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    My Boyfriend Killed Himself In Front Of Me.

    I just joined this group, so I'm not sure what it's really all about... I guess  this is the part where I share my story, so here goes... Two years ago when i was 16, my boyfriend shot himself in front of me. We had been dating on/off for about two and a half years. We were...
    jayk09 jayk09 18-21, F 57 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    Everytime I see my stepfather,

    I always clench my jaw because there is so much I want to say to him... but I don't because I know him. He will never admit fault for anything... There are even days where I'd fantasize about him provoking me one more time so I can show him a piece of my mind... But it doesn't...
    VortexEmitter VortexEmitter 26-30, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    i have ptsd and bpd and bipolar.

    i have been alcohol free for 2 1/4 years. last friday, my husband and i had a fight. or first one abd apparently the last. i blame him for ask the pressure he has put me under. He hasn't held a job for more than six months in over five years. there is no way i can work for...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 1 Response May 9

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    I was attacked by a client last August.

    I was a foster provider for adults with developmental disabilities. This actually spanned a period of the long days and nights of physical abuse against me and terrorizing me. It finally ended with 3 police officers attacking the client and hospitalized them. I am still...
    normil normil 36-40, F 3 Responses May 9

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    I Need Help Tonight!

    MY wife went to sleep hours ago, when she did I joined her....As I sleeped I was dreaming of cars and women I guess like most men. In this dream I heard a bang like a gun shoot..When I looked at the red head that was thereit wasn't her but a solider and he was...
    longgun longgun 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Actually, C-PTSD. Does anyone else here have

    it? The "C" stands for complex, meaning my issues don't stem from a single event (i.e. an attack, short period of war) but rather from multiple years of recurring trauma in my childhood. I grew up in a very toxic environment and most of the time from before I was 11 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    "So Go On, Infect Me. Go On And Scare Me To Death. I'll Be The Victim; You'll Be The Voice In My Head."

    . She spoke of doorknobs once, but I don't remember what she said. I don't remember, was there horror? Was it so chilling, that the blood left their faces? So pallid and grey. Don't touch them, erase their smiles from your mind. You know they'll leave you here, eat you here...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    More people need to talk about PTSD

    when they have it. I tried for so long to "keep it together". Then at work one day I was making tea for me and my friend when I just started crying uncontrollably. She sat me down and I told her everything. She cuddled me and said she wished I'd told her sooner so she could help...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 5

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    Info On Ptsd & Did

    What is PTSD?   Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that a person may develop after experiencing or witnessing an extreme, overwhelming traumatic event during which they felt intense fear, helplessness, or horror. The dominant features of...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2010

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    When I was 13 years old,

    I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite family member. It was January 24, 2011, and I was up at the farm for Christmas; the cousins were supposed to be coming up from...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    About Ptsd

    I have studied a lot about this, being a scientifically minded person, since I was diagnosed in my 20s. If you have questions, please feel free to ask me, and I promise, what I don't know, I won't make up :) There are some clear indicators, also physical reasons why those with...
    simplygirl simplygirl 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    Ugg! A friend posted this.

    ..I was in tears! http://biblicalgenderroles.com/2015/05/16/is-a-husband-selfish-for-having-sex-with-his-wife-when-she-is-not-the-mood/ Thank fully hubby says that guy is a clown!
    teadiva teadiva 31-35, F 1 Response May 19

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters

    son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid within myself and hid my past. I am taking an enormous step today writing my story down. The only people that knew we're my therapist and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    They say that you often repeat what you are

    used to. This cage is all I know.  Why is it that it seems like such a risk to leave it?  The only one who is now keeping me here is myself just like a bird in a gilded cage....with the door wide open.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_TvaJulWx0
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    The Accident

    My name is Cat and I am currently fifteen years old. I remember this event more vividly than probably any day of my life. This is the story of the traumatic event that caused my PTSD. The date was November 11, 2006. I was nine years old at the time and there was no school for me...
    Catemily7797 Catemily7797 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    School And Dating Does It

    i was abused at school for many years as a kids by many women..then again i had to deal with abuse and racism in the dating world from 2009 to 2012.im just here to vent..i was a normal guy,but after dating for so many years and having to deal with all those lies and let downs...
    irongrenadier irongrenadier 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8, 2012

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    I was told I have PTSD around August 2014,

    along with depression and anxiety... The doctor/counselor actually told me it's a pretty severe case of all 3. It stems from my childhood, along with me being a firefighter. I guess you can still say I don't believe this is true. A part of me does... but the other part is...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 30

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    Funny Thing They Are, Those Brains of Ours

    the brain is a mysterious thing, it is.  considering the technology developed in the last 100 yrs we still know very little about it. i was in an accident in feb '04.  i developed a 'condition' due to the injury.  one of the side affects being memory loss. ...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 29, 2007

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    I keep biting my tounge.

    .. Because it's in my cheek
    1chuck2 1chuck2 31-35, M May 3

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    I have it ...bad..from.

    child abuse...my mom beat me relentlessly..called me names dumb stupid and an idiot. she also made me do inhumane things...I currently feel alone people trigger me all the time. I'm.quiet helpful but people like to.pick and pick ...I've been suicidal..but prayer got me through.my...
    imissdnce imissdnce 31-35, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I have PTSD as a result of abuse.

    I have been able to survive most of the effects of it. Here's how shows I watch, if it has something in the show that makes me want to close my eyes or run to the other room, my example: Law and Order special victims, I spit on your grave, burning beds. These types I don't...
    hopeful72 hopeful72 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I tried all kinds of treatments

    for PTSD... I would isolate myself from people in order to avoid being triggered, sought out counseling numerous times which could only help so much until I discovered EMDR. It took 2 years and I made so much progress... then I needed a break, but went back again after a couple...
    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    A Soldier Returns Home, Honest Account Of Living With Ptsd. Psychology Homework July 2010

    17July2010 By Charles Scott In this weeks homework assignment I was tasked with the objective to explain a behavior that would be considered strange, unusual and/or abnormal. I have chosen to recall my own experiences and attempt to explain the cause and effects of Post...
    autonomous138 autonomous138 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    When I was 6 years old I was molested by an

    older cousin for the first time. This would go on quite frequently for another 7 years. When it finally stopped I decided it would be best to try and burry the entire experience and have since told no one. The worst part of the entire situation is that our families are very...
    ch24 ch24 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    Visual Aid

    I created this to give people some idea what it feels like for me to be slammed with PTSD.
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 16, 2009

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    I had a flashback last night at the end of a

    DBT group. Excellent timing. We were doing mindfulness with flowers. A particular spray of them caught my eye and it felt as though someone had thrown a bucket of icewater over my head. Pain in my chest and pelvic floor. The buds of these flowers make a popping sound when you...
    evawar evawar 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    1chuck2 1chuck2 31-35, M 1 Response May 3

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    i just went off on my husband again

    but dang i am so tired of the constant struggle to keep everyone in this house cohesive. i mean i just got out of the hospital last week and i an not supposed to drive. my daughter drive me to my doctors appoint then her car over heated on the way home. DRAMA ENSUED. Son-in-law...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I have ptsd my step father abused me

    for 7 years when I was younger. I have worked my whole life to not let it bring me down.
    sherinwv75 sherinwv75 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 21

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    I live in Az., 8 months ago I got off all

    prescription drugs and obtained a Medical Marijuana and to tell the truth it is a life saver....It helps soooo much w/ mt PTSD...and no more phsyc drugs to get thru the days
    deroH deroH 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I know what its like,

    you're not alone. I've been in therapy for about 8 years now, and I still suffer. I, too, was abused by my family, friends, and even an entire town. Children can be cruel to each other, but when the victim is blamed for their own suffering, that kind of thing is hard to...
    notyourfuckdoll notyourfuckdoll 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    Being a victim of domestic abuse it took years

    for the nightmares to start to diminish. Yes, men too can be victims. Even 15 years later things as simple as a movie or television scene of domestic violence causes instant flashbacks and uncontrollable fear in my mind.
    luv2fish luv2fish 56-60, M 5 Responses Apr 21

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    I'm feeling scared and anxious

    so much that I am not sleeping well. I keep having nightmares about my family.
    Ohsingmysoul Ohsingmysoul 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 21

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    I think you can have PTSD

    when you grow up in an abusive household
    wewishonstars wewishonstars 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 21

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    So what did attempting suicide get me last

    night? Nowhere... My parents don't understand one bit that goes through my head every single day, they are pissed off at me and kicked me out of the house.. Idk why I even keep trying to do it, it never works for me... I tried killing myself 3 times in my life.. once with a...
    Firefighter2893 Firefighter2893 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    I was in an accident a few months back

    and it didnt really affect me until recently. I basically have 10 sec nightmares on constant replay. Im driving, car out of nowhere and the impact. i wake up a split second get my breathing under control and try to sleep. it happens on a loop luckily not every day of the week...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    Admitting

    I have been in denial for many years that I have PTSD. I have been in and out of the military since 1985. Uncle Sam seems to think that Ski is needed when the country is in trouble. I have been in 8 different combat zones in my life in the military. I have seen and had to do so...
    skiinkaf skiinkaf 41-45, M 8 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    I had PTSD. I watched my aunt die right in

    front of me and there was nothing I could do. She was like a sister to me and we almost looked like ones too. I wouldn't speak for weeks but now I can completely live with the fact that she isn't here with me anymore (well in person). I will always love her.
    Secrets27 Secrets27 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    PTSD has ruined my life.

    I refuse to take medication because of the dependency aspect. And it seems no amount of therapy is making a dent. It's been 4 months and I cry everyday as if it happened yesterday. I'm terrified to move on with my life and unable to cope with the things that have happened to me...
    SC27 SC27 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I'm just getting out of an abusive marriage of

    almost seven years. This last incident I came closer to death then he has ever brought me. I took our two kids and left soon as I was released from the hospital.It was the hardest decision of my life but I know the right one. I have tried to avoid all emotions connected with him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 2

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    my question is can you love someone

    that has ptsd and can they love you back
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 9

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    I'm a survivor of sexually,

    physically,mentally abused by family,police,ex. I posted ''I'm looking for survivor like me ''couple of times here or another groups in a year.. I'm appriciate for kindness. But i personally i don't want to share my very personal sensitve memory,trouma for EVERYONE. I choose...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 21

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    My flashbacks are really bad tonight

    and I'm scared i'll lose touch with reality completely. There's nothing I want more than to feel safe...
    kayelani kayelani 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 3 Responses May 16

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    I will live with this forever due to abusive

    relationships. One relationship in particular is my son's father. He was in special forces. He is the love of my life and I will always be there for him, but he has mind ****** me so bad.
    maemae208 maemae208 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 9

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    So I have this problem where

    whenever I have one bad experience associated with a certain object or place or even person, my natural instinct tells me to avoid those things altogether. A lot of them aren't even that bad. For example, when I was 4 years old, I was at the airport going to fly to Nashville...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 6 Responses Apr 3

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