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I Have Ptsd

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 9, 2015

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    ...... It really is a nightmare,

    I wish ppl could understand
    Lld84 Lld84 31-35, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Abuse by my mother is my first memory.

    Husband #1 gave me 2 babies (all grown now) then gave me the boot when I had gained weight. He was an only child and a narcissist. That took 12 years from my life and kicked me down a bit more. Husband #2 came 6 years later and the abuse went on again for 14 years. Husband #3...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    I have PTSD off multiple various events

    and perpetrators over a long period of years. For years I boxed everything up. Managed to do a fair to poor job at it. 30 years ago I worked at a place the aggravated the events of the prior ten years on an almost daily basis. This brought about my first breakdown that left...
    joanfoster joanfoster 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Some days suck, when I look at my beautiful

    kids, and see how innocent and funny they are and remember all the **** my parents did to me at their age. I look at them, and can't imagine hurting them, so it makes me wonder why my parents did. You have got to be a really ****** parents to treat kids with such disrespect and...
    FosterCareSurvivor2007 FosterCareSurvivor2007 22-25, F 3 Responses May 26, 2015

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    That's it; I'm fed up with doctors.

    My last "doctor" was really just a nurse practitioner. She called in sick on the day of my appointment with her, and I found out that the company she works for won't allow me to reschedule with another doctor in the same group because I was "her" patient. So I go and find...
    TheGreanBean TheGreanBean 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    I decided it is NOT going to control me.

    Yes it does affect my life, but it will control me.
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 18-21, F Jan 12

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 9, 2015

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    Tips for nausea and not being able to eat

    anyone? :) I don't need motivation, I'm not depressed, I just need sustenance and nothing is working. It's been a few weeks and I haven't eaten much. I smoke good weed. I get regular exercise. Spirits are great. When I try to eat I usually am sick. Losing weight. Just looking...
    SilverFox420 SilverFox420 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    I feel guilty because my PTSD is not related to

    military service. Mine is a long childhood of abuse. Anyone else have guilt when they discuss their PTSD?
    SSKyleRedd SSKyleRedd 46-50, M 15 Responses Jan 21

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    'Contact, IED, wait out' the words i convinced

    myself id never hear, but now i cant forget them. Its been 3 years, but i still see it everyday. The guy i grew up, went to school with, went through everything in my life with, just lying there. I never thought id want to here another one of his awful jokes again, but now id...
    Ashley318 Ashley318 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 20, 2015

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    I can't stand my life

    but its a good life at my job . its when I am home or not working the depression floods in and the rapid thoughts . I can't think because my head is so full of things racing in my brain already . I can't cope with this crap everyday but yet everyday comes and I get through it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 5

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    DeadlyArsenic DeadlyArsenic 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I was sexually assaulted several months ago,

    does it ever get easier? 😔
    danielle945 danielle945 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 28

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    I am a child hood sexual abuse survivor

    and I've been sexually assaulted twice since turning 16. Pushing through the PTSD that came with these experiences is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Battling your own mind is hard work.
    RowmanTriad RowmanTriad 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I'm 16 years old and I have been diagnosed with

    Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I feel like I shouldn't even talk about it because I haven't been in combat or went too war like many people who suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder have. People don't get that you can get Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from things other...
    Vulcanan Vulcanan 22-25, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    It's really scary to post about this stuff,

    but I am trying to confront my issues! I'm terrified of becoming ill. Whenever I get sick or injured, my anxiety goes into overdrive. I grew up in a religion that often preached that illness was the result of sin. If you got sick, it was because you had sin in your life...
    snowflake79 snowflake79 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    So... the insomnia has awakened.

    (no pun intended) I've always known what insomnia was, and I've wondered if I've had it from time to time in my teen and college years because my sleep patterns were so disorganized, but I now have a clear understanding of what insomnia is. It's not when you stay up too late so...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    When I was 13 years old,

    I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite family member. It was January 24, 2011, and I was up at the farm for Christmas; the cousins were supposed to be coming up from...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2015

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD,

    after experiencing several traumatic events as a child. From watching my mother cut her face apart with a knife while high on heroin to watching her be raped when I was a young teenager. I developed bleeding stomach ulcers by the time I was 10 because of all the verbal abuse and...
    PrettiestPirate PrettiestPirate 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2015

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    If you have PTSD,it's

    so hard to hang out with people who doesn't understand it.they are not bad people,they just can't understand.how do we cope with this?
    babyblueeee babyblueeee 31-35, F 8 Responses Jan 21

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    So I have this problem where

    whenever I have one bad experience associated with a certain object or place or even person, my natural instinct tells me to avoid those things altogether. A lot of them aren't even that bad. For example, when I was 4 years old, I was at the airport going to fly to Nashville...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 3, 2015

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    Coyote6052 Coyote6052 61-65, M 4 Responses Jan 23

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    A lot of people think

    that only soldiers and war veterans can have PTSD. Because that's one of the only things it's ever associated with. I was diagnosed with mild PTSD, nothing extremely severe but bad enough I have to be treated for it and am seeing a therapist for that, as well as depression. I...
    EssScissorHands EssScissorHands 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    when you haven't slept

    and just want to sleep but every time you close your eyes, it feels wrong.
    SilverFox420 SilverFox420 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    I was told I have PTSD around August 2014,

    along with depression and anxiety... The doctor/counselor actually told me it's a pretty severe case of all 3. It stems from my childhood, along with me being a firefighter. I guess you can still say I don't believe this is true. A part of me does... but the other part is...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 30, 2015

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    Going inpatient today

    and waiting on the intake to begin is starting to make me panic a little
    damagedwings damagedwings 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 5

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 58 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    Days are hard. Trying to put up with negative

    comments from family, friends, and your own mind. At times it feels like my mind is fighting against my own self. I don't have much confidence and I don't have the strength I should have. Recently I have tried to embrace my loneliness and longing for love by doing nothing...
    SubaruDoo44 SubaruDoo44 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    I'm 45 & bad memories still haunt me from

    decades ago. My mind will just not get past it.
    cathyann237 cathyann237 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 7

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    When I was six I went to the dentist

    for the first time. When they call me up to go back they had a dentist guide me to the room. When I got there they sat me down on the chair then strap me down from shoulders to ankles. They pulled teeth that were not even loose or put caps on healthy teeth. The worse is the...
    zeroLawl zeroLawl 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been living with severe PTSD

    for 18 months, and I am more than happy to talk to/help anyone who is suffering and needs it! xxx
    rosiee98 rosiee98 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 5, 2015

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    Right this is the first time I've used this

    and gunna just get this out there that I have PTSD, damn that feels good to even get that out on paper 😊, Basically I was stabbed 3 times by a gang who thought I was someone who stole their weed, now 3 years later and hundreds of stitches later I still wake up in panic and...
    thomasxoxo thomasxoxo 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 6, 2015

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    You know it never seems to end

    or go away . Last week I thought I needed to be hospitalized because I was so afraid of the memories, then I just pushed them back down and away. Today I am suffering with the memories of my mother beating me nearly every night at age 10 11 and 12 and then in the morning it was...
    Audg911 Audg911 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 26, 2015

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    For whatever the reasons,

    i have a question to all who have ptsd. If you can't go out and meet people enough for PTSD,but you need to active more. What is solution?? I'm going to join to discussion group next month. I am part time worker for PTSD. I have lots of free time and feeling like waste of my...
    babyblueeee babyblueeee 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    He tells me he will call

    and doesn't? I try to text I tried to call I tried to email he doesn't answer then eventually he'll answer me and tell me when he's on call and he does. That happened yesterday evening he was supposed to be going to Alabama , worried me to death I contacted his family in...
    WVgirldiane WVgirldiane 56-60, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    Today in the lunch room a coworker was telling

    me that she is having anxiety lately. Another coworker that I have known for years told her about her own problems with anxiety and told her I know something about it too. Without thinking I told her I take an alpha-blocker for my anxiety. Then I told her I have PTSD like it...
    strawberyblond strawberyblond 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I was recently diagnosis with ptsd.

    I have started taking an alpha blocker but it will take a few weeks increase the dose to a therapeutic level. It is suppose to help me to sleep better. I hope it works. There are times that some images would come back so strong that I wanted to literally scream. The face...
    strawberyblond strawberyblond 70+, F 7 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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