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    I have PTSD and some days it can be quite a

    struggle, but I work really hard to control my reactions.
    SteloCasisto SteloCasisto 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    It brought back so much.

    Just dialing those numbers again. Calling my mom again, seeing her run from her car to the house upset. Seeing her torn about it, upset because it was bringing memories back for her too. Everything just flooded back, I thought it was over.
    emeikle emeikle 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    elisa3980 elisa3980 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    Fall semester 2014, I met a freshman at the

    start-of-year barbecue hosted by my department. He was standing next to one of my friends and, like most out-of-state kids, didn't know anyone. I remember what it was like last year when I was a freshman myself. I wanted to meet new people and not feel so awkward and adjust...
    chastitygrove chastitygrove 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Access To Euthansia.

    I was answering a question regarding access to Euthanasia, thought it was a little too long so made it a story.Firstly got to say I'm really sorry to everyone if I get my words a little mixed up whilst writing my answer to this question. It is a question that stirs so many...
    Kurlysue Kurlysue 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2012

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    i was adopted when I was 5

    and molested for twelve years by my adopted father after two additions and put back in foster care...I was diagnosed with PTSD ...I'm 24 now and I recently started having serious flashbacks and bad dreams... idk what to do... is like I just realized what was happening to me and...
    swishy0914 swishy0914 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 5

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    ok i dont want to go to sleep cause i get its

    like a strob light of memories.
    elisa3980 elisa3980 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    I have PTSD as a result of abuse.

    I have been able to survive most of the effects of it. Here's how shows I watch, if it has something in the show that makes me want to close my eyes or run to the other room, my example: Law and Order special victims, I spit on your grave, burning beds. These types I don't...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Ok I am looking for people online right

    now who have PTSD. I have never spoke to my doctor about this but I just now jumped up out of sleep scared out of my mind and my heart is racing. At first im a bit disoriented I need to get my thoughts together. This happens once in a while though not an every day thing. Besides...
    sailorwinters sailorwinters 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    Static

    Static, Part 1 of 3 If you  can afford irony, you’re doing alright.     Its not that the stretching hours between the two times didn’t matter. It happened, the collective events are part of the soul. It matters. Even calling...
    troutlily troutlily 61-65, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    sky169 sky169 51-55, F Feb 19

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    I Was Attacked Again

    It's been a while since I was physically attacked but it happened again last night. Let me start by saying I was once hit by a car and this causes me a lot of fear when I cross the street and cars play race the pedestrian. So last night I was crossing the street shortly after...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 5 Responses May 4, 2013

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    well i made it through the night again.

    its 230pm im just waking up. my world is upside down. i need to get some help. i thought only soliders got pstd. i wish i didnt have to testify. its 2 days since the grand jury indictment and i still feel paralized
    elisa3980 elisa3980 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 16

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    Yes I do and I deal with it every single day.

    ....somedays are better than others.....somedays are easy and somedays are hard.....the problem comes in when I go away and I am in a place where there is no one around for miles....not a single soul to speak to....no connection with the outside world....no internet or cellphone...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I have very bad PTSD,

    possibly C-PTSD. I also have been diagnosed with MDD (major depressive disorder), ADHD, personality disorder NOS, anorexia nervosa, and undiagnosed dissociative issues. I've received these diagnoses between the ages of 9-22. But I don't put too much stock into labels so much. I...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 57 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I am/will be doing group

    and individual therapy throughout the course of a year at the hospital.
    octopieyes octopieyes 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    Well This Sucks.

    I mean.... the second I believe I'm happy I seem to get to relaxed and then triggered.... Then I go into superstition mode and carry around a rabbits foot etc...  say prayers before I get in my car... write prayers on my body when i go places  When will it end? I'm so tired...
    1ItalianLady 1ItalianLady 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    well i started kickboxing again yesterday.

    im starting to feel better since the attack. i was pretty down there for a few months. hopefully my son will stay shining.
    elisa3980 elisa3980 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    This woman was making these moaning sounds

    because of the cold. I almost went berserk. Like stfu. The noises were like knives in my ears. And I just got so ANGRY and couldn't really see anything. I was thrown back in the past. I would've done anything to make that noise stop.
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 11

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    In the marine corps infantry did three tours in

    Iraq and had many traumatic events that would later give me PTSD
    Nrsteves013 Nrsteves013 31-35, T 7 hrs ago

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    I am in a healthy, happy marriage with a man I

    am crazy about. There is no fighting, jealousy or power play. For anyone else this would be good, but nothing extraordinary. For me that is amazing, I actually broke out of the cycle of abuse and made a better life for myself. Being able to have a normal, functioning...
    dbarr1992 dbarr1992 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I join this group not

    because am concerned about my ptsd but to offer advice and try to help as many as I can get to where am at its been a month and I feel ptsd free no sign that it was there except for the members I now converted to my strenght for years I tried medication therapy, self harm, ect...
    taniesha101 taniesha101 26-30, F Feb 17

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I've recently discovered

    that I have had PTSD since I was raped at age 2 by my mothers second husband. It affects my life so completely and intricately. It consumes me as a person. I have always felt like I don't know who I am, or how to get to know myself. It has negatively affected every relationship...
    xbarbiecakesx xbarbiecakesx 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 8

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    I hate when someone says

    that they went through a traumatic event nonchalant around people they don't even know just to get attention from people. If you really went through that event, you wouldn't brag about it like a Merritt badge. You would keep the knowledge to yourself and those close to you...
    Thingsunseen Thingsunseen 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    notyourfuckdoll notyourfuckdoll 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I have ptsd... I was norn in 1974.

    . in care from day 1. I have been having flash backs from when I was in care for 1st yr of my life.. psycologist said it isnt my mind playing tricks on me.. Its verified.. I remember wakin up in a cuboard like room.. no windows.. i had no clothes on.. there were other children...
    stormricks stormricks 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 7 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    I sometimes have moments

    where time and space doesn't exist. Meaning, something that was 5 years ago feels just like it happened yesterday. And the feelings I felt 5 years ago carry on to this day...I sometimes find myself going on Facebook and looking up people who I worked with who bullied me 5...
    Undeadly Undeadly 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    I can't breath. I haven't slept more then 8

    hours this past week. my doctor hasn't refilled my meds. I'm loosing my mind. I can't stop seeing him. I feel like hes always watching me. I'm laying in bed with my husband right now, trying to calm down and sleep. its currently 1:35am. he's been kinda sick so he makes a lot of...
    LunaMariee LunaMariee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    I had ptsd for more than a decade

    and the people around me had a clue in fact they thought everything was ok , it's either I was that good at faking or have a gifted smile now when I say I have ptsd they say are you a solider I wanted to join the army but my body didn't allow me , so no i just woke up as a teen...
    taniesha101 taniesha101 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    so I was diagnosed with ptsd

    when I was younger after being kidnapped assaulted and raped, and very close to murdered. I had a very hard time recovering from that I was 15 and although he didn't completely get away with it anyone in there right mind would consider what happened to him less then a slap on...
    sissieblue sissieblue 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    My dad told me my GI bill was a handout.

    ..guess what? I almost handed out my life to protect your freedom *******
    rebelrun7 rebelrun7 26-30, M 6 Responses Feb 2

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    I had to leave class

    because I had a flashback and I completely lost my grip of reality. When I told my teacher about it after class, he told me that I was just making it up and that I should get over myself. (I've been diagnosed with PTSD by several psychiatrists and have to take medication for it...
    unintentionalninja unintentionalninja 16-17, T 3 Responses a week ago

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    Battle Scars

    I have PTSD. It doesn't control me anymore. It may wake me up rudely at night several times a week. But not as severely as once before. I have had some horrific experiences. Seen unspeakable things. But for the most part it has made me stronger. When I first came home I was an...
    Ssgsmith77 Ssgsmith77 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    Actually, C-PTSD. Does anyone else here have

    it? The "C" stands for complex, meaning my issues don't stem from a single event (i.e. an attack, short period of war) but rather from multiple years of recurring trauma in my childhood. I grew up in a very toxic environment and most of the time from before I was 11 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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