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    Access To Euthansia.

    I was answering a question regarding access to Euthanasia, thought it was a little too long so made it a story.Firstly got to say I'm really sorry to everyone if I get my words a little mixed up whilst writing my answer to this question. It is a question that stirs so many...
    Kurlysue Kurlysue 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 19, 2012

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    I've had some traumatic things happen to me.

    I don't want to go into detail, but they cause me to have muscle spasms that can be annoying and painful. It makes me miserable at times because I find it embarrassing to do it in public.
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    notyourfuckdoll notyourfuckdoll 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    I know most people, when they have these type

    of disorders, it's never really from embarrassment but mostly from abuse or an experience of their own deaths or seeing another's death. When I say embarrassment, it's seems menial like in the sense of getting drunk and having a one night stand but I honestly think even those...
    LDll LDll 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23

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    I was molested by a 5 year old boy

    when I was 3 years old. I have constant nightmares because of it.
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 17

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    I Was Attacked Again

    It's been a while since I was physically attacked but it happened again last night. Let me start by saying I was once hit by a car and this causes me a lot of fear when I cross the street and cars play race the pedestrian. So last night I was crossing the street shortly after...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 5 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Seeing people die in a horrible manner Mann I

    never thought it'd have such an affect on me... Seeing my grandfather die also had such an affect on my psyche. I tried to be brave but now I just want to be free.... Trauma is a funny thing. It doesn't necessarily hurt when it happens. It's an unusual feeling like a wave of...
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut 26-30, M Nov 12

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    I am/will be doing group

    and individual therapy throughout the course of a year at the hospital.
    octopieyes octopieyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    ibam a combat vet and PTSD is making me go

    crazy the screams won't stop the nightmares won't stop what do I do
    sapper325 sapper325 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I have PTSD for a multitude of years.

    Today, I still have nightmares and flashbacks from these episodes of violence against me. When watching a TV program or movie and this subject of rape is brought up, I just turn off the TV. I have been raped not once but twice in my lifetime. I have been raped as a child...
    joanwilliams joanwilliams 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    My dad has been talking about sending me to a

    residential treatment center to get help for trauma/PTSD that hasn't been dealt with for the past few years. I used to live with an alcoholic mother who was abusive (emotional with physical and sexual incidents) and though I don't live with her anymore after Child Protective...
    experiences683 experiences683 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 11

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    I use to think that ptsd was only something the

    brave men and women of our military had to go thru. I've recently been diagnosed and learned otherwise. I do know that every person's experience is different and that the ptsd due to war trauma is completely different from that of say something like rape or a car accident. so...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 3

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    My friends don't get it

    when I say no they have to respect it because if they don't I will be triggered. 15 years of sexual abuse and your "no" being ignored will do that to a person. So when you grab me and try to drag me down onto a stage full of people to take pictures then yeah its going to cause a...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Dec 5

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    I have been exposed to it twice,

    once as a result of war and once thanks to cleaning up after bush fires. In the case of the latter, I used have flash backs, nightmares. Anger was by constant companion. I was pretty much over it and then I spent time just after Black Saturday 2009 dealing with the results which...
    PaulineRoberta PaulineRoberta 46-50, F Nov 29

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    I can't tell if I'm better

    or not - I have some symptoms left but are they symptoms or are they my imagination?
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Static

    Static, Part 1 of 3 If you  can afford irony, you’re doing alright.     Its not that the stretching hours between the two times didn’t matter. It happened, the collective events are part of the soul. It matters. Even calling...
    troutlily troutlily 61-65, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    I have ptsd... This is the second time I've

    actually admitted it out loud. First time was to my roommates last year... I remember one saying, "But you act so normal!"... Or do I? Maybe i've learnt to just cover it up well. I saw a psychologist for 5 straight years (from age 13 to 18)... It did help; from sleeping 2hrs...
    khayati khayati 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 7 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    I have PTSD as a result of abuse.

    I have been able to survive most of the effects of it. Here's how shows I watch, if it has something in the show that makes me want to close my eyes or run to the other room, my example: Law and Order special victims, I spit on your grave, burning beds. These types I don't...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 12

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 2

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    Well This Sucks.

    I mean.... the second I believe I'm happy I seem to get to relaxed and then triggered.... Then I go into superstition mode and carry around a rabbits foot etc...  say prayers before I get in my car... write prayers on my body when i go places  When will it end? I'm so tired...
    1ItalianLady 1ItalianLady 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I hate sex 😒😳 especially

    after being sexually abused
    NoLoveInMe NoLoveInMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 16

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    No, I've never been in combat.

    Usually that's what people ask me when I say something about me having PTSD. I was recently attacked in my house, being choked into unconsciousness twice. I was drunk, and could not remember a whole lot. It's been over a month, and i still have nightmares, and my anxiety is so...
    JustSymone JustSymone 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 8

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    Why oh ******* why!? Wasn't it enough to go

    through all that? Wasn't it enough to be affraid everyday, for years? Wasn't it enough to have to hide it all? Wasn't it enough? Appearently not! I was diagnosed a while back and have been suffering from it for years. I denied it at first. Said it didn't get to me anymore. I had...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    My psychiatrist has told me that

    before i go to bed i should think of a relaxing place, well as thought of a happy place before i went to happy place but during the gist of it itturned into a nightmare basically, Turned from a picturesque scene of snow capped mountains to an intersection where I had my car...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 11

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    Because of my past, I keep having negative

    reactions to things that should be good and happy. I am in a polyamory type of relationship with two people, and I love them both. But when they kiss and they are away from me I remember when my ex would cheat on me even though I was in the next room listening to them kiss...
    phantomwings phantomwings 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    You made me afraid of everything.

    everything. I can't even work or go to school without being afraid. I can't even go to class because of how emotionally unstable I am after I see you on campus. it triggers it. everything triggers the memories the flashbacks. everyday. I push people tht care about me away. I...
    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 2 Responses Nov 21

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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 56 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I tried all kinds of treatments

    for PTSD... I would isolate myself from people in order to avoid being triggered, sought out counseling numerous times which could only help so much until I discovered EMDR. It took 2 years and I made so much progress... then I needed a break, but went back again after a couple...
    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 13

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    When I was 16 I was abducted.

    The was held for a little over an hour and terrorized by being told what was going to happen to me. I was actually able to escape before any of that happened but it has haunted me since. I have a lot of irrational fears, I don't like to be left alone at night, scared to be in...
    abigailc abigailc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    Battle Scars

    I have PTSD. It doesn't control me anymore. It may wake me up rudely at night several times a week. But not as severely as once before. I have had some horrific experiences. Seen unspeakable things. But for the most part it has made me stronger. When I first came home I was an...
    Ssgsmith77 Ssgsmith77 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    I have struggled for months now.

    Months of therapy, months of dragging up things that are better left alone. Talking about him, and what he did to me. I feel fine sometimes, and other days i know im going insane. I want to be locked away from everyone near to me so i can't hurt them anymore. I dont want my...
    TooYoungforThis19 TooYoungforThis19 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    Amy1MM Amy1MM 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    I was raped by my ex three years ago

    and I thought I was pregnant but I wasn't but no matter what I would've kept it because I don't believe in killing the soul but I've been on break what sex since that day onetried to have sex again but not the first person that catches my eye they have to be worth it and I need...
    icyveins89 icyveins89 22-25, F Dec 9

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    It's really hard to begin a new life seeking

    positivity and happiness when I have flash backs and triggers thanks to my past. Hopefully with time and consistent counseling the pain will slowly dissipate but until then my brain is a mess.
    alliemamabear alliemamabear 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 28

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    well yes and no. I have PTSS

    which is supposedly less severe than PTSD. If it is less severe then I can't imagine what people with PTSD go through every day/week/year. Makes me feel all the more for our vets.
    ES1497 ES1497 18-21 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I have nightmares every night

    because of my abusive childhood. Many times, I'm afraid of going to sleep at night, for dear of waking up in terror. I wish they would go away.
    iwuvmusic iwuvmusic 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    June is PTSD awareness month

    and June 27, 2014 is PTSD awareness day. More people need to understand what ptsd is and it's effects on others.
    myrandomthoughts101 myrandomthoughts101 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

    Lovely. I was only 16 when I was attacked and sexually assaulted at school by an ex boyfriend. I remember every detail of that day. For months afterwards, I cried. I slept in my mom's bed when I did sleep. I stopped eating, my grades fell and everyone at school knew me as...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4

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    Art alexakis is playing at the roxy in l.

    a. Tomorrow night for his solo tour. So stoked. Everclear is one of those bands that got me through some sh*t. Hoping I can get myself to be okay enough to leave my house. I just get so anxious and scared to be around people and of the wrong people feeding off of my energy when I...
    causticaxiom causticaxiom 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    Actually, C-PTSD. Does anyone else here have

    it? The "C" stands for complex, meaning my issues don't stem from a single event (i.e. an attack, short period of war) but rather from multiple years of recurring trauma in my childhood. I grew up in a very toxic environment and most of the time from before I was 11 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 8

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    My Guilt Feelings

    Sometimes when I hear or read things about guilt if I do not run from it right away I start to think about what I may have done to people and children in Vietnam. I actually made napalm to be dropped on the enemy, I know it saved a lot of American lives and when it exploded the...
    Pmacphoto Pmacphoto 66-70, M 3 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    Dear mom. I hope you can see it,

    one day. I hope you can see all the scars I'm wearing. All the hurt I have experienced. All the pain and anger I'm feeling. All these things I can't get a hold of because I don't know how too keep living my life. I don't want to kill my self... I have to many to live for - so I...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...