making these moaning sounds

    because of the cold. I almost went berserk. Like stfu. The noises were like knives in my ears. And I just got so ANGRY and couldn't really see anything. I was thrown back in the past. I would've done anything to make that noise stop.
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 11

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    my fiancee has ptsd and it made her a blunt

    person and I don't think she's into other people's feelings but she's a beautiful person u just wish she wasn't so hard on me and she would let her shield down
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    PTSD, its a pure *****.

    Its something that follows me every single day and its not something that I can just wish away, because believe me, I would do it in a heartbeat. I suffer from the worst kind of flashbacks that I know of. It hurts so much, its something that I am going to have to live with...
    HisLittleLady HisLittleLady 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Ever since I was sexually assaulted by two

    former classmates of mine, my life has never been the same. My family disowned me because my mom's side of the family thought it was my fault and my dad's side didn't believe that I let two black people take advantage of me. They acted like my five foot self could take on two...
    AttachmentIssues AttachmentIssues 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    Part three Necrophilia I eventually realised

    that I was just a delusional idiot who waisted their time ,money and passion on men who did not think of me more than a piece of trash ..I started looking at my reflection at the dark mirror and every time I had seen a worn out woman dark skinned woman who had got worn out...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I was told I have PTSD around August 2014,

    along with depression and anxiety... The doctor/counselor actually told me it's a pretty severe case of all 3. It stems from my childhood, along with me being a firefighter. I guess you can still say I don't believe this is true. A part of me does... but the other part is...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 30

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2014

    because of the gang rape I went through and I get flash back of it when I sleep every now and then it was horrible to go through and the flash backs make me think it's the same night like I'm back there going through it again.
    kmccrady12653 kmccrady12653 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD in November 2014.

    I believe I have had this condition since I was a child. I have had many different experiences which have led me to where I am today starting with passive aggressive parents, they emotionally abused me a lot. and there were times when they hit me as well. when I was fifteen I...
    malifrgr malifrgr 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I hate PTSD I'm having a ******* meltdown over

    an empty pack of cigarettes :(
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F Apr 7

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    Post onset, complex PTSD to be exact.

    It comes from when I was a kid. I was adopted by my grandparents whom were pretty much every type of abusive as it gets. I'm pretty much a mentally screwed individual from it truth be told. I have amnesia from whatever the events that caused it along with 90% of my childhood...
    mentalbrix mentalbrix 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208 26-30, F 8 Responses Mar 9

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    I tried all kinds of treatments

    for PTSD... I would isolate myself from people in order to avoid being triggered, sought out counseling numerous times which could only help so much until I discovered EMDR. It took 2 years and I made so much progress... then I needed a break, but went back again after a couple...
    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD last year

    after a nervous breakdown. I was abused as a child it really messed me up but some reason something happened to me last year and i reached a breaking point. I started having nightmares and flashbacks even during the day. Even when i looked at my kids. I go back in time. Or...
    notmymothersdaughter notmymothersdaughter 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    i want to talk to people

    who is fighting with trouma of sexually abuse. is there anyone.. i used to had good EP friends... but they left EP...sadly.so sad..
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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